A push from my back.

I cant help myself but to burst into laughters plus tears when my mum caled me yesterday evening.. She asked :" “ u din wish papa happy father’s day ar?? Yesterday was father’s day le.. Ur dad called me and said even ur brother msg him and wished him, but not you.. (mum laughing)..and he asked me whether you’re still angry with him or what… he was down..”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! I really can’t help myself but to laugh!

ok la, father’s day.. i really forgot. By the time i rmbered, it’s too late.

ok, i did not expect him to be so sensitive. Erm… maybe he cares about my feelings too much and he feels guilty for what he had done. (not to mention yeah). thts why he is scared that i am still angry with him.

I do agree that sometimes i still think of it, but when mum called me yesterday, i thought of what had happened before.. sigh…

Well, everything is fine now.

I have no heart to talk about what happen again. I really dont want a second time to happen. Thats why I am being neutral for everything. I knw God will show me a right and true way.

All the while i knw, dad feels guilty… and he thinks that he almost lost me. AT some point, i do think so. but which parents dont love their own kid? right??? I feel sorry for him and myself when he wants me to talk but i don;t feel like talking. The worse is when he keeps prompting me to talk. LOLS!!

i am still in a bit of shock. A feeling that i have been trying to hide all these while. However, a few buddies shared the feeling with me, I am so glad that God’s power overcome my sadness.

well.. that’s God’s power. =) I still can rmber the feeling right after Chean prayed for me on the phone.. it was a whole lot of relief, feels like a big stone just dropped out from my heart. Ever since then, all her prayers came true on me.

this is something that i really cannot explain. =)

 

Gah, drop that topic off, back to me - plan.

I am planning for 4 chapters today. I can make it.

I’m praying for a strong back. not a light load. =)

 

 

Friday, i cant wait for u to arrive. I’m preparing my armor to face YOU!!!!!! I aint losing this time!

my…my….my……

i need a push from my back.

 

and.. how come my sem break ends so fast? hahaha!!!!!!!!

July-sunday-shift. Mmmm…….. i get to learn again. =)

 

Craving for…… pineapple’s tart. =(