PAss!!!! =)

First thing’s first, i get 80% for my JIVE EXAM. I’m happy!!! hahaha!!! ok la, DAtin was 86%.. I’m the second highest! LOLs!!!

I was kinda like in a “nub” mode today. I dun feel like studying.. maybe due to non-stop class from 930 to 5pm.. I feel kinda lazy and saturated though. =)

DAnce was the moment i enjoyed the most! =)

 

Had dinner with Sher, first time ever that we sat in BABA and talked for almost 1.5 hours. haha!! we gossip and talk…

I wanna thank her for “opening” up the issues and “opening” herself up to me. muahahaha!!! hello, there’s a price to pay for her “opening” k?!?!? I opened up myself! LOLs!!!

The conversation was a good one.  I finally opened up to her on what i opened up to Aeris only… yes, Christianity.

I knw what i want for long d. Lots of things happened.. and Christ answered my prayers.

I am praying that one day my parents will accept Christ in me. =) Now, I am still preparing myself on how to approach them. Owh GOD, bless me with the strength to really convince them.

Shereen Ang, You’re a good friend. =) Seriously feel glad to have someone who has the same frequency with me. She finally opens up the question that she wanna ask long time ago!!!! muahahaha!!!! I’m glad that u open it up and clarify it with me. There are lots more things that i really dunno how to say and describe. But one thing’s for sure, the relationship of me and HIM existed before I even know it. Thanks for all the tips and hints that u’ve given me! =)

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Today is KAyden’s second day of chemo. Still, i wanna pray for him. I want him to heal so badly. GOD, please heal him and let him see the joy of this world. If this is the test you’ve sent to him,GOD, plz guide him through.

Amen.

Kayden is one little angel sent from above to bring smile to the ppl around him. I am thankful to HIM that he is safe and happy when each day passed by. =)

 

I pray that KAyden will be safe each and every single day under God’s grace.  Just like i said, God is training him to be a fighter. HE is testing him to HIS love, and faithfulness. God be with Kayden, stand by him and his family along the way. Pain is no pain as YOU have already suffered everything via Dolorosa.

a-men.

 

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Somehow, what Sher said was right. Maybe i should expose my blog to them. =) haha!!! Still, the need of my own privacy is still there. I still want privacy. LOLs!!!!!

 

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Overall : Thank you DAtin Red, You are one lovely Siao Cha Bor of mine!!! Mmm… All the best in every single thing!!! *I’m still fantasizing how is ur future husband will be"* muahahahahah!!! Love ya! =) By the way, u’re a great partner for everything. =)

 

Here i share one master piece from ADAM LAMBERT. This is the song that he really sings.. and he sounded great. I like the beat of this song, and the melody. The tempo in the chorus is special!!

SOAKED- by Adam LAmbert.

 

I love the way he sings this song. =) I’m drown in his voice….. =P

 

 

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Activities!! here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

good day of mine. =)

Let me send my bday wish to Zi YUN.. glad to be part of the celebration gangs. hahah!

  

These are cool ppl!! =)

 

                         

this girl lagi cool… haha!

 

              

cool deco in FUN OK CAFE. haha!!! will go there once again though!! –=)

 

Happy bday ZY! =) God bless you in everything you do. =)

AH Kuen slept the whole day. Now, She can’t seem to concentrate.. She can feel that the weather turns colder and she doesnt have the urge to sleep yet as she had a very long nap today. In fact., she just woke up a few hours ago.

She is.. as usual chatting with her Pamelo. She doesnt knw why, messaging Pamelo has been a routine for her. She is not dependent. She just need someone to talk to and share things.

She had a great conversation with CAryn today. She does not realized that she has so much potential in understanding ppl and guiding others back to the right way. She does not realize that she has so much influence on other ppl. She was shocked that Caryn actually took ah Kuen’s words seriously. In fact, Kuen really made a deep impact on CAryn. She made CAryn’s confidence back, and pointed out the fact that running away is not the solution.

It’s a long conversation. Ah Kuen was said to be the E.coli in her body. Mmm…

Kuen is very Thrilled that she at least done her part as a friend. The rest, it still depend on Caryn. =) Of course, She (Kuen) wants her to do good in her life.

CAryn, face it.. or u’ll loss it.

 

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YAY! I’ll be the alarm clock 2mr!! =) Mmm… I wonder how many times should i “snooze” myself? haha!!! I’m so going to dig my PAmelo UP!

Mood is extremely good today. I’m stepping out from notes for a day. =) Movie, sleeping, and online. what a life. WEll, in an hour’s time, I have to buckle up and start studying for Friday’s quiz d. It’s time for sleepless nights and muggings!!!

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I wanna say this very long time ago… I wish i can shout it out loud…  In fact, all the “LOLS” made me even sadder. All the text made me moodier. The fact that you are gone is getting clearer in my head now.

For once, i wanna shout it out loud…

NOT MINE ANYMORE!!!!!

U have left a part of you in me.. how not fair it is. You came, You conquer, you hurt, and you go.

SO good of applying what Alexander the Great has done.

 

Can you feel the cuts in me?

 

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woohoo!! 1am! okay, time for DRUG ABUSE! =) ooops.. it’s a subject name k? It’s not that I’m abusing drug!! hahahahaha!!!!!

