Incoercible LoVe

2012 New Year Celebration

2012-01-02T01:40:00.001+08:00

First thing’s First, Thank You Lord for a wonderful year of 2011, You have done Great things in my life. No words can say how mighty you are. =)

So, I started my New Year’s eve with my darlings, breakfast in Pandamaran, and went for Sing K session with them. Eh hem.. my singing technique improves. LOL!! *perasan-nya*

Bought a bottle of Shiraz Rosei for NYE’s dinner. Yeap, booked a table of 5 pax in La Carretas Taipan USJ. It was… awesome.

So, we met at Datin’s place at 6pm. me? of course, I drove up to PC to her place. spend some time with DAtin, chatted.. (tht’s what I always love to do when I’m with someone I care or close).

The rest of the gang reaches at 6 plus.

Las Carretas.. how do I came about this restaurant? haha.. At first, wanted to go to Damansara for Mexican Food, then only I realize that the Restaurant is not there anymore. Hence.. I googled. Saw Las Carretas with good reviews, reasonable price for that type of quality of food. =)

so, off I go!!! Just in case someone forgot how I looked like. HAHAHAH!

we were served Nachos as snacks.

Nachos was awesome.. no oil, and the dips are really traditional mexicanie. haha… and I love the ambience of the restaurant!!!!

our Rosei… and the environment of the restaurant. Luckily we booked a table, if not.. we wont be able to dine in anywhere else. hahaha.

these are awesome food!!!

The Taco is really nice, with chicken inside.

Combine Acapulco is combination of flank steak and chicken breAST, WITH CHEESE.

Burrito, it has wonderful sauce.. and its awesome.

Left is Fajitas. it tastes so good.. loved the beef!!! =) right, owh. josh’s head was blocked. yeah, there were 5 of us. =)

Had a wonderful welcoming of 2012 with Mexican Food. and its Authentic!!!

Like I said, the bill came up to around Rm40 per person.

and… the wine is awesome with the food!!! I really enjoyed it a lot, and it’s a bliss to my taste bud! hahaa.

then, we were all keen for drinking session. owh well, I’ve took pictures of it but not so nice to show. 6 of us, in cheras. Ah Boon joined us at night. so we drank, play cards and sing.. and got drunk. P.S: I wish I was drunk too….

We bid 2011 goodbye among us and I bid my night goodbye by taking care of the 2 drunkards. hahahaha!!!!

Well, let me tell u, don’t underestimate drunkards, they can do funny things without remembering it. HAHAHAHAH!

So, 1/1/2012. It comes with laughter. =)

Went for New Year Service, and had a great morning with the Lord.

what’s best?

ignore the background. haha.. it’s the gift and the giver.. =) *loves and hugs*

I’m so touched… you knw what? She sew the bookmark by hand… T_T all of it. from top to bottom, front and back…

her initials. =)

I’m just glad and blessed. This is a meaningful book, why??

cuz she scribbled on it. =)

and and, another free earphone from Creative!!!!! its ear buds! I LOVE IT!!! =)

Lastly, a status that explains all.

she uses 3 days to sew the book mark.

I’m so touched… and happy.

owh well, I’m not forgotten. =P

New Year’s service message was about “The Lord is my Shepherd”

So happen.. the bookmark that she sew is “The Lord is my Shepherd” too. So, you still think its co-incidence? hahaha… like I said in previous post, nah, its not co-incidence. =)

God, you are awesome.

She wont read this blog, anyway.. I’ve thanked her.

Guess it’s a meaningful New YEar. =) very meaningful. and I love all my gifts a lot. =)

KJV bible, a book, a bookmark, and earphone. haha… all in one. =)

I’m blessed that my life evolves around great people. =) trustable people, and those who appreciate who I am.

God’s grace.

Peeps, Happy New Year to all of you. In this NEw YEar, Live, laugh, love. (why sound so familiar??) haha.

