Short scrib… ^^

Pieces of me?

 

owh well…

 

The conversation yesterday was… so awkward. not sure if we both feel that we’re on our different path?

 

Anyway, whatever it is. Nothing’s changed.

Going to prayer meeting later. yeap, I got a free week, which is very very precious to me. this is the only week I can study, sleep and eat well.

honestly, last week’s quiz… I dunno how I studied, went for the exam unprepared. gah.

 

Somehow, God is showing me some pictures over and over again. Maybe, I should be obedient instead.

Peeps,

Romans 8:31

If God is for us, who can be against us?

 

Have courage for your life, just live life to the maximum, with the present of God. =)

 

ciao. short update. PS: I’m still alive. =))

Be Glorified.

I just feel like Glorify our creator by writing this post.

I was chatting with Wennie, a girl from Klang, which I only knw her few days ago, yea, she is one batch younger than me.

Was chatting with her regarding Gala Night cum oath taking ceremony. I was fighting for the attendance for my friends who has to extend for one sem. but too bad, I lost the battle.

anyway, I’ve done my best and I knw that Tigress is always acting the radical way and never side us. so be it.

Well, Wennie checked out my profilr, and asked me a typical question, “are you a Christian?”

Never in my life, I feel proud to admit that I am one.

 

It makes me think back the life I had, owns a religion but live like without having one.

Christ bring me to him.

 

Today, I was in library, supposed to study for this friday’s exam, but thoughts just come into my head, about my future, blur directions.. etc etc….

I just cant concentrate, and distracted.

and hence, I did a small prayer before I hit the NIV bible apps in my phone.

Prayed for directions, and words from Him, asked God to speak to me. 

so as usual, I randomly scrolled bible verses and chapters. Here comes 1 Cor 4:1-5.

“¹ This, then, is how you ought to regard us: as servants of Christ and as those entrusted with the mysteries God has revealed. ² Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. ³ I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. ⁴ My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. ⁵ Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God.”

 

Verse 5 hits me the most… and I was surprised that God answered my prayer.

yeah, so I didn’t think much anymore instead, but studied what I’m supposed too. Peaceful mind just land in me that moment.

 

“Thank you Lord, Thank You lord” I humbly spoke.

 

God’s message comes in all form. Today, it came to me in the form of verses.

 

Lord of creation, King of all kings. How splendid and wonderful you are. You’re everything Lord.

Prayers are powerful. Seriously.

 

as time goes, I find wisdom in speaking . Well, I’ve learnt a lot from Him, and by being more like Him day by day is what I long for.

Thank you Lord.

Bless everyone around me..

Be with me throughout my clerkship period.

Forgive the sins that I’ve done.

in Christ mighty name, Amen.

Just a flashback

I feel like writing today.

 

Yesterday, I received a call frm Shereen Ang, surprisingly she asked me out after her work time. Of course, I was free and I went out with her.

Time is always good with her, because I love talking to her. Supposed to go dinner together, but she is craving for Chatime. Well, once she told me she is craving for Chatime, I bought the Valentine’s day coupon via my mobile phone.

so, here we go..

 

end up, jammed for 2 hours from Cheras to Old Klang Road. =_=

 

terrible jam, but… we never abandon each other through our voices, songs, jokes, chats.

by the way, I asked her to bring me to Prayer Meeting. =)

So, we reached Scott’s Garden at 730pm (2 hrs jam). Bought her Strawberry Pudding Au Lait and free milk tea.(for me)

I never liked chatime. haha.

this sounds so wrong, my V-day gift for her. HAHAH!

 

Met Emily at KM Kitchen. As usual, when 3 girls get together, its just chats, and chats.

Prayer Meeting started at 830pm. My first.

Totally had fun, and prayed for each other. I’m so glad that God has brought our sisterhood together, and brought us closer to each other.

 

Last 2 weekend, I had this sermon and message from Him.

In life, we need to keep our relationship at a balance. Even if u’re in a relationship, you do not neglect your friends, your quiet time with God.

When we ought to do something, or when we are in a relationship, we give 100% to our partner, 100% to our friends, 100% to quiet time. It cannot be divided out from 100%.
In this community, we need each other, not only our life partner. we need fellowship too.

that was the summary of the sermon.

one phrase that hits me “ You are not ready for relationship until you are contented of being single.”

are u?

 

This has been our conversation out of the 2 hours. I’ve been through the stage, that’s why I understand.

but one thing’s for sure, I will not abandon my intimate friends if I am in a relationship. As well as my quiet time with God.

All in all, God is the center of my life.

