i call it a day.

I'm better...
I'm no better.

Better in the sense that i made use of today's free time to really study.
No better cuz I'm still stucked in Cheras, and still feel tensed.

What is this?
Mmm...

Mummy called me, and i knw that how bad she wants me to go back eventhough she doesnt sound like it.

I'm having quiz next week d. I've submitted my first draft of Cancer Chemo assignment. Tonight, I'll complete Pharmacognosy assignment.

Yesterday was disastrous to me. Everything came at the same time. Reports, works, assignments, stupid Aztech, and Prof Noran.
dun wanna remind myself about that anymore.

2mr's class starts from 845am to 11 plus am. I'm free the whole day after that. hehe... I guess I'm going to spend some quality time at home... with mummy.
hey Sissy, Comfirm me whether DaoRae on onot!!! =)


I've came across a lot of herbs.. yeah, i have 32 types of herbs to remember.. for next week's Herb's Identification test. CRAZY!
For now, I'm only half way through! still got half more to memo!! sigh... anyway, HAve anyone ever wonder why is it easier to memorize bacteria's name rather than herbs name? haha!! I dunno why, I myself love bacteria's name more than herb's name. =) LOL!

My day was spent thoroughly. I went to class, memo herbs, studied. and I have prepared qs to ask Missy Lysia Loong 2mr, =) so, i guess I'll still study tonight. As usual, normal less than 5 hours sleep, starvation, panda eyes, back ache... on a supposed-to-be-a-wonderful- Friday.

now, I'm filling up my stomach with Chipsmore, and start working.

knw what>? i cant wait for March to come..=)

P.S: u knw why...


10th Feb!! faster come!!!!

Hey, I'm pissed okay.
I wanna cry d...

feel so tensed... :'(

i just wanna burst out.....

Unproductive day.. pathetic me.

This is something cool!! this test!! For those who knows how to read chinese, drop by this  blog. Click on the word “BLOG”. and do the test!!! I find it accurate. =)

For those who dunno chinese, ask ur Chinese speaking fren to translate for u. =)

what am i??

My result is..

莎莎女
性格：成熟干练的领导者
接受和传递讯息皆由左脑执行、属于[莎莎]型的你，是女人中最有男人气概的类型。凡事都能条理分明地说出一篇大道理，让对手哑口无言。见到你迅速打败对手的英姿，周围的人甚至会肃然起敬。另一方面，身为女性的你绝不宽贷，更加深别人的敬畏心，还称呼你为“钢铁之女”……
自尊心强，正义感也比常人多一倍，再加上辩才无碍、所向无敌，所以一旦成为自己的人，即是最值得依赖的对象；而若成为敌人，则是最棘手的类型。为人一本正经，又不会讨人欢心，偶尔还有点神经质，对人又冷淡，很容易让初次见面的人感觉“难以相处”。不过，[莎莎]女也有处世灵活的一面，若是考虑立场，认为展现女性本色较有利时，就会一百八十度大转变、判若两人，表现出一幅惹人怜爱的样子。
虽然明白在饮酒聚会上得大而化之，别太拘泥小节，但不会与人持续太久没有内容的谈话。由于讨厌冗长乏味的交谈，有时也会惹不住大发议论起来。虽然是女性，但却善于说教和发表议论，并对听不懂自己谈话内容的人很冷淡。凡事追求完美，服装也讲究质量。由于此类型的人容易累积压力，让心情放松这件事也很重要。

工作：架势十足的女丈夫
此类型的人架势十足，深受他人信赖；。总是积极向要得出正确的结论。因为充满干劲和毅力，而成为部门里举足轻重的要角，也是支撑公司的梁柱。具有对于无法认同的事，会诚心诚意地与对方沟通，确实得出结论的男子气概。由于是个完美主义者，办公桌上总是整理的井井有条，连茶水间里的专署茶杯中都不留意丝茶垢。
正因如此，她很在意别人的缺点，常常忍不住提醒对方。一旦与自己意见相左，便故作冷静地写封措辞严厉的信诘难对方，小心做得太过分！在工作上，很重视自我满意度。“影印纸的采购比上个月便宜了10元！”这类没有人会注意的小事，却会让她大感兴奋。
金钱：节约皇后
在金钱方面，[莎莎]女作风稳健，总是按照计划用钱。每个月的支出和收入经常记在脑子里。一旦决定要存钱，便每个月一点一滴地存，就像例行公事一样，很可能不知不觉就存到了上千万元也说不定。只要没有超乎寻常的开销，存款肯定会持续增加。
她时时不忘捡便宜。例如在钱包里藏有各式各样的折价券，只在每周的特卖日才会大采购等等。不过那绝不表示她很小气，只是讨厌无谓的花费。想着如何减少浪费，会让她有种幸福感。
对于抑制很想要得东西会再三考虑，即使是下定决心要买的时候，还会找个“奖励自己”之类的理由，不然便买不下手。

