War of reports, it’s over =)

YES!I’ve done my REPORTS!!!! Mmm… seriously, it is a full 3 days thingy…. GOSH!! I can’t believe that Central Nervous System is so time consuming.. and i almost gone cuckoo!!! CNS CNS CNS…. argh…. I’m not going to touch it these 2 days d.. not until i go back to CHERAS!

Today, it was awesome!!! I’ve spent my morning with my family, my entire afternoon with S.A, and my DeER.. entire evening with my rugrats, and entire night with my family and reports!

Contented! I was determined to finish my report and i did it!

 

Uncle Eric asked me… whether i wanna open a personal class onot. He said if i really want, i cannot play play and really have to be there. Of course i am interested.. just that i couldnt really commit first due to my studies. As u all knw, i don’t come back during my final exam. so, this is my obstacle.

Well, i still need to wait till i graduate…sigh….

Seriously, I gained my confidence back. but at the same time, i am building it to a higher level.. which i once had.

I am still doing my very best. =) In terms of training, and in terms of work. okay, I’m over it!! and i’m starting on another journey!!!!

Honest speaking, the thought of quitting still in my head. Something tells me that i should really consider.

I am having class next Saturday.so, i wont be back to Klang till Saturday afternoon. Sunday will be a busy day for me as Next Sunday, i have work and training to attend. Yeap, my training will be on Sunday instead of Saturday due to replacement class on Saturday. tht’ why…

I bet next week’s stress is going to probe more of the QUITTING spirit in me. sigh…..

i need support. Next week, my family day will be on Saturday only. Unless I’ve decided to skip the Sunday’s training la… which i doubt i will.

I love my parents cuz they understand. I hate myself for being the way i am and doing the things i’m doing. I am not lost, i am just being ME. Funny eh? cuz i once thought that what i’m doing are the stepping stones to my future. Old people always say :" susah-susah dahulu, senang-senang kemudian”

I am not in financial crisis… I think i value my future more? At the same time, it is cruel to have to sacrifice my precious ones… I wonder what Yang Yang is going to say when he’s back and when he’s here to witness my stupid busy lifestyle.

owh, fyi, i hate him for always abandoning me on MSN. he is very very VERY VERY BUSY! sigh.. can’t even chat a while with him. However, no matter how busy he is, there is always a Zero distance between us. Erm.. i think same goes to HER too. I don’t and NEVER felt any distant feeling. It is always so far yet so near. =) *wink* hehehehe…. not everyone or every siblings have this kind of feeling okay!!! =) I love both of them to the MAX of the MAX! =)

My eyes look like a line now. i am very sleepy. Yet, i feel bloated! –=)

Life… is never complete without sleeping… hahahah!!!!!

this is what i’m going to do now.

Good night all!!! =)

 

P.S : I am so in love with NIP/TUCK now. This is the coolest drama ever!! Julian Mcmahon is so DARN CHARMING!! He has a hot body that all guys desire!! In fact, He attracted me in CHARMED. =)

   

He is MACHO!! and i seriously think that he is a bi…. sigh… rmber my curse? it’s still a curse…. =(

 

LOL!!

 

nites!!!

My friday!! =)

Practically, i woke up from sleep around 7pm. I slept from 3pm plus.. right after i reached home. =)

Firstly, i wanna thank DeEr for buying me McD!! It's such a long time since i touched Burger!!!! hahaha!! I was really happy cuz i did not eat anything in the morning. Then, I've been waiting and craving for the burger.... anyhow, SATISFACTION!

Dinner with family, then continue my report journey. Good to say, i've completed one. One more to go.=)

I just came back from night mart with my parents!!! I'm trying to spend time with them. What my dearest sis said really made me guilty. Awww... Another thing, both of them are going to Malacca 2mr. I wont be following along though.. =) cuz I have something on here. =)

sorry folks. =)

They're going to Malacca to visit my uncle. so... I dun wanna get blood sucked by mosquito. haha!

I knw.. I knw.. nothing is more important than parents. But what is more important than promises? Both of them understands well. I am really really thankful.

I was really stressed just now, doing reports. Writing pages and pages of facts that makes me go Cuckoo!! gosh.... I am going nuts soon. Now i knw, I'm a practical person. Factual stuff, not my type! =)

I broke my principle... I am not suppose to eat after 9pm. I broke it just now... with my parents...Mmm.. trying not to think about the extra pounds... haha!! no la, it's because of my folks.. They are happy if i want something. So, I wanted to eat with them and walk with them. I wanted to talk and have fun with them. so, i comply to what they want. =) yeah la.. trying to be mummy's girl la... nothing wrong right???

Both my parents.. I think they are kinda used to a world only with 2 person.

Deep in me, i do feel guilty too...

I will make it up to them. =)

I'm trying hard to finish up my second report. i will try to finish up by tonight. It means, i wont be sleeping early. I am so determined. hehe... i am sleepy now, yes i admit.

For the sake of GLORIOUS WEEKEND!!! I WILL DO ANYTHING!!!!!!

My SAturday, I'll spend it for sleeping and my family.. definitely!

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Actually, her blog got me reading all over again.. again and again... again and again. =)

Me... erm. i dont really care what ppl think of me. I used to be the one who always fits in. Now,I don't wanna be that kind of person anymore. Sometimes, i think, why not instead of me fitting in, others try to fit into my life?

then i realize, it is about tolerance. Give and take.

okay, obviously, i give more than i take. =)

Now, i am learning on how to take. =)

God sent me a sentence this afternoon. Love and treat others the way you want others to love you.

Sometimes, when i'm in the middle of dilemma, instructions will pop into my head. Just like today. I was hesitating about something, tht's when the sentence above rang in my head. So, I've made my decision to DO IT! hahahahah!!!!

God is almighty. =)seriously.... i truly believe that HE sent me the message. =)

I feel bad that i couldnt really commit and comply myself to what my heart wants. will HE forgive me? I have lots to consider... seriously. I don't think my parents are ready yet.

=)anyway, i knw, when the time comes, it'll come. =)

My faith is still strong. My trust is still concrete.

tht's the most important.

I'll be going back to Cheras on Monday only. =) well.. it's a bless to stay home one more day. too bad, i have to stay in Cheras till Saturday this coming week. =(

Ms Lysia Loong has been doing a great job. I cannot afford to skip and lose her class. Last Thursday's night class was awesome to me!! can we have more night classes?? cuz i concentrate better!!! hehe.....

well, i think i should stop blogging .. and continue writing my report. I'm writing at the wrong place!!!!

LOL!

Time for reports.! CNS.. i wonder whether there will be a day I'm nauseated to you. I've been facing you since MONDAY! and.. this isn't fair... I still wanna touch on Cancer Chemo this weekend.... tht's why, i need to SHOOT YOU OFF by THIS WEEK! *pull the trigger, shoot CNS*

Toodles guys!

