Mi duo micasa, a place where i belong. :-)

CURTAIN'S CLOSING. IT'S TIME TO SHIFT.

TO BE HAPPY IS A CHOICE.-----Ikeda Sensei

WHAT IS MY CHOICE?
WHAT'S MY ANSWER?

haha!

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THE END.

power supply is dying.................

for the last time...


ADIOS EL BLOG.

BIENVENIDA EL TONTO LA CEBOLLA, MI DUO micasa..
MI DUO MICASA.. a place where i belong. :-)

Muy bien! (^.^)

Soup of the day.

Hunter starts to hunt...
birds start to escape..

did ok in the quiz, get more than half, 50% correct. so, still satisfied.

The soup of the day: Bluewave skinned tomato black pepper soup.

Sweet,salty, sour and hot.

It suits me today. :-)

Yan, i would like to learn more of Sensei's teaching... i hope i can be part of it. I need to lift and upgrade myself.... now.
It's time for me to leave Me.
You are the only one who can help me.
cuz.. it's time for me to leave ME.

:-)

my day is good.
so... i'll maintain. hahaha!@!!
for how long?
till the day i burst? maybe?

Chuol-su hamida....?
is that a good word to mend everything ?
I'll ask O-pah...
how to promise O-pah for all the fear factors?
Like putting salt in mouth and say that it's sweet??
Mmm... O-pah, bad O-pah....
No more pyul,
I guess??
haha...
sarcastic.


"It ends tonight, It ends tonight, just a little in time to make this right?"

haha... i dont think so. :-)

ok, gtg for lab.

Curtain's closing... slowly. It's time to change the props. Move to another chapter.
No more frequent spitting, no more frequent snoring, there's only frequent abandoning.
The sketch.... ends.

-----------------------ThE EnD---------------------------------------------

Wish to see me again . As the mainactress in the sketch. :-)

haha! will aim for Oscar though!


--D.O.A is transforming, evolutionary era rules.--

----siiu Ryu----

no one is wrong except for me.
Forgive me for not being CONSIDERATE ENOUGH for everything.

Maybe i am stupid and wrong in my way. so...


thanks for blurting out ur feelings.


Arghh... footsteps after rainy day...

24th august is a great day for fullstop for everything... a.ka Olympic closing.

mercy...

Lo siento,
yo soy no bienvenidos.
perdone..

haha!!
one world one dream?

one word one...? shit....?

haha! that was from my bro though......

adios...

DArk sword.

Rain drops on a sunny day.
well, it should be sunny but it turns out to be rainy.
DAng...

wow, i think i am on the crossroads now.
turn back? turn left? turn right? go straight? or just fly away?

haha... is there any grinding machine that so that i can ground myself in the floor forever ar?

sarcastic..

hehe... enough of that la...

I finally know Mt Lexus or nexus.. whatever la... He is super nice!!
Mios dios! haha!
Handsome, humble....

anyhow, i managed to serve him just now... ha! should take his pics man!
just like Julene said... he is a very good guy. yeah, discount pun banyak sikit!!

I should've offer him to buy MIMS for him... dang, i gave him the PJ bookstore number.... haha! menyesal-nya........

hopefully i still get to see him next week la... tht time i will really offer to buy for him if he hasnt bought it!!! ha! evilnya...

haha!!

Just once....

Just like i've missed the chance just now. Say that i am hallucinating. eh, if i offer to buy for him,i may get his number, i may get his email.. i may get to know him better... hahahaha! keep dreaming la...
pang sai pun tak de masa, apa nak buat?
haha!

wait la...
wait till suitable time . :-)

maybe wait till i am old enough to sleep in the coffin la.. DARN!

Kavitha said Kayden is doing fine. i wanted to visit her... but wait till at least one month la... now she wanna rival my eye bag d... ha! kesian her, let her rest.

Julene is still finding the AVENT sterilizer.. haiz... dunno whether she ordered d or not.... cuz it's almost one month d!!! Kayden is almost one month old!!!! the aunty, always forgetful..
maybe 48 hours a day is not enough for her oso.. it's true. just like taking care of Girl gIrl, time flies man. I can feel it too. watcing her climbing up and down. dancing, keep repeating Jungle Book, MAgic English... watch her bath, help to feed her, played with her to keep fit, baby talk to her... fighting toys with her.... teaching her hpw to PRESS today. She finally learnt it!!

time really flies man....
I know, this are only once in a lifetime. You cant really see her growing process if you've missed it now. cuz... we cannot turn back time.
that's why, She grew taller since the last 2 weeks!!!
see?I've missed te height growing process.
I just wanna give her the best! :-)

Note : SHe is a busy Princess. cuz she is busy playing everyday.. :-)

I hope i get to see her grow into an adolescence, and adult. by the time, am i still here?
i dunno.
Fate is a mystery. You wont know what will happen next. right??
unpredictable.

Dumb Onion is being killed softly.
POisoned...
DArk onion...
DArk Onion....

Drak Sword perfoms, being masticated by the sharp ends, AL, i finally understand how you feel. It's big sis's mistake for such thing.

DArk Onion has been doob enough all thw while. stupid right?
very stupid.

haha!!

Rosie, i'm no clever onion. i am only a dumb chica,tonto la cebolla livin la vida loca. You are right. i finally digested what you told me tht day.
I hope it's not too late to realize.

:-)

Smile underneath a sword.
How's the feeling?
as i am the one holding it.

:-)

notty RAchel...

just visited Baby Rachel!!! hooray!!!

she is as notty as ever.. very very notty.. keep patting my breast... haha!! i dunno why.. she was suppose to pat my stomach, but.... tersasar pula.... haha!!!

Bought the block for her, that day, with 50%!!! (i did that , yes..)haha!

she loves it.. yeah,a good tool to THROW~!! she's super good in throwing and swinging things now...
and.. she really knows how to walk a few steps d!!! and the most brilliant, she knows how to pronounce 'CAR" !!!! haha!! cute!!

she likes dancing with Music, with the JUNGLE BOOK! haha!! maybe i'll buy something else for her la.... hehe....

I went home after finish feeding her and seeing her mandi, cuz it's time for her to sleep d... ha!!
and... the MAgic English i bought, i think she can use it till 4 years old... haha!!
I am upgrading her... LOL!!! some toys are just too easy for her... the block is just nice, it's a good toy for visual learning.. haha!!


She is like a worm, she cannot sit still... likes to walk, likes to play, and likes to lie down the floor and see what's underneath the sofa.... and by then, she'll get one-sided rosie cheek cuz she lies one side... ha! CUTE!!!!


she understands a lot of things and.... she knows a lot of things d... cannot really simply talk in front of her. She learns things very very fast, only one time, she'll remember... my goodness..

She is taller though....!!!

the latest way to feed her, drink milk with spoon and Calci-yum. haha! it's a must.. oh ya, if i'm there, handphone is a must. haha!

tis electronic girl..... so CUTE!!!

She loves devices , i dunno why.. and very "cho lor", tomboy.... haha!

cute!!!

her laughter still rings in me.... wahaha!! it makes me forget everything... my stress... probs... ha!

That day when i was doing my presentation, someone asked who's the one on my desktop? cuz i put Baby Rachel's photo... they said :" she looks like you la..."
but they dont dare to ask :" is that ur daughter ar?" why? cuz they believe that i'm not married. and they always said that i hv a boyfriend. haiz....

ya, normally i will answer them.. " she's my daughter, she looks like me right?" haha! they believed... Sweat! see oso know la, aku lalat pun tak da, mana datang telur lalaT?? haha!


Anyhow,
today's sale was ok.. with good customer flow... happy, but i was hypo..hypoglecaemia, i slept at 4.40am this morning, woke up at 7.40... i know i cant stand... so i took a tab of multivite.. luckily..still can stand.
i did not take my bfast...
hungary.... it makes me mad. i was blur,.... haha!

but good though!
I met Sue today.. she came for the test too!

Julene went too, luckily she did not pengsan.. she did not tk bfast oso... and she suddenly msg me that we'll open at 8.40am this morning. haha!
so.. i slept 10 mins more. :-)

now?
i am quite happy, to see Rachel is healthy, and she's in a good growing process. ha!

i did not manage to tk her pics, why? cuz she moves non stop!!!! and i cant get a good shot to post up here...
hehe...

hope one day Rachel will spoil my phone la, then i hv reason to buy a new one.. kakakakakaka.....

ok.. i wanna finish up my report now. 2mr got pop quiz summore, and.. i'm going back 2mr early morning, good la, can teman my HOUSE more... hehe...