Put Him as priority, and achieve whatever things that you want. Life is short, one year passed in a blink of an eye. So, appreciate every single day, and be blessed for what you have, and what you don’t have.

Happy Happy New YEar.

P.S: I cant forget the drunk face of Datin and San San. haha..

P.S.S: to the person who forget how I looked like, Lets have a meal!! =)

Victorious me, Glory to Him.

2011-11-29T17:23:00.001+08:00

wah.. its been a long time since i write with blogger draft. Looks so different now and i can't even recognize it. haha!

Today, indeed is a Victorious day of mine.
Like i promised, The vision that i have, i will fulfill it.

Yes, i am left with one semester OFFICIALLY. and my holiday STARTS OFFICIALLY for one month!

whats my plan for hol? nah... i plan to look for job( if there's ppl wanna hire me), complete my accounts, ber-mate-mate with my bed, cumbu-cumbuan with my sheepig, and.. travelling, meet up with friends.

yeah, I have a trip in 2 week's time with my oldies. haha. not my parents, but my old friends. see? life is really good when God takes over it.

This day, is a great testimony of my life. It proves again God's love and power. YEs, faith of a mustard seed is able to move a mountain.

I've done it? have u?

I am glad that i don't need to wake up from stress 2mr morning. yeah.. i can go all out and enjoy my day.

God is good. God is great! Awesome, and Power.

haha.. my mum almost cried. owh well, she prayed in her own way for me every single day... i knw. =) Anyhow, God is the main character, without Him, there's no achievement in me.

Next, God pleases complete my puzzle... Continue to guide me Lord.

Tonight, wedding dinner... AGAIN! i have so many wedding dinner this month.... and next week, there's another one..

just came back from a great jog.. actually, i am sick of jogging alone, but i still wanna jog. For my health's sake, cuz i dont wanna live like a potato this whole holiday. (i can forsee that i'll be eating, eating and eating). Gosh, i am kinda sick of food... hahahha!!!

okay, time to bath, play some barbie doll dress up, draw some lines, pat some powder, and squeeze some concealer. Gotto get ready for tonight's dinner. ha.ha.ha.
(sad.. everyone is getting married.. and me? i'm still Y.F.S) LOL!

"seek and you shall find, ask and you shall receive"
have you presented your request to God? You knw that God loves you? =)

ciao. =)

mum and dad, love you both. =)

Beautiful Sunday encounter.

2011-11-27T16:36:00.001+08:00

it’s a beautiful sunday. Let me just write what I feel.. for those who need some motivation, yeah. its for u.

Honestly, I still wake up from stress every single day ever since 16november. I was relieved that it was over, but I couldn't accept the fact that I did screw up one of the paper. That’s the paper which I sat, and I don’t feel victorious at all. I don’t have confidence when I stepped out from the hall.

I was and desperate for God’s miracle, and I know He hears my cry and my prayers. I try not to lean on my understanding and yet, those bad visions just come into my mind, and I got a bad feeling.

I never stopped my desperate prayers though. Like I said, I think God will really laugh at my prayers, but I proclaim His words. “Seek, and you shall find, ask and you shall receive”

Today, while I was on my way to FGA, Got a ooomph for Hillsongs, so I tuned into my pendrive.

I got a message from Him through them, Hillsongs. of all songs, I started paying attention to God’s words. yeah.. God is able. and this is the song that was playing and I had a deep thought on the voices I heard while I was singing this song with my Spirit. I started to feel peace. HE spoke.

some preface about what happened… : during my finals period, there were a few songs that worked in my life, yeap, my exam life. “Stronger”, “amazing grace”. God spoke to me everytime I hear these songs, that is why my youtube playlist is full of Gospel.

So, He spoke to me in the car. I really got peace.

then,I reached FGA. =) as the worship session starts, as usual.. He is always in the house, and in the atmosphere.

Guess what? The worship team started singing “God is able”. My heart was so overwhelmed. A voice came to my head, “I hear you, I’m with you eventhough you can’t see me”. yes, these came to my mind.

