A day.

PErempuan ini (me) tak tahu mati....
Pagi tadi exam tapi masih blog dekat pukul 530am.
apa ini????
sekarang lagi Gang-Ho, esok exam, sekarang tengah blog lagi...

owh.. the reason is.... i am saturated and sleepy.
Today's Exam turns out okay.... and i've used up too many mental energy to answer the questions. 2 Labs in 1.5 hours..
and.. yeah.. Like JR said.. Tachycardia. haha!!
I was having Tachycardia... but HE makes me relax. :-)

Thank God! :-)


It seems like i've never seen my classmate for a long time... Tuesday was the stupid Awards Day. Today lab test, quarantined till 1pm... Normal class ends at 12.30pm.... but Mr. Loker FFK.. so it ended much earlier.

2 posta per day... hehe... superb. I try to blog to release a bit of my stress. :-) I saw Wei Kit damn stress... prolly those who're sitting for exam 2mr will be stress tonight too.

Me? It's not tht i'm not stress... just tht something Aeris said crossed my mind.
She said : " For your own health, sleep early. eat properly, then your hair wont fall frequently, health improved consequently"
something like that la.
She was saying to herself actually.. haha!

To her, sleep is more important than anything. Well, I cannot comply to constant sleeping time. i can sleep anytime i want. Even now, I can sleep immediately.. haha!! (cuz i'm really tired).

I guess i'll follow her advise.. at least for today.
2mr's test... haiz, i'll wake up earlier and study??? hehe... hope it wont end up blogging AGAIN.. just like this morning. :-)


AL is having exam, wish her all the best!! She was there to support me when i was down. :-) now.. all i can do now is.. support her back?? rub her back? LOL!! no la... at least i could give some motivation and confidence to her. :-)

Gosh, i am really really sleepy .. and it's before 10pm...


Looks like i really have to go back on Friday evening.... aiks....
means i have to complete my DnC studies by 2mr.
means my Saturday will be kissing my notes.
means.. it again, me alone with DnC....on Saturday night...

okay, i crave for mooncake now. hahahahaha!!!!!!


To all, have a blast on this coming Saturday yeah!!! Spend ur time with family during this big day.:-) it's a reunion day. yeah, LAntern Festival, traditionally it's a reunion day. :-)


ZzzZZzzZZzzz... ---> i seriously HATE THIS SIGN!!!! haha!

well.. now, it indicates tht my bed is calling. :-)

Nitez.

P.S : To quit or not to quit?? I need $$$, so? the conclusion is?
P.S.S : I've decided to sit for it end of this year... :-) wish me luck... hope it's not a K.O. :-)

Morning mist. :-)

CUri curi blog... haha~! not to say curi curi la.... I dunno what to study anymore.. woke up at 5am.. and.. haiz...

Chatted with My dear AUnty Jane on FB yesterday night, and Uncle CHew. They are great ppl... owh, Aunty Jane is Daphy's mum. hehe.... She asked me to eat RAWA instead of TOSAI. haha! RAWA is egg and potato... wow, it looks fattening to me.. muahahaha!!!

Anyway, I've decided tht this Saturday... i'll be Kissing my notes. Why? Only now i realized tht i've left out my DnC Theory so much. So, i guess.... I'll suffer for another week's craving... sigh....
Afterall, study is much more important than TOSAI?!?!? haha!!

Well, I am sure tht my mum will not let me celebrate lantern festival alone?
my plan to go back on Friday vanished when i knew tht i left out a lot of my DnC studies. Planned to skip this Saturday's class actually... So now.. i guess i'll still stay over here on Friday night... Will call my parents 2mr after my AMT quiz. :-)

la la la.......
Today is a new challenge. Will be quarantined in the lab after my lab test. aiks.. tht's why i hate to be in the FIRST GROUP.
1st : cannot sleep till late late.
2nd : cannot go back after lab test. have to quarantine till 1pm?!?!?!?!

and my test ends at 10.30? or either 9.30am.... haiz.....
3rd: have to stand hunger for 4 hours?!?!? haha..

I will do my best. :-)

Saturday....--> Sometimes i really hate you. Sometimes i really love you.
I hate you in the sense tht i have to study for coming Monday's quiz,or coming week's quiz.
I love you in the sense tht i get to spend my Saturday night eating mummy's cooking.

ah..hahaha....

