RAndom..:-)

It's really heart broken to knw tht Julene's morning sickness has made her feeling bad to worse.

Sakit hati.. cuz i can imagine it.. Seeing food, and feel nauseated. :-( I seriously hope tht she can be better..... cuz the only thing tht feed on her is porridge + marmite. sob sob.... how can a pregnant lady eat this? it's MY FOOD!! haha!!

yeah, my braces is the SWEET CAUSE for me to feed on LIQUID FOOD. ha ha ha. =_="

oooh......

U've uploaded ur blog.. haha!! tht's a good thing.. cuz ppl wait till misai pun dah tumbuh. haha!


Genting trip is a CAMP la DeEr... i will get u DARK CHOC and TIGER if i happen to pass by any souvenir shops. muahahaha!!!!
If not, I'l get u DArk Choc From JJBT ... haha!

Dont care.. still want something from PD. muahahahaha!!!


P.S: Will miss U.... :-)

Come Out video.. from Singapore. The MOrning AFter.

ok.. this had really impressed me... a short video of how a Young boy came out to his parents tht he is GAY and how his family reacted.

THE MORNING AFTER- PART 1



THE MORNING AFTER - PART 2



THE MORNING AFTER - PART 3




Well, watch this please.. cuz it happens in Singapore. THis family is actually a typical SIngapore FAmily...
watch how the mother responded.. how the whole family responded.


My opinion:
If my SOn or Daughter turned out to be a gay or a lesbian, it shouldnt be a problem to me. haha... i knw i knw, all religion says it's a SIN. but come to my own SOn and DAughter's happiness, which is more important?
YEah, no doubt, i can openly accept if my offsprings are not straight.

Letting ppl to live the life they want is something all of us should do. Whatever that makes you happy, jee... just do it. NIKE SPIRIT is always there for everything. haha!

Gays and Lesbians... so what? they're still normal people, it's just tht they have affection towards the same sex only..
Some of you might think :" owh.. GROSS!! how could you FUCK the SAME SEX?? and LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER??"

haha.. this is the typical question all homophobics will ask. but no worries... as for HOmosexuals, IF they are OUT means they're not afraid of what ppl says.
hey, this is true ok.
Anyway, u wont be surprised tht they can really live happily ever after even if it takes to U- HAUL together.
Mmm... how wonderful... starting a sweet family with your loved ones.

haha... however, WE shouldnt discriminate them. Come to think, if one day your children came out to you, would u ignore ur children forever? after all, they are still your children, your loved ones..

PArents, dont think tht you've wasted ur money and education on them if they are gay. I tell you what, being able to accept is one thing tht can make ur homo child happier, as they can really do and achieve and strive for what they want in life.
Wouldnt all parents wanna see their children success and happy?
right?

MAybe, Gays are still not well accepted among us in the society, but let me tell you.. they are wonderful people... cuz they are more sensible, and they think for others more compared to straight people. hehe... somehow, i feel it's true.

The advantage of having GAy friends is... You can say I LOVE YOU to them and they dont give a damn. haha!! nah, they are very caring, they really take I LOVE YOU seriously.They like people to speak what's on their mind..if u love them, tell them. If u dislike what they're doing, tell them nicely...:-) (erm.. based on my experience la)

What about Lesbians? haha.. they are the same. :-) They can tolerate I LOVE YOU well... anyway, most of my circle of Homo frens aren't out yet.. means they are afraid of how their parents are going to accept it. They care for their parent's feeling more than their own.
I wish them luck.. hehe.. cuz it needs a lot of courage to come out. I seriously SALUTE those who came out! :-)

Although some of their come-out story are sweet, some are sad... but, the most important thing is, they get to do what they really like, they get to love who they really love.


So, it wouldnt be a shock if my kids are homos. :-)

Their happiness are of my concern.(my kids) Oppositely, i wont feel tht my money or education fare are wasted on them... but i will feel happy tht my kids know what they want. Means education is not wasted. haha!

Guys out there!! don't be a damn homophobic!! Love them like how you'll love your kids. :-)


End-o-story-n-opinion.


P.S : DeEr, thanks a lot for helping me.:-) appreciate it LOTS LOTS LOTS!!!! call my mum when u get it la.. :-)

CAn i really stand the cold in GENTING?? mmm....

owh, Brian, i do miss you lots......:-)


Been up to Eminem.. i love his songs. MEaningful.:-)

Interesting facts.. is it???? Masturbation and Chocolate. :-)

Came across this article and i find it interesting.. haha!!! Well, I dun really knw how true is it, but.. just read for fun, After all, the facts below are proven with studies.. LOL!! :-)
ERm ERm... dun show the face.. Just read for fun! :-) haha..

Self Love: What Chocolate and Masturbation Have In Common

"If it feels this good," the old joke goes, "it's got to be bad for you!" But does it?