恋爱：满脑子胡思乱想的女王陛下
[莎莎]女凡事总是想太多，以至于裹足不前。明明还没开始交往，脑袋里便满是一堆妄想。比如说，不过是一起吃顿饭，便幻想着蜜月旅行的地点、要生几个孩子之类的事。
要展开追求之前，会向共同的朋友打探对方的身家背景，从外围进攻，写信还会打好几次草稿，对于模拟恋爱战略丝毫不敢大意。
但往往做着做着就累了，意兴阑珊，爱火熄灭。虽然事前做了诸多准备，但出乎意外地，有时为了一点小事她也会立刻放弃。
对于自己主动向对方表白抱持十分谨慎的态度，反而使得她无法招架别人直接的追求。
就算是跟自己喜欢的类型完全相反，也会不知不觉便接受对方。有时最后竟然还会确信“此人即是我的真命天子”。
乍看之下似乎守身如玉，对性事却出乎意料地毫不防备，就算是一夜情，事后也不会留下纠纷，从某种意义上来说，她把欲望当做是在尽义务。
不过，一旦密切交往后，对享乐的要求就会变多，渐渐露出虐待狂的本性。若是找到最佳伴侣，便会死心塌地爱着那个人，反过来说，就是死缠着不放。

okay,smack. My life now is PILED with Lab reports, assignments…

Sigh…..

My CNY break isnt a break.

It’s a break for me to study for quizzes. Sobs…. T_T

I just came back from gym, well.. today’s gym is as wonderful as before. I had fun sweating.. I had fun challenging 50times non-stop sit-up.haha!!!!

I realized that i have lots of piled up notes to study…. I guess that i wont be sleeping more than 5 hours per day d… if not, i cannot complete my studies before CNY break….

Tense huh? Spending CNY with Stress… haha!!!!

This Sunday’s Caroline’s farewell. Personally, I dun feel like going… but when i think about it, for Carol’s sake, I think i will turn up for a while. You knw, I’m busy this Sunday. Work, training… and no time for parents and myself.

I WANNA ROT AT HOME LA……. JOR!

how i wish i can do the “I’ll go straight away if i feel like going”.. =_=

sigh… i guess the rotting plan will not come true d…… cuz indirectly i’ve promised Sissy to go? A promise is a promise…. Anyway, i do hope that mummy will cook on that day.. I’m missing her cookings now….

CAncer Chemotherapy… Pharmacognosy… CAncer Chemotherapy.. Pharmacognosy…. ARGHHH!!!! i just can’t get them out of my head.. piles of assignments and readings to do!!! plus CNS!!! another big thick chunk of notes just arrived… and yeah, i have to study also…. I cannot afford to leave CNS even a day!!!! GOSH!!! what kind of life is this????

This is a hectic Sem for me. ANyway, I knw that God will be with me. =)

 

My sweat almost evaporated.. it’s time to bath. =)

 

What an unproductive day… I’ve spent almost 4 hours in the computer lab just to complete 70% of the Cancer Chemo assignment…. sigh…

 

2mr’s plans for movie also BOCi d la….. got to buckle up and finish my assignment plus LAB REPORTS for next week!!!!

PAthetic huh??

 

Ciao. going off and start to “pupuk” my mood for ASS!

I’m dancing LAtin, Burping HErbs.

I just came back from JIVE class!! Gosh!! i love LATIN!!! LATIN DANCE!!!! hahaha!!!!

I couldnt believe that i had fun!! and i am really really glad that i did not give up at the very last minute.. which i dont plan to!!

Thanks to Datin that she did not give up too!! i think its because of my strong will?? she dun wanna back up? LOL!!!!!

First class was awesome!!! I’ve got my partner… Melissa!!! okay, she’s a girl. our class is dominated by girls, so.. some of us have to learn the guy’s step. I tell u what, Latin is such a wonderful, romantic dance…. it’s fast, it’s energetic!!!

Mmm….. I’m glad that my dancing cells are still working. =) LOL!!!

Yes, My spirit!! If i were to start something, I will make sure that i do my best! i’ll do my best to adapt, I’ll do my best to perform! tht’s me!! If not, i will not start at all!

Dellynn’s spirit lah. hahaha!!!

My partner is from Indonesia, She’s sweet, fast learner. I sort of have “understandings” during dancing with her. so yeah.. =) Chemistry i guess? I think if i were to partner with Datin , it will be the same? hahaha!!!