I'm sure my sampat cousins will have something/plans on this Saturday night?? haha.. i miss Queenie and Rene la. I miss bullying them.. haha!!!

Owh, AUnty Jane asked me to go JB end of this year. Well, it is on my schedule actually. Just tht i dunno when should i go. Darl Jess having exam, so do DArl CAss. Left me and LC? ha ha ha.. funny........ both of us will ROT cuz we have no one to bully.

Stay over in Colleen's place? maybe?? haha... hoping tht she will bring me to nice food!

Aunty Jane asks me to visit her. Well.... we'll have BBQ and Makan-makan.
sounds tempting huh? haha! cuz the last time i saw her was last year?

I wanted to visit her, mere chatting on FB is not enough. hehehe..... plus i wanna see Daphy!! she'll be coming back from Aussie! :-)

Erm.... i think i'll leave this plan of mine after my FInals? haha!! thinking about it now=Zero. so.. don't think.


Beautiul Saviour,
Bless me with confidence, and courage.





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He is the next artist tht i will support. :-)
Andrew Tan. :-)

天后 - 陈势安
词曲：彭学斌

终于找到借口 趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓 沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多 都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵 谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空 在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨 因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手 推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我 心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

如...果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候 你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂 把你当作天后
不会再是我
I love this song. MEaningful, melodious. :-)

Summary of my day and my feelings.:-)

Blog a while before i bury my head in DnC.

2mr.. thursday.. next monday.. QUIZ. well... what am i doing now??
haha!!

I will still study a while la.. as i'm a little sleepy now.

The worse is.. why am i in the FIRST GROUP??? I HAVE TO REACH UNI AT 7.30AM!!! Killing!!!
I wanna sleep!!!!

haiz......

I will try my best 2mr....:-)haha!!


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I am good today. Library has been doing good, obedient (ermm.. quite) .. my study environment is conducive today.

Well, none of them who will be sitting for DnC on FB now.. haha!! looks like they are really stress about it.. :-)
Me?
I will still try my best. With the knowledge i have, i will make full use of it. :-)

Today's AWARD'S day... Mmm.. a good experience but A WASTE OF TIME.

Well, not sure whether i'm going to attend it next 2 years. (i'm taking up research)
They have appreciation for R&D. so... haiz.

I was thinking about Ms Ang's words yesterday when i was about to sleep.. it's about future partnerships, and career.
She seems interested to be my business partner in the future. Anyway, she gave me lots of advise on my career, i really appreciate that. :-)

In the end, it links me back to my basic CONFUSION.. "I dunno what i want"
this is the major question in me.

I leave it to God? haha... yeah... He will show me the light, show me his love, show me the way.

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I mentioned tht i feel different right after 31st August. yeah... still i feel different. More Positive? can easily endure sadness? erm... maybe i value myself more than ever? and everyday i live, I live for myself and HIM?
yeah... these are the changes in me.
I start to care about others more? maybe?
I learn to see things in a good way?
I learn to live, appreciate and love more than before?

argh....haha!!!

I'm learning not to be bias now.:-)


ok, time to go off. last touch up on DnC, then i'll pengsankan myself. hehe...

I crave for Butterfly Park's TOSAI... GOSH!!! HELP!!!

Most probably i'll be going alone. :-) hehe.... depends la.. cuz plans always change at the last minute. :-) and it is normal FOR ME. :-)



ooi... dog.. stop barking....

Another not-so-dull day.

Yeah.. Today.. same routine. Started my " stay-in-library" Life. Library is not as noisy now, so.. cool. After Library, went to Gym, reached birdnest at 9pm.. Mmm..

I'm better today. Knowing tht I have to face the reality, I try to accept. I sincerely pray tht he will be a better person. J

Awards Day
2mr.. which I am forced to attend. Anyway, will bring my notes there to study.. I don't wanna waste my time.:-)

I am okay today. Although there is still sadness in me.. but I try not to think about it. I'll accept it.

Still thinking whether to go back on Saturday or Friday.. Mmm.. guess have to call my mum and see what's the plan on Saturday. Bad huh? Monday just started.. and now I'm waiting for Friday or Saturday so tht I can go back.

