Easter...i'm at work.=)

Ms Dellynn Lim Ah Kuen is very exhausted. Still at work, closed a few deals and I am mentally and physically exhausted.

Today is Easter!I'm so happy!though it's not possible for me to attend the prayers and celebration today ,I am still happy bcos it's Easter! Owh,I had a bad one last year...yeap,some family problem. The problem still exists,but all I can do is just keep it to myself.=)

I had a great day yesterday, it was my off day! Went out for lunch with uncle Yeoh and Aunty Jane! They are like my parents here. So we went out for duck meal!wow,it was fantastic! I enjoyed it very much! And I ate a lot! Haha!
Right after lunch, they brought me to Tun Aminah for tea time. Lol! Tea time right after lunch!ha! The kuih-muih was fantastic! Thereafter,I met Uncle Chen!we had a great chat there! According to Uncle Yeoh,Uncle Chen wouldnt have talked to me the way he talked to me yesterday if he doesn't like me! Haha!! I was like:'OKAY....'. Cuz I was just being myself. Hehe.

Went bck home right after that as Uncle Yeoh still needs to coach. I slept with kakak,we napped together la. (sounds so obscene) ha!

Called my mum before I went for dinner. As usual la,she was happy to heat from me! Same as me! My mum is an angel to me. And she is going get a complementary cake to celebrate my bday...sweat...=_='. It's FOC....haha!

Went out for dinner with my uncle! He brought me to a restaurant which serves good food! As I've posted on FB,San Lou mee fen was the best! And the fish soup!! I love my dinner too!

Ah kuen is A person who enjoys food a lot!hee... Tht's why I'm blessed tht my off day is just once a week!ha!

Talked to muh pumpkin before i sleep. As usual la,I was so excited to talk to her! I hope I didn't bore her with my grandmother stories la!hehe....

Going bck on 16may! I can't wait to start study!!!!


I can't wait to smell klang's air Wei!!! Though the air back there is a little unhealthy...=p

I can't wait to see everyone!!!


Ok la,pen off k! I don't Like poking on my poddie... It gives me muscle lethargy....lol!


Ciao! Continue working!

eeee…. happy day.

haha…. ‘im so happy to see my RAchel Ngiam Pumpkin update her blog. I guess she’ll expect hearing my voice tonight.=)

Being kinda emo due to sickness huh? but still have a clear mind on how many stuffs I owe her… LOL!

I miss her that much, yes.. tht much.

*showing 1cm of gap with my thumb and second finger* =)

 

I am tired, but happy at the same time. It is a holy week therefore it’s a happy week.

I will pray for my siblings because they will be having finals next week. Mmm…. too bad, the boy of mine is not coming back till july. His exam ends on 3rd May.. and… HE IS NOT CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR! sobs…

My Girl… I hope I get to see her a day before my birthday! I got so many things to do with her yet so little time! yeah, I’mma jack-ass… haha! I miss my beautiful voice!! and… our K-sing session!!  (btw, I tot u found my substitution?? haha! see! told ya! I will never get substituted! for I am so deeply carved in your heart and I’m irreplaceable! Muahahahaha)

happy for that for a million times, I am right! HA!

Its not the gifts that matters. Its not the money and value that matters, what matters most is to have someone close to heart to just sit and listening to each other in silence.

Like every women has, Bra is the fittest stuff a girl can have! ooi! muh BRA! hahaha!

eh eh… get the CAMERA! no need to think too much! the rest, leave it to 28th July! hahaha!

 

I’m now paying my debts and earning back the money I paid!

 

owh yeah, I got so much to tell my pumpkin! hehe…. I think I will be a distraction to her during her study break. =P

Well, its almost 11am. going out……with AUNTY JANE and UnCLE YEOH for lunch!!! muahahahaha! both of them are like my third parents after my aunt yoong and uncle Tan.

 

Time to go off and wait for the king and queen to come!

 

Pumpkin… shopping for facial and eye bag masks is a must when we meet!

Love u babe!

 

my stupid bro, all the best in exams! love you lots bodoh! =P

 

ciao!

Sunday,not a sabbath.

So,another new day huh?

I had a great off day yesterday,glad that I slept till 12pm and had great lunch plus dinner.

Sometimes I just don't understand why people can interpret things differently, they tend to live in their own world and refuse any helping hands reached out to them. This kind if life is saddening huh?ya,this kind of people just don't wanna face the truth and situation. I have no comments if they wanna continue to live in the dark, thinking that no one understand them and no one cares for them. I pass no comments at the moment,just hope that they will find peace within them. If this continues,they'll live in suffering and sadness.
Ignorant is definitely not a bliss to this kind of people.
However,it's their life,it's up to them how they wanna live it. Helping hands has been offered,turned down,and what's worse is...stubbornness!