Jet'aime.

muacks.

ja!

Angel and demon, are you?

a good night!!!

cuz the one who always absent is present.

Julene kept reminding me :" kuen, remember to ask Wei Lee out lo.. remember lo, this coming saturday night.. i'll confirm the place with you later.. remember lo, ask her out!!"

this was the conversation last sunday. she kept reminding me...

and it makes me think of what Ms. Yap told me... few months ago, :" kuen ar, Julene very sayang you and wei lee ..till "chut jap".. do you know that? me, as an outsider oso can see... she really really sayang both of you very much" She said in Hokkien.
Me? I forgot what i answered.... but as time passed, i realized that it's true.

I guess no one really makes Julene feels the way she feels now gua.... I mean, interaction, communication wise, it cannot happen with PF, so, i am glad. really glad.

I guess we influenced her a lot, and she'd changed a lot since Baby Rachel exists. :-) yup, it's true.

I did not think that i would become so close to her when i first work in Life Care. When i think back, it feels like it's has just happened yesterday. The memory of me interviewed by her is still fresh in me.
yea...
I mean, she really treat us nice la..
but.. What Ms Yap said is true..i can see it now. :-)

Talk about tonite, Huey Ling...haiz... me personally was happy cuz i get to gather with a bunch of colleaque, a.k.a friends.... but why she weared the shoe!!!!! haiz.... Stupid....

again, she tried to do everything i did.. the JENGKA>... aiz...
forget it la...
I'm sure that she wont blend in..and she cant. so.. sorry again@@!!!

Kenji came to my house with Fiona. hehe... should see his new hairstyle!! he is so handsome!!!
my goodnes....
My boyfriend... he is the first boy i feel like kissing all over... haha!!!

Kenji! kenji!!!


Actually, happiness is always coming hand in hand with sadness, i duno why, it always happens to me. whenever you see me doing something strange with whatever i hv... means, theres something wrong with me d.

I am even sad-der tonite.
Things changed.
and...
i dunno why.
Is it because of what i wrote?
of what i said?
or what i showed?
or what i am???

obviously, i am drown in confuseness.
so...

That is the real me?
what do you expect?
to change my style? so that you can accept?
huh?

hey... please...
is it i'm the one who changed? or...the other way round?
SIS, is that what you did, you did it on purpose?
am i so disgust?
you cant give me an answer... why?

You hurt me...
it feels more like a discrimination to me.

W.Iyng told me straight forward before... :" Kuen, i know you wont tell ur prob to others, but i know that you are not happy sometimes. You can find someone to talk to, it's better."

ya, i know. but who?

The things that is happening to me makes me even keen to close myself up.

I still remember, i replied W.Iyng :" know what? for me to trust a person, i need a long long time... and for me, i think that things that i can settle it myself, i wont tell others. cuz... I can settle lo.."

Actually it's not. what lies deep in my heart is.... " I dont hv the confidence that ppl will listen to me...I'm scaews to be other ppl's burden... and ppl always thought that i dont hv prob. so, for me, it is weird to talk to ppl bout myself.
I dont like to talk about myself, i prefer ppl to know my character through knwing me as friend."

i am not disappointed, i am just... i dont understand why it suddenly changed.

stupid me.

haha!! anyhow, it wont bother me for long la. as... i will still be me.
I know it is hard to change my personality so that i can fit into others. i dont want. I dont wanna lose my identity.

Anyhow, i think that... for tonite's situation to "repeat" again, it needs at least 2 more months... aha!!!

No point thinking of what has happend, cuz you cant ammend what has happened, the emotional damage caused is irreversible. What's damaged is damage. so... leave it to sink and be sediment.

right?

For me, hurt is hurt, what's done is done, no point looking back.

I still remembered W.Iyng said about a start of relationship, " a spark starts a relationship, but in the long run, it's not the spark that maintains it, it is the way of how you communicate."

I feel it's true.
for any realtionships.

As for Julene and me, what makes us start?
i think it's Rachel and PF.
I think i was the first staff who she asked me to touch her stomach when baby rachel is stll inside her womb.
because of PF, Julene sees more and compares more? i guess?
another reason, fate?
My attitude?


It's a long blog. i just have so many things to express.
Someow, i still feel that blog is a little restricted for me..
:-) but i still manage to voice out everything. :-)

Angels,
are you sent from up above?

demons,
are you sent from up above? too?

how to differentiate between angels and demons?

are you an angel and demon?

I can admit that.... YES, I AM.

I bet.....
everyone plays both the part.

Jet'aime
Muacks.

ja!

my boyfriend and i....

These pics are actually from Fiona.... haha!!! i "curi" her phone and see her pics... these are the NICEST apart from her OWN PHOTO!!!!! haha!


my boyfriend... haha!


I think he has the talent of posing... it's hereditary though!!! haha!
he is just too good in posing.... haha!!! cute!!! muacks!!!


haha!!! see? told you right? he can be a super model!!!


Killa..... " i'm cool..."



well, me, FIFI and Kiat Kiat went yum cha yesterday!!! we reached about 10.50am. I picked W.Iyng up... ha!
ok, let me start before that...

I finished class, drove back, but heavy rain in klang area, so... decided to went for a movie in Bky Raja jj, but... time tak match, so..cancelled. I went to Popular, hehe... since i hv cash on me.. well, i've bought....

Breaking Dawn!!!! my fav writer other than the Harry Potter writer!, JK Rowling!!!!

Tell you, i love Twilight... i was first exposed to Twilight, her best selling book by an exchange student from USA, Joanne. She is way younger than me, i remembered, we celebrated Deepavali last year, so, we chatted about our countries and... books basically. She was reading Twilight that time, she said it was a good book and told me wat is it about... so... i read. haha@@ mana tahu... cannot pull myself out pula.. ha!
Breaking Dawn, i hvn start yet, cuz i'm scared. planned to start this year end.... haha! cuz once i read, i'll forget about everything, it's just like catching up drama, i'm catching up chapters by chapters. Still remember, i read 5 books of Harry Potter within 1 month!
my goodness....

It's a nice book! and cheap!! 39.90 !! haha!

then.. went back home, sang alone!!!! like crazy!!!!

after that,
I had dinner with GodMA.. and then.. we shopped a while.. bought things for little angels instead of company use. hehe.....

I told Fiona that i am phobia though.... anyhow, i guess my phobia has gradually becoming trauma. I guess it will become trauma one day... haha!!
I was down yesteday after dinner. Guess because of stress and phobia...
then..
I've rejected my old frien's yum cha, went to SGM, for a Sharing Convention.
Thank God i went there, I've thought of many things..thanks to Yan who asked me to go. I went there with a puzzled mind, cuz i know.. i need some appetiser for my mind.. and i need to find out reasons and solution for my problem.

thank god, after the Sharing, i found it..

Ikeda sensei said :" if you come to a place and failed to do the things you are supposed to do, it will be the same wherever you go.."

The sharing opened up my mind.. really. there is not just about study in life. I feel so small in the Sharing session, ppl has overcome tonnes of difficulties in life, and they'd success, some takes 20 years, so.. what is my problem compared to them? it's so small..
I've learnt that, if you've set ur target to do something and do it full effortly, and pray for what you want, you'll get those eventually...
that's why, i've learnt a lot of things there.. so what? my phobia is just a needle to them. it's nothing!

I truthfully thanked Yan for asking me there. and i dunno what of the sudden and what happened to me, i went there after being rejected. haha! reached there around 9pm.. the sharing session ends at 10.15. so.. i am glad that i went. It gives me strength to carry on again.

Then, i went to Wenn Iyng's house. Fetched her, reached Old Place around 10.50. Fiona was there d.. we started Chatting... Yong Kiat was late!!! he was the Cinderlala!!! haha!! note! CINDERLALA!! he reached at 12am!!! Cinderella went home at 12, but he came at 12. haiz...
Funny guy.

We chatted like crazy la... basically, i was quite tired d... but, i still talk.. i think if i did not laugh, i will just doze of by laughing. Imagine, how tired am i? haha!

we chatted till 3.30am... Kiat Kiat already leave at 2 something, cuz he's working the next morning. so...
oh ya, thanks to 3 of them, they actually belanja me.. i dunno why, when i wanna pay, they said :" Ah neh, jgn ambil dia (me) punya, ambik ini... " i was like ;" huh? what happened?""
FIFI : " next time you belanja bah kut teh la... haha!" ok, of course i hv no problem la.... ha! W.Iyng said :" Kuen, dun wan la, u always pay... not this time la.. please..". i was like... " ok ok... go ahead..." aiz....


so... I guess mamak-ing is still my type!