I was really really overwhelmed. gave thanks to Him and I got His message.

*deep in me.. there’s not coincidence, only power of God.*

So, the power of the song reigns over me… I feel so touch because God is so intact in my heart. He always tells me about his presence through songs. I always wonder, maybe this is the way for me communicate with Him besides prayers. and this is the way He talks to me too..

The next song.. oh my God.. I slain immediately right after the worship lead singer started singing “Stronger”. The first thing I said “God, You are awesome.. Thank You for assuring that You are always with me.”

This time, the encounter was different, as I sing praise.. memories flashes into my head, all about how close He was in me during exam period, and He is still with me.. NOW. I am still overwhelmed by His love while I am typing this post. I can’t wait to share God’s love to the readers, yeah.. I really hope I can give hope through my post, to those who are sad, deprived from love.. and I want them to knw, When people hate you for certain reason, God loves you with no reason.

I was really overwhelmed while I was giving praise. No one could understand my feeling, because everyone has a different encounter.

you knw, everytime when I listen to “stronger” while I was studying, it touches my heart and gives me courage to move on, and its sort of like a God’s shield for me. I feel safe and protected through songs, because He always speaks to me through it.

My heart was so peaceful and all I wanna do is glorify Him, because.. this week its different compared to the FGA sessions that I had previous weeks. Previous weeks, He showed me his presence through another song… which appeared (means sung by the worship team) 3 weeks in a row! (and yeah, that was the song that touches me before the first week where the worship team sang).

This week.. He gave me visions of the exams, saying that He was there for me, and He is still here for me. Never left, and He knows what I’m going through. Sort of a peaceful message ask me do not be anxious, because He is stronger.

Now next.. My heart bursts out in tears when the worship team started singing “Amazing Grace”.

Tears of joy filled my eyes, and my heart.

God, you are awesome! He showed me this week and reassured me that He is listening to me and he’s been always there. I’m so touched by His unending love. really really touched.

Praise God.

I wanna be victorious and Lord, You hear me. I will never stop my desperate prayers and I know that you hear me Lord.

Today, it’s the starting of a victorious week. I knw.. I’m gonna leave everything to Him. “If we succeed, praise Him, If we fail, Praise Him”

God has an adventurous plan for all of us.

Praise god.

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I have always love to talk to Aunt Carol, si fatt’s mum. Probably she’s a young mum with a liberal opinion, and she’s a liberal mum too. not to say my mum is not good, and hello!! my mum is my bestest mum on earth! haha…

Aunt Carol always give positive energy to people.. and today, She transferred her positive energy to me. haha.. as she always does. =)

She made me think hard. and I knw, if I’ve decided to do something, nothing will stop me if its God’s will.

So, I think I have to think hard on it, gotto plan well. Because its my life, my future.

I don’t mind giving up my career for something exciting, and something better. Of course, it is better if we have somebody to share it with. (not partner, but someone..) hehe.

Am I ready to accept the fact that I have to start from scratch? I guess I should’ve got myself a Business degree instead of a Rph degree. *wink* nah, too late. I’m at the end of the studying path, and at the start of my life now.

2 years, will I be able to earn enuf to survive for at least 6 months?

God, complete the puzzles in my mind. Once completed, Let Your will be done.

and.. si fatt once told me when we were waiting for our bus in AT.. She told me that I am overly independent.

“Overly” is a strong word, because I only consider myself as “Too independent”. not “overly” haha.

I guess, that is one of my good points, and it can be a fatal weakness huh?

owh, what she told me that day still got me thinking till now.

Sometimes, I really enjoy my life as YFS (young, free, single), sometimes I also hope to have someone to share my everything.. haha, I got too much love to give! haha.

I don’t mind giving it a shot. yeah.. if someone special appeared, that can change my life.

I know that wherever I go, I can make it, I can survive. All I need is just adaptation. yeah… Charles DArwin theory of NAtural Selection.