 

P.S : AL! AL! I wanna meet you lar………. thanks for all the good nights u’ve given me. Thanks for all the loves and misses you’ve sent me. I received it and i knw it’s frm the depth of ur heart.  You’ll never be alone when there are no more heroes… Girl, me luv you! =) You knw how to get me when u need me. =)

 

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Through it all, through it all, when u’re tired and you stumble, I will carry you….

Be haters of evils and lovers of good,and let right be done in the public place--Amos5:15

Monday REd. =)

Aiyo.. my progress superbly slow!!! i target to finish at least 4 sets of notes by 2mr.. but… i am only done with 2 sets today. Quality Assurance,it’s a subject with tough understandings…. GAH!

Thank God Pamelo’s first paper was okay. =) Hey, i knw u wont be reading this.. but i still wanna write it. U are great, you did your best, and you will score. okay!!! I love you lots!

Well, Stayed in the library till 9pm. erm… Stupid library, so damn cold!! and noisy….

Spent my day contentedly. I was really frust at myself cuz my progress is slow.. very slow…. sigh!

Thanks Wei Kit for accompanying me till 9pm. =)

 

I am pretty grateful that today is kinda good day to me. No blues, no greens.. =) It’s red, passion.

Somehow, i miss my mum a lot.. we’ve met yesterday, and now, i miss her cookings. YEah, hunger always probed me to mummy. Thanks to her that she really fed me like a tong sampah over the weekend. 3 of us had 0.5kg of KING’s BoSton Cheesecake, and i finished 3 quarter of it. WE had murtabak in Pandamaran, yummy!!! She cooked rice and veges, which i had finish all the dishes.. She cooked Tong Sui and forced me to overdose on Eggs in the Tong Sui..She cooked Soup again, and i refilled 4 times, moderate bowl size. She fried pumpkin, which i requested her to do so… end up, i finish half of the dish.. what else?? Mmm…..

I ate like a monster…. GOSH!

well, she was smiling when i refilled the soup, and vege. She knows i love soupy stuff, and i love to drink soup, tht’s why she tries to cook every week, just for me. =)

Geez…. my mum is great. She’s the only one who can chunk so much of food into my stomach in 1.5 day’s time… hahah!!!!!!

 

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Chatting with Debbie, someone whom i admired long ago. She is a great senior of mine. Tough, nice, beautiful, and friendly.. haha!!  hope to see her soon!!

 

Pamelo is making me crazy!!!!!!!!! haha!! came out with all sorts of craziee suggestions!!!!! Feel like knocking his head! haha!!! Perhaps, i cant, i still need to rely on him on waking me up! muahahaha!!!! He is the best alarm clock with the best service!!!

 

k la, i have to go now. sleeping early today i guess…. wake up earlier. =)

 

my legs are pain, disastrous. 3 blisters on my sole, and a bruised feet. Thanks to Yi Qian la…. owh, she’s my cute friend, a.k.a junior. SHE CAUSED THE BRUISED! and.. she INDIRECTLY CAUSED BLISTERS on my sole!!! hahaha!! will hantam her kau kau next SAturday!! =)

At certain time, i realized that… i feel safe with them, my fighting mates. They are the ones that i’ve known for more than 5 years… EAch of them.

 

P.S : I feel like leaving….

 

P.S.S : WAke me up when everything ends……

My Sunday... =)

I like to make myself believe, that planet earth turns slowly....

Life is just so filled and meaningful without hunger. owh, i ate the whole day.
mummy keep asking me what i wanna eat... and end up, she cooked and bought everything that i wanna eat!!!

haha!! That's what mums are for??

My mum certainly love talking. I was studying in my Pamelo's room. So she came in... Both of them just came back from THe STORE SALE, well.. she bought a lot of clothes. So, she came into the room with big packets of clothes and model it to me. Tell me stories on how cheap is it, how this.. how that....

After she talked about shopping, she talked about yoga... she even demonstrated the pose to me.. i was lying on the bed, looking and listening to her...with a smile on my face...
At the very moment, i found that... all mums scared of loneliness and they are thrilled to knw that their kids are at home cuz they are like a hen, which will get panicky when one of the chicks went missing. I TOTALLY AGREE ON THIS!

She talked and talked and talked. I wont cut out conversations with mummy.. This week, she couldnt be bothered about what i'm doing. I was studying and she still wanna talk to me. LOLs!!!!

Mums are cute!!!

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I realized that i've evolved. I take things very positively now. Especially comments, criticism, and suggestions.

I-City, Greenbox, LOVELY BONES. PALs, Love you guys lots.

Somewhere that i feel safe.. it is home.

It is a place where i can burry my head in it.

It is a place where i can mourn as long as i want without anyone bothering me.

It is a place where i can hide from everything.

CAn u name me a better place than home? haha!!!

I had a busy Thursday and friday. That is why my post was on Wednesday… till now. I was busy with Quizzes and outings. ya!

I’ve posted muh album on FB, so.. i will describe a bit bit.

