2012 New Year Celebration

First thing’s First, Thank You Lord for a wonderful year of 2011, You have done Great things in my life. No words can say how mighty you are. =)

 

So, I started my New Year’s eve with my darlings, breakfast in Pandamaran, and went for Sing K session with them. Eh hem.. my singing technique improves. LOL!! *perasan-nya*

Bought a bottle of Shiraz Rosei for NYE’s dinner. Yeap, booked a table of 5 pax in La Carretas Taipan USJ. It was… awesome.

 

So, we met at Datin’s place at 6pm. me? of course, I drove up to PC to her place. spend some time with DAtin, chatted.. (tht’s what I always love to do when I’m with someone I care or close).

The rest of the gang reaches at 6 plus.

 

Las Carretas.. how do I came about this restaurant? haha.. At first, wanted to go to Damansara for Mexican Food, then only I realize that the Restaurant is not there anymore. Hence.. I googled. Saw Las Carretas with good reviews, reasonable price for that type of quality of food. =)

                          

so, off I go!!! Just in case someone forgot how I looked like. HAHAHAH!

 

we were served Nachos as snacks.

    

Nachos was awesome.. no oil, and the dips are really traditional mexicanie. haha… and I love the ambience of the restaurant!!!!

 

              

our Rosei… and the environment of the restaurant. Luckily we booked a table, if not.. we wont be able to dine in anywhere else. hahaha.

 

these are awesome food!!!

The Taco is really nice, with chicken inside.

Combine Acapulco is combination of flank steak and chicken breAST, WITH CHEESE.

Burrito, it has wonderful sauce.. and its awesome.

 

               

Left is Fajitas. it tastes so good.. loved the beef!!! =) right, owh. josh’s head was blocked. yeah, there were 5 of us. =)

 

Had a wonderful welcoming of 2012 with Mexican Food. and its Authentic!!!

Like I said, the bill came up to around Rm40 per person.

and… the wine is awesome with the food!!!  I really enjoyed it a lot, and it’s a bliss to my taste bud! hahaa.

 

then, we were all keen for drinking session. owh well, I’ve took pictures of it but not so nice to show. 6 of us, in cheras.  Ah Boon joined us at night. so we drank, play cards and sing.. and got drunk. P.S: I wish I was drunk too….

We bid 2011 goodbye among us and I bid my night goodbye by taking care of the 2 drunkards. hahahaha!!!!

 

Well, let me tell u, don’t underestimate drunkards, they can do funny things without remembering it. HAHAHAHAH!

 

So, 1/1/2012. It comes with laughter. =)

 

Went for New Year Service, and had a great morning with the Lord.

what’s best?

 

                          

ignore the background. haha.. it’s the gift and the giver.. =) *loves and hugs*

 

       

I’m so touched… you knw what? She sew the bookmark by hand… T_T all of it. from top to bottom, front and back…

 

                

her initials. =)

 

             

I’m just glad and blessed. This is a meaningful book, why??

 

             

cuz she scribbled on it. =)

 

 

and and, another free earphone from Creative!!!!! its ear buds! I LOVE IT!!! =)

 

Lastly, a status that explains all.

 

  

 

she uses 3 days to sew the book mark. 

I’m so touched… and happy.

 

owh well, I’m not forgotten. =P

 

 

New Year’s service message was about “The Lord is my Shepherd”

So happen.. the bookmark that she sew is “The Lord is my Shepherd” too. So, you still think its co-incidence? hahaha… like I said in previous post, nah, its not co-incidence. =)

God, you are awesome.

 

She wont read this blog, anyway.. I’ve thanked her.

 

Guess it’s a meaningful New YEar. =) very meaningful.  and I love all my gifts a lot. =)

KJV bible, a book, a bookmark, and earphone. haha… all in one. =)

I’m blessed that my life evolves around great people. =) trustable people, and those who appreciate who I am.

God’s grace.

 

Peeps, Happy New Year to all of you. In this NEw YEar, Live, laugh, love. (why sound so familiar??) haha.

Put Him as priority, and achieve whatever things that you want. Life is short, one year passed in a blink of an eye. So, appreciate every single day, and be blessed for what you have, and what you don’t have.