Chinese (most) are survivals. Its in their blood. agree? so does Indians, because they are marginalized. That’s why they keen to survive and we can’t blame them for their ego. They are striving hard to get a reputation in the society.

I really don’t wanna be a slave for money. But thinking back, wherever I work, I’m still a slave for $$, depends on how I manage my mind. =)

There are too many things to consider, especially when u’re older, and when commitments come.

I plan to give myself 10 years.. but can I really survive that long out of the box? There’s a will, there’s a way?

Sometimes, I really doubt my choice in working in Sg last year. because.. it showed me how small Malaysia is, and how unorganized Malaysia is. This thinking got amplified by the Aussie’s experience. I love Malaysia, but politics seem to made it dirty.

Owh well.. back to me, my plan.

I ask for guidance from my Lord, Guide me through God, for you knw what’s best for me, and all of us.

In His name, we say…. A.M.E.N.

just publish

2011-11-24T11:12:00.001+08:00

one word: Jaded

but I don’t feel empty.

I’m desperate. Yes I am.

Desperate in a lot of ways, wanting the mustard seed of faith to plant in me. Yet, its so hard.. yeah, it is hard.

anyway, the best has yet to come.

To Him. cheers, to Him.

Praise Him.

2011-11-13T16:12:00.001+08:00

Today, had a great sunday despite of studying.

I was reading on cute cute’s blog. Owh well.. he is really an emo guy. How a person looked like from the outside is so much different that what the person may feel in the inside. I actually feel kinda heartbroken to see him that way. Probably the whole world seems like abandoning him, but… I still feel that each and everyone of us deserves a space in this world, and in each and everyone’s heart.

He is lonely.

yeah.. he is.

He reminds me of what Joshua told me. Well, he surprised me that day. He gave me one of his best teachings and conversation ever.. which I didn’t expect. I guess God is really good and awesome, He never fails to stop sending angels into my life.

Cute Cute reminded me of Joshua’s words. “You knw it yourself, when you knw Him, you don’t feel lonely anymore.. You know this feeling, especially before you sleep. You knw that you are not lonely and he is always with you.. I’m sure you understand your life before and after having Jesus in your life. right?”

I was again surprised by this statement. Yeah, I don’t feel lonely anymore, not even one second. Though I have great friends, like Si fatt, sor por,Ah beng, my old buddies and old friends who really treasure me, I still feel that its God who sent them into my life for a reason. I might not see it now, but I I will. Nah, as long as we all appreciate each other now.

He gave me example of a pastor, went to a village where animism is a their religion, they worship the creator, in forms of trees, rock, and some other forms, and they do their offering (fishes) to the Creator before they feast. Well, Josh told me that Pastor said :" it is education which plays a big part. You knw, they make offerings, so does We, christians do. so, what pastor did was educating them about Offerings and God in a way that they understand.”

then Josh Told me.. “ same goes to you and your parents. You will need to get attached and engaged to them, because to honour parents is to honor God. You get engage more with them, let them see the changes in you, and most importantly Jesus’s love.”

and he continued “ one thing you also need to understand, you don’t try to change them, but respect them.”

yeah, I replied: “ I did.. I respect them as how I want them to respect me. The funny thing is, as time goes, my relationship with my parents got closer. Somehow, God moves me and changed me in this aspect. It comes automatically… without me even realizing.”

Josh continued: “ Yeah, you knw in City Harvest, for us.. One of the 10 commandments is to honour your Parents, and obey them. Whatever they ask you to do, you obey. Eventhough if they ask you to take the joss stick and pray, you can do it, but its wrong if you do it willingnessly or freely deep in your heart. anyway.. if it is obeying your parents, its not wrong. Because Jesus is love, He wants us to show love instead of disharmony. If disobeying them makes you and your family fall into disharmony, what’s the point? that’s not the purpose of Jesus, He wants us to Love our family, and everyone. If creating commotion is the ultimate outcome, then it is not right. So, its ok to obey them in this sense. Don’t you worry.. Jesus wants us to show love, not dissatisfaction. You imagine, if because of a joss stick and your whole family started quarreling, that’s not what God wants us to do.”