Went to Greenbox, Movie, and I-city. hehe… this time, it’s with them…

                                       

Mmm… this is the very one which i acted normal in it. haha!! =)

 

yeah, went there with them, and we had a great time!!! =)

 

                                 

not forgetting my K-song session!! I dunno apa berlaku, i think i was very tensed up due to exam… cuz i was very “SOT” that day. Sang my heart out, jumped like moron, and… had fun taking shots! =)

 

                                 

this is what we do when Josh was trying his shoe.. Stupid him, formal shoes kena stollen… hahah!! WHy on earth ppl wants a stinky pair of STINKY shoe????LOL!

                                    

I love our smiles. Thanks to Tri that made us so beautiful in this pic. =)

Shereen Red, the Siaw Cha Boh! =)

 

                             

Geez….. this is my first time hanging out with PS, the one in Yellow. =)

Gosh, i had fun. YELLING! =)

 

                                         

Mmm…. LOL!

 

                             

I got the feeling…. woo hoo!!! =)

 

                                             

Likes….

 

 

Mm, the photos are not in sequence ya.. For once, i wanna jumble everything up. =) Shereen Red ChoKED on RICE BALL!! haha!! brought them to the best Tang Yuan! =)

 

                          

PS was excited. =) haha!!! Shock Sendiri… hehe…. =) obviously, Sher was the photographer! =)

 

                                                

What’s with Joshua’s gay bag??? LOL!! so gay…..

 

                                                       

We’re just so cute…. =)

 

      

In short, YOU GUYS coloured up my day!!! =)

Love you guys lots…. =)

 

We’ll have more outings…. hehe…

 

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owh, LOVELY BONES was GOOD! Love this movie!!!! touched me! =)

 

P.S : I am receiving my 3rd DAn certificate 2mr!! YAY!!!! Mmm.. got to go blood test 2mr.. sigh. Owh, will not drive to birdnest this week…. cuz i think I’ve injured my leg during training just now. I kicked my mate’s hand and apparently, my leg is bruised and SAKIT. =(

 

GOD bless my students 2mr who will be sitting for black belt test… Bless them with determination and confidence.

Amen.

Jovial day

okay, i am happy cuz last week, I've finally completed the JIVE steps!! DAncing is good, it helps to relax., I can feel that i am not so tense now. =) hahaha!!!!

Next week is Jive Exam. Well, Anyone wanna come and watch???? WELCOME!!!! =)

6pm, Next WEdnesday, Block A 1st floor. Beside BoardRoom. =) LOLs!!!

I've not eaten anything since morning. Now, I'm drinking pre-packed soup and it's my second packet now. I am hungry yet i do not wanna eat solid food. sigh.

Today is BR pinks day!!!! haha!!! not going to any Baskin Robin Outlet though, however, Pink is a jovial colour.. and i am jovial today. =)

I have satisfaction in dancing, had fun dancing with my mates.. (got crazy with Sher and SALSA) LoL!! I like SALSA!!
Next Sem!! SALSA! hahahaha!!!

Mmm.. Tesco soup tastes better than Campbell's. Ya, how sweet of mummy that she bought a lot of soup packets for me. She knows that i hardly have time to eat plus she is not here to cook for me. =) so.. yeah la. I LOVE my MUM!

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There are ppl who is just so stubborn. Sigh. I dunno what more to say. So, i'm not going to say anything. I've show them the way, yet... they wanna bang wall, so.. be my guest la!

This Friday DFD quiz, how well I've prepared? nah.. not well at all. Still have few more chapters to go. =)

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okay, I'm studying soon! Just to relax and check out my mails and FaceBook, nd blogs =) After all, A student's responsibility is to study, and not to let parents down. =)



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Owh, I've just registered for NO GAPS this coming MAY! YAY! 23rd to 27th MAy, in AIMST, KEdah!! I can't wait!!!
and... the MYpSA MArathon!!! hahahahaha!!! 16th May!! anyone interested? cuz its an open event!!!
Then, might crash to Public Health Campaign which will be held in Melaka i guess.. on 29th May!! =) woohoo!!! another one day trip! YEAH!

Mummy and daddy planning a trip to Thailand..Even if their plan fails, I might go Thai to Hunt for my DArling Cheryl. =) hahaha!! she will be posted there, TOPGLOVE, for her CHemical Engineering internship! =)

Mmm.. lots of plans...

well, Where to go with DAtin REd har??? cuz apparently she is kinda choosy... muahahaha!! as usual la, DAtin's character! (Tao Kei!)

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Ciao!

P.S: My holiday starts on 13th may.Last day of finals is 12th may. So, u plan la... cuz my time is always there...it's "pemboleh ubah dimalarkan", Your time is the “pembolehubah dimanipulasikan" hahahaha!!! . Mmm... I'm sure we can work something out. =)
For now, u CONCENTRATE ON YOUR STUDIES! =) OKAY! we'll think of plans later on! =) I'm so wanna sing all day and watch movie in the cinema till i'm blind!!!! hahahaha!!!!! =)

No easy way out.

I would never ask for more.... than an iPOD? plus meals, plus K-song??? OWh gosh, I'm bad...

Studied till i slept and i forgot to turn off the lights.

I guess, this is what's good about me and my condo unit. Lesser ppl, and i can do anything i want. =) hehe.........

