I'm tensed by my assignments...
i was a little depressed yesterday nite...
haiz.. depressed..
still, i hv no mood for dinner.. but i was hungry..
so... i cooked... and i ate alone.. which i hate the most..
ha!
I'm hungry now.... haiz... it's almost 4pm, i hvn tk my lunch, why? i'm doing my assignments with my friends... haha...
Anyway, i hv an appointment tonite... to meet all the aunties!!! it's been one month since i met them... ha! cant wait for crazy talks! yeah, i need to meet them tonite..
I wanted to laugh like hell yesterday nite.....just wanna laugh my depression away...
anyway, when i think of Sue's baby... hehe... at least i still can smile..
all i want is have meals with Stupiak girl and chat myself out..... just wanna run away from this crazy world of mine!!!!! :-)
but glad.... to minimize depression, u hv to face it... by completing assignments.. that's what i'm doing now....
quizzes next week... on the process of studying....
but i guess i'll be prepared.. hehe...
actually, dont feel like working on sat morning.... haiz.. but no choice, help out a bit lo... as i wont be working next sat, for sure!!!!!!! ha!
Cry on my own shoulder? how the head can reach own shoulder ar?? teach me... i dunno... haha! so, next time, cry on other ppl de shoulder ma.... hehe... still got mine ler!! know what my friends like about me? my shoulder... why? very meaty... and my hug, very warm... as i'm meaty and warm.... hahahaaha!!!! I dont mind give my friends hug if they really need it lo... but guys.. plz, stay off... i'm still single and not available... haha@!!
Cheer up!!:-)
I'm in klang... so... ha! not far away from u rite???(by the time u read this..)
k la... i'm preparing to go back and pack my things up.. then... fYuh! back to klang!!!!
haha!!!!
My PiGGiE is growing!!!
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Arigatou lo.... love it! muacks!
Let me say something. i'm smiling alone now... hehe... flashing back the things happened yesterday nite.. haha!! What ar? Rae came to Cheras Pasar Malam lo... and co-incidently i was there... haiz, i dunno how many times i have to walk to the pasar malam!! thanks to Rae la!! if she told me she'll come earlier, then i will not go back so early... just as i was ready to go home and it's already half way out of the pasar malam.. she told me she's here...
see!
of course, i hv to be muka tembok a bit la... cuz i was so happy that she was here!!!! haha!! dying to meet her le.. so, i walk back again lo.. i was sweating like hell.... and my butt very pain, cuz got a big spank from Rae yesterday... ha!!
She went with her Friends, all guys... so she was like the 'cow dung' among the trees.. haha!!! bad huh... haha!! (i hope she found her bank card)
and i tell u, yesterday was the 'fullest stomach' i have!! dunno how many times i hv to eat... haiz.. the stupiak girl chunk everything that she cannot finish to me.. haiz, stupiak.. so i guess i hv to ikat perut today lo.... ha!! cant eat for few days d!! too much oil and carbo yesterday!!! haha!!
i guess yesterday was the luckiest day and happiest day... why? Sue had delivered, i got through my Patient counselling and know what Mr Jony act as? he act as a Japanese and he has low english literacy!! gosh.. but i enjoyed it... haha!! still laughing at the Japanese words he used during the counselling!! ha! and another thing that made yesterday so special... unexpectedly, i get to meet the stupiak girl.
She told me she is 60.. well, be optimistic la.. u still hvn reach 100 ler!!! still got 40 more to go...( i can imagine her expression now...) ha!
I am still smiling alone... dunno what ppl will think of me hor? psycho... but dont care la. I'm happy ma, so i smile lor... hehe. still thinking how happy i was and her reaction when she sees me from far... haha!!!
so, basically, i ate many food yesterday,(happy) and i get to spank her buttock many times...(so that it is balanced). .. and the most important thing is, i get to see her.!!! haha!!
disappointed with the asam laksa.... haiz, waste money and space in my stomach... ha! but at last i get to junk la... hehe...
Sorry if i've interrupted her good time with VY... but i'm sure he'll be very happy to receive the alphabet!!! haha!!
FEar in me, doubts in me... they are gone. All i wanted at that particular time was just simply to hv fun... i'm making full use of the oppurtunity to hv fun now.... especially......
it really feels good that u get to see someone who are really close to u and u are really close to in a place full of ice-berg. hehe.. yeah, for me, Cheras is an Ice-berg... When u feel cold, others are even colder.. so, u hv to survive in this cold place urself.
that's why i'm so thick faced to meet her lo... especially when she's with her friends.
She bought me something... and i didnt tot that she takes it seriously when i said i wanted her to buy me another nicer pouch... cuz i was joking.. partly, it's hard to get a small pouch like i used to have... up to yesterday.
here, let me present my gifts....
Thanks to Rae...
and dont ask about SD again.... haha!!!!
haha... well, let me introduce the gifts i got from Rae yesterday.. the pouch, the 'K', and... no more... the bear, i bought it for myself... haha@@!!!
this is the kesian little pouch which Rae always torture. She even terbalikkan the pouch and says it needs a new look and it feels better when the inside is on outside.. really stupiak... haiz... dunno why she's liddat de.... 'bian tai!" ha!
the pouch... i dunno why pig... maybe i look like pig gua.. or maybe i look as cute as the pig!! haha!! told ya! my skin is multi layered now!!! haha!!
I love pig!!!! well, sometimes i wonder why Rae likes "pinkyRae" but not 'piggieRae"... haiz.. it suits her more with the piggie thingy... haha!!! thanks Rae... i didnt tot that u really will buy me a pouch to replace the old one which....is always tortured by u.. ha!
K for Kuen!!! there are others... hehe....
the 'K', thanks to Rae.. hehe... I know i sounded pathetic, but this is the first time i receive gift from ppl... cuz i think the last time was centuries ago...partly because of my attitude also... cuz i usually give, but dont receive.. haha!
Sweet!! i mean the pig is sweet!!! i love it!
ta-da! after modification!!! yeah, this is the look now!!
and now, it is in front of me... looking cute in front of me... haha....
see!
of course, i hv to be muka tembok a bit la... cuz i was so happy that she was here!!!! haha!! dying to meet her le.. so, i walk back again lo.. i was sweating like hell.... and my butt very pain, cuz got a big spank from Rae yesterday... ha!!
She went with her Friends, all guys... so she was like the 'cow dung' among the trees.. haha!!! bad huh... haha!! (i hope she found her bank card)
and i tell u, yesterday was the 'fullest stomach' i have!! dunno how many times i hv to eat... haiz.. the stupiak girl chunk everything that she cannot finish to me.. haiz, stupiak.. so i guess i hv to ikat perut today lo.... ha!! cant eat for few days d!! too much oil and carbo yesterday!!! haha!!
i guess yesterday was the luckiest day and happiest day... why? Sue had delivered, i got through my Patient counselling and know what Mr Jony act as? he act as a Japanese and he has low english literacy!! gosh.. but i enjoyed it... haha!! still laughing at the Japanese words he used during the counselling!! ha! and another thing that made yesterday so special... unexpectedly, i get to meet the stupiak girl.
She told me she is 60.. well, be optimistic la.. u still hvn reach 100 ler!!! still got 40 more to go...( i can imagine her expression now...) ha!
I am still smiling alone... dunno what ppl will think of me hor? psycho... but dont care la. I'm happy ma, so i smile lor... hehe. still thinking how happy i was and her reaction when she sees me from far... haha!!!
so, basically, i ate many food yesterday,(happy) and i get to spank her buttock many times...(so that it is balanced). .. and the most important thing is, i get to see her.!!! haha!!
disappointed with the asam laksa.... haiz, waste money and space in my stomach... ha! but at last i get to junk la... hehe...
Sorry if i've interrupted her good time with VY... but i'm sure he'll be very happy to receive the alphabet!!! haha!!
FEar in me, doubts in me... they are gone. All i wanted at that particular time was just simply to hv fun... i'm making full use of the oppurtunity to hv fun now.... especially......
it really feels good that u get to see someone who are really close to u and u are really close to in a place full of ice-berg. hehe.. yeah, for me, Cheras is an Ice-berg... When u feel cold, others are even colder.. so, u hv to survive in this cold place urself.
that's why i'm so thick faced to meet her lo... especially when she's with her friends.
She bought me something... and i didnt tot that she takes it seriously when i said i wanted her to buy me another nicer pouch... cuz i was joking.. partly, it's hard to get a small pouch like i used to have... up to yesterday.
here, let me present my gifts....
Thanks to Rae...
and dont ask about SD again.... haha!!!!
haha... well, let me introduce the gifts i got from Rae yesterday.. the pouch, the 'K', and... no more... the bear, i bought it for myself... haha@@!!!
this is the kesian little pouch which Rae always torture. She even terbalikkan the pouch and says it needs a new look and it feels better when the inside is on outside.. really stupiak... haiz... dunno why she's liddat de.... 'bian tai!" ha!
the pouch... i dunno why pig... maybe i look like pig gua.. or maybe i look as cute as the pig!! haha!! told ya! my skin is multi layered now!!! haha!!I love pig!!!! well, sometimes i wonder why Rae likes "pinkyRae" but not 'piggieRae"... haiz.. it suits her more with the piggie thingy... haha!!! thanks Rae... i didnt tot that u really will buy me a pouch to replace the old one which....is always tortured by u.. ha!
K for Kuen!!! there are others... hehe....
the 'K', thanks to Rae.. hehe... I know i sounded pathetic, but this is the first time i receive gift from ppl... cuz i think the last time was centuries ago...partly because of my attitude also... cuz i usually give, but dont receive.. haha!Sweet!! i mean the pig is sweet!!! i love it!
ta-da! after modification!!! yeah, this is the look now!!
and now, it is in front of me... looking cute in front of me... haha....
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
happie!!!!!!
I am damn happy today!!!!!!!
i'm dealing with stupid keyboard now, but i dont care!!!!!!! haha!!
Sue has finally delivered!!! after all the sleepless nites, backpain,.....
Ta-dah!!!!
She delivered to a cute baby girl!!!!!!
Dhania!!!!!! happy!! I'm damn happy!!!!!!
everything that i'm afraid of...everything that i hv doubts on it.. they just vanish from my brain.. haha!!! I'm soooooooooooo happy!!!!!
but too bad.... my rank increased. Freom 'jie jie' become aunty!!!! how can it be!!!! i wanna be 'jie jie' forever... ha!!
Bad sue... i asked her the baby looks like who.. know what she answered??? she said: " i oso dunno look like who, maybe she'll look like her aunty kuen... who knows rite??? ha! but for sure i dont want her to look like aunty PF!!!" haha!!!
see.... Bad Sue... become mother redi oso so naughty... haha!!!
anyway, i'm glad that she's safe...
I'm glad!!!! my pt counselling turned out to be good... hehe.. i'm not proud la... cuz i hv more to improve. but i think i can talk anything in front of any ppl without showing any lacking of confidence.. ha!
I guess working in Life Care really built me up...... hehe....
Thanks to all the aunties there.... haha!!
I guess my face really thick after being polished by them in Life CAre... hehe....
Glad.... cuz it's thicker than onion now... haha!! Mud oso cant help my multi layered face!! haha!
Including Rae... who suddenly become part of Life Care's Aunty now.... wahahahahaha!!!!! Dhania will call Rae Aunty Wei lee, for sure!!! keke...... Imagine...Sue's baby girl call her :' Mak Cik Wei leeeee...." hahahahaha!!! but she'll call me " kakak..." kakakakakakaa!!! haha!
I'm happy today!!
really happy...
Bless sue and her new born baby!!!
Welcome to the world, Dhania!!!!!
Muacks!
cant wait to see her new baby girl!!!!!
Happiness do come after sadness....
I believe in that.
i'm dealing with stupid keyboard now, but i dont care!!!!!!! haha!!
Sue has finally delivered!!! after all the sleepless nites, backpain,.....
Ta-dah!!!!
She delivered to a cute baby girl!!!!!!
Dhania!!!!!! happy!! I'm damn happy!!!!!!
everything that i'm afraid of...everything that i hv doubts on it.. they just vanish from my brain.. haha!!! I'm soooooooooooo happy!!!!!
but too bad.... my rank increased. Freom 'jie jie' become aunty!!!! how can it be!!!! i wanna be 'jie jie' forever... ha!!
Bad sue... i asked her the baby looks like who.. know what she answered??? she said: " i oso dunno look like who, maybe she'll look like her aunty kuen... who knows rite??? ha! but for sure i dont want her to look like aunty PF!!!" haha!!!
see.... Bad Sue... become mother redi oso so naughty... haha!!!
anyway, i'm glad that she's safe...
I'm glad!!!! my pt counselling turned out to be good... hehe.. i'm not proud la... cuz i hv more to improve. but i think i can talk anything in front of any ppl without showing any lacking of confidence.. ha!
I guess working in Life Care really built me up...... hehe....
Thanks to all the aunties there.... haha!!
I guess my face really thick after being polished by them in Life CAre... hehe....
Glad.... cuz it's thicker than onion now... haha!! Mud oso cant help my multi layered face!! haha!
Including Rae... who suddenly become part of Life Care's Aunty now.... wahahahahaha!!!!! Dhania will call Rae Aunty Wei lee, for sure!!! keke...... Imagine...Sue's baby girl call her :' Mak Cik Wei leeeee...." hahahahaha!!! but she'll call me " kakak..." kakakakakakaa!!! haha!
I'm happy today!!
really happy...
Bless sue and her new born baby!!!
Welcome to the world, Dhania!!!!!
Muacks!
cant wait to see her new baby girl!!!!!
Happiness do come after sadness....
