Tuesday, June 29, 2010
erm.
I don't like ppl taking things for granted.
Aiks.. just like my coussie..
Well, our path and incidents of life are fixed. Yes, it is. So, if u're undergoing certain things, certain hardships, dun blame, cuz it's the path that u need to walk.
Today,I thank God for giving me such great family and friends to share, and to accompany me along my life journey. I thank God that EuGene undergo what he underwent. I am sure HE knows what's best for all of us.
So, no one to blame. Well, there's nothing to blame. Perhaps, things will be different after the lost?? Trust me, God knows what is HE doing. By certain time, He will reveal the reasons why things happen. Yeap, based on my experience. =)
So, stop mourning over the lost. It's nothing. =)
Life is a rollercoaster, accept the fact.
Thank God, i have the TAMER, my Lord.
I admit that he tamed me. Seriously... =) Deep in me, there are wild things which are struggling and waving, however, HE tamed me.
k, enuf of that.
So, Let me just pray for a fun and happy and enjoyable trip to Singapore.
God bless all of us.
P.S : Sorry of the message sounds harsh. Truly speaking, i don't depend on prophecy. It's totally insane. Be rational yeah. Stay happy! like i said, things happened for a reason. U might not see it now, but u will see it later. =) by the way, let Shawty knw, get over it. U guys have each other to be with, Love that matters, more than anything else. Owh, reminder again, plz be rational yeah!!!! =) hahaha!!!
Chocolates~! Thanks Elsie!!! miss your presence and u're back!! yay!!!!!!! lets go crazy! =)
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday!! Sunday!!!
God!!! My Jeslyn grow so MUCH!!! hahahah!! she is so damn cute now!! she sings and talks!!
haha... So, I'm now can't for Elsie to come back!!!! erm.. mainly because of my chocolates. hehe... she is bringing chocolates back from AUssie!
Watching "Brothers and Sisters" now. Good drama, warm... showed love between siblings and parents, friends, work. haha!!! Love the first episode itself..
so,Today is another day.
Had fun in my uncle's farm yesterday!! Everything(all animals) lives in peace. CAt can sleep together with a huge Labrador. Monkey stays above where the cat and dog sleeps, Turkeys, chickens, ducks, goose stay together below the place where the cats and dogs live.
etc...etc...
I love it there!the animals! hahahahahah!!!!
My parents will be back to Klang today.
Erm... i'm so going to miss my bed and SheePig.
wookie, its time to wash up, refresh, start a new day.. bla bla bla.....
Peepz, live life to the fullest. Do not leave any regrets in your life.
Love you guys!!!
by the way, Tenth Avenue North is cool!!! nice songs they have!!
P.S; Love the pouring rain, the sound of the rain... gives peace .
Saturday, June 26, 2010
my contented day. Short update. =)
another song from Barlow girl. --- I don’t regret.
This song touches my heart even more after a good chat with Chean. =)
They're telling me they're concerned for the way I am living
That I'll miss it all why would I think that God is that trusting
I can't explain all the words He has spoken to my heart
Why'd I want him more
I don't regret choosing you
And I'm not ashamed
That it's You who holds my heart
Why do we think if we trust God too much will fail us
Nothing has come when I chose its that in me I'd trust
Separate me You have called out to follow You blindly
I won't fear You're leading me
I don't regret choosing You
And I'm not ashamed
That it's You who holds my heart
You have shown my ever wondering heart what love is
What on earth is more important than to have all of you
I don't regret choosing you
And I'm not ashamed
That it's You who holds my heart
just reached home at 3.11am. Well, my contented day. With God’s grace, i’ve met my P, my JaNooKai, My colleagues, My Chean. Most importantly, i had a satisfied Chapati meal with my beloved mummy. =)
Morning was crazy, Thank you Lord who bless me with confidence and grace, I’ve completed my task.=)
Now, After spoken with Chean, i think God has spoken to me on what to do for the research project thingy. =) I think i have my decision with me. Thank u Lord! Now, pray that i will get the topic i want. tht’s all. hehe….
I’ve learnt something today, bonds that are strong will never easily broken. Well, lets say… me and God. Lets not mention on what i’ve undergone last few weeks… Me, I am still me, the one who has strong faith but i’m still KuEn.