 

yeah, I cant deny that I feel left out some times, but.. this is life. Christ knows my heart, and sometimes we just gotto accept that people have their life, and their partners. Not all understands the difference of 100% and division from the 100%.

Well, I am living good, with my faith. Drawing myself closer to Him makes my life contented.

 

That’s why, some times, I feel like going a far. Not to say Runaway from all these, but to find my future far away. I am still praying about directions. I am in dilemma, wanting to go a far for experience, but at the same time, I am not ready to leave my accompany here. T_T

 

Well, God is great. He knows what’s best of me. He is the only one I can rely and be true to.

I am thankful for Him every day, because He brought me to where I am now, acceptance, love.. and faith.

I got His blessings every single day.

 

 

Pray for my mum, her pain after her minor op hasn’t fade away yet.

Pray for directions.

pray for balance of life.

 

Share a song that touched me…

He is the Truth, The Way, The Light.

2012 New Year Celebration

First thing’s First, Thank You Lord for a wonderful year of 2011, You have done Great things in my life. No words can say how mighty you are. =)

 

So, I started my New Year’s eve with my darlings, breakfast in Pandamaran, and went for Sing K session with them. Eh hem.. my singing technique improves. LOL!! *perasan-nya*

Bought a bottle of Shiraz Rosei for NYE’s dinner. Yeap, booked a table of 5 pax in La Carretas Taipan USJ. It was… awesome.

 

So, we met at Datin’s place at 6pm. me? of course, I drove up to PC to her place. spend some time with DAtin, chatted.. (tht’s what I always love to do when I’m with someone I care or close).

The rest of the gang reaches at 6 plus.

 

Las Carretas.. how do I came about this restaurant? haha.. At first, wanted to go to Damansara for Mexican Food, then only I realize that the Restaurant is not there anymore. Hence.. I googled. Saw Las Carretas with good reviews, reasonable price for that type of quality of food. =)

                          

so, off I go!!! Just in case someone forgot how I looked like. HAHAHAH!

 

we were served Nachos as snacks.

    

Nachos was awesome.. no oil, and the dips are really traditional mexicanie. haha… and I love the ambience of the restaurant!!!!

 

              

our Rosei… and the environment of the restaurant. Luckily we booked a table, if not.. we wont be able to dine in anywhere else. hahaha.

 

these are awesome food!!!

The Taco is really nice, with chicken inside.

Combine Acapulco is combination of flank steak and chicken breAST, WITH CHEESE.

Burrito, it has wonderful sauce.. and its awesome.

 

               

Left is Fajitas. it tastes so good.. loved the beef!!! =) right, owh. josh’s head was blocked. yeah, there were 5 of us. =)

 

Had a wonderful welcoming of 2012 with Mexican Food. and its Authentic!!!

Like I said, the bill came up to around Rm40 per person.

and… the wine is awesome with the food!!!  I really enjoyed it a lot, and it’s a bliss to my taste bud! hahaa.

 

then, we were all keen for drinking session. owh well, I’ve took pictures of it but not so nice to show. 6 of us, in cheras.  Ah Boon joined us at night. so we drank, play cards and sing.. and got drunk. P.S: I wish I was drunk too….

We bid 2011 goodbye among us and I bid my night goodbye by taking care of the 2 drunkards. hahahaha!!!!

 

Well, let me tell u, don’t underestimate drunkards, they can do funny things without remembering it. HAHAHAHAH!

 

So, 1/1/2012. It comes with laughter. =)

 

Went for New Year Service, and had a great morning with the Lord.

what’s best?

 

                          

ignore the background. haha.. it’s the gift and the giver.. =) *loves and hugs*

 

       

I’m so touched… you knw what? She sew the bookmark by hand… T_T all of it. from top to bottom, front and back…

 

                

her initials. =)

 

             

I’m just glad and blessed. This is a meaningful book, why??

 

             

cuz she scribbled on it. =)

 

 

and and, another free earphone from Creative!!!!! its ear buds! I LOVE IT!!! =)

 

Lastly, a status that explains all.

 

  

 

she uses 3 days to sew the book mark. 

I’m so touched… and happy.

 

owh well, I’m not forgotten. =P

 

 

New Year’s service message was about “The Lord is my Shepherd”

So happen.. the bookmark that she sew is “The Lord is my Shepherd” too. So, you still think its co-incidence? hahaha… like I said in previous post, nah, its not co-incidence. =)

God, you are awesome.

 

She wont read this blog, anyway.. I’ve thanked her.

 

Guess it’s a meaningful New YEar. =) very meaningful.  and I love all my gifts a lot. =)

KJV bible, a book, a bookmark, and earphone. haha… all in one. =)

I’m blessed that my life evolves around great people. =) trustable people, and those who appreciate who I am.

