Xmas 09!

Yoohoo….. I’m back and I’ll be going off again!! =) well, this Xmas has been a meaningfu one for me. Why? I get to spend my Xmas with them!!! =)

                                     

Spending time with them and spending my Xmas with them is something money can’t buy. How nice of them actually…

I’ve arrived there one day later. They have prepared whole lots of performance just to entertain us . We really did have fun!! =) I have a lot of videos to post.. but.. due to request of not posting… hehe…. I’ll still POST it!! bad huh???

LOL!

 

                           

during their rehearsal.. i was practicing with Queenie. yeap, I involve i singing, my best talent.! =)

 

tht was part of our rules…. wanted to buy Xmas cap, but… TALAK!

so.. we had fun!! performing, eating… owh, we had BBQ and steamboat there!! =)

hehe…. a very entertaining dinner!!! Seriously entertaining. We’ve conducted exchange gift session before the games. Well, I’ve got a wonderful gift from CAssie. I love it lots!!!! will tk the pic next week and post it!! =)

so, the next day, slept till quite late. Day goes by, we still review our videos on the previous day and laugh like mad!! LOLS!!!

went to my favourite place in the evening!! Tg. Jara Beach!!!

 

 

 

los of pics more actually… haha!! anyway, i love the sand sea turtle!!! =)

 

well, will update more when I’m back from Penang. yes, i’m going to Penang tonight. So, I will update about my trip next week!!! =) yippee!!!!

 

Time to go off.

 

P.S : What’s with the try to miss me eventhough you wont? haha!! nvm, I do miss you. =)

P.S.S : Pray for Kayden, he was admitted yesterday night……. God bless him.

Merry Xmas, baby Kayden, this is specially for you.

On this blessed day, The birthday of Christ, I just wanna embrace this day with the ones i love.

Too bad that i can only pray and sing the praise at home. However, wherever i am, God is in me.

This day full of joy and blessings, i want to use the meaning of Xmas not just to accept gifts and blessings from above. I wanna use this opportunity to make my wish to HIM almighty.

My very first and only wish for this Xmas is… I pray that Baby Kayden will be healed from his sickness.I ask GOD to heal him, I ask GOD to forgive every sin of Baby Kayden and bless him with a good health. I ask GOD to bless him with courage to fight all the obstacles that he is facing now, all the pain, all the suffering.. Praying that someday, all the pain and sufferings will turn into a shield that protects him in the future. I ask GOD to bless BAby Kayden with strength to hold on, Hang on to YOU. GOD, i have faith in you. I am very sure that there’s a purpose why Kayden is going through all these. GOD, You are making him strong day by day. GOD, please be with this baby fighter every single moment. God, you are almighty, You are our savior. You are our leader. Our God, is God who saves.

I pray to God, in this meaningful day, You will wash away all the sins of my loved ones and be with them, bless them with happiness and joy. May God be with them.

God, You have done great things
God, You give grace to the weak
And bless the brokenhearted
With a song of praise to sing
You reached down and lifted us up
You came running, looking for us
And now there's nothing
And no one beyond Your love..

Let your mercy rain on us… especially to Baby Kayden.

My promise to God almighty, I will still continue my prayers to this Baby Fighter. God, he is strong under your grace. Yes, He is a special boy.. that’s why he is here, to prove to us that he can fight against the odds. =)

thank you God for everything,

Hallelujah… Hallelujah… Hallelujah…

In the name of God, Amen.

 

Merry Christmas to all of you!!! =)

Amazing Grace…. Great song.

A little ending in the year of 2009

 

The Year of 2009 is coming to an end soon. Well, it has been a wonderful year for me.

Let me break down one by one.

 

Character wise,

well, Character, I feel that I’ve grown up more compared to last year. A lot of things happened.. I think obstacles in studying and thinking of my future has made me a better person. Lots of waves rumbling in my heart, it was never solved.. until i went for DARE TO MOVE camp 2009 in PeaceHeaven GEnting. IT changed my life.. seriously it changed my life. I’ve get closer to GOD more than ever since then. The me in 2009 value family more.

 

Family wise,

Another joy in me, I’ve get another sister instead of just having a stupid brother. so, i now have a pair of stupid sister and stupid brother. Mmm… How nice life is, right?? especially both of them are always there to share and listen.thank God i have them!!! I love them lots with my whole heart!!!

My parents? erm.. they are still the same, one thing still bad in me is.. I’m still stubborn. However, it doesnt reduce my love to my parents!

 

Friends wise

I’ve always got my best friends to back me up. You guys knw who you are. My dear Yan, my dear ALO.. they are a bunch of supportive people!! Love them lots! Not forgetting my uni friends.. Although i talk about myself less to them compared to YAN and my siblings, they are still my buddies!! It is hard to get good buddies in Uni but i’ve found it. How blissful… =)

Guys, I love you guys lots!! I knw that we will still keep in touch eventhough you guys will be graduating sooner than me? haha!!!!

 

Attitude wise,

i’ve grown even more. I’ve been doing things with my full heart and i am still doing that. Just that, whatever i do, God is in me. and it seriously made me feel different, HE made me feel different, more confident along the road of battling. My attitude has always been good.  haha…. I think i have a good attitude. LOLS…..  My never give up spirit grows MORE this time. I’ve always been positive. I see things from the good side always. One thing bad about my attitude is, I always thought that ppl are all nice.. which turned out that they are not. Tht’s why i believe in ppl easily at the first sight. BUT!!! My analyzing mind will work eventually… Especially now, after my attachment, I can see things more clear! =)

 

Love Life wise,

erm, i can still live alone for now. It’s not a problem for me. I am independent. Very independent.. I can do anything and everything myself. I used to refuse help from ppl, but now.. I try to be a gracious giver and receiver. I start to receive things instead of Giving only. =) Trust me, it colours up my life. Partner of life? I don’t need it now…. haha!! =) concentrating on my career first.. LOLS!! it’s weird that a girl wants career first right? haha!! let me be the special girl then! =)

 

Study wise

It’s always been the same. but this year, after august, it is different. I’ve never missed a single prayer after MERDEKA DAY. I’ll pray for my studies, for my siblings, for my parents, for my loved ones… and Pray for myself. GOD showed a great miracle on me a few weeks ago. My results….. =) it is really a relief to get what HE has planned for you. I lay all my worries to him and i knw that with HIM in me, nothing is impossible. All you need to do is have faith in him that every single event and incident that happen to you has a purpose. How hard life is, HE will never be hard on you. =) That’s my principle of studying now.. Again, additional HIM in my life. tht’s all.