The bonds btween me and my colleagues, simple, yet.. long lasting.
the bond between me and my P. Complicated… forever never break., hahahah!
bond between me and my family, we are tied by blood. So, forever never break.
How many precious ppl you have in your life???
make sure u do appreciate them and honour them. Honour God too.
To me, Never God, Never Family, Never Friends.
HE is the main person in my family-networking tree. =)
I’ve had a great time today. Time to watch drama and sleep!! Just done with my packings!! hahahaha!!!!!!! I’m so ready to GO! =)
Ppl, Love u guys!!!
nitez!! =)
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Wish-ie mee lark!
whatever it is… just wish me luck 2mr. =)
I need prayers…
i need strength. =)
I’m going to do my best! =)
Let me share a song from BArlow girl-a christian band. i Start to love their songs though!! I mean their albums are awesome!! haha… yeah, worship songs are the songs i listened to these few days when i was in my room.. mugging.
it connects to my soul. I mean, this song.
here i present, NEVER ALONE-BArlow Girls. (official music video with lyrics)
There are a couple of nice songs from them.Will introduce it one by one.. =)
I’ll post another song from them in my next post. A song that i listen to when I was down and lost from that incident. =)
hahaha.. guess i really make use of my Pioneer Headphone well. Yeah, i think mum is going to yell at me one day “can u plz tk down the headphone and hear that i yell for u? LOLs!”
nah, i knw she’ll never do that. so far, she only knocks my room and talk while she is still knocking the door. (okay, i still hear knocks k!)
i am So in love with my Pioneer Headphone. Gosh, i still rmber that i was so in love with my Pioneer earphone when i first bought it. No doubt, i still love in love with it just that i use my headphone more frequent that my earphone whenever i’m at home.
one week, it passes in a blink of eye. Fast right? 2mr is friday d. =)
ppl, appreciate ur day. The news of a customer’s son passed away in sleep last week still haunts me. The kid was 2 years-old when he passed away.
Live life to the fullest. tht’s why i never miss any opportunity to have fun with my loved ones. =)
owh yeah? enjoyed the song? click replay or play to listen again if u like it. I personally love it!!!!
peepz, it’s time to mug again. So, I’ll see u guys 2mr? haha.. means I’ll post again 2mr night. =) my movie date with my JaNooKai still on though. Tht’s why have to fulfill it. =)
“though YOU’re invisible, I’l trust the unseen”
always…. =) i trust the holy presence of HIM.
Amen.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
pretty weird morning to wake up.
I had a dream, which woke me up from my nice sleep.
I dreamt of…her..
my looi looi lar!!!
Gosh…. Jeslyn was saying “bye bye” to me in my dreams!!! hahahah!!!She talks!!!
I was so happy till i woke up cuz i couldnt believe my dream!
I’m so thrilled that i’m going to see her again this coming weekend! hehe…. happy!!!
My one and only niece (for now), Jeslyn! =)
Erm.. Nothing much happened yesterday. Just that i was kinda pissed by someone who is so irresponsible towards own family and trying to push the responsibility to US!
sigh.. i wonder why on earth there are these kind of ppl. Talk without action. I’m so tired of talking and mourning about what happened. So, I’ll let it pass by. God knows what to do. =)
Through worship songs, HE showed me what i should do. Well, I sort of knw what to do next. =) PTL!
Today is definitely another day in my room. Mm… yeah, I’ve been in my room doing some important stuff for this friday. I refuse to leave my room! tht’s why i rejected all the working opportunities and watching movie session. I just need to “tahan” a few more days. *bluek* I still watch drama from laptop.. hahaha!!!!!
Love .. FAith… Hope.
We look to Yahweh. =)
Amen.
So, let me continue my battle. Weekend joy. I cant wait. =)
8 movies date with my JaNooKai aka Jessie, Jeslyn date with my parents and my beloved coussies, Durian date with my whole family(if got durians), shopping date with aunties and mummy..
hehehe…..
Looks like my gift arrived later than it should be. I’ll keep waiting. =)
ppl, nice day yeah!!! love all of u! =)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
A push from my back.