In the case of two favorite feel-good indulgences, it's just not so. Masturbation and chocolate feel good and provide a load of benefits. On this Valentine's Day, in the spirit of self-loving, let's look at the things these two favorite indulgences have in common:

Both are loaded with social stigma.
Both masturbation and chocolate are favorite indulgences of many women. (After all, studies have show that an estimated 89 percent of women will masturbate in their lifetime and I personally suspect that the women who make up the other 11 percent live in red states and are afraid to admit it.) However, lots of women nibble chocolate in private and masturbate in the dark. In some circles, publicly eating chocolate is tantamount to admitting you're throwing all diet caution to the wind. And many women think masturbation is only for desperate times when they're without a partner. Research is showing we'd be happier and healthier with more of both. What better time than Valentine's Day to celebrate the two?

Both are great for your heart and your health.
Recent research has found that cocoa and other chocolates may keep high blood pressure down, your blood flowing and your heart healthy. Substances in found in chocolate (at the highest levels in dark chocolate) called flavonoids, may help keep our blood platelets from sticking together and our arteries from clogging. (The way that cocoa powder and chocolate syrups are manufactured removes most of the beneficial flavonoids.) Likewise, orgasm (achieved with a partner or through masturbation) will provide a light aerobic workout, burn calories, and lower blood pressure. There's some evidence that a hormone called oxytocin, released during orgasm, may help to prevent breast cancer.

They'll both make you feel happier, relaxed, and loved.
During orgasm, the body releases a chemical called PEA (phenylethylamine), and this substance is also found in small amounts in chocolate. PEA can create the feeling of being in love. It is also the reason both masturbation and chocolate can give us an energy kick and a mood boost. PEA increases attention and activity in animals and was shown, in one study, to relieve depression in 60 percent of depressed patients.

Additionally, chocolate also contains anandamide, an antidepressant compound that binds to the same receptors in the brain as marijuana and produces a slight feeling of elation. Anandamide is also produced naturally in the body, and other chemicals in chocolate slow the breakdown of this chemical, prolonging its effects. Two more chemicals in chocolate, theobromine and tryptophan, both contribute to an enhanced sense of well-being.

There is also a small amount of caffeine in chocolate, although it should be noted that an ounce of milk chocolate only contains as much caffeine as a decaffeinated cup of coffee.

They'll give you an endorphin high.
The sweet taste of chocolate can trigger the release of chemicals called endorphins. Endorphins are also released after orgasm and can help to boost mood and decrease our sensitivity to pain. They are thought to be involved in controlling the body's response to stress. This is the reason masturbation has been shown in several studies to be an effective depression fighter.

While the chemicals in chocolate often make people feel relaxed and happy but alert, masturbation is an effective (and pleasant!) cure for insomnia.

Additionally, masturbation can relieve menstrual cramps and fight yeast infections by increasing blood flow to the pelvis, strengthen pelvic muscles (resulting in increased orgasmic response), and help to balance reproductive hormones, which may ease the symptoms of PMS and menopause.

So with all the things masturbation and chocolate have in common, it seems they might be best in combination:

Italian researchers found that women who eat chocolate regularly have a better sex life than those who deny themselves the treat. Those consuming chocolate reported the highest levels of desire, arousal and sexual satisfaction.

Urologists from a hospital in Milan questioned 163 women about their consumption of chocolate as well as their experience of sexual fulfillment. They concluded:

"Chocolate can have a positive physiological impact on a woman's sexuality."

Masturbation can too.

It can boost sexual self-confidence, and in turn, self-esteem. Masturbation provides a readily available sexual experience devoid of social stress and the pressures of pleasing another. It can be a method of self-exploration that will enhance a partnered sexual experience. In short, if you don't know what pleases you and feels good, how will you be able to show someone else?

So, for the sake of your health, take that box of Valentine's chocolates and head off to have some private time

In courtesy of : Self love: What Chocolate and Masturbation have in common.

Dellynn's feeling at this particular time....

It doesnt matter how many times you fail, what matters is how much you've learnt from it.

I am not as free as what most of you think.. I think if i'm in the NORMAL LEVEL or NORMAL SITUATION like most of them, I'll feel very very DOWN today.

Somehow, the inability to complete even 50% of the race bothers me a lot. However, i knw, practice makes perfect. I will keep on climbing... not to the top, but at least i gave my effort to climb.

It's always a bless for me to live, and doing the things that i want. Tht is why, whatever tht happens or what ever tht i do, i will do my best.

A dull day to me, going to finish my AMT by today. yeah..

Sometimes i wonder, am i lying to myself? or i really do not deserve to be here? or i do not belong here? Somehow, fitting in isnt the right way to feel belonged... although it works most of the time. Still, i dont think i'm a wrong doer.

Thousands times i've reminded myself tht i shouldnt be out of the circle... but.. somehow certain situation and circumstances made me deviate a lil from where i am.
Thank God.. the players in the circle took care of me and try not to push me away. I am really glad.