 

Happy Happy New YEar.

 

P.S: I cant forget the drunk face of Datin and San San. haha..

P.S.S: to the person who forget how I looked like, Lets have a meal!! =)

Victorious me, Glory to Him.

wah.. its been a long time since i write with blogger draft. Looks so different now and i can't even recognize it. haha!

Today, indeed is a Victorious day of mine.
Like i promised, The vision that i have, i will fulfill it.

Yes, i am left with one semester OFFICIALLY. and my holiday STARTS OFFICIALLY for one month!

whats my plan for hol? nah... i plan to look for job( if there's ppl wanna hire me), complete my accounts, ber-mate-mate with my bed, cumbu-cumbuan with my sheepig, and.. travelling, meet up with friends.

yeah, I have a trip in 2 week's time with my oldies. haha. not my parents, but my old friends. see? life is really good when God takes over it.

This day, is a great testimony of my life. It proves again God's love and power. YEs, faith of a mustard seed is able to move a mountain.

I've done it? have u?

I am glad that i don't need to wake up from stress 2mr morning. yeah.. i can go all out and enjoy my day.

God is good. God is great! Awesome, and Power.


haha.. my mum almost cried. owh well, she prayed in her own way for me every single day... i knw. =) Anyhow, God is the main character, without Him, there's no achievement in me.

Next, God pleases complete my puzzle...  Continue to guide me Lord.


Tonight, wedding dinner... AGAIN! i have so many wedding dinner this month.... and next week, there's another one..


just came back from a great jog.. actually, i am sick of jogging alone, but i still wanna jog. For my health's sake, cuz i dont wanna live like a potato this whole holiday. (i can forsee that i'll be eating, eating and eating). Gosh, i am kinda sick of food... hahahha!!!


okay, time to bath, play some barbie doll dress up, draw some lines, pat some powder, and squeeze some concealer. Gotto get ready for tonight's dinner. ha.ha.ha.
(sad.. everyone is getting married.. and me? i'm still Y.F.S) LOL!


"seek and you shall find, ask and you shall receive"
have you presented your request to God? You knw that God loves you? =)


ciao. =)


mum and dad, love you both. =)

Beautiful Sunday encounter.

it’s a beautiful sunday. Let me just write what I feel.. for those who need some  motivation, yeah. its for u.

Honestly, I still wake up from stress every single day ever since 16november. I was relieved that it was over, but I couldn't accept the fact that I did screw up one of the paper. That’s the paper which I sat, and I don’t feel victorious at all. I don’t have confidence when I stepped out from the hall.

I was and desperate for God’s miracle, and I know He hears my cry and my prayers. I try not to lean on my understanding and yet, those bad visions just come into my mind, and I got a bad feeling.

I never stopped my desperate prayers though. Like I said, I think God will really laugh at my prayers, but I proclaim His words. “Seek, and you shall find, ask and you shall receive”

 

Today, while I was on my way to FGA, Got a ooomph for Hillsongs, so I tuned into my pendrive.

I got a message from Him through them, Hillsongs. of all songs, I started paying attention to God’s words. yeah.. God is able. and this is the song that was playing and I had a deep thought on the voices I heard while I was singing this song with my Spirit. I started to feel peace. HE spoke.

 

some preface about what happened… : during my finals period, there were a few songs that worked in my life, yeap, my exam life. “Stronger”, “amazing grace”.  God spoke to me everytime I hear these songs, that is why my youtube playlist is full of Gospel.

 

So, He spoke to me in the car. I really got peace.

then,I reached FGA. =)  as the worship session starts, as usual.. He is always in the house, and in the atmosphere. 

Guess what? The worship team started singing “God is able”. My heart was so overwhelmed. A voice came to my head, “I hear you, I’m with you eventhough you can’t see me”. yes, these came to my mind.

I was really really overwhelmed. gave thanks to Him and I got His message.

*deep in me.. there’s not coincidence, only power of God.*

So, the power of the song reigns over me… I feel so touch because God is so intact in my heart. He always tells me about his presence through songs. I always wonder, maybe this is the way for me communicate with Him besides prayers. and this is the way He talks to me too..

