TAke me away… to safer place.

DAy in DAy out….

I’ve sat on the chair from 12pm to 2am. SEE? 12 PM to 2 AM!!!

yet, i feel more energetic and enthusiastic as time passed by… till 2am… i really cannot stand the sleepiness and.. plan to online and blog my heart out.

I’ve been sleeping quite late everyday… I knw, I’m killing myself and my liver softly.. but, i have to do this. My situation doesn allow me to sleep early..

my midnight 11-12am.. will be spent studying plus sms my DArLeng. Apparently, he is more GANG HO than me.. he sleeps at 4am almost everyday, and wakes up at 730am. EVERYDAY!!!

so, msg-ing him keep me and him awake. Both of us will talk rubbish in msg.. haha!!

I’m tired. REally tired. I’m still hanging on. Give me support will ya? Support and prayers are all i need the most now.

My progress today is good, cuz i’ve make use of all my time wisely, and kinda productive.:-)

It is sad to spend my days on a table, sitting on a chair for more than 10 hours a day. Well, this is once in a lifetime, i appreciate it!! :-) Erm, becoming a Potato… Sweet Potato. LOL!!!

 

Believe it or not, this feeling of stress is so much better than the stress for my commitments. haha!! I’m a weirdo, yes. I’m weird.

 

“Take me away, to secret place, take me away, take me away!!!!”

Someone please take me away!?!? I salute you if you can do that, cuz now.. it seems impossible. LOL.

Study.. study…

Skipped most of the lunches and dinners…unhealthy eh? trust me, i dun feel hungry when i’m concentrating on something. It is when i’m doing other things which will make me feel the hunger… (NOW).

Hunger conquers, but my mind conquers more than my hunger. Thought of getting extra pounds if i munch at this time kills my appetite. =)

 

This song keeps me moving…

When you believe- MAriah CArey and Whitney Houston

Its really a motivating song when i’m studying.

came to knw this song again after re-watching Prince of Egypt. This CArtoon is the best i’ve ever watched. It touches me everytime i watched it. Indirectly, it gives me faith for what i’m believing.. It’s a story with lots of Moral Values. Guys, you guys should watch it sometime. :-)

 

Another song is I BELIEVE IN YOU, by IL DIVO and Celine Dion.

another clearer version than the previous one.:-)

these 2 songs are the only song i listen this week. haha!!! I seriously love it!!! =)

It’s DAY OUT now.. I’m waiting for another DAY IN which will come in a few more hours. =) Means, I’ll sit for another… XX hours? haha!

 

Okay, that’s all for now. Gotta click on STAR ONLINE to read some news.. Just to update myself… =)

 

“Last day” is over. Great days ahead!! Enjoy!!!

Knw what? I miss SAtay now…. dunno why, out of a sudden.haha!! and… Cheese Baked Rice. muahahaha!!!!

 

Good night everyone.

Good day!

4 in the morning..

Aww… it is so torturing that i only get to log into Facebook in the Morning, 3am. Yeah, i was studying whole day, till 3am.. almost everyday the same routine.

Anyhow, FB not tht crowded in the midnight ( morning) haha!

I’ve been changing my study environment since last week. Mmm…. I hvn try studying in my toilet.haha!!

However, fear still conquers. and i will conquer my fear!

 

Heard “Listen”, covered by a korean singer. Gosh, it is so good!! i mean he is so damn good and sang the whole song at the original key which Beyonce sang!!!

can u imagine?

haha!

 

Well, muah? Clearly show that i am being myself more knowing that i wont be having any activities on NOV.

hehe… at least, no night mares. tht’s the best part! cheer for me yeah!!!

 

Owh, one more thing about me. My back pain getting worse.. i cannot sit for too long now.. anyhow, ibuprofen saved my day.. for today!!

I guess my back’s nerve is injured, and i am going to see a doctor soon… cuz it;s worrying.. I am worried. Cuz i almost feel the feeling of being  “Paralyzed” with my back condition now… it affects my nerve behind my upper thigh.. and it doesnt feel good.

Gotto sleep now.. it’s almost 4am. Sign off Fb, sleep. cuz need to go Uni in the morning… hehe…

Guys, all the best to those who will be sitting for finals!!

God bless all of you!! Try your best! :-)

P.S : I believe I believe I believe in you…….

 

can you believe that i’m actually in love with IL Divo now?? a bunch of sopranos whom i used to dislike?? I guess, this is call EVOLUTION. I mean, i’m getting old. hahaha!!!

Adam Lambert- Time for miracles

                     

I’m so going to watch 2012!! for Adam LAmbert’s sake!!!

He is still the best Rocker that strikes my heart!!!!

He is handsome!! COOL! and Gorgeous!!!! (forget about the GAY part yeah!! haha!)

Gosh, how i wish i could just grab him and hug him and have him singing all night beside me….

muahahaha!!!

 

Here is the Lyrics!!!