I cant help myself but to burst into laughters plus tears when my mum caled me yesterday evening.. She asked :" “ u din wish papa happy father’s day ar?? Yesterday was father’s day le.. Ur dad called me and said even ur brother msg him and wished him, but not you.. (mum laughing)..and he asked me whether you’re still angry with him or what… he was down..”
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! I really can’t help myself but to laugh!
ok la, father’s day.. i really forgot. By the time i rmbered, it’s too late.
ok, i did not expect him to be so sensitive. Erm… maybe he cares about my feelings too much and he feels guilty for what he had done. (not to mention yeah). thts why he is scared that i am still angry with him.
I do agree that sometimes i still think of it, but when mum called me yesterday, i thought of what had happened before.. sigh…
Well, everything is fine now.
I have no heart to talk about what happen again. I really dont want a second time to happen. Thats why I am being neutral for everything. I knw God will show me a right and true way.
All the while i knw, dad feels guilty… and he thinks that he almost lost me. AT some point, i do think so. but which parents dont love their own kid? right??? I feel sorry for him and myself when he wants me to talk but i don;t feel like talking. The worse is when he keeps prompting me to talk. LOLS!!
i am still in a bit of shock. A feeling that i have been trying to hide all these while. However, a few buddies shared the feeling with me, I am so glad that God’s power overcome my sadness.
well.. that’s God’s power. =) I still can rmber the feeling right after Chean prayed for me on the phone.. it was a whole lot of relief, feels like a big stone just dropped out from my heart. Ever since then, all her prayers came true on me.
this is something that i really cannot explain. =)
Gah, drop that topic off, back to me - plan.
I am planning for 4 chapters today. I can make it.
I’m praying for a strong back. not a light load. =)
Friday, i cant wait for u to arrive. I’m preparing my armor to face YOU!!!!!! I aint losing this time!
my…my….my……
i need a push from my back.
and.. how come my sem break ends so fast? hahaha!!!!!!!!
July-sunday-shift. Mmmm…….. i get to learn again. =)
Craving for…… pineapple’s tart. =(
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Fun-Sunday.
ok, I cant help to blog how happy mummy was this morning and just now…
She had a good blood glucose reading, 5.8mmol/L fasting this morning, 5.1mmol/L 2 hours after meal just now.
She is so happy now !!! haha.. means her diabetes is under control. =) Erm… she has more awareness now partly because i “scared” her with all the side effects?!?!?!?
owh, what a good daughter i am. LOLs!!! nah, she realized that her diabetes was out of control, i told her frankly cuz she is my mum and i want her to be good. that’s all. I still wanna pay for her trip to travel around the world k!!! so i will make sure that she takes care of herself and let me fulfill this dream!
She is still overjoyed.I’m gg to sleep soon.. had fever.. gosh.. i hate the feeling of fever and headache. =(
Chatted with Pumpkin that night, i was so damn happy to see her!!! she said i became more NOOB.. yea yea!! i knw!! because of my NOOB hairstyle!! LOLs!!
Can’t deny how much i miss her for the past one month. So, i sort of like updated her what i’ve done for the past one month and share some experiences of mine. WE have never ending topics lar. that’s all i can say. I truly believe that our relationship wasnt that simple or both of us knw each other very very well and close in our past life!! hahahaha!! (perasan lah me!)
Yeah, ppl who loves you accept who u are. I knw mum cant wait for the prophecy of mine to come true.. well, will wait and see lar! =)
I came across a song today from Channel V, a channel that i’ve been Missing so far.. i heard this song.. coincidently VJ was introducing this song and i like the meaning of this song very very much!!!
Hey Pumpkin,it probably explains about me and you or you and me, or those who are reading, maybe u have this kind of person who is more than friends, someone like family member….but you have no blood connection with the person.. Yet, both of you are so close and so comfortable with each other that you would sacrifice and do anything for the person and love the person like your own family. (yeah, pumpkin is the special one for me)
enjoy the song!!! (love the lyrics of the song!! )
《嫁妆〉 – nice meaning.
I cant believe that there are still ppl writing this kind of genre of song. =)
okay, it’s time to rest earlier, i had terrible headache… forced myself to drive with fever.. BUT¬! i enjoyed mummy’s company!!! we definitely spent time talking!! and i love talking to her!! =)
I really feel like I’m the one responsible for her and i can slowly start feeling that my mum starts to be dependent on us now (though she is always dependent).. haha!!