 

The next song.. oh my God.. I slain immediately right after the worship lead singer started singing “Stronger”. The first thing I said “God, You are awesome.. Thank You for assuring that You are always with me.”

This time, the encounter was different, as I sing praise.. memories flashes into my head, all about how close He was in me during exam period, and He is still with me.. NOW. I am still overwhelmed by His love while I am typing this post. I can’t wait to share God’s love to the readers, yeah.. I really hope I can give hope through my post, to those who are sad, deprived from love.. and I want them to knw, When people hate you for certain reason, God loves you with no reason.

I was really overwhelmed while I was giving praise. No one could understand my feeling, because everyone has a different encounter.

you knw, everytime when I listen to “stronger” while I was studying, it touches my heart and gives me courage to move on, and its sort of like a God’s shield for me. I feel safe and protected through songs, because He always speaks to me through it.

My heart was so peaceful and all I wanna do is glorify Him, because.. this week its different compared to the FGA sessions that I had previous weeks. Previous weeks, He showed me his presence through another song… which appeared (means sung by the worship team) 3 weeks in a row! (and yeah, that was the song that touches me before the first week where the worship team sang).

This week.. He gave me visions of the exams, saying that He was there for me, and He is still here for me. Never left, and He knows what I’m going through. Sort of a peaceful message ask me do not be anxious, because He is stronger.

 

Now next.. My heart bursts out in tears when the worship team started singing “Amazing Grace”.

Tears of joy filled my eyes, and my heart.

God, you are awesome! He showed me this week and reassured me that He is listening to me and he’s been always there. I’m so touched by His unending love. really really touched.

 

Praise God.

 

I wanna be victorious and Lord, You hear me. I will never stop my desperate prayers and I know that you hear me Lord.

 

Today, it’s the starting of a victorious week. I knw.. I’m gonna leave everything to Him. “If we succeed, praise Him, If we fail, Praise Him”

 

God has an adventurous plan for all of us.

 

Praise god.

 

 

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I have always love to talk to Aunt Carol, si fatt’s mum. Probably she’s a young mum with a liberal opinion, and she’s a liberal mum too. not to say my mum is not good, and hello!! my mum is my bestest mum on earth! haha…

Aunt Carol always give positive energy to people.. and today, She transferred her positive energy to me. haha.. as she always does. =)

She made me think hard. and I knw, if I’ve decided to do something, nothing will stop me if its God’s will.

So, I think I have to think hard on it, gotto plan well. Because its my life, my future.

I don’t mind giving up my career for something exciting, and something better. Of course, it is better if we have somebody to share it with. (not partner, but someone..) hehe.

Am I ready to accept the fact that I have to start from scratch? I guess I should’ve got myself a Business degree instead of a Rph degree.  *wink* nah, too late. I’m at the end of the studying path, and at the start of my life now.

2 years, will I be able to earn enuf to survive for at least 6 months?

God, complete the puzzles in my mind. Once completed, Let Your will be done.

 

and.. si fatt once told me when we were waiting for our bus in AT.. She told me that I am overly independent.

“Overly” is a strong word, because I only consider myself as “Too independent”. not “overly” haha.

I guess, that is one of my good points, and it can be a fatal weakness huh?

owh, what she told me that day still got me thinking till now.

Sometimes, I really enjoy my life as YFS (young, free, single), sometimes I also hope to have someone to share my everything.. haha, I got too much love to give! haha.

I don’t mind giving it a shot. yeah.. if someone special appeared, that can change my life.

 

=)

 

I know that wherever I go, I can make it, I can survive. All I need is just adaptation. yeah… Charles DArwin theory of NAtural Selection.

Chinese (most) are survivals. Its in their blood. agree? so does Indians, because they are marginalized. That’s why they keen to survive and we can’t blame them for their ego. They are striving hard to get a reputation in the society.

I really don’t wanna be a slave for money. But thinking back, wherever I work, I’m still a slave for $$, depends on how I manage my mind. =)

There are too many things to consider, especially when u’re older, and when commitments come.

 

I plan to give myself 10 years.. but can I really survive that long out of the box? There’s a will, there’s a way?

