Victorious me, Glory to Him.

wah.. its been a long time since i write with blogger draft. Looks so different now and i can't even recognize it. haha!

Today, indeed is a Victorious day of mine.
Like i promised, The vision that i have, i will fulfill it.

Yes, i am left with one semester OFFICIALLY. and my holiday STARTS OFFICIALLY for one month!

whats my plan for hol? nah... i plan to look for job( if there's ppl wanna hire me), complete my accounts, ber-mate-mate with my bed, cumbu-cumbuan with my sheepig, and.. travelling, meet up with friends.

yeah, I have a trip in 2 week's time with my oldies. haha. not my parents, but my old friends. see? life is really good when God takes over it.

This day, is a great testimony of my life. It proves again God's love and power. YEs, faith of a mustard seed is able to move a mountain.

I've done it? have u?

I am glad that i don't need to wake up from stress 2mr morning. yeah.. i can go all out and enjoy my day.

God is good. God is great! Awesome, and Power.


haha.. my mum almost cried. owh well, she prayed in her own way for me every single day... i knw. =) Anyhow, God is the main character, without Him, there's no achievement in me.

Next, God pleases complete my puzzle...  Continue to guide me Lord.


Tonight, wedding dinner... AGAIN! i have so many wedding dinner this month.... and next week, there's another one..


just came back from a great jog.. actually, i am sick of jogging alone, but i still wanna jog. For my health's sake, cuz i dont wanna live like a potato this whole holiday. (i can forsee that i'll be eating, eating and eating). Gosh, i am kinda sick of food... hahahha!!!


okay, time to bath, play some barbie doll dress up, draw some lines, pat some powder, and squeeze some concealer. Gotto get ready for tonight's dinner. ha.ha.ha.
(sad.. everyone is getting married.. and me? i'm still Y.F.S) LOL!


"seek and you shall find, ask and you shall receive"
have you presented your request to God? You knw that God loves you? =)


ciao. =)


mum and dad, love you both. =)

Beautiful Sunday encounter.

it’s a beautiful sunday. Let me just write what I feel.. for those who need some  motivation, yeah. its for u.

Honestly, I still wake up from stress every single day ever since 16november. I was relieved that it was over, but I couldn't accept the fact that I did screw up one of the paper. That’s the paper which I sat, and I don’t feel victorious at all. I don’t have confidence when I stepped out from the hall.

I was and desperate for God’s miracle, and I know He hears my cry and my prayers. I try not to lean on my understanding and yet, those bad visions just come into my mind, and I got a bad feeling.

I never stopped my desperate prayers though. Like I said, I think God will really laugh at my prayers, but I proclaim His words. “Seek, and you shall find, ask and you shall receive”

 

Today, while I was on my way to FGA, Got a ooomph for Hillsongs, so I tuned into my pendrive.

I got a message from Him through them, Hillsongs. of all songs, I started paying attention to God’s words. yeah.. God is able. and this is the song that was playing and I had a deep thought on the voices I heard while I was singing this song with my Spirit. I started to feel peace. HE spoke.

 

some preface about what happened… : during my finals period, there were a few songs that worked in my life, yeap, my exam life. “Stronger”, “amazing grace”.  God spoke to me everytime I hear these songs, that is why my youtube playlist is full of Gospel.

 

So, He spoke to me in the car. I really got peace.

then,I reached FGA. =)  as the worship session starts, as usual.. He is always in the house, and in the atmosphere. 

Guess what? The worship team started singing “God is able”. My heart was so overwhelmed. A voice came to my head, “I hear you, I’m with you eventhough you can’t see me”. yes, these came to my mind.

I was really really overwhelmed. gave thanks to Him and I got His message.

*deep in me.. there’s not coincidence, only power of God.*

So, the power of the song reigns over me… I feel so touch because God is so intact in my heart. He always tells me about his presence through songs. I always wonder, maybe this is the way for me communicate with Him besides prayers. and this is the way He talks to me too..

 

The next song.. oh my God.. I slain immediately right after the worship lead singer started singing “Stronger”. The first thing I said “God, You are awesome.. Thank You for assuring that You are always with me.”

This time, the encounter was different, as I sing praise.. memories flashes into my head, all about how close He was in me during exam period, and He is still with me.. NOW. I am still overwhelmed by His love while I am typing this post. I can’t wait to share God’s love to the readers, yeah.. I really hope I can give hope through my post, to those who are sad, deprived from love.. and I want them to knw, When people hate you for certain reason, God loves you with no reason.

I was really overwhelmed while I was giving praise. No one could understand my feeling, because everyone has a different encounter.

you knw, everytime when I listen to “stronger” while I was studying, it touches my heart and gives me courage to move on, and its sort of like a God’s shield for me. I feel safe and protected through songs, because He always speaks to me through it.

My heart was so peaceful and all I wanna do is glorify Him, because.. this week its different compared to the FGA sessions that I had previous weeks. Previous weeks, He showed me his presence through another song… which appeared (means sung by the worship team) 3 weeks in a row! (and yeah, that was the song that touches me before the first week where the worship team sang).

This week.. He gave me visions of the exams, saying that He was there for me, and He is still here for me. Never left, and He knows what I’m going through. Sort of a peaceful message ask me do not be anxious, because He is stronger.

 

Now next.. My heart bursts out in tears when the worship team started singing “Amazing Grace”.

Tears of joy filled my eyes, and my heart.

God, you are awesome! He showed me this week and reassured me that He is listening to me and he’s been always there. I’m so touched by His unending love. really really touched.

 

Praise God.

 

I wanna be victorious and Lord, You hear me. I will never stop my desperate prayers and I know that you hear me Lord.

 

Today, it’s the starting of a victorious week. I knw.. I’m gonna leave everything to Him. “If we succeed, praise Him, If we fail, Praise Him”

 

God has an adventurous plan for all of us.

 

Praise god.

 

 

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I have always love to talk to Aunt Carol, si fatt’s mum. Probably she’s a young mum with a liberal opinion, and she’s a liberal mum too. not to say my mum is not good, and hello!! my mum is my bestest mum on earth! haha…

Aunt Carol always give positive energy to people.. and today, She transferred her positive energy to me. haha.. as she always does. =)

She made me think hard. and I knw, if I’ve decided to do something, nothing will stop me if its God’s will.

So, I think I have to think hard on it, gotto plan well. Because its my life, my future.

I don’t mind giving up my career for something exciting, and something better. Of course, it is better if we have somebody to share it with. (not partner, but someone..) hehe.

Am I ready to accept the fact that I have to start from scratch? I guess I should’ve got myself a Business degree instead of a Rph degree.  *wink* nah, too late. I’m at the end of the studying path, and at the start of my life now.

2 years, will I be able to earn enuf to survive for at least 6 months?

God, complete the puzzles in my mind. Once completed, Let Your will be done.

 

and.. si fatt once told me when we were waiting for our bus in AT.. She told me that I am overly independent.

“Overly” is a strong word, because I only consider myself as “Too independent”. not “overly” haha.

I guess, that is one of my good points, and it can be a fatal weakness huh?

owh, what she told me that day still got me thinking till now.

Sometimes, I really enjoy my life as YFS (young, free, single), sometimes I also hope to have someone to share my everything.. haha, I got too much love to give! haha.

I don’t mind giving it a shot. yeah.. if someone special appeared, that can change my life.

 

=)

 

I know that wherever I go, I can make it, I can survive. All I need is just adaptation. yeah… Charles DArwin theory of NAtural Selection.

Chinese (most) are survivals. Its in their blood. agree? so does Indians, because they are marginalized. That’s why they keen to survive and we can’t blame them for their ego. They are striving hard to get a reputation in the society.

I really don’t wanna be a slave for money. But thinking back, wherever I work, I’m still a slave for $$, depends on how I manage my mind. =)

There are too many things to consider, especially when u’re older, and when commitments come.

 

I plan to give myself 10 years.. but can I really survive that long out of the box? There’s a will, there’s a way?

 

Sometimes, I really doubt my choice in working in Sg last year. because.. it showed me how small Malaysia is, and how unorganized Malaysia is. This thinking got amplified by the Aussie’s experience. I love Malaysia, but politics seem to made it dirty.

 

Owh well.. back to me, my plan.

I ask for guidance from my Lord, Guide me through God, for you knw what’s best for me, and all of us.

 

In His name, we say…. A.M.E.N.

just publish

one word: Jaded

but I don’t feel empty.

 

I’m desperate. Yes I am.

Desperate in a lot of ways, wanting the mustard seed of faith to plant in me. Yet, its so hard.. yeah, it is hard.

 

anyway, the best has yet to come.

To Him. cheers, to Him.

Praise Him.

Today, had a great sunday despite of studying.

 

I was reading on cute cute’s blog. Owh well.. he is really an emo guy. How a person looked like from the outside is so much different that what the person may feel in the inside. I actually feel kinda heartbroken to see him that way. Probably the whole world seems like abandoning him, but… I still feel that each and everyone of us deserves a space in this world, and in each and everyone’s heart.

He is lonely.

yeah.. he is.

 

He reminds me of what Joshua told me. Well, he surprised me that day. He gave me one of his best teachings and conversation ever.. which I didn’t expect. I guess God is really good and awesome, He never fails to stop sending angels into my life.

Cute Cute reminded me of Joshua’s words. “You knw it yourself, when you knw Him, you don’t feel lonely anymore.. You know this feeling, especially before you sleep. You knw that you are not lonely and he is always with you.. I’m sure you understand your life before and after having Jesus in your life. right?”

I was again surprised by this statement. Yeah, I don’t feel lonely anymore, not even one second. Though I have great friends, like Si fatt, sor por,Ah beng,  my old buddies and old friends who really treasure me, I still feel that its God who sent them into my life for a reason. I might not see it now, but I I will. Nah, as long as we all appreciate each other now.