 

Work wise,

I cannot deny that My November has been a wonderful month to me. Why? because i get to spend every single hour with my family. All the Saturdays are the most memorable. memorable… Mmm… THought of what DeEr said in the Burget King to me. SHE and HIM never had anything which is MEMORABLE!! gosh……… haha!! How about ME ME ME>!>>??~? I dunno how many memorable moments you had with me, but to me, every single moment with you is memorable to me. Even all the words you said, all the things you’ve done… I keep it.. deep in me. (rmber? bcuz of WORK, i knw you.)

 Life CAre is really a place to grow,I’ve seen and realize a lot of things there. I’ve grown a lot just by staying there for almost 3 years. (officially 3 years in 2nd JAn 2010). I’ve got to knw the essence of working there… Seriously, it made me into a mature person. I’ve learnt how to see the right thing and the wrong thing. I’ve gained experience from all of the ppl there. =) Thank You.

 

Life wise,

I tend to embrace life more. I am not easily influenced by negative thoughts although i still have it sometimes. I always keep in mind that Life is short, what you wanna do, JUST DO IT! but be careful.. tht’s all. Life has been contented .. more contented compare to 2008. I’ve lived every single moment to the fullest in this year. Eventhough sometimes I’m doing nothing but i still love the Rotting feeling. I’ve seen things more openly. I wont mourn for wht i cant have.. but i will work hard towards it… though the road is tough for me. I always keep in mind that Life is wonderful. Whatever bad things that happened on me, I took it as a opportunity for me to learn. cuz i always knw there’s a purpose for everything that we’re going through.

 

SO, that’s me.

The main thing in this year is… I get closer and closer to my siblings and parents. Especially Mummy. She is always there for me and she starts to believe me that i’l try my best in whatever i do. I still remember a few weeks back, when DarLeng’s result was out, mummy asked DarLeng whether He’s given out his best? (he is not satisfied with his result and he obviously got lectured by me for not being THANKFUL) He said : “ nope.. not my best yet. I could get better if i give out my best. “

I taruh him kau kau.. : “ how can you blame for your result now when you never give in your best?? then now, you are complaining about your result, which is 3.6 CGPA pointer!!!! “

so, this guy wanna find partners in crime by saying…

He said :" “ cheh, you also didnt do your best what!?!?!!! "\

Me said : “ You are wrong!!! I have no regrets on my results though it’s on borderline, cuz I’ve tried my very best! and i’ve no regrets!! I am thankful for my result! You should be thankful and stop complaining!!!”

Mum :" “ Yeah, I believe that jie jie rally tried her best, (she’s nodding) and I really do..”

Yeap, she said to DarLeng.. He kept quiet…

hey, come on!! it is true okay!!!! I’ve really give out my every single brain cells for it!!! every single inch of notes is in my mind!!!!

Sigh.. he is not thankful eventhough he gets 3.6… sigh… it’s already on the Dean’s list le….

anyway, i guess he realized his mistakes after that.

BUT!! what mum says really…. melts me…. all these while she thought I was not being hard working enuf (which i hate it).. but now, hardwork pays by having her see me putting my effort in my studies. =) I am happy, seriously.

so, the moral is… When you give in your best, you are proving to yourself that you can. You don’t need to prove yourself to others what you have done. cuz others can see it. All you need to do is.. do whatever is right. God has eyes, so do other people.

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Report time!! =)

 

Guys, Merry Xmas and Happy New year!~! Will be out of town starting from 2mr rill 31st December. =) so.. guys, take care yeah!! anything, msg me instead of msn me. =)

I can’t wait for Xmas!!! =) haha!!!

 

Penang!! here i come!! TRI!! I’m coming!!!!!! =) hahaah!!

 

P.S : I’ve had a great day in my life yesterday. Knowing that hands are made of flesh.. it is something that hurts if part of the flesh is being cut off. Thank you for being in my life and thank you for Everything. =) You’ve just bent me into a new journey. Thank you for all the supportive words. Thank you for your presence… =) Love you loads!=)

Quick update

I have lots to express, but.. my report stops me from doing so.

okay, quick update.
i'm working morning half today, so... I get to go lunch with Sue. She kinda updated me with lots of things la... =)
I brought her to the best roti canai in Pandamaran!!! I found the restaurant!!! so proud!! thanks to AL who brought me there.. hehe.....

Had a piece of Roti canai and Milo Kosong, it filled me up. Satisfaction
basically, Sue updated me with the current issue around me which i've overlooked. Of course, I bear in mind that what i listened is just her POV. I still knw where i stand.

I don't just listen to ppl blindly. =)



It's a quick post, just came back from "meeting with problem".. It really got me spinning when i see this phrase.. haha!!
anyhow, START of Something new!! cheer!!
This is a right decision, move on, look forward. =)
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okay, I'm trying to keep myself awake... I need a table la... My bed is very tempting.
and I'm currently singing to keep myself awake.. this is bad, it reminds me of the days I'm doing my report. LOL!

Kuen is still singing with The Katinas.. haha!!

2mr is another new day... GOOD! I cant wait!! cant wait!!!
=)


Time for reports~!!!


P.S : No matter what you've become, You are still my dearest. keep your stupid smile on your face yeah.... =) :-) *hugs*

New day?

 

Okay, i’m listening to The Katinas lately, came across their songs accidentally on You tube. Well, it turns out well, just like how i knw Leeland, who is also an American Band. However, the difference is, The Katinas, they are brothers, 5 brothers out of 12 who live in American Samoa.. wherease Leeland is a band, which consist of city boys. Both the bands have deep love to GOD and worshipped HIM by praising him through melodies.