:-)


Anyhow, I sent W.Iyng home at 3.30... reached her house... and... she kept talking till..... 5AM!!!!! my goodness, i was so sleepy.... that time, i can really sleep by just talking.... i dunno what am i talking oso, i was so... blur!!! i just want a bed and just sleep... i was just nodding the whole process, did not do much talking though..
Rose, i finally understand...

We talked till.. her maid woke up and start doing housework...
see???

no more next time, i told myself.

Once i came back, i did nothing, , took off my blanket...switch on the aircond.. then... sleep like i hvn been sleeping for centuries...i just sleep.

my goodnes...

this is the second time after the first with Stupiak Girl...
i am sleepy now, still, report hvn finish.. haha!

It's afternoon now, Fiona just went back with Kenji..
He cut his hair!!! cute!!!!!!!!!! handsome-nya my boyfriend... haha!

I missed baby Rachel.. a lot.
she knows how to walk a few steps d!!!! haha!!
cant wait to see her though!!! :-)

ok la, i wanna take a nap..

ja!


I hope my mood will come back when i wake up. :-)

Blessings.

Your happiness is my gladness,
Your sadness is my sorrow....


Angels,
are you sent from God Above?
Is that the problem that God gave is to avoid us from another big problem?
Innocence is salient...
why? why?
Give me a clear answer for the blur picture...

Please give strength to those who needs it..
Please forgive those who needs it...


Your love,
is our strength.


I understand from you that....
NOTHING can come from NOTHING..

GOD bless...

Tired... but .. bearable>>??

bro is leaving 2mr... sob...sob....

I found something... about myself...

I fell awful when HE terTOUCHED me.....
eeeww......

I dunno why....

Whenever HE terSENTUH, i feel disgusting... yucks....

so plz..... dun come near me again...... i really feel disgusting...


Read Shuennie's blog, well... I found that my class is full of NEVER -GIVE UP ppl!!
and... including me!!!
haha!!!

I only feel stress... very stressful on alternate Wednesdays.. cuz it's D&C lab..
anyhow, i know i've disappointed my lecturers, bad impression? ya... i think i gave a bad impression on my lecturers, it makes me feel that i a not a good person, not good enough.
That's why, I am regret on what i've done. and i've promise myself not to repeat my mistakes. and... I will never give up... for sure.

Fail once doesnt mean that i'll fail forever. I've been through the most depressing moments, that's why, i always beleive that there's nothing i cannot go through.

Good though..
i mean, it's a good practice for my future though..
I know, i hv no turning back, and i never thought of turning back too.
so... keep holding on.

Sometimes i do feel tired.
but... i've learnt to be spirited up after every fall, as...falling down has becoming a common phenomena in my life now..

so... DumbOnion sure can do it.
just... try my very very best.



P.S : Stupiak girl, i can help ur lappy, but hv to be weekends. and... remember, ur saturday night is mine. MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Jet'aime.
Muacks!!

ja!

ASS...ASS...ASSignments.... bad ASS...

glad tht my bro and family came to visit me yesterday... wed nite.. though i'm going home today. :-) my aunty and uncle came.... Song's parents. in fact, they are going to JB today, to my another aunty's place.

well, what can i say? I've spent the night with them...and... haiz.. i couldnt do my asignments as i was very tired after i came back to my little Sarang.

so.. now.. with my lappy,i'm doing my presentation slides. Stupid connection, very limted, as i'm too far from the library.

very glad that i've get to hv some marks in my Dispensing and Compounding lab test yesterday. I cannot afford another BIG ZERO!! it strikes my heart too hard.. I mean, i accepted the fact tht i get ZERO and.. i dont blame anyone besides me... just that, i dont wan another egg...

well, Yan's quote do work though. i am now popping up from an egg to a little chicken. hehe...

Bro will be going back 2mr morning, yep, friday morning.... sob...
anyway, i am very impressed that... he completed 9 assignments out of 13 !!!!! my goodness....

he is having sleepless nights at home though, doing assignments....
me? my sleepless nights began centuries ago...

It is not good to be awaken by stress and shock...
i hate this...
my eye bags...so dark. yesterday was even darker....
and Kavitha said that she ca rival my eye bags... ha!
i can imagine the Zombie look though... haha!

"I'm going home, to a place where i belong, where your love is always been enough for me..."

it suddenly rang in my head...
so... just sang....

ok...
i dont wanna waste my time anymore...
Pray hard, i hv presentation later... and i know i can do well??
hehe... i definitely will.

The emulsion yesterday was... COD LIVER OIL smell... and.. i kinda dislke the smell... anyway, glad that the dose and Signa are correct....

anyhow, i tried my best.
so... i think i'll just bear with any results and marks i get. :-)

Jet'aime
Muacks.

going home!!!! haha!!



P.S : wei... got ppl complain ur blog means it's no good.... anyhow, the design that day was.... EEEWWW... hahaha!!
hv u heard before? "Customers are always right?" well, know what? " visitors are always RIGHT!!!!"
roger that???
hahahaha!!
see ya around!@!
do msg me if you want me to fetch u on Friday. :-)

Lift me up... plz.

The new guy, Kelvin FFK!!!

how could.....
haiz.....


Mios Dios!!

I wont trust him again... u've left a bad impression on us!! leaving all tis shit behind so tht we can clear it for u?? dorkball!

i am stressed.
quite stressed.. haiz..
but hv to overcome too.

just voicing out.
and... i dont think i am a good person though.
I hv monologue, internally..
i feel tired for all these.
i feel tired for thinking of the road i hv to walk. the duration... everything.

I'm scared tht i cant hold on.
Gosh, i feel so weak now.
Perhaps, i should tk a nap later... before i hv my spirit back again.

Dont blame lunch, yeah, i skipped lunch.

i feel heavy, mentally.. something like depression..

can someone held me through all these??

It's like... heavy load! loads!!! loadsss!!!!
my workload.. my stress...

Sometimes, when i see my bro, i dunno why i chose this life. Yeah, i love the job. i dont like the life...very much.
Bro can aford to travel, hv fun... me? I can only afford to sleep, .. i only get to balance up during weekends.

hush... hush....
i am stupid.
2nd year still seem so weak.
Mentally tired... really tired.
however, i know, i still hv to face these busy life. This is what i chose... and you know what i oversee???.. i oversee the process...

so?

I still hv to walk through, no matter it's damps or bumps, or humps.

like i always said..
i hv to walk,
for a long journey....(though GodMa said it's short)
i'll walk happily.... as happy as i could. Enjoy the moment.. enjoy the studying time i hv, enjoy everything.

I will.... and i can do it!!!!! for sure!!!!!

be happy....... be tough...

i will.

DumbOnion, jet'aime.

the most salient....
be happy.
enjoy everything.. ur classes, ur friends, ur day.....

Admov. hapiness. s.o.s.
mitte. ft. happy cap, t.i.d, forever.

Insipidus feedbackdus.... feeling is mitt. ft. rubb.

I feel like writing something now..

haha... while listening to the songs in Stupiak Girl's blog. :-) nice songs eh.. my taste.

well, are you guys aware of Olympic??
our fate towards the first gold in the history will be determined today!!! badminton, Chong Wei and Lin Dan.!! i am so excited!!!

This blog was actually meant to Stupiak Girl.

Like i said, i never blame you for anything. why? dunno.... i guess you know gua...
:-)

I guess the fate with small didi really minds you. well, like i told you, hv u ever consider? ok, i know HE is also younger than you, one day.. but..
I dunno.. i believe, you are mature enough to think for ur own. and it's good that u can locate something's wrong now.

I really understand the situation.
but when i put my shoes in his, i realize the same situation too. Maybe he thought of what you've thought of too.
so...
it's ur choice whether to "cut it ", or keep it in the freezer.
As... there are too many consequences to bear when you tk either move.

Maybe you guys can hv a "calm down" period to really think about what u guys want, and what's in you guys's minds.

(but still, this is a hard move, as u guys meet everyday.. 6 days a week man!!!)