Time For Miracles

Adam Lambert

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't be thinking of your smile
Every kiss you can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying
Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us
I just want to be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes
The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying
Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know thatMaybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us
Baby can you feel it(feel it)
You know I can hear it(hear it)
So can you feel it feel it....
You know it's time....
Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

P.S : DArLeng knows i love him, he shared!! haha!!

P.S.S: Perhaps, it’s time for miracle to come to me……

Great sleep.

                     

What About Now? What about today?

Mark Feehily is still the best singer.. Westlife is still the BEst Boyband in my life. Let them be known as Westlife rather than an Irish Boyband. Cuz they are not BOYs anymore… :-)

 

“To God I laid all my worries..”

I had a great sleep yesterday.. at least without nightmares.

I’m coming back. Back to who i used to be…..

To Yen: Thanks for the precious advice.

ARGHHHHHH!!!

Better?
after my previous "bomb blog"?

Argh... Let me tell you something, it is not getting better...

I received her msg today.. :Yes, The one who is always above me but doesnt look like she is above me.

I was worrying while i'm taking my bath, and thinking about all the things that made me almost collapse. I had phobia receiving HER MSG. it makes me think of... "Gosh, have i done something wrong in LC again?"

I was like an ant, jumping on the hot pot!!!! worried like SHIT! but i think there's nothing wrong i did, i guess?? *hopefully*
true enuf... it was Her msg... of course, no mood drives me to put smileys in the msg. or even a HAHA.
Mmm, if my msg consists of both or either one, i mean it.

Sigh....
Probably it is a right decision to QUIT everything on NOVEMBER. I realized this morning that i couldnt take it anymore. CAn you imagine the stress is so strong that i can have BAD DREAMS during my SHORT NAP at 11am?
This is seriously an Invisible pressure,which i TOTALLY DON'T LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sick of it.... I wish i could stop everything, Quit everything, and just lie and sleep peacefully... I miss my peaceful sleeps.
miss it lots.

Study stress contributes to my SUPER MOOD SWING.

U knw how USELESS i feel? I do not feel it so strong before...
I failed in my teaching, I failed in my work.
and i will make sure that i wont fail in my STUDY!

Pray for me, will ya?? 3rd to 13th...

In front of me is AMT, full of antibiotics facts.
In my heart and mind, full of craps, full of defeating thoughts.
Sweet talks can make me move? it is very REALISTIC because if i reject something, the atmosphere changed.. What the hell is this?
My last hug to Sheepig almost ended up with tears. I did not knw that i was still depress until i received msg from Cheang. Thanks my dear ALO!

For now, I'm not going to STEP INTO THE LOT TILL DECEMBER!!!!!!!! I'm not going to STEP INTO THE SCHOOL TILL DECEMBER!!!! I'm going to ENJOY MySELF TO THE FULLEST ON NOV!!! No more STRESS!!! No more REsponsiBILITIES!!! No more COmmITMENTS!! The only commitment i will have is towards my FAMILY and SIBLINGS! THAT"S ALL!
End-Of-STORY!

I will reject anything regarding REsponsibilities and commitmentS!!!

i say it, and i MEAN IT! owh, u so know me. that i will surely do it.
Like i say in my previous post, when a person has stayed or be in a position or a place for too long, perhaps it's time to step down or disappear or change a new environment.

Let me go through my finals before i really sit, sink, and think about it.

"Everywhere i go..." this song reminds me of DeEr, her ringtone. coincident my lappy played this song. ha ha!

I finally understand how strong the feeling of RUNAWAY can be.

Enough of blah blahs! Life has to go on, especially in memorizing all the antibiotics facts.

I promise YOU that i will PASS!!!
I will PASS!!!!


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YOU're in my sleeping, YOU're in my waking, YOU're in my laughing, YOU're in my weeping, just be my everything... be my everything..... God bless me.
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Dad and Mum,
sorry if i dun speak much today.
You knw that i dun wanna come back here if possible, but i have to.
Mum, thanks for willing to buy me anything. I knw that you wish that i would request for anything, but thanks mum, i don't need anything. Just your support will do.

I'll ask for Cheesecake from you when i'm back Mum!! thanks for offering me just now!! ;-)

The first thing i'm going to do with you, mum is... HAve Lunch in Burger King again. :-) DIn knw that you love Burger King that much.

GreenBox on 14th NOv morning. DarLeng will pay! =p HOw about a driving trip to somewhere???? Mmm...... that would be nice.=) Just Us... Us and Us only.....
P.S : dun get mad at me if you are. Accept my apology if u're mad at me. =)
P.S.S : A change of study environment 2mr. I'm going back to the place tht i used to be last sem.

GAH!

I find that i am still running away from something that i shouldn’t.

If someone has stayed in a place or position for too long, perhaps it’s time for him/her to step down and leave.

this thought came to my mind yesterday. Owh.. i was so depressed.. First thing’s first, i hurt my back, and i barely walk, i barely lie down, i barely sit, and i barely stand!!! It hurts like SHIT. THe pain is so strong till the extend that i look like a paralyzed human.