Listen to it,

The Katinas- Rejoice

 

 

Nice? I love the beat!!! hehe..

 

Today, is the day that i officially show my face off in LC. Dun ask me why, but i think that i’m ready. tht’s why i was there. Ready or not ready… gah, the feeling will come when someone is ready. So, the feeling came, and i went.

My heart’s still not in it?

I dunno, I’m just doing my part. It is very tiring to care for all aspects.. so, I just do what i’m supposed to do. If not, i think i’ll be suffocated.

My work experience today was still good. Still trying to catch up. I mean, i’m still trying to increase my speed…. of knowing the locations.

 

I’m tired now, will be working 2mr morning. so.. guess i’ll sleep..

 

I’m doing my reports now, and i still have lots to go… wondering whether i can finish by this week…..

 

P.S : I love the barrier-less feeling….. =)

Thank You, I embrace You.

Someone aided me in doing the decision of going for the 3rd Dan test 2mr..

I Thank her from the depths of my heart. I think if i did not share it with her, most probably i will give up myself in the thing that i used to love. Everyone knows that TKD is important to me.

I am glad that HE has sent messengers to pull me out from the dark hole. I seriously hope that things will be better.

She made me tear, i hate that….  =) I love her for being supportive by not showing it directly. When it is directly shown, it boosts up my confidence and courage…

Thank you for all the dreams you shared, all the thoughts…

Dedicate this song to my dearest sibling, who really lift me up when i’m down, who listens to me all the time though i dun talk about myself much, who be there for me whenever i need it, who backs me up whenever i’m falling..

You gave me life, and the meaning of life.. You are always there..

I really teared when all the supportive words were said…

Here, this song is for You.. The decision just now was an important one, cuz the ability of me to get up depends on that…

I knw tht you dun accept this much and well, but I do wanna say that I love you lots. I know that it sounds corny, but it is from deep within me. =) You always knw that you’re irreplaceable in my heart. Like what it says in the lyrics.. “ I’ll always pray and embrace those who pulled me though the storm when i wake up…”  You, i always pray for…  my dearest DeEr.

Thank You..

 

 

I love this song more each time i play it….

Peace?

Spent my night with ALO…. I had fun with them, as we get to meet Cheryl!!! whom we did not meet for one year already. Mmm… what a busy gurl huh???

Kuen is having a “RUnaway” disease.

I’m currently running away from…. it.

 

I believe that i will find my way, just like how i found mine in LC. When the time comes, it comes.

I’m in a playful mood this month, so i will try to go anywhere i can cuz i deserve it. Play hard, study extra hard. tht’s my principle.

My life currently is surrounded by changes and surprises. Eventhough its holiday, everyday is a challenge to me too.

I understand the fact that no matter what happens in life, it is really really unpredictable.

THose Alive may be dead, Love might turn to hatred, Affection might turn into denial, Justice might turn into fraud, and Expectations might turn into disappointment.

All these negative images, negative thoughts, sometimes conquer me. However, Kuen has her brain positively trained. Yeah, I still stay positive whatever comes, because i knw, what we have, and what we ought to be, they are all fated. All we do is, try our best, achieve what we want full of faith. We cannot predict what will happen the next hour.

Just like me, I’ve decided to go… , but i ran away.

sigh……. was kinda disappointed with myself just now. Wasnt really in a good mood though. Wanted to stay the whole day at home, watching movies, listening to musics, and do my report, but.. it turned out…. NIL, ZERO.

One month is fast eh?

I live like the only child again………….

 

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HE spoke to me again.

I guess, without HIM, I’m not the one i' am now. My faith is there, it’s growing strong. HE prevents me from deviation, HE showed me what my heart wants, HE showed me where my heart is.

I cannot really explain what happened to me and HIM. It was indeed a great experience. Seriously, without the experience, I wouldnt believe.

 

I am currently still fine, besides working 2mr, i’ve agreed to work on Monday night. Weird eh? Tell you what, I dont deserve the meal last friday. I feel so bad and i wonder anyone can understand how freaking guilty i am. I seriously feel so bad for it. now, I’m trying to make it up by agreeing on it.

Plus, i think that i am ready.

Yeah, this time, I think my heart is ready. I knw i cannot run and hide forever. That’s why i really believe that when the right time comes, everything will be fine.

I made that decision in peace. =)

For now, the only thing that i really wish to happen is… To work in a same shift with DeEr. (which it never will, cuz i think boss scared that both of us will talk instead of work? IF boss does, means she doesnt knw me well… haha) When i think back, the last time we worked together with a same shift is when she was still a Form5 kinasai. She was the new baby, and i worked with her to teach her stuff?? (can’t really remember what i’ve taught her, guess i’m not a good teacher huh…..)LOL!! =)

but the best thing is, i get to knw her. =)

and believe it or not, that time was the last time i worked with her.. and it was 2 to 3 years back. Gosh……

LC is a magical place. Because of it, i found what i wanna do, because of it, i get someone who knows how i feel and what i think, because of it, i get a lot of good and close friends, because of it, i confirm that i like SISSY type of guy… LOL!!! (okay, the last one is not that true…. )

and.. because of it… my intention to run away gets stronger and stronger. Maybe because reality hurts. yeah, it hurts.

 

Time to wash up. I dun wanna mourn over some stupid stuff.

 

GOD, i pray for PEACE for everyone…. Everyone that i love…

                                  

 

 

P.S: My mind is not in peace….

Grrrrrrrrreeeeeaaaaaattttt!!!!!!!!!!!

My attachment days has ended with a graceful fullstop. Say bye bye to the early morning alarm, say bye bye to the drivings, the tiredness, say bye bye to the boredom, say bye bye to lab coats.. hahah!!

nah, indeed, it was a great memory for me. I think i will miss the people over there eventhough they are quite “different”. haha! =)

My last day ended great, i think my site of attachment offers the best service ever to students! we get free lunches, free gifts, free visiting to the production site, and free lectures from Mr Tan and Ms Clarisse Chee.