Mummy, i love you no matter what. No matter what i’ve become in the future, I love you always….
AL, happy school reopens!! =) miss ya!!!! *hugs*
P.S : P, can i say this again?? I’m glad that i have you…. =) *loves*
Friday, June 18, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
relieved.
i am relief..
My aunt discharged d.she’s on insulin injection, long acting and short acting. Well, I’m glad that things are fine and i dun need to go in and out of the hospital again.
Actually, it reminds me of grandma and its a place full of bacteria and viruses. Gosh, will i get OCD? cuz i will bath right after i come back from hospital.. gosh…
owh, i’m heading to Subang 2mr!! yay! fetching JEssie back!
Yeap, going out with Queenie the pig, so.. i guess its another fun day for all of us.
I am having headache today, i guess it’s due to lack of sleep. Yeah, when i was napping, i received call that my aunt can be discharged. Well, i jumped out from bed and went to hospital straight away. Sigh.. then the burse said she can only be discharged in the evening. Well.. i went home.
Here i am now, at home… blogging. Doing things that i wanna do. Owh, i do wanna sleep early after some readings. =) despite of my headache.
I wanna blog about how i feel today.
yeah, most of my frens dunno that i have cousins from my dad’s side. I’m closer to my aunt’s child, yeap, my dad’s younger sis’s kids. They are now grown up… but.. not as educated as i am.
Even since i was lead by HIM, I really learn to love more. I accept who ppl are. Who they are… I stop having prejudice for them. Yes, i am proud of myself by transforming into what i am today. I still have more to learn.. I will learn to love more, cuz everyone deserves to be loved and everyone deserves to be treated like how they want others to treat them. =)
WEll, i guess ppl do grow. =)
Me? i grow a lot too…. This semester, its my shooting up moment.
i have a date with Sue 2mr. =) it’s been long since we sit together and eat. For 2mr, we will be sitting down for real business… ya, i still owe her a lesson on blogging.LOLs!!!!
Will be heading down to Subang to pick my Jessie up. This stupid girl… hahaha!!!
I wonder whether i have time for movies? Mmm… i guess i better come back and have dinner with mummy. I miss private time with her. ha!
Dad’s heading down to Kuantan for his “OLYMPIC”. that’s what he always say. He’s been practicing hard for his DARTS competition. Wish him all the best!
I was writing and scrolling pics… i saw this.. hahaha!!! ok, i have peaceful days at home without him interrupting my life. Just one bad thing, no one accompany me for movies, that’s all. hahaha!!!!!!!
gosh, both of us looked so cute…. and it doesnt look like we’re both form the same “FActory”.. hahahahahhaa!!!!!!
Ngiam Ngiam!!! I miss you nei!!!!! i got gifts to pass to you….. bila boleh kita jumpa?!?!?!?!?!?!? sigh… by the time i see you, ?My janggut sudah keluar lor…..
headache…. off earlier.
till the next post!!! ta!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
answers found. =)
All of a sudden, listening to Hillsongs gave me the answer. haha!! i dunno, maybe it’s another message from HIM that he wants me to knw???
I was very tired, drove in and out, walked in and out hospital. Glad that i have Ms Ang, she takes care of the wad my aunt is in. Actually, nothing big la, she can discharge as long as her glucose level remain below 10mmol/L.
Everything looks so messed up in me. but now, nothing to be afraid of. Nothing to lose.
Forgive… and forget.
Ever Since I grow with him, I learnt to love everyone. In other words, to be more like him.
Owh, i woke up this morning with a blur mind, went to hospital, saw Ms Ang.. and… came back, then went there in the afternoon, came back, and going there later, and going to pharmacy to “bargain”. hahahaha!!!
owh, i think Ms Ang is working today, I definitely miss her HAIR. *wink wink*
I am enjoying the ROTTING process at home. BEsides blogging and facebooking and checking mails, i listen to my new toy!!! all these while i’m not around, i miss my Pioneer HEadPhone the most. Dad told me he wants to get me a LG headphone, then he saw the headphone i’m wearing now.. owh, Pioneer brand.. then i told him, “no need la, i got one d, it’s Pioneer.”