It isnt the end. I know.

BEsides, i think I'm blessed by GOD.. cuz all the things i do, i'm doing it in a clear state of mind.
As long as i feel right, I will do what i want, and what i ought to do.
Plus, it's another true bless from GOD tht I am still alive. About the accident, i am over it. It's just tht i couldnt stop myself to think how lucky i am to live and see the world once again.


The path of life for everyone is never easy. I bet everyone agrees.. unless u're LOADED and had everything planned by your FOLKS.
Life is never easy... No shortCuts, and you can't CLICK it like a Computer ICon and reach the destination you want.
well,
LIVE, ENJOY...APPRECIATE, PRESERVE.

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Look Out Point 2mr... anyone? register to my PR, SHer. hahaha! She's the planner.:-)
All of you are invited of course.. haha! :-)


P.S : what's nice in PD ar? get me good stuff from there!! :-) hehe....eventhough if it means to FREEZE the NICE FOOD and WAIT for me to go back and EAT!!!! :-)

p.s.s : erm... i did not have sweater.... can i stand the cold in GENTING? Mmm....

Beautifully loved....

I LOVE MYSELF

Eminem- Beautiful

actually, I listened to this song through CaiHong's blog.. long ago but.. kinda love it now.
Now, it's ringing in my ear everyday. Just so i realized tht it's one meaningful song, i wanted to post it.. :-)

Yeah, this is one meaningful song.. it takes me a few attempt to get to the melody and the rhythm of this song. :-)

Plus, my mood is in Eminem season now. haha!! I was listening on his songs for the past month. :-)

He speaks the truth, i like it.
He dares to speak, I like it.
HE dares to spit, I like it. :-)


Eminem- Beautiful



Everyone is beautiful.

Enjoy the song. :-)


I love the meaning of this song....:-)


Just like what he says in his song...

"God Gave you your Shoes to fit you,
So put them on and wear them, and be yourself,
Be proud of who you are...
Don't let anyone tell you,
You ain't beautiful..."

I Love myself.

                               

sorry ar.. this blog is about my own pics.. haha!!  Muah on mask.. preventtion of Flu. :-)

nope, just tht i feel like taking my own pics, so.. if u guys feel awful, CLICK [X]. haha!!

today,my study progress is good.. yeap, in the library.. but too bad, library only opens till 7pm for this whole month due to Ramadhan.

I always have this thought in my mind. I like to imagine outcomes..For instance, if i’m expecting someone to come and see me, i’ll have imagination on the conversations, the action, and the presumption on how is the person going to react.

this.. is actually not good cuz u’ve already set a monologue in yourself… hence, u tend not to open to other opportunitie.. u sort of like close down your mind. Mmm….

right?

tht’s why, now i dun imagine outcomes anymore. I just let it happen.. I dont expect anymore. If i expect the better thing, the worse will come.

Anyhow, sometimes what i’ve imagines does happened accordingly lar… hehe…

When i was studying in the library, a sweet memory crossed my mind. It was you and You. Instantly, i smile without myself realizing it. It is somehow a good memory to me.. thinking of the things YOU & YOu have done.. all the words YoU & YOU have said.. It just made me smile without reasons. :-)

owh, JU is EXPECTING!! I’m very happy for her!!!!! too bad… her morning sickness made her real SICK! Mmm….

Muah, will still stay supportive.. physically and emotionally!  yeah la, try to help to ease the burden of the shop.. cuz.. u knw, staffs come and go.The only who stays are the Part TImers..

DeER, Ju needs you BADLY!! haha!! i think to work Long hour as a part timer is not a problem!! haha!!

                                 

Busy busy BUSY!

                                 

yeah, BUSY BUSY! see? I have 5 chapters of AMT.. just got the notes and i have to finish it within THIS WEEK!! aih….

Dellynn!! U CAN DO IT!!! GAmbatte Kudasai!!

and …. my teeth pain resumes… aiks….. T_T

Still.. I love myself. :-)

Right? Wrong? Love?

Today, I feel like writing about this. haha… because i browse through blogs and read how people support this btween same sex, or either different sex.

Wrong Love? Right Love? what is wrong and what is right?

yeap….

                                  

owh.. this is the FAMOUS KISS in the HISTORY! :-)

                      

Famous Britney and Madonna Kiss…

         

and the famous BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN. Erm….. some said it;s a nice show.. but to me, i personally think tht it’s a draggy show with a lot of Sex Scenes.. I watched it a few years ago with YAn. :-) owh, almost fell asleep watching it. cuz…. 3 hours boring show which drags for 20 years!!!

                      

                                     

seriously? no Kissing??? haha!! Come on… this is 21st century….. :-)

          

sweet eh?

so.. this is the NORM tht you think eh??… Mmm….