My life.

I think because of quiz, my mood is hanging. I dunno how to explain, but.. I still dun feel good..

Prior to his leaving, my house is empty and fill with silence.

I can really imagine when my dad reach home early, knwing tht no one is at home..what to do? Thinking: "to cook or not to cook?"..and the silence. If my mum is the one who reach home early, she'll be thinking :" to cook or not to cook??"

Yeah, my dad knows how to cook very well. J

My parents… aiks… tht's why I'm thinking of going back on Friday so tht I can at least have dinner with them. But, Saturday's plan depends on my parents.

There are reasons why I don't stay over in Cheras during weekend.. it is because of my parents and my commitments. I think my commitments rule.

IT's Lantern Festival this Saturday. It's another year. I really wish I could have dinner with my family this Saturday night, but it seems impossible. I really wanna thank mummy tht she tried to reject my dad to attend the wedding dinner on this Saturday night, it's because she wants to accompany me… she did not say it. But I knw…

Anyway, I'll settle my dinner myself this Saturday night. I really miss Tosai in Butterfly Park… and I miss lamb chop. Maybe I'll have one of these as my dinner on Saturday night?? Haha!

Ok, wanna watch the latest episode of CONAN.

Then study.

 

Ciao.

P.S :
Oat meal after Gym, reduce cholesterol!!! Haha!!

dull- no colours on my post. it's monotonous mood today.

Colbie Callait has a great album. BREAKTHROUGH, listen to it. it's SUPERB.

AL, sorry for making you worried. I am okay. I still need time.
This week is a busy week for me. Of course, i will still give in my best.

I try not to think about everything... i think tht's why i slept quite well yesterday night. Till the extend tht i overslept and missed my breakfast. :-)

Had Grading test today.. for my students. They did fine. I was conducting the Grading test for Black Belts. Mmm.... good experience.. din knw tht i can kick tht good and those looking and standing beside feel awesome on me. why? cuz a person with my size, it's not easy to perform 360 degree turning kick perfectly. yeah, i did it.
I'm not proud la, just happy.
I kicked without warming up. so, my body is aching now.

Finished my Ass today. so.. good.

next, left with studies to catch up. Quiz on Wednesday and Thursday, back to back. Well, i'll try my best. Pray for me. :-)

Gosh, i have no mood to smile yet.

Heart's still heavy. Anyway, busy-ness will keep me away from depression. I knw tht.

Another sad case, I'll be spending my coming Saturday night alone. TKD class will end early, mum and dad will be attending a wedding dinner. Left Kuen at home.
see what fate i have. I might stay at home Kissing my book, or kissing my Sheepig. tht's all. or if i'm lucky, i might be able to taste the Tosai in Butterfly Park... on lantern festival.
=_=

time to go off.
I dun wanna write anymore for now.

I'm not okay...

how come i still don't feel okay...............

I seriously don't feel okay.........

feel like hiding somewhere........ dun really wanna see the light for the time being.

I hate this.

I guess i just hate departures.loneliness.sadness.other's sadness.


P.S : guys , i'll be fine. Just let me be me the way i am now for the time being. I just need time to overcome it.

Today... is the end.

I wasnt in the mood the whole day.
It started this morning.. My aunty and my cousin came all the way from JB.

yes, he is gone... gone.

My beloved cousin bro.. he is there now. Not here anymore.

can u believe it? i think i loved him more than i realized. My heart is very very heavy... even till now. cannot resist myself to tear when i thought of it. but i knw i can get over it. Just tht i need time.

I hope he can start a new life over there. Be a good person, and have spirit and courage to face all the obstacles.
I will pray for him every single day... as usual.. cuz i normally pray for every single loved ones of mine every morning.

Today...
everything ends.

I keep asking myself just now, why is it everything has to end today?
both my bro left.
my grandparents left to JB together.

Something to be cheered, DeEr's finals ended today too.

I feel empty.. somehow i do not have the mood and the heart to do the things tht i'm supposed to do. I cannot concentrate. seriously....
My mind drift away easily....

plus.. i dun feel good.

I dun normally feel this way...... even a short milisec of silence can able to make me fall into a deep think. Somehow, it is lonely to be the only child in the family....again.
this time... I aM the only one now.

ok, enuf of emo-ing.