Clearly, it is better than LG… right??? haha!! i hope it wont disappoint him la.
I’ve accepted the offer to work for one month next month. (owh, back to SUnday shifts). Just for one month, due to…. some reasons la.
Definitely not my financial problem la. hehe… cuz i have one and i dun look like i have one. =)
I wonder whether Rae wants to take over me onot?? cuz she needs job and money, but i doubt she wants to work in pharmacy la…..Mmm…..
Today, good day.. besides tiring trips, i think things are fine.
Let me share something,
There is no short cut in life, no short cut in studies. Just walk the road u are supposed to walk. people always say that future is in your hand, YEs it is, but when u think back, wouldnt it be fated that you will walk the road that you are going to walk?
cuz in your point of view, the road that u are going to walk is in your hand.
To me, that’s the FOREVER FATED road that you have to walk.
So, no need to struggle in some emotions or some difficulties, do your part. Everything will be fine.
No more yum cha session, I am invaded by bacteria/virus again…
hehehehehe….
I do hope for Karate Kid session la!!!=)
Till the next blog post of mine, Ciao ppl!
about my holiday, but yet, it’s a short cut version. =)
I sent a text to my lil Pumpkin, i hope it doesnt scare her. Yeah, when i think back, it feels like I’m commiting suicide and I’m sending my last wish to the ones i love.. haha!! nah, no. I wont think of suicide k…a stupid thing to do. =)
Just that, talking makes me feel how lucky i am and how great to have my Pumpkin as my guardian angel, someone who is so far yet so near. Oh, i dunno whether she feels this way onot, but deep in my heart, i knw i’ve got her. =) I wont hesitate anything… Still love her so much eventhough we only meet.. once a month now????? (this is sad….) by the time she is free to meet me again, I will be in Singapore d. hahaha!!!
Finally, I get to blog my heart out and blog about how i feel. =)
My parents.. Mmm… AUnty JAne and Uncle Yeoh has been our topic these few days. My parents definitely like their company in travelling and they love to travel with them. My parents bursts into laughters when they talk about their GuangZhou trip with them. =) Yes, Aunty Jane, someone whom i love and respect… a person that i can talk to compared to other aunties.. (i guess it’s because she is AUNTY enuf to talk??? hahaha!)
Surprisingly my parents have all the good words on this lovely couple. =) oooh.. yes, they are cute and lovely.
Things are good between me and my parents. LEt it be?? haha!! somehow, i still need courage and time to face everything that might happen in the future. Life….. as the only odd one is not easy.
I’m back in Klang. Spent these few days with AL, mummy, and my girlfren. I miss my Girlfriend a lot till i caress her every single minute---my lappy.
hahaa!!! I’m just glad that i get to press her and kiss her sexy lips again!!! =) cant imagine how i miss my keypad.
So, I’ve finally uploaded my photos on FAcebook. =) HEre are some of my TIoman Picture. Let me share with all of you. My buddies, Aeris and Sher.. Love their company!!! the SorPor club! hahahaha!!!
we had fun… we love beach. Tht’s one of the similarities we have.
sexy name.
see? this SOrPor jumping in water… =) haha!
View from a big rock.
this is a special place in Tioman island, it’s called GUa Kelamin. They believe that those who dont have boyfriend or girlfriend, they can come here and sit here for one night, then their fate will come.
yes, a big tree is living on the big ROck of Gua Kelamin. =) miracle
ok, Sher was acting kinda stupid…. hahaha!
ugliest shot of them ever.!!
she loves swing… =)
night view, right after sun set.
Holiday in TIoman was relaxing. I forgot what is stress…. =) Yeah, before i went there, i was still awaken by study stress and woke up in the morning thinking that i have to STUDY again….
phobia till this extend…. haha!
we stayed in Damai LAut REsort, satisfying boss!! Satisfying service!!! i think we were the only one who dare to tk the whole bottle of honey stars back to our room to munch!! hahaha!!!!
So, i head to Penang the next day after i came back from Tioman.
Best hokkien mee ever!! thanks to my babe, TRI and her dad for bringing us there. Lots more photos actually!!! hehe……
the TOdi!!! fresh Air Nira!!! yummy!!! too bad, i get hangover a few hours after i drank it.
