After meeting all my angels yesterday night, erm.. today it's kinda no meaning day for me. It's not no meaning, I slept till I'm satisfied, it's what I long for since half a year ago.. haha!! Of course I appreciate it. J just that… It's kinda sad that my sleeping life is limited. J haha!!
This morning, sent DarLeng to work… yeah la, decided to call him Darleng, cuz.. it sounds nice. Hehe…. Aiya, waking up early is not a problem to me d. Now, waking up from a nap is a big problem.. I always woke up late on Saturdays nap. Erm, it makes me late to my class. So… haiz…. Kuen, you are terrible,
Partly because, it's Saturday. Hehe… Like today, my life is around my bed. It's like a dog's nest. Haha!! Bird nest there, dog nest here.. Mmm…. Synonym? Hehe….
Did not date mummy for lunch, because I overslept. Haha!! Nah, cuz I've dated Ju but she forgot, so.. maybe teabreak?:-)
Potato was surprised with my blog about our result being released this week. Well, nothing's big. The previous exams, I wasnt prepared when they were released too. I still remember, I was in Penang once, I was having buffet in GHP once, and another 2, I can barely remember.. Just that I knw, no one ever knows how to get prepare for it.
As for me, whatever result that came out, I know my path. I know what am I going to face. So, it's kinda like NORMAL to me?
And it's a routine. That's why, I sleep whenever I can. J
Talking about burnt pockets, haha!!! That's why I always lunch with mummy?? Cuz… she pays!
Haha!! And I get to eat good food! Wahahah! For the past few days when I have time to lunch with her, I ordered Fish and Chips, chicken chops… etc..etc…
actually I only lunch with her twice la.. thanks to my PACKED timetable. Mmm….
Yeah, DeEr's blog
kept me reading and reading. Dun ask me why la… somehow I feel her existence through her blog. Well, I cant see her, but.. I knw she is out there. The feeling is just like.. seeing the name RAEY HAS JUST SIGNED IN in MSN. Haha!! Happie and… wanted to chat
with him. Liddat lor…. Anyway, like I always said, she can do it!! I know she can!!!
I still remember, the time that my DarLeng made me touched and I tear.. it was during CNY. The gather-around-talk we had among all cousins. HE said :
" Jie, I know that you are stress in studies and this is not an easy road for you, if you need 5 years to graduate, then 5 years la. No rush, take your time. I will always support you. I know you can."
Some may not understand the feeling of mine, it was from my baby brother. My baby Brother told me these… J He is a brilliant guy.. brilliant.
Another Sibling of mine, knows that I have a very hectic life in my bird nest,
She might not remember what she told me, but I remember almost everything she said. There's once, I was really really stressed…kinda like bombed out everything. Of course, every weekend I would go for the food I crave for… and the best thing to hear from her was..
" You tell me what you wanna eat and where you wanna go, I'll try my best to make myself yours."
It might mean nothing to certain people.. but, hearing a cheerful and supportive tone when I'm down it's something that lit my spirit up. It means a lot to me. J
Owh, Thank God. I really thank God for each moment I have with both of them.
Next to go, needless to say, it's my parents. During exams, Mummy is the medium.. I will call her on exam days, normally after exam. Her words, are the most magical thing ever. It keeps me positive all the time and she lit up my spirit to fight and complete everything. Dad, he will message me.. there's one msg, before my exam, I was freaking scare.. I think that was Aseptic Dispensing, dad says :" Kuen(a), good luck in your exam, just try your best, it's more than enough to me"
Erm… I was really touched too. J
I think because of all these, I tend to be a supportive person to those around me
too. I knw, no matter how down a person is, support is the only thing that keep a person's spirit up. besides, I wan the person to go through difficulties with the aid of support and love. Haha!! I think only those who are close to me knows la..
So, this thing from DeEr's blog got me thinking….
"But now, i'm getting better. Rachel spirit is back! =)) and I'm very happy for that! I will not do well in all these i guess? It's just the start and I'm starting to get scared of it. I'm afraid that i couldn't cope with studies. It's not that i do not have faith in me, it's just that, that's just what i feel.... as you know, i do not own a brain like someone else. Do not expect much on me."
……….. well,
No one expect and give stress on you. I know that Degree is not easy, I truly and totally understand that. I just want you to try your best. To try your best is not about having an intelligent mind, it's about not being regret and feel sorry for not doing it good enough. Please do not say that you wont do well if you haven't been doing on it yet, now, switch your mind to believe in Positive energy and positive thinking..
My brain is something like yours.:-) honestly. I still hold back something that I wouldn't dare to tell all of you yet. But those who know, I think they will admire my determination? Haha! somehow, I will tell it someday. Ok,.Back to the issue, well, Dun worry about it, I do not own a brilliant brain too.
No one expects on me.. Friends? Nah, who are they to expect on you? Family? Maybe they will… but no worries, like I said, as long as you try your best, whatever they say, deep in you, you knw that you've done your very best.
You will be scared in the beginning of Sem, but don't worry, things get better as time goes by. This is from my personal experience. Fail in exam or quizzes is something normal. Seriously normal. I bet you will understand all these in later part. J Trust me, there's nothing to be scared and afraid of. You still have me when the whole world turns down on you. And I knw, deep in you, you knw that I wont turn you down.. (and that's why u always bully me cuz u knw I wont fight back.. haha!!)
Your life hasn't begun yet. If you paid attention in my previous blogs, Study is just a preparation for ur future Life. The day you graduate is when your life begins. That's when all the commitments, your career, and your money come. So, this is still the process of moulding who you are going to be in another 4 to 5 years time. Try to enjoy all these to the max if possible, it is hard, I knw.. cuz how can you enjoy sleepless nights, exams, cries during stress, tears of missing home, tears of stress.. who the hell can enjoy? My little secret, take your time to click into a group, have a small study group together, make sure you commit yourself fully in the study group. The most important, study the notes and extra notes. Ask immediately if you don't understand..
Erm, the process of getting a group that clicks needs time. I totally understand that… I would really cheer for you if you've found yours. Just like when I found mine, I was happy.. and appreciative. (Yeah,Josh and Sher, if you're reading.. I really appreciate the bond between us. J)
So DeEr, study is nothing to be afraid of, aint it? BE strong, be brave, be determined. Never Give up. J
I guess it's a long blog huh? Okay la, a bit hungry d… will go downstairs and KOREK things to eat…. Like I said, burnt pockets, the only solution is to KOREK or CREATE food at home. Hahahaha!!
P.S :
Belief, Believe, Strong and Determined.
"Everyday is a start of something beautiful.... something real."
From Matt Nathanson, (ALL WE ARE ) lyrics. J he is my recent artist and songs crush. J
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