He gave me example of a pastor, went to a village where animism is a their religion, they worship the creator, in forms of trees, rock, and some other forms, and they do their offering (fishes) to the Creator before they feast. Well, Josh told me that Pastor said :" it is education which plays a big part. You knw, they make offerings, so does We, christians do. so, what pastor did was educating them about Offerings and God in a way that they understand.”

 

then Josh Told me.. “ same goes to you and your parents. You will need to get attached and engaged to them, because to honour parents is to honor God. You get engage more with them, let them see the changes in you, and most importantly Jesus’s love.”

and he continued “ one thing you also need to understand, you don’t try to change them, but respect them.”

yeah, I replied: “ I did.. I respect them as how I want them to respect me. The funny thing is, as time goes, my relationship with my parents got closer. Somehow, God moves me and changed me in this aspect. It comes automatically… without me even realizing.”

 

Josh continued: “ Yeah, you knw in City Harvest, for us.. One of the 10 commandments is to honour your Parents, and obey them. Whatever they ask you to do, you obey. Eventhough if they ask you to take the joss stick and pray, you can do it, but its wrong if you do it willingnessly or freely deep in your heart. anyway.. if it is obeying your parents, its not wrong. Because Jesus is love, He wants us to show love instead of disharmony. If disobeying them makes you and your family fall into disharmony, what’s the point? that’s not the purpose of Jesus, He wants us to Love our family, and everyone. If creating commotion is the ultimate outcome, then it is not right. So, its ok to obey them in this sense. Don’t you worry.. Jesus wants us to show love, not dissatisfaction. You imagine, if because of a joss stick and your whole family started quarreling, that’s not what God wants us to do.” 

He continues: “ by obeying them, you are actually showing them love, which is also Jesus’s love. Let them knw this friend of yours, Its not wrong though, Jesus is like a new friend, what is wrong of getting know a new friend? right? through engaging with them, you get to show them how this friend has really changed your life. BUT… you must be ready to confront them…. someday…”

 

I replied.. “yeah.. I am, and I’m waiting for the right time…”

 

So, my car approaches Space that time. It was already almost 3 am. Josh words got me thinking until now.

 

It was really funny when he first ask “hey, I wanna ask you something which I wanted to ask long ago..”

of course.. me myself knw what it is deep within. So, he asked.

“I replied him, yeah.. you are supposed to ask me this qs long time ago… hahaha”

 

so, that was where our conversation started.

 

I guess… Like I always give thanks to God, He has been sending angels into my life, to remind me of how Great is His love.

 

Today in FGA, I was touched again. HE, again… spoke to me of His existence and how HE persistently and consistently stayed with me. Seriously, that song appeared 3 weeks in a row and why that song? haha.. long story, gotto go back to that week before my first paper. Kinda lazy to repeat again. but I think I do mention in somewhere in my last post.. (I think).

So, God is great! He works in his miraculous way. I think He sent Josh that day, to untangled something which I’ve always worried about. now, with HIM, as my witness, my partner-in-crime, my saviour, my Lord, I have no worries at all.. (it doesn’t mean that I will do joss stick willingly), but He opened up my heart again and deepens my love towards my parents. Josh taught me how to deal with it, which I strongly believe its God’s words. He used Josh to speak to me.

How wonderful our God is. 

 

Everytime when I flash back on my Christian walk, I feel so touched and so overwhelmed by Him. You knw, one thing that normal people have lack of, is… They wont be understanding on how I feel all these years, How God has changed me, How God has make a difference in my life.. and.. How God has filled me to the extend that He has become my best friend whom is close and sooo intact with the tissue of my heart. God made us with His image, and I pray that I will be more like Him each day.

Though I started rough,its Salvation, which made me understand that we’re all born righteous. Once you have Salvation, it doesn’t matter who you were previously, you are the brand new you, and we have a new triumph and victory in Christ.

I’m so grateful that in the name of Holy Spirit, I am baptized eventhough I’m not baptized by water. Glory to God. =) (this is something that no one knows.. and I guess when it is on blog, it’s considered opened.haha.)  ok, this is another shocking story. well, share it next time, on how I got the ability. =)

 

Its funny that Josh got me thinking of the “feeling lonely” thingy before sleep. I compared…. my life before and after. Conclusion : I’ve never been whole before, and it feels like God has filled the missing parts and empty spaces in my heart, and he created more spaces for sincere people like my pals to stay in it.

I pray for a bigger heart. =)

 

Praise the Lord.

Another day. =)

So, I had a bad quality sleep.

brain was exhausted.

and.. me, was exhausted physically.

well, I’m still doing fine, standing strong,like the Soldier of Light. Fighting!

 

My daily life is so overwhelmed. Everytime when I’m in distress, or when I’m stretched., My angels never fails to remind me about who He is, He was, and He will be. Where to find this kind of friend?

My coussie in IMU had done with her 4 days marathon exam!Its her Birthday today, meaningful right?

I got my own plans tonight, so…. perhaps, no IMU today? haha! been studying and meeting her up for dinner last 2 weeks.. occasionally. Love hanging with her, I miss her hugging me to sleep actually. hahaha! yeah, she’s like my own sister, and she will not do this to her biological sister.  owh… I love all my cousies! seriously. So, I guess I’m meeting her again..soon? =)

 

First, let me just give Him a big testimony. Proverbs 3:4-6 has been my strength. and He never fails to show me that He is always with me with this verse. Seriously… Power of coincidence?  how many coincidence you can have in Life? right? Glory to God and the highest. =)

 

I’m taking a few hours of time off, then I’ll start my battle again.

Its funny that there wasn’t a single rain for the past 2 days.. and it was freaking hot. I was just mumbling “God.. please rain…” and.. it did.

Coincidence? haha.. the POWER OF COINCIDENCE.

 

LAst Sunday, I went to FGA, the verse appear and the worship song appeared again!! the same as the previous week when I was so despair and stressed.. That was when I was so touched! He told me : I am with you.

I slained.

He proves HIS existence that particular time. Immediately, my fears are gone. I was able to be confident and endure whatever that comes.

the same thing happened last week. well, COINCIDENCE AGAIN?!

haha.. how many coincidence in life can you have? again?

 

Glory to Him.

 

Things are going well with me.. Next week is another whole new journey. So, With Him, lets walk this together.

 

Today, I feel good.

Despite thinking of what to eat for dinner, well.. screw it. Supper then. =)

 

ok, time to start my brain battle!

 

He is Love.

Blessed day. =)

Had a contented day. Took a long break from studies.

Went for a satisfied jog this morning, then went for Juwita Suwito and Busco music rally in the afternoon. had dinner with my mates, then now I’m back.

I dislike being asked “Why do u have time to do all these despite of exams, all these and that?”

ya, my housemate. He hasn’t been sleeping well these 2 days.. and.. I dunno why. He is stressed. I think.

but.. today… I wanna clarify and repent.

to me, there’s so much other things that are more important than studies. Yes, definitely.. I learnt to see this after a 6 months working life in Sg. =) and to me, study.. yeah, its my responsibility. but, relaxation, God, and self growth are important as well.

I am thankful that I get to segregate my time well.. yeah, I am serious about fun, and serious about God. Like I said, Things are really different as I live my day with God’s impulse. It feels whole lot of different.

and.. personally.. I don’t think I need anyone to help me understand the stress from exam. yeah, I have stress, but… time management is pretty important. 

I had a great day… Praying, relaxing, having fun with a bunch of long lost friends in FGA. and.. Juwita was Awesome! Busco was.. average to me.

I wanna repent.. I am being wreckless today. careless summore.. I promise YOU that I wont do this again.

 

2mr… Sunday. The day that I love the most. Going to the House of God is something that is awesome! To listen to words, prayers… it just gives me a boost to boost up the rest of my week. God is good, awesome, power and faithful. Today, Thank God for the safety. =)

 

I have my own schedule to follow, but its alterable and it depends on HIM. yeah.. alterations are done by Him. I just live with it basically.

Some of you may wonder, what is God’s Impulse? at the other part of your conscious mind, isnt it you who are the one controlling.. God plays a part in which sense?

owh well.. this is a super tough question for a non-believer to understand.

Very simple, When you have a relationship with someone, you love that person, and you plan things together.. but often at times, impromptu plans popped up and you just gotto follow. and.. often, impromptu plans are awesome and fulfilling, and most of it are joy and happiness. Am I right?

this analogy goes to God. God is my partner in crime. haha!! HE is my partner, my life, and we plan things together, at His will. and often, things that happened at HIS will are Joy and happiness. Faith is a powerful weapon that IMPOSSIBLE will become POSSIBLE.

This is a deep relationship.. and I want it to be deeper and deeper.

I always believe that.. before we can love others, we have to start loving God and love ourselves. God created us as HIS image, and we inherit his characteristics, which is loving. Day by day, we will have His mindset and things will change. By Him first loved us, that is why we learn to love.

Truly I tell u, I don’t understand all these 2 years ago. Now, things are different. I am born righteous. and… When I surrender and leave everything to Him, things turns out the way He wants it to be, and.. the outcome is MUCH BETTER than the original one which u’ve expected if u carry out with your OWN PLAN. ITs SO MUCH BETTER! Most of the times, its sort of IMPOSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE if the pulse is driven by our own plan.

I personally experienced it. =)

 

So, today…. when my housemate said “ wah…so many things to study and you have time for all this?!”

me: “ haha… yeah. I don’t care.. erm, not that I don’t care, but why not? its just a day off.”

Probably my result will not be that good.. but, I have faith in God. Because, I knw. what I do is not from my own impulse.. its from HIm.

my original plan for today was: stay home, mug, and mug. and mug. not going out at all…

but it turned out.. I reach home at around 7 plus pm. (I went out at 730am) . ya, whole day.

 

I didn’t regret living my day like that. And ..AND AND!!! I wanna PRAISE GOD!! why? I prayed for a sunny day!! and today… SUNNY DAY after 10am! (owh, I still jogged under the drizzle of the rain, but I enjoyed!! hehe… cuz.. I was doing something I like with someone I care.)

So, THANK GOD FOR THE SUNNY DAY! I was deprived from Vitamin D.. and.. I got my supply today! hahaha!