Anyway,life is to be enjoyed without guilt.

Personally,I'm being happy for who I am. Though I knw currently,they will accept me as who I am yet,I will hold on and be who I am.

It's a Sunday,Sunday is always a sabbath. Haha...but in my case,it's not.






Friends are having exams,all I can do is just to pray for them and wish them all the best! I don't believe in luck because it's hardwork which determines everything. Right?luck is just 1%. Haha!

I pray for a peaceful Sunday and and peaceful weeks ahead!

I can't wait for everything to end...

Lol. Listening to 'waiting for the end' by Linkin Park. So,I'm waiting for the end to come,wish that I have strength to stand.....


How's everyone in klang???doing fine??? I miss all of u so much!!all the aunties,brothers, and sisters!!and my friends!!!

I'll be back very very soon! Will be a short trip back home!! After that,I'll be on marathon again!haha!

My Lord,hold my heart.


Short post though! I miss talking with my pumpkin and pamelo. Both of u!!tk care!


Gotto go! Work... Ciao peeps!

Here withou you

So here I am,sitting,blogging with my poddie.

I am counting days,well... I tell myself not to count days but...my eyes are glued to the calendar unconsciously.

I dunno what am i doing.sigh..

Anyway,I promise myself to give in my best!!! I can't wait to start my classes!hehe...well.I can't wait to do something I love! For now,I am happy for what I have. So far,besides my personal problems,I am doing fine.

Life as a nobody is so good. I can't imagine my life as a VIP somebody who deals with life and death in the future.

So I say,life is not to be wasted . I am glad that I took a step out of my comfort zone, although I am scared,now I knw tht I can do anything I want,I can definitely achieve everything! Just the matter of time.

I'm listening to 'Here without You' by 3 Doors Down, I love this song a lot. Reminds me of good memories.

Frankly,I miss singing a lot. Singing reminds mr of my ambition.haha! Once in standard 3,I was bored of the same ambitions year by year..teacher,doctors,gardener (yeah,gardener!!haha).. So I decided to do something different tht year. When I was called in front to the teacher's front desk,she asked me what's my ambition, I said 'singer!' her eyes popped out,still rmber I was in Pui Ying school,Mrs Fan was my class teacher, she stared at me and said 'u??singer??' I was so innocent,I nodded and said 'yes!'

Hahaha!!

Those were the days!!, well..I think my form teacher popped her eyes out because I don't look like I can sing.haha! Cuz I was fat and chubby that time,and I don't have any talents in me...haha! Erm,if I get to see Mrs Fan again,I will sing infront of her!!! Though I am not a singer now,but I would like to sing to her...cuz I got a 'not bad' voice!!lol! Probably i will sing a 'thank you' song to her... FYI,I sing badly...ha!

It's true tht it is hard to imagine me being a singer when I was young cuz I was not a spotlight in class. Even now, I prefer not to be a spotlight.

How I wish I can attend the Gala Night on 14th May. Anyhow, I shall think of performing next year,hahaha!

Thanks to my poddie that I can blog anywhere now. I still cannot live without blogging!

Continue listening to 'here without you'.. Cha bor's Favourite-mavourite song! It became mine now.

It gets harder but it won't take away my love and passion.

Klang!I'm coming! soon!!!!!!!!!!!


Pray for me....k??

Sick of it.

I am tired. Very tired. Physically and mentally...sigh...

My cousin bro confirmed dropped out from uni, cousin Sis tells lies and we all still dun understand her..

I wanna take a break from what I'm doing.haha..yeah,can't wait for my D day.

Went to a talk to get my cousie's registration done. Went for great lunch,great tea time,great dinner!

I'm tired due to lack of sleep.....

For my health's sake, I need to go. For my spiritual health's sake,I have to go off .


Feels so dull though.

Week by week,time flies. I just can't wait for the month to end! 20 more days till end of this month and I'm getting what I want!

Ppl take things for granted.

Here,no matter how good u have tried, it's still not good enough..and I'm starting to feel sick of it. If I hold on any longer,no one will recognize me anymore. Somehow,I am experiencing and feeling the metamorphosis in me. I think I've changed to the worse...

I've been away for too long. Long enough to be disappeared from everyone's memory. I don't want tht to happen.

No one to hang out, talk, and socialize. Thank god for my family here though!

I'm keen to go away as soon as possible,from HELL SG.
I'm not running away,but study life is still the best.

I can't wait to live as a backpacker in Melbourne.hahaha!!!

Basically, I crapping a lot cuz I wanna talk. It's moody to work on Sunday! Which is my God's day and family day!