In pain..

Salonpas sucks. FAstum gel, YUCKS! Ibuprofen, argh.. can throw and feed the fish.. left Diclofenac Potassium (CAtaflam) for me..

If possible, i dun wanna take any drugs!!!!

This stupid back pain struck me again after so many years…

gah… i feel like a useless person. I was depressed since yesterday..

Work, teachings, studying… i tell you, when your mind is not in a peace or in a piece, you tend to think brutally and feel like giving up everything!! seriously, EVERYTHING!

Yesterday night, I felt like my world is meaningless, I’ve gambled the trust that ppl put on me, all the high hopes, all the expectations…and i lost in the gamble.. ARGH!!! I just wanna YELL and WANNA QUIT EVERYTHING!

Every now and then , i feel like bursting out… Smile on my face, is just a mask.. well, it was since yesterday.. Honestly, i carried the mask for one day and i feel sick!

Sometimes i do hate myself for being such CLOWN. People can push me away if they dun need me, People can pull me closer when they need me. I am what? A Puppet?? Huh?

My life is worth more than to be a PUPPET!!!!

GAh… tears in my eyes, and i really hate it.

What have i done wrong to deserve all these? my attitude? the way i carry myself? or the way i am willing to being a puppet in Puppet-teer?

There are certain things that i dont say .. it doesnt mean that i like it.

Humans are complicated… i wish to be a simple RETARD sometimes.. at least, what they worry about = nothing!

RElationships, Friendships, workmanships, whatever ships or shits..

 

Mummy and daddy realized… i think. That’s why… i think they are trying to cheer me up.

well, one thing bad about me is.. i dun talk about what i feel with my parents, cuz…

People only remember the BLACK DOT on a pure white board! and that is why…

especially parents. Their love to their child is too strong till the extend that they always think and worry of the worse thing that will happen to their kids.

and i seriously dun like that.

I see things from different side… i dun like to see things from one angle. It makes me stupid.

I think i sort of like give up on my responsibility today.. I did not do my best and i admit that. I cannot concentrate on my work, i cannot concentrate in anything…

My brain cells are dead tortured by me and i refuse to let them breath.

 

I am not okay.

 

 

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“Be my everything, Be my everything, Be my everything, Be my everything…”

P.S : Thanks for sharing the verse with me in FB. You know who you are.=) God bless.

CLown with cherry Lips.

             

HA HA HA……………………………….

 

                         

A Picture says a thousand words… cuz it is exactly how i feel.

This is one of the applications that i like LOTS… Today, God in FB (haha) hits me again….

“Dellynn got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...

... that humans learn only by trial and error, and that includes you.”
See what God wants you to know...
You've got to live life, not think about it. Step into the midst of things, try and ...fail and learn and stand up again. The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive.

I said : “ AMEN.”

Friday, a day? =)

U KNW WHAT’S GOOD ABOUT STAYING HOME ALONE ON FRIDAY?

• First, u get to do wahtever you want
• second: You get to have lunch with ur folks.
• Third: everything is FOC.;-)

Nah.. Money is not what i value… it is the experience and time tht i spent with them. Just came back from lunch with mummy.. Erm, i went for lunch together with her colleagues and boss in Burger King. Well, they kinda miss Wei Lee and keep asking where is she.. haha!!! maybe we should mess up their annual dinner again end of this year..

I think it’s not their turn to organize it, it’s another branch. Anyway, they are a bunch of great ppl personally. :-)

It’s Time to rest and study a little. I was wandering around Bukit Tinggi area just now, wondering where to go.. wanted to watch a movie but.. forget it la. haha!! i prefer spending time with notes and Sheepig.

Love Love Love.. there are still some minor problem with PPS. but.. i think i can be able to solve it. :-) Now, it is still working well.. the CODECS got me crazy and took me whole night to crack it. haha!!

I seriously crack the codec… sigh… lousy PPS, the latest version cannot download the codec itself, so have to hack for it.

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Tonight (Firday night), definitely it is not my call anymore. Mmm….

this is the last week i’m in klang. LAst few days i guess… then i’ll only be back 3 weeks later.:-)

What do i miss here?

mum and dad, food.. and DeER i guess? haha!! nah, i’ll miss her… eventhough its a one way process. Same goes to DarLeng.. the stupid guy who doesnt miss me AT ALL! sigh…….

I’m crazy for Simon Baker..

                             

He shines in The Mentalist!! He is a great Australian Actor!! :-)

 

Erm…. SIMon, Break my Gay Spell.. will you??? LOL!! =)

 

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How does the Chapati in Butterfly Park tastes???? Mmm……. Missing Chee CHEong Fun in the DIm SUm REstaurant.. hahah!!!

Settled!!!

Dellynn!! u’re the MAN!!!!PPS settled!! took me whole night….. sigh…… and i dun need to decipher all the BOXES NOW!!! I can READ ALL!!! YAY!!!

okay,, time for THE MENTALIST!!!

