after so long, she calls....

i realized.....

i am the lucky one.

my "ai ya"little sister msg me, she has problem which she did not tell others. i know, when she approach me, means it's quite a big prob to her. so.. what to do? my dear little "ai ya" sister..though we dont really contact each other much... but i still treat her as my little sister.

her attitude is 80% like me. why? she's that kind of introvert, but worse than me. She cares for ppl that she loves a lot, and expect return from them..(i was like that too.. but i've changed after all the turndowns i had)
She's quite lonely, longing for someone to know completely about her, longing for someone to care about her, longing for someone to love her... fully.
She hopes someone will be there when she needs it, she hopes she will be the one to leaned by the one she loves when they hv problems...

sadly, she forgot that the person she loves has feelings too.

the problem is :

she has a best fren(she claims), which she knew when she was having a badminton competition. A girl, who stays in Selayang.
3 years older than her.
(when she told me this part, i thought of someone....ha! rang any bells?)

The first msg she sent me was :
Dear sis, i'm losing my direction... I feel that my gap with my dear fren is getting bigger. no quarrels, no fight... I'm very sad.. what should i do..?

of course, i replied her with the usual routine. Me? always been the philosopher. told her quite many things.. ha!
she asked me to chat on msn, yes i did.

Summary...
The girl, 3 years older than her. my dear sis admire her...(she admitted).. and she feels happy when she's with her.
The girl, upper six, had some problems with the exam papers. so, my dear sis was worried about her, she msged the girl... no reply.
she called her... the girl did not answer.

few moments later. my dear sis msg her again, asking her how's she..?
she said :" felt better after talking to someone...if i tell u, u a bit a bit merajuk d...i'm ok d..dont worry."
my dear sis is quite sensitive, so she was very unhappy cuz the girl told her prob with somebody else instead of her.
sis was quite jealous..(as she admires her)

the girl told her:" if i tell you, u cant solve my problem oso, so nvm... now i'm ok d. thanks."

so, sis was very sad....

sis told me, other case. got once, she was in KL for training. back on 29may. she told the girl as well...
but on 30th may, the girl msged... " when u come back??"
sis replied :" I'm back d... and i hate ppl who do not pay attention on what i said."

the girl said :" so, u wanna merajuk again?"
sis:" suan la, fine then.i just wanna tell u what i dont like"

i told sis that the way she msged her was wrong,
cuz there's other way to tell and show someone the things you like and dont like.

and i gave her some examples i used to show someone the tings i like and dont like.
told her that u hv to learn the things that someone likes through daily life, not through sms...and not through the direct way.
like me, i learn about the things that my fren loves and dislike through daily life and conversations. Of course, i told her, u cant expect the girl to tell u the things she likes and dislike in a page of sms????

that's not the way...

haiz...

i saw my past attitude in her, but she's worse than me..


but thank god, she knows she's wrong..

there are other things happened btw them.

and i think, my dear sis is sort of like forcing the situation.

She msg her best fren :" I'm sorry for the things i've said... and the things i've done.."
The girl:" it's ok...."
Sis:" erm... but can you tell me what hv i done wrong.....??"

Gosh.. i was like "doink"..... huh?

that's why, i told sis that this is not the way again.
she said she feels very tired of their relationship.
i told her... "hv u ever thought that you are indirectly forcing her too and make her feel tired too?"

sis said.." ......ya...."

i told her to give some space...

she tried... she said she tried ignoring her msg.. but the girl said:" if you dont wanna reply, this will be our last msg.."
my sis was very heartbroken. as usual, she replied.

i was like...."doink"!!! what kind of best friend is this???
(i was imagining....if someone msg me this, i'll say bye bye to her)

I told her honestly, the fate btween them has faded. it's either one of them step back a bit... give some space...or..... yup. that's the one u think.

sis told me, she feels like giving up their relationship. She said :" i never really thought of "give up" this word before, but she made me feel tired. i think she wants to give up also..."

i said: " in this case, giving up may be a good thing.....or u can try to freeze a while, give both of u a space to think, best frens doesnt mean zero distant....she is not yours and you cant force her to be yours, and u cant make her yours completely...give some time."

Sis said:" i'll think of what u said.... thanks, my dear sis... i felt more comfortable and relieved after talking to you. i really appreciate it much..."

i told her :" u hv to learn to open up ur heart... but not in the way that u've done. there's other way, (and i told her the way i used), i'm still learning too. of course, there will be lots of turndowns while you are trying to do it,tk it as experience to learn and grow... but dont give up. when you've found someone compatible, you'll realize that all the turndowns are not wasted."

i think i am a good example... cuz i've figured out a way to be close, but not zero distant.. and happiness is there... and at least, with this way, i see things through and i wont feel so suffocated like i do before i changed.

i admit, there's one stage, where i was down because of jealousy? i guess... ha! but i've accepted it now... and i am happier than ever!
cuz i've break myself through the stage.

haha!!! it's weired. i try to think and dive into her situation as someone who has a best fren who is 3 years older.... who i thought of? the stupiak girl.... but i know i cant compare us with her. why? we(us) are too far to be compared... i guess i know her quite well? but my dear sis... i try to compare her with the stupiak girl..
the similarity..

it's true that they cant really help in the case of studies. so, as the 3 years older gang.. i dont really tell things about my studies... why? cuz i think we have more endless topics le.... but one good thing, i get to share my experience with the stupiak girl la... which made me like a mother.

but in my sis's case, the fren. i dont think she knew my sis well.. not more than i do, i guess. plus, my sis, she uses the wrong way to approach a person like her best fren.
so, it's a lose-lose situation d...
i guess, both of them need to be more mature la.

my sis is mature, yes. she is... at her age.
but experience is the gap exist between them. and too bad, their thinkings are not alike.

not like me and the stupiak girl...
haiz...
dunno why she always copy me..
even "one Mcflurry" we ordered it unitedly, one voice. darn.

but when i know about what my sis is going through, i am glad that i can really cope with the stupiak girl, though she is 3 years younger than me.

surprisingly, i know what is she thinking most of the time... (proud! duh!!! dishhhh!). but i think she is sometimes not sure of what am i thinking, but i just wanna tell her. be sure, what you are thinking now is what i am thinking now.

stupid right?

i dunno why can be liddat.

never met any homosapien like stupiak girl before.
malangnya.... cuz whatever bad plans she has or i might be having.... haha! "boom!" cant hide it from one another! hehe...


ok, end of the proud story now.

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bout the wedding luncheon. i was bored to death. food was.... ok ok... but not very good. haiz... the luncheon started at 2.20 pm!!!!!! i was already there at 1pm sharp!!

i feel like a stupid donkey that time.

but once it ends, i went back immediately, as i was very lazy.... very very lazy...

i feel like lazing around whole day...without going anywhere actually...
but i cant ffk this time.
haiz....


i just came back from aunty's house for my cousin's bday celebration. and guess what? tey celebrated together with my father too... haha!!
i rached home arond 11.30pm...
ate nasi minyak there... haha! lots of nice food!! and sushi!!! my aunty made sushi!!!!!

nice nice!!!
spent time chatting and playing with my cousins... really feel that i've not been playing with them quite a long time.

know why?

i started not to play with them when i was standard 4. my thinking was quite mature... and i always follow my cousin sister who is 6 years older than me. she loves me... always bring me to places i've never been..... and give me things she can aford.

yup...

i guess that's why my thinking is more mature compared to others......besides having all the turndowns which made me feel like dying.

anyway, what's passed is a past.
let's carry on life.



k la....

gtg have some rest.....


chiao
!!!


annyiong....