Cheer for those who start their uni and classes 2mr...
Cheer for those who start their holiday 2mr...
Cheer for those who can sleep till sunset 2mr.. :-)


I'll be opening shop again 2mr. so, cheer.. i cannot bring my mood now to work. it's so unfair. :-)

2mr will be a better day... without him at home.

Bless him God! :-)


P.S : Lantern Festival next Saturday, any programme???anyone????

Depressed…

 

I've been thinking a lot today. Till the extend tht I teared. But not till the extend of getting collapse.

I think it's time for all of us to let him go.

Yeah, Ah Song. My dearest cousin brother,whom I treated like my own brother.

 

Of all the things he had done, he had not gain trust from us.. and I dun think tht he can be able to convince us..

Deep in us, we still love him.

I talked to him this morning, and it made me wonder the whole day, till now. My mum and dad has been having family meeting every night.. till 1something am..

We were discussing the best way to let him live, and guide him to the right way.

I am really sad and depress…. Somehow it links back to my role, as the eldest sister in the family. I feel like a failure… tht I've failed in all things. But on the other hand, we've done our best to provide him and teach him.

Somehow, we are from different family background.

 

No words can describe how down I am. I dun feel like doing anything.. studying turned out to be sleeping.. and trying to calm myself down.

KTV at home means nothing.. ended up DArLeng singing alone. I have no mood at all.

A state of depression….. anyway, I still wanna give hima chance over here. I knw tht life in JB will not be as good as we are here…

I trusted him…. And he betrayed all of us.

I loved him… and he thought we hated him.. and I think tht he hated us.

 

Argh… the feeling….. I really dun wanna care…..

If everything goes fine, he will be transferred to JB, my aunt's house by this weekend. And.. I cant seem to let him go.. it's like DarLeng first went to KT for studies, I escaped it.. and did not even send him.. cuz I knw I'll cry.

My eyes teared when I think of Song leaving to JB… I feel sad.

 

Deep in all of us, my family members.. knw tht we've done our best to educate him.. and he doesn't really appreciate and did not think as an individual. I feel sorry for him at the same time.

 

Wanted to find someone to talk.. but it's not the right time…. So the best way is.. to be depress and think myself.. and to reflect what I've done all these while.

 

Argh… let God decide what's best for him. God, please guide him through all the obstacles……

It's not up to me to decide.

 

I don't feel like doing anything now…….. hanging a smile on my face when I'm feeling sad is something hard for me. Anyway, I'll get over it. J for sure.

 

nice… plus disappointing night……

Today… working. Made a stupid mistake.. but i think tht it’s better to make mistake now rather than make mistake in the future.

so, everything is fine.

Went out with hubbie after work. haha…. well, chatted in a restaurant in Centro Mall.. owh, hubbie brought me there. so….

                         

it’s ModesTo"’s Pizza

Wow, i like the environment there! haha!! so we ate there, ordered a Pizza and a plate of Penne!! delicious!!!

                                    

this is the best Pizza i’ve ever had!!! thin, delicious!! and.. the most important is.. i can CHEW! haha!!

                         

YUMMY!!! gosh..the sauce and gravy are delicious!!! :-)

well, thanks to WEdnesday, Ladies night!!   we get to have free cocktails!! haha!! SAtisfaction!! summore it’s REfill-able!!! haha!!

below.. it’s MArgarita.

                                 

Margarita is nice!! my all time favourite!! :-)

Below..it’s Long Island Tea. nice cocktail!!! :-)

                                

well, i enjoyed the cocktails!!! haha!! erm… i love alcohols cuz i cannot get drunk. tht’s why…. :-)

anyway, Cocktail wont make me drunk la… :-)

My next try will be the Lamborghini + flame!! haha!! nice!!

both of us chatted till hubbie is supposed to meet her DArLing. so.. we left.

tht was my night la… :-)

i choose to go out with her cuz.. i feel depressed with Ah Song. I’m very disappointed with him. His father and my aunt caught him in SummerNight Cyber this afternoon. He ditched his Tuition class.

I am very very very disappointed..

dun wanna talk about it… i will try to find a way to talk to him.

Mmm….