 

ok, time to stop.

gotto start a bit of writing notes before I hit the sack. Gotto sleep early, waking up early to study, and hop to FGA at 710am. =P

 

My days are really miracles.. with Him. =)

 

This faith is…. overwhelming.

 

Praise God for a great day!

Sorry for my carelessness today. Thank you for blessing me a safe trip home. =)

Blessed Friday. blessed me.

okay, its Friday. I feel like writing.

After all the boredom I get from HPM. yeah, I was studying and the particular subject was so dry until I dragged myself through in writing my own notes. gah~!

Well, now, I’m over HPM and left with memorization. Currently updating my notes on Satelite Pharmacy. Love this a lot. tht’s why my progress is faster, plus, it’s so lively compared to HPM. hehe…. owh, I like “wet” stuff. hahaha! nah, its just an expression of myself that “I don’t like dry subjects”

LOL!

Dellynn is growing well.. besides having malnutrition, I have Mal-Vit-D also. I’m so deprived of sunlight. Everytime I go out or hang out, it is at night. mmm… not forgetting all the McD nights, or I should call it Midnights with my beloved Monkey. I’ve been studying with her frequently in McD. The best part is.. I get to talk while I’m sleepy! hahaha!!! so, she did her subject, I did mine. We don’t interfere. =)

 

Back to me, I wanna put the attention to me, myself.

I realize a gradual change in me. Well, I cant tell what is it, but my centre of attention has changed. Spiritually. yeah, for whatever that has changed in me are spiritually indifference between the old me and the ME now.

sounds confusing? yeah… haha.

 

I don’t knw. Its like… ok, for instance, I am so attached to Hillsongs, Chris Tomline, etc etc… and I can listen to them NON STOP for a ZILLION TIMES. I just wanna sing and sing and sing, praise and praise and praise.

Pop and nice songs doesn’t really attract me anymore. I dunno since when.

Last week, an Elder spoke, he said “If you are filled with Holy Spirit, all you do is just sing praise, u will start singing… well, I dunno whether it works for others, but it works in me.”

 

It striked back to me. yeah, the statement above applies to me. I seriously dunno since when and I realized on that day only.

 

Owh well, I’m overwhelmed each and every single day.

You knw, to live with God’s impulse everyday is just so amazing. This is a personal testimony that no one will understand. Seriously, it feels so awesome. Because, You wont knw what God wants you to do the next minute.

I was so stressed on the week before my first paper. yeah, freaking stressed that I can just break down anytime. then I clicked on this talk from a Sg’s Reverend. Another thing that strikes me after hearing what he says… He asked, “what is Sin?” “Sin is doing things at your own impulse and your own way.”

Well, I realized and awakened immediately. That is why my unending stress is there.

then, angels in my life tells me.. “Kuen, take a break, no point studying like that if you are not in peace, take some time off, read on scriptures, pray.. “

I did,  and.. immediately.. I seriously feel different. I felt renewed. and .. I managed to continue my study with a calm heart. You wont trust me if I say that my heart was POUNDING EFFING fast since the moment I woke up! because of stress! and I prayed that morning, it just don’t go away. Owh, and one thing about prayer is… If you pray with your whole heart, He listens. I admit that my prayer on that particular morning is just… “touch and go”.

but after the break prayer, I was filled with joy. So, my day continued… till midnight. Everything went smoothly.

 

I committed my days, hours, minutes. Living by his impulse. And… days can end so perfectly beautiful.

I had the most wonderful and peaceful sleep yesterday. owh, I prayed for it also. Normally, my sleep is 5 hours MAX, yesterday, it was a miracle, I get 7 hours.

 

I knw, for non-believers, it will be a bit hard for you to accept what I just wrote. but.. God is faithful, God is good! God is awesome!

HE saved my dear frm a car accident.

He saved me from disaster.

Life with God is awesome..

 

so, I wanna say that.. my priority in life has changed.. I think I am leaving things to God, where me, on the other side, preparing my field, so that God can send the rain.

 

Our God is a loving God.

 

Owh well, back to my life again, I’m having dinner with my family tonight. Such a blessing that they keep the routine on looking for me for dinner on either Fri night or Sat night if I’m here in Cheras. =) parents, they are awesome… The next loving person after Him. Ya, I finally understand God created Parents for us so that we can Love God through loving our parents. Most of the times, they will have some “indifference” in thinking, but they are at a good heart to protect us, to be with us, make sure that we are safe, happy, and well nurtured. Just like how God wants their child to be. right?

 

How’s my exam? well, the last paper was a brain drain. Thank God I did my study well.and Thank God for my angels, if it weren’t them, I wouldn’t have done it.

I’m blessed.

 

Today, it’s a Friday. =)

Any plans? well, mine definitely…. erm.. I don’t knw, I’ll know it later. haha..

 

The most enjoying semester ever. 4th year is fun. stressed and fun.

 

I ask for prayers from all of u. =)

 

Ciao, back to study. Its time. =)

guilt from abandoning.

Looks like I’m missing out a lot in the blogging world. Owh yeah, 4th year has done me so much good and stress. I really have abandoned my blog since…… dunno when.

haha..

anyway, I’m striving my best now. 2mr is my next paper.

Summary of what I’ve been through. Hospital attachment was crazy, yet very enjoyable, that is the time I try all the good food. HAHA.

Dislike it because I need to wake up at 5am everyday, and sleep at 2-3am everyday too.

Afterall, it was the most fun moment in my life.

So, here I am now, finals.

what I’ve done? I’m living each and every single day with God’s impulse, not mine. *trying*

I guess, without prayers, I would’ve broken down long long time ago.

Well, in the midst of exam, I still get to relax, meet up with friends, take 5 for meals.. hang out a while.

This Saturday, I’ll be gg for the Juwita Suwito and Busco mini music rally. Erm, I cant wait actually, because Juwita Suwito is such a honey! and I really love her voice! =)

Time flies. Half a year Gone.

 

Owh well, I’m going to update and recap about my life THIS YEAR soon. Why? because this year is definitely MY YEAR. A year which I am really really satisfied with. I live contentedly each and every single day.. seriously, NO REGRET!

 

There are so much more things in life which is more important that what we can see. I comprehend this sentence very well, but it seriosuly took me SHITTY EXPERIENCE to UNDERSTAND this phrase. haha.

Life is awesome.

 

And.. one thing I realize, my priority in Life has changed.

wanna know more about it? stay tune for my recap.

 

I’m rolling off now.

continue with my books. =)

 

take care peeps.

 

Ps: wanted to reply RAchel The Ngiam Pumpkin on her blog, but I seriously got no time. “Old Folks are human too… yah, u are gonna be one someday. If u are afraid of them, means u’re afraid of urself.” HAHA! nah, probably you need time to accept. Cheers!

 

Ciao!

 

Thanks to God that He has been my source of strength, and inspiration. =)

exam

exam stress, but enjoying it.=)

Randm

Discussion......

Real steel tonight!;)

very short update

Life has treated me good. Well, I'm having fun so far. In love with Pharmacy Clerkship. Loved all the talkings, counselling, laughings....

Thank God for everything. =)


Me, I will continue enjoy my student life. It is nearing the end now. Well, no time to waste! haha!!

Baking day

I guess baking reminds me of Dispensing and Compounding. So much fun.

More to come though!!! Cake is my next product! Hehe...

Well, bck to my notes.. Gah~ what a holiday.... Mmm...... Lol.

Thursday scribes.

its so scary how a schizophrenic will be. yeah, kinda blessed to be a healthy, whole individual.

Today, it was my Patient Counselling session in BM. Well, it didn’t turn out that bad, well at least I passed the counselling. haha. Its been years since I used BM to speak, and I totally suck to the max.

I was very tired yesterday. Basically I didn’t spend much time prepare for my counseling. cuz.. my body was aching, and it is still aching now.

Woke up with stress this morning. Sigh…I hate this feeling. Well.. now, at least I feel better. I knw, action is the only thing which can fight what I feel. =)

 

ok, I feel like napping now. because I’m really really tired.

I feel so proud of myself today cuz… I was configuring my house router, and I had no single idea about it untill I worked in Singapore. mmm….. the knowledge helped me a lot. haha.. feel so happy.

At least, victorious. yeah.. Victorious. I am proud.. the moment when the “no network access” turns to “Internet access”. I was freaking thrilled. I did it.

 

Short update: I got one week of unfree raya break. gotto get my arse down to the table at home to study. Mmm.. life as a student. So much of it. haha… can’t complain, cuz student life is still THE BEST!

Ciao peeps. napping soon! cuz I wont be sleeping early though. Gotto settle my assignment! =P

quick scribe.

I’m so saturated and lazy till I don’t feel like doing anything. Feels like a rebound syndrome from the busy life. Gosh…..

Busy is the word, its always the word.

How do I feel? I feel… sometimes I’ feel jaded, sometimes I feel great. But most of the time, my fire isnt fade. I am still fighting, still running on my pace.

Next week…. is the end of one chapter, another chapter of MORE BUSY life is coming up after RAYA. WEll, am I ready? haha….

I miss writing out my feelings so much. YEt I don’t have time to do it.

This week, its my last week of PBL. yeah… next week will be a lil free from reports, so I hope I can live my week better. =) at least… breath.

Today isnt a day for me to chill, but I am really really jaded and saturated. Slacked the whole day, only completed half of my target. Mmm.. means my weekend is gonna be ugly. but.. I don’t care.

I’m gonna sleep early today. owh.. did I just say it? yeah, I’m gonna do so. 2mr 8am class… till 3pm. if I didn’t sleep, I’ll be dozing off in class, again. ha!

 

So far, my past 6 weeks since I started lecture has been a fast paced one. yeah… my head got spinning around, disorientated to time and space. Almost got alzheimer.

 

I cannot NOT GO BACK this weekend. sigh…..

 

need to get my things done by next week. What a suffering moment…. gosh.