I love today’s class!! seriously!! never in my life, studying pharmacy, I’ve never had so much fun in attending curricular activities!!!!

Just called mummy, daddy’s back!! I’m glad!!!! I’ve told her about it. She paused a while.. and said :" “good!! good!!! at least u get to learn something…” haha!!

will mummy laugh at my dance?? haha!!!

I’m extremely thrilled today! I wanna share with you how happy am i.

I' had enough of sleep, I’ve had fun…. =)

 

owh, about today’s Chinese Herb’s Identification.. Me and Sher were a group. so we sort of like tasted the herbs, and try to answer the qs based on the description given. Gosh…. I did not perform well… Part A was about the Herbs with the stem i guess.. we only got 3 correct out of 12? LOL!!! the rest.. still okay. =) Well, we’ll have a spelling exercise with another group 2mr. Wrong spelling of the scientific name=ZERO! waliao… cannot main-main….

this is killing…. can u imagine that we cannot call Ginseng as Ginseng? we should call it as Panax notoginseng. RIDICULOUS!

however, i will try my best in my test next week!!! =)

 

Now, I’m extremely hungry and my endorphin and serotonin asked me not to starve. haha!! cuz I’m happy! =)

How was your day???

no matter how it is, end it with a smile. =)

 

Dinner time. toodles! =)

 

P.S : JiVE… JIVE…. should i try Rumba or Rock and Roll?? LOL!!! Next round la… one by one. –=)

p.S.S : It’s raining, my heart is smiling. =)

I call it THE LOVE.

The sound of silence,

it’s beautiful, it’s scenic, It’s warm.

It melts through my soul then i think of you.

Love me a moment,

Love me for a reason,

All i want is you.

My sculpture,

your future.

Your heart,

my wonders.

All i ever wanted is,

to be with you till the end of time.

My soul will never fade,

Your soul will never die.

God as witness,

for better or worse, I love you with all my Life.

In the loving memory of : Mr. M

this is just my attempt. But if anyone of u like it or it portrays how u feel towards your love ones, I dedicate this for you and i'll PRAY to GOd that you'll be forever happy with your loved ones.

God made us all beautiful.

You are beautiful to me. Just like how u made me believe that I am beautiful too.

Dedicate this little Poem and Prayers to my little Pumpkin and her baby, my "hubby".. and THE ONE who sinks in me ( we will never be, but u're the best memory in me)

EMbrace each moment spent. Faith, love, trust ---> keep holding on.

God bless.

It's time for bed at 230am.

P.S : I miss you again....... after so long.

owh, what a day....

My mood today was.. extremely good and goofy this morning... and this afternoon.. and tonight.
why?

basically, I slept HALF THE WAY THROUGH in the cLASS!! i dunno what happened to me, i was really asleep!!!! haiz....

and my plan to gym has been canceled, i came back to sleep.. It's 9.35pm and i just woke up.
gosh.. what a nice 5 hours NAP! and clearly shows that I've over napped!!!!

Owh... Lord, I did not even try my best today... for i was so damn sleepy.

Now, I just woke up. At this time, it's the worse,. I am hungry yet i dun wanna take heavy food. So, I'll just let the time pass and I'll continue my studies.

Life.. Life... Life....

What time am i going to sleep again later?


Sigh......


Anyway, What happened during the weekends really cheered me up. hehe... it still got me smiling the whole day when i thought of it this morning.

Mummy's doing fine.
I'm glad.

I am evil these few days. I bullied my DarLeng on FB. haha!! check out my latest photo album and see what he replied and test what you see!!! if you answered like what DArLeng answered, u're in trouble..... LOL!

DArLeng, I love you and I love bullying you. I'm not sorry yeah!!!! You're always the best.....CANDIDATE for me to BULLY!!!!! muahahahahahaha!!!!!!

I'm having a practical on Chinese Herbs Identification 2mr. Owh Gosh, how would it turned out?? I dunno..
the Herbal Park Trip was a disaster, barely remember any plants....
and 2mr!! PRACTICAL!

This sem is a hectic sem for me. Mmmm...... BE with me, will ya?

I'm JIVING aka JIVE 2mr!!!!LOL!! I cant wait for it!!!!!!!! =)
Rm 60 for 8 classes, 2 months... where can you find something liddat?i mean Latin at this price?

Wait till i update la... hehe..... cuz i cant wait to move my muscle again! =)


This week is a NO LAB week for me. Yet, I have to pre-prepare my lab for next week. I dun wanna carry my lab reports back to Terengganu for CNY... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Talking about reports, I still have my CNS to touch up. Yeah, it's the QnA part in the manual...
CNS huh? aku rasa sangat muak d la....... but... i cannot leave it. sigh.


