me? DEVIL??

sweat... muka tembok betul that girl... haha... menyesal aku tulis dekat situ... nevermind, i will revenge... hehe... wait and see my blog then how will i revenge.. haha!!! that girl, haiz, dunno what to say.. poisoned...

i think i am how she describes me..

'to that girl. sometimes you just refused to accept the truth even though it's real. because you still request for hopes although hopes are not there for you. you will also act like you don't now the truth just to let things go on smoothly. what's done is done. people always say..."

sometimes, the DEVIL, which is me, obviously... refuse to accept the truth.. cuz the DEVIL is hoping for some hope which is not there... hehe.. yeah, kinda sounds like me, eh? it's good to hv hope... even though it's not there. I guess that's the definition of HOPE, right? things that are not there and u really love to get it... if that's not HOPE, what's that then??? haha.... maybe u can call it a lil positive thinking..
DEVIL in disguise... Gosh, she's so poisoned...

My PTPTN loan finally approved, yes, i've got the money... which i gave it to my parents to buy their stuff for CNY.. they're kinda broke, i would say, thaks to the natural disaster that make my car porch ceiling collapse, n thank for the 'good' quality of the paint they used to paint our house... haha!! thank god i hv some 'K's inside my account.. if not, i will be eating grass for the whole CNY.. haha!! (not that bad actually..hehe...)
but things will get better soon...

i just hate my brothers for not considerating my parents condition... that's why i suggest(actually scold them...shameful thing i did in Giant that day...but i really couldnt stand them for searching only branded stuff) I suggest them to buy their own clothes, and pay for themselves, where i shop with my mum and she pays for me.. hehe... no lar, normally i only shop with my mum, my mum loves to shop with me cuz i'll give my opinion on clothes to her.. haha... anyway, i get to 'hasut' my brother to buy a pair of shoes for me, well, cool man!!! we'll be going on the 1st of Feb together... hehe... DEVIL ar?? who cares, that's me... as long as i get my shoes... hehe...

I'm not done shopping yet... at least need to get some outfit which suits mt diamond necklace... haha@!! (gosh, i'm just showing off, i'm not going to wear it though!!!)hehe..

I'm having exam 2mr... anyway, things get better now, i'm still stressed, but not as stressed as the 1st sem, which is a good news for me. (my weight stil lost, gradually, not like last sem, drastically...) haha!! dunno whether it's a good news for me onot... yeah, my mum's damn happy.. that's why she's willing to pay all my CNY expenses... hehe.. but i'm still a good girl, i'll shop again after all mt exams, which will be 1st of feb.. keke...

I'm planning on something, well, dunno whether it works onot... anyway, i hope it works lar...
time is a factor for me.. It's like acting in the movie Rush Hour, but featuring Kuen and the crew.. haha!

Time really flies, it's half of 2nd sem gone... well, i cant wait for the trip this April, but sadly.... The poisoned girl may not be able to go with me... sad.... anyway, i still wish her the best in her coming studies... though sometimes her plans are quite naive if u see it as an outsider...(means u pulled urself out from the situation, see the problem as one of the working community..) For me, i believe that everyone has their needs, if that's what she wanted, i'll support her, just that she has to amke sure she wont regret during her older days.. anyway, she's just a kid, right?? haha!
whatever it may be, life has to be lived also, happy, sad, regret... it's ur life. U conquer, U change, U live, and it must lead u to satisfaction. That's what i see in life...
I just wanna make some changes in my life, i dont want my life to be likfe my parents, not that they do not provide me with what i want, just that i wanna improve, and of course, i want to give them a better life in the future, enough for all those worries for me, it's time for me to give them what i hv.. That's what i wanted to do.. n i HOPE i'll be success...

enough for all grandmother stories, it's a long blog though... that's my style, i love writing, hehe... so u can expect 'articles' in my lappy... which i'll write and compile whenever i feel like writing.. Anyway, it's for my own 'documentation', and a material to laugh on in the future when i open back my 'documents'... trust me, u'll get more mature by looking at how immature u were... haha!

that's all for today.. i'm hungry now.... hehe...