Mmm, My place is a conducive place to study, especially with my big table in my living room. =)
Well, I am making full use of it. but yesterday, i made use of my half carpet, half bed's bed. hahaa!! so, the outcome is... I slept on it, but i studied.

I always believe that there's no "No i cant.." "i can't do this, i can't do that..."
well, People sometimes convince themselves, "I just can't change. It's too late. Besides, I'm only human." They are not just belittling themselves;

ppl give up easily because they do not have the strong will and determination. I always pray for others so that they will have the will and determination to accomplish wht they want in life. =)

I've been through a lot of failures .. especially in my study life. Yes, Life is so meaningless when i knw that i failed and God knows how disappointed and down i was. Yet, I would never give up. It's not because it's too late, its because this is what i've chosen, this is my passion.
I failed, yet i found the meaning of doing what i'm doing.

In life, there are no easy way out. As a responsible human, we can't just take all the easy way out. For instance, if something is not working according to your way, you will just give up and say.. "argh.. it's not working and i'm gg to leave it and give up..."

NO! this is totally truly definitely a wrong thinking!!! Why wanna live in a state of denial??!!? Instead of saying.. "no i cant do it, and even if i do, i will do it my own way.. and even if i fail, what's big deal of giving up??" Instead of saying this, a person should find an alternative to pursue what they want.. if you see a wall and you already bang it, will you keep banging the same wall??? bang till you bleed and you still banging??
You knw that this is not the right way, COME ON!! CHANGE!!! You knw you cannot follow your way, why not open up your heart and options to try another way??
Route A leads to no way, of course you'll try route B?!? right??!?

Stubborn leads to "death". I am stubborn, and i am trying my best to open up my mind for more options!!!!!

To me, there is always no harm to try....
If there is a chance to improve myself, i will go for it.

Life, there's no easy way out. Some has not come to a realization that he/she can still achieve more in their life. Actually, they can.

The opportunity is here, what are you waiting for??

Don't be like our "Politics" ruler... because of their short sightedness, we became a 3rd world country again.
Broaden your will and your sight, accept changes in life. God knows that you will like they way HE arrange for you.

There are many many, even thousands of reasons that you can give just to deny the fact that "changes doesnt work for me, I am like that, unchangeable...". To me, why not give it a shot?

"leceh, ma-fan, susah.. troublesomes" are just lame reasons.. and if you're thinking that way, yes trust me, you are giving yourself an easy way out and it will not lead to to where you want.

BE able to accept changes and practice the change will definitely be rewarding in the long run. I am doing it now, accept changes, be a versatile person.

What are you waiting for?

Let the past passed, nah, dun worry about failure.
The moment Thomas Edison failed the 99th times of making the light bulbs, he said to those who discourages him.. "owh, I just found out 99 wrong ways to make a light bulb. "

If you fail, you just found a way that you shouldnt take, instead, you find a new way to succeed. =)


All the best.

Great Monday. No blue. =)

"But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded." -2 Chronicles 15:7

A verse from BIBLE.

I always believe that hardwork will be rewarded. Okay, i knw that my hardwork doesnt really pay everytime.. i mean result wise.. but what i gain most is family.

Thanks Pui San that she actually reminds me that I'm a family person.
Indeed i am.

I felt ashamed to be complaining about how much love my parents gave me. Gosh, They love me just from my head to my toe. I always knw that.

God created human for peace, and love. HE has faith in human to spread his gospel and follow his teaching. He wants to bless all of us. =)
Yet, sinners (Us) are everywhere.

HE is always Forgiving and accept anyone who accepts his love.
We all do sin, I knw. To learn good attitude is to have good gratitude.

I'm still learning ... Yes, Please forgive me for all the sins that i've created. I shall be blessed to be loved.

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I have not have any mood today. I slept till the sun shines on my butt, and i still continue sleeping. Feels like I'm in a state of denial not to wake up early. haha!!! =)

I went for Alice In Wonderland. I would never ever watch 3D again..... NEVER!
It was OKAY only.... sigh.
anyway, i like the ending song sang by Avril LAvign! =)


Today, Aeris and I were talking about religion. Owh, no one knows that i always have serious talk with her... Okay, i knw that she looks very "SOT".. but trust me, in terms of serious stuff, we do talk seriously. She needs a chance to spread the gospel, I'm giving a chance to her to practice. that's all. haha!!!!

anyway, It is nice to talk to her. She is somehow immature, and somehow... Mature. She has grow up a lot mentally since the day that i knw her. =)

I wanna congrats her that she is going to be baptized this SUnday. AT last, she is not just a believer by name. =) I am proud of her decision.

To me, the first step is the hardest. =) I need time.
Everyone around me is living in a state of denial that i am different. hahaha! believe it or not, yeah. Even my mum.

Well, i guess now, I'm just going to pray for wisdom and a light to show me the way. All this while, I was guided well. Everything is in HIS will. So, only He knows where am i heading.


My feeling turns better after talking to Aeris. She always give me an answer for what i asked. haha....

Pamelo is having microbiology lab test and another test 2mr. I will pray for him.
Pumpkin is having test too. Of course, I will pray for her.