It’s the REAL CONAN! LOL!! not REal la, just tht the guy, Patrick Jane is a Mentalist and it’s the real person version of Conan!! It’s a nice drama!!!!

 

No more cryings…. muahahahaha!!

daddy mummy, thanks for the Tosai and Mutton dinner.. thanks for giving me what i requested.

Tosai, Mutton plus CRABS!!! hahahaha!!! = My dinner.

 

LOVE MY WINDOWS 7~!!! muacks!!!! :-)

Window 7 night. Goodbye Vista. Voila!! :-)

Thanks to SiaoKia for converting my Vista to Windows 7. It is great!!!

He did it for me FOC and i get to reformat my lappy myself under his supervision!! yippee!!

It’s 5am now… and.. i’ve downloaded what i needed.. and studied what i suppose to study. It’s time to knock out….

Cheras will not have electricity this morning…. haiz…..

Where am i suppose to go?

 

P.S: Cheang, I’m gonna kick the toughness’s ass!!! :-)

P.S.S: I’m in love with my Window 7!! Vista’s interface, XP’s speed!! great combination!!!! At last, my lappy is “fast” again… it’s great to have a FAst Girlfren!! muahahaha!!!!!

Got out from Monday bLue... :-)

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die, so, let us all be thankful.-Buddha

this quote made a good morning....

Dellynn is such a troublesome person...
She seems to NOT understand that the Person doesnt understnad that she wants to meet the Person.
haha?! complicated eh?

Dellynn wants to meet HER. but She did not get that. Well, i guess,let's leave it to fate la.

Same goes to HIM. I think I was being too aggressive. Sigh... this is not the way it should be. He is avoiding me now.....(i think?)
okay, I'm too scary and i have Tiger canine or vampire's teeth. Having affection to him is something that i have to reduce now.. perhaps, let's be friends again.... ( but... seriously there's nothing happened between us....)haha!
GAh! life.....
Like i told DarLEng yesterday night while he was "De-Blue-ing" me... I will consider finding a Caucasian.. muahahaha!!!!
He asked me what's special about them.... knw what i said?
I said: " since i might go to Aussie for Masters right after Housemanship, and will settle down there, why not?"

Owh....
I tell you what?
when daddy sent me back from Klang to Cheras, He asked me in the car....
"you really dun wanna further our studies? perhaps Master? if possible, dun stop after getting your degree... Go for Masters.. It only costs XX something thousands.. i can support you financially, just don't stop here..."

Me : " It only costs X thousand in Malaysia..."
him:" so, u wanna study in Malaysia??"
Me: " No.. maybe AUssie.."
Him: " go ahead.. apply it."

okay, it clearly shows that i have not tell them the plan to Study in Aussie...

Me: " I've thought about that, just tht i dunno when. But i will go there definitely..."

I wanted to elaborate about the Houseman and all.. but i was too lazy..and NOT IN THE MOOD!! know why? It' s Monday blue.. and it blues me till NIGHT! So, i din bother to explain and i kept quiet.

Sorry to say, i talk according to my mood... i would prefer to be QUIET the whole process if i dun feel right or i dun feel like talking.
or i wont even pay attention to what my friends are talking...
that is me.
If it was my friends who asked me rather than my dad, i would be quiet for the whole process...

Well,
Studying in Aussie.... it seems like a dream, and it seems far...
but.. it is near when you come to think about it...

I am so going to take up Research Project to support my Master studies......

Can you believe that My dad actually ask me to leave Malaysia and settle down overseas???
I knw, someday... i have to leave all i have in Malaysia behind.....
It's a tough road... you knw? It's a tough road.

Fear gets in me whenever i think about it...
I dun have the courage when i think that i might fail... but... i never try, i'll never knw.

It's getting nearer and nearer....

I wanna get out from here!!!!!!(i mean birdnest...)

Wake me up when it ends….

I wish someone could just knock me till I'm unconscious or give me some sleeping liquid….Let me drink it…

And wake me up when November ends….

 

I was extremely blue… and whatever I do, I cannot finish it…

Good, windy weather… slept the whole day…

I dun have the mood to reply all the msgs….

It's all one word, emotionless… cuz.. I feel like banging off my phone and isolate myself from the world… not in the mood for everything… sigh..

 

I asked DArLeng to online from FB… cuz I couldn't stand anymore…

So, we chatted… and he cheered me up.

I told him tht I am feeling really blue.. and it eventually got spread to him. Well, he doesn't have much effect on this "Blue" thingy… but I've overcome it.

He made me white from light blue…

Thanks to him. I miss him lots..

 

Perhaps, it's time to "white " myself now. My notes missed me…

I should make myself sleep as long as I want tonight….. without any obstructions…. I need a balance from everything…

Tribute to her and all...

Tim Hughes- Everything

A tribute from me to my darl, Sher who just lost her grandfather last Saturday.

Sincerely prayed for her..

This Song rang in me...