                               

again.. this is not the NORM?

NORM…

NOT NORM….

Well, this is a post tribute to my friends who have their own love regardless same or different sex. owh, did i tell you tht i have a bunch or PLU friends??? haha… yeah, they are a bunch of cute, loving, caring people who live according to what they love. They follow what their heart says.

What i wanna impress is…. Do not discriminate them, because they are normal people, normal human who deserves to get what they want, and what they love. We are not different… just tht they prefer to live according to their own way… and i totally respect them.

Guys, you knw who are you.. Just wanna let you guys knw tht all of you are a bunch of great friends.:-)

            

                                 

WE live according to our own will.

We Live for what we want.

We Live for ourselves.

We Live,because WE Believe.

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CAn u believe tht i’ve started to miss you already? huh? :-)

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what does it mean when there’s no REPLY? Sometimes… i wonder whether is it my fault. Mmm….

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HAHA! I AM EMPLOYED DURING THE RAYA BREAK!!! YAY!!

although i hv exams after RAya Break.. but TIME management is very important in this issue. I tk working as a chance to RELAX.

you ask me how do have so much money to spend on you and myself.. well, this is the source. haha!!!! Too bad.. i don’t print money with my BUTT! how nice if i could do that eh? I would give you the whole world by then. haha! :-) I mean what i say. ;-p

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aiya… TIme for Endo… Shitty, AMT postponed. aiks.

 

A good day to start.. .

Good morning!

Well, it's Sunday morning.. and my routine is.. breakfast, work.

Today, it's kinda special.. cuz I hold the key of the shop and I have to open the shop, and RUN IT!
Erm… I think I should be doing great.

What's special about today is.. I knw tht I wouldn't have LUNCH MEAL today since yesterday night.. cuz my parents are going to the BIRDHOUSE. So… my lunch is on my own.. and.. tht's another big problem too.. "WHAT TO EAT "
is always a big question to me… haha!!

Well, I'll leave my lunch till Lunch time la.. dun wanna think so much first.

 

Suck la.. I cannot study at home.. and my progress is so slow here… thanks to my bed, my sheepig, and Raey's Dino… ARgh… they all TEMPT ME TO SLEEP! Aiks….

Anyway, I will still study.. J

 

I seriously hope today's partnership with Doreen will turn out a good one…Well, Sundays have a set of SUNDAY's customers.. and some of them are quite HARD TO HANDLE.

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Owh… I think I'm gaining my enthusiasm back in THERE!!! Not much.. but slowly. A little by little… tht's a good news though. Another thing is, the depress feeling of being there every week is getting lesser yesterday.

So, maybe I'm at the right path.. to change who I used to be.I call it as turning point.. a point to breakthrough, and to upgrade myself. I guess tht's how people improve and grow.

 

It's time for breakfast. Then WORK!!! Haha!!

 

Time to ciao….

 

 

Erm… What to eat for lunch??? Especially when I'm ALONE? Mmm…. A good question to think later during work… J

 

Good day everyone!! J

 

untitled.

who on earth wants the same BELATED PRESENT?? haha....:-)


so, u knw what i mean?


great day everyone.


Today's Class a blast!!! 5 chapters in 3 hours.. WOW.. and all included in next week's quiz. muahaha!! guess.. i'll be Cuckoo studying AMT..... ha!

^_^

Just so I knw…

Ha! I've get to meet the person I wanted to meet so much!! YES!! YOU!

 

Well…. Actually… the ear phone right… it's the FIRST CHOICE on my list…. and…. Haha!! Nothing la…

Just tht I'm very SHOCKED tht she chose EAR PHONE instead of Mp3. Why? Cuz THT IS THE ONE THT I WANT HER TO HAVE SoOooOo Much!!!!!
hahaha!!! And.. tht's the particular brand I want her to HAVE aLSO! Hehe…….

Well, she may take time to love tht ear phone… but I am sure tht she'll like it… especially when her new phone arrives. J

Erm… once again…..

It Proves tht our similarity in thinking cannot run away from each other…..

Aiks…

 

But, very very weird. IT is hard to find someone to have the same thinking, similar interest… similar feeling at most times. Haha!!

I've found one and I treasure her so much, so guys,how about you?

 

And… thanks for giving me faith, and have faith in me. J u gain my confidence… again.

Don't ever feel tht you owed me a lot… ;-) u knw how much it means for me to see you happy.. everyday. J

And there are some things tht I don't need to say it to prove tht I LOVE & Sayang you… because I think deep inside us, we know. J

I still can't believe tht there are 3 persons using my DEARIE PIONEER EAR PHONE NOW!!!including me… Haha!

Love you LOtSsSsSs!!!!:-)

 

P.S: owh.. change the ear phone head to a smaller one if ur ear hole cannot fit the medium sized rubber. J Enjoy! J

P.S.S :
DarLeng… sorry cuz I can only bring Obasan to see you today only…. Cuz… WE WERE BUSY! Haha! Miss you lots Raey!! I LOVE YOU!!! And I am waiting for my BRAND NEW MP3 from you!!! Muahahaha!!!