 

anyway, when SAturday comes… it’l be fun!!! =P

 

Dellynn is going to sleep early today. so, ciao lar!

 

owh, almost forgot that I have to sync my tutorial into my pokkie. hahaha!!

 

till then!

a little update from me. :)

How I wish I have time to go back to blogging life.

Well, life has been busy for me.

I don’t wanna remind myself how' is the flow of my day… cuz every week.. the same thing happens. this week is a bit different, I reckon that it will be a bit productive though. hahaha!

Things happened, shit happens.

Well, every week, the only distinctive day is.. Monday and Friday. Every Monday, my week starts.. then, the next thing I knw is.. “owh.. its friday already!”

 

yeah, time really passed by damn fast with PBL on Tues and Weds.

Last Thursday, I went to Nursing Home though. It’s a totally different feeling compared to the time tht I went when I was in NS. this time, I went as a pharmacist student. LAst time, I went as a community worker in community service module.

Kinda sad to see the old folks bed ridden, cant walk, cant talk… it saddens me to my bones.

 

Anyhow, I got a patient, who is partially immobile, but conscious. So.. lucky me. =)

that was after a few times of attempting to talk to other patients.. cuz I really really have no more choices at last, then Ms. Lyna approved this patient for me. Thank God for her!

Thinking about reports, I have to go to Library 2mr afternoon to get my reports printed out.. sigh…

 

Mum asked me whether can I cope with studies. Well, I can, and I am still coping. And do mind me, my study is difficult not because I have hard time switching from working to studying, but its because of the modules itself. This year is totally different that lower years!!! owh gosh….

So, don’t put sympathy on me again on switching from working life to study life! I’ve worked enough and its time to pursue my dream! hahaha!

 

Current update… Mm.. Well, I have never cursed ppl so much in my life before untill the past 2 months. owh.. long story. prefer not to say it.

The rest.. mm.. I’m doing fine. Despite of sleep deprivation, I still get to enjoy some laughters, some free time just to pamper myself, or to release stress.. so that I can keep moving under gunfire. =)

 

Time is gonna tell me whether I’m doing fine onot… hahaha!

 

These few weeks, my days are contented.. very very contented. Not regret of living my life, not regretting on sleep deprivation. Not regret of everything that I’ve done. because.. they are all meaningful to my life. =)

Life is getting tougher, u knw? its like as u grow older, the weigh of the shoulder gets heavier. I guess that’s called “responsibility”

Each and everyone of us is responsible of our own life, our own direction, our own future. You draw it, cuz you hold it.

am I right?

 

Me, I have greater things to achieve, but I believe that if it God’s will, I can achieve it. Me, on the other hand, will try my best to do it… no matter what. =)

 

To me, nothing’s wrong in failing. I failed so many times and only through failures, I learnt. =)

 

In my eyes, the road that I’m gonna take is becoming more challenging, and at this age of my life, I am so keen to fight and work for materials in my life. YES! who doesn’t? at the age of 20s? cuz.. this is just the beginning of everything!!! Life is short, u only have 3 more quarter of life left!

That’s why, instead of.. work, money, work, money, and die…  I wanna work and earn an exciting life. I’m gonna try all challenges in me! APEC! Overseas! bla bla bla… These are all good memories that I would wanna keep! hehehe… owh, I am gonna go through al these tests in the future,, most probably. =)

 

My trip in Australia has changed a bit of me…

yeah, at least it comes to my realization that .. I am a very independent girl who can do anything on my own.  but.. I need God, and I need friends, + Family in my life!!! hahahaha!

so, not totally lonely at all though. =)

Well, they are the main thing that keep me moving till now. =)

 

Its an eye opener to me, Australia is an eye opener to me. I wouldn’t have became what I am now without the trip. =)

And… my job in SG made me grow.

and I never regret of doing all the things that I’ve done in SG, and all the ppl I met! without them, I might not be able to survive there. We all hold a symbiosis relationship though. hehe…

and .. I loved what I was doing in SG. NEver thought I will love it, but in the end, I love the job… =)

 

This week, my PBL triggers are GERD+anxiety and CHF.  Heavy topics… but I knw I can do it!

 

I’m tired now.. I shall adjourn? haha.. yea I should.

 

good night peeps! cuz I start to dream with my eyes half open now. =)

no updates…

I love you sista. =)

 

long time since I’ve blogged.

 

I am on my track , running fast.

I’m tired.. really tired.

 

 

I promise I’ll update more….

A short update

How nice I can see everyone everyday?! Huh?
I feel a bit better today.
My uncle brought back thymol gargle for me,and guess what?I gargle 30ml and then I realize 'dilute one part with 3 parts of water'. 'do not swallow the solution'

Shiat...I did not dilute it and I did swallow a bit due to poor control!hahaha! I was like, 'screw it la, already gargle without dilution and swallowed a bit.. Won't die la!' worse still,I drank water after gargle,which made me swallow even more thymol gargle indirectly!haha! Then I went to sleep!

Miraculously,I woke up with my throat feeling quite good! No more inflammation!! Unlike yesterday morning when I woke up,I feel like I'm gonna lose my voice. With my throat bengkak!!! Still,I feel Heaty this morning. I still need to take care of myself so that it won't get worse.
By the way,I drank coconut during supper yesterday!

Today,I'm gonna drink tonnes of water!haha!

I still feel like isolating myself though. I need sleep! Seriously need sleep!
See if I am able to hold on till next Sunday!ha!

Pumpkin!! Fetch me on Monday??!!

My day was sucky yesterday, got a stupid customer whom ruins my day. Anyway,I've learnt a lesson!
Today will be good!!! Yeah!!!!

I wanna sleep whole day if possible....sigh.....

A lot has been going on in my workplace. Anyway,I'm over it in a week's time!hahaha!! Just that I will miss my colleagues here... We practically fought together for sales everyday.

Time flies huh!? Now,it's time for me to proceed to another journey. This 4 months is a great lesson and expensive for me. Knowing Raine, Ivan, John,Candy, Wilson my Lao da, Dan, Wayne,Sunny, Harnes, Sia Chun Wei.. And the kiddos, Benjamin and Daphne! I'm gonna miss all of them!! Not gonna miss my boss.haha!
Thank God for them!

Ok,time to work! Ciao!!!!!

Loves,
DEllynn Ah Kuen.

Hidden away

For the first day,I feel like plugging my ear phone for the whole day, to cut me off from all the noises. Erm..probably because I'm not feeling that well. So,I'll still try my best in my work!

I believe that my illness will go away very soon!=) being positive here! One more week to liberty. I'm happy that this life is over soon. Means it marks my one month long break. Away from my country... Away from the place I once knew.

I still believe that there's a reason for everything. I have to give up on something I really wanted for something more important. Yeah, it doesn't feel good though. Anyway,life goes on. I'm okay if I don't think and talk about it.=(

Life here is marking an end. Is it really the end? Or the beginning? I see it as a new start. New life ahead. Like I mentioned before,I would not come bck to my life now. I would never have a chance to work here as a sales assistant or selling CCTV anymore. I enjoyed my freaking life here though. I start to miss my buddies here but I know life goes on.

This 4 months trip here made me realize a lot of things. One thing I know, I can do whatever I want if I have the determination. And... His mercy.

One more week left for me. I will definitely enjoy it before I leave this life. The end of a journey marks a beginning of another journey. I think my Life Book will be a contented one!

My throat is not feeling that good. Gosh.....

And my hearing sense is still in a mono world. I still refuse to unplug my ear phone. It feels so good to have a peace of mind. Gah... This is the first time I feel this way!

'please don't keep your heart hidden away ...'

The voice that was sung by an angel to my head. Perhaps, tht's the message.
=)

Time's up for me to work.

Write more if I feel like it!

Ciao.

Easter...i'm at work.=)

Ms Dellynn Lim Ah Kuen is very exhausted. Still at work, closed a few deals and I am mentally and physically exhausted.

Today is Easter!I'm so happy!though it's not possible for me to attend the prayers and celebration today ,I am still happy bcos it's Easter! Owh,I had a bad one last year...yeap,some family problem. The problem still exists,but all I can do is just keep it to myself.=)

I had a great day yesterday, it was my off day! Went out for lunch with uncle Yeoh and Aunty Jane! They are like my parents here. So we went out for duck meal!wow,it was fantastic! I enjoyed it very much! And I ate a lot! Haha!
Right after lunch, they brought me to Tun Aminah for tea time. Lol! Tea time right after lunch!ha! The kuih-muih was fantastic! Thereafter,I met Uncle Chen!we had a great chat there! According to Uncle Yeoh,Uncle Chen wouldnt have talked to me the way he talked to me yesterday if he doesn't like me! Haha!! I was like:'OKAY....'. Cuz I was just being myself. Hehe.

Went bck home right after that as Uncle Yeoh still needs to coach. I slept with kakak,we napped together la. (sounds so obscene) ha!

Called my mum before I went for dinner. As usual la,she was happy to heat from me! Same as me! My mum is an angel to me. And she is going get a complementary cake to celebrate my bday...sweat...=_='. It's FOC....haha!

Went out for dinner with my uncle! He brought me to a restaurant which serves good food! As I've posted on FB,San Lou mee fen was the best! And the fish soup!! I love my dinner too!

Ah kuen is A person who enjoys food a lot!hee... Tht's why I'm blessed tht my off day is just once a week!ha!

Talked to muh pumpkin before i sleep. As usual la,I was so excited to talk to her! I hope I didn't bore her with my grandmother stories la!hehe....

Going bck on 16may! I can't wait to start study!!!!


I can't wait to smell klang's air Wei!!! Though the air back there is a little unhealthy...=p

I can't wait to see everyone!!!


Ok la,pen off k! I don't Like poking on my poddie... It gives me muscle lethargy....lol!


Ciao! Continue working!

eeee…. happy day.

haha…. ‘im so happy to see my RAchel Ngiam Pumpkin update her blog. I guess she’ll expect hearing my voice tonight.=)

Being kinda emo due to sickness huh? but still have a clear mind on how many stuffs I owe her… LOL!