I believe in that.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
rush hour.
haha.... (start with a laugh, as i woke up in shock almost everyday...) yeah, my time is not enough!!!! haiz.. i hv whole lot things to do and i dont hv enough time... haiz...
got a bad news just now.. i hv quiz on 15 march... so, i prayed that the SPM result will not be out that day.... haha... why? cuz i want to..... hehe.. wait till the govt announce the date lar.
U wouldnt believe who i met yesterday!!!! I"ve met SD!! yeah, she stays here..... permanently.. and i'm glad that i've met her in the library... she told me she misses MAD so much... and we had crazy chats like we used to back in klang... haha! so, i think i'll be expecting her later downstairs, studying her syllabus...
I THINK RAe will wanna meet her.. I dont mind i introduce SD to RAe....again.... hahaha!!! will see then.
I'm busy today.. class till 6pm.. will stay in the library till about....7pm.. cuz i need to find out info about verpamil 160mg and viagra.. yeah, it's for my patient counselling tutorial 2mr.. luckily it's just a tutorial, not test yet.. haha!! yeah, cant wait for 2mr's tutorial!!!! my session will be with Mr Jony Liem.. he's an indonesion.. a good, kind, knowlegdable guy...
My assignments... yeah, hvn get done with them yet... Med chem due on this friday,(i've completed), comm skills due on 7th march, Lan on 7th mac, biostatistics due on 4th mac.. see!! my assignments!!! i've only done half of it... die lar.... screw me!!! my Peripheral NeRvous System report still hvn done yet.... die la... anyway, i'll force myself to finish it today as it will due 2mr..
maybe i should go pasar malam to release some stress 2mr.... just feel like eating everything out!!! see first la... cuz long long time din go d.... and i hvn been there yet this semester... tragedy. It's a tragedy for me.. haha! well, see first la, maybe i'll ask SD to go along... if she's free la..hehe..
so, i guess i'll hv to eat my lunch(express) in 5 mins... cuz i hv class at 2pm.. it's a long long day... my schedule on tuesday is very pact... it's a whole day class..
WISH ME LUCK FOR 2MR PT COUNSELLING>>> ACTUALLY I"M QUITE SCARED THOUGH>>>....
BSB will be performing in Sunway 2mr... to bad... i cant go... sob sob!!!!! nvm la, i'll save money and go uK to watch thier concert in the future...(just to comfort myself la..)haha!
well.... i think time flies...
and MY FEAR is getting nearer and nearer.... how i wish i could stop the time like HIRO does in HEROES. haiz....
why i feel that way? i just want to preserve everything. I know my life will not be the same after that. so.... appreciate now... and forever.
Honestly, i'm really scared de le!!! haiz.. sometimes, when u dont wanna think about it, it'll come to u automatically... stupid brain. i odo dunno why i'm so scared. maybe because i'm phobia gua... cuz it happened to me before... haiz, dont wanna think about it la.. when it comes, i'll just face it. no matter what the outcome is, at least i appreciate now.... cuz i know i wont hv any regrets later.... that's for sure....
my love, my everything, will still be the same.. I am still me. no doubts on that!
It's 1.50pm now...so i better get my big fat ass off the computer and hv my express lunch! haha...
Sent msg to RAe.. sure she got no more credits de la... haha!! or else, she's lazy to type msg lo... haha!
no la... just wanna say hi to her.. that's all.. hehe..
hope my brother will make up his mind on what he wants... muah will always be there if he needs any opinion from me... I MISS TALKING TO HIM>>>..
gtg now!
got a bad news just now.. i hv quiz on 15 march... so, i prayed that the SPM result will not be out that day.... haha... why? cuz i want to..... hehe.. wait till the govt announce the date lar.
U wouldnt believe who i met yesterday!!!! I"ve met SD!! yeah, she stays here..... permanently.. and i'm glad that i've met her in the library... she told me she misses MAD so much... and we had crazy chats like we used to back in klang... haha! so, i think i'll be expecting her later downstairs, studying her syllabus...
I THINK RAe will wanna meet her.. I dont mind i introduce SD to RAe....again.... hahaha!!! will see then.
I'm busy today.. class till 6pm.. will stay in the library till about....7pm.. cuz i need to find out info about verpamil 160mg and viagra.. yeah, it's for my patient counselling tutorial 2mr.. luckily it's just a tutorial, not test yet.. haha!! yeah, cant wait for 2mr's tutorial!!!! my session will be with Mr Jony Liem.. he's an indonesion.. a good, kind, knowlegdable guy...
My assignments... yeah, hvn get done with them yet... Med chem due on this friday,(i've completed), comm skills due on 7th march, Lan on 7th mac, biostatistics due on 4th mac.. see!! my assignments!!! i've only done half of it... die lar.... screw me!!! my Peripheral NeRvous System report still hvn done yet.... die la... anyway, i'll force myself to finish it today as it will due 2mr..
maybe i should go pasar malam to release some stress 2mr.... just feel like eating everything out!!! see first la... cuz long long time din go d.... and i hvn been there yet this semester... tragedy. It's a tragedy for me.. haha! well, see first la, maybe i'll ask SD to go along... if she's free la..hehe..
so, i guess i'll hv to eat my lunch(express) in 5 mins... cuz i hv class at 2pm.. it's a long long day... my schedule on tuesday is very pact... it's a whole day class..
WISH ME LUCK FOR 2MR PT COUNSELLING>>> ACTUALLY I"M QUITE SCARED THOUGH>>>....
BSB will be performing in Sunway 2mr... to bad... i cant go... sob sob!!!!! nvm la, i'll save money and go uK to watch thier concert in the future...(just to comfort myself la..)haha!
well.... i think time flies...
and MY FEAR is getting nearer and nearer.... how i wish i could stop the time like HIRO does in HEROES. haiz....
why i feel that way? i just want to preserve everything. I know my life will not be the same after that. so.... appreciate now... and forever.
Honestly, i'm really scared de le!!! haiz.. sometimes, when u dont wanna think about it, it'll come to u automatically... stupid brain. i odo dunno why i'm so scared. maybe because i'm phobia gua... cuz it happened to me before... haiz, dont wanna think about it la.. when it comes, i'll just face it. no matter what the outcome is, at least i appreciate now.... cuz i know i wont hv any regrets later.... that's for sure....
my love, my everything, will still be the same.. I am still me. no doubts on that!
It's 1.50pm now...so i better get my big fat ass off the computer and hv my express lunch! haha...
Sent msg to RAe.. sure she got no more credits de la... haha!! or else, she's lazy to type msg lo... haha!
no la... just wanna say hi to her.. that's all.. hehe..
hope my brother will make up his mind on what he wants... muah will always be there if he needs any opinion from me... I MISS TALKING TO HIM>>>..
gtg now!
Monday, February 25, 2008
To RAE
Rae:
let me answer ur question yesterday in detail.
Whatever that makes u happy, i am happy too! it's true! ok..u said u're scared to dip ur heads in, based on all the consequences..
U wanted to start, i knw. yes, u're still scared.
u know what... like i told u, i'm sure 90% that u'll start this. but i dunno when. maybe it will be the day spm result comes out. I really hv strong intuitions for this lo... hehe..
He's a good guy, u know that.
ok, u may thought that i thought he's a bad guy and i dislike him... so? what's the point of me disliking him ler?plus i hv no reasons to dislike him too.. hehe... and i'll bet u'll be surprised also that i actually agree that if u wanna start with him, just start.
U know that once u start, it unseparable. Yeah.... it may be a waste cuz u've lost ur single life but u want to be loved so badly... haha!!! right? i know i'm right....haha!(bad kuen)
Of course, like u told me, u'll scared that u'll lose ur close friends and everyhting... i've told u before, every decision u make, there'll be the consequences also. there are things that u gain, and u may lose. Cuz humans are humans... they hv scarce concentrations. Human are greedy too.. they want to hv both, but in reality... u can only own one...completely. i bet u understand that also.. that's why u're hesitating..
Just bear in mind. no matter how many close friends u've lost... how many friends u disown or how many friends disown u, when u need me, of course i'll still be there for u..always. whenever u need me. Any help, anything.. i wont say no to u... unless u bully me lar.. haha..
Basically, i just want u to choose things that will make u happy and satisfied.
(stop wondering whether i'm a lesbian onot. i'm not, okay!) :-)
U're stil the stupiak girl i know... u're still the most stupiak girl in kuen's WWW. (whole wide world)
know what, i'm glad that u've bumped into my life... which really coloured me up..
(yeah, any colours, but dont put charcoal on my face, that's all..hehe.)
The decision is in you. I need you to think wisely what comes first in your life. and be prepared for all the things u're going to face. It may be unbearable, it may be not..
once for all.. I'm with you.. and do not hesitate that.
I'll still be the aunty to pull u back when u're drowning.. or when u're lost. (like ur mother eh? ) if u need someplace to hang on when u're tired of everything, call me,i'll be there.
I dont mind if u really abandone me for the rest of ur life or throw me somewhere in the mediterranean sea, As for me, once u've come into my life, u're my guest in my heart forever. :-)
love ya much! muacks!
bless you.
Regards:
Kuen
let me answer ur question yesterday in detail.
Whatever that makes u happy, i am happy too! it's true! ok..u said u're scared to dip ur heads in, based on all the consequences..
U wanted to start, i knw. yes, u're still scared.
u know what... like i told u, i'm sure 90% that u'll start this. but i dunno when. maybe it will be the day spm result comes out. I really hv strong intuitions for this lo... hehe..
He's a good guy, u know that.
ok, u may thought that i thought he's a bad guy and i dislike him... so? what's the point of me disliking him ler?plus i hv no reasons to dislike him too.. hehe... and i'll bet u'll be surprised also that i actually agree that if u wanna start with him, just start.
U know that once u start, it unseparable. Yeah.... it may be a waste cuz u've lost ur single life but u want to be loved so badly... haha!!! right? i know i'm right....haha!(bad kuen)
Of course, like u told me, u'll scared that u'll lose ur close friends and everyhting... i've told u before, every decision u make, there'll be the consequences also. there are things that u gain, and u may lose. Cuz humans are humans... they hv scarce concentrations. Human are greedy too.. they want to hv both, but in reality... u can only own one...completely. i bet u understand that also.. that's why u're hesitating..
Just bear in mind. no matter how many close friends u've lost... how many friends u disown or how many friends disown u, when u need me, of course i'll still be there for u..always. whenever u need me. Any help, anything.. i wont say no to u... unless u bully me lar.. haha..
Basically, i just want u to choose things that will make u happy and satisfied.
(stop wondering whether i'm a lesbian onot. i'm not, okay!) :-)
U're stil the stupiak girl i know... u're still the most stupiak girl in kuen's WWW. (whole wide world)
know what, i'm glad that u've bumped into my life... which really coloured me up..
(yeah, any colours, but dont put charcoal on my face, that's all..hehe.)
The decision is in you. I need you to think wisely what comes first in your life. and be prepared for all the things u're going to face. It may be unbearable, it may be not..
once for all.. I'm with you.. and do not hesitate that.
I'll still be the aunty to pull u back when u're drowning.. or when u're lost. (like ur mother eh? ) if u need someplace to hang on when u're tired of everything, call me,i'll be there.
I dont mind if u really abandone me for the rest of ur life or throw me somewhere in the mediterranean sea, As for me, once u've come into my life, u're my guest in my heart forever. :-)
love ya much! muacks!
bless you.
Regards:
Kuen
Long long post... keep writing...
SCREW ME!!! I slept till 7.30am today and my class starts at 8am!! damn! haiz... thanks to me la, i slept quite late yesterday, cuz i was doing my report which will be due today..see? last minute work.. and i have another report which due on wednesday. haiz...
feel guilty cuz i didnt study this morning... so i better study later. Anyway, i'm in the library now. :-) source of books are available... so, i'll study later. hehe...
Read some funny mails from my friends... haha.. it brighthen my mood up!! cuz it's real funny lol! well, cuz i was really blur today.. i woke up late.. and since i woke up late, i took my sweet time to release my 'bomb; in the toilet, brush my teeth, eat my bfast.. by the time i finished all that, it's already 8.10am.. and waiting for the stupid lift..which is loaded. haiz... due to my 'smaller' size now, well, i still can fit into the lift without ringing any alarms.. haha! glad.
by the time i reached to the class, it's 8.30.. well, i am late, so wat? cuz normally on monday, i'll sleep in the class.. but since i slept till 7.30 today, so, i was quite awake..
actually, i already woke up at 4.30am. what i did?i wrote the discussion part of my report, i print my report, doing some touch up... then by the time i finished everything, it's already 6.oo am. so i've decided to sleep about 45 minutes so that i can wake up and wash myself up... mana tahu... i off my alarm at 6.45 and sleep till 7.30@! i got a shock actually.. hehe.. so i've decided to tk everything slow..
i really thought i was the lastest to reach... mana tahu... there's a lot of late comers also! haha.. so we entered the class together..as if we are suppose to be late, not early.. haha..
too bad, i did passive listening to the lecture.. not really listening.. cuz my eyes... they hardly open. (gosh, my eyes already so small.... ) yeah, i think the lecturer cant see my eyes!! ha!
was doing some technical approach to my phone.. haiz.. my phone... (i'm dying for Nokia 6500!!!)
now, my mood still ok ok only... i am trying my best to make use of this day. i wanted to go back and study... but now.. haiz, it seang sent me a msg informing tht there's a meeting regarding the orientation day today, in the school of pharmacy at 11am. so, as a part of the committee, i hv to be there.
Another new week... yeah, hell has begun. for me, i'll try my very best to study. as quiz is in 2 weeks time and finals is coming. so, give me some support ler... (cheers!) i hope i wont collapse this sem. like i did last sem. I really collapsed ler... at the very last 2 papers. anyway, it's over. and i've learnt my lessons. I'm going to do my best as there are more activities for me after my finals. I must do my best.
