Peaceful mind of mine. =)

                   

I dunno whether she reads my blog. Anyhow, some people reckon tht I’ve changed. okay, this might not be directed to me, but i felt something after she posted it?

knw why? we were talking and commenting about sleep hours.

haiz, I dunno how to explain, go view the conversation if u knw me and have my profile.

For some, I’ve changed to another person, (i’ve changed in the way i talk???)

for some, I’ve moved on and I have different aims in life.

No matter what, i hope my decision will be respected. I wish that i could be respected.. seriously. Sometimes, I dunno what am i to the particular person, believe me, i do feel sad for making such decision. Striked by Mr Ng Eugene’s word, Encouraged by someone very important to me, Supported by lots of current “suffocating” situation. God’s will i suppose? haha!!!

No, i should say.. I love my family more than anything else. Tht is the main reasons i made tht decision. I tried to give myself a chance to get the very first feeling back, I’ve tried, but it doesnt turn out well every week. Every single week, I need to encourage and give myself motivation tht i can do it, i can do it. Most of the time, i dun feel right, and things dun really turn out right.

okay, decisions has been made. I confess, It was such a relief to me. Yes, I feel relaxed and relief. but! it doesnt mean that i dun put my effort in my last days. I am not that type of person. Those who knw me, I will give others my best, and i put myself in the second.

That was the moment, that i realized that i have to think for myself. My heart is breaking slowly. Do you think it’s very easy to leave a place when the place is the source where you found yourself? a place which guide you to the right path? a place which mould you for who you are?

No, it isnt easy at all.

Anyhow, I’m trying my best to love myself more. I’m trying to listen to my inner self.

DeEr is the best in me although she is no Alexander the Great with the spirit of “I come, I see, I conquer”.

DarLeng is always the best knight ever who stands beside me and protects me whenever i am.

lol.. sounds like i’m the Queen! haha!! but i am not. Let me be one of the important ones in their life, I’ll be more than satisfied and happy.

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Just finished my report,=) I’m happy today, cuz my Pumpkin made my day. Pamelo made my day. Both of them made my day!!! haha!!!

I wonder how’s my reaction when i see Pamelo in ONe U 2mr…. I wanna meet both of them 2mr!!! is it possible?!?!?!?

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My heart is in peace. =) even right after what i saw in FB. I knw, this is the road that i must walk.

I believe that even after i leave, our fate is still there. Who knows I’m better off this way? haha!!

 

Good night peeps, I just wanna enjoy my night, sleeping. I’m lack of sleep.

I still want 30 hours per day!! 12 hrs work (can cut if possible), 9 hours sleep, 9 hours with family.

 

I just feel like hugging you , wanna share my happiness.. the peaceful happiness of mine.

Peeps, happy Chinese New year.

 

love you guys.