Yesterday's moon was BEAUTIFUL!!! I can't take my eyes off it while i was driving....=) Mmm... It indicates a good start of February?? =) hope so. ;-p


I think I'm going to munch something to fill up my hungry soul. Bad... this kind of lifestyle is bad... I miss mummy again..... sobs.

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Mmm, some ppl may find me weird or unacceptable cuz the way i express my feelings is different than others. =) My policy is = be honest to my own feelings.
If i'm tired, I'll say I'm tired.
If i'm happy, I'll be a jovial kid!


My soul is a Western mix Asian soul. Somehow open, somehow conservative. No No, I should say, when it comes to Sex, i'm conservative. =) the rest, I can accept just anything. =)

For now, I tend to express myself more than anyone.
Through my blog, through my action, through my thinking, the way i talk, the way i look.

I think i've said this before... "Haptics is my favourite"
God knows how much i love Haptics, It's a way to show how much i love something, how much i care for someone, and how glad to have my loved ones buried in me.
I am me. This is the way i am. You cant change anything??? hahahaha!!!!

Basically, it's a social thing la.... =) I'm surrounded by this kind of great pals since i wan in Form 6. =)

Okay, time to go off.... for CNS's sake... "argh.*


P.S : I am really thankful. =)

P.S.S : We learn together. okay?? BAsically i knw nothing about it.. and i am willing to learn. =)



I LOVE YOUs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Pumpkin. Miss you Pamelo.

Today, i wanna thank GOD for blessing me with such great family!

Yesterday, I went to Pandamaran, for CNY shopping.. not on my clothes of course, but on my house’s stuff.

saw this interesting plant which mummy keep telling me..

                       

It looks like a bird standing in the petal!!

okay, this pic sucks.. i have more pics but i’m lazy to copy and post it. hahaha!!!!

that night, it was fantastic, mummy bought Bah Kua for me. hehe….. and i’m going to eat it when I’m back here only. =)

Today, I went out with DeEr.. thanks to her that she knows how to divide her time… Mmmm….. eventhough she got no time to go out with me, tel u wat, it’s still so far yet so near. hehe…

thanks to her!!She treated me Roti CAnai!! and bought something that i’ve been longing for!!!

                               

                                

ok, she din buy herself for me… LOL! she bought JJ LIN’s new album for me!!! GOD knows how happy i am!!!!!! can u see my smile reflection on the CD? HAHA!

I cannot believe that she bought that for me…. seriously…..

and this is my CNY present!! LOL!!!  hey DeEr, thank you for everything…. Mmm, why is there no words can describe how thankful i am to her???

“ the first decision is always the best choice”

NG EUGENE taught her that!! and she told me that.

okay, my life dun need to be evolve with my work anymore… SOON!!! it’s such a relief for me. I’ve finally have time for my family!!!

eh, i have weak moments too.. okay! hehe….

Because of what she said to me in Secret Recipe, I’ve decided to make a move.

If not, it will be never ending……. =(

 

This is something really great.. and something tells me that its time for me to commit what i should’ve done earlier… which is to get one step closer to GOD. I am not afraid to admit now. =)

I am not influenced by Christianity. I feel it myself. The experience that i have is somehow amazing! seriously… God has never leave me all these while. HE leads me to the way i should be.

Owh,  i told mummy about the quitting thing…. yeah, I’m quitting my job soon. =) for i now value my family and siblings more than anything.

Today’s dinner is special, cuz it’s me and mummy only. I really feel heartbroken when i think of her eating alone everyday till Thursday. yeah, daddy’s outstation. Mmm… anyway, will call mummy and chat with her everyday.

Mummy, u’ve really answered me well when i asked you that question. Thank you for not expecting much from us.I love you a lot!!!! a lot more than you can think!!!

Just settled my cleaning in my BirdNest… will study a while.

I love my Pumpkin and Pamelo!!! Pumpkin, u’re the best thing that had ever existed in my life!! I still wanna say this.. If it wasnt you, i wouldnt move on to what my heart really really wants. yes, you are important to me.. a very very important P-umpkin. LOL! (VIP) =) aku sayang sangat kat you…  *hugs*

PAmelo, are u reading this? Mm… if u are, please at least send a message to me la… hate tht u’re not replying.. and hate that i love you at the same time… hahaha!!! all the best in quizzes!! come back fast!! I wanna shop with you!!!!! =) I miss your stupid, colourless opinions on my dresses!!! hahahaha!!!! I miss your shoulder too…… *hugs*

 

wookie.. time to go off!!! =)

Hectic life resumes…

for now, let me preserve my happiness for a little while more…

I feel you.

 

P.S : good night everyone. God bless! =)