Wenn iyng told me before... it's normal for a pharmacy student to cry alone when they feel stressed... At first, i only listen. but when i enrolled, i found that it's true. yeah, no matter how tough u are, u'll still hv weak moments. (be prepared if u're going to start ur new journey of life). Degree isnt easy, it is the determinant of ur life. what u eat in the future depends on the degree. so, just try ur best. yeah, i'm trying my best.
I admit, i hv weak moments too. I cry myself sometimes. It's good when the full heavy load of stress feeling is in you, you hv to release it out. for me, i cant just 'sleep' away the stress. It doesnt work for me. Either i try to be violent or i just cry myself away. hah@! scary huh? that's why, Saturday training is the only day i can release myself. I can make full use of my energy to do difficult action. and i use my skill, love, and care to teach my fellow students. Basically, i'll have fun on saturdays. that's why, i cant afford to miss my training. I've told Julene before, if i hv passion to do something, no one can stop me. cuz i've told her that i hv to train every saturday when i first attended the job interview with her.
Guess, TKD built my personality...
i hv the full responsibility to attend and conduct classes... cuz my student's skill is in my hands.
moreover, i hv to prepare someof them for the black belt grading next month. yeah, i'm cracking my head now to built up their stamina.
well, basically... that's the way i release my stress.. and plus the earphone in my head.
( i'm real freak)... when i look back the amount of posts i've posted, i got a shock... i guess the only problem with me is... i dont hv place to throw everything out except for blogs and my lappy..plus certain person. my lappy diary folder is very full also..full of my repertoire..
cuz i dont use to say things about me to the ppl that i dont really know... they'll look liek aliens if i tell them. so, the only things i discussed with them is studies, studies, assignments... projects.. so, pity me ar? no la.. it's my choice. U can say that i am choosy.
Hello... u cant just simply tell ppl what brand of bra u're wearing to those that u dont really know and those who are not close to u rite??!!!? duh!@!!
anyway, u can try. just grab a person from nowhere and tell them :' the brand of underwear i'm wearing is XXX" see what's the person's reaction! u'll get blue black on ur eyes if u're unlucky!ha!
well, that's me. No one really knows me real well here. or i should say, no one really know me la. they only know my name.
It's a long blog, but is till wanna keep writing..
Fiona told me about she saw my frogs picture in friendster blog... well, i dont remember i've uploaded any frogs photo in friendster... haha!! anyway, ok... well... no comments. haha!@ no la, it's ok that she thought it is friendster... it's GOOD actually!!
well, i dun wanna write again what she told me.. I feel it's ridiculous le. dunno la.. I'll still wait and see.. hehe... she's right sometimes, and she's wrong sometimes. the most headache part is... she hardly listen to ppl... and she thinks that she's alwasy right. haiz.... I sometimes feel sorry for her..
It's good to step out and see things as a third party. u'll see more things.
First time i fel glad that Rae really gave some suggestion or i would say her precious view on my bro's future choice. I'm real glad. cuz wat she told me is exactly what i thought also... just that i want my brother to make up his mind himself and decide himself. I didnt do much talkin to him last few days as i came bck to klang only on saturday. well, this weekend, i dunno... I wanted to hv an appointment with Grace, annie and all of the aunties.. but i cant seem to fix my time. As julene needs ppl to work this saturday. Which is more important? or should i arrange my appointment on Friday nite?? well... i will want to consider that.. if i do it on Fri nite, both parties will be great. i get to help both parties.
i'll just consider about that...
smiling lightly... writing do help to regain myself.
It's already been one week BS is in Austrlia.. i wonder how is she.. yeas, i miss her. cuz till now, ther's no news about her ler... wondering how is she....
(wondering..) wondering is what i did if i miss anything or anyone. like everyone back in klang,Fiona,Rae, sue... my brothers,families... haha... i know i can still send msg to them anytime.. but if i've interrupted their work or date, then not good lo... so, sometimes, i just keep it in myself or in my phone. hehe....
Once again... i really hope ther's no changes in everything... I'm rEally scared...honestly... but i'm building myself up to face any changes now... It takes time, i know. but if changes do happen, i'll just accept it... i just hope to preserve the 'pureness' now.... cuz till now, everything is still pure.. I need to learn how to meand my broken heart if changes really happen... For now, i dont even dare to think about it. I just dont wanna lose the things i love and the person i love and care.
bless them... and bless me.
feel guilty cuz i didnt study this morning... so i better study later. Anyway, i'm in the library now. :-) source of books are available... so, i'll study later. hehe...
Read some funny mails from my friends... haha.. it brighthen my mood up!! cuz it's real funny lol! well, cuz i was really blur today.. i woke up late.. and since i woke up late, i took my sweet time to release my 'bomb; in the toilet, brush my teeth, eat my bfast.. by the time i finished all that, it's already 8.10am.. and waiting for the stupid lift..which is loaded. haiz... due to my 'smaller' size now, well, i still can fit into the lift without ringing any alarms.. haha! glad.
by the time i reached to the class, it's 8.30.. well, i am late, so wat? cuz normally on monday, i'll sleep in the class.. but since i slept till 7.30 today, so, i was quite awake..
actually, i already woke up at 4.30am. what i did?i wrote the discussion part of my report, i print my report, doing some touch up... then by the time i finished everything, it's already 6.oo am. so i've decided to sleep about 45 minutes so that i can wake up and wash myself up... mana tahu... i off my alarm at 6.45 and sleep till 7.30@! i got a shock actually.. hehe.. so i've decided to tk everything slow..
i really thought i was the lastest to reach... mana tahu... there's a lot of late comers also! haha.. so we entered the class together..as if we are suppose to be late, not early.. haha..
too bad, i did passive listening to the lecture.. not really listening.. cuz my eyes... they hardly open. (gosh, my eyes already so small.... ) yeah, i think the lecturer cant see my eyes!! ha!
was doing some technical approach to my phone.. haiz.. my phone... (i'm dying for Nokia 6500!!!)
now, my mood still ok ok only... i am trying my best to make use of this day. i wanted to go back and study... but now.. haiz, it seang sent me a msg informing tht there's a meeting regarding the orientation day today, in the school of pharmacy at 11am. so, as a part of the committee, i hv to be there.
Another new week... yeah, hell has begun. for me, i'll try my very best to study. as quiz is in 2 weeks time and finals is coming. so, give me some support ler... (cheers!) i hope i wont collapse this sem. like i did last sem. I really collapsed ler... at the very last 2 papers. anyway, it's over. and i've learnt my lessons. I'm going to do my best as there are more activities for me after my finals. I must do my best.
Wenn iyng told me before... it's normal for a pharmacy student to cry alone when they feel stressed... At first, i only listen. but when i enrolled, i found that it's true. yeah, no matter how tough u are, u'll still hv weak moments. (be prepared if u're going to start ur new journey of life). Degree isnt easy, it is the determinant of ur life. what u eat in the future depends on the degree. so, just try ur best. yeah, i'm trying my best.
I admit, i hv weak moments too. I cry myself sometimes. It's good when the full heavy load of stress feeling is in you, you hv to release it out. for me, i cant just 'sleep' away the stress. It doesnt work for me. Either i try to be violent or i just cry myself away. hah@! scary huh? that's why, Saturday training is the only day i can release myself. I can make full use of my energy to do difficult action. and i use my skill, love, and care to teach my fellow students. Basically, i'll have fun on saturdays. that's why, i cant afford to miss my training. I've told Julene before, if i hv passion to do something, no one can stop me. cuz i've told her that i hv to train every saturday when i first attended the job interview with her.
Guess, TKD built my personality...
i hv the full responsibility to attend and conduct classes... cuz my student's skill is in my hands.
moreover, i hv to prepare someof them for the black belt grading next month. yeah, i'm cracking my head now to built up their stamina.
well, basically... that's the way i release my stress.. and plus the earphone in my head.
( i'm real freak)... when i look back the amount of posts i've posted, i got a shock... i guess the only problem with me is... i dont hv place to throw everything out except for blogs and my lappy..plus certain person. my lappy diary folder is very full also..full of my repertoire..
cuz i dont use to say things about me to the ppl that i dont really know... they'll look liek aliens if i tell them. so, the only things i discussed with them is studies, studies, assignments... projects.. so, pity me ar? no la.. it's my choice. U can say that i am choosy.
Hello... u cant just simply tell ppl what brand of bra u're wearing to those that u dont really know and those who are not close to u rite??!!!? duh!@!!
anyway, u can try. just grab a person from nowhere and tell them :' the brand of underwear i'm wearing is XXX" see what's the person's reaction! u'll get blue black on ur eyes if u're unlucky!ha!
well, that's me. No one really knows me real well here. or i should say, no one really know me la. they only know my name.
It's a long blog, but is till wanna keep writing..
Fiona told me about she saw my frogs picture in friendster blog... well, i dont remember i've uploaded any frogs photo in friendster... haha!! anyway, ok... well... no comments. haha!@ no la, it's ok that she thought it is friendster... it's GOOD actually!!
well, i dun wanna write again what she told me.. I feel it's ridiculous le. dunno la.. I'll still wait and see.. hehe... she's right sometimes, and she's wrong sometimes. the most headache part is... she hardly listen to ppl... and she thinks that she's alwasy right. haiz.... I sometimes feel sorry for her..
It's good to step out and see things as a third party. u'll see more things.
First time i fel glad that Rae really gave some suggestion or i would say her precious view on my bro's future choice. I'm real glad. cuz wat she told me is exactly what i thought also... just that i want my brother to make up his mind himself and decide himself. I didnt do much talkin to him last few days as i came bck to klang only on saturday. well, this weekend, i dunno... I wanted to hv an appointment with Grace, annie and all of the aunties.. but i cant seem to fix my time. As julene needs ppl to work this saturday. Which is more important? or should i arrange my appointment on Friday nite?? well... i will want to consider that.. if i do it on Fri nite, both parties will be great. i get to help both parties.
i'll just consider about that...
smiling lightly... writing do help to regain myself.
It's already been one week BS is in Austrlia.. i wonder how is she.. yeas, i miss her. cuz till now, ther's no news about her ler... wondering how is she....
(wondering..) wondering is what i did if i miss anything or anyone. like everyone back in klang,Fiona,Rae, sue... my brothers,families... haha... i know i can still send msg to them anytime.. but if i've interrupted their work or date, then not good lo... so, sometimes, i just keep it in myself or in my phone. hehe....
Once again... i really hope ther's no changes in everything... I'm rEally scared...honestly... but i'm building myself up to face any changes now... It takes time, i know. but if changes do happen, i'll just accept it... i just hope to preserve the 'pureness' now.... cuz till now, everything is still pure.. I need to learn how to meand my broken heart if changes really happen... For now, i dont even dare to think about it. I just dont wanna lose the things i love and the person i love and care.
bless them... and bless me.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
What happened to me??
losing my grip...
sometimes i feel that. I'm damn scared of changes. I'm really scared... real scared..
I dunno what's my feeling... happy...glad...tired...sad... heaty.. that's what Rae said today. I'm heaty. ha! Since when!!!??! well, maybe not heaty la.. I'm tired. but i'm happy too... I love weekends. i don't care how many hours i slept, how black is my eyes bags.. I still enjoy my weekends.
I just dont wanna stress myself up la.. I want my weekend to be memorable, which is enough to feed my hungry soul for one week.. I miss klang so much when i'm bck in Cheras.(Damn, thanks to Sue who promised to visit me haha!! wish her luck!!!) I dunno why, even i've been there for almost 1 year in few months time, i still miss klang, and everyone...
I think i'm quite emo today ler...
maybe she affected me. I'm sorry that i didnt go and find her after coming back from popular inJJBT just now.. I'm really sorry..
I was tired and i feel tired for everything. I know whatever i say, she'll has her own thinking.. i've done my part, i've told her not to... have i given up? i dunno... i think i'm not and i dont want to. just that i dont know why i acted like that today.. haiz... I'm really abnormal today.
I guess this is the day i hv the most 'drafts' in my phone today..my saved message will be full someday..haha! yeah, i hv the 'norm' to write in my draft whatever i feel like writing and whenever i am. Drafts were meant for unsent or uncompleted message..
mine is... haha... i used draft as my "forever unsent ' msg..
I suck today. and i feel suckie.. yucks.
the more u hoped, the higher the disappointed level....
I hope i'm not losing my grip..
let's see in a few days..
as i said, i dont hope..
cuz things that i've expected to happen, it will not happen usually..
if it happens...haha... miracle.!!!
end 'o' my emo story.. ha!
Rae told me that she'll not buy any dress from Blook again wor... haha.. she said cuz i've already bought her a dress from Blook, so she only wants one.
know what, the English grammar looks and sounds easy, but i dont understand lo... haha!! too deep d..haha...
does it means that i can only buy her dress from Blook ar???haha!! sweatnya... I really dont understand lo... and i really found that my English literacy level real low lo.. ha! cuz i dont understand ler... hehe..
Hope that Rae will know what she wants... either to feed her soul? or to free her soul... (not die la.. i know without soul, a person will die lar.. damn love her ler, how can she die??? haha@!) of course, i dont want her to die la.. sot! at the same time, dont want her to get hurt also... what to do??? Xiao peng you ar? very fragile de... haha!!! honestly, i'm scared that she'll get hurt deeply... cuz i know.. when u're hurt, it takes time to heal. and when it heals, the scar is there, and it takes centuries to heal...
of course, me myself is scared of broken heart also.... sadly, my incident is not once, but thrice!!!! 3 times of hearbroken events.... and i really dunno tk howe long to heal... and i know i took a very long time.. and the scar is here with me,...forever. will it fade? maybe... Guess, the scare will fade, but it will not cure.
i'm getting scared.... about the horoscope i sent her before during CNY. haha... no point being scared la.. Life goes on. If she's happy, i'm happy too! hehe... that's for sure!