P.S : Tri, it will be very funny if me and Rach looked alike. hahahaha!!! =)

I am as confident as i was, and i will always be.

How ar? she encouraged me to quit again..... my heart is shaking... once again....

+( =(

My life, My way.

my Latin class was GREAT!! learnt a few steps on Rock and Roll, Rumba, Jive and Cha Cha!! Erm.. kinda fun and interesting!!! I’m moving my muscles which i seldom move it!! and i’m cultivating my dance cells!! LOL! I dance, used to learn modern dance, not really talented.. but consider okay okay la.. =) so now, I’m breaking my barrier, breaking through to try something i’ve never tried before. After all, Life is only once. so, ENJOY to THE MAX!

2mr is a busy day… I’m not even in my CNS mood. 2mr is the POp quiz and my progress is very slow. My pre-CNS report is not done yet too…. I’m so screwed! Yet, 2mr… I’m going out for dinner and SHOPPING!!!!!!

Yeah , finding a way to runaway and have life. I am so LIFELESS now. Tht’s why i’ve decided to join Latin class. To have some interaction with other ppl from other faculties.

I don’t wanna spend the rest of my years here only studying without interactions… and i dun wanna be a DEAD STUDENT. I just miss all the adventurous fun i had during secondary school days. =)

Well, I’m just a beginner. It seems like everything starts from the beginning. Doing something that i never thought of doing sounds great! I wouldn’t have joined the LATIN Dance if i were a few years younger. hahahaha!! i was timid! and typical!!! and i’ve decided not to be one of them anymore. I decide my life. My life, my way.

I’m interested with Rock and Roll… just that majority voted for Rumba and Jive. Mmm… nvm. At least i get to learn something new. its time to breakthrough. Made me thought of Catherine who loves hip hop! Looks cool! =) hehe… I wanna look different too.LOL!!!

All these years, people will give me a big ROLLED EYES when i told them that i work during weekends and i teach TaeKwonDo. Well, they couldnt really believe that a person with MY SIZE is actually a black belt,3rd Dan. I wonder what were they thinking? were they amazed? or they just judge me based on how i look? haha!!! I cannot imagine if i tell my parents that I’m going for Latin class!! haha!!!

Gah… to me, no matter how i look, I am free to pursue what i want. I am sure that all instructors and teachers and tutors wouldnt mind their student’s capability and outlook as long as they are willing to learn. =) right?

It reminds me of the first time i join Modern DAnce. It reminds me of the first time i dance. it’s like…. scared.. Scared of comments, and scared of what people will think. I was a low self-esteemed person. HAve i mentioned before about the important one who broke the barrier in me?? It’s my Bestie, Yan. She gained my confidence back. She showed me that i can do it no matter what. Any obstacles that come, there is always a solution. Basically, she leads me through.

Now, I have confident that i can do it.As long as i try my best in everything i do.

At this moment, the one thing that i wanna do the most is.. to find solution for my stupid persistent backache. I have lots of things that i wanna do and accomplish!!!

Mmm… this year is going to be wonderful year!!! =)

Well, i have a list of resolutions. Now, I have more to-do list!! =) hahaha!!!

I’m just so happy that my life is again being coloured up by something new. =)

 

okay, I’ll share my story till here. Time for CNS. I have lots of things to be done! I need to prepare for presentation, quiz, reports!! Contented life i have! =) hahahaha!!!

 

Guys, if you’ve found something new or new hobby, make use and embrace it to the fullest. Like i say, life is only once. You only live once. so… why not? Try something new instead of sticking to the old routine. =)

 

Toodles!!!

Random.. busy-ness

Central Nervous System.. Central Nervous System… It is never ever Ending.

I skipped blogging yesterday. I was extremely busy. Yesterday’s lab was fast. First time ever in 3 weeks tht i get to come back earlier and do my report. haha!! True enuf, I’ve done it within 4 hours.

BUT!!! due to today’s CNS.. erm, should i say.. THIS WEEK’s CNS, i couldnt afford to do anything else.. cuz its Prof Noran’s class. The DAILY EXPERTS activity definitely is a burden for us, but think it in another way, it actually help us to revise what we’ve studied. =)

so.. I was screwed yesterday cuz i have lots of missed out CNS notes. Tht’s why i studied instead of touching my girlfren. =) Darn, this Thursday is CNS pop quiz …

Yeah, once my week start, it will be a marathon. It will be WAR. Good? or bad?

haha!!!!

My life is full of “no more distractions” currently. 2mr is Prof Noran’s class.. AGAIN. though i’m not the Daily Experts for 2mr, i still need to revise. Yeah, I don’t need to talk in front of the class doesnt mean that i don’t need to revise and study. right?

Today’s class was okay. Practiced my presentation slides for this Friday.. owh gosh, how unprepared!! all of us were unprepared. Thank God i call for practice today, if not.. we will never know where we stand. =) More space for improvement!!!!

My Life is getting use to starving. Screw me… I barely have time to eat. Anyway, I stole some time to have my dinner just now.. hehe….. Now, i feel sleepy. so, as usual la, will sing to keep myself awake. =) erm, i don’t wanna starve, but i have no options.

2mr is another new challenge. I am trying to catch up notes and lectures.. I still have lots to go, lots to study.

I’ve encountered a quiz on FB. It’s the FRIEND EXPOSED thingy. There was on qs which asked : “ what is ur most memorable childhood memory?”

To me, i think my grandma is my happiest memory i had. My childhood was filled with her love. Her love is so great that she would give anything just to make us happy. Deep in me, i still miss her. Just that, when i think about her, all her memories in me will come like a flashback.. from the day that she moved in with us and till the day she died.

i’ve seen all.

Practically, she died in front of me. That was a relief for her because she had been suffering. God wanted her to be happy, that’s why she was taken away.

I am proud to have her as my grandma and i still can feel her kiss on my forehead every now and then. When i miss her, the feeling just comes. Then, her lullaby will ring in my ear. Slowly, here comes her laughter, her voice, her sound. Then, her tears, her pain, her intention to give up on herself.

It all comes in a flashback memory. tht’s why, i smiled, and i teared at the same time.

Anyway, She has gone to a better place, under the care and love of God. =)

I should be happy. =)

 

My class ends at 8pm this Thursday, so… most probably i’ll be MIA on tht day. Cuz that day, I am having CNS lab till 5 plus. then, class starts at 6pm to 8pm. prolly, I will start typing my discussion now so tht i don’t need to type it during weekends. =)

Time to study again. =)

 

P.S : Just do it. =) don’t hesitate too much. =)

untitled .. busy, tired, happy weekend.

