<Kite>, by Jocelyn Tan.

i realized that i did not blog yesterday. yeah,i was .. occupied. Well, same goes to today, will be occupied as well.

I just got this song from FB, from sweet Jocelyn. This is a wonderful song. Its her competition winning piece and i would like to dedicate this song to… those who are having exam, and those who loves music.

For those who are having exam, although its tough, but do not forget the one who always hold you in the right hand and always hold your tears whenever you shed. Somehow, when we’re out there, we feel like a free kite, but.. there’s always an invisible, loving, strong, kind string which is holding us tightly no matter where we are. Exam is depressing, but… you have the string, be afraid not.

For those who loves music, i think this is an overwhelming production which has its own style. This is a great composition. Although the juries said the lyrics is a bit childish, but.. i just love it! and the meaning behind it is so simple and strong.

Here i present, <Kite>, by Jocelyn Tan.

enjoy.

 

Lyrics:
终有一天我会飞出这小框
不再留给自己任何遗憾
摘下原本属于我的智慧，理智
配上一双叛逆的翅膀

风筝飞多高都有降落的时候
随风的方向飘流
有你在我背后默默地支扶我
你是那风筝的绳子

风浪混乱的节奏
使我迷糊了双眼
我渐渐失去了
当初伟大的看见

当没有任何人听见
我呼唤的声音
当没有人能了解我这无助的困境
求你伸出你双手让我再次体会
被你爱的感觉是如此的美丽

 

“被你爱的感觉是如此的美丽”

this is a beautiful sentence. It simply means “ Its so beautiful being loved by You…”

To the writer, Jocelyn, its a praise to the ONE who holds her dearly no matter where is she. =) We’re the Kite, HE’s the string. =)

 

A lovely song, i hope she will go far with her beautiful voice and wonderful talent. =) Of course, me.. will support any creative music and what’s more she’s my friend… and summore she’s the Ah Beng’s sister?!?! hahaha!!

 

Peeps, enjoy the song, as i’m going to allocate this blog post to Jocelyn. There’s a whole lot of talents out there, she’s the one you definitely cannot miss. =)

Unique. =)

ME, and big part of me. =)

 

 

i’m tired. but i won’t break down. I’m not trying to be strong, just trying to be optimistic.

nah, i don’t anchor to it, tht’s why.. even if it happens, i mean, failure, it will not stop me from moving on with my life. =)

 

I’m pretty amazed with today. I’ve spent my days studying half of one subject and plan to finish half of another subject.

 

My dear partner in fight uploaded a few pictures, i was like… WOW! its sort of like, Before and  After version of me.  =)

 

        

this was taken a couple years back… i think i was still in Form 6.. or form 5.. not sure whether which year already. Gosh, look how i’ve grown up so much now…. haha!

 

          

this was taken last year i guess (lost track d).., before i had my braces on… =)

 

 

        

just to introduce, these are my fighting mates. We’ve been fighting since.. very very young. Met each other on the Bouts, Met each other in courses, of course, not forgetting, instructors and MAsters. =) of course, Seniors.

 

 

           

these are the instructors in the club. =)

 

                      

Awww… i miss that moment. That was our graduation trip, during Form 6, to Pangkor Island. Look at this missy beside me. She is the one who stood my me and walked with me till now… I mean, she literally helped me through my difficulties. =) Trust me, she is not she was.. now. =) Totally different! changed to the good! =)

 

                  

this is something that i’ve never shown anyone except for those in the pics, and my family.. and those who exist in my life at that very moment. Ya! Just shut up and keep reading… hahahahhaha!! dun say a word. i knw! =)

by the way, those in the pics… we share a special bond… till now. =) I love these girls of mine!!!!!

 

                 

even until now…. we’ve grown so much, compared to Form 6…. we’re on our way to be a professional in our life. =) This pic was taken on OCT 14 2010!! (knw what’s this date!?!? haha!)