(oh ya, i dont care, next sat i hv to be cruel, i wanna fight for ur night.. ha! make sure u leave only one pathetic night for me...!!!):-)

back to my topic.

ya, U love him, but you love the 'homework free' him. (eh, for me right, i will give my dar dar a tight punch if he force me to do what he is suppose to do on his own...)

ok, i'll say something practical. Like u said, just talk it out. If you wanna save this relationship, save it before it collapse.
At least u've tried something...
so that... when bad situations do happen, you wont be regret cuz you've done wht you've done.

honest speaking la, u know i always have a "not so good" impression on him... not that i hope you guys will break fast la... hey, i wont ever do that k? I can be ignorant for anyone else, but as for you, i will respect you fully and support whatever you do.
this is true. that's why.........


Perhaps, talking out technique has been on ur mind though, just tht each are waiting for the first move.
When's the first move be done? next sem next year?
I dunno...

(eh, ur songs in the blog very emo la...haha!)

Anyhow, i believe that you've thought deeply and hv asked urself "suan la, dont wanna think anymore la".
right?

For me, consequences has to be beared by hook or by crook. I believe, you urself know that. just that you can accept the consequences yet.. yes, you cant still accept the fact that there will be no more conversations and "sour face" if you tk the first move and things turned badly.

I know, it's hard. it's love and study.
When you wanna choose between it.... of course, those others who read this will choose study. but... guys, do you know that.. the study is a symbiotic relationship to love, in this case?


Unless, you are willing to find a solution la...


Very honest speaking, a PRO wouldnt help you much. cuz... this is the problem exist between you and him. Maybe not only PRO, but PROs.. anyhow, i still feel that, this is the problem where both of you need to sit down and talk. Maybe it's not the existence of third person? maybe it's somehting else? maybe it is related to personality?
work out the solutions together. this is the best.

though the chance is 50 50. but at least you tk an effort to save it.
dont care who starts first, it doesnt matter actually.
cuz.. both of you are saving ur world. I consider that you guys have ur "couple world". please, dont care who starts first, it's not the time to play this game naive-ly.

This concept is same as repairing a swing, You need two strings to hold the plane to sit. If either string or rope damages, both cant sit on it... and... no more swing moment. and.... the plane will just collapse.
so, save the string.

I know i am not the qualified or suitable ppl to tell all this. by the way, who the hell am i anyway??!? :-)

I just want the best for you. this is purely my intention of writing this..

You know what, i do feel sakit hati, i felt ur feeling tht morning when you told me. I dunno why, the feeling just come..and.. it's very heart broken. and ur blog... not holding hands, not even talk.. my goodness, it makes me even more sad.

ok, what's the best time? you may be probably thinking, " My finals are near... i dont wanna affect it... i just wanna study and do my part."
yeah, i agree.
that's why, no pro can halp you,
the decision is in you.

you just need to figure out how and when...
cuz...
It's ur rope/string, remember?

ok...enough of babbling...DumbOnion ate too much of durian.. i am having bad breath.. my goodness...

I'm going to wash up myself, pack everyting, watch Olympic, chong wei and LIn Dan.. then go back to Cheras and sleep.

I am glad today...
cuz at least, when i think back, i did not waste my weekends..
cuz... I've met Stupiak Girl (yay!!) and my bro (yay!!). Dumb Onion really put much concern on this two little pet of mine.. and my another bro.. ha!

and...
The NICOLE is ON!
find a time, go get it. maybe if you want, next week?? I'm alone starting from next Friday though. :-) with my another bro.

I'm still killing my brain cells on how to reach home next friday...
gosh...
dont wanna think la... i'll think after next Wed!! sick of it...haiz....

ok.. gtg "pom pom" now...
to kill my bad breath..

Jet'aime.
Muacks!!!

Nothing will blow you down, as i will be at ur back to held and support you! I'll walk with you through this too. :-)


:-)

tk care.

and.... cheers for ur new design of ur blog!!! it's thousand times better!! and it's true that i cant find ur chatbox previously.... (hey, stop laughing if you are...haha!)
and i wont sing cuz you said u dont wanna hear my voice... but... ha! i will shout when i'm with you!!!! hehe... see which want you can tahan, sing or shout..
If you dont allow both, i will allow myself either one of them! dont care!!!! Dumb Onion just love singing and shouting! :-) choi meh??!?

(probably i sing too well d... that's why she felt challenged..........)haha!!! did i hit ur heart???!!!! bingo! haha!!

ok la...

you know, when time comes, you just hv to go with the flow.

tata for now.


(the blog post title is actually Latin Abbrevations, just to improve my D n C) :-)
(the blog title is Latin and Spanish.. just to make sure i dont forget my spanish!)

First part of my night.... Pics up next!

I'll wait for the twinkle twinkle big big star... see how many times does the "CD" has to be rewind.. haha!!
U can ask me to sing and you play.. let's see how many times i rewind... haha...

".... but to lose all my senses, that it's just so typically me...."

why?
As u know, i always rewind when bro plays. haha!

erm... the photos of my trip... well, maybe i'll post some videos la...


basically, i was the one taking the video... my hand was so.....TIRED!!!! I took for 30 minutes!! non stop!!! standing, trying my best not to move and just stand there like the STATUE OF LIBERTY!!!! my oh my... Mios Dios!

but i had a good time watching it!~ it's the forst time i watched Fireworks for 30 mins non stop..and... haha! good experience cuz my leg pain, hands tired... kena kiss by mosquitoes...
we were standing at the Putrajaya bridge...looking at the competition.

We reached there around 9.30am after dinner at Sri Kembangan and a visit to pasar borong with outfits to Mid valley... ha! weird though! we were the attention!

at restaurant in Sri Kembangan... took his pic cuz he ws the nearest... haha!

waitng with a hungry face.....


tengah makan... our family loves good food, so... like crocodile, anything nice will be finished within 15mins... and its true!!!!!


wanna see 5 mins after the above??

It's so clean!!!!!!!! that's my family's routine!!! we dont really leave the dish filled... haha!! mostly emptied... haha!!


then..we went to the bridge...waited for 30 mins...
The Putra Convention Centre starts to switch off the lights... it's dark...
then.. we were waiting...

few mins later.... POOF! here comes the first video above!!!!

haha~~!! First one was still ok... but the second one ends with a big flower of fireworks.


the uplaoding process is very slow.... well, wait till i convert it into Jpeg file, then i'll upload....all my videos... haha!!!

" if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn't wanna play
Don't waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away "

not to be sad, need not to be worry.
u hv the heart the change, then change for good.
I believe,
i always believe,
this is not a big matter.
Learn from ur lesson,
be a better person.

Don't say that no one understands, but i do.
I just want you to know,
that it will be okay.

plan what you wanna do,
do what you've planned.

What do you say in taking chances?
what do you say in Jumping off the edge?
there will be a way..
I'm sure there will be a way...
for you to stay..
and be awake.....
in this sunny day.
:-)


Curse that Dumb Onion is stupid. but Dumb Onion still believes, consequences hv to be beared for everything that has been said and done.
I hope you learn that.
:-)

anyhow, i still like ur plan on the granny thingy. I think it will work! "wink"!

and....

no more next time...

as u've promised. ;-)



:-)

Jet'aime!

P.s: of course will support you till the end.!!! :-)
P.s.s : really, don't break ur promise.... in 2nd sem! :-)

P.s.s.s : Settle it fast. :-)


Ja!

.....

Stupiak Girl... GAmbate!!! haha!! on ur PLAQUE-ing.... ha! no la... it's PLUCKing.... hehe...

was happy.. singing with bro... my goodness... ha!! had a good time la... ha! now preparing to go Sri Kembangan for Fire works.... :-)

Stupiak Girl : thanks for the bfast treat though!!! ha! :-)

and.... dont worry, built the courage to the things you wanna do.. or u ought to do. There are things that u hv to face it and u cant runaway. right?


My bro is a bad teacher though...
yes he is..
and sorry if u did not learnt anything... haha!! cuz ...u don hv the talent!! ha! no la, joking only... tk ur time to practice!! :-)

ok.. gtg wash up now d... nak keluar d....

will blog again tonote.. if i get the pcs of fire works...ha!

night! singing!!

Cheer for me!
Bro came back!!
and... planned to watch movies after he fetched me... but... we only sempat makan lunch.. then come back home to shout our throat out!!! haha!

we sang!! like crazy!!!

i was very happy to see him.. as he became darker, darker..and darker. like charcoal only.... haha!!!

of course, i treated him lunch at Free n Ezy.. :-) long time since i've been there. so, we ordered quite a lot of food... my goodness... full like hell. I almost fell asleep when i drove back to klang!! my stupid bro.. he just slept the whole journey from Cheras to Klang!! me?? almost asleep and... was singing to keep myself awake!!! ha!

gosh...

so.. that's why tak jadi pergi movies lo......
ha!
anyhow, i enjoy spending time with him@!! cuz i can only see him for 2 days!!!! haha!!!