DAys passed fast right? it;s already 3 weeks, i mean my attachment.

So, i had fun sleeping this morning, knw what? to sleep without being awaked by alarm is a bliss! =)

BAsically, 3 of us slept till we satisfied! yeap, we had a tired night….. in fact, we had tired NIGHTS!

The day before yesterday, we went for AVATAR premiere!! WOW!! IT was GREAT!!! and i’m willing to watch the second time, the third time…. haha!!

                                                   

MUST WATCH!!!! It’s very very GOOD!! I’m impressed by the graphics!!! haha!!! and it has a good story line, non stop action for 2.5 hrs. =)

that night, we were tired, but thanks to the movie, i manage to watch everything. WE reach home around 2am…. haha!!

 

so, yesterday, challenged PRINCSS and the FROG.

                           

Its a nice show!!! i would rate it 8/10 if i were 15 years younger… haha!!! however, i was too tired to watch it, i slept through half of the movie….wasting money right??? LOL!!!!

I like this cartoon though!! =)

 

Today, had lunch with my colleagues, my boss… it was a great one!!! cuz i get to meet all of them!!! =)

Kiat Kiat, Siok Yin, Boss, and of course, my DeEr Toon Toon!! =) her new nick…

okay la, today is the only day i will call her TOOn TOON… cuz my mood is at the good side today. hehe…..

My holiday… it’s like a dream.  PPL (DeEr) worked so hard to earn money, I play so hard and waste money. haha!! This month have to ikat perut and work harder d…. Mmm…. Anyway, it’s just a saying from me la, cuz i am still putting my family as my priority. =) Holiday ma….. =)

My DArLeng is leaving soon. Thanks DeEr for buying him the NOSE PATCH. haha!! he would think of you when he uses it. Yeah, He loves you too. =)

Aiya, me? as usual la…. i alwaYS love both of them.

 

my TUT TUT and my TOOn TOON. muahaha!!!

=)

Xmas is here!!! Merry Xmas in advance!!! I’ll be back to Dungun for Xmas gathering!!! anyway, i miss DeEr’s mummy’s turkey and lamb shoulder… really miss it…

I wanna watch Sherlock Holmes!! anyone please?????? cuz next week onwards, my movies night will be alone d….

Mmm…. how about singing K alone again?? maybe i should try tht…… AGAIN!!! hahaha!!!!!

Actually i am happy that DeEr is heading to another better path. I’m seriously happy for that. At least, she is heading to the right way… i hope she stops banging walls.. I wonder, why isnt her head hurts? LOL!!!

and i’m thinking of her white hair.. feel like pulling it now…. LOL! =)

DArLEng is in a “Anaphylactic shock” situation, he has been thinking a lot lately and i wanna spend some quality time with him tonight if possible.. I’ll miss his back, always sleep on his back, and butt..

I’ll miss his 3 layers fat…

I’ll miss his TUT TUT-ness…

I’ll miss him…..

Eventhough he might sucks in dealing with stuff and people, he is still one of my treasures….

Same goes to, Eventhough she sucks in dealing with her FLOWER-ness, she is still my treasure…

hugs hugs……. =)

 

owh, i’m meeting my DEARS tonight!!!!  my charm from Singapore!!! my dears!! I miss you guys a lot!!!! lets hang out!!!! =)

 

okay, the KIMCHI got my stomach burning… Argh…. Anyway, I still love Korean food! hehe…….

P.S : Shall i ? Shall i not? 2mr is a real dilemma……. sigh…………

who???

        

 

can you differentiate the maturity???? LOL!!

this shows ppl at different stage of life, they demand for different thing.

 

Right?

 

 

 

I Live for YOU. cuz YOU made me who i am now. =)_

 

REgards:

Kuen

 

P.S : SUper tired today. Sleeping early…….

scattered... paragraph.

okay, it felt insulted. but... God's love is greater. HE asks to forgive and forget.. love more. I intend to just release my feelings, not getting shots of bullets back. It makes me feel stupid and i feel like a clown. I wonder is there any thoughts that crossed the mind before the bullets had been shot?

i am back from Jaybee, life is as busy, but yet enjoyable.
Spent my Monday at home, cuz i'm feeling blue..
Plans popped up, but no one to make it true.

Penang, wait for me!!! =)
yes, PEnang has called my name towards it. It dances over me and tempts me to visit and dance with it once again.
No plans yet, but for sure I'm going. Who doesnt want a free accommodation? right?

My night is accompanied by snores and cold air..... My dears are asleep.

Just feel that... what is happening now might be the most stupid moment ever, cuz ppl grow and we do not knw how and when the thinking matures.
Tht's why, I am confused.

If maturity is something that can only be trained and polished by TIME, I wish that time passed faster... Currently, most of them around me are doing the wrong thing.. including me.

I got the message, and as usual, it felt like a deep fresh cut.
No doubt, i agree to whatever it is.
IT somehow made me feel special... but.....
well, unless there's any wrong or any changes, a promise is a promise.

"Promise is a promise"
how many can do that actually?

I knw that no one can really do that sincerely.
For me, eventhough someone has turn me over or leave me to a better place where God knows where, I will still keep my promise.

I've been hurt lots of time.
I've been cut lots of time,
I've been dumped lots of time,
by the same and different individual.

Sometimes, life is just so ironic that the one you love hurts you the most and cuts you the deepest.

Mmm.... way to be thought,... huh?

I realize that i have my own stand and thinking, what comes into my ear will not go into my brain and be programed.
I dun wanna be a retard anymore. I've been one for long.

EAch and every single day, I pray to GOD that he will lead a good life, a good way to my loved ones, and i really hope that they will be able to find it.
Everyone is special, the CREATOR of ALL MANKIND tops the list, if not, how will Human with different character exists?

I am actually sick of getting counter waves. Can you imagine that you are sailing, wave comes.. It looks bearable when only one came. Now, imagine that 5 or 6 waves came to hit your little boat, you will be shaking and falling apart... got drowned finally.


Why can't everyone think before they speak??

