great?

Life is great??

 

I had a great weekend. From Friday night…

Had dinner with my family. Well, it was a great one. =)

Saturday, Spend time with my darlings…

wow, this is the BEST MOMENT ever!!!!

haha!!!! Both of them really got me laughing like hell!!! not only in KTV, and also.. during MEALS! haha!!

 

I’m enjoying my holidays huh? yeah, only a few days before i start everything again. You knw, a second fight? haha!!!

 

Dun really feel like coloring my blog for today…. cuz… I’m tired and i need to wake up an hour earlier just to wake my DArleng up.

 

God asks us to Love everyone… eventhough he/she is not those you like. Well, I’m currently trying hard for it.

Am i selfish?

Am i bias?

Sometimes, when thoughts came to my mind, i just dunno myself anymore.

Maybe i should be grateful and accept everyone with my whole heart. MAybe I should love them like my own child… and treat them like the way i’ll treat my child.

This isn’t easy…

 

Courage hasnt recognise me since i’m back. I dun dare and dun want to step into anywhere that i dun wanna go. YEah, u bet! that’s the places that i dun wanna go.

Weird huh? I dunno what conquered my mind.. I duno what happened… This is so…. Argh… Sometimes, I’ve even hate myself for being this way.

Last Sunday, I fetched DeEr… You knw what went through my mind when i pass there?

“Where can i hide? or can i come back here when everyone left?”

DeLlynn!! what’s wrong with YOU!!!!!!???!?

Yeah, I am happy in a way, Unhappy in a way.

Happy cuz i get to do what i want, i get to do what my heart wants..

Unhappy because I think i’m losing myself and things are getting back to worse. You knw how i feel? I wish tht time could just stop ticking forever.

but it is impossible cuz Life moves on.

I think I am selfish, I am heartless, I am…

I am a lot more negative compared to who i was. DArLeng was right, I’ve became an ALIEN. I am being ALIENized.

Talking things out is not a solution to what i’m feeling and what i’m going through… I just feel that the time hasnt come yet.I mean, the time for me to understand the feeling in me just hasnt come yet.

 

Well, got to go wash up and sleep… cuz I’m going for Dim SUm with my darlings 2mr. Then will be meeting my another bunch of my darlings again!!! Gosh, I miss them already.

I’ve been playing some “FRIEND’s EXPOSE” quiz on FAcebook. It was a really fun game!!! haha!!!

There was a Qs on Sher..

it goes like this….

“If your parents has decided to adopt Shereen Ang as their daughter or son, what will you do?”

what i’ve answered??? haha!! check out her profile then!!! LOL!!!

The belief in me was strengthen by HER. yeah… she is one of my great friends.. haha… my friends are beautiful…. They are really beautiful people.. =) Love them to the bits!!

My sleepy mode has been turned on. it will be enhanced after a warm bath. Well, I’m currently watching JUSTICE BAO. Gosh.. can u imagine? even DArLeng laughed at me…. sigh…. I find it NICE!! okay!!! cuz i love mysterious case and problem solving movie!!!! =) muahahaha!!!!

Gong Sam Gai.. well, Jenwin encouraged me to watch, DarLeng encouraged me to watch… Mmm… Dellynn, all you gotto do is just click, and everything will be fine… muahahahaha!!!

 

Good night.

 

P.S : I am still burried in my thoughts. Save me…. please? God, i need light.

I will find my way, i want a different...

I cant wait for 2mr midnight!!! midnight!!! MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

muahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!

Baby! here i come!!!

Mmm... i need a new ring... a new start...

Should i buy??? Maybe I should go and choose 2mr... haha....need a big bulky one this time.. =) hehe....


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I still cannot accept that my weekend will end in a few week's time....
I wonder whether can someone work for me??
cuz....

I am not ready....

seriously not ready.....
should i give it a try????
should i???

u knw.. till today, it's already Saturday.... i dun even feel like doing the things tht i used to do.. i only wanna spend time watching movie, spending time with my DARLINGS... That's all.

Mmm....


I keep asking myself...
"Dellynn, what's wrong with you???"

haha... for now, we shall leave the answer aside...
cuz i dunno how to answer.... hahaha!!! Just let me be what i wanna be for this moment.


Adam Lambert... i cant wait to hear you 2mr!!!!! muahahaha!!

time to ciao...
blog to pass time...
hope i could wake up for TAman RAkyat.... haha....