After sending Stupiak Girl's lappy to repair... i spend my night with bro and mummy... we went to choose bro's spec!! gosh... RM 430 man!!! so expensive!!! though sim tia, but mum bought for him too... ha!!! i like the spec la!! ha!!

then we proceed to Jusco.. to buy La Boheme bread. well.. we shopped with mum actually... ha! i guess she enjoys shopping with both of us. Papa was not with us, cuz he was attending some Alumni... well, he gets to meet his secondary schoolmates after almost 25 years!!!! so, we let him go this time.
It's almost 12am and he belum balik lagi... wahaha!!

well, i've made up my mind. What's mine is mine. what's not, u cant force.
right?

I wanna say millions sorry for my dear ALO... they keep asking me out,.. but i've rejected thwm for this week... so do last week....
haiz....
hv to waot till september d....
because i wanna spend time with bro.. :-)

NICOLE?
maybe?
haha.....

see first la..

just like my bro, before he came back, we text the whole night. he said : " u better treat me good when i'm back, cuz u only see me for 2 days le... treat me foods, movie and KTV... ok?"
wat i replied? " see first la, if u notty... then sorry la.. ha! and btw, i tot u are suppose to belanja me as u will only see me for 2 days???"

haha!!!

of course, my bro protested it... anyway, i was just joking with him . but i think he has the intention to treat me a movie... but... this STUPID guy forgot to bring his wallet!!! and e drove from Klang to cheras WITHOUT HIS LICENSE!!! for goodness sake!!!

haiz....
so....
i paid for everything lo....

haha!!


Congrats to Stupiak Girl that she passed her chem test! cheers!

It makes me think that... " when God shuts a door on you, He will open another for you"
it is true.

:-)
IT always happens to me..
tht's why, my feeling of hopeless is only a while.
dont talk about me la...
haiz... sien.
no one will understand me fully also. haha!

I will of course try my best in everything.. that's why, hopeless is only a temporary guest. hehe..

Sometimes, i do feel stupid for making myself in situations which reflects the kindness in me. I dont really purposely do this. just that... if i can, i wanna help them out..
but.. i do feel that i make myself stupid la..
Sometimes, it hurts... but i still do it.
like the PHC.... haiz...
I dunno... i take it as a challenge la. to improve myself, my network. my circle of life.

It's time for me to expand.

(tht's why.... i always hurt without ppl knwing it... cuz i look happy when i am hurt. haiz...)

At this moment, my ears will be stucked with phones... to the loudest limit.. and... sink in my world of music.

My friend, sampat... she told me tht she watches PORN when she's moody??!!?? my goodness... i got a shock! how can she......
i duuno why...
but....
she said... she M and feels good. no more moody, then sleep.
i was like... "huh? lidda oso can ar?"

then i understand, M releases endorphine, the feel-good hormones. so.. basically, u'll get de-stressed.. and u'll feel good.
dunno... dun dare to try...
so.. won't try at all...scary....eeeww......

ok.. i will start my K-song session again... haha!! cant get my life out from singing though...

i am quite glad today!
:-)

by the way, i miss the days where i hv to wait with my friends to get results from teachers... now, no nore teachers, there are only lecturer. they wont like you calling them TEACHER instead of LECTURER. so...my past teachers are still my teachers... i really missed my Form 6 moments the most.

yes, it is true that Form 6 leaves the deepest and sweetest memory in your whole life. Sorry seniors, i did not believe it when you guys said that when i was in lower 6, but i believed it now... truly.

My greatest moment--- Form 6.

i miss my school days though.

ok la. time to sing! 2mr...bfast with Stupiak Girl! haha! such a long time since..... last month?
gosh...

i told Julene Last week, cuz she asked me about Stupiak Girl... what i said? "she's fine, having ecams... i've not been seeing her since.....last 3 weeks? and that's why she keeps appearing in my dream... causes nightmare... haha!!!! "
eh... i cant stop seeing a person or a long time le... i wont have good sleep de... cuz i'll miss the person too much till the person appear in my dreams.!!
good ar>???
no!!! cuz if it's a good dream, it will be frustrating to wake up from such a sweet dream.
If it's a bad dream... you'll suffer the whole nite m=by having nitemare on the person.!!!

haiz....

Jet'aime!

Adios!!

sayonara!

GWEN's feedback

i dont feel like writing de..,. cuz my day was too plain to write. but after miserabling my eye sight on Stupiak girl's blog.. wah... my inspiration to write comes..

About the monopoly, i oso dunno why i bought. but like i said, i dnt feel regret and i wont tk back what i've given out!!! this is my principle, it goes to anything including love!
and the NICOLE, if you want, of course i can buy for you la... but u sell ur butt to pay lor.... haha!!! erm... you really looked nice with the NICOLE, though the design of the blouse is quite Ah MA...
and the flyer hor...
want me to explain again ar? no need gua.... I've never done a flyer for a birthday person before, that would be my first and last. Promise i wont do it anymore.. haha!!
anyhow, i've got idea on ur next present d.... hehe...
so..
the 70%...
i really bought it at 70% la.. you thought me to be daring.. so, did it.. so... "oops i did it again...i give you my world, got lost in the pain...."
haha!

erm.... i've already predicted that my preent will be the worst of all.. so.. forgive me la.. haha! low Dumb Onion--low creativity, low in credits$$$$, low in taste...
maybe that's what i am to you.

hah! but as long as i am satisfied.... erm... it's not a prob at all. :-)

Anyhow, i hope you know, whatever i did, of course it's from the bottom of my sincerity. I dont fake. that's me. :-)

and the meals... i've owed you too much??? "eh-hem" (clearing throats). is that true? or is it vice versa?? hahahahahahaha!!
nah...
I wont ask you to belanja or spend a penny when you're with me. unless you volunteer to belanja la...
i dunno why, my money is easier to spend compared to others though.... haha!!! hehe... i dont mind about money.. as i can earn it back. so... still ok. :-)

Physics marks came out d? well.. according to u, it's quite disappointing. The feeling it's just like... you've tried ur best and you did not deserve the marks you are supposed to get.
just like my first Physiology test. i hv total confidence to score...but..
I failed.
I cried.
I fall.
but i climbed.
and i passed my final exam.

but... you hv to put hardwork.
that's all.
and the most important, don't give up easily.. cuz if you give up... everything's gone.

that's how i survived till now.

No one can imagine the pain i've been through. my goodness..
i feel scared even i've think that now.. and "applause" i've get through it.

The future is stil a long journey.
As for me, I always tell myself that...
if i've tried my best, whatever the outcome i get, i'll accept. though i failed or i need to sit for supp. paper.
I know, at that very moment, i've tried my best. If my result is bad, that's the marks i deserve, and i will promise myself again to try my best in my supp. paper.

Honest speaking, my life isnt easy. For me to walk the road i am walking now, i've been through a lots of barriers. Even... i've lmost failed to study what i wanna study.

that's why, this is the road i've chosen, i need to walk it by hook or by crook.

since you are walking, why dont you walk it happily?

right?

I just want you to know.
mummy may be sad a little for ur result. but i tell you for sure, they wont be mad or disappointed in you. as long as you let them know that you've tried ur best. then it's ok.
I took a long time to show it to my mum too. now, she understands. that's why.. no matter how my result is. they know i've tried my best.

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end of this


today, surprises happened to me.

PX, my dear classmate suggested to It Seang tht.... KUEN WILL BE THE 2ND HEAD OF EXHIBITON fr the coming PHC next year!!!!!!!

my goodness... i almost pengsan when i hear this.

I dunno why... even though i do nothing, but ppl just can see that i can lead.
WTH??

eh... can someone tell me why ar?

Class rep case oso liddat... Orientation oso liddat... the year end camp oso liddat.... now!!! PHC oso liddat!
my gosh....

i wanna pengsan d..

those who know me... can u guys plz tell me why? i dont really tlk much in class, i dont show off.. i always walk with my ear stucked with phone, i am always drowning in my own sweet world..

but why.......sob sob....
why am i chosen for all this?

of course, as i replce PX for her board meeting, so... she diam-diam msg IT seang but this...
I hv no choice... but to agree....
haiz......................................................................................................... DANG it!


see?
I dunno what will happened in the future.

ppl start calling me "tai ka chea"... just like when i was in NS.


