love u.....

I went back to Cheras to get my assignment paper today.. guess who i went with? no one else but HER@!!!! see! HER again! yup, my everyday life.. she's a necessity now.. to me. Well, i can say, a necessity when i'm back in town!! YEAH@!

Went with her after she finished working in Life Care. hehe.. of course, we went there for lunch. We went to FRee and Ezy.. which is nearby my Uni. ha! i've guessed it right! she liked that place.. cuz i like it too.. just that i don't hv time to go there every afternoon for lunch. know why? my timetable, very pact.. u cant imagine it. haha!@

Anyway, the restaurant, it is very special. hehe.. i really like the feeling of the restaurant. I dunno why i thought of bringing her there, maybe.... i wanna share the good place with someone.. i guess. I was introduced to that place by Wenn Iyng. Thanks to her anyway! haha

I hv a lot of things to write, feelings are coming into me now.. of course, it's a happy one. I've been happy these few days. She's one of the reasons, know what, it's really happy to go out with her, where u dont need to think too much.. U can talk, u can laugh, u can scold someone stupiak, u can poke someone's nose.. fun though!and at least the feelings are so real, so true, no hiding, nothing.. Just love talking and chatting with her. Dunno why, maybe she's as weired as me too gua...??!!?? (based on the phobia i'm having, she's having it too! Gosh, i cant believe it! I've found someone similar..which is a weirdo!)


Had a great time.. with her. Talked many things lar, though she cant really give any advises, but i am truly satisfied if someone is there to listen. It's a big step for me to say something about myself.. maybe others cant feel it, they just treat it as normal chat, but for me, it's a big step to me. It takes a lot of courage for me to do that. I'm sorry if it sounded 'kacang puteh', but i dont really used to talk to ppl like i talk to her.. hehe.. Little secret here : She is the one.. after so many years.

Oh ya, we're talking bout bisexuality. She claimed that she's a bi. well, cant deny it, mee too. why? i think most girls are bi. It depends whether they wanna 'come out' or not. The process of coming out will decide whether a person will be gay or bi. That's what i agree after watching The L WORD, my fav drama series.

Well, Kids shouldnt know about the L WORD... haha! wait till u watch the short trailer in You Tube, u'll know what am i saying.. haha!

shit... forgot to bring the series bck from Cheras. but nvm, i've completed season 1,2,and 3. watching seeason 4 now.hehe.. anyway, what's wrong with bi?? spare me! nothing's wrong!:-)
I go with the flow.. there's one sentence from the movie.. it sounded:' what's wrong being with a girl rather to be with a man when the difference is only the sex? and the joy u get from a girl is more brilliant than being with a man?"

I think it is true. Though nature born us to be a female or a male, and we conceive through sex between male and female. well, for me, whoever that makes u happy and loves u and wanted to tk care of u for the rest of ur life and ready to bear the consequences.. well, nothing's wrong.


but still, i still believe homosexuality wont last.. we'll see when Elthon John break up with his partner then. hehe... bad girl kuen..
From the parent's point of view.. yeah, no one wants their children to be gay. rite? unless u're really open.

Let me make my stand here, and i dunno whether will i change my mind after i get married or not.. and who knows whether i get married with a girl?(which is totally impossible to me now!). Well, If my children come back and tell me :' mummy,I'm les/gay.. and i really love the girl/boy very much.." My reaction? I guess i'll treat it calmly as i wont object their life. know why? they are responsible for their own happiness.. while parents can only give support, no matter financially or morally.
that's what i think.

:-)

Met Fiona after sending Rae to Skin Food. happy to meet her! 3 of us really had a thorough chat.. which i missed it so damn much! Love them both!! muacks!!!( hope it wont be rejected again...wahahaha!@!!) yep, i love them. so much.. like my family? well, yes and not really...... like my friends, not really,but more than friends. in between? not really... ha! weired! I dunno.. and i dont wanna categorize my love or how i treat them, i just want us to be attached as long as possible..
hugszzs.....

Fiona told me, she is very thankful to me and say:' when u wanna thank someone that really help u a lot, u cant really find a suitable word or sentence, still, the word 'thank u' is not enough..it's more than thank u.. even thank u also cant express how thankful i am...'

know what i told her? i said:" as long as u live ur life happily, it's worth more than 'thank u..' just show me that u live happily, and i'll be happy.. "
and i told her:' ur salary is now fixed, the stupid incentive system cant be change, so now just focus on the target, dont care whether who do more or do less, as long as u hit the target, get the money, live ur life happily.." my heart was thinking..:' F the Sm.." haha!! but i didnt say it out as it will spoil my repo... haha!

Yeah, it applies to either Fiona or Rae.. as long as they live happily, I'm more than satisfied. I just hope that they'll live their life in the way they want. Problems can be controlled. either u adopt them or disown them.

To Rae: though i'm not sure whether u're reading onot, i just want u to know that u can live happily without him or him in ur life..(just in case u cant see...what i see) know what, u're a free girl alone, and i envy that u can really do what u want with a family who are so damn supportive to u. Whatever ur plan is, or whatever ur future will be, walk through it bravely, hv courage, curb problems with ur genuity. U can be successful.. really. I'm always there for u. I know sometimes i cant really comment on things which u've pre-decide, but i still can give u my point of view.. as a person who has stepped into Uni line.
and whatever probs u hv, just tell me if u feel like telling. I'm always a good listener. If u need a shoulder, I'm there.
happy always.
Love you!


yok mar hor? but that's what i wanna say. I always believe that if u dont express what u feel towards a person, u may not have the chance 2mr.cuz 2mr is always unpredictable.

LOVE!LOVE LOVE! a word that bothers ppl the most... haha. For me, it is just purely love, plus responsibility.
If u love someone, u hv the responsibility to make the other party happy. U hv the responsibility to know more bout the other party. It's all about responsibilities when it comes to love...(maybe in my age, i define love as that..i dunno what's urs..)haha@ different stage and different kind of ppl has different understanding about LOVE. Whatever it may be, make sure responsibility is there.

I'm dull in my blogspot blog. I know. I suck. and i wrote a lot. THAT"S WHY I CREATED MY BLOG IN BLOGSPOT!!!! which i write my true feelings in it, and i dont need to hide everything as i believe, there are no readers for my blog. tht's why i blah everything out here.. my feelings, my everything.
my feelings are naked when i write here. i dont need to cover up myself...
and i love the feeling after writing it out..

see, the advantage of no readers...

LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE

I always love the way i love. i show different ways of love to different ppl... as long as i know i love them.

Muacks.... a kiss for (u) and me.
I've been through a great day...
it's time to pack my luggage... which i dont want to...