P.S.S.S : AL… dun worry, the time will come.

 

Bueno Noche, La Falte mi ninita.

Different beat….

When things changed.. it changed to a better way.

Some of them felt sad and sorry for my fate, but.. I wasn't sad at all, In fact, I treat it as a brand new start.. erm, not a "START"
totally, but a path which will give me something new, something different.. a Different feeling..

This is Life? Isn't it?

I was confused on my path tht I'm supposed to walk..

And now, I have more time to really think about it.

Its true tht when u're near to something tht u wanted when u first started it, u tend to wish tht time pass slower so tht it wont end that early.

I'm having tht kind of feeling now. I have always wanted everything to end as soon as possible so that I could move on with my life, start my dream, build my empire, structure my kingdom. And now.. most of my peers are near to it. It's coming to an end.. I mean, our journey together is coming to an end.. soon.

By then, it's time for all of us to work for our own. We're going off our own path respectively. Well, Some may become a millionaire, some may become SomeOne.. well, whoever they might become, they are definitely SOMEONE… maybe not to Layman…. But to me, my peers are definitely SOMEONE TO ME!

Referring to what Kevin wrote in his blog, friends are "passer byer" and help u to go through whatever difficulties in your life.. tht's why Friends Come and Go.

It definitely makes sense to me. J

1 year may be less, 2 years might be short.. but not long. 3 years is something unusual… what about 4 years?

Have you spend 4 years fully with your friends before ? (not talking on secondary school life). What I mean is.. when u're fully matured (emotionally), have u spend 4 years FULLY with someone tht you might not even thought of doing it when you first met the person?
of course, not to say Boyfriends or Girlfriends.

Yeap, my peers.

 

Believe it or not, Time flies. The memory of our first day is still clear to me. Very clear.

Then, here comes to the Orientation of our Junior… we've planned, we've practice, and we made it a success.

Then, Public Health Campaign… it was something tht I would treasure for the rest of my life…

Now..

We're on our journey to fight for what we want to be, fight for the aim when we first step into this Uni.

I am pretty glad that me and my peers, although we're from different background, we share one common thing… the passion to carry on what we're doing it now.

 

Life is not easy. Yes, I think I am Mature enough to say this, and I think I've seen more things by now to be QUALIFIED to say this. Haha! Well, it's not an easy way though. Life.. it's something tht we cannot measure… it's something which is unpredictable. It all depends on what you want, and u try ur best to achieve it.

 

I'm saying this doesn't mean that I am clear on my path. To be honest, I am glad tht I have extra time to really sit and think for what I want.

I am not a disorganized person, but.. there are too many things tht I want in life… and it somehow cannot get connected together. What I am trying to search is the connection to make everything clear, and make sense.

My peers have walked through a long way.. to reach till this stage. Yeap. How much blood, sweat and tears…
? till now, do we have things to fear?
Haha….

This is not even a start. I've always tell myself tht.

 

Time is really flying… I'm not really sad of getting old.. haha.. and I'm not really sad for going to lose my friends in another year and a half. I don't call it as " LOSE". I call it as.. "WE walked different path". Erm… I really love them. Seriously love my peers…. For now, what I can do is…to try my very very best to carve every single memory of them ON ME..

I don't regret on things that I've done and things tht I've not done, tht's why.. I'm not going to let tht happen to me. Till now, everything is nice and sweet, yeah, their memories in me are nice and sweet. Every single thing, every single detail…. ALL!

Sher is the one I knew from the VERY FIRST DAY of orientation till now.     

Who else…. Haha.. u want me to name,, I think I have to name my whole class. Tri was back then, after the orientation… KerLi.. well, I guess.. it's fate that brought us together la. Haha…

Right from there, through activities, interactions… my circle has expanded.. WIDELY!
Even to medic students now.. haha!

 

Owh…. It's because DELLYNN LIM is DAMN FRIENDLY!
J muahahahaha!!!

I don't deny it…ha!

Ela once said tht I looked scary, cuz I never smile.

Erm… erm…. I agree also. When I am serious, I am really very serious. Anyway, now.. we're classmates! So.. what can I say more? i hope she sees another side of me. Haha!

 

Nah, actually, it's a tradition for Seniors to be nice to JUNIORS. To me, I am always nice to my friends.(I don't really like the fact tht my JUNIORS are JUNIORS instead my FRIENDS!I like to call them as my FRIENDS.) Whatever happens, I wouldn't mind a single thing. This is me… and this is why I am always being taken advantage on. Haha!!Hmmm…..

 

So, It's really sad to knw tht our fate has to end somewhere.. Somehow, I think… to really spend 4 years with a bunch of people is something tht I am proud of.…J I've spent my 3s here happily… how about Yours?