I dont eally show off de le....

ARGHHHHAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh ya, Stupiak girl's chem result will be out ..
wih her good luck in it.
like what i've learnt all thi while..
I may be busy with my ASSignments, exams... but i try to enjoy the process.

It does need time to adjust urself in the "enjoying" mode.. and i've made it... after 1 year.

I guess i started to hv god frens now. well, i'll try to appreciate them.. and i will. just tht, i need time to know them completely.

Just Like PX, she can be a good friend. this is for sure.
hha! she'll fly when she reads this.!

Ray will be back tonite!!! will reach here 2mr morning! and he is coming to fetch me 2mr!! as my class ends early!!! haha! 2.30 class cancelled!!! hooray!!! my whole world is jumping now!!

cant wait to see his stupid face la!!
He left without seeing me... "slap me"
and he'll be leaving back to KT next friday without seeing me too.
Doesnt it good for me?
so that i wont cry myself to bllindness again..... haha!

anyhow, i've promised him to watch movies with him 2mr. "wink"! this is something that i cant do during wekends. cuz... i dont hv kaki... and no one wants to teman me oso.
friends?
they are busy..
others?
they already watched the movies in the cinema... tak kan wanna ask them to watch again and snore there meh??? right?
so... basically, i only sing at home or meet FIFI lo... that's all.

kolian ar? quite la.... haha!!



last thing...
" what's urs i urs, what's not, then dont force."

about piki..
i'm glad tht piki is single nw. sorry, no offence.
even piki himself told me tht she's changed....to another person.

As for me... if you feel that " sayang" is the word to secure or preserve a no-love relationship, then sorry. i wont. cuz.. what for wasting time for someone that don't even love you or dont hv the heart for u anymore?
it's a waste of time.
For me, piki has wasted his time...
how about you??

evolution does happen. Darwin's rule applied for everything.
Natural selections do occur, not only in our nature... but love.


well....
think again...
you wanna waste ur time for nothing? or you wanna waste ur time for something else?"

wanna know my answer?
me?
I will try to save the nothing.. then i'll start something new and waste my time on something else.

It is always like that.

ok... time to Kiss my dear heart now!!! I mean it!! HEART!!! the real heart!! I hv a lots of lecture on heart which i hv to follow up... if not, i'll be HEARTbroken in 6 weeks time.

tata..

Jet'aime!!
Muacks@

Rojak again.... hehe..

Stars are twinkling around my head when i view Stupiak Girl's blog... my goodness....

haha! i don wanna judge, cuz i know, if a person likes it, no words can change his / her mind.



but... it makes me dizzy though..



haha!



and... became a MOTHER suddenly, my goodness... shocked to see me as a MOTHER!



there's something i definitely wanna voice out. and i fel like scolding the F word to her, who's she? She is Lucy, our "BELOVED" LC customer.

Fuck you.. and dont ever step into Life care again! no more suspend for you and make sure you clear ur ass before you leave to other pharmacy!!!

Shut the mess out! you sucker!

non civilized at all!

DAMN YOU!

Dont make me burn your house! Shit!



ok.. i dont wanna talk about it, not here.. maybe when someone asked me?

cuz it's too long to type!



well... just wanna voice out..

haha!!



one good news! I've not been sleeping on the Rm 300 pillow and i can wake up at watever time i want!!! haha!! pros and cons la... tht's why i'm lack of sleep now... hehe..

know what? the Rm 300 pillow is really a good pillow.. but it's not suitable for students. I mean weird student like me who wake up middle of the night to study.



see? the problem is not with me.. it's the PILLOW!!!!!!!!



This friday... lame day.. why? morning class cancell. I hv to attend the patient counselling competition at 12pm... still, 2.30 class may be cancelled.. haiz....wanted to go back early.. guess i'll go back right after the competition ends. bukanlah saya yang pergi bertanding pun.... anyhow, i hv to respect others,so i hv to go.

means what? Friday i can sleep till quite late. hehe....


Yesterday was my Biochemistry lab.. and.. i finished the whole lab report yesterday. the whole night..
First time man, i finish my lab within 24 hours. but.. it's actually quite easy.. especially after lab, where your memory is still fresh. :-)

2mr will be another busy day... and surprisingly i can still online today.

I am tired. my life is getting more hectic. Quiz in 2 weeks time.. and.. feels like my work load is so much that i cannot finish studying.
This is really the feeling of suffocated.
Anyhow, i try my best to cope.

Rmembered that one of the lecturer told us, "please dont wear or use any mp3 when you're outside. It's dangerous.. why? i want you guys to be more alert to the surrounding."

ya.. i know. but it cant happen to me. I cant live without music while walking alone. cuz.. i feel so involved in the music.. and.. it's like i'm in my own world. and i wont want ppl to talk to me or i wont talk to ppl..
I dunno>? i just feel comfortable with my ears stucked with phones. haha! That's why, i try to avoid the lecturer when i'm alone.. cuz.. he'll ask me to take it off.. hehe..

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I've said before i wanted to do my assignment topic on Vitiligo. :-)
I'm still gathering info for it.
i hope i am allowed to change my topic.:-)

This is an interesting topic though.
and the stainless steel bracelet i'm wearing now is said to be a curing device for any disease.
It is proven My mum, she is the best example!! my dad... my goodness, i cant believe it that his back pain is all gone.
My grandpa...(long time no see).. said that he feels energetic and his muscle ache all gone within the few hours he wears it.
see?
Me?
yeah, as usual, my backpain is gone.. hehe..

ok la... i wanna be lazy a day. i'm going to go abck and have a nap.. cuz my eyes are quite heavy now.. I fell asleep in almost all the lectures today.. even DnC. The most challenging one... haiz..

ok la...

Dumb Onion have to go d.:-)

tk care.

good luck!

adios.

Jet'aime!!


P.s : cant believe tht you are comfortable to call me as ur MOTHER!!! wat a good DAUGHTER i hve!!! hahahaha!! good daughter, Good Mother belanja you makan when i'm back la. :-)

.......note!!... i belanja, you bayar.
hahahahaah!

manic monday...wish it was sunday. :-1

This morning's class.. It started off quite blurr. I was very very sleepy.. cuz i slept late yesterday. so, i am too "heavy" to talk, smile... and so... not even laugh.

Eyes are so heavy.. even now. still..today's class will end at 6pm.
SOS. i need refreshment!

Talking about the English Class this morning...
again Mr.Allan the funny guy, well, he'd changed into a philosopher today.

" Dont be scared of things, ppl have their weakness and good side. All you can do is just improve..to be a better person. You are who you are. Do not be afraid. no one is perfect in this world."

again , it striked me through again... though my mind was half asleep.
gosh.. i think i was acting like a slowpoke.
i can only get the effect of t he stimulation right after 10 seconds only... gosh.... my nerves are hardening.

He thought us about pronunciation. well.. how do u pronounce Anatomy as in Grey's Anatomy?
i bet all of you will pronounce it as "A-Ne-TomMy". right?
well.. it should be " A-Ne-te-mi" :-)
how do you pronounce "button"?
as in "button?"
it should be "butt-n". where you only pronounce the "N" sound but not "--tton" sound.
see?

Magic English@!!

learnt a lot this morning, though i'm half awake.

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Listened to Wen Lan's "Tong2 shou3 Tong2 Jiao3". She wrote it to her bro... know what? i am scared of this song, cuz it pricks my bro in my mind.
the lyrics somehow made me shed. i dunno why...

ya... the "eye water" filled my eyes tht day when she sang. haha! tht's why i was quiet, listening... and darn, she sang it quite NICE. so i just listened to the song and lyrics.

ha!
just listened to it..so, imagine how i look now? hehe...

Mr Allan brought up t he topic on our definition of "having fun". As for him, he thought all of us have fun by outings, watching movies...bla..bla...
know what?
it's so not true.

me? i only have fun on weekends.
my Fun in cheras is...sleeping, listening to songs, reading... and watching drama.. another fun, is... ha! D n C. yup, revising on D n C . stupid right?
In conclusion... He really pitied our dull life. cuz we cant do anything as we do not hv time for "FUN". cuz basically, we dont h v time for movies during weekdays or stress time. Eh, din even catch up with Olympic, u expect us to keep track with songs and movies ar??

Forgive me if i watched "KUNO" drama, which has been out centuries ago.
The latest one is Forensic Heroes tht i've watched. hey, i feel proud to finish the drama k???

well...

I wanna make some opinion about feeling touched easily.

"close this window if you are yawning". ha!