I dedicate this song to her, as a support for her and her family. hope that she will remember this lyrics again and get over the sadness, the grief.. with God helding her through.

I hope you still remember the lyrics even after DAre to Move.:-)

God Bless you and your family.

embracing what God does for you, it's the best thing you can do for him. ~~Romans 12:1

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TO me, myself, Tears no more.

Be my everything.

Grow with me, guide me to the light, Guide me through the darkness..

bless me with strong will.....

God bless all of us who are sitting for finals exam soon....

BlueTree- God of this city.

I Love this Original version more than Chris Tomlin's cover version.

All the best my pals!!

We will make it through with God's grace.

Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.

~Matthew 6:25-27

Diwali eatings.. EAT EAT and EAT!!!:-)

Happy Diwali!! I had a great day!!! erm.. ate too much d.. and have to GYM MORE!!! haiz……

Well, went to meet DeER after her work..on Friday evening. muahaha!! had my TOSAI!!! YAY!!!!! we talked.. talked and talked….

erm, tht’s what i miss la, TALKING TO HER!!!! haha!!!

I think we wont run out of topic.. cuz if we do, means i’m deaf and cannot speak. haha!

So, tht night, went to Mum’s colleague open house, had puttu mayam, rendangs, fried chickens, muttons.. Fyuuh.. satisfied night!!!

muah and DeEr had set tht we’ll be going for dim sum on Sat morning, which is THIS MORNING. Mmm…

 

 

 

DIm SUM!! my breakfast!!! hahahaha!!! well, this is a satisfying breakfast i have… cuz it’s nice and with someone who knows how to appreciate DIM SUM!!! :-)

yeah la, she only eats FRIED STUFF in Dim SUm. Muah? I’m okay with anything, i eat everything basically.. so most of the time, she calls the order. :-)

As usual, we went to JJBT, Jusco to walk, shop.. and to change her BAG her boy Boy bought. Well… Of course, this is another moment tht i miss cuz it’s been like forever since i go to JJ with her. Normally, we’ll check around new shoes, new bags, new clothes, BLOOK.. (she shops there most of the time..) Me? i hardly shop and i’m not crazy for clothes and bags.. even shoes…So according to my little Sistah, the problem is with me. Mmm…..

I really dunno why i dun have affection towards all these. but i like bags and accessories… haha!!! owh, not forgetting, GADGETS!!! I love GAdgets! :-) and AUdio stuff! :-) CDs, Headphones, Musics, are my FAv! :-)

So, we shopped around, walked around… and we got hungry. Out of sudden, while searching for food, she thought of out PIZZA date when i talked about FAst Food and we passed by tht place. muahahah!!

Had pizza and we couldnt finish it.. haiz, as usual also.. take away half of it…

Received invitation from JuLene for Steamboat. We went too.. at 6pm.:-)

Saw RAchel!!!!

It was a nice meal!!! had fun eating and chatting. I’m really glad that Julene can eat now… hehe…. okay, she has to gain weight, for baby’s sake. :-)

Order.. then MAKAN. LOL!!! :-)

 

                               

this drink, lemon splash! NIce!!! :-) Love it!!

So, seeing another Rachel of mine makes my day.:-) of course, not forgetting Kiat Kiat!!! the Sissy! :-) hehe……

It was rather a surprise, cuz… we were invited to Uncle Guard’s house!!! haha!!! tell you wat, thank god we went!!! the food are nice!!! just tht we’re too full for everything, we ate a little.. :-)

 

                          

Uncle’s house. :-) Column.:-)

 

Left, the best couple!! and Uncle!! :-)

hehe….

 

                                

the best mutton!!!! nice! nice!!

 

                               

this is the AYAM KICAP. believe it or not, it is superb!!!

 

                              

Sambal ayam!!! Julene enjoyed it i guess!! nice!!!:-)

 

                                 

the BEST FRIED CHICKEN THT I”VE ever HAD!!! dun believe??? ask SISSY!!!! He enjoyed this the most!! and it’s seriously very nice!!! :-)

 

                                  

Curry Chicken!!! Goes well with Puttu mayam and TOSAI!!!!! YES!! TOSAI!!!

 

                                

Freshly made!!! gosh.. it was so Nice!!!!! hot!! and.. it goes well with the MUtton!!! hahaha!!!! (this picture was bad.. cuz it was taken by KIAT KIAT!! bad skill….)

Can u believe it? even Jerry eats it!!! haha!!

 

                                   

how happy both of them… Mmm…. hahah!! enjoying the food!!! :-) Julene’s best smile!! :-)

 

Well, i ate a lot… the WHOLE DAY EATING!!! GOSH!!!

Gym on monday!!! hahahaha!!!

 

so, there goes my weekends, my Raya and Diwali open house. haha! Life evolves around food…

this week, I’ve eaten Steamboat TWICE!!! in 2 days!! Twice of Indian Open house in 2 days, Dim SUm, Pizza, Tosai in Butterfly park… GOSH!!!!!