I miss her that much, yes.. tht much.

*showing 1cm of gap with my thumb and second finger* =)

 

I am tired, but happy at the same time. It is a holy week therefore it’s a happy week.

I will pray for my siblings because they will be having finals next week. Mmm…. too bad, the boy of mine is not coming back till july. His exam ends on 3rd May.. and… HE IS NOT CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR! sobs…

My Girl… I hope I get to see her a day before my birthday! I got so many things to do with her yet so little time! yeah, I’mma jack-ass… haha! I miss my beautiful voice!! and… our K-sing session!!  (btw, I tot u found my substitution?? haha! see! told ya! I will never get substituted! for I am so deeply carved in your heart and I’m irreplaceable! Muahahahaha)

happy for that for a million times, I am right! HA!

Its not the gifts that matters. Its not the money and value that matters, what matters most is to have someone close to heart to just sit and listening to each other in silence.

Like every women has, Bra is the fittest stuff a girl can have! ooi! muh BRA! hahaha!

eh eh… get the CAMERA! no need to think too much! the rest, leave it to 28th July! hahaha!

 

I’m now paying my debts and earning back the money I paid!

 

owh yeah, I got so much to tell my pumpkin! hehe…. I think I will be a distraction to her during her study break. =P

Well, its almost 11am. going out……with AUNTY JANE and UnCLE YEOH for lunch!!! muahahahaha! both of them are like my third parents after my aunt yoong and uncle Tan.

 

Time to go off and wait for the king and queen to come!

 

Pumpkin… shopping for facial and eye bag masks is a must when we meet!

Love u babe!

 

my stupid bro, all the best in exams! love you lots bodoh! =P

 

ciao!

Sunday,not a sabbath.

So,another new day huh?

I had a great off day yesterday,glad that I slept till 12pm and had great lunch plus dinner.

Sometimes I just don't understand why people can interpret things differently, they tend to live in their own world and refuse any helping hands reached out to them. This kind if life is saddening huh?ya,this kind of people just don't wanna face the truth and situation. I have no comments if they wanna continue to live in the dark, thinking that no one understand them and no one cares for them. I pass no comments at the moment,just hope that they will find peace within them. If this continues,they'll live in suffering and sadness.
Ignorant is definitely not a bliss to this kind of people.
However,it's their life,it's up to them how they wanna live it. Helping hands has been offered,turned down,and what's worse is...stubbornness!

Anyway,life is to be enjoyed without guilt.

Personally,I'm being happy for who I am. Though I knw currently,they will accept me as who I am yet,I will hold on and be who I am.

It's a Sunday,Sunday is always a sabbath. Haha...but in my case,it's not.






Friends are having exams,all I can do is just to pray for them and wish them all the best! I don't believe in luck because it's hardwork which determines everything. Right?luck is just 1%. Haha!

I pray for a peaceful Sunday and and peaceful weeks ahead!

I can't wait for everything to end...

Lol. Listening to 'waiting for the end' by Linkin Park. So,I'm waiting for the end to come,wish that I have strength to stand.....


How's everyone in klang???doing fine??? I miss all of u so much!!all the aunties,brothers, and sisters!!and my friends!!!

I'll be back very very soon! Will be a short trip back home!! After that,I'll be on marathon again!haha!

My Lord,hold my heart.


Short post though! I miss talking with my pumpkin and pamelo. Both of u!!tk care!


Gotto go! Work... Ciao peeps!

Here withou you

So here I am,sitting,blogging with my poddie.

I am counting days,well... I tell myself not to count days but...my eyes are glued to the calendar unconsciously.

I dunno what am i doing.sigh..

Anyway,I promise myself to give in my best!!! I can't wait to start my classes!hehe...well.I can't wait to do something I love! For now,I am happy for what I have. So far,besides my personal problems,I am doing fine.

Life as a nobody is so good. I can't imagine my life as a VIP somebody who deals with life and death in the future.

So I say,life is not to be wasted . I am glad that I took a step out of my comfort zone, although I am scared,now I knw tht I can do anything I want,I can definitely achieve everything! Just the matter of time.

I'm listening to 'Here without You' by 3 Doors Down, I love this song a lot. Reminds me of good memories.

Frankly,I miss singing a lot. Singing reminds mr of my ambition.haha! Once in standard 3,I was bored of the same ambitions year by year..teacher,doctors,gardener (yeah,gardener!!haha).. So I decided to do something different tht year. When I was called in front to the teacher's front desk,she asked me what's my ambition, I said 'singer!' her eyes popped out,still rmber I was in Pui Ying school,Mrs Fan was my class teacher, she stared at me and said 'u??singer??' I was so innocent,I nodded and said 'yes!'

Hahaha!!

Those were the days!!, well..I think my form teacher popped her eyes out because I don't look like I can sing.haha! Cuz I was fat and chubby that time,and I don't have any talents in me...haha! Erm,if I get to see Mrs Fan again,I will sing infront of her!!! Though I am not a singer now,but I would like to sing to her...cuz I got a 'not bad' voice!!lol! Probably i will sing a 'thank you' song to her... FYI,I sing badly...ha!

It's true tht it is hard to imagine me being a singer when I was young cuz I was not a spotlight in class. Even now, I prefer not to be a spotlight.

How I wish I can attend the Gala Night on 14th May. Anyhow, I shall think of performing next year,hahaha!

Thanks to my poddie that I can blog anywhere now. I still cannot live without blogging!

Continue listening to 'here without you'.. Cha bor's Favourite-mavourite song! It became mine now.

It gets harder but it won't take away my love and passion.

Klang!I'm coming! soon!!!!!!!!!!!


Pray for me....k??

Sick of it.

I am tired. Very tired. Physically and mentally...sigh...

My cousin bro confirmed dropped out from uni, cousin Sis tells lies and we all still dun understand her..

I wanna take a break from what I'm doing.haha..yeah,can't wait for my D day.

Went to a talk to get my cousie's registration done. Went for great lunch,great tea time,great dinner!

I'm tired due to lack of sleep.....

For my health's sake, I need to go. For my spiritual health's sake,I have to go off .


Feels so dull though.

Week by week,time flies. I just can't wait for the month to end! 20 more days till end of this month and I'm getting what I want!

Ppl take things for granted.

Here,no matter how good u have tried, it's still not good enough..and I'm starting to feel sick of it. If I hold on any longer,no one will recognize me anymore. Somehow,I am experiencing and feeling the metamorphosis in me. I think I've changed to the worse...

I've been away for too long. Long enough to be disappeared from everyone's memory. I don't want tht to happen.

No one to hang out, talk, and socialize. Thank god for my family here though!

I'm keen to go away as soon as possible,from HELL SG.
I'm not running away,but study life is still the best.

I can't wait to live as a backpacker in Melbourne.hahaha!!!

Basically, I crapping a lot cuz I wanna talk. It's moody to work on Sunday! Which is my God's day and family day!

I am seriously sick of the so called military thingy here. I don't mind working silently.. It is getting more and more tense in me. However, there's a reason why god put me in this situation,I know. HE wants me to learn something invaluable from here,I know.


I miss my smile...haha.


I need to give out my best for as long as I am here! I can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I can!!

I need a fire burning spirit..and I need woods to keep it burning.

And..I need a long term eye bag treatment!!I swear I'm going to nap every single day after all ends!

Pray for me......

jaded!

Mixed feelings today.

I feel happy and miserable at the same time.

Miserable because I couldn’t make it to FIFI’s wedding.

HAppy cuz… I get to rest today and meet my family up!

 

I felt very very sorry these few days.

Firstly… to myself.

I start to lose the faith in what I’m doing. Every step I do, its fear. Yes, Action does cure fear.. sigh.. all I’m gonna do is to throw all the mirrors in me down.

Secondly, to my cousies.

My boy in UTAR PJ is doing extremely bad. Gonna drop out soon after his finals.

My gal in JB has this massive attitude problem which she hides it very well.

Yeap, I knw.. not my problem.. but they are my family. 

 

Thirdly, to Pumpkin.

her words meant a lot to me. When she says she’s disappointed, means she is.

YEah, its my fault. =( seriously, purely my fault.

Fourthly,to FIFI..

though she said she can forgive, she wont forget. I am so dead.

 

Fifthly, to myself again…

I did some “bad” things. I hacked, I steal…. and I shut down.

HAcked into my gal’s email, FB, and I steal the pswd, and I shut it down… permanently. I have no choice but to do that. FB is a killer tool to her… long story, can I not type? if u wanna knw, ask me face to face then! to me, her story is a horror story.

 

then my job…

Its giving me more stress than ever. BEcause I keep a “time bomb” beside me, and its mentally torturous to be aware of when the “Time Bomb” is gonna burst. MENTALLY TORTUROUS AND I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’M GOING CRAZEE!!!!!!!!

and I mean it…. once again!

plus the upcoming-next-PMS… I reckon that my pillow is gonna be wet by tears for the next 2 weeks.

 

can you understand my feeling?

 

I try to keep all these behind my head…. somehow, I need time.

 

Sometimes, I think that life is just so meaningless… especially when you are tied down by work and you have no time to enjoy AT ALL.

Okay, I don’t wanna pass down any negative energy to you guys. Rmber me as a cheerful, confident, optimistic girl.

 

Will I forget how to smile?

 

 

Gah, I’m so tired. I’m gonna sleep till I’m satisfied tonight! wake up later 2mr morning! I don’t give a damn if I’m late to work!

Tired.. but need to keep up.

Its so hard to endure each day… thinking of each day would be a crisis and I would “die” anytime or wounded everyday.

I’m getting tired.

More tired.

 

Each day, my threshold became lower and lower. I can barely do my stuff and I can barely open my eyes till 12am. I hate the fact that my routine is the same.. EVERYDAY!

When I was having classes, I said I have no life.

Now when I’m working, I understand what is NO LIFE.

 

No life – every morning wake up, bath, eat, travel to work, war at workplace, travel back from work, sleep.

No entertainment at all. This is no life.