I've never know that i am so fragile.
Me myself got a shock t o know tht i am that fragile.
i may look tough... but i hv a clay heart.

i guess it is just a transition from stubborness to softness? i dunno... i consider myself as tht..

Mum said i hv transform from a super stubborn girl to a stubborn girl. Yes, i am still stubborn and particular about certain things. She said tht based on my newly grown hair, it is thin, small...and not rough. so..this is how she judged me.. eh, it's not true ok? based on scientific findings on hair, it's totally not true.

but i try not to be as stubborn la... whtever tht makes both of my parents happy, i'll try to do it.
If they like it, i try to like it... but it turns out bad everytime when i force myself to like something, just like the new magnet chain on my left wrist. I am wearing the stainless steel one.. but my dad wants me to tk the Tungsten magnet bracelet. I dont like the Tungsten one... but he said tht the magnet is bigger and quality better,and effets better.. I refused it... and i made myself stubborn... by... haiz... in short, i made both of them frustrated. so, in t he end, i took back the stainless steel one which i am wearing.
ya... he did it for my own good as it really works or me, especially for my backpain. It went off totally right after i wore it.
:-)
end of it.

cuz i cant accept the Tungsten design, though it is nice.. but the effect is the same la...

haha! sorry la.. mummy and papa..

bro will be back!
happy la!
can bully him again! :-)


i look very emo today. as.. i still cant lift my face up to smile ... haiz...
I've missed my bfast, and proba bly i hv to skip lunch again...

maybe i should learn how to be cheered without bfast and lunch? haha!!

ok...

i hope i can sleep peacefully without any bees bugging around.
i am tired.

chiao.

eee....i miss Patrick la... the stupid guy.
ha!
stupid... started to miss pinky,marmi, papi, childy..all of them.. Sampat.

k la, will blog again... few days later???? ha!

madman .

i'm sorry i sounded rude k?

please keep the below sensored..."tut..tut.."

"Eh, can plz chasing the stupid report from me ar?!!? i've said i hvn finish it right???!!! we have the same result and what for u wanna compare??!! i'm sick of it!! stop bugging around me can ar?? why always all the alternate sundays you are acting like a Moron??? just... leave me alone, stop asking about my stupid report...cuz i hvn write a single thing of the discussion yet!!!!!!
Off you go~!!!

i wont let u hv my report today.. i wanna save my time to write report.

FArk off.!


"tut..tut.."

end of sensored part.

fyi... chiao... going back to Cheras liao....sob..sob.. tk care.

Kayden Lim Hien Huat..and you.

erm... i hope i am NOT one of the persons who make u feel challenged...cuz...i dunno how to yell... ha!

haha!!

consider the treat as ur bday gift la... haha!! as a punishment for my late presents.


kayden!!!
Kayden with mummy...




Kayden LIM!!!! looks like kuhan, right??? haha!!!! see his size!!!! 3.51kg!! compared to the baby girl beside him who is only 2.6kg.... haha!!

cute!!!


Kayden!! welcome to the world!!!! :-)





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the presentsssSSSss...
let me explain..

the monopoly, took me effort to stick the 70% discount sticker to it.. so, it's my hardwork.. and satisfaction..

the chain tht i bought...
sacrificing my energy to walk from Angkasa Condo to pasar malam, alone.. so... my energy, my satisfaction.

the FLYER..
my good ness...

the hardest... for a person who doesnt have any art cells in the brain..like me. Driving far to find lamination... cuz A-Z closed.
but...got it laminated finally.
the design... i am still dumb in designing, but that's the best i can do. about the paper, it's a special type of glossy paper where 4 small gloss combined to a big one. and... one go success!! the aunty who laminated it refuse to laminate for me at first, after begging.. she does. cuz it's too thick d....

and i told her honestly, it took me lots of attempt to print that thing, cuz it just wont go into the paper feeder...
so... she pitied me and tried... and... ok!! but she laminated it from all over directions, double the times of normal lamination... and she told me tht the thing will be quite hot, cuz heat is used... so...erm... she scared will damage the quality. but i told her...to go ahead.

so... by hook or crook... i did that.. i just give it a try..i'm scared tht the FLYER will damage also ma....

and..

u may ask me why i bought monopoly. i dunno why..
it striked my mind suddenly and i dont feel regret of buying it.. Sorry.. no Porcupine for this time, or maybe u expected it... haha!! leave it to the more important person in ur life la... haha@@!

i know Stupiak girl dun hv monopoly...so, bought for her lo. :-)

i've never done a flyer before, so i did lo... i still remember, i did that flyer on my sleepless nights and stressed moment.
the content, it has gone through the process of edit and re-edit.

it looks simple, but it's hard for me.

Forgive me if it's the worst presentsssSSSssss of all tht u've received...
but.. i did everything sincerely. From the bottom of my tiny fragile little heart. :-)
that's true.

another thing, my plan... i plan to spend on food, k-song, presents..and...too... but... haha!!! maybe next year la... ha!!! maybe i hv more ideas??

lastly, i hope Stupiak Girl can still accept the concept of presentSSSsssSSS in a present. haha!

happy....late late bday.. :-)

crapping.

i am honoured to know that i am stupid?

what does that means?> i am "only" always stupid in front of her.

yup...

i was feeling bended... but... still ok....

ok.. talk about something i really wanna say.
I really wanted to know what happened to you.. and seriously, i am craving for it.
As i said always, in my previous previous previous blog..last year. I wanna share everything... and it is killing me to be asked to shut.

No matter what happened, anytime, whatever situation.. i am always there. I can ignore others. but i will never ever ignore you.
Sometimes i act cocky, and i act stupid sometimes.. but i am truly, madly deeply care about you.
(I may sound like i am in love with you, ello, i am NOT k!!! though i am bi!) haha!

ok, i dont wanna 'prick' the things that u dont wanna say.. but i do hope that when someday, when you are comfortable, you can talk to me.

Honest speaking, i feel that my responsibility with my family is getting heavier after my bro went to UMT, cuz i feel tht as the eldest, i am responsible for their happiness. so, it's a little stress to me. I am now learning how to balance up everything. so, basically, nothing much about me.

I prefer Lunch on sundays.. why? can spend more time. talk longer.. but... hehe.. if ur time is occupied, then..no choice lo.

I just wanna let you know, whatever happens, even your world falls apart, let me be the blanket to protect you from everything, so that you'll find warmth again.
I wont leave u in the dark, no matter what. That was my promise since i know you. and it will be my promise till the end of time.
I've told before, i've never met someone like you before. You're just like my little pet.. ha! or ok, i am ur "mother" la, whatever... watever makes you comfortable with.. Hv you seen a mother abandone their child before? maybe you'll say yes, but i wont.

Well, Everyone grows. right? every stage of life is different, you may hv different thinking in every different stage. right??

Just like my old saying, I wont let you wander in the dark.


ok, i may sound stupid or look stupid when you dont even feel this way. but i dont care.
i can be ignorant for most of the things.. but i cant seem to make myself to ignore you.. haha! believe it or not..

Stupiak Girl is always stupiak girl.
Dont think that i've forgotten ur presents... i did not. there are reasons why i did not give you just now... :-)

hey, cheer, i know you are intelligent to manage urself. I will still be there if...you need anything from me. I will try my best.....to fulfill anything you want la.

erm.. i wont make myself stupid any longer.. haha..
Just remember tht...Dumb Onion will support Stupiak Girl always.
:-)

lov ya.

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the end of above.

2mr Kayden will be meeting Aunty KUEN!!!! haha!! happy! i think he will meet Aunty SUe and aunty Huey Ling also.
so...

sad to be aunty.

like my GODma said..(since when she become my GodMa?).... Aunty means aunty, accept it.. haha!! thank for saying that i am MATURE!! ha! (smiling sarcastically)

I think i will be seeing my little baby Rachel.. to pass her Her favourite MAGIC ENGLISH! hopefully Julene's DVD can play la....

well.. ok. i am going to write my report now.
i'll got screwed if i dont finish by 2mr. DANG it!

bended...

unsame is unsame.

u cant put everything together.

i hv this kind of feelings. i dunno why.

hunter is hunting,
deer is running for life,
birds are scared away,
hunter keeps hunting.

trees and barriers are just in front,
hunter keeps hunting,
Small herd of creature sprinting,
The hunter keeps hunting.

The hunter never give up on hunting,
Deer never give up on running.
Chasing?
There are only 3 possibilities,
Hunter gives up,
Deer ran away successfully,
Hunter shoots the deer.