                                            

This morning,I was enlighten by My DeEr’s sleepy face. muahaha!!! Actually, the way she acted this morning reminds me of DarLeng. He will answer the phone and  “yeah… umm, ha.. ok..” but he always forget to wake up.

hahahaha!!!! itulah adik-beradik saya sekalian!!! comel cun betul!!! I love them to the max!! =) *huggies muackies!*

The photo above… It was from a customer.. when i saw this, i was like, OmG!! what the heck is wrong with the doctor!!!!

hence, i passed the Rx to Kavitha. It was from a doctor in HTAR. (which sounds impossible) cuz HTAR’s Rx is printed out nicely instead of handwriting.. =)

DOINK!!! what DOctor is that!?!?! that is like overdose of NSAIDs!! and Ibuprofen is 400mg!! not 5oomg!!! Ibuprofen to be taken 8 hourly, nOT 4 hourly!!! PCM is taken 6 hourly!! not 4!!!!

is that call rational prescribing by doctor? Dose is wrong, frequency is wrong…

omigosh…… hey brother Brian!! dun you become one of the stupid doctors!!! Warn you first!!! =)

 

Today’s work was… good. i like the feeling of lesser responsibility . I hope it will be the same next week.

 

My Herbal Park trip was not that good. Can i not talk about it????

hahaha!

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Sent my Dearest DeEr back to Setapak. She was like kinda unbelievable when i agreed to fetch her back! Omigosh… Never heard a “YEs” from me before is it??? LOL!!!

who else can i love more if it’s not my family? Of course i want to fetch her every week if possible… seriously i don’t mind… =) Like i always say, God knows how much i love her. =)

Hey, dun need to be so calculative k? especially to me. If u feel guilty, belanja me one meal la.. any meal!!!! hahahahahahhaa!! (I’m bad.. hehe..)

 

My busy week resumes.

this is like… “oh my… Feeling blue now,”

 

I am guilty that i spent my Saturday night Sleeping.. owh, i slept when i reached home from the HErbal Park trip, it was 8 plus pm… i slept till 7am this morning.

then went for breakfast with my sis ( wonderful meal), worked. lunched at home, (self cook), slept till 5pm. Training.. till 7pm. reached home at 740pm. had dinner with my folks,din talk much. Drove… back to Setapak at 9pm, dropped the ONE,came back to Cheras, my sweet bird nest.10.30pm.

Mopped, cleaned my room. Reports, Criminal Minds, American Idol-ing now. Mmm….

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She encouraged me to quit,so tht i can spend time with my family and friends. I am hesitating, and considering. Lots of wave of emotions hit me.

the most bothering is.. She told me that the BIG ONE expected me to quit..

It sounds like IN NO TIME that i’ll quit.

Erm, I think…. i will make a sudden decision after I’ve get my stupid head clear. It just doesnt reach anywhere now. My head and my heart are not synchronize enough.

What DeEr said to me is still ringing clear in my head. sigh.. i will stop thinking. I wanna give myself another boost to find what i ought to do.

 

My life is so screwed. I am busy, my weekend doesnt allow me to relax. Sometimes, I really wish that my thinking doesnt grow more complicated that i’ll do anything based on what i like, and what i am interested in. I try to be naive, but how naive can i be? as i’m not that kind of person.

I wish that my brain is simpler than anyone else. I am too complicated in mind, I think alot…

Everything depends on me and my environment. For now, I’ll give myself another shot. so, guess that my sleepless nights during weekdays continues. So that i can afford to be busy on weekends.

 

I’m crapping. enuf of it. My mind is tangling up. gotto finish my God Damn report before i get another one 2mr. Yes, my lab is 2mr.Darn.

 

P.S : Start ur Studies ASAP yeah… don’t procrastinate anymore. =) see ya on weekends. I start to miss the Roti canai d….  LOL! tk care yeah!! Love ya lots. *bear huggies.*

P.S.s : DarLeng, why did you abandon me? I hate you la… u Mr Cinderella!!! ooi… mummy bought an iPhone!!! muahahaa!!! u’re so going to get an iPod for me!!! I DON’T CARE! I miss your stupid shoulder la… watching movies in the cinema always reminds me of your warm shoulder which i can grab and hug… Awwww…..

 

Night guys!!! =)

Finishing reports soon!! YAY!!!!!

DAy out…. 22nd Jan 2010

okay, i had fun Yesterday. =)

Firstly. went to Mid valley to watch Legion. GAh.. i dun wanna rate this movie!! I laughed the whole way through!! LOL!!

Spent my day with dear Sher, Aeris, Tri, Bain, and Mel. We scratched our head after watching the movie.. maybe u can watch and answer my questions??? haha!!!

I really had fun talking and shopping and walking with both the Sei Yea and Sor por… muahahaha!!! Love’em much!!

Tri and Mel.. erm, we intended not to be their light bulbs la.. hahah!

After movie, we shopped around, talked and joked. =)

                                  

the aunty who took this for us has a very bad skill…. hahah!!!

Mid Valley is a place where i only go for movies and KTV. tht’s all.. nothing much there… Mmm….

then, went to ClayPot Chicken rice in Cheras. Yum Yum…  It was nice la.. hehe… =)

then, comes the most important part of the day…

our OPTHALSCOPY lesson by MELVIN! muahahah!! I’ve learnt how to see cornea, pupils, optic disc, blood vessels in a few hours time. haha!! okay, I’m still not that good but definitely it’s enuf to shorten my CNS lab practical time next Thursday!! haha!!!

Tri took a few pics with my phone… =)

 

It looks like I’m kissing her.. but i’m NOT! I was looking at her pupil and cornea, trying to locate the blood vessels. I took a few attempts.. and trust me, u wouldnt see anything if the distance is not 10cm from each other with the Ophthalmoscope in between. Precious lesson… =)

Will be gong to Herbal Park trip,in Seremban… later!!! gah.. when i think of it.. it’s fun and excited!! but i dun want the assignment part. Yes, we are required to do assignment on HERBS! Mmm…. okay, I’ll tk this chance to learn though!!!!

 

As we were walking in Mid Valley yesterday, we were sort of like looking for bday presents… Sher asked me after she told me what she needs and what she wants for this year .. “Kuen, what do u want for ur bday? what do you need??”

I was like… “errr…. what do i need??”

I really dunno…. =) haha!! i’m a very simple girl who appreciates anything that comes by. =) so,. i dun really have specific things to request la.. =) hahaha!!!!

 

Maybe when i think of what i want. I will reveal to them!!! Me and Sher were happy cuz we get to celebrate our bday this year!!! =) TOGETHER! muahahahah!!!!

cool huh?

 

okay la, need to change..  I need to be in Uni before 7am.. guess i’ll reach there at 7am SHARP.. muahahaha!!

i am excited for the HERBS PARK VISIT!!!= )

 

Have a great Saturday morning!! =)

Engineering E-books, and Jeremy Camp.