 

Studying.. at least… chapters are different.. I have mutual understanding between me and the notes… friends.. hang out… gossips….

Things are really different.

 

I start to realize what I really like and what I really don’t like.

I start to realize that nothing is impossible if you give yourself a chance to try.

I realize that life is so much more than I have experienced before.

I realize that.. all people in my life is just a passer by.

I realize that… there is a lot more to pay for the sake of money.

I realize that.. besides working for the sake of money, when there’s no interest and MO, you wont succeed.

 

I grew. I learnt.

 

Looking back for the past few months. there one person who I credit all the fames for. Its God. Without Him, nothing is impossible.

then goes my family members…

my heart-attached pumpkin, and AL.. owh, forgotten him, my “don’t-wanna-let-me-go” Pamelo.

Without them, my strength is weaker than I have now.

Of course, self motivation is very important too.

 

Now, I am prepared for the obstacles that I will face when I start to work towards my AIM. ALthough I am tired and sick of working and travelling, I treasure the experience. Because, I knw.. after this, I will not come back to this stage of my life, working the job I am working now. AFter all, I will at a different level, and the next time I work, It will be as a licensed professional.

Owh, FYI, I did not dropped out from UNI. K!! haha!! a lot of ppl think that.

but.. this 6 months of life will be a good, painful, experience…

 

I’ve seen things I’ve never seen before. I’ve experience things which  are my firsts. I’ve came across different people and learn how to work with different people.

 

 

but.. I still knw.. LIFE is more than that. it’s a big word.

 

Time to go.

 

yeah, the routine. =)

 

 

I wonder what will I feel when the day comes?????

sinked.

great song from Sara Bareilles.

 

A little melancholy these few days. As what you can see from my FB. Acted inactive, just that I refuse to post any shout-outs.

I suck these few days. I just wish everything to be OVER soon!

 

Not good to spread unhappiness and anger early in the morning… so, I guess, listening to Sara Bareilles lets me sink down a while.

 

PRay for me.

New apps!!!!

So,I've just got this apps to update my blog...well,I still love blogging with my lappie...cuz it feels more 'real' with a key pad.

I wasn't feeling that good yesterday ..blasted my eardrums with Hillsongs to sleep... Hoping that today will be a good day.

I can't wait for Saturday,cuz it's my offday.well...let's just pray that things are peaceful til i leave...haha!!

Pray for everyone back in Malaysia!!!I miss you guys lots.... And I definitely miss studying....

Gotto go!!! I'll blog soon !!!!

updates on yesterday.

I was having a bad day, but it all turns good. WHy? it’s a lesson to me….

At that point of moment, I really feel like giving up, and as if the world is going to torn apart.

Well, now.. it’s a brand new day!

 

I was on a “chinese songs” mood yesterday. I’ve “violated” JJ Lin’s album, today will be Stephanie SUn. 2mr will be Fish Leong. The day after 2mr will be JAnice Vidal. HAHAHHA!

don’t ask me why… cuz its my mood. I feel like going to KTV again!!!!! its been so long since I’ve stepped into one. sigh……thanks to my “lack of time”.

 

I’ve learnt a lesson yesterday. VEry precious lesson…….. got scolded too… but never mind! I’ll learn! definitely I’ll learn!

 

I’m in love with his voice~!!! one of my favs in his album!

 

 

Smiling eyes, by JJ Lin.

 

This song reminds me of XiaoButa’s story. hahaha!!! her first love. She can finally smile again after breaking up with her first love. =)

exactly the same story in the lyrics. =)

 

I can’t get enough of JJ Lin’s voice!!!! hehehehehhe……..

 

okla, time to go off!!

 

P.S : don’t pass me wishlist… I’ll disappear by the time you see me. hahaha!! yeah, me myself will blackout by MAY. LOLs!!! eh, study baik baik la.. once in a lifetime, don’t waste time lar.. tsk tsk tsk…. money hard to earn wei…. LOLs!!!!!  by the way, so sudden lar… why wanna pass me wish list leh??? LOLs! I can’t get you mountains, I can’t get you sea.. I can only give you….. erm….. me?  I am all I have. hahahaha!

my achievement!

 

can you believe it???? I set up a CAr DVR Today as Demo!!! I’m so proud of! this is Omnikine, Car Digital Video Recorder. I’ve inserted a 320GB of SATA HDD and operate it. Connect it to a 7” TFT LCD screen, and connect to cameras and start recording. hahahaha!

 

erm, I have ZERO technical knowledge but I love playing with wires!!!! =P

Took 2hours to set it up I think, because I was using my sweet time to play with it and figuring how to deal with the wires, which one should the red wire be connected to and so as the black one.

Well, I’ve made it!!!!! =P

with the consultation from Uncle Jimmy! hahahah!!

 

I’ve learnt a lot, yesterday was a disaster as I was bullied by INDIAN customers! kanasai.. I really hate indians! BEcause they bargain and loves to say :”show me, show me” without buying. Damn.

I was being too nice lar… that’s why I need to develop some scolding skills to scold those stupid customers off!

Just today, I met a customer, damn weird! showed him some dome cameras demo and he said “well, the cameras look ugly…. do you have something nicer?”

I asked him back, with a smiley rude tune: “ how do you define BEAUTIFUL dome cameras?!?”

He was shut by me….

so, my manager took over my customer because he couldn’t stand how the customer treat me. Well, all of us “acted” in front of the customer!! and finally he went off.

CAn you imagine that he doesn’t even know why he wants to buy the camera?!?!?!? and all he said was.. “I buy it just for fun!!” WTH?!?!?!

LOLS, I met all kinds of people here, that’s why this is a precious experience for me. I will never regret of making this decision to work here. Though it was tough at first, it all pays. Hardwork, sweat, tears.. pay. =)

 

I’m tired…. took some time to blog. I was “warned” by Manager to sleep earlier. hahahahahah! I love the family-like working environment though! =P

 

PEn off.

pray before you sleep yeah! =P

 

Ciao!

 

P.S : wah.. wishllist?!?!? so sudden?!? ahahaha!!!

great morning to start with.

I’m so into blogging mood now!!!

well, I had a great off day yesterday!!!

let me summarize….

woke up in the morning, had breakfast together with Kakak, then granny and my fatty notty niece came, played… helped kakak cooked Gado-gado (my fav indon food), my aunt from KL came, went out with my cousie, we went to get a sip of Chendol without all the kids…came back, had durian, slept a while, dinner, then chatting session.

 

That’s the summary lar.

 

I have always loved my off day. Too bad, next Saturday, it will be a ALL-ALONE day because my aunt and family is going down to KL. ME? haha.. I’m still here! LOLS!

That’s why my off day next week is on Friday. Muahahhaha!!!

 

My bloggie has became so dull, I really wanna hire a technician to beautify my blog. LOLs! nah, I would do that if I have the time! Just that I have serious time constraint. hehe…

 

nothing particular to say actually, All I can say is.. Today definitely will be a great day!!!

I know it is impossible for me to have at least 28 posts per month, but at least I try to update something about myself.

I’ve read my Pumpkin’s bloggie yesterday.. I guess that she has already been living too long huh??? she wants to have kids, and get married soon d…. and settle down and live a slow, peaceful life with her SHawty… LOLs!!!!

I cannot deny that she is more mature than her age..(owh yeah, she looks old. ) but I hope she would be able to find a new exciting purpose to live for and be prepared for the unpredicted future. hehe… I’m like talking to old lady, and I feel like an old lady itself. HAHAHAHHA!!! nah, whatever her decision is, I will stand by her side always! and if she has weird weird thoughts, I will make sure I try my best to tie her straight without letting her bend astray. who asks her to me my beloved?!? huh?!? In short, she asks for it! (I’m trying to put the blame on her) hahaha!!!

Ok lar, its already 8am. Time to appear downstairs and disappear from my GrilFriend. Eeee… till I update again?

 

Pumpkin, you are one in a million to me. =P

 

My stupid Pamelo is in Borneo.. I wonder he’d won the competition? Gosh, I’m working in SG, he’s in BOrneo, Sabah, parents is Indonesia, JOgjakarta…  haha…. They are everywhere.

 

Keyboard off ya!

 

Ciao!

Finally, I blogged again! haha!

Looking at my posts per month.. from at least 28 posts per month to 5 to 6 posts per month!

 

GOSH!

 

YEah, I don’t have energy to blog. So, save the time to sleep…. haha!

 

I’ve been doing good. Improving day by day… getting happier because of the accompany that I have. ha!

too bad, all good things come to an end. Yeap.. its just a matter of time. =)

 

As a Malaysian, I’m proud that Malaysian are hardworking and they have the right attitude to work. Most of them are willing to learn. Well, I categorize myself as one of them.

Hardwork does pays. It applies to both work and studies.

The effort that you put is just worth… it might not be worth at the point of moment, but in long term, it’s definitely worth the time and worth the effort.

 

I’m happy because I’m away from the branch that I don’t like, but honest speaking, I feel comfortable working with my LAo Da. Mmm…. now, I’m given the other opportunity to learn from another great sales person, Ivan. I’ve learnt a lot from him. I’m a slow learner… and I’m glad that there’s someone here to pin point where is my weakness and how should I improve. This working experience is definitely a precious one for me!!!!!!!

NEver before, a person can come up to me, tell me where is my weak point, and teach me how to correct it. and the best part is, he is willing to concentrate on how to make use of my strong point to create sales and to compromise each other!! Like I say, Sales is not a SOLO thingy, its always a team. =)

 

I’m starting to love everything here. Adapting to my working environment well. =) So, before all good things come to an end, I will learn to treasure it and maximize my capacity to learn as much as possible.

 

I’ve learnt today, Learn to see others strong point instead of weak point. No matter how useless a person seems to you, he/she has their own unique side which made him/her special.

 

Today is a wonderful lesson to me. =)

I’m starting to keep my pace up the job. Its even more rewarding when my customers actually come back and rmbers my name. =) Well, all I can say is… this kind of satisfaction and challenge are something which I cannot get in Pharmacy line. =) Honestly, its totally different thing.