Kuen, you will find your way.=)


Let me share something really funny!!!
Sorry cuz i laugh at this, but WATCH IT!!! U WONT REGRET!!! HAVE a GREAT LAUGH!!! =)

I smell air…

A promise is not always a promise. So yeah…

PAdan Muka neh Dellynn!!! LOL!!!

Today…. Contented.

okay, ignore the part of being FFK-ed!! haha!!

I cleaned my whole BirdNest today!! Mm… from top to bottom… and it took me 4 hours to do so??? Well well…..

I was walking like TEMPANG! yeah, dunno what the Freaking Hack happened to my SOLE. the thick skin keeps peeling.. and it hurts.. Mummy said i might be sensitive to some detergent in my Birdnest…

I was like.. “ huh? i din clean for very long d wor…i did not expose to detergent for very long d wor..”

yeah… i was thinking in my heart, what caused my peeling skin…. cannot be dermatitis? cuz it looks like a fungal infection to me, BUT.. it has not spots. so, i rule out the fungal.. Till now, i am still hurting.. i mean my leg.. My SOLE. owh gosh…..

Mmm… thoughts of the GRILLED LAMB made me drool!!!

then HomeMade Steamboat with my buddies next week…

Then outings with them…..

WAH!

I’ve started to accept the fact that they way i handle things and handle people is very much different now.

I dun really EXCITE long for happiness, excitements…. cuz it turns out to be a TURN DOWN always. Erm…. because since GOd knows when, it always happen to me tht… A promise isnt a promise till the last minute… =)

well, I’m used to it looooo…….. haha!!!

 

Today, had a tea time lunch with my Family, and.. my DEAR SHER! we talked like we’ve never met for 10 years. hahaha!! yeah la, we still meet occasionally during Finals… but but… dunno le?

I’m glad that she made through everything and come to this stage. May God bless her with intelligence to answer the PAPERS next week.

Dear, All the best!!!!!! You can do it!!! =)

 

Everything ended, but i’m ready for a second fight in December. I’m polishing my armor now… prepare for another WAR! =)

 

My night will be a great one… I knw. It can be better actually… if i can stop the time at 7pm… when i havent receive the message… haha…

 

la la la… A lot to catch up with my BED!!! hehe…. and SHeePig!!! muahahaha!!!

k la, watching movie with Dad now…

Ojisan slept, and yelled HIGH 5!! yeah, he was talking in his sleep..=_= LOL!

Great day ahead.

The war in between…

i’m sorry….

i’m sorry to put u in this situation.. i dun mean it….

 

the choice is yours…either one you choose, I’m okay.. but make sure no regrets..

I’m pretty sure that no matter what you choose, you wont regret…

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I’ve thought lots just now.. while studying.. putting myself in DeEr’s position. If i were the ME which i was a few years back, i might choose commitments…

but the ME now, i’ll definitely choose relationships, fun and frens. Cuz i came to realize that work is never-ending, commitments are never-ending. Money is very important, but.. how much can you get? again earning money is never ending.

I confess, i admit.. I have monthly income, but i start to feel sick of commitments.. Maybe because i’ve been in it for too long. So, for the Kuen now, Love is still my first choice. what’s more treasure-able compared to bonds? I dunno… I keep searching for the answer. Hoping that one day, within this month, i get the answer and meaning to carry on.

yeah, u can imagine how sick i am. I’m till tht extend that i dun wanna pass by or even touch or even talk about it.

because, i came to realization in all of a sudden tht… Money cannot buy Bonds.. and i kinda regret of missing all my family outings on weekends.

okay, this is the decision i will make.. i mean, for the KUEN tht i am now.

If i am still the old Kuen last year, who is eager for commitments, responsible, and FULLY committed, of course, i will choose commitments.

because commitments are commitments. Its a responsibility.

 

so, For the Kuen NOW, i come to realize again, no matter how committed you are, what you get in the end is just heart breaks and LOST OF FAMILY TRIP and TIME!

thank God my family is very understanding.

BAck to THe Old Kuen Last year, I will reject any outing that will interfere with my SAturday and Sunday’s job. Cuz i thought i was sooooo into it. No doubt, at tht very moment i really enjoyed…

For the KUEN now…

what i value?

• Love
• Bonds
• Happiness
• my heart.. this is the most important. I go against it for many years d.. for once, i wanna listen to my heart. Just for once… i wanna Follow the way my heart leads, follow the sound of my heart.

Yeah, this is my choice If i’m in her shoe.