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”- Revelation 21:4

this verse probed me about the pain, the tears, the sufferings that i had and i’m having.

There will be a day, with no more tears, no more pain, no more fears.

I truly believe in that.. it will come when we see Jesus face to face.

That’s what Jeremy CAmp sang. I like his songs a lot. Pop Rock is my favourite Genre, and he can conveyed worship song in POp Rock..

He’s an American, very young. His late wife was a true God Server, she died of cancer after the honeymoon trip. He married her before she died while she was having chemotherapy. True enough, with love from God, HE wants his wife with HIM. Hence, HE took her away to another place where is no pain, no fears, no tears.

This lovely man, Jeremy Camp, carried the wife’s strength, faith, and trust to GOd and continue his journey as a songwriter and Singer.

I admire his loyalty to his wife, and to God. =)

Moreover, his voice, is brilliant, it’s the type tht i like. =)

There will be a day – JEREMY CAMP

 

 

                         

Spend a little of 5 minutes for this song. First, the lyrics attracts me. Second comes the melody.

 

I love this song a lot. =) meaningful.

God is always there, in HIS presence, nothing is impossible..

 

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came across a few e-books webbie. This is specially for my dearest DeEr whom I’ve promised to upload it.  True enuf, it’s midnight now and i havent finish my report. I’m facing some difficulties… Mmm..

Engineering books

Chem engineering books

Freebookspot

Free Chem catalog

that’s all for now. It’s more than enuf for her to search and be happy i guess???? =)

 

Hey, i miss you…

 

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Toodles!!! have Finish up a bit of discussion, and sleep. My eye bag is SUPER DARK! I truly dun wanna fall asleep OR watch Legion with my PAnda Eye 2mr… ( i doubt la… ) haha!!

 

Nitey!

Good morning, and Good night.

the only reason why am i still awake at 530am is.. because i’m studying. Knw what? I slept from 7.xxpm to almost 2am. tht’s why, I’ve wasted around 5 hours there.. NAPPING!! and clearly, I’ve over-NAPPED. Crap.

 

Now, I just took my morning bath and just finished my CNS study. Will NAP again later as my lab today will end very late. Tonight, it’s another WAR for my lab report. Yes, I am doing my lab report on the experiment day itself. This is to ensure that i have enough time for my studies. hehe…

I’m going to need liver tonic soon.. Seriously. My liver has been working extremely hard and i feel guilty to jeopardise it. Mmm… this is call good TIME MANAGEMENT?? haha!!!

Nothing much happened today. I’ve stayed back for the Industrial Attachment Presentation today. Though it’s not my group who presents, Yet i stayed back to see other groups’ presentation and analyse the type of Qs which will be asked by the lecturers.

No doubt, it was scary.. I mean the Q&A session….

 

Well, I’ll still be fully prepared. My presentation date is on the 29th Jan. morning session. Mmm…..

 

My flu is recovering. I’m trying to suppress my throat inflammation by taking Papase-like drug. I think it’s Serrine ® tabs but its from another company.

To all of you who has a low immune system like ME. Dun stay up till 2-3am everyday yeah… cuz FLU and sore throat are what you might have. haha!!!

Thank God tht I’m recovering, I’m “filling” myself with lots of water.. to increase the rate of recovery. Yet, it helps.. beside taking CArinox®. hehe…

Time flies, it’s almost the end of week 3. Few more weeks, quizzes will come by. Argh….

Worse still, my study break for final exam is only 1 week. I have 7 subjects. see? common sense tells me to start preparing for finals NOW!

if not, how can i cope? I really cannot imagine….

 

Like Wei Kit said : “ Stress-resistant”.

He is right. This is because everyday is so stress till the extend that you don’t really acknowledge its presence anymore. It is always there and it has become a part of you.

GAh…. a life of a professional course student…. ha ha ha.

 

Mmm… I’m thinking of enrolling in dance club.. but not sure whether i want LAtin onot.. as Bain, Nick, Sher are interested in it. i think Tri too.. muahaha!! First thing’s first, do i have the time? and does the training time fits my time table????

I dunno… Will see then!!! =)

 

Time to nap, a while.

 

Good morning, and Good night. =)

 

P.S : ur lappy is beautifully done. =)  and.. nothing is tough if u face it, and understand it… plus practice it. You are not alone. =)

P.S.S : Parent’s acknowledgement…. Mmm…. my first step to success??

Learnt a lot, Asia Workshop.

God shall be my hope, my stay, my guide and lantern to my feet.-Shakespeare.

 

In the end, u cannot wait for something to happen. it’s YOU who will make it happen.

If i want it, I will do whatever it takes to make it happen.

A one hour sharing with Faye Chin and her husband, Gee Way has opened up my mind to improve myself more. I am very very interested in the Asia Works Workshop. Seriously… I’ve been interested in it since a few years back. Just that I couldnt really get the contacts and the will to contact Asia Work due to less exposure.

I want to know myself more, I want to achieve more in life. I want more confidence in myself…

I think I will enroll in it once I’ve finished my sem. I have night classes.

Faye said :” in working life, there is always a period where you are being victimized and you dun feel like going to work at all.”

She has realized her weakness and strength more in the workshop and trying to break through herself because she gets to knw her capability. She should’ve joined the workshop earlier.. She said to me.

A lot of things. She shared, she talked.. I am pretty impressed with the power of the workshop. SERIOUSLY!

My biggest obstacles now is… migrating overseas with my shitty result.

but then… when i shared my problem, she made me realized that RESULT DOESNT DETERMINE WHO YOU ARE. Like she said, If i want it. i will do whatever it takes to achieve it.

Live life to the fullest, If you want to do something, do the best. If not, dun even start it.

She found meaning in her work, in her life. She found happiness in everything she does.

I can understand the feeling. I wish to know my capability and expand it.

I am really really interested in this workshop…..

 

One thing I’ve learnt from our conversations, IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, YOu WILL DO wHATEVER IT TAKES TO HAVE IT and ACHIEVE IT.

For instant, people always blame the situation when the situation doesnt come by their way. But what they are going through are actually their choice! They choose it at the first place because it was the best choice!! so, you have nothing to blame if that is the best choice you have!

Right?

this is part of her sharing too… She made me see a lot of things which broadens my view and feeling. I’ve definitely learnt something from the conversation.. which i cannot really describe much in my post. You knw, AWARENESS is very individualize. I am more aware of the things that happen now. I am more aware of my past, however, Past cannot be changed. so, use the awareness that has been gained to live the present, and consider the future.

 

Tonight, i’ve learnt a lot.

 

i think, i will finish my up my studies and love myself more. I mean my body.

I am having flu, due to lack of sleep. At the same time, i dun feel that my flu is some troublesome disease, cuz i came to realize that lacking sleep for studies, is the way i live life to the fullest, and it gives me satisfaction, and confidence.

