Mi duo micasa, a place where i belong. :-)

CURTAIN'S CLOSING. IT'S TIME TO SHIFT.

TO BE HAPPY IS A CHOICE.-----Ikeda Sensei

WHAT IS MY CHOICE?
WHAT'S MY ANSWER?

haha!

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THE END.

power supply is dying.................

for the last time...


ADIOS EL BLOG.

BIENVENIDA EL TONTO LA CEBOLLA, MI DUO micasa..
MI DUO MICASA.. a place where i belong. :-)

Muy bien! (^.^)

Soup of the day.

Hunter starts to hunt...
birds start to escape..

did ok in the quiz, get more than half, 50% correct. so, still satisfied.

The soup of the day: Bluewave skinned tomato black pepper soup.

Sweet,salty, sour and hot.

It suits me today. :-)

Yan, i would like to learn more of Sensei's teaching... i hope i can be part of it. I need to lift and upgrade myself.... now.
It's time for me to leave Me.
You are the only one who can help me.
cuz.. it's time for me to leave ME.

:-)

my day is good.
so... i'll maintain. hahaha!@!!
for how long?
till the day i burst? maybe?

Chuol-su hamida....?
is that a good word to mend everything ?
I'll ask O-pah...
how to promise O-pah for all the fear factors?
Like putting salt in mouth and say that it's sweet??
Mmm... O-pah, bad O-pah....
No more pyul,
I guess??
haha...
sarcastic.


"It ends tonight, It ends tonight, just a little in time to make this right?"

haha... i dont think so. :-)

ok, gtg for lab.

Curtain's closing... slowly. It's time to change the props. Move to another chapter.
No more frequent spitting, no more frequent snoring, there's only frequent abandoning.
The sketch.... ends.

-----------------------ThE EnD---------------------------------------------

Wish to see me again . As the mainactress in the sketch. :-)

haha! will aim for Oscar though!


--D.O.A is transforming, evolutionary era rules.--

----siiu Ryu----

no one is wrong except for me.
Forgive me for not being CONSIDERATE ENOUGH for everything.

Maybe i am stupid and wrong in my way. so...


thanks for blurting out ur feelings.


Arghh... footsteps after rainy day...

24th august is a great day for fullstop for everything... a.ka Olympic closing.

mercy...

Lo siento,
yo soy no bienvenidos.
perdone..

haha!!
one world one dream?

one word one...? shit....?

haha! that was from my bro though......

adios...

DArk sword.

Rain drops on a sunny day.
well, it should be sunny but it turns out to be rainy.
DAng...

wow, i think i am on the crossroads now.
turn back? turn left? turn right? go straight? or just fly away?

haha... is there any grinding machine that so that i can ground myself in the floor forever ar?

sarcastic..

hehe... enough of that la...

I finally know Mt Lexus or nexus.. whatever la... He is super nice!!
Mios dios! haha!
Handsome, humble....

anyhow, i managed to serve him just now... ha! should take his pics man!
just like Julene said... he is a very good guy. yeah, discount pun banyak sikit!!

I should've offer him to buy MIMS for him... dang, i gave him the PJ bookstore number.... haha! menyesal-nya........

hopefully i still get to see him next week la... tht time i will really offer to buy for him if he hasnt bought it!!! ha! evilnya...

haha!!

Just once....

Just like i've missed the chance just now. Say that i am hallucinating. eh, if i offer to buy for him,i may get his number, i may get his email.. i may get to know him better... hahahaha! keep dreaming la...
pang sai pun tak de masa, apa nak buat?
haha!

wait la...
wait till suitable time . :-)

maybe wait till i am old enough to sleep in the coffin la.. DARN!

Kavitha said Kayden is doing fine. i wanted to visit her... but wait till at least one month la... now she wanna rival my eye bag d... ha! kesian her, let her rest.

Julene is still finding the AVENT sterilizer.. haiz... dunno whether she ordered d or not.... cuz it's almost one month d!!! Kayden is almost one month old!!!! the aunty, always forgetful..
maybe 48 hours a day is not enough for her oso.. it's true. just like taking care of Girl gIrl, time flies man. I can feel it too. watcing her climbing up and down. dancing, keep repeating Jungle Book, MAgic English... watch her bath, help to feed her, played with her to keep fit, baby talk to her... fighting toys with her.... teaching her hpw to PRESS today. She finally learnt it!!

time really flies man....
I know, this are only once in a lifetime. You cant really see her growing process if you've missed it now. cuz... we cannot turn back time.
that's why, She grew taller since the last 2 weeks!!!
see?I've missed te height growing process.
I just wanna give her the best! :-)

Note : SHe is a busy Princess. cuz she is busy playing everyday.. :-)

I hope i get to see her grow into an adolescence, and adult. by the time, am i still here?
i dunno.
Fate is a mystery. You wont know what will happen next. right??
unpredictable.