He continues: “ by obeying them, you are actually showing them love, which is also Jesus’s love. Let them knw this friend of yours, Its not wrong though, Jesus is like a new friend, what is wrong of getting know a new friend? right? through engaging with them, you get to show them how this friend has really changed your life. BUT… you must be ready to confront them…. someday…”

I replied.. “yeah.. I am, and I’m waiting for the right time…”

So, my car approaches Space that time. It was already almost 3 am. Josh words got me thinking until now.

It was really funny when he first ask “hey, I wanna ask you something which I wanted to ask long ago..”

of course.. me myself knw what it is deep within. So, he asked.

“I replied him, yeah.. you are supposed to ask me this qs long time ago… hahaha”

so, that was where our conversation started.

I guess… Like I always give thanks to God, He has been sending angels into my life, to remind me of how Great is His love.

Today in FGA, I was touched again. HE, again… spoke to me of His existence and how HE persistently and consistently stayed with me. Seriously, that song appeared 3 weeks in a row and why that song? haha.. long story, gotto go back to that week before my first paper. Kinda lazy to repeat again. but I think I do mention in somewhere in my last post.. (I think).

So, God is great! He works in his miraculous way. I think He sent Josh that day, to untangled something which I’ve always worried about. now, with HIM, as my witness, my partner-in-crime, my saviour, my Lord, I have no worries at all.. (it doesn’t mean that I will do joss stick willingly), but He opened up my heart again and deepens my love towards my parents. Josh taught me how to deal with it, which I strongly believe its God’s words. He used Josh to speak to me.

How wonderful our God is.

Everytime when I flash back on my Christian walk, I feel so touched and so overwhelmed by Him. You knw, one thing that normal people have lack of, is… They wont be understanding on how I feel all these years, How God has changed me, How God has make a difference in my life.. and.. How God has filled me to the extend that He has become my best friend whom is close and sooo intact with the tissue of my heart. God made us with His image, and I pray that I will be more like Him each day.

Though I started rough,its Salvation, which made me understand that we’re all born righteous. Once you have Salvation, it doesn’t matter who you were previously, you are the brand new you, and we have a new triumph and victory in Christ.

I’m so grateful that in the name of Holy Spirit, I am baptized eventhough I’m not baptized by water. Glory to God. =) (this is something that no one knows.. and I guess when it is on blog, it’s considered opened.haha.) ok, this is another shocking story. well, share it next time, on how I got the ability. =)

Its funny that Josh got me thinking of the “feeling lonely” thingy before sleep. I compared…. my life before and after. Conclusion : I’ve never been whole before, and it feels like God has filled the missing parts and empty spaces in my heart, and he created more spaces for sincere people like my pals to stay in it.

I pray for a bigger heart. =)

Praise the Lord.

Another day. =)

2011-11-11T12:55:00.001+08:00

So, I had a bad quality sleep.

brain was exhausted.

and.. me, was exhausted physically.

well, I’m still doing fine, standing strong,like the Soldier of Light. Fighting!

My daily life is so overwhelmed. Everytime when I’m in distress, or when I’m stretched., My angels never fails to remind me about who He is, He was, and He will be. Where to find this kind of friend?

My coussie in IMU had done with her 4 days marathon exam!Its her Birthday today, meaningful right?

I got my own plans tonight, so…. perhaps, no IMU today? haha! been studying and meeting her up for dinner last 2 weeks.. occasionally. Love hanging with her, I miss her hugging me to sleep actually. hahaha! yeah, she’s like my own sister, and she will not do this to her biological sister. owh… I love all my cousies! seriously. So, I guess I’m meeting her again..soon? =)

First, let me just give Him a big testimony. Proverbs 3:4-6 has been my strength. and He never fails to show me that He is always with me with this verse. Seriously… Power of coincidence? how many coincidence you can have in Life? right? Glory to God and the highest. =)

I’m taking a few hours of time off, then I’ll start my battle again.