God’s grace.

 

Peeps, Happy New Year to all of you. In this NEw YEar, Live, laugh, love. (why sound so familiar??) haha.

Put Him as priority, and achieve whatever things that you want. Life is short, one year passed in a blink of an eye. So, appreciate every single day, and be blessed for what you have, and what you don’t have.

 

Happy Happy New YEar.

 

P.S: I cant forget the drunk face of Datin and San San. haha..

P.S.S: to the person who forget how I looked like, Lets have a meal!! =)

Victorious me, Glory to Him.

wah.. its been a long time since i write with blogger draft. Looks so different now and i can't even recognize it. haha!

Today, indeed is a Victorious day of mine.
Like i promised, The vision that i have, i will fulfill it.

Yes, i am left with one semester OFFICIALLY. and my holiday STARTS OFFICIALLY for one month!

whats my plan for hol? nah... i plan to look for job( if there's ppl wanna hire me), complete my accounts, ber-mate-mate with my bed, cumbu-cumbuan with my sheepig, and.. travelling, meet up with friends.

yeah, I have a trip in 2 week's time with my oldies. haha. not my parents, but my old friends. see? life is really good when God takes over it.

This day, is a great testimony of my life. It proves again God's love and power. YEs, faith of a mustard seed is able to move a mountain.

I've done it? have u?

I am glad that i don't need to wake up from stress 2mr morning. yeah.. i can go all out and enjoy my day.

God is good. God is great! Awesome, and Power.


haha.. my mum almost cried. owh well, she prayed in her own way for me every single day... i knw. =) Anyhow, God is the main character, without Him, there's no achievement in me.

Next, God pleases complete my puzzle...  Continue to guide me Lord.


Tonight, wedding dinner... AGAIN! i have so many wedding dinner this month.... and next week, there's another one..


just came back from a great jog.. actually, i am sick of jogging alone, but i still wanna jog. For my health's sake, cuz i dont wanna live like a potato this whole holiday. (i can forsee that i'll be eating, eating and eating). Gosh, i am kinda sick of food... hahahha!!!


okay, time to bath, play some barbie doll dress up, draw some lines, pat some powder, and squeeze some concealer. Gotto get ready for tonight's dinner. ha.ha.ha.
(sad.. everyone is getting married.. and me? i'm still Y.F.S) LOL!


"seek and you shall find, ask and you shall receive"
have you presented your request to God? You knw that God loves you? =)


ciao. =)


mum and dad, love you both. =)

Beautiful Sunday encounter.

it’s a beautiful sunday. Let me just write what I feel.. for those who need some  motivation, yeah. its for u.

Honestly, I still wake up from stress every single day ever since 16november. I was relieved that it was over, but I couldn't accept the fact that I did screw up one of the paper. That’s the paper which I sat, and I don’t feel victorious at all. I don’t have confidence when I stepped out from the hall.

I was and desperate for God’s miracle, and I know He hears my cry and my prayers. I try not to lean on my understanding and yet, those bad visions just come into my mind, and I got a bad feeling.

I never stopped my desperate prayers though. Like I said, I think God will really laugh at my prayers, but I proclaim His words. “Seek, and you shall find, ask and you shall receive”

 

Today, while I was on my way to FGA, Got a ooomph for Hillsongs, so I tuned into my pendrive.

I got a message from Him through them, Hillsongs. of all songs, I started paying attention to God’s words. yeah.. God is able. and this is the song that was playing and I had a deep thought on the voices I heard while I was singing this song with my Spirit. I started to feel peace. HE spoke.

 

some preface about what happened… : during my finals period, there were a few songs that worked in my life, yeap, my exam life. “Stronger”, “amazing grace”.  God spoke to me everytime I hear these songs, that is why my youtube playlist is full of Gospel.

 

So, He spoke to me in the car. I really got peace.

then,I reached FGA. =)  as the worship session starts, as usual.. He is always in the house, and in the atmosphere. 

Guess what? The worship team started singing “God is able”. My heart was so overwhelmed. A voice came to my head, “I hear you, I’m with you eventhough you can’t see me”. yes, these came to my mind.

I was really really overwhelmed. gave thanks to Him and I got His message.

*deep in me.. there’s not coincidence, only power of God.*

So, the power of the song reigns over me… I feel so touch because God is so intact in my heart. He always tells me about his presence through songs. I always wonder, maybe this is the way for me communicate with Him besides prayers. and this is the way He talks to me too..

 

The next song.. oh my God.. I slain immediately right after the worship lead singer started singing “Stronger”. The first thing I said “God, You are awesome.. Thank You for assuring that You are always with me.”