=)

Gah, i'm just releasing my feelings. However, 2mr might be a movie night for me, WEdnesday is Ladies night, Thursday is a HAPPY NIGHT! yeah... Friday, will be another brand new day which is designed for me to overcome my fear.

As usual, this is it, this is me. HAving fun, living to the max.

Whatever you do, be sure that you pray and give thanks every morning when you wake up.
.. My quiet time will be spent with quality to speak to HIM and hear HIM speak.

Believe it or not.... I get big experience from above... I wouldn't believe it if i do not experience it.

Night is getting it's signal to rise, I am getting the signal to lie and rest safely on my bed.

Sometimes, i do hope that i have at least a piece of you.. but now, i am thankful that you have a piece of me in you.
Dun be confused, it doesnt mean that i wanna be you. =) You are still precious to me.
I am not sure what's me in you, but i want you to knw and to be sure that yOU are always one of those whom i appreciate and love.


Good night.

A great day of mine!=)

okay, I'm blogging with a freakig small LAPPY!!! My owh my......

I had great fun today. this morning, went to SHOP!!! bought like crazy!! Gosh, the choices of clothes here are better than anywhere else!! GOSH!!!! So, i've bought some of my formal clothes and some CNY clothes. hehe... mummy pays. muahahaha!!!

Had great breakfast with my aunties, yeah.. all the kids were still sleeping tht time. so.. we went off!! then, my niece came!!! Gosh... she is so big now!!!! haha!!! and she is darn smart! had fun with her and had fun bullyibng my cousies... =)

Afternoon, went shopping again,while all the kids were playing badminton in a club.. Mmm... it's time for adults to HAVE FUN!!!! YAY!
Shpped Shopped!!and SHOPPED! GREAT!!! I LOVE MUMMY for her generosity although we'd fell into a financial crisis... Mmmm... long story, better not say. but it's definitely not becuz of our family. we are still surviving good. =)

The Kids came back around 4plus, had some food, the went to SWIMMING AGAIN at 6 plus. So, it's OUR PARADISE to SHOP AGAIN!!!
I went to PC FAIR~! hehe... bought myself a 8GB pendrive at a reasonable bargain, and daddy bought me a Clip On Web CAm.. yes!! can see my DArlings d!!!!
will go again 2mr to enquire about somehting which i'm curious... Blog about it when i'm truly sure about iT!!=)

Just came back from supper th0ugh... anyhow, i did not eat anything cuz the thought of getting extra pounds freaked me out. so.. yeah. Now, I'm blogging...

Chatted with DeEr... As usual la, it's quite happy to see her Stupid face appear on my phone. haha!! yeah when she calls or msg me, her picture will show. Today, kinda special... She talked to me instead of me BLAH everything to her,. I'm very happy for her and she makes me GATAL to see HIS FACE!!!
haha!~!!

If i love him at first sight, you knw la.. He is not to be loved by you... muahahaha!!!! LOL! joking la..... I have a feeling that he will be a nice guy. so....=) soulmate? will see then!! =)

Don't cry. I understand the feelings, very much. =)

I used to be in your situation too, but,. it ended up nothing happened. cuz HE has someone d.. but he cares about me.. guess it's only normal frens huh... so.. yeah, i guess i've gave up now, and be his good friend. till now.. Yeah, we're very very good fren that he can tell me anything, as he trusts me more than anybody.

so yeah...
but i do hope that things will turn fine for DeEr la.. for her case... =)

Time renders everything.
To be honest, My DarLeng made me lost confident.. his immaturity had got me headache..

Hey, TO YOU..
there's something i wanna ask...
As you knw both of them broke up right? but She still keep in touch with me and tell me how she feels...
Sometimes, i just leave it cuz i dunno how should i react.
In YOUR opinion, should i keep contact with her? SOmehow, the ways she feels made me guilty.. cuz my hands, front and back are made of FLESH.

owh, you still have lots of time to choose your c=soulmate.. tk your time. =)

I miss You Lots.
thanks for the things you've done for me...=) As a return, Ill reward you with something special this Xmas. Yes, You'll get a gift from me. =)

regards:
me


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TIme to wash up, cuz 2mr will be another great day!! having breakfast with Uncle Yeoh and Aunty jane!! Aunty JAne! CAn meet you at last!!!





P.S : We've been discussing about both of them.. somehow, HE is still immature..... sigh.....

P.S.S : AL, PRay and thank, Love, Faith Trust to HIM. =)

FIND YOURSELF BACK FAST! =)

YAY!

Reached JB!!! but cousins havent come back yet...anyhow, I'm safely arrived. I can't wait to meet all of them!!!

Just arrived, saw laptops, and my tangan gatal... hehe.....

Today's annual lunch was fantastic!!! More picture info plz visit RAchel Ngiam's blog yeah!!

I had fun eating...

but as what you see, I am not as what you saw. My feelings are still the same. haha!! I'm weird huh???

yeah, totally weird!

The best thing is... HAving the time to meet all of them one shot!! Mmm.. it saves me time huh?

Besides the food, i guess, the other best thing about today is i get to eat buffet with Sissy and Rae.. It's a different experience. =)

okay, Wash up time!! =)

To You,
I'm giving you a personal gift on Xmas... Just for siblings. =) hehe.....

Happy holiday!!! =)


P.S : Miss ya!

fUN FAir!!! =)

         

All of a sudden, i thought of going to this place… It was rejected by Sher and Min Yin strongly cuz.. SHer was not being attracted by Fun Fair, Min Yin wants to sleep earlier.. but all of us decided to go at last… cuz someone attracted Sher with the Spinning Swing!! thanks to Sei Yea!!!!

 

                   

Yeap, this is the Fun FAir we went!!! hehe…

 

                  

Ready…..

             

GET.. SET….

 

                      

GO!!!!!

BANG!!!!

All of us had fun banging each other… (erm.. LOL!! it sounds obscene) haha!!

 

With my darlings, We had fun!!!

 

                         

okay, this is the spinning swing….