 

Good day, and good luck in NonRx quiz 2mr.

God bless all of you.

 

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I cannot resist myself to say this…. DeEr, I miss you.. when can we meet? Haha!! It's already 5 !!!!!!!!!!! muahahaha!!!!

 

Till then, nites!~ making out with my notes…AGAIN! Tht's what I do everyday. J

EStranged- In no Time. hey, Listen to it!! :-)

Anyone who knows me well, knows tht i'm a supa big fan of Linkin' Park...

well, now u knw the type of music i like.. well, let me introduce ESTRANGED, a local band..
hey hey.... dun show ur grumpy face just because it's LOCAL ARTIST.

i can assure tht their standard is around 70% of Linkin' PArk.
For your info, Estranged performed at MTV World Stage, with Boys Like Girls, All American Rejects, Kasabian, etc..etc....

Let me introduce one song tht caught my attention once i listen to it.. it makes me realized tht our local artists are not TYPICAL anymore.
they are evolving now... and i proudly present...

ESTRANGED- In No TIME.

Listen to it.. i love the melody, and the meaning of the song. :-)




Lyrics:
In No Time

I'm barely out of my mind
It's gonna turn blue
this feeling's made me blind
and overdue
I've said my silly goodbyes
I even lost you
It only signalled lies
can i please undo
Try
to make you
Cry
and still I
Sigh
because I
dont wanna push you

I fear the glow in you
have lit my shade away
Instead I found a suiting space
right for my place
Im in lay
I need rest now
In no time
It'll be mine

I speak inside of my own
sometimes i listen
at times i think too much
and see much less
if craving meant i was scared
and longing isn't
then why must i have cared
for both to mean


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Counting to 4th... will it be 5? haha!!! i'm not sure whether i can stand it.... hehe...

good night! :-)

H1N1 influenza prevention and treatment. Oseltamivir's info. :-)

Nauseated this morning.. having bloated stomach, dyspepsia.... argh....

when i read through BNF, i understand it... it's the Side Effects of Oseltamivir. Yes, I'm on prophylaxis dose of Oseltamivir now. Erm.... it's a lot of side effects... Well, i have to monitor the side effects on me, and hope tht i wont lost my renal function by the time i complete it.. haha!! although renal failure is one of the side effects.

okay, Class is on MASK today. yeap.. whole class wearing it except for 2 GANG-HO ppl.. Sher and Tri. muahaha!! both of them really GREAT! anyway, they have enough faith to do that i guess. :-)

Non-Rx quiz is this Friday.. Well, i wish my mates all the best!! :-)


okay, a little bit of knowledge regarding H1N1.
H1N1 is one of the type of Influenza A. Well, the only test to confirm this strain is through Throat Swab which the hospital wont di unless it's a severe case. (FUCK)

It's transmitted through droplets. Tht's why, if a Positive carrier sneezed on the hand, and touched other things, and you happen to tough the place the the person touched.. Eh hem.... u're most likely to get contracted if u dun have the habit of washing ur hand often and with the right way...erm..u'll knw what will happen. :-)

It is air-bourned.. through droplets. tht's why ppl are encouraged to wear a mask everyday, and wash hands often.

Now, Oseltamivir and Zanamivir are the drugs used. Oseltamivir is the first line drug, Zanamivir is the second line because it cannot be used in Asthma patient and those with Respiratory disorder.

Oseltamivir is a drug to treat and prevent Influenza A.
For prevention, it's 1 capsule a day, for 10 days.
For treatment dose, it's 1 capsule twice a day, for 5 days.
(this is only for adult dosing)

Side effects of the drugs are Nausea, dyspepsia, neuropsychiatric disorder, diarrhea...

From BNF 2009:

OSELTAMIVIR

Cautions: renal impairment(Appendix3);pregnancy
(Appendix4);breast-feeding(Appendix5)

Side-effects: nausea,vomiting,abdominal pain,diarrhoea; headache; conjunctivitis; less commonly rash;
also reported,hepatitis,arrhythmias,neuropsychiatric disorders(in children and adolescents), visual disturbances,Stevens-Johnson syndrome,and toxic epidermal necrolysis.


For Dose, refer to doctor if you having any ILI symptoms. ILI-Influenza-Like Illness.
Source: BNF 2009

Till now, the Side Effects varies to individuals. Not all experience the neuropsychiatric side effects.. and minority experienced Nausea, diarrhea... etc etc.

So, this is the info about the drug.


OSELTAMIVIR only works within 48 hours when a person is showing the ILI, for example high fever, cough, sore throat.
those with risk factor, for example pregnancy, hypertension, obesity, asthma, have to be extremely careful if you have ILI,
Get immediate treatment is you have any respiratory distress, for example Shortness Of Breath, Chest Pain,Cough with blood for those who are at high risk (those who have one or more criterion of the risk factor)

Please be responsible to yourself and others. If you are having flu and cough, do not go to the public and spread the disease. Stay at home till the symptoms resolved, and wear a mask wherever you go.