Thanks to GRace YEn too, she brought us to the Ferringgi beach, a place that i love to hang out. =) have some drinks there, relax, listen to the waves, and sun tanning. hahah!
Thanks to Ela whom had us in her house. =) she is a brilliant host.
*hugs*
then, headed to NoGaps, Aimst the next day, 23rd May. I’ll upload some of the activities we had there. =)
nametags design. these are my buddies. =)
played with the corpse.
played with the hands and legs!!! yes, i get to learn how to recognize veins, arteries, and nerves. They feel different. =)
Went to RUmah Amal.. to foster special kids.
they are adorable…. they can talk normally, and perform dances perfectly. =) I feel sad and i shed my tears while i see them dance, I was like “oh Lord, they deserve more than this….”
the one that i foster, Yi FAng. a cute little girl who loves attention, and she cannot speak well, and cannot estimate distance well. she cannot even hold something well….
that was my card to her….
I almost dried again when i drew the card. haha!!!
we had story telling session, and they were listening to us happily…
The one that FAlah carried in the first pic, the little child cannot walk, he can slide and crawl.. and he cannot walk for his whole life. BUT!! he can crawl very very fast…. and he is adorable.. cute!!
this dance…. was great.! they remembered the dance steps well!!!
owh, this was our Show Time performance.
As for the Rumah Amal, we had prepared a dance for them, the dance video is in my facebook video.. haha!! i felt funny when i watched it again.. LOLs!!! I love Shah, Sher, Sakai MEiYin, Miza and the rest’s accompany!! we make a great team!!haha!!
Life is so contented…. =)
I flew to JB from Penang right after NOGAPS.
yes, to see this little angel of mine, JEslyn, my niece.
had fun in driving range… Enjoyed GOlf!! thanks to dear Uncle Yeoh!!
hitting the ball!!! addicted to it…! =)
went to YogYakarta.
went to JOgjakarta, had fun!! loved Borobudur temple… it’s magnificent!!!! =)
went to Borobudur with them, haha!! the 2 jokers!!!
Yes, LEft—> AUnty Jane, Right---> Uncle Yeoh. Nice loving couple. =) too bad, DAph wasnt there.
They are really really cute.
Had durian feast!!!!! yummy!! my sore throat was cured right after i sapu the DUrian!!! LOLs!!! thanks to Uncle Yeoh again for the durians!! =)
he was decorating shirts with fabric paint. =)
Bro helped my aunt, Song’s mum to wrap dumplings. =)
Aunt won 3rd place in Dumpling competition last month!!! and she is famous in DUngun now. =)
Jeslyn’s fullmoon picture. =)
Cousin sis had party to celebrate for JEslyn’s first month. She is so adorable!!!
went to Kinsahi to celebrate my result.
Lots of food ordered… haha!! we had fun there, laughing and eating. =) bro looks stupid, i knw. Miao Xiang Si is a very cute nun… hahah!!! =)
so, i had a great contented holiday.. actually there are lots more pics!! but i’ve uploaded on FB d…. it’s kinda late now, time to sleep.hehe…..
owh gosh, this is a good shot. RAy Ray and me. =) love him lots!!! =)
let me end my post with Salmon Ryu. I love Salmon. =)
I had contented holiday, and more to come!!! I’m going to Ayer Tawar on 26th June, and going to JayBee and Singapore on 28June till weekend.
When i’m back, it will be a new challenge to me, as my class commences on 5th July.
Special thanks to AUnty JAne who listened and gave her precious advise to me. I will be good.. as i promised. =)
Thanks to my GOD who protected me well, all these while, my heart is protected.
Thanks to Miao Xiang Si, she is a cute nun, who shown me indirectly some of the life’s philosophies. She might be directing what she said to someone else, but.. i learnt a lot from listening to her conversations to others. =)
Owh, Dellynn is a person who loves to listen and observe. =)
ok, off to bed.
P.S: Pumpkin, i miss your voice.. i miss your smile, i miss your vitiligo. hahaha!!! love and miss ur presence BADLy….
P.S.S : thanks to AL.. for the accompany, love you gal!! u definitely showed me lots of things these 2 days.
P.S.S.S : Bro, u wont read this, i knw… Hei Ren!!! u stupid lar!!! forget home d ar???
Singing praise to you.