 

                    

somehow, they are impregnated in my life. =)  this was taken a few months back, end of July i think… =)

 

                      

yeah, i really think that this photo is somehow special…. =) hahaha!! this was taken last July, a few months back.

 

 

                    

so, this is me, and those who evolves around me.  this is quite recent photo of mine lar… haha!

 

the most current photo was the one i took in Glambert! haha… 3 of us! =) So, I’m still very excited on our every outing though!!!!

 

look at how much we’ve changed… (compare the one where 5 of us together in Pangkor and the the recent ones below it… )

ViVa ALO! muahahahahha!!

 

A quick flashback on my past. =)

 

YEap, i’m happy…even now and then. =)

Firecrackers everywhere. Happy festive! and me.. happy studying!!! I’m going full blast, to compensate back the time i’ve used for my quiet moment. =)

tata!

*wink*

and i still can’t believe that i’ve changed so much……lols!

story attempt: The day, i found you….

this non friction stories goes like this….. (P.S: just a story.. my writing idea for the night, i am boring. yes. but yet, i hvn finish studying…. lols )

… I was hyperventilating, shivering, when i received a msg from XX that XX was crying, and had been emo the whole day and non productive at all..

I changed, open my door gate, quickly lock it, then i ran to XX’s place.. True enuf, XX was crying when the door was opened for me to enter. Without a trace, I grab XX and pull XX into my arms.. hugged as tight as possible to give the message that everything is going to be fine.

that was the longest hug i’ve ever experienced.. and i was so worried about XX and XX literally broke down in front of me.

Stress, is the disaster. yes, no one else can overcome stress at this very important period.

Holding XX as tight as possible still… hands all over, intercrossed each other... I feel like i’m engulfing XX’s entire body.. as XX kept shedding tears on my shoulder.

I talked to XX, letting know that we are going to go through this together.. yeah, I will, and i always mean what i say.

We were at the door.. for almost 5-10minutes.. static, immobile…

I grabbed XX as tight as possible… sobbing continues….. till… it slows down…………

I can feel the fear that XX was having… how terrified XX felt. I was so heartbroken… and sad…

I try to stay strong, though i’m scared of what XX is afraid of.

Spent my evening there with XX till the waves of emotions subsides. I went off.

I am still putting my fingers crossed that everything is going to be fine for both of us.

Somehow, when XX texted me that XX felt a lot more better, i was so relieved. “*hugs*” , this is what XX included in the text.

Storms are raging into our life, yeah.. practically, we need to be as still as a stone to undergo the stress that is raging in. Like any others, we’re just normal people, who wants to excel so badly.. yet, fear is the key word, the barrier…

I realize, first step, is to start working your fear. Start overcoming your fear… by taking the first act.. which is to accept it, and work it out. Somehow, life is not just about this moment.. It will all be a part of flash back memories… but i’m sure, it’ll be bitter, meaningful, and sweet.

XX somehow is still struggling.. but this time, its different, cuz we both knw we had each other.. to support each other.

Life… goes…. on.

Be stronger each day. Melancholy is just a moment, not forever. I will move on. I will stay still, i will be strong. I told XX, “u knw how to get me when u needed comfort, we’ll get through this altogether, i promise.”

XX…. smiled. The last goodbye hug was more than just a message that she is fine, and she’ll stand up on her feet again.

Confidence, fill us.

 

So, my stupid attempt for this story… kinda good idea huh? to put myself in a situation.. not as exotic as i thought. hahahahaha!!!!

i was really bored and sleepy… but yet, i still need to hold on till i’m constipated of info. hahahahah!

owh yeah, my FB status just now : “ I’m going to transform into Lady GaGaH next Saturday… cuz i’m going to …. POKE POKE POKE POKE HER FACE, POKE POKE POKE HER FACE!!!”

Heil Hitler! Nail the paper!! *full of confidence*”

Anyone wants to join the GaGaH team?!?! LOLs..