Sleep well, drink at least 3 liters of water per day.. (WHAT?) yes, 3 Liters!! and take vitamin C 500mg once or twice daily as prophylaxis too. :-)

Wash your hands frequently, and those who are exposed to ppl who have ILI, monitor your body temperature everyday. If there's rise of body temperature up to 38 centigrade or more, seek for medical help or advise.

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Avoid public places if possible. :-)


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I'm Glad tht DeEr had settled her PtPtn Loan documents!!! haha!!
All the best to her cuz she has exams this week. :-)
oooh.. thanks to her tht i get to meet my old teachers last Saturday. Skipping class on that day is something meaningful. :-) yeah, i dun feel regret on skipping last Saturday's Endo class.. hehe..
Actually, i only get to knw tht LAst Saturday class is ON after i've promised DeEr to settle the documents for her. So... a promise is a promise. :-)
plus, i think siblings are more important than classes. :-) FAmily first. ;-)



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AL is starting on her new blog. Well, What can i say? it's good to have a blog to express your feelings ... She loves me, i knw. :-) She respects me, i knw :-)

I hope she will find the purpose in her life.. as living is not all about studying. It's more than that. :-)

AL, keep sharing with me. Dun shut your heart towards me. :-)


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Time for Non-Rx. Ciao.

Do you knw tht food which is high in carbohydrate and low in protein can reduce PMS??? haha!! i knew it today!!! :-) as it will increase the Tryptophan level and reduce mood scores. haha! Great! aint it???

Sunday.

It's 2 more confirmed.... make up to 3 now.

I miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. I MISS YOU!!!



It's 4th week!!! It's 4th WEEK!! LONGEST DURATIOn OF ALL!!!!!!

haiz.....


I wish DeEr is all right, as she is having flu.. fever, cough?
It's very critical, the H1N1 in Malaysia. and there's new strain, H3N2... which the mortality duration is the highest. Once u're confirmed on H3N2, u'll die before the test result is out.

see? how fast can the virus mutate.........

Guys, tk care. dun go to the public place if possible yeah.... cuz a lot of undiagnosed positive.. and i am disappointed with the way the HEALTH CARE providers are doing the job....Sigh...


Ciao.....

time for GAME SHOW. :-)

Aeris… u’re 21!!

well, as i promised… here’s Aeris’s birthday pics. :-)

Aeris “Sei Yea” (Si mati in BM) !! happy birthday!!! 21st d!! can do wrong things d!~! hahaha!!

i blanko my teeth!! haha!! cuz it’s too “nice” to be shown.

 

“Sei yea” Aeris’s fingers. haha!! see the one on the right? my buddies. :-) actually, besides Zi Yun is Ai Naa and Angela. :-)

right.. Sher and Aeris. Aeris love the wordings on the choco bar… haha!!!! COOL!

Let’s come to food… this is my SHAKE (SAlmon Porridge). :-)

 

                                 

see la, go to Japanese restaurant and order porridge….sigh…..

BUT BUT!!! THE PORRIDGE IS SUPERB!!

 

                                   

this is the DON ordered by Sher. it’s nice!! i like the black bowl’s design..:-) i mean it looks nice… did not tried it cuz i’m still in recovering period.. I’ve recovered by i knw this is still the contagious period. :-)

                          

this is what Aeris ordered. :-) a SET! dunno what’s the name…. hehe…. looks nice also!! :-)

                      

this is what Zi Yun ordered. Nice right??? haha!!

so basically, we ate and chatted… for almost 2 hours plus…. :-) we chat about everything… Erm… i seriously din knw tht i will also get along well with this bunch of beautiful people.. :-) Well, all i can say is, my classmates are all beautiful people. :-)

so, Aeris’s real birthday is 2mr… cuz 2mr class till 7pm.. so if we celebrate after that, no one will be going… haha!!!

Anyway, Aeris, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! “Sei Yea”!! dont make me sad again!! haha!!

 

I Miss YOU.

Can u imagine how much i miss R.I.C.E?

i miss it just like how i miss Raey....
I miss it just like how i miss ...DeER..
I miss it just like how i miss my long 10 hours sleep...

I miss vegetables, I miss RIce, I miss crabs, i miss squids....

Gah..... I MiSS EVERYTHING THAT CAN BE EATEN@!!!

LOL!! :-) ha!


it feels like i've been suffering from hunger for AGES!!! aiks.....

Aeris's bday photo, i'll upload it later... hehe... maybe 2mr cz i'm determined to finish my studies tonight. :-)

Sorry yeah! :-)

Substances in Life.