Anyhow, my Dental appointment is next week, so… hurtful again… haha!:-)

 

Dino!!!! my baby brother’s brother Dino!!!! haha!!! I love to poke Dino’s nose… LOL!!!! Sheepig is with me, Dino’s with DarLeng.

Dino looks cute right? haha!@!!

So, there goes my day, time to stuck myself into notes again now….

I seriously had a great time today. Looking at my Little sistah modelling,(in Blook) haha.. in shoes outlet… talked like crazy, eat like crazy… and kena scold in Pizza like crazy…. LOL!

I will consider if they mention it again.:-)

For now, they are overwhelmed by the Sport car… haha!!! Mum needs to learn how to drive it in the FIELD 2mr! can u imagine that?? and she asked me to learn with her?!?!? har??? haha!! maybe i should follow her??? :-)

 

Tired day, guess i’ll study and wash up at 1am. :-)

Great day i had yesterday. :-)

CAn i say that i had a blast yesterday night?
I reached home at 8something, so.. dad decided to bring us to GRILLED LAMB dinner near Taman Sentosa.

He actually wanted to bring us there last week.. but a lot of things and unsuitable timing.. argh.. it didnt work.

Well,
this is the Grilled lamb i had!!! nice!!! and fats free... muahaha!!

As u knw, my family enjoyed lamb a lot.
besides lamb, we had grilled Fish, Crabs, Heineken.. haha!!

yeah, it was a great night. Drinking with mum, peeling crabs, chatting....
It's worth than anything.
Talkings, and updates from Campus, updates from Mum and dad, updates from my siblings... basically, we talked about everything, everyone. hahaha!!!!

(i only get to tk the lamb's picture... aiks..... haha!!)

I've decided to have fun these few days, cuz it's weekend, and... it's DIWALI!!!

Happy Diwali and Happy Hols to all!! :-)

Tosai as supper?? anyone???
cuz i dun wanna eat tosai as dinner..... Mmm...


I'm hungry now and i seriously crave for dim sum!!!
Couldnt find kaki to eat.... sad.. sad.
anyway, Dim Sum is one of the MUSt EAT this weekend.... hahahaha!!!


I'll have to do the shopping for mum's open house visiting later... What to buy? It really drives me crazy when i come to think of it.
cuz.... I'm not AUNTY ENUF to BUY THINGS THAT ARE CHEAP AND NICE!!!!
Mummy never fails to do that... can you believe it??? She just showed me a set of plates/dishes which only cost RM0.90 per pcs Yesterday night!!! and it is seriously very nice!!!

sigh..........


Great day ahead!!! :-) I knw mine is going to be one! :-)

Dr Rao's farewell..

I was really really tired yesterday and i slept very early.. once i reach home at 8pm, took my bath, chat with DeER a little, then slept from 9pm till 7am.. which is half an hour ago....

Gosh.....

Yesterday was an emotional day. We had farewell with Dr. RAo..

hey my friends, log on Facebook and see all the pictures!!! it's hundreds of them... go see and feel free to comment. :-)


My buddies!!! I love Josh's expression... haha!!!


me and Dr Rao....

My DArlings with Dr Rao.....




These are my dear Calssmates......


For another ONCE IN OUR ENTIRE YEAR, we come together and made this celebration successful.

Dr RAo was touched.. he cried. So do most of us.......
It was a touching moment...

Especially when "My Wish" was being sung.. lead by me and PS, plus the 2 glorious guitarist, Nick and Josh. PS couldnt really tahan and she cracked in the beginning of the song.....
She cried..
Dr Rao was touched to see the lyrics....

*hugs San San*

Well... yeah, the celebration was a successful one......

Anyway, people come and go.
All we can do is appreciate the person's presence.
Preserve what the person had given us.
Love and carry the things that the person had left in us.

I guess, no one will love Dr. Rao to go... but, when the turning point of life reaches, one has to do the turn and move on.
Like i said, this is life.

I am very sure that Dr.Rao will smile when he thinks back all the memory in UCSI, especially in teaching all of us.
Our year is a special year...
seriously special...

anyway, the specialty in us is what makes us so famous(infamous?) haha...

Well, i love the moment where all of us sang together, and co-operate in this event.


It's time to wash up....
and study a little...

now that i've had enough sleep, and it's time to fight for my day.

Will be going back tonight, haha.... parents!! DInner!!! yay!!!!!
:-)


" Do not give up... You all are far better than me, if i can make it, why not all of you? Try until you get what you want...." --- Dr. Nalamolu Koteswara Rao

My day, crave for everything + MORONS.

ho ho ho...
I just came back from SINGING PRACTICE.

Wednesday, 2pm. FArewell for Dr. Rao. Mmm... I dunno why i became the singer suddenly.. GOSH!!

they are the guitarist!!! Josh and Nick!

the Girl with the long hair, Pui San... and Muah..we're the singers.
The 2 guys.. they are the planners, and CAKE HOLDERS. plus my dancers+backup singers.
hahahah!!

I sing till my voice become hoarse.


