feelings crossing.

aiks....

my phone cant connect "bluetooth-ly" to my GIRLFREN, and i dun wanna restart it.. so, i'll blog about my breakfast later. :-)

There's a guy, who exists in my life, will chat with me once in a while. i known him as D.T. erm.. not David Tao of course.. haha!

He's working and he described himself as a workaholic... well, thinking about it, i think my life in the future will be one. Yes, Workaholic.
I dun shop.
I hardly entertain myself.
I hardly have time...cuz i spent it with family most of the times.
but.. i think, he is a nice guy. :-)
I dunno la, but eager to know him better though. :-)

Well, I'm not really sad for being single, used to, but not now. why? I am free from anything, no commitments, i dont need to crack my head much for another one, though the happiness might outrage the sadness. haha! plus, life as what i am now suits me better. Another factor, gay guys always appear in my life and i'm kinda sick of it. Trying not to fall madly in guys, knowing tht they are gay makes me fall from heaven to hell. aiks.

Maybe now, i can really say that "Life is better off alone".. but nobody wants to be lonely for their whole life. :-)

so, leave it to fate.

:-)

Next Sem is going to be a tough decision for me, yes, I have problems, big problems that no one can imagine that it will happen on me. It makes me so inferior that i couldnt face anyone in my life. I did not show it cuz.. yes, positive thinking asked me not to.. plus, it's not my norm to be weak.. (well, i am not and i dun really knw how to be one) haha!!

Life as a pharmacy students is challenging. If you dun have a state of clear, tough mind, i doubt you can really pass through the study life. Yes, especially when studies and duties come together. that's why, i totally Respect my PHC OC, IT Seang a lot.
I do understand that conflicts happen, struggles, problems, headaches, and the TiGRESS! owh, when a whole 50k to 60K event depends on ur leadership, you ought to show something and lead well. His stress is something that no one can really understand it.

Being harsh to friends, being strict to friends, forcing, scoldings... sorry(s)..
as a leader, he/she has to make sure that there's a clear cut between friends and work. Yes, this is important.

Maybe because i'm partly a student, and partly a teacher and a leader. I still talk to my students, my juniors. when i teach, I am still as strict as i can be. Because, when you train, you really train, When you joke, you really joke, when you play, you really play hard.
That's my attitude.

One can never satisfy everyone. I cant say tht there's no one backstabs me all this while, I am sure i have been back stabbed. No one in this world lives "cleanly". so, yeah, bear with it.

I have my own principle and that's the way i live.
What i do might not be agreeable by everyone, but still, i have to live with it. right?

Life isnt always what you plan and how you've planned. Ups and downs are still there. if not, what is LIFE?

To be honest, My life is not what i've planned. Now, I have to pull back all my plans for a while, for some reasons, i have to bear with the consequences and mistakes that i've made.
Although time is not a factor, Guiltiness conquers me at times.

Sometimes i wish i could just do what i want, without thinking of the consequences, without thinking of any shit... but.. consequences is the one i have to bear.. How nice life is as easy as 123 and ABC.

Lots of feelings crossing over me. It's overlapping.. it's burning within me.


well, thinking back...

why thinking too much?? Dellynn Dear, just go with the flow, try your best in everything. have no regrets.. you have a bunch of people backing you up, pushing you forward when you fall. Yes, you should have the courage to move on under any circumstances... cuz your base is strong, and the army in you is stronger than you think. Dellynn, you can do it. Yes, you can do it. All you need to do is, believe.