I've been taught to tk ppl's happiness as my own, and cherish it...
i did it...
I'm going back....
i'll miss everything again....
sometimes i feel that. I'm damn scared of changes. I'm really scared... real scared..
I dunno what's my feeling... happy...glad...tired...sad... heaty.. that's what Rae said today. I'm heaty. ha! Since when!!!??! well, maybe not heaty la.. I'm tired. but i'm happy too... I love weekends. i don't care how many hours i slept, how black is my eyes bags.. I still enjoy my weekends.
I just dont wanna stress myself up la.. I want my weekend to be memorable, which is enough to feed my hungry soul for one week.. I miss klang so much when i'm bck in Cheras.(Damn, thanks to Sue who promised to visit me haha!! wish her luck!!!) I dunno why, even i've been there for almost 1 year in few months time, i still miss klang, and everyone...
I think i'm quite emo today ler...
maybe she affected me. I'm sorry that i didnt go and find her after coming back from popular inJJBT just now.. I'm really sorry..
I was tired and i feel tired for everything. I know whatever i say, she'll has her own thinking.. i've done my part, i've told her not to... have i given up? i dunno... i think i'm not and i dont want to. just that i dont know why i acted like that today.. haiz... I'm really abnormal today.
I guess this is the day i hv the most 'drafts' in my phone today..my saved message will be full someday..haha! yeah, i hv the 'norm' to write in my draft whatever i feel like writing and whenever i am. Drafts were meant for unsent or uncompleted message..
mine is... haha... i used draft as my "forever unsent ' msg..
I suck today. and i feel suckie.. yucks.
the more u hoped, the higher the disappointed level....
I hope i'm not losing my grip..
let's see in a few days..
as i said, i dont hope..
cuz things that i've expected to happen, it will not happen usually..
if it happens...haha... miracle.!!!
end 'o' my emo story.. ha!
Rae told me that she'll not buy any dress from Blook again wor... haha.. she said cuz i've already bought her a dress from Blook, so she only wants one.
know what, the English grammar looks and sounds easy, but i dont understand lo... haha!! too deep d..haha...
does it means that i can only buy her dress from Blook ar???haha!! sweatnya... I really dont understand lo... and i really found that my English literacy level real low lo.. ha! cuz i dont understand ler... hehe..
Hope that Rae will know what she wants... either to feed her soul? or to free her soul... (not die la.. i know without soul, a person will die lar.. damn love her ler, how can she die??? haha@!) of course, i dont want her to die la.. sot! at the same time, dont want her to get hurt also... what to do??? Xiao peng you ar? very fragile de... haha!!! honestly, i'm scared that she'll get hurt deeply... cuz i know.. when u're hurt, it takes time to heal. and when it heals, the scar is there, and it takes centuries to heal...
of course, me myself is scared of broken heart also.... sadly, my incident is not once, but thrice!!!! 3 times of hearbroken events.... and i really dunno tk howe long to heal... and i know i took a very long time.. and the scar is here with me,...forever. will it fade? maybe... Guess, the scare will fade, but it will not cure.
i'm getting scared.... about the horoscope i sent her before during CNY. haha... no point being scared la.. Life goes on. If she's happy, i'm happy too! hehe... that's for sure!
I've been taught to tk ppl's happiness as my own, and cherish it...
i did it...
I'm going back....
i'll miss everything again....
Friday, February 22, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
muh frog!!!!
apa tu??? frog la. yep, my lab yesterday dealt with frogs.. and the frogs are still alive... but they were pitted. (pitted= brain is dead by using a sharp thing to hit the centre of the brain, heart is still beating) this is my group's frog. name? no name la!!! if i were to name her, i wouldnt dissect it later on!! which is not required in this experiment! hahaa!! yeah, it's a SHE... i knew it right after i dissected it.. view it and see... it's only below...i do think that she looks like..... hehe... better dont speak, if not, i'll get killed!! haha!
baru cut.... so, cheese!!! tk picture!!!! hehe... i wonder, when will we dissect snake ar??? haha!
near view of the hanging muscle... see!! Iwas the one cutting it!! from the beginning till the end of experiment... menyesal tak jadi doktor....ha! maybe i'm influenced by the japanese drama series, TEam Dragon... nice series!!!
this is the pc when it is only 'one leg kicking"!!!! :-)
this is the muscle stimulation on right leg...
this is my frog... after the right leg muscle experiment, we have to cut the left leg for stimulation also.... haha!! FUN!!! to see the muscle hanging!!!!gosh... i'm real cruel....hehe..
this is other group's frog too... yeah, it was my friend from sarawak... u know what she named the frog? Bikini Frog..... lol!!!!!ha!
oh ya, this is other group's frog... where the stimulator is still in the muscle... and she really peel off the frog's skin nicely... haha.. see the muscle hanging? yeah, we were suppose to stimulate the muscle with the stimulator by tie-ing the muscle and hold it up to the tissue holder.
see? the 6 ketul muscle!!! and it took me quite some time to cut the skin off, as it hardens very fast... and due to the cold environment... and the stupid blunt scissors... damn!
A far view before i jumble up her organs, intestines and liver.... and the skins..scattered around...
oooh..... cruel me. yeah, i've dissected the frog cuz i've never dissect a frog before. hehe.. Fun! see the muscles??? it looks like Arnold Swazzeneiger's leg!! and Frogs really have 6 ketul of muscle ler.. which i've already cut.. ha! and mind me, the heart is still beating...
So bacically, i was haivng fun in the experiment.. ha! cuz first time wor, dealing with frogs!!!! I've sent a pic to Rae through mms, dunno whetehr she received it onot... well, ha! just wanted to tell her that the frog looks like her!!! CutE!!! (ugly but adorable!!!) haha!!!
see? every fun is accompanied by sadness. and frustration... which will not be described in detailed by muah! cuz i think i've had enough of all the feelings.. enough is enough. what's past is passed. so.. life goes on... and i cant wait to be back in Klang this Saturday!!!!!!!! cant wait to meet the Stupiak girl ler...haha!!!
see la, let me plan whether we can meet on saturday nite onot.... hehe....
Crisis in Klang...
stupid... real stupid.. and i dun wanna write it d... well, got rid of it after the shouting linkin park does on my ear.. fyuhh!!! very comfortable. hehe..
hiaz... sometimes i really wish that i am retarded.... and i am deaf... and i am a no brainer.. so tht i dont need to listen , dont need to know, and dont need to judge..
i felt sorry after listening to Fiona's story... and it seems tht julene is on Cindy's side d.. well, things will become more complicated d.. guess i'll hv to act like a retard person this sunday..
Crisis is occuring back in Klang.. where Sue's on MC and poor stupiak girl is forced to work every hour, everyday.. pity her.... haiz... but no choice, cuz we have a 'superb' boss who will act gong gong in a unsuitable time.. guess that's what she always do!! haha!
I wish i could work this saturday....at least i can lessen her burden... but think back... she still hv to work at nite oso if i go... haiz... complicated, real complicated... dunno la! dun wanna think about it.. now, i'll just work on the finding of part timers... so that i can really lessen LC's staff burden..
anyway... this will be over soon, everything will be fine after this month ends.. for sure.
hiaz... sometimes i really wish that i am retarded.... and i am deaf... and i am a no brainer.. so tht i dont need to listen , dont need to know, and dont need to judge..
i felt sorry after listening to Fiona's story... and it seems tht julene is on Cindy's side d.. well, things will become more complicated d.. guess i'll hv to act like a retard person this sunday..
Crisis is occuring back in Klang.. where Sue's on MC and poor stupiak girl is forced to work every hour, everyday.. pity her.... haiz... but no choice, cuz we have a 'superb' boss who will act gong gong in a unsuitable time.. guess that's what she always do!! haha!
I wish i could work this saturday....at least i can lessen her burden... but think back... she still hv to work at nite oso if i go... haiz... complicated, real complicated... dunno la! dun wanna think about it.. now, i'll just work on the finding of part timers... so that i can really lessen LC's staff burden..
anyway... this will be over soon, everything will be fine after this month ends.. for sure.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
wish list
Things that i wish to hv for my birthdays...
See? The title? Yeah, it’s always in my heart and i’ve never voice it out before. Know why? Cuz most of the things i want, i don’t think no one except by me can fulfil my needs. As the most expensive gift i received is the platinum necklace i’m wearing now...(don’t count the diamond necklace lar..cuz i get it accidently, and surprisingly, only the blog and my family knows.haha!).
Well, talking bout gifts, i guess i’m back.. and i’ll feel like a kid again.... however, the things i wanted are not as childish as what kids wanted lar...
Bear in mind, i don’t hope any of these will turn up during my 21st bday.... cuz i am the only one alone who will make myself own these by my own money or own effort...
(guess i'm used to being turned down by ppl...)
Let’s start with my list then..
1. My dream phone which i planned to have it this year, Nokia 6500. (see? No one can afford it unless i save my money and buy it myself!!! So, this will reamain in my wish list)
2. Hard drive, at least 180GB. (see? Again, i’m the only one who can buy it!!!)
3. A handmade scarf.. (yeah, liked scarft ever since i’ve been exposed by Rae... anyway, no
one in my family knows how to do it, so, remain in my wish list lar.. wait till i learn how to do..ha!guess i’ll be old ready..haha!)
4. An 2 way flow air ticket to Australia and New Zealand.. (see? Again... if i request these from my family, i guess i’ll hv to live in a tent then!)
5. A buffet in The Golden Horse of Palace. (the place i love the most for buffet, as they hv oysters!!!! Haha!!)
6. A kiss. ( wherever it is, don’t think too much lar... even though it is disgusting to hv a girl kiss on ur lips but not cheek, well, this is still in my ‘impossible’ wish list.. haha!!cuz i don’t dare... even though my friend said the feeling is different, but yucks..... let it remain in my impossible list..."cold and shivering...")
7. I like anything which is hand made. cuz no one has it except for me!! hehe... i guess that's what a person who is not creative at all crave for...(me la!!)
8. I hope i wont get any necklace, especially silver and steel or watever... cuz my skin cant accept all those except for white gold(platinum), and gold...
anyway, i wish to hv a white gold pendant with the initial "K", which stands for Kuen. Unless someone wants to give me his/her name's initial so that i can remember and wear them all the time lar.. or u can buy both, 'K' and ur initial.. haha! then i'll remember better!!
save it if the metal is silver... cuz i really cant wear it. haha! what a 'choosy' skin i hv...hehe..
(well, i guess... this will be remained in my wish list again...)
I guess that’s all... of course, the most important thing is to be healthy and happy always. As i always chant in the morning to my lovely family and friends. I do hope that they’ll be happy and happy and happy always.
So i guess i hv to work out my bdays gift myself then... haha! every year is the same... as no one ever know what i really wanted. Sounds pathetic? Not actually, cuz i’ve used to work my needs out by my myself. Another factor is, i don’t expect these from anyone on anytime, as i know it is impossible to get all these at one time... that’s why, i’m saving my own butts for all these..
Hello, i’m a good money planner ler... i’ll make sure i’ll get what i want and i can still afford my trip to Spore this coming end of April or early May. Hehe...
Bout the air tickets... to Aus and NZ, well, gimme some time lar... haha!! unless i kena lottery! Ha!
I think this coming bday....i don’t expect anything lar.. just wish that my family and friends will be here. I still dunno what to do yet.. cuz... i’m not in Malaysia that time.
A bad experience for Cassie, last October.. ha! She celebrated her Bday in China,(which will be happening to me).. and all she has is a cupcake, shared by 5 person. Haha!! poor thing.. feel funny to see the video taken!! Ha! Of course i hope mine is more than a cupcake lar.. PLEASE!!!
The most important thing is, during my bday, i really hope all my loved ones will be here.
nothing more i could expect by having all of them here.. ha!! cuz they are those i would not trade for anything of the world. haha@
so the birthday gifts..... i'll just get it one by one myself lo... haha! I'm used to it d.. haha@@
Well, what i hope the most in my coming bday? a buffet dinner in the Golden Horse of Palace... haha!!!! cuz i enjoy eating!! erm... guess i hv to work myself to fullfil this.. ha! unless i belanja all of my family there lar!! then i'll hv the chance! hehe...
oh ya, i hope i wont get a super big golden key from my mum....so dungu ler.. small size de will do.. haha!@
I dont hope to grow so fast ler.. wish i am still 17...always 17. Life was so great tht time.. with all my dear friends around, nothing to worry about... wat a sweet 17..
keep dreaming! doink!!!
I'll still need to grow... rite? older and older...
Someone asked me what i wished for this coming 21 bday.. before i could answer, she answered it for me.. what she answered? "love? and pattor?.." i was like..."gosh.. what the!" of course, i just smile back to her and shut myself up.. and listen to what she says... and nodded to the things she said.. (guess i was not really listening to her)
why everyone hope for love ar?? ok, i do so, but i've told myself to wait.. guess it depends on what u want in life.
for sure, i want my life to be extraordinary. much much much better than my parents.@!!
I'm very loh suo hor? what to do? it's my past time now to write blogs and write blogs...
well, i've been thinking whether to 'expose' my blog in blogspot to my friends onot...
after a long consideration... sorry, i don't want.. i still wanna keep it....
cuz there are things that u really dont want other ppl to know or u only want certain ppl(me) to know... and those are the things i'll write here!! haha@! bad huh??? and i express myself more freely here, i can condemn anyone, i can write anything i want.. as i know, trust is all i hv... on... hehe...
that's difference between friendster blog and blogspot... haha.
so, i'll just work harder and harder and harder for my gifts!!! :-)
See? The title? Yeah, it’s always in my heart and i’ve never voice it out before. Know why? Cuz most of the things i want, i don’t think no one except by me can fulfil my needs. As the most expensive gift i received is the platinum necklace i’m wearing now...(don’t count the diamond necklace lar..cuz i get it accidently, and surprisingly, only the blog and my family knows.haha!).