The power of love.. is so strong…

agree? I feel love for the whole day….. =)

JaeCee! thanks for the confidence! you are GREAT!!!! Love You!!!!

till then!!!!!

nites peepsie!

if XX were not virtual, i would like to dedicate this song to XX, with a msg “Baby, smile. =)”

enjoy, TAylor Swift latest album <speak now 2010>, i have affection to all songs, but.. this song’s melody is really really good!! nice! it caught my attention today!

enjoy <SPARKS FLY>, by Taylor Swift! by the way, her album is SUPERB!!! very lovely!!! =) MUST LISTEN TO ALL SONGS!!!! cuz i just did!

 

u can expect better songs compared to her last album, <FEarless>. =) for sure!

constipation

Look at the title, I’m in the mood to write about “Constipation” today.

I knw i knw, the freaking GastroIntestinal and Pharmacotherapy is over, but everytime when i sit on the toilet bowl, trying to make way for my “pooh”, this word “ constipation” always come to my mind and its definition will come subconsciously into my mind.

Constipation is defined as passing LESS THAN 3 STOOLS PER WEEK (women), LESS THAN 5 STOOLS PER WEEK (Men), Straining at 25% of the time, 2 or less stools per day, and Straining at defecation, 1 or less stool per day with minimal effort.

Screw me, yeah, i still can rmber the definition CLEARLY!!!! cuz its always happen to me. hahahaha!!!

I am constipated, physically and mentally.

Yeah, how to not expect constipation when you have your meals so irregularly?!?! Lunch at 2 plus pm, dinner at 9 plus pm?!? then sometimes supper at 3am, sometimes even no dinner..

so, probably my GIT has not enuf load to produce the urge to defecate.

 

Speaking about constipation mentally… sigh…

I slept at almost 5am this morning… with a “constipated” condition. Why i say so?

I was trying hard to memorize and write out whatever that i’ve been memorizing… and it turns out.. something like “1 or less stool per day with minimal effort”. yeah, just change the stool to InFO! hahaha!!

 

Tiring… really tiring…

anyway, I’m still going full blast today! =) yeah, after i’ve settled my car, I’m going to sit and create BUTT GANGRENE again!!! I’ve had enuf of procrastination yesterday!! =)

Owh, I can’t wait for 2mr’s Ellen Degeneres show!! Portia Degeneres is going to be there! to promote her new book <Unbearable lightness"> . I watched her talk show on The Oprah, where she revealed her secrets and everything about her… It was touching… =)

See, i’ve always like Ellen and Portia. =) for who they are. What a lovely couple.

 

ok, I’m still constipated now, cuz the urge doesnt come… yeah, the defecation urge. Well, I guess, I’m going out to relax a couple of hours, get myself some good food.. (probably), then come back and warm the chair again!!!!!

 

Till then, happy Diwali peepsie! =)

ciao! 

good thing, bad thing. =)

when good things come to you, is it possible that bad things will come after all the good things happen??

well, i do hope that this is not true. Of course everyone wants good things to happen to them, right??

i’m saying this because all these while, whenever good things that happens to me, bad things will surely come along after it. haha! call me superstitious! I hope i am not!!!

anyhow, this is just a conscious thingy where ppl realize what is happening and co-incidently bad things happened after good things go. So, no big deal aite? we ought to prepare to face any circumstances of life, regardless what happens next, good or bad. We cannot control what’s coming, but we can control and listen to our inner voice in how to act to solve the current problem.

Things are so much different for me now. I think God really bless me with such broken road to knw that things are great ahead.

Whatever it is, i will face it confidently!!!!!

 

Good to say, so far, my paper was good. At least i have the confidence to answer it. I’m satisfied so far. Like mummy always say after i msg her after every paper:" “ another stone down…”

haha!! mum, I’m more worried about the freaking MArketing subject!!! lols!!!

anyway, I’m going to do my very very best in everything!!!!!

 

You guys too! Gambate!!! ga yao!!