I’ve learnt how to operate CCTV, I’ve learnt how to do CAmera settings, I’ve learnt about many types of cameras, I’ve learnt about working with each other in a harmonious environment…. (exclude the boss thingy)… I’ve learnt how to set up DVR machines..

Its like a total new life here.

 

I love being who I am here. =) As a Malaysian, as a niece, as a Christian.

Probably my parents wouldn’t understand this, but the feeling of being accepted as who I am in my aunt’s place, my work place is so overwhelming!! To me, its not a barrier at all.

Miao Xiang Si did preached and talked about it. I’m so touched and somehow I wish my folks will understand and be here to listen to what Miao Xiang Si says. =) I knw, fate isn’t here for them to hear Miao Xiang Si preach. =)

Everything that happened has a reason. I always believe that.

Every single day, I’m touched by HIS love. Without HIM, I don’t think I can hold on till today. hahaha… lots of miracles happened to me. and I cannot afford to write it out one by one. So, let me keep it to myself LAH. hahahahaha!!!!

Again, I’m still a daughter, a part of family. Living in my aunt here showed me that there is no discriminations between different religion and beliefs.

I’m thankful for my aunt, for accepting me for who I am. I’m so grateful……

 

Okay! gotto go! gonna watch one episode of The MEntalist, and start watching my BLack Swan, Rapunzel!!! =) hehehhe….

 

 

Update soon!!!!!! 2mr is my off day! YAY!

 

 

I miss everyone in Klang. Seriously…… hugs and kisses ! =P

A bit of updates on my off day!!!!

WOW… WIndows messenger 2011 is so damn cool! even the window’s live writer 2011’s interface is so damn cool!!!!! so much better than the last version!

Well, I’m happy today because I get to see my niece!!! hahahahahahaha! she is very very extremely naughty.

Today is a bit special, I became an assistant to my cousie sis in the kitchen today. Basically, I think I can cook. ha!

Well, My off day is so contented though! I slept, I napped, I slept, I played, I snap.

                                    

she is naughty! but damn cute!

 

hahahah!

 

 

So, I spend my day with my grandparents, coussies, and niece!!! My day is simple, yet contented!!!!

Well, Things have changed, its not how it used to be. I don’t wanna blog about something tense, but just wanna blog about my life during my off day.

Woke up early, watched CSI episodes, slept a while, luch with my family, shopping with my family, cooked dinner with cousie, ate, and now… blogging.

haha!! that’s the summary lar…

glad to spend some quality time with them though, I’ve not met them for weeks as I’m working. So, this is a special day for me!!! =)

 

I’m still getting used to my working life. Erm… not easy to adapt, but I think I’ve done it.. almost 70%.

is it easy? nah, nothing is easy…=)

I’ve made some good friends here, and I’m glad that I have! hahahaha!!!! yet, they are from different age group. However, if I do leave, current place is the place I don’t wanna be back again. I’ll be back for my friends here, but not for other stuffs.

A levels in SG has been released yesterday. Glad that Raine did okay. I pray that she’ll achieve her dream no matter what. =) life is a long journey, it takes forever to walk. What we see now is just present, we should live our present wisely to form a better future. Past, take it as a lesson.

 

I am still worried about my dad though. His spondylitis seems no improvements as he complained of pain each day. T_T

I’d asked him not to go to work so soon. Hope he listens though.

 

I realized,a s time goes, I think differently. I dunno what is it… but today, I realized that I’m not the one I used to be, I’m better than the past me. =) I’ve done things that I don’t expect myself to do which I’m supposed to do. Its good stuff! and I’m glad that I’ve learnt it today.

To be more Christlike each day. hahaha!!!!!

I’m glad that my aunts show respect and acceptance in it. =)

 

2mr is Sunday, well… I got to go back to work 2mr. So, it means that I’m gonna hit the sack soon.

I’ve got my new babe!!! I’m so in love with it. but I’m still searching for extra Apple Earphone!! anyone has it?!?!?!?!?!??!

 

I’m in love with the Coconut prawns my cousie cooked just now. hahaha!!! Damn delicious!!!

loved the fish! cuz I marinated it!

loved the vege! cuz I chopped the garlic! LOLs!!!!

I’m doing good. Overall, I’m fine!!!

I just cant wait for my new baby!

 

hahahahahahahaha!!!

 

wanna expand my electronics family!

 

 

I start to miss JEslyn now…. gosh….

 

see? Jeslyn on the left, look at my stupid bro on the right in WHITE!

do they looked the same?!?!?!?!?

 

hahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

 

 

off I go!

tk care peeps!!!

Ps:no one can replace me in Singing session! no one can sing as good as I am. LOLs!!! Hao Lian! ha!

 

ciao peeps!

may the peace be with you

Today, its just one of those days… where time passed by, day passes by.

Sometimes, i think i’ve lost the reason to hang on, but sometimes, i would love to stay as long as possible.

Ironic huh? this is my life.

 

Although decisions has been made, guiltiness still emerges.

All these days, I’ve learnt how to really hold on and hang on without giving up. Probably i’ve done it in my studies before but working is a different feeling. Responsibilities are heavier. I need to perform in order to stay.

Like i said, the stress and demand are different. Well, i’m more thorough now.

I’m facing a beast everyday. Everyday is a big obstacle and challenge for me, i need to overcome everyday’s challenge. The “best” part is, everyday’s challenge will be different.

The only constant is… my super “XXXX” boss. that’s all. hahaha!!!

 

I start to see things from a different point of view. Sometimes, it comes to my senses where i’m not a kid anymore, I’m already 23, almost 24. I need to start planning and working my career.

I tell you, it feels scary to have nothing at this age.

especially Money, Properties, and… relationship. Well, i’m not that thirst for relationship, but i’m thirst for my career. The only relationship i’m thirst for is the relationship with God. that’s all.

The fear is scary. 24 with nothing.

 

With God’s grace, i will walk the path that i wanna walk. I do have a vision of what i want to do and achieve. Still, everything needs to be at the right moment, the right time for it to happen. HE plans, and guides.  =)

 

I’m like a spoiled brat who is isolated away from the world of the ppl i love. The only thing i can do is phone calls, updates. Most of the time, it gives me warmth to hear familiar voices, sometimes, it hits me down because it is such a pathetic way to knw details about a person. I knw, all these are temporary.

The good thing is, i dont feel lonely over here, because of my accompany and my family here. (though its my uncle and aunt, they are both loving and kind to me).

you knw, How damn guilty i feel for not being able to be with my mum when my dad was admitted? my mum can’t drive at night, yet she drove to hospital everyday after work just to be with my dad. That time, i really wish that i can send her instead of her driving.

but Thank God, my parents are understanding of this situation. Thank God my dad has no serious complications.

Every morning, when i sit in the bus, thoughts of these will come to my head.. “the routine starts… how long can i hold on to it? how does people stand travelling 1.5hours to 2 .5 hours to work and spend another 2hours to go back from work?”

“is this what i want? what’s the point for doing all these when i have to sacrifice so much just for the temporary luxury?”

nah, these are just some silly thoughts of mine. Well, I sometimes do feel demotivated. Believe it or not, God will motivate me in HIS wonderful way everyday. He never fails to do so every single day.

 

I am now working towards my dream which is to work and travel in these months. =) see? If its God’s will, miracles will happen.

Don’t put a question mark when God puts a period. =)

What is life?

Life has a much bigger definition than what’s in your mind now. We are too small and tiny to view the meaning of life. We won’t knw what is life until we die. At least, after we die, we knw that we’ve lived our life. =)

 

I’m living my life, contentedly, meaningfully. Though its tiring, I’m still holding on.

I’ve learnt to open up myself, see things differently. I’ve made lots of friends with different knowledge and experiences which are worth for me to learn.

 

What i can say in a nutshell, the life i am living now will be a legend in my LIFE BOOK. =) That’s the story i’ll tell my offsprings. =)

 

 

Appreciate everything that you have now. don’t leave regrets in your life.

 

me? i have no regrets in doing what i’m doing now.

 

:)

 

May the peace be with you.

very quick and short time on my girlfriend.

i have 10 mins before i am off to work.

 

Well, My oh my…. its been 11weeks. i have 11 more to go. I cant wait for everything to come, May!!! MAY!!! I cant wait for MAY! hahaha!!!!

What probed me to decide? I dunno, its just a thought. All of a sudden, i thought of the dates. Mmm….

So far, my job is good.I dunno, sometimes still fear, and stress, but i’m still overcoming it.

I’m getting tired physically when days passed. yeah, not easy, but yet, I’m going through this period, full of happiness. (trying to)

I have feeling to this song because Tenth North Avenue is just so professional that they actually sang out how i felt when i first being touched by Him. Without supports and approval, I was in fear, and sadness. In a nutshell, this song is sort of like a comfort to me, and a sum of my feelings.

enjoy, Tenth North Avenue-You Are More.

 

I’ve always loved their songs. Their worship songs are always sang from a different point of view.

 

Mmm, its been so long since i share songs in my post. haha… well, forgive me for my tired body. I can afford to surf the net but not blog every night when i reach home. =)

This is my life.. I gotto enjoy it before everything ends.

Gotto work hard for next sem, Beijing, Siam Reap! here i come!

 

I can’t wait for early May, i am getting a new baby!!! I still dunno which baby to adopt, and i dunno what name should i give yet.. pity me. hahahaha!!!!! Anyway, there will be a new family “member” coming soon!!!

curious??? wait till i get it ya! hehe….

 

ALright, 10mins has passed. Time to go, breakfast, then work!

 

Dad’s doing fine. It has been an emotional days. Thank GOD that my dad is healing and he is recovering.

 

Tk care everyone!!!

updates.

DAys are passing by.. very very fast.

I’ve decided a path for myself, I’m walking it.

 

Everyday has been the same routine, just that everyday is a new challenge for me. Somehow, i wonder, how can a person be so inconsiderate and don’t treat their family, daughter, son, and wife the way it’s supposed to be?

