Tired.... lah.....

AH KUEN is TIRED!!!

erm.. i had hot soup today!! cheer!!! wanna have chicken but... my cough doesnt allow;...
so.. had a pork one instead.

:-)

went for dinner with Datin la.. how should i put it.... she tolerates whenever it is tolerable? haha!! well, dunno how to explain, but.. i can feel it. Anyway, if i were a boy, she will make a good partner i guess... haha!!! owh, i always wonder what kind of husband she'll get...or choose... haha!! ignore me, i'm just dreaming.. :-) hehe...


this is my condition now..... i dunno why... maybe because of my flu.. Mmm....

and i seriously feel like doing this....


Ignore it.. cuz i wouldnt sleep like him/her above.... with my human suit. LOL!
i just feel like sleeping like nobody's business. haha!

I feel saturated today....
starting with AMT, stupid dunno who banging upstairs, can't really hear what Dr. Gab said.. tht's really frustrating.

then, DnC... the pace of the class got my nerves on....... Argh....
after class, library time.. saturated!! cuz the library was fucking full of ppl... and it's suffocating.!! yeah, ever since UCSI has been upgraded to Uni, the numbers of students are booming~!

they had cabins (contenna) as classroooms, and... super small library for overflowing number of students. yeah, I'm being sarcastic here.

and.. i kinda miss the old quiet, comfortable library.....
now, the library MACAM PASAR!!! worse than aunty bargaining! aiks.....


AL cheered me up.... again. she thought i was still quarantining myself...
haha... no more d... but i will consider quarantining myself again this weekend?? haha!!

no la, most probably not.. but i will still try to avoid public places, cuz..... THIS COMMON COLD VIRUS is vERY VERY contagious...

see my class condition, Mmm..... then u'll understand why.....


wookie la.... i'm seriously sleepy yet i'm determined to finish up my Endocrine... as this Thursday is the tutorial.:-)


2mr lab, wish me luck.



Oyazumi masai... Mata!


P.S : I miss you...every single day.. and seeing u on screen makes me happy.. cuz it makes me feel tht u're there.... eventhough there are no conversations. :-)

between LOVE and PARENTS..... What says you?

these 2 phrase has nothing to do with the title today, just merely what i feel like writing to express my feeling. :-)

HeartFelt moment....
I miss you much.....
so much tht you could ever imagine.

one week's a mess,
Two week...it's a disaster.
I can't imagine if it goes up to three..
not to imagine if it is four.

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yeap.. enough of it...

i seriously need opinion on this...

between family (parents) and Love... and you are only entitled to choose ONE of it.. what would you choose???

condition : his/her parents have a negative thoughts on your parents... and ask you choose btween FAMILY or YOU.

it's like asking who you will save if your GF and mum fell into the sea....


I could feel the pain,
I could feel the sorrow...
me?
of course, it's not even within my power to do anything.

I wonder..... Parents in this century still force their children to choose btween 2 most important component in their children's life..

Parents,.... you are respected.. but dun be cruel on your loved ones, especially your children. Imagine if your child chose LOVE? abandoned PARENTS for the rest of their life...
what would YOU,as PARENTS feel?

IF your child choose YOU but abandon his/her LOVED ONES... do you think ur child will still be happy and respect you for the rest of his life?
and YOU as their PARENTS.. can you afford to see your CHILD suffer, live in SADNESS for the rest of his/her life?


I feel so sorry for both of them........


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oooh...... duno why Dellynn has no appetite again.......



Dellynn took the ORDER to REST MORE today. :-) yeah, she still study.. but this time, it's AT HOME instead of LIBRARY! :-)


ok, time to continue...
just tht i cant resist myself to blog about the CHOICE BTWEEN FAMILY AND LOVE.

WHAT will you CHOOSE if your parents force you to choosE????

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Mi estralla, la falte.....

P.S : I miss you.

Half bedridden… ^-^

 

What a weekend without contactSsSs!!

I reduce my contact with my parents. Yeah, I think we only meet for 20mins… (I think so)..

Cuz when I wake up and went to the toilet, we sort of like meet each other's face.