Well, talking bout gifts, i guess i’m back.. and i’ll feel like a kid again.... however, the things i wanted are not as childish as what kids wanted lar...
Bear in mind, i don’t hope any of these will turn up during my 21st bday.... cuz i am the only one alone who will make myself own these by my own money or own effort...
(guess i'm used to being turned down by ppl...)
Let’s start with my list then..
1. My dream phone which i planned to have it this year, Nokia 6500. (see? No one can afford it unless i save my money and buy it myself!!! So, this will reamain in my wish list)
2. Hard drive, at least 180GB. (see? Again, i’m the only one who can buy it!!!)
3. A handmade scarf.. (yeah, liked scarft ever since i’ve been exposed by Rae... anyway, no
one in my family knows how to do it, so, remain in my wish list lar.. wait till i learn how to do..ha!guess i’ll be old ready..haha!)
4. An 2 way flow air ticket to Australia and New Zealand.. (see? Again... if i request these from my family, i guess i’ll hv to live in a tent then!)
5. A buffet in The Golden Horse of Palace. (the place i love the most for buffet, as they hv oysters!!!! Haha!!)
6. A kiss. ( wherever it is, don’t think too much lar... even though it is disgusting to hv a girl kiss on ur lips but not cheek, well, this is still in my ‘impossible’ wish list.. haha!!cuz i don’t dare... even though my friend said the feeling is different, but yucks..... let it remain in my impossible list..."cold and shivering...")
7. I like anything which is hand made. cuz no one has it except for me!! hehe... i guess that's what a person who is not creative at all crave for...(me la!!)
8. I hope i wont get any necklace, especially silver and steel or watever... cuz my skin cant accept all those except for white gold(platinum), and gold...
anyway, i wish to hv a white gold pendant with the initial "K", which stands for Kuen. Unless someone wants to give me his/her name's initial so that i can remember and wear them all the time lar.. or u can buy both, 'K' and ur initial.. haha! then i'll remember better!!
save it if the metal is silver... cuz i really cant wear it. haha! what a 'choosy' skin i hv...hehe..
(well, i guess... this will be remained in my wish list again...)
I guess that’s all... of course, the most important thing is to be healthy and happy always. As i always chant in the morning to my lovely family and friends. I do hope that they’ll be happy and happy and happy always.
So i guess i hv to work out my bdays gift myself then... haha! every year is the same... as no one ever know what i really wanted. Sounds pathetic? Not actually, cuz i’ve used to work my needs out by my myself. Another factor is, i don’t expect these from anyone on anytime, as i know it is impossible to get all these at one time... that’s why, i’m saving my own butts for all these..
Hello, i’m a good money planner ler... i’ll make sure i’ll get what i want and i can still afford my trip to Spore this coming end of April or early May. Hehe...
Bout the air tickets... to Aus and NZ, well, gimme some time lar... haha!! unless i kena lottery! Ha!
I think this coming bday....i don’t expect anything lar.. just wish that my family and friends will be here. I still dunno what to do yet.. cuz... i’m not in Malaysia that time.
A bad experience for Cassie, last October.. ha! She celebrated her Bday in China,(which will be happening to me).. and all she has is a cupcake, shared by 5 person. Haha!! poor thing.. feel funny to see the video taken!! Ha! Of course i hope mine is more than a cupcake lar.. PLEASE!!!
The most important thing is, during my bday, i really hope all my loved ones will be here.
nothing more i could expect by having all of them here.. ha!! cuz they are those i would not trade for anything of the world. haha@
so the birthday gifts..... i'll just get it one by one myself lo... haha! I'm used to it d.. haha@@
Well, what i hope the most in my coming bday? a buffet dinner in the Golden Horse of Palace... haha!!!! cuz i enjoy eating!! erm... guess i hv to work myself to fullfil this.. ha! unless i belanja all of my family there lar!! then i'll hv the chance! hehe...
oh ya, i hope i wont get a super big golden key from my mum....so dungu ler.. small size de will do.. haha!@
I dont hope to grow so fast ler.. wish i am still 17...always 17. Life was so great tht time.. with all my dear friends around, nothing to worry about... wat a sweet 17..
keep dreaming! doink!!!
I'll still need to grow... rite? older and older...
Someone asked me what i wished for this coming 21 bday.. before i could answer, she answered it for me.. what she answered? "love? and pattor?.." i was like..."gosh.. what the!" of course, i just smile back to her and shut myself up.. and listen to what she says... and nodded to the things she said.. (guess i was not really listening to her)
why everyone hope for love ar?? ok, i do so, but i've told myself to wait.. guess it depends on what u want in life.
for sure, i want my life to be extraordinary. much much much better than my parents.@!!
I'm very loh suo hor? what to do? it's my past time now to write blogs and write blogs...
well, i've been thinking whether to 'expose' my blog in blogspot to my friends onot...
after a long consideration... sorry, i don't want.. i still wanna keep it....
cuz there are things that u really dont want other ppl to know or u only want certain ppl(me) to know... and those are the things i'll write here!! haha@! bad huh??? and i express myself more freely here, i can condemn anyone, i can write anything i want.. as i know, trust is all i hv... on... hehe...
that's difference between friendster blog and blogspot... haha.
so, i'll just work harder and harder and harder for my gifts!!! :-)
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
Them...... in my life.
here! it's me! well, it's a camera effect.. why i took it? to indicate that i was a person who wears a half mask.... when i was 2 or 3 years younger...and now, i'm taking off the mask bit by bit... cuz it doesnt feel good to carry a mask around, especially on ur face. Below are the pics of me and my.... ok, i dont know that the pictures uploaded will be on top of the previous one, so the pictures are not arranged in order and it has no preference of number. just view and see... this is me, and my life.
there'll be more coming up, as i'm rushing for classes now..
Fiona and Kenji.... Like mother like son... ha! see the aunty!!! left hand 'giap' a bolster, and Kenji lying on her!! ha! see? they dont even know i snapped their pics...i love natural pics... :-)
Kenji and RAe.... love both of them!!! muacks! Kenji.... cute!!!!!!! Rae... old and not CUTE at ALL!!!!! haha!!!
my mum and dad... in bali. thanks to them actually.... they worked hard and gave me chance to travel there.... hehe... i love my clumsy mom and dad!!! haha!
In bali, on the van 3 of us just hv nothing to do, so we've decided to.....'cheese', camera on!!!!! haha!i hv lots of pics during the trip, maybe i'll make an album in my facebook profile... hehe...
Tasik Kenyir. I went there with my elder cousin during 2007's CNY. well, it's a nice place, worth visiting if u never been there... for me, it feels normal cuz i've went there several times. :-)
LAst year's photo, during year end holiday... me and my cousins, in tanjung Jara beach, a beach where i love the most!!!!! i'll sure go there whenever i'm back in Terengganu... cuz.... the sands there are white, sea is blue in colour, and u can just sit there for a whole day to feel the breeze...and of course, hv fun with my cousins!!!! haha!
meal after grading test.. haha!!! our team. this is incomplete as most of them went back d... well, maybe i'll upload my actions some other day... hehe....
my favourite lab session of all time!!!! putting mice to sleep!! haha!! they are angel when they're asleep!!!! hehe.
guess which is muah beautiful butt? hah!
stupiak girl.... real stupiak, see the way she used her chopstick??!!! so siah suey..... haha!! guess she was 'unconscious' when i took the pic... haha!! i hv lots more siah suey pics of her ler... but definitely not that kind of 'edison chen' pic la... haha!she's one of the person i wanna treasure as long as i can. :-)
Xin YEe!! my little cute girl!!!! love her so much! muacks!!! she really looks blur in this photo... ha! :-)I wish i could love and see her till she reached the age of 18... haha!
ALO, which stands for Ah Lian Organisation! haha! know why? cuz most of them, except for me are so damn ULU!! hehe... Top left, me(was me.. gosh, i'm so fat!) " Founder of ALO", top right, Yong Chean "president of ALO", lower left,yoke leng "secretary of ALO", middle, Mei Cheang "coordinator of ALO", lower right,Cheryl "Treasurer of ALO".they are my fellow ALO.... this was taken when we were on our way to Pangkor.. i love that trip so much!!! hehe... i miss our good time!
guess good friends can only be found during form 5 and form 6... ha!
who's this? this is Furry.... the cutest, most energetic little one in my life... she's cute! and intelligent!! haha! she always 'snap' my food by jumping on me.... haha!!
this is the 21K diamond necklace i've promised to upload... hehe... my marry gift ler...it may not be a clear pic, but a lot of diamonds ler...
i've never told anyone bout the necklace except..... i wrote it on this blog lar....
21K ler!!!!! haha!
me and my bro..... after MY FUNCTION.. haha!!. i love my hairstyle and make up that day!!! thanks to neei!!!!! she's a superb hairstylist!!!!
well, this was taken during MY FUNCTION on 13th Jan. hehe... acted cute a bit... ha!
sorry to annoy anyone, but old ppl hv to act cute a bit ler... ha!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
you can Cry on my Shoulder...
cry on my shoulder-DSDS
Just came back from sending all the keropok lekors... well, ok, it's a sunday. I was damn sleepy today! guess what? haiz... i got hungry very early today after bfast with the stupiak girl.. i dunno why.. ha! so.. wht i did? i ate the wasabi pea in LC which i love it so much!!!! guess it's good that someone created the pea and gladly, no one in LC loves it, so no one will fight the pea with me. hehe... bad kuen...
yeah, Julene came to LC today, sent me the 'open work' ang pau.. she brought Xin Yee down!!! ha! so cute!! wearing red dress.. damn, so cute!! too bad, cant carry her as she's rushing to somewhere else... so, just say goodbye to Xin Yee by giving her a kiss lo... hehe.
Reached home about 2.05pm... what i did? i took my lunch, switch on a boring cartoon dvd which i'll sleep everytime i watched it, then i snored off!
cant believe it.. i was so tired... and my eyes... i hardly open this morning... and the panda eyes of mine... so ugly... yer...
and i slept like a baby....(it's better to substitute 'baby' with 'pig')ha! cuz i was like lost conscious... u can slap me, hit me.. slam me.. and i'll still be sleeping..like a 'baby'.. hehe..
if u ask me... has my emotional status recovered...? well, what can i say? ok.. yeah, it has recovered.. most of it has recovered. Life goes on, right? sometimes decisions has to be made before it really deteriorates u. I know if i keep being emotional, i'll be dead. most of my routine will be disturbed and i don't want this to happen...
but.....
I've got the song, cry on my shoulder, today.. from wei lee.. and i've hvn finished browsing the new songs she's having ler... haiz..
the song...
i love this song,
so damn much..
I am touched by this song... really.
guess because i am the one always offering the meaning of this song to others..
but today, for the first time, i really felt like 'someone' is singing that to me... which in reality, no one hasnt done that to me before.. touched...
guess what, i'm having 'blurred vision' after listening to the song..
no matter how many times i repeat the songs, i'll still hv 'blurred vision'..
wei lee very bad de lo.... always got 'kang tao' for nice songs de... caused 'blurred vision' to ppl due to the great meaning of the song..
maybe i'm very porous these days, i could break in pieces anytime gua... that's why, the song really touched me.
yeah, i admit that i'm still consider porous now... but i'm building my pores up so that i'm strong again.
anyway, i really hope......
here i share the lyrics.... which made me....
If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
see? meaningful, isn't it?
I'll miss everything in Klang again... as i'll be going back to cheras to start the war... alone.
alone...? yeah, physically i am but i dont think i am alone mentally... as i know, if i need someone to talk, i can always express it in the blog... haha! sweat right?
feel sorry to abandone my blog in frenster... guess this blog is the only blog i can blah everything out when i am in my ups or downs..
To.....stupiak...
whatever happens in the future.... u can always rmember the msg below.
' whenever you're feeling down and you need someone, i'll be there.. i may not be near to you physically, but i am near to u, in your heart.. anything u wanna share, as usual.. jx use whatever ways u hv to convey the msg to me..
lastly, if u feel like wanna cry, u can cry on my shoulder...'
deep in my heart...though i wish someone would really sing the meaning of the song to me...but deep in my heart, i also wish that the one i really love and care would not feel alone and helpless when they're down or when they need someone to listen to them..
guess that's why i am always the Giver.
just wanna let them know that i am always there ....
that's Kuen! when i am in too deep, i think i'll give out my heart... haha...
cuz when i love them, i really do..
yeah, i really do.....
i'll keep singing the song.......to you.
a little secret here: bout the previous blog... though BS is my bestest fren.. but within us, nothing like the feeling i'm having now never happened to us before.. as i've said, i've break barriers now...only after....
both are special. real special.
no regrets..
as for BS, i appreciate....
as for the stupiak girl, i'll still appreciate before anything change. even if things changed, i'll still appreciate.
TREAT UR HEART GOOD....
:-)
Just came back from sending all the keropok lekors... well, ok, it's a sunday. I was damn sleepy today! guess what? haiz... i got hungry very early today after bfast with the stupiak girl.. i dunno why.. ha! so.. wht i did? i ate the wasabi pea in LC which i love it so much!!!! guess it's good that someone created the pea and gladly, no one in LC loves it, so no one will fight the pea with me. hehe... bad kuen...
yeah, Julene came to LC today, sent me the 'open work' ang pau.. she brought Xin Yee down!!! ha! so cute!! wearing red dress.. damn, so cute!! too bad, cant carry her as she's rushing to somewhere else... so, just say goodbye to Xin Yee by giving her a kiss lo... hehe.