My siblings are great ppl. God sent them to listen to me and to guide me.. not forgetting.. bully me too? haha!!
i think they are the one who can really suppress me and my pride. Oooh... my parents cant even force my head down....

but for both of them, my head will go down automatically. hahahahaha!!!!

My siblings are wonderful people. cuz God is wonderful and he creates wonderful creation.

I promise to not to make my love ones worry.

I love them... to the every single bits of mine. Like i said, I will really trade my soul for them.


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I realized that it's been a while since i shopped with you.

okay, now i realize again that this may last longer that it's supposed to be.

and.. i realized again that...no matter what happened, a part of me is in you.
=)

I miss you.

All the best, get well soon.


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Reminds me of Pamelo..
he said :" at least you still knw how to wish me all the best instead of iPod, iPod.... "

LOL!!
I'mma good sis okay! hahahahaha!! i care for my iPOD and your studies as well!! muahahaha!!!!
Screw you.... Screw ur butt when u're back! LOL! laugh at me lar, summore call me baby Kuen...!!#@$)#$#)Q%*#)*$)$#) cacat.

OLD UNCLE! LOLs!


nite peeps.

watching comedy! =)

Siobhan Magnus and Aaron Kelly. =)

Siobhan Magnus-Paint it black
this is a great song, she's the girl version of Adam Lambert. I love her originiality and sincerity in singing. =)




Aaron Kelly--Angie
The song that makes me goosebumps all over me. LOLs!



Enjoy!!
these are the potential ppl!! and I just can't get enuf for both of them!!! they are just too good!!!! =)

Shucks.

I am back in Bird nest. What a great night... and most probably i will think twice of driving back here next week.... The Guard here pissed me off... SIGH! I have problems with the stupid sticker, I have problems with the resident card. and THIS IS ALL RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!!!! Grrrr........ pissed.

I am now tired, sleepy, and... stucked in my own feelings!

Shucks! to the MAX!

I like outings with my family. but.. i hate the fact that i am being treated like a newborn child.

I am an adult, not a baby. I dislike being baby sittered,. Sometimes, it is just better that i am being left lone with my own time. Sigh... i am a bad daughter, i know.

That's why, i don't expect them to understand me in a way, but i expect them to understand me in a way.
Do you knw that its a stress for me to go out when i'm in klang?? i wanna go out but i feel stress because of them. It's really a dilemma... cuz if i disappear, it will leave them at home waiting for me.

If i don't disappear, they made me feel like i'm a kid on pacifier.

I dun really knw what shit is that i'm feeling, but i don't feel good this way.
I knw, Parent's words and love is the best that someone could've asked for... I just wanted to be treated more like an adult...
I make myself stupid by posting this, I KNOW!!!! but i really cannot keep it in me anymore!!!! I have not talked to anyone since GOD KNOWS WHEN LA!

I am being Mad at myself...
I complain still... cuz my they are great people.
I knw, time for them to let go is still not here yet... but somehow...

haiz...
i knw .. i knw.....

how long more can they treat me like this?

I do feel guilty and sad for being so rebellious.

All i ask is.... a little more freedom and stop suffocating me......

Hey, i love you guys a lot k....? Seriously a lot. but .... u have to understand that i have my own life. I have my circle of friends, I have my own way..


ok, i want Pamelo now.... sobs. *red eyed*
come back faster will you??? i'm suffocating...... I miss you.....
Things are really different without you.... please, come back IMMEDIATELY after your REDANG TRIP!


ignore me. i'm bullshitting.

up-up-date

Hello...

owh, i miss this word. haha!!!

Watching American Idol now, at home. I reached home yesterday midnight, celebrated Ganesh, Patt and Josh's Bday at Ole Ole Bali.

Aaron Kelly made me goosebumps. He was singing "Angie" from Rolling Stones. Gosh... he sang the feeling out, as if he had the experience of the song before. GOSH!! AARON!!! LOVEs!!!

Another big performer, Siobhan Magnus. I LOVE HER!!!! why? She is the girl version of Adam Lambert!!! Not character wise, not really voice wise, but... performance wise, she is brilliant!! she has a BIG VOICE.
I'll update their photos in my next post!!! =)

My weekend will be spent on report. =)

I'm going for Alice In WOnderland on Monday!!! YAY!!!!!! with my dears. Monday no class, so i can afford to have a movie session. hehehehe........

I want to watch A LOVELY BONE. but, i couldnt find kaki...plus i am kinda occupied though. =)

Aunty Jackie is here!!! She is staying over at my house. hehe... good to see her cus it's been a long time since i met her. =)
She is like my advisor and my mum's bestie. indirectly, she evolves in my life.
She sees my change, physically. hahahaha!!!!

I see her changed, from year to year. she became better and better... =)


I was having a hell week last week, gosh..... Everything turned out different at the end. It sucks. Like i said in my FB, Work harder in Finals. =)

Next week is my exam week too, haha... i will study this weekend too. =)


short update from me today, gotto continue my report though. Thanks to lecturers that actually extended the dateline.... if not, i will be strangled to death!!!

Owh, i slept till 1230pm today... wahahahaha!!!
I deserve it?? cuz i did not sleep well for the past one week, only 3 or 4 hours sleep per day... sigh..