I feel nauseated after this ride.. Well, there were 2.. who don’t wanna ride… basically, they took photos and stood there, talking and watching us…

                                         

My DeEr and Sei Yea, Aeris Yee!! =)

 

                       

对你爱爱爱不完。。。。she looks like she is singing the phrase.. haha!

 

                             

I almost got fainted….

 

                           

Still pretend that i can tahan…. haha!! =)

 

                       

You knw what? this thing works backwards.. and i dunno why… haha!!! anyhow, we din manage to ride this.. cuz i was really feeling sick after the last “3 year-old Kid” ride according to SHer!!! (yeah, flip coins, God’s will) LOL.

 

                                   

                     

We rode this… Me, MIn Yin, and Sher!! Sher was sitting beside me, and… WE YELL!!! IT was spinning 360 degrees!!! Sher kept asking :”Kuen, talk to me !! talk to me!!”

I was like.. “ TAlk what???”

Imagine yourself hanging upside down, around 100m from the ground and someone expect you to talk to him/her!??!?!? hahaha!!

I was Yelling.. and at last, i as too tired yelling and i gave up yelling… haha!

Min Yin, she was stable, and She treat the ride as “blowing wind and enjoying the breeze”. Oh My GOSH!!!!!!!!

I was really dizzy and nauseated…. after the ride.

 

                            

deciding what to play after that… haha!

 

                          

Aren’t the dumbo(s) cute???? hehe… look like my DeER right?? LOL!!

 

Well, my Fun FAir trip was definitely a fun one.. at least, i get to find what i’ve lost… although it’s a bit pricey, but it doesnt matter. =)

Although i’ve vomitted like no one else’s business when i got back, well.. it doesnt matter… Spending time with my friends and family is something money cant buy =)

 

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I feel so guilty, anyhow, Someone told me not to feel sorry. Yet, the feeling is still there. I’m trying to endure the pain. Yes, I’m trying hard to overcome it. Seriously, I’m trying very hard.

I went to LC instead, however the Lucky Draw was postponed to the actual day. I’ll draw together with the rest.=)

Sometimes, I feel that… It is nothing much to overcome.. aint it?

Sometimes, I really feel that i am the lousiest person there…

Sometimes, I do feel belonged..

Sometimes, I feel like running away.

 

It is complicated. I dunno where to start and i dun really sure how i’ve started to be like this.

Actually, Work is not the only thing .. another one is my Saturday training. I guess that day she heard my conversation with him tht day and for sure she heard my tears. If she did not hear or witness it, then.. forget it la.

yeah, i dunno what’s wrong with me. Somehow, my heart is not in it…

I need someone to push me from behind… if not, I’ll stay stagnant and permanent. No one can really heal what i feel. Mmm…….

Aiyah… I am running away from it. Seriously, I’ve hide myself for more than a month….

can you imagine that???

 

But i aint wasting my time, i get quality times in return, with my family and friends. I think the most memorable moments are my SAturdays with my family. =)

Spending time with them is the most rewarding for all that i’m going through. It is tiring, and i knw that i cannot remain this way forever.

Somehow, i need to turn and accelerate. I cannot brake forever. right???

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2mr is a happy day.

and i realize that i’m doing whatever things and sacrificing whatever just to be with my family.

 

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Another last thing for this post.. A prayer for baby Kayden, which i will not miss every single day while I' pray for the rest of my loved ones…

God bless baby KAyden.. God, he deserves more than 1.5 years.. He deserves to see this beautiful world Lord. Lord, please bless Kayden with a strong heart to fight the demons, God, please bless Kayden’s family strength to go through all these.. please bless Kayden with happiness GOd, for, again, he deserves it as he is just a toddler. ALthough he is living an extraordinary life, I pray that these are the obstacles that YOU created for him to go through so that he can become a tough fighter God. God, with all your mercy and grace, GOD Bless him.

In the Name of God, Amen.

=)

Long day huh… haha!! yeah, i’ve been missed out blogging for a few days..=)

First of all, Thank God for blessing me… =) I Tell you what, HE exists. Through experience, i can tell you surely… =)

Life has been wonderful and tired. Yeah, my darlings came… Sher and Aeris. They stayed overnight at my place. Mmm….

I’ve got myself some “gifts” from my work.. Believe it or not? I dont think of me when i saw it, I think of HER!!! muahahah!!

sweat nei….

Today, I have lots of thoughts of going to travel.. and i still havent reply the WORKING MESSAGE… seriously, i dun feel like working… but.. i will still think about it… =0

Life has been great…. and I feel kinda relief after yesterday. It is First time of my life…. I embrace the feelings and I will do what i’ve promised.

Thank God.

I am tired..yes, My eyes are tired… but i still have the energy to live my night to the fullest. =)

 

Fun Fair, Laughter, You wait for me. hahahaha!!! =)

 

P.S : I miss you….. I miss you…….

                  

Rainbow after the rain…

Guys, there is always rainbow after rain…

Look Out Point with my FAMILY!!!

 

I love Today SUPER MUCH!!! why? I get to spend my day with…

           

My DARLINGS!!! Dad and mum, My siblings!!!!! Owh, We went to Look Out Point!!! this time, not with my buddies, it’s with my FAMILY!! =)

 

                             

Mmm.. nice place!! =) Cozy, breezy.. WINDY!

 

        Both, cant wait to start eating!! LOL!!!

 

            

Aiks…. DArLeng appeared as GUEST! hahaha!!!! The Guy on the left.. with dunno what lamb. The Woman on the right, Grilled Lamb special i guess… hehe..

come to mE!!!

                     

Spaghetti CArbonara. Yummy!! taste good!!! =)

 

                                    

Owh… such an ugly shot… sigh… haha!!! nvm, I’ll be a good photographer when i get my very first DSLR! =) hehe….

 

The Dinner there was fantastic. Its not the food, but it’s the people that i went with. You knw, I love Family Outing..=)

My parents are kind enough to accept the request to go to Look Out Point.. haha!!! it’s GREAT!!! =)

The food there are okay, not that Expensive, normal rate. Yeah,. for all the Newbies who hvnt been there, dun expect much on food… It’s edible but not that bombastically great. =)

Actually, my mood was affected by the REMINDER to WORK… but.. Suddenly a thought came to my mind, asking me to appreciate and treasure my time with them (my DArLINGS) and embrace it with enthusiasm! Then, after that, FACe what comes 2mr… cuz What will come, it will come. Voices in my head huh? haha!