Or my dad will knock my door and ask "are you ok d ar""

Mind me, I was being a freak.. not a freak la, cuz I only open a slight cm and tell them I'm ok.

 

I did this to protect them. I dun want anything to happen to them la.. tht's why I have to be this way.

This is the only weekend tht I spend my time in my house. it's like…90% I spent it in my room. Tht's why I am like a bedridden patient.

 

But now, after another nap.. (nap? I slept from 4 to 6pm!) I am better. I think I can be able to feel hungry d.

Yet, I will still reduce my contact with others for this coming week….

 

I really broke my record… for not going out at all during weekends.. ha ha ha…

Not funny at all…. LOL J. Erm. This is actually my first time, staying 48hrs in my room. Eeeeky wei….

 

Tonight, it's time to go back to my birdnest again. Guess I'll consider what DeEr said la… she asked me not to go to the Uni and spread virus.. but but..I wil be wearing facemask the whole week.. hehe… not tot worry, I always knw what I am doing. J

Plus, I cannot really afford to skip one day class, especially when 2mr's class is from 8am to 5pm.

 

I am going back early today, as I have to drive back alone.

 

I still owe DeEr something tht I'm supposed to give LATEST by this week. But….. I have to self quarantine to protect myself and others.

I hope she doesn't mind cuz I can only meet her after this week. Yeap, I seriously forbid myself to meet anyone this week.. and I tell you, it doesn't feel good.

 

Anyway, this is first and last weekend
tht I'm going to self quarantine myself! Next week, no matter what day I'm coming back, I'm going to meet those I'm supposed to meet!

 

IT's good aint it? To speak out what's on your mind at the particular time?? J yeah, it's definitely a good one, to be true to yourself.

 

P.S :
5.3.0…ne. Lots too.

 

P.S.S :
I'm hungry now…. After 2 days…… ^_^

Felt like a Bedridden patient..

 

Bedridden…..

Spent my 2 says at home in my bed.. cuz I was too weak to wake up.. too weak to eat, to weak to walk…

Basically, I just sleep when my medication has taken it's effect…

It's been 2 days since I've eaten anything…yet I dun feel hungry.

I lock myself up in the room, as a quarantine.. so tht my virus wont spread to others.

 

Yet, precautions has to be taken.

 

The only media with me now is my phone, and my Girlfren… blogging now cuz I feel better compared to yesterday.

 

Gosh, this is an experience tht I mind having it the second time. First time is more than enough!!!

 

My thick plegm is still bothering me, my stuffy nose is still obstructing my airway..

I think I am better…. Just has bread and I feel full. Mmm…. Worse than hospitalization. GOSH!

 

Anyway, I'm still staying positive, keep replenishing water that lost from evaporation from my body, especially my mouth.

 

Woke up, sleep again, woke up, and the sleep again…

 

Well, at least I feel better now… as the negative test result got me relief..

AL tried to cheer me up with text msgs.. Ju asking my condition time to time.

Just tht, I slept most of the time… even phone calls, i did not answer..

 

Now, I am much better. J

I guess I'll be driving back to Cheras tonight. Tht's why, no more drugs today……

 

Tried to study, but… nothing went in. so ended up sleeping all the time.

 

Thank God, my fever has gone down completely. Tht's the most important. J

 

Okay, I'm tired again….. I shall rest.

 

I am fine!! Thank GOD!! And thanks to all of you!! Thank you Thank You~~

This is what happened to me…

 

Guys, thanks a lot for ur concerns in Facebook and telephone calls. I am glad and I feel sorry to keep letting u guys asking why…..

 

I suspected myself having H1N1.. cuz I was having all the symptoms which a H1N1 patient should have…

2 days of fever, chest discomfort… cough, sore throat, flu…

Then today, I can't resist myself to ask my dad to send me to the hospital for a blood test..

I waited there from 7pm till 9pm..
for all the procedures to be done….

Registered, diagnose injection and blood test…

Then, the medical officer said tht the blood test result will be out 3 hours later.. which means, 12am.

Can u imagine how freaking worried I am???

Stepping on the edge of Positive and negative.

Kavitha saw my status on facebook probably and asked how's my condition. I told her about it… and probably she told Ju
too.