DeEr, i’m really sorry tht i couldnt answer u physics Qs… sob sob… cuz i memang DUMB in physics!!! LOL!!

and thanks for the MMS u sent me!! i knw it’s for my own good. and i will sleep early today, before my lungs start detoxing. haha!!! Love you Lots!!!!

DarLeng is having hard time. anyway, i will always support my DArLeng.

DeEr having exam this Friday, God knows how often i prayed for her success. :-) Same goes to DarLeng.

The cocktail effect has taken on me… (LOL.. no la, actually i’m sleepy d…)

planned to study the whole night… but…. I’m starting to get scared because of the MMS… and i will SLEEP! no more BeaTAFED! PIRITON as Sleeping Aids!!!!

Thank God I’m still alive today…

owh.. Cheang, i still wonder how ur mum’s expression when she sees my blog… especially my banner above. hahahaha!!!

okay, time to sleep.

P.S : the horrible experience of rejecting keeps running in my mind. I dun like to reject, but i have no choice but to do so. it’s the 4th time i guess….. haiz…..

LAst Friday!!

I miss my Ds outing now. yeah, this is the outing on Last Friday,18th September.

owh.. this is one GREAT OUTING of ALL!!! why?? cuz i get to spend time with my SIBLINGS!! my 2Ds!!! haha!!!!

First, we went to MV.. wanting to Sing K… (erm.. honestly, MV sucks… except for the Red Box, Cinema, and the Gelatissimo!!)

haha!!

First, i brought them to Zanmai sushi!!

                     

Mmm…. i wanted to bring them there for such long time, just tht i couldnt seem to find time as this PArticular shop is only available in Sunway, Mv…

see? there are my LOVED ONES!!! :-)

SS-ing all the way!~~ :"-)

                          

                       

                         

They share one similar thing…. Handsome and Beautiful… LOL!! *Vomit*

haha!

                              

                           

                           

My DeEr’s favourite.. always need to order this WHEREVER she goes!!!  this one above is INARI:-)

                            

Shoba, plus soft shell crab. :-)

                        

                           

“Tong NAsi”. It is really funny to see both of them holding the bowl and finish up the rice…. hahahahahahah!!!

                              

after makan, talak benda nak buat.. so….. he played with the wasabi!!

                             

LAter on, she joined…. =_=”

see? both of them enjoyed!!

                              

next.. only she alone playing…

                                  

see la…. DeEr kena ejek.. haha!!

                              

this is embarassing… haha!!

                             

our next destination!! :-)

DarLEng : “ waiting waiting..”

DeEr : “ KEnyang Kenyang..”

                   

MiLAn!! nice one!!! :-)

                        

My DArL with the bone!!

                         

Should i say thanks to him cuz he cut into smaller pieces to me??? haha!!

this is NICE!!! haha!! vanilla ice cream, with pan cakes inside, plus peanut crunches….

wah… very very FULL !! tht day was a great day for nice FOOD!!~! i tell you, i Love tht day a lot!!! why?? with my Loved one, Good food!! :-

next destination, Gellatinssimo!!

Chocolate Chillie!!! Yummy!! nice!!! We all love this!!

so, it’s about time to sing…. haha!! off we go!!!

                               

see? they both make a good combi. haha!!

                                    

cute neh??? haha!!

                                    
muah!! haha!! owh, more photos, plz click RAE for more photos~! lots more!!! :-)

WE went back to GElatissimo again!!!

DeEr used her “nice butt” to ask the guy to give more!! and HE did Give more!!! haha!!

                               

     

Chocolate Mint, Profitello, Lemon biscuit!!

          

        

 

Gellatissimo is the only ice cream tht i ate!!! haha!! i realized that!!!! and it’s only with my Ds!!! :-)

God knows how much i love both of them!!! :-) I really love them LOTS!!!!

                           

this is a special PAJERO!!!! all filled with small PATUNG!!!

           

See? haha!! i love the art of this CAR!!! :-)

            

both of themm.. haiz… love SOLO LOTS! haha!!1

                                          

see? mee.. at last… haha!!

                               

this is the most interesting!!!!! haha!! see? read it!!!! “Tiew Nia Sing” LOL!!!

tht day.. nice!!! i love tht day….:-)

I ate lots of ice cream!!!! Mmm….. My first time EVER! LOL!!