I wanna thank my Pamelo for giving me accompany for the whole week yesterday. We messaged each other almost everyday. He will wake me up, he talked to me, I talked to him. Last night, we chatted till both of us slept and did not reply each other. I have a sweet Pamelo with me.

He always nudge me with "POTATO" when he is free and when he misses me... (wah, I'm very muka tembok la) haha!!! so, from there, we chatted. =)

My friends said that PAmelo looked fierce, and unfriendly. cacat.... DAtin Red agreed... HOW COULD SHE!! she knws my brother more than any other friend does!!! haha!! Anyway, Datin Red said that he looks fierce, (for those who doesnt know him) but he is a nice guy... very nice guy... =)

I love him la!!! very much......


He is going to Redang with his friends after finals... sigh, thought can see him earlier, but,, nvm la. As long as i have the glow in the dark shirt from him!! and my ipod!!! what a good me..... cis!

okay, time to go. report a while before i go off for training. =)


ciao!!!!!!

Fighter

First thing before you read this blog….

Please load this song, play it while u’re reading the rest of my post.

Follow what i say…..

 

uh-uh, click play, load and wait….

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Someone touched me the most.. My heart literally melt and tears filled my eyes when i see them…

 

                                        

If you recall my blog or follow my blog, HE is Kayden, the fighter.

 

                                      

Seeing him smile melts my heart..

 

                                

Brother’s love… This picture made me think of a lot of things. It made me touched. Sometimes I wonder Kayden understands everything that he is going through… Anyhow, whether it is or not, he is still fighting… that’s for sure.

 

                                      

His leukemia did not serve as a barrier for him to smile…  Above photo was taken when he was administered to UMMC for 11 days due to Viral Fever.

 

                                  

Tht’s why,I knw that he is going to appreciate life and any other things more than other people do….

 

                                    

His smile just melt me away…… My heart is melting…..

 

                                     

 

I knw that he is going to count his ang pau till he gets married, have kids, and lead a happy life.

                                 

True fighter. KAyden, God is blessing you every single day. Do not give up. and i knw you won’t.

 

 

P.S : You may play the song again, and scroll this post again….

I feel the lyrics from above…

I'll see you again.

I cannot tahan but to post this video.

I'll see you again--by WestLife.
My all time favourite. Can u see how handsome Mark Feehily is???? HAHAHAHAHA!!!

This song is meaningful. It existed in my lappy for long, i did not save it in my phone. So, one day, I was frustrated studying and decided to send some songs from Datin's phone to mine. I saw this.. Once i listen, u knw who came to my mind??

• First, GOD ALmighty.
• Second, My thought changes to.."why worry so much?"
• Third, I listen again. I thought of my granny. immediately, Tears filled my eyes.

Ever since then, Whoever that pops in my mind when i listen to this song, I'll get emotional. That is why i like this song. MEaningful.. =)
above vid is the cut short version... =) still, it's nice. =)

okay, tones of reports to go. =)

I'll see you again! =)

Enjoy the song! =) I really love it when the words and melody hit my ear, it feels so real... =)

FAst, furious update.

I’m totally suffocated. Not going to insert any colours to this post cuz i ain’t have time.

When i was back in Birdnest yesterday, it was raining heavily. I wasnt wet, thanks to umbrella. I was fuss cuz the stupid Security asked me to go in and out just to get the stupid overnight pass. GOSH!

Nvm then, when i reached the lift, a pair of stupid girls have bad eyes and they couldnt press the lift properly. Ok, I was carrying a lot of stuff!! and i was so damn tired and my body was aching. They pressed the lift wrongly and it has to stop one more floor. Shiat them!

I reached my room. I couldnt stand it, i almost burst out into tears. Why? i was afraid of my ownself. When i was in the lift, i have the violent thought of BEATING and WACKING the 2 girls with the umbrella in my hand. Scary eh??

I feel scary also. Messaged lil P and mummy daddy, I decided not to study AT ALL!!! why?

My mind is going crazy.. u can imagine, a girl who have thoughts of beating ppl up is not a good sign. I knw I’m having a bipolar disorder.. and i knw i cannot sleep late anymore. Due to hormones, lack of sleeps, and agitations!!!

I called Pamelo. He was eating McD at 1140pm. haha!! chatted with him around 15mins. Yeah, I sort of like BLAH everything to him, told him how violent i felt. He laughed.. LOL!!!

Ok la, He only replies my message when he is having exam. Why? cuz he sits and study the whole day. LOL!

I was better after talking to him.

I washed up, on my PPS for CSI season 10, watched and slept!

True enuf, I woke up at 7 plus this morning. Felt fresh. Class at 11 but i washed up and went to library.

I was in peace. YEah.. despite of the fact that i have A LOT MORE to cover before 2mr’s quiz!

You cannot imagine… how much more i need to cover… sigh.

Anyway, Today… stupid shit. Din knw that i have lab, wasted my 3 hours for lab… i have 4 reports due End of this week!!! Y_Y Bury me…

stressed.. stressed…. how am i going to sleep peacefully????????

This week is a hell. I wish time passes faster… and i wish that i can live in denial…

 

Gah! time for studying…..

 

“There’s nothing that you can do. HE is with you.” God almighty, bless me with a peace of mind to encounter what will be coming. Bless me with confidence in facing the obstacles.

