basically, i've walked through it.

erm.... work morning shift le 2mr.. haiz...

wat to do?

vick still cannot handle....so, basically, 2mr's system will be like when i was working together with pf, and sue. but i'll be working with vick and kav in the morning, afternoon, sue will come in... and me? i'll work till 6pm lo..
happy? erm...
dunno..

it's almost 12am now. and i still wanna do my readings.

yawn....

yup, i am sleepy.

Lots to say, but dunno where to start. well, i guess i'll just leave it..

the panda joke only work once for me le... ha!! sorry to say!


Stupiak Girl found a house, but still dunno whether to tk it or not. anyway, i agree her to tk it, why? Time is precious to me. i rather "buy" time.. cuz with "time", i get to rest more, i get to study more. :-)

the most important, i dont need to wake up so early in the morning... suffering man, to wake up at 6am everyday!!!!!

oh ya, plz do stay alone if any of u wanna stay outside for study purposes. and... no same room with guy, even he is ur hubby, honey, dear, deer, baby, watever peachie peachie... nope! It's not that i'm not open minded, but hello, a girl, must have wat a girl should have.
get what i mean>??

Dont make urself look like a sayur masin instead of a fresh vege. (erm, my synonym not very good ar... sorry)

i know stupiak girl is scared to live alone. but, mind me, it's time to grow and be independent a bit.


Sharing is not a good idea. nope, it's not. u can ask anyone who graduated from studies, even my lady boss, wenn iyng.. see what they say...

friends (or someone that u claim u knw) can be trusted, but till certain extend only.
anyway, u only know a person by it's surface...
who knows your things get disappear and it wont be at the LOST AND FOUND counter forever?
i'm scared when i thought of it...

so, eventhough i'll miss my family very much, or i'm scared of dark, or i'm scared of being lonely, i wont risk myself to stay with others. (that's me)

I still remember clearly, the first nite i sleep in my new room. It was so empty, and i feel empty. i feel that there is something in me had lost...
what is that? yes, the laughter of my family, my dad's temper(though i hate it), mum's mumbling(i'm still ok with the mumbling), Bro's stupid voice, another bro's singing.

i really felt empty.

i still remember, i couldnt sleep for the first nite, i was missing them.
at the moment, i received lots of greetings from my friends, Julene, KAvitha, sue...
i still remember it clearly. cuz i never felt so lonely before.
night was so long, even one second, it feels like forever.
i know, i should not stay awake for the whole night. i try to read some mantra to calm myself down so that i can sleep.

i tried hard....
the room smells new.


so, i really felt lonely that night.


anyway, after a few days, i get used to it. and i realized that in this environment, i can study well.
but badly, i hv to do everything on my own.
cooking...(which i suck in),
eating...(i hated it, but still ok)
studying...(love it! no interruption!)
sleeping...(well... got used to it, it'll be better if patrick was with me, but Mr.Sheepig will be the new member of my sleep-mate!! )

basically, everything...

being visited is the most astonishing moment to me..
haha!
but during my first sem, i hate it, cuz every wed, i cant go to the nite mart as i hv to prepare the lab for the next day and to write reports.

2nd sem?
better...
2nd time to the nite mart was with my dear stupiak girl? yup.. her.

so, eventually, i get use to the life there.

and believe it or not, time flies fast! cuz every monday, u're waiting for Friday to be back to klang. and u cant feel that the time is long as u're busy from monday to friday.

it's like RUSH HOUR.

no time to do other things.

but, the best survivor is not how strong u are, it's how u adapt to the change of ur environment, so that you wont be at the extreme site of a normal graph... :-)

For me, i grew.
i appreciate family and friends more.

and thanks to staying outside. i get more benefits compared to negative things. haha... u hv to learn how to survive outside ur sweet home.
and you hv to be a pro in it... in order to survive in the society when you step out.

that's what i've learnt throughout the year i was staying outside. :-)





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money wise? i dont really mind, I am not loaded, i am not poor anyway. as long as i am benefited from the pain i am going, so, what for give a damn of living alone outside ?
It's part of life.


i took a long time to learn it also.. ha!!!

k la, stop here.

oh ya, one quote which is meaningful....
it gives me courage and confidence to carry on what i am going to face.


" You can't leave a footprint that lasts if you're walking on tiptoe"

this quote apply to every single thing in your life.

so, think and change.

be a better person.