This time, the encounter was different, as I sing praise.. memories flashes into my head, all about how close He was in me during exam period, and He is still with me.. NOW. I am still overwhelmed by His love while I am typing this post. I can’t wait to share God’s love to the readers, yeah.. I really hope I can give hope through my post, to those who are sad, deprived from love.. and I want them to knw, When people hate you for certain reason, God loves you with no reason.

I was really overwhelmed while I was giving praise. No one could understand my feeling, because everyone has a different encounter.

you knw, everytime when I listen to “stronger” while I was studying, it touches my heart and gives me courage to move on, and its sort of like a God’s shield for me. I feel safe and protected through songs, because He always speaks to me through it.

My heart was so peaceful and all I wanna do is glorify Him, because.. this week its different compared to the FGA sessions that I had previous weeks. Previous weeks, He showed me his presence through another song… which appeared (means sung by the worship team) 3 weeks in a row! (and yeah, that was the song that touches me before the first week where the worship team sang).

This week.. He gave me visions of the exams, saying that He was there for me, and He is still here for me. Never left, and He knows what I’m going through. Sort of a peaceful message ask me do not be anxious, because He is stronger.

 

Now next.. My heart bursts out in tears when the worship team started singing “Amazing Grace”.

Tears of joy filled my eyes, and my heart.

God, you are awesome! He showed me this week and reassured me that He is listening to me and he’s been always there. I’m so touched by His unending love. really really touched.

 

Praise God.

 

I wanna be victorious and Lord, You hear me. I will never stop my desperate prayers and I know that you hear me Lord.

 

Today, it’s the starting of a victorious week. I knw.. I’m gonna leave everything to Him. “If we succeed, praise Him, If we fail, Praise Him”

 

God has an adventurous plan for all of us.

 

Praise god.

 

 

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I have always love to talk to Aunt Carol, si fatt’s mum. Probably she’s a young mum with a liberal opinion, and she’s a liberal mum too. not to say my mum is not good, and hello!! my mum is my bestest mum on earth! haha…

Aunt Carol always give positive energy to people.. and today, She transferred her positive energy to me. haha.. as she always does. =)

She made me think hard. and I knw, if I’ve decided to do something, nothing will stop me if its God’s will.

So, I think I have to think hard on it, gotto plan well. Because its my life, my future.

I don’t mind giving up my career for something exciting, and something better. Of course, it is better if we have somebody to share it with. (not partner, but someone..) hehe.

Am I ready to accept the fact that I have to start from scratch? I guess I should’ve got myself a Business degree instead of a Rph degree.  *wink* nah, too late. I’m at the end of the studying path, and at the start of my life now.

2 years, will I be able to earn enuf to survive for at least 6 months?

God, complete the puzzles in my mind. Once completed, Let Your will be done.

 

and.. si fatt once told me when we were waiting for our bus in AT.. She told me that I am overly independent.

“Overly” is a strong word, because I only consider myself as “Too independent”. not “overly” haha.

I guess, that is one of my good points, and it can be a fatal weakness huh?

owh, what she told me that day still got me thinking till now.

Sometimes, I really enjoy my life as YFS (young, free, single), sometimes I also hope to have someone to share my everything.. haha, I got too much love to give! haha.

I don’t mind giving it a shot. yeah.. if someone special appeared, that can change my life.

 

=)

 

I know that wherever I go, I can make it, I can survive. All I need is just adaptation. yeah… Charles DArwin theory of NAtural Selection.

Chinese (most) are survivals. Its in their blood. agree? so does Indians, because they are marginalized. That’s why they keen to survive and we can’t blame them for their ego. They are striving hard to get a reputation in the society.

I really don’t wanna be a slave for money. But thinking back, wherever I work, I’m still a slave for $$, depends on how I manage my mind. =)

There are too many things to consider, especially when u’re older, and when commitments come.

 

I plan to give myself 10 years.. but can I really survive that long out of the box? There’s a will, there’s a way?

 

Sometimes, I really doubt my choice in working in Sg last year. because.. it showed me how small Malaysia is, and how unorganized Malaysia is. This thinking got amplified by the Aussie’s experience. I love Malaysia, but politics seem to made it dirty.

 

Owh well.. back to me, my plan.

I ask for guidance from my Lord, Guide me through God, for you knw what’s best for me, and all of us.

 

In His name, we say…. A.M.E.N.

just publish

one word: Jaded

but I don’t feel empty.

 

I’m desperate. Yes I am.

Desperate in a lot of ways, wanting the mustard seed of faith to plant in me. Yet, its so hard.. yeah, it is hard.

 

anyway, the best has yet to come.

To Him. cheers, to Him.