Tired, but undefeated.

okay, I’m seriously busy this week.. so, this is a short update from me. By the way, I had a great weekend, minus off the silence part lar.. k? So, I spent my days studying, non stop, marathon. I can only fork out some time to blog.

so, i went to Sher’s hse yesterday, as usual la, morning and night become very important to us.. we have to complete and sit on the chair from morning till night.. in exact, midnight.

This is what they do when the Cha bor is bored. She “kills cockroaches”. oooh… JT’s phone has a few games, one of them is a game where cockroaches came out and we have to kill it as fast and as many as possible. NICe GAME!!! I still hold the high score. haha!!

 

               

Killing cockroaches… happily!!!

 

 

           

Coackroached come out and we have to press to kill it. so, it’s fingers dancing on the screen. LOL! =)

 

 

                 

Whole process was funny, cuz she “wo, woo wah wah.. woooi!!! “ aiyo, playing with sound effects!!! haha!!

soon after that, she is addicted to SPORE. sigh… this girl, never ending. =)

 

Well, today is another battle. I’m starting my battle in short.

 

I am tired, but i am not defeated. I knw i can conquer it.

Okay, off i go!!!!

Flooded house.

Thanks to my stupid PIPE BOCOR that i have to skip morning class and the precious HOSPIS TALK today! ARggh..

Owh, i woke up early in the morning, around 4am.. cuz my room was flooded! I did not expect it to flood tht serious as i had already cleaned up the mess yesterday night when i came home after class. Yeah, that time, it has already flooded, and i’ve cleaned twice.

First time, i thought it was the rain, so i mopped the floor. Few hours later, it flooded again!! i find the source, it was from a stupid tiny hole from the edge of the wall on the floor. So, i suspected it was from the bathroom… i turn off the main bathroom water supply..

Due to tiredness, i slept.

Woke up at 4am, shocked!! cuz like i said, muh small room was flooded!.. AGAIN!!!! i woke up, and.. my hsemate said… “ Kuen ar!! HSe flooded!!!”

I was shocked to SOBER. I went out to the living room, true enuf, FLOODED with WATER!! worse still, the kitchen as 1 inch of water!!WAter leaked in from no where!!! gosh…. and the wall in my washing machine space was wet. So,.. yeah, the pipe burst! Luckily hsemate is smart enuf to off the main water supply.. if not, my room will continue to flood. So, it’s because of the pipe, and the water diffuse through the cavity wall, and into my room.

Called the management and my hse owner at 730am. Sorry to wake her up… haha!! anyway, the management ppl agreed to fix it, but at the price of Rm130. After  dozens of phone calls, agreement has been achieved and yeah, Management guy fixed it.

They break the wall, and test the leakage. True enuf, the PVC pipe bursts. Serious leakage….

He continue breaking the wall and check for other leakage. Apparently, tht’s the only one. He replaced the pipe and glue it to dry.

That time, it was already 315 pm….

Gah….

I was so tired.

The management guy will cement the wall back 2mr morning. So…. Mmm…

I believe that everything happens for a reason, i’ll let the reason be loved. I believe that i might be saved from some other things by going through the havoc today. So… strengthens my faith actually. =)

So, My hse water pressure has been reduced.. (yeah, i guess they reduced it.. at last.cacat brats who denied they increased the pressure last WEdnesday) good though. Pipes wil last longer. =)

 

I still went for the last class, at 6pm. In fact, i went to Uni earlier. =) Just to shit and pee…. hahaha!! yeah, imagine, no water supply for the whole day….

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After class, a bunch of buddies went to have dinner. We chatted for 2 hrs. haha!! it was a big laughing session! =) cuz all of us laughed like crazy. =)

I had a great time…. gossiping! muahahaha!! even guys gossip… believe it?

 

Itulah kehidupan… sobagai seorang individu yang alami stress setiap hari! =)

Every single day, i pray and thank God for blessing me with such great and supportive friends. =) I thank God for my faith. =)  I don’t regret for choosing. =)

 

My Pamelo is coming back!! i cant wait for my iPOD~!! haha.. nah, i cant wait for the McD breakfast this SUnday 6am!!! hahahah!!! I’m bad huh? I don’t care.. hmmph…

okay, time to sleep!! gotto wake up earlier to kiss my notes. =)

made me smile…. =)

Today is a blessed day. Tiring, but i feel blessed.

Class non stop from 8am to 730pm. 2mr is the same routine, class till 730pm.. haha!! What kind of study break is this??? sigh….

However, 3 girls made me smile today.

First girl, Aeris.

She sent me a very beautiful message. I appreciate it very much. One thing’s for sure, I’m surrounded by a bunch of great friends. Aeris, you are one of them. Although we always fight with our mouth, haha… but most of the time we don’t mean that, we just find it fun to be that way.

It reminds me of someone who told me : “wah, ur friends no bau perempuan punya?”

I din reply cuz i dun wanna hurt the person, deep in me, i told myself, “the most important is the heart.. the rest, gah.. screw it”

Sei Yea!! Narcolepsy girl! muahaha’!!

 

Second girl, DAtin REd

Third Girl, Eliz.

What have they done????

 

can u locate the similarities between the 2 pics??? Look at the black mold!!! hahaha!! on the left side of the forehead!!!

yeah, tht’s her MARK. =)

Eliz drew the first pic, i took the second pic. muahaha!!