Reached home about 2.05pm... what i did? i took my lunch, switch on a boring cartoon dvd which i'll sleep everytime i watched it, then i snored off!
cant believe it.. i was so tired... and my eyes... i hardly open this morning... and the panda eyes of mine... so ugly... yer...
and i slept like a baby....(it's better to substitute 'baby' with 'pig')ha! cuz i was like lost conscious... u can slap me, hit me.. slam me.. and i'll still be sleeping..like a 'baby'.. hehe..
if u ask me... has my emotional status recovered...? well, what can i say? ok.. yeah, it has recovered.. most of it has recovered. Life goes on, right? sometimes decisions has to be made before it really deteriorates u. I know if i keep being emotional, i'll be dead. most of my routine will be disturbed and i don't want this to happen...
but.....
I've got the song, cry on my shoulder, today.. from wei lee.. and i've hvn finished browsing the new songs she's having ler... haiz..
the song...
i love this song,
so damn much..
I am touched by this song... really.
guess because i am the one always offering the meaning of this song to others..
but today, for the first time, i really felt like 'someone' is singing that to me... which in reality, no one hasnt done that to me before.. touched...
guess what, i'm having 'blurred vision' after listening to the song..
no matter how many times i repeat the songs, i'll still hv 'blurred vision'..
wei lee very bad de lo.... always got 'kang tao' for nice songs de... caused 'blurred vision' to ppl due to the great meaning of the song..
maybe i'm very porous these days, i could break in pieces anytime gua... that's why, the song really touched me.
yeah, i admit that i'm still consider porous now... but i'm building my pores up so that i'm strong again.
anyway, i really hope......
here i share the lyrics.... which made me....
If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
see? meaningful, isn't it?
I'll miss everything in Klang again... as i'll be going back to cheras to start the war... alone.
alone...? yeah, physically i am but i dont think i am alone mentally... as i know, if i need someone to talk, i can always express it in the blog... haha! sweat right?
feel sorry to abandone my blog in frenster... guess this blog is the only blog i can blah everything out when i am in my ups or downs..
To.....stupiak...
whatever happens in the future.... u can always rmember the msg below.
' whenever you're feeling down and you need someone, i'll be there.. i may not be near to you physically, but i am near to u, in your heart.. anything u wanna share, as usual.. jx use whatever ways u hv to convey the msg to me..
lastly, if u feel like wanna cry, u can cry on my shoulder...'
deep in my heart...though i wish someone would really sing the meaning of the song to me...but deep in my heart, i also wish that the one i really love and care would not feel alone and helpless when they're down or when they need someone to listen to them..
guess that's why i am always the Giver.
just wanna let them know that i am always there ....
that's Kuen! when i am in too deep, i think i'll give out my heart... haha...
cuz when i love them, i really do..
yeah, i really do.....
i'll keep singing the song.......to you.
a little secret here: bout the previous blog... though BS is my bestest fren.. but within us, nothing like the feeling i'm having now never happened to us before.. as i've said, i've break barriers now...only after....
both are special. real special.
no regrets..
as for BS, i appreciate....
as for the stupiak girl, i'll still appreciate before anything change. even if things changed, i'll still appreciate.
TREAT UR HEART GOOD....
:-)
Saturday, February 16, 2008
mad girl in a mad season...
hello... A greeting to open up my blog... and to continue what i am going to 'crap' here...
I was shocked when i was looking at the mirror while i was bathing just now... Gosh!! my panda eyes!!! and i am very tired now as i've trapped in the stupid jam in klang town near public bank for 30 minutes!! without moving at all!!!! so we've decided to tk the Kpg Jawa road back.. and the journey from kapar to klang took about 1.5 hours... shit! i can go and come back from Cheras... !#@$#@$#@%#$^@#$!!!
Admit that i was quite emotional yesterday and today... cuz BS is going to leave to Australia 2mr morning, 9.45am flight. and i really got screwed by Yan when we were on the way to fetch her to JJBT.. I told her.. i'm not going. know why?
cuz... i know BS very well... I dont want her to leave 'very emotionally' expecially when i am there.. and i dont want this memory to stay in me... i dont want..
i guess that's why i let myself drunk in Fiona's house... but i was not completely drunk, just a bit dizzie...
I had a great time in Greenbox today. REally... i really sang a lot of songs... and know what, Yan was surprised that i can really sing cuz i nvr sing before with them. and another secret here : I dont sing in the car when i heard my fav song whenever they(my friends) are beside me... haiz, again, Stupiak girl was the first to hear me really sing in the car... haha!!! dunno why le, just feel comfortable with her in the car.. like no barrier at all.. hehe...
I think they were surprised to hear me sing...Hello... i can sing k????!!! after singing, Yan told me:' hey, i dunno that u can really sing huh? improved a lot ar...? i mean attitude wise..? " yeah, thanks to the comfortability of me being with my dear stupiak girl... it really breaks another 'barrier' of mine. i can now sing in front of my family... which i dont before i met her. haha! see? big bad influence on me!! ha!
I've bought BS an alarm clock. From HOMIE in JJBT. It was a nice alarm clock. Bs asked me to choose a colour for her. i've chosen a pink one... and paid for it. then know what she told me after that..? she said:' i know i'll miss u very much, hehe.. that's why, every morning when the alarm wake me up, i'll think of u.."(something like that, cuz our conversation was in CHinese.) I reply her back by a slight smile..
I'm touched le. i'm scared i'll break out if i speak. so.... we moved on.]
to sakae sushi.
drank green tea and ate some sushi. and had funny chats there... and Yan was bombing me lots... i love wasabi, and yan said i was numbing myself with wasabi so that i tear...and relief my emotion. what?!!?? no la.. i really loved wasabi.
around 4 somehting, i sent both of them back. As Yan will meet her and send her the last journey...
BS was the last.. yeah, i sent her the last. we had a brief chat for 10 mins... in my car.
While i was driving... she suddenly tell me that..." i will surely miss u very much.... can u upload ur photo in facebook so that i can grab it..?
I remained silent. i only start talking to her once i reached her house, as i dun want my tears to blurr my vision..
she told me that she always browse my photos in facebook.. well, i was like... and she asked me to upload more, so that she can save in her new lappy and make a screen saver out of it...
my emotion was not very stable d... cuz she said, "i only go for 1 year.., i'll call u once i'm there. time flies... dont miss me too much lor...." i said:' i'll upload more of photos there, u upload urs too.. and dont call me ler, it's very expensive." she replied : ' no la, it's cheap to call back using the number there..." i was speechless.
I know i was going to tear soon.. cuz looking at the clock, we've left only 6 mins..
and finally, i couldnt help myself and turn my face away from her.. tears running down...
i couldnt help it... really cant..
she pulled my face bck.. and said :' dont be like this ler... see! i'm so cute de.. see! see!!" yeah right, she looks totally ugly by posing herself with the 'scissors paper, stone" cute pose.. haha.. i wiped my tears, she did her pose again... hehe.. trying to make me laugh.
yeah, she tried hard.. i'm sad, i'm really sad. It's like losing someone u really love and care..
My relationship with her.. i dunno how to explain.. we're the bestest friend ever.
then when the time is getting narrower... she said she has to go down.. ok.. fine. I told her:' u're just going to leave like that??" without saying anything... she pulled herself closer and hugged me... very tightly.. i was tearing again..
she said:' i hug u like this, then u wont let go lor...?' i said:' ya, i dont want to...if i can..'
remaining in this position, she talked to my ears, asking me to tk good care of myself, as 1 year is very fast.. asking me to gambate in my studies and tell me that i can send offline msg on msn to her anytime... gosh, i was tearing, and i only nodded and answerd:' mm, mm,......" i was really really speechless...
it remains about 1 minute.... the longest hug she ever gave it to me... cuz the first one was given by me, during her 17th bday,yeah form5 time.
and she's the type of conservative girl... and she keeps the feeling of hugging for many many years.. she's more emphasize on the first time feeling and memory.. she always tell me: ' good things, u dont need more, u just need to trasure the feeling in ur heart, forever..." i still remember the things she told me...
that's why...
and today, she really showed me physically that she wanted to hug me when she met me in popular.. I wasnt sure about the feeling...so i just kept quiet.
she caress my head like she used to do when we were in KTV.. haha!
then she left from the car...
i was controlling my tears...
as i drove away... i really tear down..
the whole journey... from her house to mine...
i tak sampai hati ler.... to let her go like this....
oh ya, she asked me before she left the car, she asked me whether i'm going to sent her off 2mr onot,? i said '"no".. then she said:' i think like that it's better for me as....i'll feel more tak sampai hati later...."
I've made a right decision... i knew it very early....
I wish her good luck in everything....
P.S: i'm not a lesbian... :-)
I was shocked when i was looking at the mirror while i was bathing just now... Gosh!! my panda eyes!!! and i am very tired now as i've trapped in the stupid jam in klang town near public bank for 30 minutes!! without moving at all!!!! so we've decided to tk the Kpg Jawa road back.. and the journey from kapar to klang took about 1.5 hours... shit! i can go and come back from Cheras... !#@$#@$#@%#$^@#$!!!
Admit that i was quite emotional yesterday and today... cuz BS is going to leave to Australia 2mr morning, 9.45am flight. and i really got screwed by Yan when we were on the way to fetch her to JJBT.. I told her.. i'm not going. know why?
cuz... i know BS very well... I dont want her to leave 'very emotionally' expecially when i am there.. and i dont want this memory to stay in me... i dont want..
i guess that's why i let myself drunk in Fiona's house... but i was not completely drunk, just a bit dizzie...
I had a great time in Greenbox today. REally... i really sang a lot of songs... and know what, Yan was surprised that i can really sing cuz i nvr sing before with them. and another secret here : I dont sing in the car when i heard my fav song whenever they(my friends) are beside me... haiz, again, Stupiak girl was the first to hear me really sing in the car... haha!!! dunno why le, just feel comfortable with her in the car.. like no barrier at all.. hehe...
I think they were surprised to hear me sing...Hello... i can sing k????!!! after singing, Yan told me:' hey, i dunno that u can really sing huh? improved a lot ar...? i mean attitude wise..? " yeah, thanks to the comfortability of me being with my dear stupiak girl... it really breaks another 'barrier' of mine. i can now sing in front of my family... which i dont before i met her. haha! see? big bad influence on me!! ha!
I've bought BS an alarm clock. From HOMIE in JJBT. It was a nice alarm clock. Bs asked me to choose a colour for her. i've chosen a pink one... and paid for it. then know what she told me after that..? she said:' i know i'll miss u very much, hehe.. that's why, every morning when the alarm wake me up, i'll think of u.."(something like that, cuz our conversation was in CHinese.) I reply her back by a slight smile..
I'm touched le. i'm scared i'll break out if i speak. so.... we moved on.]
to sakae sushi.
drank green tea and ate some sushi. and had funny chats there... and Yan was bombing me lots... i love wasabi, and yan said i was numbing myself with wasabi so that i tear...and relief my emotion. what?!!?? no la.. i really loved wasabi.
around 4 somehting, i sent both of them back. As Yan will meet her and send her the last journey...
BS was the last.. yeah, i sent her the last. we had a brief chat for 10 mins... in my car.
While i was driving... she suddenly tell me that..." i will surely miss u very much.... can u upload ur photo in facebook so that i can grab it..?
I remained silent. i only start talking to her once i reached her house, as i dun want my tears to blurr my vision..
she told me that she always browse my photos in facebook.. well, i was like... and she asked me to upload more, so that she can save in her new lappy and make a screen saver out of it...
my emotion was not very stable d... cuz she said, "i only go for 1 year.., i'll call u once i'm there. time flies... dont miss me too much lor...." i said:' i'll upload more of photos there, u upload urs too.. and dont call me ler, it's very expensive." she replied : ' no la, it's cheap to call back using the number there..." i was speechless.
I know i was going to tear soon.. cuz looking at the clock, we've left only 6 mins..
and finally, i couldnt help myself and turn my face away from her.. tears running down...
i couldnt help it... really cant..
she pulled my face bck.. and said :' dont be like this ler... see! i'm so cute de.. see! see!!" yeah right, she looks totally ugly by posing herself with the 'scissors paper, stone" cute pose.. haha.. i wiped my tears, she did her pose again... hehe.. trying to make me laugh.
yeah, she tried hard.. i'm sad, i'm really sad. It's like losing someone u really love and care..
My relationship with her.. i dunno how to explain.. we're the bestest friend ever.
then when the time is getting narrower... she said she has to go down.. ok.. fine. I told her:' u're just going to leave like that??" without saying anything... she pulled herself closer and hugged me... very tightly.. i was tearing again..
she said:' i hug u like this, then u wont let go lor...?' i said:' ya, i dont want to...if i can..'
remaining in this position, she talked to my ears, asking me to tk good care of myself, as 1 year is very fast.. asking me to gambate in my studies and tell me that i can send offline msg on msn to her anytime... gosh, i was tearing, and i only nodded and answerd:' mm, mm,......" i was really really speechless...
it remains about 1 minute.... the longest hug she ever gave it to me... cuz the first one was given by me, during her 17th bday,yeah form5 time.
and she's the type of conservative girl... and she keeps the feeling of hugging for many many years.. she's more emphasize on the first time feeling and memory.. she always tell me: ' good things, u dont need more, u just need to trasure the feeling in ur heart, forever..." i still remember the things she told me...
that's why...
and today, she really showed me physically that she wanted to hug me when she met me in popular.. I wasnt sure about the feeling...so i just kept quiet.
she caress my head like she used to do when we were in KTV.. haha!
then she left from the car...
i was controlling my tears...
as i drove away... i really tear down..
the whole journey... from her house to mine...
i tak sampai hati ler.... to let her go like this....
oh ya, she asked me before she left the car, she asked me whether i'm going to sent her off 2mr onot,? i said '"no".. then she said:' i think like that it's better for me as....i'll feel more tak sampai hati later...."
I've made a right decision... i knew it very early....
I wish her good luck in everything....