Well... I hope everything turns well 2mr.. as there's practice from 11am onwards...
The farewell is at 2pm.... and the whole class really need to co-operate...

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I was very tired today. Barely open my eyes.... haiz....
so i came back early just to sleep. haha!! and true enuf, I've slept very long.. from 3 something to 7something... gosh...
and now.. eyes wide open, hoarse voice...

Studied a little, planned to give myself a small break.. hehe.....

I crave for DIm SUm....
Tosai....
Fried Chicken....
wah... a lot more.....

even now, i crave for talking... haha!!!

Maison, not my type la.. eventhough it's free... hehe....
I still prefer mamak? LOL!!

Owh, why am i being called as Miss "TUUU"? Gosh.... ANyhow, Aussie... can, i can pay for u but.. wait till I get my first 4K income for at least a year la.... LOL!!!
tht time, i can afford d.... hehe.....

Since u're still "kissing the Kids" on friday, so....
sigh....but i still want TOsai... immediately when i'm back..... sob sob.......

Guess what's makes me happy? DarLeng found himself back!!! his relationship problem has solved, it became better!!! I am truly happy for that!!!!!
and..
GOd answered my prayers again.
Everyday i will pray for my siblings and their relationships... and it seems like HE has answered my prayers.

I think the same goes to my DeEr. :-) It seems like it's getting better and i am truly happy.


Well, it's almost 1am...

I hope my DArLeng will get well soon. I hope my DeEr will enjoy what she is doing now... (she din say, but i knw) hahahah!!!

Love both of them lots lots lots!!!

I proudly announce that i will be FREE ON SATS and SUNS on the month of NOV.

I've been thinking for a long time....
I've decided to give myself a month break just to enjoy my family time.:-)
U knw why?
DArLEng just told me.. "... everytime when we are free, you seem busy...especially on weekends"

I myself realize that also.. and i seriously feel guilty for not having family breakfast of outings on Sat and SUn...
tht's why..
Since my 2Ds are in Klang on Nov.. so, i guess it is worth to sacrifice my MONEY to accompany my Ds and Family.
I guess, tht's what my folks want too....
Well, LEt my November be free then....:-) I value my family, siblings more than anything..



Aku rindu GILER dekat mereka!!!

Both are the MORONS in my life. My lovely MORONS...:-) muahahahaha!!!!!

My Wish, Dr. RAo.

Dear Dr. Rao, this is for you.....
Just want you to knw tht we love you and no matter where you go, remember OUR WISH FOR YOU... It's all in this song.......



...cuz God will give us someone better. --- Kitty San.

A day, me and you... and BIG PERSON in UNI SUCKs!

A great day, non productive... sob sob....
Class whole day.... heard BLAHs from him.... heard blahs from her....
prediction from her instead of encouragement...
stupid shit....

How can someone BIG predict that we will FAIL instead of giving ENCOURAGEMENT?

I am truly truly disappointed by her... As our BIG PERSON, i appreciate if she doesnt say anything or just keep quiet... but, PREDICTION?? gosh.... i rather that she keeps quiet and see us perform..

FAIL once doesnt mean you'll FAIL FOREVER OKAY!

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I'm sickened by complains.. so dun ever complain infront of me again.
I'm sickened by predictions.. so dun ever say tht we will fail or say GOOD LUCK in YOUR SUPP PAPER!! this is not what we wanna hear!!!!
I'm sickened of being pushed when i'm not needed and being grabbed when i'm in need...

sigh.....

I miss home now.......
Uni is a havoc! With ppl discouraging you, pulling you down when you're at the bottom of the hole, saying tht "I HOPE THT MIRACLE WILL HAPPEN".. as if it won't happen to us..

eh.. i'm really really sick of all these.

Home is still the nice, best place....
I have my 2Ds...
I have my parents...
My sheepig, Patrick, and Friends...

I think i need a break. Mmm.... Probably after my finals.

CAn you imagine how stress am i?
Dah lah result tak baik, Orang besar lagi membuat jangkaan bahawa kami akan gagal dalam exam.
ARgh.... stress situasi.

I'll prove them wrong! WE'll prove them wrong!!! If this is the spirit you are trying to create, sorry to say u did not created it, as WE cREATED IT!
You only created ANGER in us!! and DISAPPOINTMENT in US!

Fyuhh... emotional la.

Enough of her.

now back to me,:-)


Yeah, I've agreed to pay means I will pay. :-) Doesnt matter where it is.:-)

I will definitely go somewhere else after my camp. :-) I'll see when the time comes.

For now, I'm concentrating on my finals exam. REally have to work hard for it.....

I saw my daily inspiration column.. it says Seven DAys without a prayer makes someone weak.
i guess.. it is true.

Went out with BAin, Prat, Nick, Sher for dinner... talked a lot. Said smthing about GOD and KArma.
I believe in God, and Karma. :-)
My experience... seriously it's my experience.