P.S : it doesnt mean that i am influencing you to make your decision.. I am just analyzing from my point of view.. cuz it reminds me of ME.. for now, i dun wanna miss a chance to love my heart, and make it happy. Cherish my heart, and cheer it up… which i’ve forgotten how to do it for years already.

 

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I dun wanna fake what i dun feel anymore… =) I guess my Finals has given me a great timeframe to think about me, myself and i. At least, I’ve figured out that i am HURT by responsibilities....

To certain ppl, they might think.. “owh, come on, it’s just life’s UPS and DoWNS.. face it!!”

To me : “ yeah, It’s a down period for me, I need a break to make it UP, happy?”

 

I treasure things better… Commitments and Love, it is always a war between them. Seriously… it’s never-ending. I’m taking a break from Commitments, trying to ease the WAr between them in me.

Can you see how wounded my heart is? It’s because of all these…

For this time in my life, i really feel stupid for what i’ve done. Give up on Love for anything else in this world.

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To those who loves Emo, dun waste your life. Life is only once, besides PRAYING HARD for it, ENJOY it. =)

THought of Jenwin.=) I miss his smile…… cuz he used to made me happy with his smile.. and his smile is all i long for when i see him =)haha!!

Be true, be yourself… owh, u can do better than that! =)

 

*Time for Powders, suppositories..etc etc… *

Live as you wish your kids would.

 

Keep moving on..

This is something tht shouldnt happen to me.. It happens to me when DArLeng said I’ve turned into an ALIEN… cuz I made him worry…

Well, sometimes, i just need someone to talk to. tht’s all… so,i messaged him. Anyhow, I’m okay now.

Everything happens for a reason. I always believe in that.

And for whatever that happens, it might be a chance for you to do much better. =)

Fear of Failure is the barrier to success!! =) Well….. I’m facing it.

 

I cannot wait for Friday night and Saturday… haha!! cuz I’m going see everyone that i miss for MONTHS!!!!

Love them !! Love them!!! Love them!!!!!! *hugsss*

 

I shall enjoy… and prepare for myself again…

 

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I dunno what has struck DeEr and DarLEng’s Mind… Louis Vuitton?!!? Hello??? They like LV! sigh….

what’s nice about it??? I love the  design of Multicolore,. tht’s it.The rest…haha! speechless….. =) I will try to lay eyes on LV and see what’s nice…

 

My 2009 curse is coming to an end.. owh, not all knows about this. Yeah…

but i did not treat the curse as a barrier to do what i want. Yet, till now.. I do not feel regret for anything that i’ve done.. Including my studies. =) Cuz whenever i touch onto one thing, I will give my best. =)

For now, I will do my best for 2mr’s paper. =)

 

Thoughts of my darlings keep appearing in my mind… =) They are the best!!!

Time to ease my constipation.

It’s bad…. anyhow, thanks to Senokot from Eliz!!! =)

 

I”m down, but i will not give up.

okay…

everything feels right…

but, i cannot deny that something against what i feel may happen…

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED!

The feeling is like…. something i’ve felt before .. but at the end, it turned out to be a negative effect.

Owh gosh….

Just realized that i’ve made stupid mistakes… which put me on the fence.

Tht’s why…

I’m preparing myself for the additional paper…. sigh…

 

I will not give up.

Never, Never, Never give up. – Winston Churchil. Shared by Yolk to me on Facebook.

Now, all i can do is put my fingers crossed…

Anyhow, at that very moment, i’ve gave in my best. I laid all my worries to HIM before i step into the Hall.. and Told HIM that i will do my best and give out what i have in order to NOT FEEL REGRET.

I seriously leave it to HIM.. seriously.. Because, besides HIM, I dunno who to lay all my worries and feelings on.

HE will decide what i get and what i will get.

YEah, Maybe HE is thinking of another better road for me? or another better outcome for me???

 

I woke up at 430am.. only slept for 2 hours… so, Thanks to the Brand’s Chicken Essence that i’m still wide awake now, =)

Things are just 50 50 now… I’m still struggling to jump over the fence. I’m struggling.. struggling….

If i made it this time, I will dedicate my praise everyday… to YOU. I promise YOU that…

Still, I’ll leave it to YOU.. =)

 

Regards:

Dellynn, with 50 50 emotionless mood.

 

P.S : i still cant wait for Friday night!!! =)

a sign….

see? this will be a short post. Eating notes…

well, let me share this.. i dunno why i get these msg and advice at this moment.. but i knw it means something….

and it means a lot to me.. especially today….

 

I will enjoy and embrace each moment with enthusiasm…..

God, bless me with a strong back instead of a light load…..