 

Sometimes, I really doubt my choice in working in Sg last year. because.. it showed me how small Malaysia is, and how unorganized Malaysia is. This thinking got amplified by the Aussie’s experience. I love Malaysia, but politics seem to made it dirty.

 

Owh well.. back to me, my plan.

I ask for guidance from my Lord, Guide me through God, for you knw what’s best for me, and all of us.

 

In His name, we say…. A.M.E.N.

just publish

one word: Jaded

but I don’t feel empty.

 

I’m desperate. Yes I am.

Desperate in a lot of ways, wanting the mustard seed of faith to plant in me. Yet, its so hard.. yeah, it is hard.

 

anyway, the best has yet to come.

To Him. cheers, to Him.

Praise Him.

Today, had a great sunday despite of studying.

 

I was reading on cute cute’s blog. Owh well.. he is really an emo guy. How a person looked like from the outside is so much different that what the person may feel in the inside. I actually feel kinda heartbroken to see him that way. Probably the whole world seems like abandoning him, but… I still feel that each and everyone of us deserves a space in this world, and in each and everyone’s heart.

He is lonely.

yeah.. he is.

 

He reminds me of what Joshua told me. Well, he surprised me that day. He gave me one of his best teachings and conversation ever.. which I didn’t expect. I guess God is really good and awesome, He never fails to stop sending angels into my life.

Cute Cute reminded me of Joshua’s words. “You knw it yourself, when you knw Him, you don’t feel lonely anymore.. You know this feeling, especially before you sleep. You knw that you are not lonely and he is always with you.. I’m sure you understand your life before and after having Jesus in your life. right?”

I was again surprised by this statement. Yeah, I don’t feel lonely anymore, not even one second. Though I have great friends, like Si fatt, sor por,Ah beng,  my old buddies and old friends who really treasure me, I still feel that its God who sent them into my life for a reason. I might not see it now, but I I will. Nah, as long as we all appreciate each other now.

He gave me example of a pastor, went to a village where animism is a their religion, they worship the creator, in forms of trees, rock, and some other forms, and they do their offering (fishes) to the Creator before they feast. Well, Josh told me that Pastor said :" it is education which plays a big part. You knw, they make offerings, so does We, christians do. so, what pastor did was educating them about Offerings and God in a way that they understand.”

 

then Josh Told me.. “ same goes to you and your parents. You will need to get attached and engaged to them, because to honour parents is to honor God. You get engage more with them, let them see the changes in you, and most importantly Jesus’s love.”

and he continued “ one thing you also need to understand, you don’t try to change them, but respect them.”

yeah, I replied: “ I did.. I respect them as how I want them to respect me. The funny thing is, as time goes, my relationship with my parents got closer. Somehow, God moves me and changed me in this aspect. It comes automatically… without me even realizing.”

 

Josh continued: “ Yeah, you knw in City Harvest, for us.. One of the 10 commandments is to honour your Parents, and obey them. Whatever they ask you to do, you obey. Eventhough if they ask you to take the joss stick and pray, you can do it, but its wrong if you do it willingnessly or freely deep in your heart. anyway.. if it is obeying your parents, its not wrong. Because Jesus is love, He wants us to show love instead of disharmony. If disobeying them makes you and your family fall into disharmony, what’s the point? that’s not the purpose of Jesus, He wants us to Love our family, and everyone. If creating commotion is the ultimate outcome, then it is not right. So, its ok to obey them in this sense. Don’t you worry.. Jesus wants us to show love, not dissatisfaction. You imagine, if because of a joss stick and your whole family started quarreling, that’s not what God wants us to do.” 

He continues: “ by obeying them, you are actually showing them love, which is also Jesus’s love. Let them knw this friend of yours, Its not wrong though, Jesus is like a new friend, what is wrong of getting know a new friend? right? through engaging with them, you get to show them how this friend has really changed your life. BUT… you must be ready to confront them…. someday…”

 

I replied.. “yeah.. I am, and I’m waiting for the right time…”

 

So, my car approaches Space that time. It was already almost 3 am. Josh words got me thinking until now.

 

It was really funny when he first ask “hey, I wanna ask you something which I wanted to ask long ago..”

of course.. me myself knw what it is deep within. So, he asked.