P.S: i'm not a lesbian... :-)
Friday, February 15, 2008
can't wait!
ok.. mind me, i'm scary today.. 3 blogs in a row. wow.. it's a new record..
I'm hungry now.. it's 12.30pm now. hehe..
just finished my lab, it was successful, and i'm glad. really glad. cuz my last experiment turns out nothing.. and end up we have to create fake result to write the report. haiz.... but thank god, i dont need to do it today! haha!
as for next week, i'll only be bck on Saturday morning.. cuz i hv midterm exam for my LAN subject. screw me, hvn study yet...hehe.
well, i realized one thing... when i'm going to have the feeling i was having yesterday, it means that i'm having hormonal changes in my body.... haha.. yeah, feel guilty that i cant meet Grace, Annie and those sampat aunties at BBK this saturday... no choice lor... haha!
Most of them are married... that's why i like to be with them.. and the most important is, they're really sampat.. haha! u'll laugh whole day if u talk to them!! From the way they talk, u would not believe that they already hv kids. ha!
anyway, i've planned my Saturday with someone else...
luckily i cant make it to work this saturday nite... haha! i memang busy de la...hehe.
sad.. sad.. sad... most of my friends, they're leaving this Sunday... first is KM, 2nd is BS. wat to do? hv to bear it lo..... anyway, i've made my decision. hehe.. no regrets!
I cant wait to meet WEi lee actually... haha!! and i cant wait to go bck to klang..cant wait to taste Fiona's cooking...excited!excited! Spare me!! I'm excited!!
anyway, i'm glad that He's made his decision...
i hope Rae will make up her mind lo...
I dunno whether the feeling was created purposely onot.. i dun wanna judge...
oh ya, wanna thank Rae and his brother for helping me on my draft.. hehe.. she really helped me a lot.. thank u thank u!!!muacks! muacks!! she'll owe me one meal for helping me...(what the..!!!??) hehe...
sometimes, the shyness of expressing feelings are there.. of course, sometimes u dont really mean what u say.. haha!@!!!
actually, I can go bck now.. cuz i only hv 1 hour of tutorial class later.. haiz, another tutorial, which is Basic Pharmacology&immunology was cancelled... damn... left only Medicinal Chemistry. hehe.. but i'm a good girl ler.. i wont skip classes.. ha!
anyway, my class today ends at 3.30pm.. and i dunno what time my driver(dad) will come and pick me up... unless i hv my boy boy to pick me up la...(which i dont hv now..)hehe..
let me share some quotes and saying which i found meaningful...
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" This bright new day...complete with 24 hours of opportunities, choices and attitudes.. a perfectly matched set of 1440 minutes.This unique gift, this one day, cannot be exchanged, replaced or refunded. Handle it with care, make te most of it. "
" sometimes you've got to let everything go- purge urself. If u're unhappy with anything..whatever is bringing u down, get rid of it, because u'll find that when u're free, ur true creativity, ur true self comes out. "
" do not watch the petals fall from the lotus with sadness. Know that, like life, things sometimes must fade, before they can bloom again. "
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I like to share these... hehe.. it's meaningful, isnt it? i hv more.. next coming post lar.. haha!
oh ya, the election will be on 8th March 2008..
I dunno... disappointed? i am actually, disappointed with the government...
cuz chinese are still consider as 2nd class citizen... and the priviledge we get.. u know lar.. malas nak cakap lagi.. i think we've used to it..
I still remember one of my friend, she told me that her friend, from Taiwan said this to her : ' i really sympathize chinese from Malaysia, as u guys are like kids from no where.. and i cant believe u all can stand this."
yeah, she my friend told me... see? the impression of Malaysian chinese to the foreigners?hehe..
nothing will be changed... i can guarantee, for the next coming 50 years.
unless.....
anyway, i wont be involving in this coming election, as... i'm still underage. plus, i hvn register myself as a voter... hehe..
I cant wait for everything......
hope that Sunday will come faster... hehe... That's the day that i'll say 'HI' more than 'BYE'.. haha!
I'm hungry now.. it's 12.30pm now. hehe..
just finished my lab, it was successful, and i'm glad. really glad. cuz my last experiment turns out nothing.. and end up we have to create fake result to write the report. haiz.... but thank god, i dont need to do it today! haha!
as for next week, i'll only be bck on Saturday morning.. cuz i hv midterm exam for my LAN subject. screw me, hvn study yet...hehe.
well, i realized one thing... when i'm going to have the feeling i was having yesterday, it means that i'm having hormonal changes in my body.... haha.. yeah, feel guilty that i cant meet Grace, Annie and those sampat aunties at BBK this saturday... no choice lor... haha!
Most of them are married... that's why i like to be with them.. and the most important is, they're really sampat.. haha! u'll laugh whole day if u talk to them!! From the way they talk, u would not believe that they already hv kids. ha!
anyway, i've planned my Saturday with someone else...
luckily i cant make it to work this saturday nite... haha! i memang busy de la...hehe.
sad.. sad.. sad... most of my friends, they're leaving this Sunday... first is KM, 2nd is BS. wat to do? hv to bear it lo..... anyway, i've made my decision. hehe.. no regrets!
I cant wait to meet WEi lee actually... haha!! and i cant wait to go bck to klang..cant wait to taste Fiona's cooking...excited!excited! Spare me!! I'm excited!!
anyway, i'm glad that He's made his decision...
i hope Rae will make up her mind lo...
I dunno whether the feeling was created purposely onot.. i dun wanna judge...
oh ya, wanna thank Rae and his brother for helping me on my draft.. hehe.. she really helped me a lot.. thank u thank u!!!muacks! muacks!! she'll owe me one meal for helping me...(what the..!!!??) hehe...
sometimes, the shyness of expressing feelings are there.. of course, sometimes u dont really mean what u say.. haha!@!!!
actually, I can go bck now.. cuz i only hv 1 hour of tutorial class later.. haiz, another tutorial, which is Basic Pharmacology&immunology was cancelled... damn... left only Medicinal Chemistry. hehe.. but i'm a good girl ler.. i wont skip classes.. ha!
anyway, my class today ends at 3.30pm.. and i dunno what time my driver(dad) will come and pick me up... unless i hv my boy boy to pick me up la...(which i dont hv now..)hehe..
let me share some quotes and saying which i found meaningful...
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" This bright new day...complete with 24 hours of opportunities, choices and attitudes.. a perfectly matched set of 1440 minutes.This unique gift, this one day, cannot be exchanged, replaced or refunded. Handle it with care, make te most of it. "
" sometimes you've got to let everything go- purge urself. If u're unhappy with anything..whatever is bringing u down, get rid of it, because u'll find that when u're free, ur true creativity, ur true self comes out. "
" do not watch the petals fall from the lotus with sadness. Know that, like life, things sometimes must fade, before they can bloom again. "
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I like to share these... hehe.. it's meaningful, isnt it? i hv more.. next coming post lar.. haha!
oh ya, the election will be on 8th March 2008..
I dunno... disappointed? i am actually, disappointed with the government...
cuz chinese are still consider as 2nd class citizen... and the priviledge we get.. u know lar.. malas nak cakap lagi.. i think we've used to it..
I still remember one of my friend, she told me that her friend, from Taiwan said this to her : ' i really sympathize chinese from Malaysia, as u guys are like kids from no where.. and i cant believe u all can stand this."
yeah, she my friend told me... see? the impression of Malaysian chinese to the foreigners?hehe..
nothing will be changed... i can guarantee, for the next coming 50 years.
unless.....
anyway, i wont be involving in this coming election, as... i'm still underage. plus, i hvn register myself as a voter... hehe..
I cant wait for everything......
hope that Sunday will come faster... hehe... That's the day that i'll say 'HI' more than 'BYE'.. haha!
muh draft.
bout the previous poem.. it's not a good work lar... just to excpress myself through writing.. haha! guess that's the consequences of having the ability to 'dive' into ppl's feeling. Yeah, i have the gift. hehe....
I was cracking my head for the games during the coming orientation, which will be on July. haiz.. at last, i've submitted my draft. thank god. it's a rough draft with some budget estimation la. well, should i post it ar? hehe... i will, cuz i know no one will plagarise my work. I've killed most of my brain cells for this draft.. n truly said, all of them was my idea, my modification from past experience. so, for a person who is NOT CREATIVE AT ALL(like me), it's a big success that i am able to think of all these..
haha!
proud?
sort of..hehe..
hope it turns well during the orientation la...
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Draft : Events/ Games for the orientation,2008 Pharmacy programme intake.
1. Ice breaking
Groups are formed based on month and date of birth.
Eg: dec 31
31.12
3+1=4
4+1=5
5+2=7
So, this particular person will be in Group 7.
Any difference in number of group members will be arranged by the facilitators.
Duration of game: 20 minutes
2. No words game( identity)
things needed : small piece of paper, magic pen
Each group is given a small piece of paper
Group logo will be drawn based on preference of each group. At the end of this game, the logo has to be submitted for evaluation.
group names are formed. The choice of group name is up to the preference of each group.
In the mean time, Members are required to create group cheer without any words, grammar, or sentences.
Only sounds can be allowed.
Group Cheers will be performed on stage.
Logo drawn has to be explained.(each group will be entitled to 5 minutes to explain and perform group cheers)
Duration of game: 30 mins(drawing), approximately 50 mins to explain and perform
3. bridge building
Division line between 2 sides is built. Distance between the division line: 1 meter
Things needed: straws, cellophane tapes ,scissors. n white tape. (has to be limiting)
Each group will be given a packet of straws,100s, 2 cellophane tapes, n 2 pair of scissors.
Communication tables will be set on the stage.
Each group will be separated into 2 groups. 100s straws will be divided equally among own group.
A leader is appointed for all the groups on the division line.
Leader from all groups is sent to the centre to communicate with the opposing group on strategy of building the bridge. Duration: 2 minutes.
After 2 minutes, each group’s representative will have to run back to their respective groups and start building their half bridge.
Alarm will be rang after 2 minutes.
Each group is given 15 minutes to build. (no communication is allowed among groups on each opposing group during this 15 minutes) Then, another person( cannot be the same person who went out just now) will be sent out to the communication table to communicate.
Facilitators will be making interruption along the centre of the communication table by shouting and blocking their viewas,to prevent them from communicating. Duration of communication: 1 minute
Again, after 1 minute, alarm will be rung again.
Then, the representative will have to run back again to their own group and continue building.
After 3 intervals of 15 minutes, the game has to be stopped, and the half bridge from the opposite sites has to be completed.
Each group will hv to return their scissors, cellotape n remaining straws.
The bridge is connected between groups on the division line.
Judgement: based on creativity of the bridge.
Marks will be given based on the scheme given below.
Total time of the game: 1 hour
4. Movie time...
Each group is given a title or a movie character.
Groups are given 20 minutes to prepare.
Titles of the drama :
A) X-man
B) Batman
C) Superman
D) Catwoman
E) Harry Potter
F) Cicak man
G) Powerpuff girls
H) Spiderman
I) Robin Hood
J) Pontianak
Each group will be given 10 minutes to perform their sketch on stage. The sketch has to involve all the members in the group.
Duration of the game : 1 hour 30 minutes.
5. war time
Things needed: 100 balloons, 10 plastic spoons, and 10 ping pong balls.
Each group is equally divided in to equal number on both side of the division line formed.
All the groups on 1 side will start simultaneously.
chairs are placed at each opposing site. Balloons are placed at each opposing site too.
a. The first person of each group is required to make a 5 rounds turn. Then, the facilitator will pass the person a plastic spoon and a ping pong ball. The person is required to hold the spoon with the ping pong ball and walk to the opposing site.
b. Then, the person is required to blow a balloon and burst it by sitting the balloon on the chair.
After that, the first person of the opposing group will do the same thing again as in point (a) and point (b).
Marks of the game will be given based on the scheme given below.
Duration of the game : 30 minutes.
Marks
1st to complete any of the games above : 10 marks.
2nd place: 7 marks.
3rd place : 3 marks
4th place : 2 marks
5th, 6th....10th- 1 mark
6. Adieu styllus
All the juniors are required to arrange the tables and chairs(if required) before getting signatures from the organisers.
All of them has to get at least 10 signatures from the seniors. Get the booklet signed. And fill up all the empty space given in the booklet by getting the signatures from other group’s member. Columns must be provided for signatures.
Overall budget:
10 x packets of straws : 10 x Rm 1.50= Rm 15
10 x ping pong balls : Rm 9
Magic pens :
20 x cellophane tape( small size) : Rm 6 (approximately)
Balloons: 5pkts (20s) x Rm 8.00=Rm 40
Mischellaneous : Rm 20.00
Total : Rm 90.00
Committee list( still expanding)
Lim Huey Kuen
Shereen Ang
Elizabeth
Tan Ker Li
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as u notice... there's only 4 of us..i mean the committee list. why ler? haiz.. hard to find ppl ler.. cuz those staying nearby dun wanna come bck earlier.. those staying far from selangor oso dun wanna come bck earlier to prepare... bad right?? ha!
The reason i involve myself....(which is a miracle to me..especially based on my condition now..)
i just wanna give myself a chance to built myself up. plus, make myself more sociable. i guess i'm trying my best though..
i hope things will change when i'm in my second year.
I was cracking my head for the games during the coming orientation, which will be on July. haiz.. at last, i've submitted my draft. thank god. it's a rough draft with some budget estimation la. well, should i post it ar? hehe... i will, cuz i know no one will plagarise my work. I've killed most of my brain cells for this draft.. n truly said, all of them was my idea, my modification from past experience. so, for a person who is NOT CREATIVE AT ALL(like me), it's a big success that i am able to think of all these..
haha!
proud?
sort of..hehe..
hope it turns well during the orientation la...
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Draft : Events/ Games for the orientation,2008 Pharmacy programme intake.