Still, I will take care of my own health.

 

Life is wonderful. =)

 

Just when i get to know that the Tigress is actually a pro.

I think i will try to accept the fact that I’ve paid so much, and i will get as much as possible from the lecturers.

 

Time to continue my CNS.

 

*God, I pray that there is no PMS on P.N 2mr and thursday. Bless me with a good health,heal my flu GOd. Bless my loved ones with strength and will. Bless my friends with confidence, as well as strength to continue the journey. Heal baby Kayden, Bless Kavitha and family with a strong heart. Lastly, my parents. Bless them with good health,tht’s the most important.” “Forgive me for all the sins that i’ve created. I will be a better person as days goes by with YOU whom reign in me. Ever since YOU' exist in my life, I’ve been loved. Thank you for blessing me. Amen”

What a contented Monday, and weekend.

Peeps!!!

Late night blog. It's 1.35am now and i just finished my report. Today's lab.. ooops.. i mean Monday's lab.. hehe... HECTIC!!! Tired of waiting... other groups went back at 4pm.. My group which involved in another experiment ended at 630pm!!!! gosh... imagine... how tired am i. At 630pm, i was 30hours unfed. yeah... I did not eat anything since Sunday 5pm.. when i reached my birdnest.

Gosh....

I was in a state of hypoglycemia. SO TOOn!! (means slow reaction in hokkien). CAn't even react properly. Plus this birdnest's internet connection has put me into a depression state. GAH! 1 week without internet!! how can u stand!!?!?!? I CAN"T!

so, now... Problem detected, solved. thanks to Yong Leong the genius, Wei Kit the other genius, and KUEN the next genius. muahahahahahahaha!!!!

no la, actually.. we try and error with a lot of ways.. it took us almost 1.5 weeks to settle it.. sigh...
now, everything is fine i guess. I hope there's no more connection problem as I am using a new modem from mummy's company.. how lovely..... =)

Actually i wanted to blog about my Lunch with Ju last Saturday. Well, what i can say is.. everything is expected. I was ready.. *thanks to my dearest, love her to BITS! *

I dun think i told the whole thing, I still keep some...

what i can say is, I am ready for everything. Ever since I start working, especially on January, I am ready for everything. Miraculously, my confidence is back. *Another thanks to my dearest who pushed me to the 3rd Dan test, LOVE HER TO BITS BITS! * plus *Thank you GOD*

yeah, honestly, if it wasnt her, I wouldnt be doing what i'm doing and i wouldnt have the courage to face everything... *hearts*

I am seriously, seriously, very seriously thankful to her.....

=)

Mmm.... what else??

owh, after the lunch, i actually had this thought...
" Mmm... someone is trying to buy me with meal? or the meal is just to clarify the problem? or it is just to rectify the problem?? or just to merely have a gathering with me? alone? or..."

*piak*
wake up.... it's over.
Whatever it is, i dont think like the way i thought... (based on above).

one thing's for sure. I may be Kuen, I may look like the old Kuen, but my feeling is never the same. It has changed and transformed to another stage. Like what i said, I've been BENT to another path, another way.
What i value is not the same anymore.
Anyhow, i still will scarifice for my dearest. (family, siblings) .. this is for sure. My priority is them no matter what happens.

so....................

yeah la.

It's a new year, It's a new start, It's a life with a beating of NEW and YOUNG HEART.

Changes in me?? haha... Yes, definitely. If u observe closely, there are parts and pieces of me which has been polished and renewed. =)

Enough of blah, blah, bluek.....

time to sleep...... after I've done my packings and studies.

My week is very very pack and contented. So, my post will be during midnight. =)


P.S : To you, new week, new start. HAve confidence, have faith, HAve the WILL. cuz WILL brings u to STRENGTH. STRENGTH leads you to SUCCESS. I have FAITH in you. Love you lots lots lots.

P.S.S : To You in KT, You blah-dy fool.... call me a cinderella!! haha!! TK CARE! HAVE CONFIDENCE in yourself, TK TIME to SEARCH, TK TIME to feel. I'm glad that you told me everything.. YOur tears is my bliss, It's a trust to me. I LOve YOU... lots lots lots!!!!

*Bear Hugxx to both of YOU* <3

Toy soldier

Time flies. My precious weekend ends in a few hours time.

Sometimes i do feel like a toy soldier. Listening to ridiculous command, regardless from friends or family. However, it looks like a bad thing but it is not.

At least, Toy soldiers are always loyal.

The main thing good about toy soldier is.. they dun mind anything or any situation tht human put them in. Great huh???

Sometimes life is not what i choose. I choose, others choose also. Well, bear it. this is the reality.right???

I studied like having a soldier's life. Same routine everyday, same training everyday.

i eat the same food almost everyday...

face the same people everyday...

when I'm back here, at least my life will be a little different as i get to see and do who and what i want.

too bad, like i said. I choose, others choose too.

My choice is non-important. .. sometimes.

and Most of the time, I'm okay with others' choice.

No harsh feelings on me, no harsh feelings on others.

haha... Back to my day, Today is the shortest Sunday I'm here. I wont be back next week till Saturday night.

Next Sunday will be a busy day for me as i have work and training.

Gah.. my weekends will be never ending.

the thought of not working came to me again... I am seriously screwed.

aiks.... whatever it is... For my sake, I need to be tough and carry on.

there's a saying..

"if you feel like giving up, think what makes you start at the first place."

yeah, this keeps me going.

Gah, whatever it is... I am still me.

I may make the most shocking decision,.. trust me, when i do that.. I have whole lots of reasons and rationale to support it.

for now, I wont.. because I still treasure what i'm having now. I still want to see what my life will be along this road.

okay, time to go.

Toy soldier, routine begins.

Tabletting. Won’t give up…

I am finally back with blogging. I miss blogging …. seriously. Besides my busy schedule, my internet in Cheras is down. I’m back now. Home sweet home. I have a monkey with me.. sleeping beside me. okay, she doesnt snore.. haha! but it’s fun to see her sleeping. =)

We’re going out later, I think this is my first outing with this monkey of mine. hehe….

I had a seriously busy week. I try to finish my reports on that day of practical itself. Thank God, I’m done with all my reports. Tht’s why i can afford to go out tonight. =)

Last Thursday, it was the most hectic one. Class from 8am to 1230pm. lab from 2pm to 6 pm. I was seriously exhausted in the lab.. cuz we were doing tabletting and wet granulation. and we redo the wet granulation due to my mistake. Groupmates, I’m really sorry….

so, i took some of the process of wet granulation, share with you guys. =)

 

                               

I was incorporating the starch paste into the mixture of lactose and starch. TO disperse it uniformly so that we can sieve it to form small granules.

 

so, we pressed the lumps of “cake” onto the sieve to form smaler granules/ Aeris and MinYin pressing. Tricia… erm.. Shutterbug!! haha!!