 

Later, will be stuffing myself with notes again…. haha!

parents are going down to JB 2mr. Well, I guess its for deepavali celebration. Deepavali!! can u imagine my deepavali here without indian food!! haha! i do hope BABA serves free food on that day…. LOLs!!!!

by the way, when is the real date for Deepavali?!? i have totally lost track on it….

 

Erm…. right now, Katy Perry is yelling “TGIF” AGAIN!!! hahahah!! i love her songs so much!! I’ve been watching her on Ellen DeGeneres show! she is just awesome! like everyone said, Russel Brand is a lucky guy! hehehehe….

 

Time to nap a while, i hope i can sleep.. cuz i’ve just taken a cup of high concentrated oats with warm water. So, probably if i sleep now, it will cause gastric reflux.

get prepared! buckle up!

you can do it as long as u have faith!

and… good preparation involves good use of today!!!

 

ciao peepz!!!

 

 

this is a lovely song!! =P

 

it caught my attention today!!!! :-)

enjoy! <The one that got away>, by KAty Perry.

 

NapZzzZZzz….

Penang Tau Sar PEah and Chocolates!! =)

well.. it doesnt mean that i’ve finished my studies when u see this post!!

its because i’m suffocating! butt pain! sat from morning 7am till now!! and i’m going to sit til i’m sleepy!

So, let me share something today… well, i still cannot afford to blog about what’s on my mind, but.. sharing these will also do, for today.

                      

                     

                     

Tau SAh Peah from Him Heang!! thanks to Tri!!! I’m so loving it!!! hahahaha!!! this is the traditional one from Him Heang. Everytime Tri goes back to Penang, she’ll sure get me some Tau Sa Peah. LOLs!!! she knows i love Tau SAr Peah!! –=)

 

yeah, that’s my bfast! =)

 

so, lets come to another good one, Josh brought it today..

                      

                     

Chocolates from AMERICA!!! yeah, from the States!!! =)

dun underestimate the chocolates!! all of them tastes good!!! see the Kit Kat packaging? its so different!!!

 

and mind me, the dark chocolate from HerShey is very nice! Yummy-licious!

 

So, that’s my snack for my tea break.

 

nah, something to munch on just now, cuz i was too bored… studying.. cuz its NEVER-ENDING!!!!!!!!!

 

BAsically, that’s my life for 24/7 during May and November. haha!

 

So, i gotto go!

that’s all for today… sorry for the so short session. Just updating to let all of you knw that my butt is still intact with me.. although it is in a stage of forming gangrene due to lack of oxygen supply! (thanks to long hours of sitting!) and.. i can’t feel my butt now……… ha!

 

BAck to IBS, Constipation, Diarrhea.. GERD, PUD.. and STRUCTURES! lols…. my architect lifestyle is never ending.. I’ve been drawing since… last week. =_=”

 

Ciao peeps! stay tune for 2mr!!! =)

 

 

guys, prayers in need here!! =P

 

ta!

1 down! happy!

                     

this is a neat version of my desk!!! hahaha!!! thanks to yesterday’s subject!!! I can officially close it and put it in my drawer!!! the thick stack of notes!

 

                

can u see the thickness of the notes?!?!? this is the compressed version…. now u understand why i need 1 week to study this subject…….

u knw, to STORE everything in my mind is not easy…… haha!!!

 

So, i officially announce that i’m not going to sleep today! cuz… i got lots more to catch up.

 

Blogging just to keep me awake and post what i wanted to. =)

 

Today, its going to be a new day. Btw, my brain is still expanding its capacity to memorize the next subject 2mr, Wednesday. =)

 

All can do is, Thanks to JC. He helped me through hard times. =)

 

I am going back to my notes!!!!

ciao ppl!!!

Pray for me instead!!!!!! =P

 

I will update again about some of the issues i’m having on my mind now if i have the time 2mr!!! means, if i get to finish my studies earlier, i’ll write! =)

 

till then, till u read again 2mr!! =) ciao!