1. Ice breaking
Groups are formed based on month and date of birth.
Eg: dec 31
31.12
3+1=4
4+1=5
5+2=7
So, this particular person will be in Group 7.
Any difference in number of group members will be arranged by the facilitators.
Duration of game: 20 minutes
2. No words game( identity)
things needed : small piece of paper, magic pen
Each group is given a small piece of paper
Group logo will be drawn based on preference of each group. At the end of this game, the logo has to be submitted for evaluation.
group names are formed. The choice of group name is up to the preference of each group.
In the mean time, Members are required to create group cheer without any words, grammar, or sentences.
Only sounds can be allowed.
Group Cheers will be performed on stage.
Logo drawn has to be explained.(each group will be entitled to 5 minutes to explain and perform group cheers)
Duration of game: 30 mins(drawing), approximately 50 mins to explain and perform
3. bridge building
Division line between 2 sides is built. Distance between the division line: 1 meter
Things needed: straws, cellophane tapes ,scissors. n white tape. (has to be limiting)
Each group will be given a packet of straws,100s, 2 cellophane tapes, n 2 pair of scissors.
Communication tables will be set on the stage.
Each group will be separated into 2 groups. 100s straws will be divided equally among own group.
A leader is appointed for all the groups on the division line.
Leader from all groups is sent to the centre to communicate with the opposing group on strategy of building the bridge. Duration: 2 minutes.
After 2 minutes, each group’s representative will have to run back to their respective groups and start building their half bridge.
Alarm will be rang after 2 minutes.
Each group is given 15 minutes to build. (no communication is allowed among groups on each opposing group during this 15 minutes) Then, another person( cannot be the same person who went out just now) will be sent out to the communication table to communicate.
Facilitators will be making interruption along the centre of the communication table by shouting and blocking their viewas,to prevent them from communicating. Duration of communication: 1 minute
Again, after 1 minute, alarm will be rung again.
Then, the representative will have to run back again to their own group and continue building.
After 3 intervals of 15 minutes, the game has to be stopped, and the half bridge from the opposite sites has to be completed.
Each group will hv to return their scissors, cellotape n remaining straws.
The bridge is connected between groups on the division line.
Judgement: based on creativity of the bridge.
Marks will be given based on the scheme given below.
Total time of the game: 1 hour
4. Movie time...
Each group is given a title or a movie character.
Groups are given 20 minutes to prepare.
Titles of the drama :
A) X-man
B) Batman
C) Superman
D) Catwoman
E) Harry Potter
F) Cicak man
G) Powerpuff girls
H) Spiderman
I) Robin Hood
J) Pontianak
Each group will be given 10 minutes to perform their sketch on stage. The sketch has to involve all the members in the group.
Duration of the game : 1 hour 30 minutes.
5. war time
Things needed: 100 balloons, 10 plastic spoons, and 10 ping pong balls.
Each group is equally divided in to equal number on both side of the division line formed.
All the groups on 1 side will start simultaneously.
chairs are placed at each opposing site. Balloons are placed at each opposing site too.
a. The first person of each group is required to make a 5 rounds turn. Then, the facilitator will pass the person a plastic spoon and a ping pong ball. The person is required to hold the spoon with the ping pong ball and walk to the opposing site.
b. Then, the person is required to blow a balloon and burst it by sitting the balloon on the chair.
After that, the first person of the opposing group will do the same thing again as in point (a) and point (b).
Marks of the game will be given based on the scheme given below.
Duration of the game : 30 minutes.
Marks
1st to complete any of the games above : 10 marks.
2nd place: 7 marks.
3rd place : 3 marks
4th place : 2 marks
5th, 6th....10th- 1 mark
6. Adieu styllus
All the juniors are required to arrange the tables and chairs(if required) before getting signatures from the organisers.
All of them has to get at least 10 signatures from the seniors. Get the booklet signed. And fill up all the empty space given in the booklet by getting the signatures from other group’s member. Columns must be provided for signatures.
Overall budget:
10 x packets of straws : 10 x Rm 1.50= Rm 15
10 x ping pong balls : Rm 9
Magic pens :
20 x cellophane tape( small size) : Rm 6 (approximately)
Balloons: 5pkts (20s) x Rm 8.00=Rm 40
Mischellaneous : Rm 20.00
Total : Rm 90.00
Committee list( still expanding)
Lim Huey Kuen
Shereen Ang
Elizabeth
Tan Ker Li
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as u notice... there's only 4 of us..i mean the committee list. why ler? haiz.. hard to find ppl ler.. cuz those staying nearby dun wanna come bck earlier.. those staying far from selangor oso dun wanna come bck earlier to prepare... bad right?? ha!
The reason i involve myself....(which is a miracle to me..especially based on my condition now..)
i just wanna give myself a chance to built myself up. plus, make myself more sociable. i guess i'm trying my best though..
i hope things will change when i'm in my second year.
Sudden work...
This poem came out from me suddenly yesterday nite.. i dunno why and how. I am listening to BYUL,which is one of the soundtrack from 2oo pounds. Well, hehe..this little piece of mine came out.. I didn name this as i dunno what should i name it.. cuz it just came out all of a sudden.
Here i present my work...
Looking back at the past,
Darkness,
filled within the shades of clouds.
Brightness,
seems so far away,
Reaching my hands out,
I Can’t seem to hold you tight.
I’m afraid,
In fear, i’m living in... once you’re gone.
U leave me behind with sadness,
U leave me behind,
Running to chase and catch ur steps.
I’m trying my best get to you...
Yet..
Helpless, i am helpless.
Impossible lies on ur face.
Should i stop running?
Should i stop chasing?
Should i stop myself from all i am doing?
Should i??
I’m exhausted,
I’m tired,
I dunno u anymore.
Broke In pieces,
u have left me.
My soul is scattered,
My heart is bleeding..
Cuz once, you’re my everything..
Tears ,
It slips me away.
Feelings,
Suffocates me.
Fear,
Wraps over my brave fragile heart.
What should i do?
Lord, i need you.
Guide me through... please...
Make me whole again..
Here i present my work...
Looking back at the past,
Darkness,
filled within the shades of clouds.
Brightness,
seems so far away,
Reaching my hands out,
I Can’t seem to hold you tight.
I’m afraid,
In fear, i’m living in... once you’re gone.
U leave me behind with sadness,
U leave me behind,
Running to chase and catch ur steps.
I’m trying my best get to you...
Yet..
Helpless, i am helpless.
Impossible lies on ur face.
Should i stop running?
Should i stop chasing?
Should i stop myself from all i am doing?
Should i??
I’m exhausted,
I’m tired,
I dunno u anymore.
Broke In pieces,
u have left me.
My soul is scattered,
My heart is bleeding..
Cuz once, you’re my everything..
Tears ,
It slips me away.
Feelings,
Suffocates me.
Fear,
Wraps over my brave fragile heart.
What should i do?
Lord, i need you.
Guide me through... please...
Make me whole again..
Thursday, February 14, 2008
I'm a psycho today.
special day?
i dunno....
i cant wait for this day to be over .... so that i can put a full stop for everything.
I'm more worry about her ler...
My mind was saturated.. cant even remember a single word Ms Priya and Dr Thet was saying just now.. Screw me!
Save her please...!
Anyway, I hope today will be as normal as the other days..
it's just valentine's, right?
When things that we cannot avoid, of course, we have to face it by hard.
Whether we stumble or we fall after the decision is made.
What the hell am i writing huh?
i dunno ler..
know what, my heart feels miserable..
feelings are jumbling in me.
happy, excited, worry, calm... all the Sh*t..
and it doesnt feel right..
plus my stupid blocknose, and i feel like sneezing now..
Ig-no-re m-e..
there's something wrong with my brain today.... definitely.
I laugh to myself, well, not laugh actually, i smile to myself quite a lot today..
am i psycho?
ignore me..
and now, i think a lot...
sometimes i ask myself, why do i hv to think all the possibilities? which hvn been confirmed whether it will happen onot?
my history : what i expected will not happen normally.
except this friday, which is 2mr... i expected myself to go alone, but miracle happens. and i was and am damn happy..
see, my feelings, really juggling in me..
psycho...
feel like asking someone to hit me on my cerebrum and make me unconscious.
haiz...
I cant wait to say goodbye to today actually.
though i know things will be different after this.... for her.
well, at least..... i still keep something memorable in me if the 'something' really happened.
leave it to fate.
but honestly, i do not hope that the 'turning point' will be today..
in case u dont understand, well , just leave it.
simply means : status depends on today.
i understand the feeling of dilemma, which u dunno which to choose while both are important to u..
i've chosen mine..
how about u?
no doubt, it needs sacrification.. but what to do? things that needed to be done.. it has to be done no mater what.
avoiding is not the solution.
we'all just hv to be strong to face it...
and the feeeling... it does not feel good...
it reminds me of what i've been going through last december..sad..
Guess i'll just tk betafed to sleep later...
cant stand the juggling emotions in me..
just hope that evrything will be fine after i open my eyes.
just wanna numb myself for the time being..
valentine's this year... too bad i cant spend it with my family and friends.
anyway, i guess i hv to use to this situation.
I try to be as annoying as possible in this blog..
well, my nails turned blue.. gosh.. what happened?
i think i'm malnutrition.. whatever...
end' o story..
wanna share this song ... by Shayne ward. I've listened to this song quite a long time and i took a few attempt to love this melody.. cuz it sounds weird when u first listen to it...
i think it contains the msg i wanted to convey to her after sms-ing her last night...
here, let me present...
You're not alone by Shayne Ward
She's getting out of bed
At half past ten
She starts to comb her hair
Just an ordinary day
She looks at her reflection
Off the wall
Why do I care at all
Just an ordinary day
An ordinary day
That's hurting you
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
You're not alone
She's waiting for the bus it's 12:59
She's sitting on her own
Just an ordinary day
She's looking at the people
Passing her by
It could be you and I
They would never dream
Of slowing down
To see if she's alright
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
I'm hurting
She's hurting
I'm hurting, she's hurting
I'm so alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
I will be the one around
love this song suddenly... and the melody isnt so bad at all.
I'm more to the meaning...i mean the meaning of the lyrics.
and i only keep this song in muh phone....
Whatever happens, when all the world turn against u.. when u hv nothing to hold on, when u feel helpless, whenu feel like drowning..
I'm always there... to pull u up.
for sure..
can't wait.... for everything.
:-)
i dunno....
i cant wait for this day to be over .... so that i can put a full stop for everything.
I'm more worry about her ler...
My mind was saturated.. cant even remember a single word Ms Priya and Dr Thet was saying just now.. Screw me!
Save her please...!
Anyway, I hope today will be as normal as the other days..
it's just valentine's, right?
When things that we cannot avoid, of course, we have to face it by hard.
Whether we stumble or we fall after the decision is made.
What the hell am i writing huh?
i dunno ler..
know what, my heart feels miserable..
feelings are jumbling in me.
happy, excited, worry, calm... all the Sh*t..
and it doesnt feel right..
plus my stupid blocknose, and i feel like sneezing now..
Ig-no-re m-e..
there's something wrong with my brain today.... definitely.
I laugh to myself, well, not laugh actually, i smile to myself quite a lot today..
am i psycho?
ignore me..
and now, i think a lot...
sometimes i ask myself, why do i hv to think all the possibilities? which hvn been confirmed whether it will happen onot?
my history : what i expected will not happen normally.
except this friday, which is 2mr... i expected myself to go alone, but miracle happens. and i was and am damn happy..
see, my feelings, really juggling in me..
psycho...
feel like asking someone to hit me on my cerebrum and make me unconscious.
haiz...
I cant wait to say goodbye to today actually.
though i know things will be different after this.... for her.
well, at least..... i still keep something memorable in me if the 'something' really happened.
leave it to fate.
but honestly, i do not hope that the 'turning point' will be today..
in case u dont understand, well , just leave it.
simply means : status depends on today.
i understand the feeling of dilemma, which u dunno which to choose while both are important to u..
i've chosen mine..
how about u?
no doubt, it needs sacrification.. but what to do? things that needed to be done.. it has to be done no mater what.
avoiding is not the solution.
we'all just hv to be strong to face it...
and the feeeling... it does not feel good...
it reminds me of what i've been going through last december..sad..
Guess i'll just tk betafed to sleep later...
cant stand the juggling emotions in me..
just hope that evrything will be fine after i open my eyes.
just wanna numb myself for the time being..
valentine's this year... too bad i cant spend it with my family and friends.
anyway, i guess i hv to use to this situation.
I try to be as annoying as possible in this blog..
well, my nails turned blue.. gosh.. what happened?
i think i'm malnutrition.. whatever...
end' o story..
wanna share this song ... by Shayne ward. I've listened to this song quite a long time and i took a few attempt to love this melody.. cuz it sounds weird when u first listen to it...
i think it contains the msg i wanted to convey to her after sms-ing her last night...
here, let me present...
You're not alone by Shayne Ward
She's getting out of bed
At half past ten
She starts to comb her hair
Just an ordinary day
She looks at her reflection
Off the wall
Why do I care at all
Just an ordinary day
An ordinary day
That's hurting you
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
You're not alone
She's waiting for the bus it's 12:59
She's sitting on her own
Just an ordinary day
She's looking at the people
Passing her by
It could be you and I
They would never dream
Of slowing down
To see if she's alright
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you
I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
I'm hurting
She's hurting
I'm hurting, she's hurting
I'm so alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
I will be the one around
love this song suddenly... and the melody isnt so bad at all.
I'm more to the meaning...i mean the meaning of the lyrics.
and i only keep this song in muh phone....
Whatever happens, when all the world turn against u.. when u hv nothing to hold on, when u feel helpless, whenu feel like drowning..
I'm always there... to pull u up.
for sure..
can't wait.... for everything.
:-)
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