Life is so unpredictable, why not appreciate their presence?

I am just so upset on how things supposed to be are not in a position where it supposed to be.

I need a doctor to bring him back to life.

 

I’ve learnt a lot of things, got through a lot of things, which i dont think i would share with anyone again. BAsically, its not good to keep reminding myself of the pain i’ve been through.

right?

now,i’m doing my best, i’m doing my part. I’m growing each day. The only thing i fear is the unwillingness to leave the place when the time comes. Funny eh, how painful it is, yet how unwillingly for me to leave.

 

owh, I’m getting more tired each day. Seriously, working life is so much different. I think those who are my age who are still studying won’t understand much. However, i still say, “appreciate study life, its the best moment in one’s life”

My dark eyebag is getting worse each day. I don’t knw why, i have more sleeps compared to what i had during exams. yet…. my eye bag just grew darker.

=)

 

Kuen is never the same. Dellynn is never the same. I mean, i’m mentally more mature. I realize that i’ve learnt and grow, and i’ve proved to myself that i can still survive without my anchor. Well, just place the anchor to another shore, tht’s all!

Somesay i’m far sighted, yes, I am. BEcause I’m sick of doing the same thing all these while. Since i’m still young, i opt to step out of my comfort zone just to train myself up to be a tougher, and better person.

To earn money is never easy, it takes a lot to sacrifice.

But what i’ve learnt so far,  “put your whole heart in when you are doing a task, if you’ve started it, finish it beautifully.”

leave no regrets.

 

of course, one has to be responsible to his/her job.

 

God has been with me for the past month. So many miracles that i couldnt type it in words. Seriously, so many miracles has happened on me. From the first day till today…. I’ve never been abandoned. When i feel like giving up, HE gave me a direct msg not to give up. HE sent me my manager, who is like my elder brother, to guide me through all these, and to teach me what is it like to take responsibilities.

Well, I’m not a very responsible person, I’m scared of responsibilities. But now, I start to learn and take responsibilities of bigger things. Staffs, stuffs, sales… haha… a lot more.

Like i said, life is never the same.

all these that has happened will be a precious lesson and a precious memory to me.

trust me, I treasure each day more, as each day has a different challenge, a different story.

My prayers everyday is to have a satisfied, fruitful, and peaceful day. I’m doing my very best each day to improve myself. A lot of unexplained things happened, I would describe it as God’s grace, and mercy. I was and am never alone.

Life away from my family makes me realize that i can be independent on my own. Honest speaking, i don’t miss home that much, but i do miss my home’s food. =) probably, i feel like i’m home everyday. Thanks to my aunt and uncle.

 

Nothing ever changes. myself, my faith, me…  I might sound different, i am still me. Just that i’ve grown mentally.

Working life makes me realized that how overprotected my parents were. Yeah, they are very protective of me. However, this time, when i go back, it’ll never be the same again. =) They know that i can be on my own now. =) yeah, they realize it. haha.

 

Time flies, i dunno why it passes by so fast. It was so dreading slow last month. hahaha!!!!

 

by the way, i miss burgers. I dunno why. Have cravings for burgers…. especially the one in Penang, Post Burger! the best!

 

Pen off!

gonna sleep early today. Tired. yeah, my legs and eyes are tired.

 

Good night peeps!!!!!!!!!!

 

Bro, u made me jaw drop! you stupid! LOLs!!!

 

P.S: RAhell Ngiam, you are welcome again!! the prawns!!! i miss your noob expression!!!! hahaha!!

Another off day of mine.

My neck is stiff and pain.

Went to a meditation session with my family just now, well, i think i totally went to another stage of meditation---> SLEEP. hahaha!

It was a great session, and out of the 3 sessions of meditation, i slept for 2 sessions, and i had deja-vu. I dreamed of what the speaker speak, and when i woke up, he spoke EXACTLY what he speaks in my dream! ITs true!!!!

 

So, let me update some pieces of me.

I thank God for IVan, my manager. His presence made me grow into another person. I think without him, i wouldnt have go through the difficulties i have.

Wilson, my lao3 da4, has taught me lots of technical stuff! and i’m so damn interested in technical stuff! Well, i tried to learn up as much as possible!!!

Thanks to my freaking boss who made me stronger and has made my wisdom grow. Because, i’ve learnt today that i have to be compassionate to everyone, eventhough control freaks. When they appear, it will give us the chance to test our limits and test how compassionate we are, and gives us the chance to see the difference between both of us.

Raine Ang, this siu mui mui…. haha!! i’ve learnt a lot from her, and she’s just 19. Without her, my day will be so damn boring!!!! GAmbate!

Janice, a young lady who is with me ever since the first day i’m here. We’ll work to a better future! (i mean at work)

John, a person where Ivan claims that my characters are similar to him! HE is a nice guy, someone which i have so much to learn from besides the rest i’ve mentioned above. =)

Benjamin, big boss’s son. Totally different from his father. He has a good character, except for a slightly bad temper. A STAR i would say! he is a smart kiddo!

DAphne, Secondary school kid. Still a kiddo, anyhow, great to knw one more person!

Candy, boss’s wife, the nicest ppl on earth! I respect her patience! respect her woek attitude, respect her role as a wife, as a boss’s helper!

 

 

just heard a biggest joke of the year, UCSI Pharmacy faculty cancelled all classes to launch post graduate programme!

damn.. dean still as “SAMPAT” as ever.

 

 

my stomach aching now.. thanks to the SANTAN kakak cooked. =_=”

 

My eye bag is getting worse each day.

 

PPL! I miss you guys!!!

 

Lastly, I thank GOD for everything! without HIM, i wouldnt have go through HELL! cuz basically, everyday is a HELL for me.

 

Time to go off, will update soon!!!!!! probably on my next off day, which will be next Wednesday. =)

 

Ciao ppl! tk care!

CNY and Miracles. Thank you .

Its been such a long time since i've touched my blog. Yeah, those who knw me, they knw i'm busy. So, in short, I'm busy earning money.haha!!

Its the first day of CNY! Its my YEAR! Before i start packing my stuff, let me just blog a while.

I was back from SG (Sg=Singapore, not SUa GU, haha!) yesterday, Met my Sorpor! how i missed our outings though! Eventhough it was just both of us, i feel blessed to have her with me, spending the day with her. Erm, she is still as childish as ever. Good news! she is trying to stop and cease her "stomping" action!!! Well, Not sure whether she'll read this, but i am really happy to meet her and the rest of her family yesterday!!!!! SorPor!!! All the best in everything! i'll see u again real soon!!!
Thanks to her as she updated me with all the stuffs and all the happenings around those familiar faces! Another SorPor from Ayer TAwar, hahaha!!! Glad to hear about her though! =P
PS: i knw all about you eventhough i'm not there. HAHAHA!

So the next time i see them will probably be end of May. yeap! God knws!

This Chinese New year, It reminds me of Aunty Jane's words. Well, she is one of the influential person in my life. I feel blessed that i did not disobey or do whatsoever stuff that are against my parents. Erm, some ritual stuff, I have to follow, CNY, no one wants commotions and unhappiness.
Well, its hard to be the only one. yeah, THE ONLY ONE!
Datin asked me whether i have distant relatives who is of my footsteps, i had a deep thought of it, from my mum's side to my dad's side relative, they are NONE!

I'm happy for who i am.

Life in SG has opened my eyes to His glory. Every single sales that i've got, its His glory. U cant imagine how i struggled through. Not easy, its tough.

U wont understand how much i've suffered through and there are times that i wanna give up! but... Lord has never left me and yet he showed me that i shouldnt give up.

A few days ago, i was pissed by my boss,I was crying the whole night till i fell asleep, Yeah, was feeling stressed. i feel like giving up immediately. That night, tears are my accompany. Cried after work til i reach home, and slept with it. Msged AL, i broke down. The next morning, I had a simple prayer compared to other days. I wasnt fed up, just that i was jaded. So, i was on my earphone, not listening to worship songs but i was listening to ordinary pop (which i dont do it everyday cuz morning is HIS time. =) ). There's this guy who stood in front of me, i did not notice him. By the time i noticed him, i saw his printing on his shirt. The printing goes like this...

No matter what is going on,

Never Give up.

Develop the heart,
too much energy in your country is spent developing the mind instead of the heart.

Be compassionate,

not just to your friends,

but to everyone.

Be compassionate, 

Work for peace,

in your heart and in the world.

Work for peace,

and i say again,

never give up.

No matter what is happening,

No matter what is going on around you,

Never Give UP.

Believe it or not, i typed all the words in my phone's draft. By the time i finished copying the last word, The guy left to the SBS transit instead of CAuseway Link. Co-incidence? to some, maybe. but to me, its not.

I was amazed, from the moment i saw the printing.
I give thanks immediately.
By the way, my QT has changed from the toilet to my journey to work. I find it more comfortable with it, having QT while i am on my way to work. It somehow gives peace in me.

See, I was and am never alone. If it wasnt Him who carried me through, i wouldnt have lasted till now. That's why, a part of me wants to give up, but my inner voice asks me not to. Thanks to HIM.

I knw that this year is going to be a good one.

Just done with family prayers. I wasnt contributing to anything though. hahaha!!!

This Rabbit year, I wish all of you a prospoerous one.

My pumpkin, dun really knw since when u are a part of me, but i knw that my life has never been the same with you and your family around me.
You are one great sista of mine. I've always got you.
Thanks for being a part of me, and we both understand that we literally grew through a lot of things. =) Love you lots. I miss u every moment....

Thank God that He sent a bunch of great ppl in my life.  =)

I'll never give up... on anything. and YOU.


PErhaps, this is the first time i blogged about how tough life is in SG. =) trust me, this is not all... yet.

Anyhow, i'm gonna conquer it.

and... pray for me. =))


Have a blessed RAbbit year!!!!!!

Till then! will update soon!


# For YOU alone deserve all glory.#
Faithful..... you are, and i am.