Which should the the outcome?

i really dont know.

No one may understand how i feel,
No one knows. and no one will know.

I feel complicated.





it's exactly like the feeling of......

"do u know how it feels to have ur life being turned 90 degrees?"

yeah, that's my feeling currently.

BENDED.... cruelly.

Kill me. make me "One hit K.O".

wanna go boh?

KTV on Saturday night???

i'm going to change 2mr... kinda scared. pray hard i'll still be me....

Good Luck!
to you and me! :-0 hehe...

Good news, bad news.. good news again! :-)

well, before i start everything, means my assignment for PHC, i've actually decided to stay in the library till later than 6pm.. just to finish my things up.

my target for today, finish my Physical Pharmacy report and finish my assignment.

about the poppe i heart, know what? china stuff memang china stuff, the quality really different from the ori... haiz...sedihnya.... ha!

I have class on saturday morning, but i'll be going back on Friday.. to accompany my parents la.. then i'l drive to school this saturday. haha!! cheer for me!!! I dont hv TKD this saturday!!! yay!!!
due to Hari Raya replacement class lo...

Something really sad happened.. Screw me, it's my bad. I got a big ZERO in my practical yesterday, it is about making suspension. All of the things were correct, only the instruction... haiz.... my bad..my bad... and i got a tight warning from lecturer... stress... but nvm. it gives me more motivation to strive!!! really... especially when i told Yan about this, i am really surprised and touched on what she told me... she said :" Master you mind rather than ur mind master yours. :-) Zero equals to an egg, the egg will grow into chics eventually, and the chics will grow into chicken someday. When the day comes, you will definitely achieve your goal as the ZERO will become big chicken!!! again, it's not the end of the day, relax! :-) "

I am really surprised... cuz i guess she is wiser in these thing. though i give ppl advises everytime, i get back precious advise from her. Erm, she lifted me up again! without fail! My lab ended at 6.30pm.. i was very tired... so... know what i did? without mandi, i ate and sleep till today morning 7am!! but i do get a little conscious during 1.40am.. what i did? i was praying and chanting some mantera to express my regretness, we call it " chan4 hui3". In front of buddha, though i was half asleep, i chant...and reutrn my chant to those who need it. it's called " hui2 xiang4". know what, this is the first time i understand how to overcome the regret in me. Right after the chant, i feel different. I kinda accept my regretness and... it's like a brand new day for me.

well, i dunno whether did Yan sent Dai Mo Ku's for me or not.... cuz... i really feel alive from dead again. This is why, spiritual health is important too.
so, i promised myself that i will be a better person. :-)

ok... i forgot what's the purpose of writing this blog.......DAng it!

let me think.....

oh ya, i was very busy last few days.. see my last blog, the date...? i wasnt able to online also.. Monday got lab till 6 something, Tuesday class.. then we had the suspension discussion till 6pm, wednesday was the suspension making lab, till 6.30pm... thursday... completing assignments... plus blogging! ha!

I feel like throwing off my RM300 pillow... i sleep too well with that pillow! really!!! i failed everytime when i wanted to wake up to study at 3am! and yesterday, i slept from 8 something pm to this morning 7am! and i feel like sleeping again... haiz...
ok, i assume that i am tired because my period is coming? around the corner??
i dunno....

today, i wanna sleep early, wake up early to study again.. hopefully i can make it... maybe sleep pillowless tonite...
ha! nope... i dun think it can jalan, cuz... one day, i slept pillowless, the next day, the pillow is under my head!!!! have to hide it in my wardrobe d.... for tonite.haha!

It is raining cats and dogs outside.. good la, cuz Cheras has been BRIGHT for 2 weekS!!! and,,, midnight is quite humid... quite hot... slept naked.. haha! u believe? i dont believe... hahhaha!!

well, my saturday class will end at 12pm... will reach klang around 1pm.. provided stupid Federal no jam..
will have lunch on time i guess?

hehe...

I am still having tough time to adjust my time for this sem, cuz it's... hectic. it's totally different from 1st year..

oh! i remembered the purpose of writing!!!! Kavitha is going to deliver onFriday, 8th August 2008!! 8/8/08!! yay!!!! I just knew it today. she'l be delivering her baby in Sri Kota, 2mr!!! haha!! welcome Kuhin?na, i think it's Kayden! haha! I dreamt of her delivering the baby safe... and he is named Kayden. hehe... well, lets see what Kavitha calls him 2mr... haha!!!

It means the start of Julene's nightmare.... ha!
She has no staff!!!! really! only Vick and Sue.
haiz...

watever la....

honest speaking, i still havent wrap the main present le.... but what other presentsssssSSsss to give, i think i hv idea d...
and...
the most important one... haiz... i need to do a lot of "conversions" to it... anyhow, it took me 1 day to edit and convert it during the last attempt i did. haha!!

we'll see then! if fail, i'll discard the present and.... erm, maybe i'll use other ways to deliver that thing la...
haha!!!

my presents?? it wont run away from 3 criteria.. MY Satisfaction,MY Happiness, and... MY hardwork. hahahahahahaha!!!

Feel like going to KTV this SAturday afternoon, but... can only sing for 3 hours choon choon. Friday night tak boleh pula.... haiz....
still cracking.... come to my house and sing la... haha!! i bought quite a number of new songs... which i oso dunno how to sing... ha!

anyway, i'll sing this Friday night, at home.. hehehehehehe.......

ok, it's time to start my work and finish my aim today.

I am back again, i mean, i dont look like ikan masin...(macam semalam) la.... i was really down yesterday, cried a little... but i am back now! tougher! :-)

time to go! Adios!

P.s : Good luck in your chem test this saturday. Dont fail the test! :-) (i'm not asserting pressure on you...hehe...) but if you do fail, i'll assert my whole body pressure on you and it will crack every single bone in ur body.... haha!! nah, i'm just kidding, just try ur best... KTV? hehe.. you wont miss it again...., i promise!

Unusual SAturday night... haha!

went Greenbox with FIFI on Friday nite.. we sang from...7pm to 2pm!!! and...we can still continue to sing but... both of us were really really sleepy....so, we decided to give up... and go back and sleep... haha!

erm... i guess everyone has their first time, it was my first time singing with her. It's something which is quite memorable... haha!
so... my first with her..haha! we were shouting i guess... anyway, it's expensive and worth it.
(erm, maybe i can spend my friday nite Greenbox-ing, cuz i feel it's quite worth it...:-) only if only i hv kaki la...) haha!

well, i still miss snacks. i dunno why.. i'm being too good to stay at home on Saturday night, watching TV drama, and blogging. what the!!>>??!
it's so not me... haiz... ha!
Listening to songs, singing, blogging.... darn.... is that my life>>??
can i disown them? for only one pathetic week??

I found something i heart... POPPE bear!! though it's colour bear, but it does look alike with my PoPPE bear!!
yep! i've got a new one... it's not one-armed anymore!!! ha!
lurve it!

I wonder how's Stupiak girl's exam? everything's fine? I dont even dare to call her out cuz she's having exams...
wait till the right time, and the right moment la.. ha! I may need to start queueing from Penang to ask her out..or.. maybe from Burma... ha! so... i'll just wait.....for "durian to fall". that's my style!! haha!! nah, i just forgot about my rank though.... haha!! lucky to hv the rank from Burma.. hahahaha!! just kidding after all.
anyhow, i hope she do well in her exaMS... as that's the most important..

"Our SongS" always chime in my head, that's why i cant help myself to miss the days. what to do? i finally know how does it feels to sit alone in a dark corner, without anyone around you. it's like drowning in the DArk Hole...far away from the Milky Way.
Well, at least i know tht.. i'm the only one being sucked into the dark hole... can i save others by this?? haha! aku tak tahu.... obviously. :-)

"something strange and new is happening...." listening to Finally by Fergie.. it's one of the sentences.. haha!!Accidentally paid attention to it.. ha! nothing special. ya la! abuden??

next saturday i am free after 12pm.. why? class ends at 12pm.. reached klang by 1pm.. then.. i'm a freeman!
no tkd due to replcement classes. erm... it's a special situation.. it only happens once in... 10 years?
ha!

:-)

ok..it's midnight and my stupid stomach is aching... i think might be due to the coffee i drank. i felt even more sleepy after drinking it.. DANG IT!
but i guess i will sit and meditate on the toilet bowl first... cuz....it's aching now!!!

ok..
bye.
i'm going off...to medidate now! :-1

argh....

ja!~