Amen.

My weekend---> there is something depleting….. haha!!!

I wanna stop, say I Love you.

Before the day-- NewSong

Last night when I was sleeping
You were watching over me
While I dreamt about tomorrow
You knew my every need

Now another day is waiting
For me to make it through
And there's no way that I could face it without You

Before the day slips away
I want to stop and say
I love You I love You
Before the world rushes in again
I want to stop and say there's none above You
There's none above You
I'll just be still and know You are God
Be still and know You are God

There's something about the morning
The stillness of it all
It calms my heart to hear You
When You gently call

Here I am in Your presence
Where I long to be
Alone with You in the silence
Bring down Your love and Your mercy
Whisper softly to me

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Be with me, tht's what YOU're doing everyday.
Touched my heart gently....
Whisper softly to me.....
Giving me courage and faith not to give up..
Telling me that i can make it through...

Before the day slips away, i wanna stop, say I Love You...I Love you.

Short update--I'm in a mess.

can't imagine how busy and suffocating my days are.

I have to complete at least 6 sets of notes a day. I only done 2.5 yesterday, which means, my goal today will be 8.5 sets of notes.

I hardly have time to online and my reports. Y_Y

Yesterday's quiz was a disaster.
studied=blur

Probably because i'm not really fully prepared? but thank God me and Sher had a brainstorm session before the quiz. hahaha!! it helps a little anyway. =)

Today will be another full day for me. Wanted to go to Gym, but... i dun think i have time cuz 8.5 sets of notes takes 18 hours to finish actually. So, screw me.

Going back to Klang on Saturday only, daddy called yesterday and asked me.. "so, u comfirm gg back 2mr?? what time i fetch u?" (means today)

I was like.. "Pa, I have class on Saturday, I am not going back 2mr...... I'll confirm the time with you again?? can??"

see?how much my folks wants me to be at home. AND AND!!! I think they will understand if i ground myself at home for this weekend... One week only, sacrifice weekend for only one week... *shit la, i doubt i can do it*

Later, there will be an open book quiz for Pharmacognosy.How nice if the marks is counted for finals huh?? which is impossible.....

Wanna thank my DarLeng cuz he woke me up 4am in the morning... Yeah, i asked him to do so, cuz i need to study. He is convenient to do so as he sleeps at 4 am.haha!!!!

okay, i think it's time to walk to Uni now. Don't wanna be late for anything. =)


P.S : meals, can of course. You are the busy one, not me... muahahahahahaha!!!!!! U let me knw again la...


P.S.S : T_T I feel like crying to see my notes..... It's so THICK.... sob sob.. I really wish i can eat it and rmber it. Gosh, the stress made me wanna cry.......... Y_Y


Pamelo!!!! all the best in later's test!!!! aiya, as usual la, u can get distinction like u always do. =P

Pumpkin!!! God will po pi lu la.... hahaha!! but u have to do your part. =) LOLs!!! All the best!!! =)

I miss mutton now.... sudden crave for mutton curry..... SiGH!!!


Life is a mess for me.... now...
Mess=no regular meal, no sleep, mountains of notes, piles of reports, short of time.

owh, what a day?!?!?

this is what happens when..

2mr is our quiz day and the lecture is boring.

                          

Mmm…. Mr Kevin was dozing off.

I understand, cuz we’re all on the same boat. I was sleepy as well. I listen to the lecture with my ear phone on and songs blasts out loud.Plus. I’m reading on Cancer Chemo instead on listening to DFD lecture. haha! Good student eh?

 

Another one, stressed but motivated to study.

                           

Semangat-ted to study. Why?

the only stimulus is--->2mr is our Quiz.

 

Me? what am i doing?

Doing some updating before i head to Sher’s house to continue my study. =)

 

Today’s JIVE class was great.I was ditched by my Partner. sigh… me, talak partner. Yet, I get a new one today. haha!!! see? good things always come, the dark cloud is always shed away by light.

All the best peeps!

Super brief update. =)

it's 230am now.. I'm tired.. still, I'm not done with my studies yet.

Stressed mode.

Next week, I have 3 reports due, 1 assignment due, and 2 quizzes.
Teach me how to survive, can???

My eyes are seriously tired, could not barely open, and I'm hungry. Anyhow, I'll sleep very very soon.

Mum had a bad muscle ache, she called me yesterday.. It was fun talking to her. She claims that she is going to use a wheelchair to walk soon.. cuz she can barely walk down the stairs.. haha!! she told me that she jumps and hopped down the stairs. LOLs... It is due to her frequent carrying stuff up and down for 2 floors in her office. aiks.. this aunty thought that she is still young... haha!!

I hope she is better now. =)

Quiz is this Thursday. Wish me luck and pray for me.
2 credit hours, Cancer Chemotherapy, but.. its a lot to study. Mmm.. I will still focus on my studies eventhough i might not be the best student in my badge.