“I replied him, yeah.. you are supposed to ask me this qs long time ago… hahaha”

 

so, that was where our conversation started.

 

I guess… Like I always give thanks to God, He has been sending angels into my life, to remind me of how Great is His love.

 

Today in FGA, I was touched again. HE, again… spoke to me of His existence and how HE persistently and consistently stayed with me. Seriously, that song appeared 3 weeks in a row and why that song? haha.. long story, gotto go back to that week before my first paper. Kinda lazy to repeat again. but I think I do mention in somewhere in my last post.. (I think).

So, God is great! He works in his miraculous way. I think He sent Josh that day, to untangled something which I’ve always worried about. now, with HIM, as my witness, my partner-in-crime, my saviour, my Lord, I have no worries at all.. (it doesn’t mean that I will do joss stick willingly), but He opened up my heart again and deepens my love towards my parents. Josh taught me how to deal with it, which I strongly believe its God’s words. He used Josh to speak to me.

How wonderful our God is. 

 

Everytime when I flash back on my Christian walk, I feel so touched and so overwhelmed by Him. You knw, one thing that normal people have lack of, is… They wont be understanding on how I feel all these years, How God has changed me, How God has make a difference in my life.. and.. How God has filled me to the extend that He has become my best friend whom is close and sooo intact with the tissue of my heart. God made us with His image, and I pray that I will be more like Him each day.

Though I started rough,its Salvation, which made me understand that we’re all born righteous. Once you have Salvation, it doesn’t matter who you were previously, you are the brand new you, and we have a new triumph and victory in Christ.

I’m so grateful that in the name of Holy Spirit, I am baptized eventhough I’m not baptized by water. Glory to God. =) (this is something that no one knows.. and I guess when it is on blog, it’s considered opened.haha.)  ok, this is another shocking story. well, share it next time, on how I got the ability. =)

 

Its funny that Josh got me thinking of the “feeling lonely” thingy before sleep. I compared…. my life before and after. Conclusion : I’ve never been whole before, and it feels like God has filled the missing parts and empty spaces in my heart, and he created more spaces for sincere people like my pals to stay in it.

I pray for a bigger heart. =)

 

Praise the Lord.

Another day. =)

So, I had a bad quality sleep.

brain was exhausted.

and.. me, was exhausted physically.

well, I’m still doing fine, standing strong,like the Soldier of Light. Fighting!

 

My daily life is so overwhelmed. Everytime when I’m in distress, or when I’m stretched., My angels never fails to remind me about who He is, He was, and He will be. Where to find this kind of friend?

My coussie in IMU had done with her 4 days marathon exam!Its her Birthday today, meaningful right?

I got my own plans tonight, so…. perhaps, no IMU today? haha! been studying and meeting her up for dinner last 2 weeks.. occasionally. Love hanging with her, I miss her hugging me to sleep actually. hahaha! yeah, she’s like my own sister, and she will not do this to her biological sister.  owh… I love all my cousies! seriously. So, I guess I’m meeting her again..soon? =)

 

First, let me just give Him a big testimony. Proverbs 3:4-6 has been my strength. and He never fails to show me that He is always with me with this verse. Seriously… Power of coincidence?  how many coincidence you can have in Life? right? Glory to God and the highest. =)

 

I’m taking a few hours of time off, then I’ll start my battle again.

Its funny that there wasn’t a single rain for the past 2 days.. and it was freaking hot. I was just mumbling “God.. please rain…” and.. it did.

Coincidence? haha.. the POWER OF COINCIDENCE.

 

LAst Sunday, I went to FGA, the verse appear and the worship song appeared again!! the same as the previous week when I was so despair and stressed.. That was when I was so touched! He told me : I am with you.

I slained.

He proves HIS existence that particular time. Immediately, my fears are gone. I was able to be confident and endure whatever that comes.

the same thing happened last week. well, COINCIDENCE AGAIN?!

haha.. how many coincidence in life can you have? again?

 

Glory to Him.

 

Things are going well with me.. Next week is another whole new journey. So, With Him, lets walk this together.

 

Today, I feel good.

Despite thinking of what to eat for dinner, well.. screw it. Supper then. =)

 

ok, time to start my brain battle!

 

He is Love.