Now, I think i will carry the support from DeER, and step into the place again. Probably it will turn out great?? isnt it??

Never try again, never knw.

 

Besides outing with FAmily, I had a small gathering with 3 of my old frens in Bukit Tinggi on Saturday afternoon. =) I’m glad to meet them!! talked like no one else!!! However, promised to go to the Warehouse Sale.. sigh.. I’ve bought nothing but a Rm5 floor mate. DarLeng and mummy grabbed themselves a shirt and a Polo Handbag!!! yeah, my DArLeng has been acting like an “AUnty” to squeeze between aunties and grab for handbags!!! haha!! my mum just “sambung” the bag from DArLeng at the back.. Then Mummy pass it to the Malay AUnty beside her.. yeah, she passed all the handbags that she rejected. hahaha!!

My mum is actually a very very cute mum…. and always think on things tht will never happen.. hahahah!!!!

I love her!

I’ve bought myself a ring instead. =) satisfied, cuz i get it at Rm 10 only… muahahaha!!!

DeEr.. she’s the earliest to escape from the WAreHouse Sale and sat beside the road… acting like a beggar? ahahah!

I’m the next to join her. =)

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Well, today is definitely a contented day for me!! Morning Bah Kut Teh with my siblings, AFternoon meet up my friends. Night, outing with my parents and siblings..and had dinner with them at a cool place!!! =)

I dunno whether DeEr will feel paiseh onot la… I seriously hope she wont and she definitely act like a muka tembok. :-P LOL!

I think that she really understands that I’m not treating her as an outsider.. and i dun hope that she will feel so. Anyway, she blends in well?  =)

 

mum,

He will never be ATTACHED to HER, SHE will never be ATTACHED to HIM.. okay!! Mummys, they tend to think too much… Based on the frequent outings that we had.. =-=

LOL!

I treasure today. Will Embrace 2mr…

 

P.S : Thanks for your existence in my life.. I’m happy that you are happy. I’m happy whenever i’m with the two of you too. =) Dunno since when, you have become a part of me, a part of me and him, a part of us. May your smile shine on …… cuz It’s stupidly beautiful. =)

 

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More photos and story, visit RAChel Ngiam’s blog.

Klang MAU SANG KOR BAh KUT TEH, please dun go!!!

I’m writing an insulting post today. Bear in Mind, I’m a Loyal Klang residence, with full of proud feelings to our local delicacies, which is BAh Kut Teh… Except for this……

I’m going to play a role as a FOOD CRITICISOR today.

I went to Pandamaran’s SO CALLED FAMOUS MOU SAN BAH KUT TEH with my siblings today.. I heard it is nice and so on….

but.. it turned out LOUSY!!!!

We asked for “WU HUA” meat, which is supposed to be soft and lean, but we were served HARD LEAN MEAT!

Okay… i thought it’s okay la, it’s their mistake and we were being nice enough to accept it.

Normally, we asked for more soup, cuz we love to drink soup.. Seriously, The most important thing in Bah KUT TEh is the Soup besides the meat. Another thing is, ATTITUDE.

This MAU SANg KOr BAH KUT TEH has a STINGY ATTITUDE!!!

you knw how pathetic is the bowl they used to refill the soup of the customer???

IT IS SMALLE THAN A BABY’S BOWL!!!  this really pissed me off…

and they did not fill up the small bowl!! it’s only one quarter filled and the soup in the pathetic small bowl is shared among 3 of us!!! so, it’s basically less than 1 tablespoon per person. (less than 15 ml per person) can you imagine?

We asked 3 times for the refill, then only the first refill came.

The second time we asked, it’s the same qty.

The Third time, i asked the maid, the maid look at our bowl and said: “ Masih ada lagi ma…”

I was like… OWh gosh, this kind of attitude ar?? DarLeng kept saying :" “NO MORE NEXT TIME!!! “

yeah, DarLEng still purposely wanna ask for more soup as a revenge.. but Each time they come with the Stupid super small bowl, i feel pissed.

Of course, we left with unfilled stomach.. (yeah, it’s not filling).. plus a heart to write bad comments about this BAH KUT TEH. I took photos of this OUTLET.. in Pandamaran. Guys, PLEASE DO NOT GO!!! i FEEL like a beggar over there, and being treated as a beggar over there based on the qty of soup they give. PATHETIC!!!!

The total bill was.. RM 34 plus …

OWH MY GOSH!!! I’ve never eat so EXPENSIVE BAH KUT TEH in KLANG BEFORE!!!!

3 person, 2 rice, for RM 34 plus???

money sucker…

this is one of the branches summore…. GOSH!

 

                    

Do NOT STEP INTO THIS RESTAURANT!!! PLEASE!

yeah yeah, i knw, this restaurant was in the newspaper before for the best traditional BAH KUT TEH… but HELL! it’s not TRUE!!!!

Things wont be nice with a STINGY BOSS!!!!

and WE wont STEP into IT AGAIN!!!

 

!$#$%^&*&^%$%^&*&^%$%^%$$%^^&&

GOsh….

 

Due to unfilled stomach, went to Dim SUm the second round instead….

sigh…..

still, eating the same, good, best thing is always the BEST CHOICE!

 

Cool down……………….

 

P.S : WAreHouse SALE!!!! hahaha!!! WANNA GO!!! WANNA GO!!!

P.S.S : Can drop me a mail or call on the best Bah Kut Teh in Klang… haha!!! Seriously, there are other places which are NICER than THIS MOU SAN Bah KUT TEH!!!!!

Great Friday. with them.

Today’s attachment, Thanks to Clarisse Chee that we are able to visit the Engineering department!! it is very very interesting!! Her image crossed my mind!! cuz she is currently doing Chem Engineering.. and they said the machines are monitored by Chem Engineers and Mechanical Engineers.