 

                    

this is the granules. hehe.. then it is being sent to the oven to dry it for 30minutes. (this waiting time is hectic)

 

Meanwhile, we prepared the ingredients to punch Paracetamol tablets.

Spreading the granules on the plane. sent to oven after that.

 

                     

Dried granules.

 

after that, it will be added with other excipients for tabletting.

                                

this is the single machine punch, 2oomg of ascorbic acid tablets are produced. We need 300 tabs for ascorbic acid. =)

so, it was quite fun to see our granules actually became tablets.

 

                

our failed QC test tablets. =) cool right??

 

 

                    

I’m proud of my PCM tabs!!! hahahaha!!!

 

                  

Packed PCM, to pass up in my report!! =)

 

                              

this is the rotary tablet press!! got 17 stations, which will ounch 17 tabs at one time.. an old machine though! =)

so, basically, i’ve did tabletting that day… and i was so exhausted!!! Thanks to Angeline for the short cut ride home!! =)

Wanted to sleep after lab, but i couldnt. So, i did my reports yesterday. 2 reports in one night. AWESOME!

and.. the drawback is.. LAck of sleep.

 

Today, felt reluctant to wake up, but i woke up on time as i forgot to switch off the lights… (ter-slept while studying Herbal Medicine).

Sleepy….

                            

I see brains everyday now… CNS, Practical, and even Drug Abuse!!!!

 

                          

I’m still looking at the bright side despite my busy-ness. Won’t give up anytime= )

I’m tired. gotto rest and study a while before i go out again. =)

 

P.S : Internet was down.. blogs, i miss you.

Church tragedy, rise up my brothers and sisters.

My super fatigue eyes has brought me to another level on my conscious state. I am tired.. and hungry. As usual, the thought of getting extra pounds if i eat at this time freaked me out.

I've decided to take a break from revising.

I have reports, which stays stagnant at where i stopped due to the DRYNESS of my brain.
I have few more notes to go, which stayed stagnant too, due to the DRYNESS of my eyes.

I'm quite upset with the churches incident which happened lately. I am standing neutral, I don't really wanna side any parties. However, We as Malaysians should start to instill in our mind that we are living in one country, and harmonious is something we should work towards to.

Havoc is only created by those who have shallow mind, and short sighted. I seriously feel that the things that happened was immature.
I'm not judging through religious side, I'm judging through character wise.

It's Z generation now, and why are WE still living in some sort of 13th May 1963 arena?

Mmm... we're too old and too modern for that.

Till now, 8 churches has been destroyed.
I hope that the commotions and fightings will stop as soon as possible.

Everyone, dun be a fanatic.

Think of Malaysia's future. If Malaysia wants to be a DEVELOPED COUNTRY by 2020, There will be still millennium years to go if this kind of incident keep happening.

Life is seriously short. In Malaysia, no one really wants to get rid of each other's right. Surprisingly, we're kinda used to what we have and we're okay with what other's have... We respect Bumi's special right. Seriously.

Instead of fighting for something which won't be "Stolen" by other party (other country), why not fight to preserve our cultures and traditional foods origin which are currently being stolen by our dear Neighbour?

right??

Rise up, my lovely brothers and sisters. Rise up with a good, beneficial way.

Commotions bring no benefits to all of us.

Let's just stop all these and work towards a better future?? how about that?


HE sees us, and HE is looking after us. HE will take care of us, not to worry... Just Rise and walk to a better future.

Past, future.

I think my life would suck without you.

GAH! without my lappy and internet!!! My line was DOWN yesterday whole night and it sucks !! especially when i was doing my reports!! Ish.. ish…. geramnya…..

My day .. Mmm.. good? just tht i’m a bit busy d… busy for reports, CNS preparation, catching up notes…

Nearly no time for dinner….. haha!! no la, it depends on me whether i choose to eat onot.

Nothing really special these few days, except my routine of sleeping very early, wake up very early. When i say sleep very early, yes.. it’s EARLY! haha!

Forced myself to wake up today, cuz i slept at 2 plus… thanks to the report. ANyway, I’m almost done!! and i can finish it by today.

I am in serious state of “NOT COMFORTABLE” without my Pioneer earphone.. I forgot to bring it… sobs… tht’s why have to listen to lappy…

Knw what? i come to realize again that life is so wonderful if u see it from a wonderful side.

Somehow, we have to look forward, not staying in our past. The things that had let go, it has to go. No point getting it back. Look forward to a new adventure, not sit and mourn on the past memories.

Although sometimes we might miss something or someone in our past, yet… past cannot feed ur future. It is past that lead u to ur future. So, the things that had passed, treat it as ur teacher. Say thank you to your past, and move on.

 

okay, time for lunch. Hungry after gym. =) hehe…….

depressed

I fall in a serious state of depression.... I blame my hormones.

I am very weird, i don't feel like talking, I don't feel like doing anything, I don't even feel like touching my notes which i plan to do so.

During work, I don't feel like talking much too.. It just feel so depressed. Yeap, this feeling came suddenly.

There's a period of silence between me and her. Not long, but long enuf to realized that i am having depression.

It is very scary to have a smile on the face but deep in the heart, everything is not right. The worse is, I get upset easily.. My nerves got turned on easily!!!! Even a small things, i tend to get angry and impatience easily.

mood not good.. dun wanna write d...



ciao.



still, I am positive.

*hearts*

No one can really replace you in me...
Believe me, every single moment i feel so, every single second ticks off, you become dearer to me.. and i feel proud of you. I'm really really proud to have you.

one word : Glad.

Seeing you offsets all the TULAN-ness i had today. =)



*hugs* ( which can only happen in words ) haha!!! =)


One last word: I'm proud that my DeEr sis is growing. =)

Busy week ahead!! enjoying currently. =)

I've started to realize about the fun in cHeras. Mmm.... it's not late la.

I've been out for fun these few days.. This week is the only free week i have. Next week will be hectic. Tht's why....

I dun really wanna face it, but my heart is right about facing it. I knw, when it comes, It will come.

So, FACE IT!

again it makes me question about not working...ANYMORE.

Tri asked me to STUDY la....
Parents fine with me working....

Me?
I am currently fine.. but how long could i stand? without support, i dun think i'll last long.....

My schedule is seriously busy and it sucks. 2 labs a week. Class from 8 to 5pm 3 days a week. some of the days till 630pm.
Saturday's class almost every week...

Stress when i think about it la.. Seriously STRESSED!


Anyway, this week is the last week for me to enjoy. Currently, I'm enjoying. Outings with dears.. Eating with them, K-song with them, laugh with them, UNO with them..

In love with UNO now. haha!!! will play it again in Uni 2mr!!! I just came back from Sher's place.. we played UNO.. and had fun!! =)


Time to sleep la.. and i need to pack my stuff.. I seriously need to catch time 2mr.... sigh....