Blessed day. =)

Had a contented day. Took a long break from studies.

Went for a satisfied jog this morning, then went for Juwita Suwito and Busco music rally in the afternoon. had dinner with my mates, then now I’m back.

I dislike being asked “Why do u have time to do all these despite of exams, all these and that?”

ya, my housemate. He hasn’t been sleeping well these 2 days.. and.. I dunno why. He is stressed. I think.

but.. today… I wanna clarify and repent.

to me, there’s so much other things that are more important than studies. Yes, definitely.. I learnt to see this after a 6 months working life in Sg. =) and to me, study.. yeah, its my responsibility. but, relaxation, God, and self growth are important as well.

I am thankful that I get to segregate my time well.. yeah, I am serious about fun, and serious about God. Like I said, Things are really different as I live my day with God’s impulse. It feels whole lot of different.

and.. personally.. I don’t think I need anyone to help me understand the stress from exam. yeah, I have stress, but… time management is pretty important. 

I had a great day… Praying, relaxing, having fun with a bunch of long lost friends in FGA. and.. Juwita was Awesome! Busco was.. average to me.

I wanna repent.. I am being wreckless today. careless summore.. I promise YOU that I wont do this again.

 

2mr… Sunday. The day that I love the most. Going to the House of God is something that is awesome! To listen to words, prayers… it just gives me a boost to boost up the rest of my week. God is good, awesome, power and faithful. Today, Thank God for the safety. =)

 

I have my own schedule to follow, but its alterable and it depends on HIM. yeah.. alterations are done by Him. I just live with it basically.

Some of you may wonder, what is God’s Impulse? at the other part of your conscious mind, isnt it you who are the one controlling.. God plays a part in which sense?

owh well.. this is a super tough question for a non-believer to understand.

Very simple, When you have a relationship with someone, you love that person, and you plan things together.. but often at times, impromptu plans popped up and you just gotto follow. and.. often, impromptu plans are awesome and fulfilling, and most of it are joy and happiness. Am I right?

this analogy goes to God. God is my partner in crime. haha!! HE is my partner, my life, and we plan things together, at His will. and often, things that happened at HIS will are Joy and happiness. Faith is a powerful weapon that IMPOSSIBLE will become POSSIBLE.

This is a deep relationship.. and I want it to be deeper and deeper.

I always believe that.. before we can love others, we have to start loving God and love ourselves. God created us as HIS image, and we inherit his characteristics, which is loving. Day by day, we will have His mindset and things will change. By Him first loved us, that is why we learn to love.

Truly I tell u, I don’t understand all these 2 years ago. Now, things are different. I am born righteous. and… When I surrender and leave everything to Him, things turns out the way He wants it to be, and.. the outcome is MUCH BETTER than the original one which u’ve expected if u carry out with your OWN PLAN. ITs SO MUCH BETTER! Most of the times, its sort of IMPOSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE if the pulse is driven by our own plan.

I personally experienced it. =)

 

So, today…. when my housemate said “ wah…so many things to study and you have time for all this?!”

me: “ haha… yeah. I don’t care.. erm, not that I don’t care, but why not? its just a day off.”

Probably my result will not be that good.. but, I have faith in God. Because, I knw. what I do is not from my own impulse.. its from HIm.

my original plan for today was: stay home, mug, and mug. and mug. not going out at all…

but it turned out.. I reach home at around 7 plus pm. (I went out at 730am) . ya, whole day.

 

I didn’t regret living my day like that. And ..AND AND!!! I wanna PRAISE GOD!! why? I prayed for a sunny day!! and today… SUNNY DAY after 10am! (owh, I still jogged under the drizzle of the rain, but I enjoyed!! hehe… cuz.. I was doing something I like with someone I care.)

So, THANK GOD FOR THE SUNNY DAY! I was deprived from Vitamin D.. and.. I got my supply today! hahaha!

 

ok, time to stop.

gotto start a bit of writing notes before I hit the sack. Gotto sleep early, waking up early to study, and hop to FGA at 710am. =P

 

My days are really miracles.. with Him. =)

 

This faith is…. overwhelming.

 

Praise God for a great day!

Sorry for my carelessness today. Thank you for blessing me a safe trip home. =)