kuen's crisis... in pieces.

Erm...

as usual, my routine of writing blog... which is to read, and write.

so, i've read the blogs i hv to read.

First of all,

i know tht there are ppl who can only study with the mp3 on. i know la, long long time ago.
cuz i can only study with the radio on and off. if on for too long, i'll off it. if off for too long, i'll on it again. :-)

staying together can be under one roof... anyway, it's better than under one room.

it's not up to me to decide anyway. everyone knows what best for themselves.:-)

just like 2mr's "SPECIAL" occasion. (special is not the exact word to describe....)
i'm really afraid when it is DOA basis.
yes, both are right. Plz Pray for me (DOA) cuz it'll be Dead or ALIVE (DOA)

it's important for me. that's why the pressing of STRESS is so strong in me now... and i dont feel like working tonite too. but no choice. i hv to.

Again, i've asked bro to accompany me 2mr... safer with him? i dunno...
i dont dare to think about it.
i dont even wanna talk about it.
haiz.........cuz stupid tears filled my eyes when i think about it.



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Sometimes, The song "Life is a Rollercoaster" kept ringing in my head when i'm facing any prob. yep, it starts ringing in my mind again though i'm listening to other songs now.

"Life is a rollercoaster just gotta ride it....i need you......"
sing the rest urself la... :0

By hook or crook, there are things that i cannot escape from even though i say " NO!" or "DOnt want" to it.
i guess, that's when we learn to learn.
For me, "NO!" and "dOnt WANT!" are one of the famous words to me. why? i am stubborn, yes i am.
That's why i am always in regret for saying something out without thinking.
i dont like the feeling of guilty. but sometimes, i cant help myself by feeling guilty... cuz i think i always hurt someone by me not noticing it?
i think so...

i'm stupid, yup, DumbOnion suits me well. haha... karma i would say.. maybe because of my attitude who hurt ppl without me myself knowing it, that's why i always get hurt by someone and it will not be noticed by others.?
(may be due to my sensitiveness???)

haha.. KarMA. Karma.
I'll pray more to reduce my sins.

so, i guess. no matter how scared am i, i still hv to face what i am going to face.
I've realized that saying "NO" and "Dont want" is just another stupid way to avoid things that i hv to face, by hook or crook.

D.O.A.

It's a part of growing..

D.O.A.

I still hv to carry on.

D.O.A.

I am still me... though i'm fulled with scars and unhealed wounds.


(sorryifitaffectedyourmoodbutiamnotinthemoodtodaytilltomorrowafternoon
reallysorryifi'vespokenthewrongthingsorwrittenthethingswithoutanalysingd realsituationiamdullandmoodlesstoday)

pray hard.