I'm going back because of FIFI. I've promised her for Friday night outing... =)


so....

I've gotto pack my things!! will post my RedBox outing 2mr!! =) hehe.....


FIFI, YOU, SISSY!! i'm coming!!!!!!!! BACK!!!!! hahahahahha!!!


Mum, thanks for everything.......



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Why am i being treated like a 15 year old child huh? haha!!!!!

Naive is still better than mature..... sometimes.


NITES! =)

*hugs* I miss SheePig.



Kuen's in love with BAD ROMANCe... *naughty* haha! =)

Thai Food at Mid VAlley.

I am exhausted.

 

okay, gotto study a while before i sleep. i’ve went out with my dears just now. =)

Went to MV for movies. Good to see my friends are laughing. haha!! Cuz I’ve received something depressed from DarLeng, it made me depressed too. I was hoping that he would call me.. but, i think he was tired, so he slept.

I will try to understand what happened first…

 

Well, had meals with my dears. Thai FOOD!!! muahaha!!!! AT mid valley.. the Thai REstaurant Opposite Big Apple Doughnut. I dunno what’s the name of the restaurant la.. sweat….

                            

nice food with reasonable price. We’d ordered the set for 4-5 cuz there are 6 of us… =) it’s only Rm 79.90++

 

                            

Sher, Tri, and Tri’s boy, Mel. =)

 

                         

Grace, and Eliz.

 

A bunch of great friends. =) haha!! seriously GREAT!! I am blessed that i am surrounded by really beautiful people, from the inside. =)

All of them from different family background… but with Fate, we met each other. Thanks to UCSI pharmacy course. =)

 

                                           

the lemongrass drink, taste like Glutinious Rice ball soup. haha!! anyway, I’m okay with the taste. =)

 

                       

Pandan Chicken. =)

 

                      

Sotong with Basils, chillie… this is SUPERB!!! haha!!

 

                   

Dun underestimate this fried kangkung, it tastes nice!!! Seriously, NICE!!!

 

                                 

this fish, I love the toppings!!! nice@@!! Thai Fish!!!

 

                                   

I tak sempat tk the Green Curry pic… That is nice too!!! =) hehe…

 

                  

White TomYum soup!!

 

basically, it was a nice meal.. =) reasonable price la… haha!!!! Havent eat Thai food after so long.. so, the meal just now was something good to start my year off!hehe….

 

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Today’s class was great. Did not fish the whole day, but my mind wanders around…..

this is what Tri did…

                    

Lots of smileys… Yeap. she drew it. =)

 

so, yeah…. this is how we kill our boredom. LOLS!!!

 

it’s late now, I wanna sleep and wake up early to study =)

 

P.S : do i look like i act cool??? LOLs!!!! =_

True.

Changed my banner to something descent. muahaha!!!

                             

It’s not tht i’m sick of the previous one, but… I think I’ve passed through the stage of naked truth. haha!! (what talking me?)

 

I’m still being true to myself, not in an abstract way, but in a more descent way. LOLS.

they are whom i love… =) I wanna be true to myself, to them. =)

 

It’s not a great masterpiece loa.. cuz the PAINT in my WIndows 7 looks a bit retarded.. this is my first one, more to come!!! =)

Streamyx sux! Pissed me off… sigh… however, Thank gOd it’s okay now. If not, how am i going to send my stuff????

 

Time to sleep!!! and off!!! class at 8am. hehe…

Thankful.

Terrified!!!

Yet.. Glorified.

There goes my first week. I guess my studying mood is back.Seriously it is coming back to me now.

As all of you knw, I’ve been absent from home since…. i started holiday. I was still being a good girl on November. I started running everywhere when December starts. hehe….

Like i said, My holiday was a contented one. I had no regrets on it. I’ve went out every single day. Even though i spend my day with family, we weren’t at home too. Mmm… meaningful.

I was questioning myself just now, why the hack am i so busy on the first week of lecture itself?

gah, I guess that’s life. Recalled what i told Sissy, It’s a marathon when i start. I’m starting slow… pitching soon. hehe…

Feel like screaming actually. Anyhow, singing kept me going.

I’m staring at my notes… thinking of my Finals. Mmm… Guess, the cycle begins.

The spirit is arriving, and i ain’t giving up. I ain’t going to make myself regret in my future.

TO all of you, do what your heart desires. Follow it, it will lead you to where you ought to be.

Life is short, live your life to the maximum. Make sure that you appreciate every moment, no matter it is happy or sad, cuz that’s what makes you grow.

 

 

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die, so, let us all be thankful.-Buddha

I’ve posted it before, i found it meaningful. Let us just be thankful for everything that we have and everything that comes and everything that had came to us.

GEt well soon ITS! My first busy day….

okay, Shut up and DRIVE. haha!!

I was sleeping.. from 8 somthing pm till 2 plus am. GOsh, my eyes were too dry.. cuz i was facing my Girlfren for the whole day since 3pm .

I did not own a Systane, that’s why…

Currently still working for my slides, and touching up my reports. It’s a week to compile everything though. tht’s why I’ll be a bit busy eventhough labs haven’t start yet.

This is what i’ve done…

                

The break down pictures are in courtesy of HOe Pharma Sdn Bhd. I’m just doing the compilation and combination.

My first day was great.. started off with a bit of blue, turned green.. and now i’m Red!! Red means I’m so damn heated up and ready to run the race!!!!

I will post more of my Penang pictures. CUz I’ve finally get the copies from Sher. hehe……

I am feeling fine today. I’ve finally get to recognize the feelings of studying again, and work hard for my quizzes and finals. Well, like i told Sissy, it’s a marathon when i start. Owh, sort of like chatted with him to release his stress la. haha!!!

He’s having finals in another 2 week’s time. Rushing assignments now… and We’ll go for KOREAN FOOD after his FinALS!!! yay!! something i long for!! I love KOREAN FOOD!! =) i guess our similarity now is.. we crave for Koreans for so long and kinda like sick of chicken? hahahaha!!!

All the best to Sissy!!!!!!

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Time flies and i still have around 2 more years to graduate. Actually, it is fun to meet the bunch of SAMPATS again. Aunty Yun Si, Ela, and the gang. Kinda missed them!! =)

My Gym today turned out great!! had a great sweat… Ooh, i went alone. haha.. Gym was so empty in the afternoon, tht’s why i get to run, i get to lift up, and i get to do steps. =)

I guess my conscious state of mind has started to accept what’s happening around… My engine is half heated. I’m ready for a long journey tour.

Speaking of long journey, I wanna express my sympathy towards IT SEANG who had a serious accident when he was on his way back from Penang. his condition is quite bad.. He needs stitches on his jaw, and had liver damage due to the accident. Anyway, he is back to Penang now. God, bless him, Heal him. So does everyone else in his car, Ah boon, Ah Hong, YJ.. GEt well soon yeah! see ya guys in class soon!!!