I seriously wish to pass what i’ve seen to her!!!!

aLl the Water purifying machines, theories behind it, the flow rate of water, the Filters, and cation and anion filters.. plus the Air Filters, which includes Primary filters, Secondary Filters and HEPA Filters… GOSH!! and the WAter Treatment Plant!! how the waste water are being treated before it is released to the environment!! The sludge production, Aeration which needs bacteria.. Owh Gosh!! I wish i could video down the whole thing and bring it back!!!!!!!

I wish that She could be there to share the knowledge actually!! that’s why i was so excited to visit the Utilities there!!

Well, today is another contented day….=)

Tired.. as usual… but, I was filled with enthusiast of Shopping in JJBT…

However, went there with my cute lil DeEr.. Love her!!! Instead of HEr teman me shop, it became i teman her.. haha!!! nah, my mood was killed by the MARKET Environment of JJBT! sweat.. went there for less than an hour.. Went to Supper instead.. with DarLeng. haha!!

Both of them really made GREAT BULLY KINGS and QUEEN team!!! and both of them are my siblings.. who are really SIMILAR in a way except for their sex. =_-

haha!!!

I really enjoyed my time with them!! Seriously.. God knows how much i love both of them!!! =)

I really wish that time pass slower…. Time with them pass slower, Saturday pass slower.. SUnday pass Faster… Gah… I’m so dead.. I am really really dead.

Dear, I really dunno how to find it back…

sigh…

the message i Got from my prayers is FACE it. FACing it is always the way to get through it.

Another message i get from my prayers is… Listen to God instead of ASking from God. Cuz God has already given the way and guide.. all you need to do is listen and follow.

MAybe, it is time for me to step out from my comfort zone.

I really need a push from behind…. Just push me, eventhough i may fall into the drain… Mmm….

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It is as wat i expected. SHE has shaken.. her heart is shaken.. this FLOWER HEART of my dear.

It’s confusing…yeah!! I admit. Anyhow, the solution is in you, cuz feelings is a very subjective thing. It is like, when the fruit ripes, you have to peel and eat it. That’s how i think.

It has a lot of interpretations, and it depends on how you think and how you feel at the very moment. =)

At least i am right about the types of problem she is having. =) Proud neh… can still read her mind when she shakes her big round butt!!! hahaha!!!

owh, there’s a song i wanna share with you.. From Leona Lewis…

STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT- LEona Lewis.

I personally find this nice and i wanna dedicate to my lil round butt DeEr.

May your smile
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Same old saying, no matter what you’ve become, where you are, or you have no one to turn to or you’ve become a totally different person, Dun doubt my love to you, My DeEr lil sis. May your smile shine on.

BE Safe… BE good… Be happy.

DarLeng, I think you’ve grown up. Of course, i’ll say the same thing to you like what i’ve said to DeEr. I love you with all my heart. As what you’ve been through, you knw that i’ll be with you too no matter what.

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yeah, some of you may wonder, who are both of them? whom i treasure so much?

Erm.. should i repeat my history?? haha!! no need la… DeEr and DarLeng are the person who fills half of my heart. If i can pour love physically or Love is a liquid, i will pour as much as i can on them. So that they can be filled with it. haha!! Sorry yeah, i have bad descriptions and analogues.=)

One thing’s for sure, no need mnemonics or analogues, one phrase that means all the things that i feel towards them…

I Love YOU. Yeah.. You and YOU. =)

I knw it sounds corny, but that’s the truest thing from me… to you guys.

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My heart is so cold… especially on Sunday’s activity. Can you believe that my heart is COLD completely on my Saturdays?? I’ve did it again… I skip my class on Saturday… I rather spend my time in LOOK OUT POINT. sigh…..

I feel like a loser…. Anyhow, i cannot RUN Forever. I knw that.

BE with me. BE with me. Be with me…

 

P.S: I shall listen to “Try to find your feelings back”…

TO You,

Ignorance is not always a bliss.. especially ignorance to what your heart says.

on the other hand, ignorance towards other ppl that you feel like ignoring is a bliss.. sometimes.

I can feel that you are suffering, suffocating, trying your very best to get over this feeling and trying your best to be okay. You knw what, as time goes, i knw that you will be okay… cuz i have so much faith in you that you can overcome it.. just like how you’ve overcomed all your suckie feelings previously.

Don’t get too hard on yourself. If you believe that what you are doing now is right, then you may follow what your heart says.

And you do knw tht avoiding is not the best solution. IT might be temporary, but somehow, you have got to come out with the permanent way.

No hurry, tk your time.. Do it when you are really ready.

I din mean to make you shed most of the time… you knw that.

All of these comes from my true heart. My words for you.. from the depths of my heart.

You always knw that I’ll be there if you have no place to go, no where to hide, no holes to burry…

My prayers will still be with you, till the very last breath of mine.

have faith in yourself.. Belief. Most importantly, be strong. If you ever collapse, fall on me so that i can support you from behind.

For now, go with what your heart is comfortable with… You will hear what your heart really really wants when the right time comes. dun worry…

Let me cheer you up with something… My second jumpsuit photo. Taken today, at the Steroid Production site.. laugh la, cuz i look like a ninja, and i look dumb.. haha!!

                                            

I look like teletubbies, right??? the retarded GAY TUBBIES! haha! LOL..

 

Let’s eat on Friday night, Saturday morning, and Greenbox after that!!!! i miss your Ah Du voice!! so much!!! =) and your super silly stupid face….!! =)

smile… =) my DeEr.

 

regards

Me

To you…

 

whatever your heart feels, it’s the way your heart wants you to feel.. Probably your heart wants you to act that way.

If you are confused and heartbroken, sit down and listen to it… Your heart will speak to you…  Listen to what your heart wants… instead of going against it and keep asking why…

Act upon how your heart want you to be…

There’s nothing that you cannot overcome…

I am still praying for you every single day since God knows when…

 

Follow what your heart really wants.

 

 

I miss you too…

 

and promise that i’ll be good in attachment… you too, be good till i see you next time.

 

Regards:

ME.