Faith is the substance which will not cause feedback inhibition. Overload of faith will not be reduced easily by the product inhibition. J

Strength is an enzyme that will overcome the competitive inhibition of an inhibitor, which is fear. By increasing strength, the fear can be overcomed.

Determination is a test substance. Often, determination will be tested in various aspects.. it's just like blood in human body.. it will be tested when there's any abnormalities. Well, determination will be tested when there's problem or difficulties in our life. J

Love.. is a belief. Human needs nourishment from LOVE, therefore Human needs to believe and Belief.. God=Love. Believe in God, you'll have LOVE.

 

 

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Dellynn will keep fighting. J for sure!

A shaky night.

 

SO near yet so Far…..

This is a phrase that suits us during weekends.

 

So far yet so near..

This is a phrase that suits us during weekdays.

 

What my heart says?

My heart will never stop having space to accommodate such an important person in my life.

 

Well, what the other heart says?

Erm… I hope it's the same. J

 

Tired day.. muscle ache… it's time to rest.

 

Somehow, I cannot feel my enthusiasm THERE anymore… and it is bad. I am creating a bad image for myself. Yes, I am avoiding, I am running away. Maybe this is something tht I have to breakthrough, or maybe this is something tht I have to go through.

Sometimes, I feel like giving up, but…… I try to give myself a chance.. to change what I used to be.

Glad.. and I am fine, thank you. :-)

 

I feel so… WARMED by all those around me now…..

Everyone asking how am i? u ok d? recovered?.. yeah.. I came home early today… so decided to pay a visit to Ju and the rest.. Yep, saw Sissy and K
there… but it was too busy for me to have a good chat with them.. J

 

Kavitha has been asking about my condition. Thanks to her.. So do the rest.

DeEr too. Yeah, I can consider myself recovered d. Just tht I still have mild cough and flu… anyway, it's getting better.

Agreed to work 2mr morning, cuz one of the staffs is on leave. So… just work, as I miss the action.:-)

 

Since I'm only working morning half, so… I think I still have time for lunch?? The problem is… I cannot decide what to eat anymore.. cuz I cannot eat anything basically. Sissy was laughing at me just now.. and said.. " no more mamak d… the fried chicken….. cuz you cannot chew.."

I said :" eh, I cannot chew but I can still drink okay!!!! "

Owh~ I've discovered tht I can eat TOSAI!
Haha!! YAY!

Although I swallow without chewing…. My tongue definitely did a great job in crushing my food. Haha!

 

Supposed to watch GI JOE
today… but. Emergency occured, I cannot make it. Well, maybe I should listen to mummy, not to go any public places first… ha ha. Feel happy cuz I get to spend my Friday night with mummy.. although she was having Yoga class, I still get to fetch her here and there… talk to her.. hehe… I'm happy.

Next week, my Friday class till 7PM! Next Thursday's class till 8 PM! OMG!! But I still need to bear it….. cuz most prolly I have no class on Saturday too. Yippie!

 

Now, time to study… I've left out my PA1 and it's time to catch it back… I hope I can absorb as I am feeling sleepy now d.

 

Planned to have bfast with DeEr 2mr…. but… Ju's msg came first… If I get to ask DeEr earlier and dated her.. I'll sure go! haha…. Well, A PROMISE is a PROMISE! Those who knw me.. I dun FFK ppl easily without SOLID, VALID, EMERGENCY rEASON! …
tht's why, ppl like me always kena FFK. Haha!!!!and I tell u, it doesn't feel good to be DITCHED!
LOL!

 

K la, I wanna study and watch my MENTAL. Owh.. it's a drama series and I've left out a few episodes and planned to catch it up. Now, I think my HABIT getting worse, I need to have SOUNDS when I study.. tht's why, CONAN is always ON when I study at night.. so, u can reckon tht I've watched a lot of episodes d… hehe..

 

Ciao la. Time to study, drama.. and sleep.

My weekend… Mmm…. Hope it will be a good one la. J haha!!!

 

 

 

It’s BLACK, IT’s White!

 

I've granted my promise.. BLACK and WHITE..

It's fated…. Seriously FATED!!!!

 

Draw LOTS, it's BLACK, then WHITE, then GREEN.

My wish : it's also Black n White..

Today during appointment :
MJ's Black or White was playing
when Doctor asked me to choose the colour of the string on my braces.

 

So, BLACK and WHITE are FATED!!!!

 

Aiks……..

 

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I hope Sher had a great time…. J At last, I get to bring her to the best ASAM LAKSA
after Penang… J

Plus.. I think she had a nice dinner too. Hehe…..

J

Me? I cannot chew anything. You'll understand if you see me. J haha!! So.. I am hungry now.. cuz I seriously ate like a cat just now..

Well, hungry=STUDY

Haha!! Tht's my new motto!

 

I think right, I'm better off on GLUCOSE DRIP cuz… I really cannot eat anything…… Sigh……………….