                                          

okay, dun mind my hair.. did not really comb it after bath this afternoon.. tht’s why it looks like I’ve waxed it.

It’s time to continue and sleep. It’s almost 4am though….

I guess i need to stand-by a bottle of Systane ®. My eyes get dry often.

 

wookie, time to sleep!!!

 

another great challenge this morning. =)

 

P.S : HAir do?? BOP IT! LOL!!

Blessed day to start off.

IT was a great last day of my holiday. I drove back to Cheras. The process was… dreading, reluctant.. Anyway, I spent my last journey back here with singing. My car’s Pioneer was blasting loud, and i just love the bass. So, i was singing my heart out and i can’t be more proud of my singing skills and voice. muahahaha!!!

Today’s work was a blessed one. Worked with Doreen, Lunched with Julene. Ups and Downs at work, gah… as usual. No work is without challenge. No challenge, No fun, right?

I guess it’s time for me to just sort of like SHUT UP AND DRIVE. Sometimes it really bothers me that i don’t wanna care for everything about work. Deep in my heart, I still cannot do it. PArtly because.. I am ME because of it.

Well, It’s been 3 years. Time flies huh? I started off 2nd Jan 3 years ago! i still rmber my feeling when Julene called and asked me to come work on the next day.I still rmber and treasure the feeling!! My first job! =)

Then, the days in LC are still fresh. You cannot expect everything to be smooth sailed. That’s for sure. I am consider lucky, cuz i did not really get “spanked” from boss.

then, A word from my ex colleague probed me to think more.. And, i started to analyse and observe.

gah, the past. Leave it. What i am concern of is PRESENT.

 

Honestly, today is a good start.

My Saturday turned well too. I dunno why. I think if i wasnt there, i will not be handling any classes too. For now, whatever that comes and I’m supposed to do, I will accept it and do my best.

I try to be simple. Simplicity sometimes pays more than anything else.

 

It’s late now. 2mr is my first day of class, it means… hectic life again. =)

anyway, My holiday was a really contented one. If you follow my blog, you will see that i really make use of it well. SPending it the way it should be.

Mummy once asked : “dont you feel tired of going here and there?? seriously you don’t feel exhausted?”

Me :" “ of course no. Holiday is to enjoy. Being young outdoes everything mum.”

 

so, Being young is something old people cannot have. haha!! Guys, new Year now, spend every moment to the maximum. Live it like you are going to die 2mr. =)

Good night.

 

P.S : everything starts to go well. I wish.

New Year meal with my love one. =)

okay, i said i was going to post about my lovely New YEar dinner Rae.. My dearest little stupid dumb head sis. Mmm…. still prefer to call her DeEr. =)

so, i went to PD in the morning and ffk-ed her. Extremely guilty… yes, i am. but thank God that I think she is showered by whole lots of love and she kinda like forgive me??? haha!!! nah, prolly cuz i’m special to her, tht’s why she forgives me. muahahaha!!!!

nah, I ffk-ed her, and i will make it up to her and i did. The MANHATTAN FISH MARKET meal was my idea. Why? because both of us hvn been there before. It would be good to have our first meal there on the first day of 2010. =)

I still rmber last year, WE had our NEw YEar Lunch in LAvender… It was a nice meal ..and this year, I’m the one who will give the treat! =) I’m not sure about coming years… but i knw definitely that next year, she will have her New YEar celebrated in SOme snowy country. Anyhow, I still want to have New Year meals with her in the future!!! =) OKay, it’s not our anniversary, but… It’s meaningful to me..Because every year, i think our relationship has grown to another different stage. She is part of my life now. Yes, She is.

I think we’ve gone through many things to come to realize that I am the  way i am. These, all the flashbacks, memories.. they are all my treasure cuz they are all which brings her to me.

God knows how much i love my comfy accompany. One day, When my Mr. Right appears,I will HAve him to accept the bond that me and her has! this is a must!!! =) and i will literally make him see how worthy she is to me. He has to accept my family before accepting me. =) hehe….. cuz they are precious to me.

So. lets come back to our New Year dinner.

WE went to Manhattan Fish Market for a nice fish meal!! =)

                                  

Nice meal, Nice start for a brand new year. =)

 

                                         

HEr eyes disappear!! haha!! nah, she couldnt find any logos of the Restaurant… so, i suggested using tissue to tk pic. =) hehe…

 

    

FAce showered by love. She looks lovely, and ugly? haha!! nah, her heart is a beauty. =)

 

cant wait to eat!! cuz I was starving!! hehe….

 

          

SHe looks like her nose spilled creams. haha!!! Chocolate milk shake!! YUMMY!!! =)

 

                      

 

Mayonnaise, chilli, and garlic. I actually liked the Mayo. =)

 

                            

Seafood platter For One. I ordered it for her. =) nice!!!

 

                                         

see how he flames the Seafood Platter?? haha!!!!

 

                               

My Dory Fish in GARDEN HERBS. I like it!!! =)

 

                            

okay, she looks a bit retarded. DUn mind her yeah!! haha!!!

 

                                

nice meal huh?? haha!! basically, i ate half of her portion. haha!! Nah, according to her, she gave me half because she sayang me??? =) I knw she does. =)

I talked a lot… talked a lot to her. Non-stop i guess??? LOL!!! I wanna thank her for the lovely listening ears and precious encouragements. i will programme it in my mind. =)

She got my feelings mixed up. Excited, Touched, sad, guilty, and happy again. haha!! I tell you, it was a great day for everything to start. =)

After that, she went to buy movie tickets for her Lumu Kakis whom she appreciate lots. =) hehe……

then, we bought tickets too!! hehe… we watched “Did you Hear about the Morgans?”

                                      

this is extremely hilarious!! a cool movie to watch!! haha!! WAtch it watch it!! Laughed like no one else. hehe… =)

 

so, i only get to wish DeEr “Happy New Year” face to face yesterday. =)

 

Guys, I will post my resolutions if i feel like posting yeah!! hehe…. definitely it will be a brand new challenge to me. =)

A new Year resembles continuation in pursuing of what u’ve dreamed of. Dare to dream, this is what she told me yesterday. Yeap, Dare to move too.

I dun wanna make anymore explanation why “the gap is there”. Like i told her, It’s a new year, and it is time for me to face everything. I cannot runaway forever.

Peeps, happy New year!!!

To everyone, thanks for existing in my life and accept who i am.

To 2010, be good to me yeah!!!

To you, thanks for spending time with me still. =) I am seriously happy for everything that you are going through now. =) *love and hugs*

Lastly,Kudos for them!! =)

                              

P.S : My first Satuday this year,how would it be??? =)