I am seriously sick of the so called military thingy here. I don't mind working silently.. It is getting more and more tense in me. However, there's a reason why god put me in this situation,I know. HE wants me to learn something invaluable from here,I know.


I miss my smile...haha.


I need to give out my best for as long as I am here! I can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I can!!

I need a fire burning spirit..and I need woods to keep it burning.

And..I need a long term eye bag treatment!!I swear I'm going to nap every single day after all ends!

Pray for me......

jaded!

Mixed feelings today.

I feel happy and miserable at the same time.

Miserable because I couldn’t make it to FIFI’s wedding.

HAppy cuz… I get to rest today and meet my family up!

 

I felt very very sorry these few days.

Firstly… to myself.

I start to lose the faith in what I’m doing. Every step I do, its fear. Yes, Action does cure fear.. sigh.. all I’m gonna do is to throw all the mirrors in me down.

Secondly, to my cousies.

My boy in UTAR PJ is doing extremely bad. Gonna drop out soon after his finals.

My gal in JB has this massive attitude problem which she hides it very well.

Yeap, I knw.. not my problem.. but they are my family. 

 

Thirdly, to Pumpkin.

her words meant a lot to me. When she says she’s disappointed, means she is.

YEah, its my fault. =( seriously, purely my fault.

Fourthly,to FIFI..

though she said she can forgive, she wont forget. I am so dead.

 

Fifthly, to myself again…

I did some “bad” things. I hacked, I steal…. and I shut down.

HAcked into my gal’s email, FB, and I steal the pswd, and I shut it down… permanently. I have no choice but to do that. FB is a killer tool to her… long story, can I not type? if u wanna knw, ask me face to face then! to me, her story is a horror story.

 

then my job…

Its giving me more stress than ever. BEcause I keep a “time bomb” beside me, and its mentally torturous to be aware of when the “Time Bomb” is gonna burst. MENTALLY TORTUROUS AND I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’M GOING CRAZEE!!!!!!!!

and I mean it…. once again!

plus the upcoming-next-PMS… I reckon that my pillow is gonna be wet by tears for the next 2 weeks.

 

can you understand my feeling?

 

I try to keep all these behind my head…. somehow, I need time.

 

Sometimes, I think that life is just so meaningless… especially when you are tied down by work and you have no time to enjoy AT ALL.

Okay, I don’t wanna pass down any negative energy to you guys. Rmber me as a cheerful, confident, optimistic girl.

 

Will I forget how to smile?

 

 

Gah, I’m so tired. I’m gonna sleep till I’m satisfied tonight! wake up later 2mr morning! I don’t give a damn if I’m late to work!

Tired.. but need to keep up.

Its so hard to endure each day… thinking of each day would be a crisis and I would “die” anytime or wounded everyday.

I’m getting tired.

More tired.

 

Each day, my threshold became lower and lower. I can barely do my stuff and I can barely open my eyes till 12am. I hate the fact that my routine is the same.. EVERYDAY!

When I was having classes, I said I have no life.

Now when I’m working, I understand what is NO LIFE.

 

No life – every morning wake up, bath, eat, travel to work, war at workplace, travel back from work, sleep.

No entertainment at all. This is no life.

 

Studying.. at least… chapters are different.. I have mutual understanding between me and the notes… friends.. hang out… gossips….

Things are really different.

 

I start to realize what I really like and what I really don’t like.

I start to realize that nothing is impossible if you give yourself a chance to try.

I realize that life is so much more than I have experienced before.

I realize that.. all people in my life is just a passer by.

I realize that… there is a lot more to pay for the sake of money.

I realize that.. besides working for the sake of money, when there’s no interest and MO, you wont succeed.

 

I grew. I learnt.

 

Looking back for the past few months. there one person who I credit all the fames for. Its God. Without Him, nothing is impossible.

then goes my family members…

my heart-attached pumpkin, and AL.. owh, forgotten him, my “don’t-wanna-let-me-go” Pamelo.

Without them, my strength is weaker than I have now.

Of course, self motivation is very important too.

 

Now, I am prepared for the obstacles that I will face when I start to work towards my AIM. ALthough I am tired and sick of working and travelling, I treasure the experience. Because, I knw.. after this, I will not come back to this stage of my life, working the job I am working now. AFter all, I will at a different level, and the next time I work, It will be as a licensed professional.

Owh, FYI, I did not dropped out from UNI. K!! haha!! a lot of ppl think that.

but.. this 6 months of life will be a good, painful, experience…

 

I’ve seen things I’ve never seen before. I’ve experience things which  are my firsts. I’ve came across different people and learn how to work with different people.

 

 

but.. I still knw.. LIFE is more than that. it’s a big word.

 

Time to go.

 

yeah, the routine. =)

 

 

I wonder what will I feel when the day comes?????