So, Ju sent me msg and ask how am I feeling…. Well, I was going to the hospital tht time, so I msged her and tell her.. she told me tht everyone prays that everything will be fine.. and ask me to update her.

So I told her tht I'll update her on my condition.

I told Yan tht I'm going tp admit myself if my condition worsen.. she was worried about me.. and as usual, she never fails to calm me down… J I was so scared and I dunno who to talk to.. then I decided to tell her.. so, like I said, she never fails to calm me down. And I am glad tht she is in her recovering process from a failed relationship. I love and care for her much, as much as she cares and loves me.

Updated on Shereen too… yeah… I dun want her to worry for nothing also…. Cuz when we were on our way back, I was having fever…..

 

Thanks to Julene who is willing to sacrifice her meeting and her sleep. She waited till 12am and msg me whether I've got the result d…( I just came out from the consultation room when she msg me). and she volunteers to work this Sunday despite of a meeting tht she has. No doubt, my health is more important.. yes, Julene, thank you so much!!
I think tht's how u earn your loyalty from me. J Love you lots!!!!

 

Thanks to my friends on FAcebook… Lucy, Ram, ItS, JR,JenWin,Angie, YL, IL,Sarania, Cheang, Rienda and etc etc for their concerns…..

Guys, I'm okay now,.. Brian!! I'm okay!!! U big baby Brother!!! Hah! Seafood sure on!!!

I am sorry to make my parents worried… and I've made all around me worry….

But now, guys… I am fine… no more worries.. I will still quarantine myself for 2 days at home… without going anywhere… maybe if u wanna talk to me, we can talk on the phone… J haha!!

AL,
I'm okay now. Dun worry about ur big sis d.. J

 

For now, I am sleepy d, cuz the medication has take it's effect on me.

I guess I better sleep now, and wake up 2mr.. study under quarantine…

 

It's another day to wonder… IF today was your last day? 2mr was too late.. would you say goodbye to yesterday? Or live each moment as your last??

Seah-le
was right…. Everyone will be worried about my health mid of this year…. Aiks…

 

Please….

Dear God.. I pray that it is a negative result………

Hospitalization is still the last resort for me….

 

Please, make the result negative…..

As the result will out today midnight…. Please……

Hope I’ll be fine….

 

Okay.. good news is my fever gone down.

Bad news is.. my flu still there…

And.. another good news is… my respiratory depression&distress never come back since yesterday.

I suspect myself having common cold….

 

But what got me think tht I might have the POPULAR H1N1 is… yeah, I read the newspaper yesterday, one of the articles about the signs and symptoms of a 20 yr- old girl who passed away a few days ago due to H1N1.. She was having difficulty in breathing…. Fever, cough and flu. She was admitted a week after that, diagnosed as Primary pneumonia cuz she has thick phlegm..

Then a few days later, she was transferred to the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) because she cannot breath and need the help of a breathing device. Of course, her pneumonia got worsen… and she died the next morning.

Then, throat swabs are taken after she died, and she was confirm H1N1..

 

So, that's the story.

I dunno how fast and till what extend can the virus multiply and mutate…tht's why I'm freaking worried..

My fever gone down, and it's not something tht can be proud of.. cuz when the fever comes back, it will come with more serious flu and cough.

Now, I'm having difficulty in passing out my phlegm.. scared of pneumonia.

 

Wore mask to Uni, so tht I'll be responsible to myself and others.

At least it is a protection barrier.

 

If I wake up with fever again 2mr morning, no doubt, I'll be going to the hospital and get myself tested d..

For the time being, I'm fine. Not to worry…. But i'll be wandering around using my facemask.:-)

 

Yeah, the feeling of fear is still there.. cuz I always thought of the worse. My parents agreed to what I think, they will be okay if I've made my choice to send myself to the hospital.

 

So, till now…. PRAY HARD LA!

 

J

 

Another good news, I have my appetite back a little by little…

 

P.S :
I do feel sorry for Tri cuz she is having fever and coughing… after I had it yesterday… and I feel sorry for Sher too.. cuz she was having a pre-runny nose symptom when we were discussing about the Non-Rx in the library. Thank God Sher recovered…. Left Tri… I hope she'll get well soon.