God showed me way to move on.
I dunno how to describe, it's like... hearing voices after giving my prayers... a message sent from nowhere to encourage me, and give me the strength to move on.
Believe it or not, I heard the message....

Thank God.

Life has been busy and will be busy, anyhow, i hope i can go back on Thursday night.. and hope that i dun have class on Friday.:-)

P.S : Set! for Broga trip. :-) Of course, as usual, my treat. :-) Can we go dim sum? I miss it now... CAn we go Tosai?? I miss it too... Can we talk like no one's business? I miss it too... I miss the "I hate you" from you... LOL.:-)

P.S.S : RIP Stephen GAtely... you live in us.:-)

Ms Ang Sie Yung and my Sunday work.

ok, i did not do as what i promised which is to upload the pics of LOOK OUT POINT. (Tri havent really upload it.. so yeah...)

Just wanna share some of my feelings on my blog.
I had a great weekend. Especially eating. YEah, my dad and mum really made a good couple in cooking. Both of them took turns to cook for me... muahaha!!!

The most importantly, they cooked. They knw i like home cooking, and i will crave for whatever dishes they cooked.
and i will make sure that i eat and finish up everything.

I've worked with Sie Yung today.. owh, she is Ms. Ang.
Opened shop and she's my partner for today,and trust me, i enjoyed working with her.

We had a great chat.. and I've learnt a lot of things today.. from customers and from her.
She showed me a different approach on how to go about achieving my dreams after i graduate. Thanks to her that the picture is clearer and the puzzle is solved for another 10%.

For those who knw me, they knw tht i'm not going to stick my ass in Malaysia when i graduate or start working.
I have bigger dreams. Bigger stuff to achieve in my life.

Ms Ang had gave me a good talk and advise which boosts me up and made me even more spirited up eventhough the path is very very difficult.
It's a lot of scarification and a lot of preparations to be done before my HOUSEMANSHIP. seriously a lot to be done....

And i need to plan it within this one year or 2 years so tht i can go about it once i start my HOUSEMANSHIP.

Ms. Ang, she has different views in a lot of things and she impressed me by showing me ways and paths that i can take. She is a practicing pharmacist in HTAR and she might be my future boss??? haha!! who knows?? For now, she is my friend, my colleague, and my advisor. hahaha!! (besides Julene )

U cannot imagine how tough it is going to be, cuz i cannot imagine it too. She told me, " never say tht it is hard or impossible before you even try it"

She is even kind enough to tell me what HOUSEMANs usually do and what SHE (as a preceptor) expects from housemans.
IT was a sharing session... and owh, she is much much older than me.
believe it or not, my circle of life involves around older friends.

I wonder how many of my mates actually thought of going out of the comfort zone and do something out of their family's protection??
It is a tough road for me.
I always knw that.

BREAKTHROUGH is something that i wanna do in my life.

I dun want my life to be........

• GRADUATE
• WORK aS HOUSEMAN in HOSPITAL,
• GOT REGISTERED, practiced for 3 years in Government,
• then.. end up as a retail pharmacist.
• GOT MARRIED, or STAY single for the rest of my life...
• and GOT STUCKED HERE.

Believe it or not, i've been thinking and searching for ways to go about my plans since last Sem.
too bad, i am lack of guidance and info, it always got me stucked in the middle of nowhere.

but now, i think the walls in front of me gets lower, and i can go through to find my way.

All thanks to Ms Ang, Sie YUng. I will never forget her name... haha!! :-)

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Sometimes i feel like a dorkball, why?
my friends all studying to pass each sem... and pass sem by sem.
ask about their future? they always say: " pass this sem first la... later only think."

Mmm... it doesnt happen to me la.. although passing every sem is important also.. I do think of it whenever i am online and whenever i am thinking of my future undertakings.

I dun consider myself as " thinking too much".. cuz... it's about time to think now.
and it is about time to prepare myself to get the documents i need.

I need more advise, on this matter.
My "cabang" is not widely spread yet. but now.. at least i have one more diversion.

WEll, after the chat with Ms Ang, at least i knw my main plan and my alternative plan. :-)

I stil dunno what i wanna do if i really wanna stay in Malaysia after i graduate.(which i dun feel like staying)

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Government,
It's time for a change. This is not right....
Ppl are leaving, especially those smart asses. they are leaving to serve other country....

If Government still stay " PEACE" ... i tell you, Malaysia will never be a developed country by 2020....

Sorry to say, for Malaysia to change, it needs to wait until the old generations now are being worn out and left the new generation of modern minds rule the country.

I am really sad to see my country is getting bad to worse.
this is one of the reasons why i am planning to leave...

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I was being sad last Saturday....

I need a full one month off for that....

I guess my spirit is dying... Someone, lift me up. i cant seem to find reasons to LOVE anymore.
Is it my fault??
I am not an important person...

My heart is not in it? is it??
Can i ask for faith from YOU???

I feel that i am suffocating week after week.....
TIme after time....
hours after hours...

It is not fair to lead them on if my heart's not in it.......

I need to find myself back....