Dumb Onion is being killed softly.
POisoned...
DArk onion...
DArk Onion....

Drak Sword perfoms, being masticated by the sharp ends, AL, i finally understand how you feel. It's big sis's mistake for such thing.

DArk Onion has been doob enough all thw while. stupid right?
very stupid.

haha!!

Rosie, i'm no clever onion. i am only a dumb chica,tonto la cebolla livin la vida loca. You are right. i finally digested what you told me tht day.
I hope it's not too late to realize.

:-)

Smile underneath a sword.
How's the feeling?
as i am the one holding it.

:-)

notty RAchel...

just visited Baby Rachel!!! hooray!!!

she is as notty as ever.. very very notty.. keep patting my breast... haha!! i dunno why.. she was suppose to pat my stomach, but.... tersasar pula.... haha!!!

Bought the block for her, that day, with 50%!!! (i did that , yes..)haha!

she loves it.. yeah,a good tool to THROW~!! she's super good in throwing and swinging things now...
and.. she really knows how to walk a few steps d!!! and the most brilliant, she knows how to pronounce 'CAR" !!!! haha!! cute!!

she likes dancing with Music, with the JUNGLE BOOK! haha!! maybe i'll buy something else for her la.... hehe....

I went home after finish feeding her and seeing her mandi, cuz it's time for her to sleep d... ha!!
and... the MAgic English i bought, i think she can use it till 4 years old... haha!!
I am upgrading her... LOL!!! some toys are just too easy for her... the block is just nice, it's a good toy for visual learning.. haha!!


She is like a worm, she cannot sit still... likes to walk, likes to play, and likes to lie down the floor and see what's underneath the sofa.... and by then, she'll get one-sided rosie cheek cuz she lies one side... ha! CUTE!!!!


she understands a lot of things and.... she knows a lot of things d... cannot really simply talk in front of her. She learns things very very fast, only one time, she'll remember... my goodness..

She is taller though....!!!

the latest way to feed her, drink milk with spoon and Calci-yum. haha! it's a must.. oh ya, if i'm there, handphone is a must. haha!

tis electronic girl..... so CUTE!!!

She loves devices , i dunno why.. and very "cho lor", tomboy.... haha!

cute!!!

her laughter still rings in me.... wahaha!! it makes me forget everything... my stress... probs... ha!

That day when i was doing my presentation, someone asked who's the one on my desktop? cuz i put Baby Rachel's photo... they said :" she looks like you la..."
but they dont dare to ask :" is that ur daughter ar?" why? cuz they believe that i'm not married. and they always said that i hv a boyfriend. haiz....

ya, normally i will answer them.. " she's my daughter, she looks like me right?" haha! they believed... Sweat! see oso know la, aku lalat pun tak da, mana datang telur lalaT?? haha!


Anyhow,
today's sale was ok.. with good customer flow... happy, but i was hypo..hypoglecaemia, i slept at 4.40am this morning, woke up at 7.40... i know i cant stand... so i took a tab of multivite.. luckily..still can stand.
i did not take my bfast...
hungary.... it makes me mad. i was blur,.... haha!

but good though!
I met Sue today.. she came for the test too!

Julene went too, luckily she did not pengsan.. she did not tk bfast oso... and she suddenly msg me that we'll open at 8.40am this morning. haha!
so.. i slept 10 mins more. :-)

now?
i am quite happy, to see Rachel is healthy, and she's in a good growing process. ha!

i did not manage to tk her pics, why? cuz she moves non stop!!!! and i cant get a good shot to post up here...
hehe...

hope one day Rachel will spoil my phone la, then i hv reason to buy a new one.. kakakakakaka.....

ok.. i wanna finish up my report now. 2mr got pop quiz summore, and.. i'm going back 2mr early morning, good la, can teman my HOUSE more... hehe...


Jet'aime.

muacks.

ja!

Angel and demon, are you?

a good night!!!

cuz the one who always absent is present.