 

see the similarity?? Now, dun look at the mold, look at the teeth!!!

LOL!!!!

 

                   

Datin RED added the PETALING STREET CIPLAK EAR RING,purple colour summore… super DATIN!! then the non-spherical PEARL NECKLACE plus a big, HEAvy, high CARAT CROSS!!! hahaha!!

So good huh? she imagined herself this way….. summore purposely BOLD the GOLD CROSS!!!!

                              

Picture says it all!!! tht’s why, this pic turns into…………

God loves us no matter how we look like..

 

                           

BROWN COLOURED DATIN RED, yeah, she is DARk.. with a *KEEP-DREAMING* half blond hair!! (hope she’s not a dumb blond la, though she looks like one..)

LOL!!! Eliz drew the MOLDED DATIN, Sher DREW the side characters and labeled one of them as CHICKEN. Well, according to her, the chicken suppose to be me…. cuz i call her chicken, and she called me chicken BACK! sigh… Damn cute la!! DAtin RED!

 

                    

both of them Happily design the MASTERPIECE! =)

 

I had a great time laughing and singing like mad in the computer lab. Thanks to both of these JAKUNs la! =) hahaha!!!

 

 

Sei yea (si pat por), that was sweet of you. =)

Silence

                                    

Silence can be valuable; dont break it unless you can improve on it.

reading OUR DAILY BREAD and the Holy book has calmed me down more than ever. Yeah, the power of God and prayers. =)

For now, all i can do is keep silence. I’m going to improve on it, tht’s why i am not breaking the silence.  To listen and learn are the most important criteria to improve myself, emotionally and spiritually.

My first step was brought out by the almighty, and my follow up steps .. I will be walking with a lot of people. I am blessed.

I’ve come to a point to realize that all these will be over soon. I’ll leave all my tears behind, cuz i knw everything which will be coming up will be amazing, than ever before.

In this matter, silence is still the most valuable thing. Until the day i’ve proved that i am not what i was, I will not break it.

Sin against the one i love will be washed away. Like i said, I have the victory, I’ve won. i’m taking my baby steps, believe it or not, i feel safe now.

 

I hope today is the last day i drop my tears. my heart is healing. Thank God, he made me strong. 

I don’t regret. I am more thrilled because my eyes are open now. Amazing things can happen and it is happening on me.

The coming tears i’ll shed is the tears of joy.

This Jeremy Camp song—WALK BY FAITH played while i am typing the last sentence… Power of coincidence. =) haha!

“well i will walk by faith
even when i cannot see
because this broken road
prepares your will for me”

4 in the morning

Silence has been the only words i speak since Sunday. Yesterday was worse, it’s a total silence language.

I feel heavy to say a word, Maybe deep in me, i knw that whatever i say, it doesnt make a stand anymore. So, i decided to keep silence. i dunno how long i will be in this state, but i think it’s going to be long.

My teeth is extremely pain now. I was awaken  by the pain, and the heat of the weather, plus a call from Pamelo. owh, he still wakes me up.

Again, i seriously couldnt recognize my voice.

 

Sher offered her ears, i feel blessed. cuz i am surrounded by a bunch of besties. I think she is the irst and only one who noticed me. =) Sher, thanks for the offer. You’ve been a wonderful friend, joker + listener to me… I’m still fragile, tht’s why i am still a keeper. =) Loves… =)

 

I’m mending things. Need time.

 

okay, 4 in the morning, time to bath and study.

my eyes that bad??? ya, i knw, it was bad.. besides overslept, i think I’ve “overused” it yesterday. =)  Sorry friends, I prefer not to talk about it. A part of me still very very fragile when i think about it. Even tears filled my eyes during class… but, thank God, no SOBbing.  =)

Things are going to be better. I always believe that.

Like what i’ve been told, I’ve won, and i dont need to fight back.

“Age to age”.. I’ll take that as a promise of you for me and a promise of me to you.

 

In me you’ll be… as long as my soul is alive.

Tears has been the only water that washed my face yesterday. I don’t wanna talk about what had happened, but there are things that are definitely harder than than anything else in this world. Thank God, her prayers healed me.=)

Chean called from Singapore just to hear me cry for one hour. I couldnt stop myself from crying and i let go myself when she called. She asked me not to hold back any tears, let it go. I did. I burst like no body else… She just listened…. and be there for me.

How on earth can anyone else get a best friend like her?? I am blessed to have her listen to me and have her get my heads clear of what’s happening. She showed me a lot of things…

I stop sobbing after a while.. nah, not a while, the whole conversation was around 1.5hours. My crying part already lasts for almost an hour.

She talked to me, and showed me what’s happening. Automatically, I stopped sobbing and listen to her. Besides, my tears were dried eventhough i am still sobbing.

 

the details of the conversation,I’ll keep it to myself. =) so wonderful that I was healed right after the conversation. I woke up with a strong heart this morning, the wounds are sealed. Her words and prayers were so strong.. and i calmed down.

I’m going to mend things, make things right, and tone down.In this Kingdom of love, I will walk out of this dark tunnel and find light. =)

Chean, if u’re reading this, Thank you so much. My journey will be tougher than before, I still need you to walk with me…. =) I really appreciate what u’ve done for me.

I will not lose hope, i will not lose faith. For all that had happened, I will be strong.