Actually, Wednesday class (means today) is hectic, as my class till 5pm. Mmm... I wonder whether i can stand? haha!!!! No, I should say : " I CAN!! "

Well, I'm not planning to skip class like most of my pals planned to.. To me, I have no reasons to skip any classes. I paid for it, i am entitled for it, and why must i lose this opportunity to gain knowledge?
yeah, it applies eventhough my lecturer sucks to the max. I will still sit and listen. =)

So, Truancy is not my type yo!! hahaha!!!

not much things happened today, except that our class had a small trip to Drug Rehab Centre this morning. I've gained a lot of things actually. I came to realize a lot of things too. From the drug addicts, I see myself better. =) I know them better too. =)

Time is getting late and i'm running out of time, i still wanna type a bit of my Drug Rehab Centre assignment. I am searching for time to complete my reports and studies... How i wish i have 40 hours a day now....

My weekend just ruined. Thanks to my busy life and schedule.

How can i be able to finish 19sets of thick notes in 3 days??!??!?! Spare me please..........

For this very moment, Emptying my Sunday slot is the best decision i've made.

I'm going to sit at home this weekend! pathetic....

I wanna watch movie so much, which i really cannot afford to.... Sobs.

Time to do my stuff.

Nites.

P.S: will pray for you. =) have a safe trip back home.


looks like i dunno what am i crapping.... LOLs...

Nice day.

Re:- The Proposal

I came across Kevin Liew’s blog about the Proposal. Well, it reminds me of a proposal that i witnessed last August, in Peace Heaven, GEnting. whch is the Proposal of one of the church members to his girlfriend. On that very meaningful day,31st August, it was his girlfriend’s birthday.

We were done with our activities which was sketch performance, and he was the Emcee. His name is Christian, the lucky guy. =)

He took the stage, by having a group of members queueing up the stage and sing a happy Birthday song, to Angel, his girlfriend’s name.

A group of members went on stage, holding a paper plate each which were decorated with Happy 24th birthday. Each alphabet was drawn on the paper plate individually.

After the birthday song, the members flipped the plates!! and it turned out.. Will you marry me??  Awww…. So damn romantic!! He kneel down, hold out a ring, in front of all of us, as witnesses, asked Angel to marry him.

of course, Angel said YES!!!!! We were cheering for him!!! the tears of joy lined the cheeks of Christian and Angel.

God bless this couple. =)

then,He blowed a kiss on her forehead, she hugged him tightly. =)

so, that was the proposal of a sweet guy, Christian to Angel.

                             

I was happy that day, and i’ve sent my prayers to them together with the crowd. Wishing them a happy life after marriage. =)

 

I still remember it clearly. That was my first witness on a PROPOSAL. =)

 

Have you experience or witness any proposals before??? =)

 

God bless all of you.

Hallelujah.

 

 

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You see me through Heaven’s eye. =)

I-City Shah Alam,Nice lights! and my Funny SUnday with my folks.

First, i slept till 940am today. =)

Thanks to the I-City outing on Saturday night. I had fun!!! I was partially studying, partially doing report.. partially watching American Idol.. and partially talking to Ah Mei..

Let me share some of it in my blog, as I’ve posted my pics up on Facebook!! =)

 

                                

 

 

 

 

 

                 

 

 

 

Indoor lights

 

 

 

                               

Look at the crowd!!!

 

 

                                    

Left: Uncle Gilbert, Penjaga 1

Right: Uncle Steven, Penjaga 2.

 

 

                                  

 

 

 

 

 

                           

 

So, that was my outing to I-City, shah alam!

so feel free to go there to see some lights, take some photo, and be with the crowd!!! =)

It’s a nice place for a family outing. =) I love the lights deco over there!! Would like to go there again!!!!! =)

 

So, That was my Saturday.

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I spent my Sunday out of the house. Breakfast with my parents, buy stuff, then went to temple. (Mmm… I’ll only talk about the experience in the temple personally)

Let me post something very funny about my mum and dad.

We went to TEsco, without expecting to buy anything. So, we did not push any trolley. So, my mum decided to buy something, and asked me to hunt for “unwanted” trolleys. I couldnt find, all occupied. I am quite reluctant to walk to the entrance and get another one. So… my mum found a trolley!!! the problem is… it’s a super mini trolley….. LOLS!

 

                                        

She couldnt let go of it as it was the only one. hahahahahahaha!!!!! In the pic, she was looking for my dad. I was standing far away so that no one knows that one holding the mini trolley is my mum. muahahahaha!!!!

 

                                             

DAd came… he hasnt saw the trolley yet… He was holding a deck of eggs. haha!!! When he saw my mum holding the trolley.. he asks: “ Ah soh ar, what are you doing with the trolley??”

Ah Soh answered :" “ put stuff la, no trolley d ma, better than nothing.”

"He said : “ Yer…..I’m not going to push the trolley… haha!! I rather take and walk!!!' *laughing* “

Me and Jessie laughing aside.

My mum, reluctantly pushed the mini trolley aside and walk…..

 

omigosh… these are my parents!!! my parents!!!! LOLs!!!!!

 

I’m spending my day sleeping, eating, reporting… gosh.

anyway, I enjoyed it!!!! hehe…..

 

Time to go off, 2mr have to wake up earlier to study. =)

Good night peeps!!!!!!!!

P.S : I will listen, and carved it in my mind. Perhaps, my parents really cannot bent me. I will try to change, from now on. Tired and teary eyes. Mum and Dad, I love you guys.