Julene kept reminding me :" kuen, remember to ask Wei Lee out lo.. remember lo, this coming saturday night.. i'll confirm the place with you later.. remember lo, ask her out!!"

this was the conversation last sunday. she kept reminding me...

and it makes me think of what Ms. Yap told me... few months ago, :" kuen ar, Julene very sayang you and wei lee ..till "chut jap".. do you know that? me, as an outsider oso can see... she really really sayang both of you very much" She said in Hokkien.
Me? I forgot what i answered.... but as time passed, i realized that it's true.

I guess no one really makes Julene feels the way she feels now gua.... I mean, interaction, communication wise, it cannot happen with PF, so, i am glad. really glad.

I guess we influenced her a lot, and she'd changed a lot since Baby Rachel exists. :-) yup, it's true.

I did not think that i would become so close to her when i first work in Life Care. When i think back, it feels like it's has just happened yesterday. The memory of me interviewed by her is still fresh in me.
yea...
I mean, she really treat us nice la..
but.. What Ms Yap said is true..i can see it now. :-)

Talk about tonite, Huey Ling...haiz... me personally was happy cuz i get to gather with a bunch of colleaque, a.k.a friends.... but why she weared the shoe!!!!! haiz.... Stupid....

again, she tried to do everything i did.. the JENGKA>... aiz...
forget it la...
I'm sure that she wont blend in..and she cant. so.. sorry again@@!!!

Kenji came to my house with Fiona. hehe... should see his new hairstyle!! he is so handsome!!!
my goodnes....
My boyfriend... he is the first boy i feel like kissing all over... haha!!!

Kenji! kenji!!!


Actually, happiness is always coming hand in hand with sadness, i duno why, it always happens to me. whenever you see me doing something strange with whatever i hv... means, theres something wrong with me d.

I am even sad-der tonite.
Things changed.
and...
i dunno why.
Is it because of what i wrote?
of what i said?
or what i showed?
or what i am???

obviously, i am drown in confuseness.
so...

That is the real me?
what do you expect?
to change my style? so that you can accept?
huh?

hey... please...
is it i'm the one who changed? or...the other way round?
SIS, is that what you did, you did it on purpose?
am i so disgust?
you cant give me an answer... why?

You hurt me...
it feels more like a discrimination to me.

W.Iyng told me straight forward before... :" Kuen, i know you wont tell ur prob to others, but i know that you are not happy sometimes. You can find someone to talk to, it's better."

ya, i know. but who?

The things that is happening to me makes me even keen to close myself up.

I still remember, i replied W.Iyng :" know what? for me to trust a person, i need a long long time... and for me, i think that things that i can settle it myself, i wont tell others. cuz... I can settle lo.."

Actually it's not. what lies deep in my heart is.... " I dont hv the confidence that ppl will listen to me...I'm scaews to be other ppl's burden... and ppl always thought that i dont hv prob. so, for me, it is weird to talk to ppl bout myself.
I dont like to talk about myself, i prefer ppl to know my character through knwing me as friend."

i am not disappointed, i am just... i dont understand why it suddenly changed.

stupid me.

haha!! anyhow, it wont bother me for long la. as... i will still be me.
I know it is hard to change my personality so that i can fit into others. i dont want. I dont wanna lose my identity.

Anyhow, i think that... for tonite's situation to "repeat" again, it needs at least 2 more months... aha!!!

No point thinking of what has happend, cuz you cant ammend what has happened, the emotional damage caused is irreversible. What's damaged is damage. so... leave it to sink and be sediment.

right?

For me, hurt is hurt, what's done is done, no point looking back.

I still remembered W.Iyng said about a start of relationship, " a spark starts a relationship, but in the long run, it's not the spark that maintains it, it is the way of how you communicate."

I feel it's true.
for any realtionships.

As for Julene and me, what makes us start?
i think it's Rachel and PF.
I think i was the first staff who she asked me to touch her stomach when baby rachel is stll inside her womb.
because of PF, Julene sees more and compares more? i guess?
another reason, fate?
My attitude?


It's a long blog. i just have so many things to express.
Someow, i still feel that blog is a little restricted for me..
:-) but i still manage to voice out everything. :-)

Angels,
are you sent from up above?

demons,
are you sent from up above? too?

how to differentiate between angels and demons?

are you an angel and demon?

I can admit that.... YES, I AM.

I bet.....
everyone plays both the part.

Jet'aime
Muacks.

ja!