Its funny that there wasn’t a single rain for the past 2 days.. and it was freaking hot. I was just mumbling “God.. please rain…” and.. it did.

Coincidence? haha.. the POWER OF COINCIDENCE.

LAst Sunday, I went to FGA, the verse appear and the worship song appeared again!! the same as the previous week when I was so despair and stressed.. That was when I was so touched! He told me : I am with you.

I slained.

He proves HIS existence that particular time. Immediately, my fears are gone. I was able to be confident and endure whatever that comes.

the same thing happened last week. well, COINCIDENCE AGAIN?!

haha.. how many coincidence in life can you have? again?

Glory to Him.

Things are going well with me.. Next week is another whole new journey. So, With Him, lets walk this together.

Today, I feel good.

Despite thinking of what to eat for dinner, well.. screw it. Supper then. =)

ok, time to start my brain battle!

He is Love.

Blessed day. =)

2011-11-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

Had a contented day. Took a long break from studies.

Went for a satisfied jog this morning, then went for Juwita Suwito and Busco music rally in the afternoon. had dinner with my mates, then now I’m back.

I dislike being asked “Why do u have time to do all these despite of exams, all these and that?”

ya, my housemate. He hasn’t been sleeping well these 2 days.. and.. I dunno why. He is stressed. I think.

but.. today… I wanna clarify and repent.

to me, there’s so much other things that are more important than studies. Yes, definitely.. I learnt to see this after a 6 months working life in Sg. =) and to me, study.. yeah, its my responsibility. but, relaxation, God, and self growth are important as well.

I am thankful that I get to segregate my time well.. yeah, I am serious about fun, and serious about God. Like I said, Things are really different as I live my day with God’s impulse. It feels whole lot of different.

and.. personally.. I don’t think I need anyone to help me understand the stress from exam. yeah, I have stress, but… time management is pretty important.

I had a great day… Praying, relaxing, having fun with a bunch of long lost friends in FGA. and.. Juwita was Awesome! Busco was.. average to me.

I wanna repent.. I am being wreckless today. careless summore.. I promise YOU that I wont do this again.

2mr… Sunday. The day that I love the most. Going to the House of God is something that is awesome! To listen to words, prayers… it just gives me a boost to boost up the rest of my week. God is good, awesome, power and faithful. Today, Thank God for the safety. =)

I have my own schedule to follow, but its alterable and it depends on HIM. yeah.. alterations are done by Him. I just live with it basically.

Some of you may wonder, what is God’s Impulse? at the other part of your conscious mind, isnt it you who are the one controlling.. God plays a part in which sense?

owh well.. this is a super tough question for a non-believer to understand.

Very simple, When you have a relationship with someone, you love that person, and you plan things together.. but often at times, impromptu plans popped up and you just gotto follow. and.. often, impromptu plans are awesome and fulfilling, and most of it are joy and happiness. Am I right?

this analogy goes to God. God is my partner in crime. haha!! HE is my partner, my life, and we plan things together, at His will. and often, things that happened at HIS will are Joy and happiness. Faith is a powerful weapon that IMPOSSIBLE will become POSSIBLE.

This is a deep relationship.. and I want it to be deeper and deeper.

I always believe that.. before we can love others, we have to start loving God and love ourselves. God created us as HIS image, and we inherit his characteristics, which is loving. Day by day, we will have His mindset and things will change. By Him first loved us, that is why we learn to love.

Truly I tell u, I don’t understand all these 2 years ago. Now, things are different. I am born righteous. and… When I surrender and leave everything to Him, things turns out the way He wants it to be, and.. the outcome is MUCH BETTER than the original one which u’ve expected if u carry out with your OWN PLAN. ITs SO MUCH BETTER! Most of the times, its sort of IMPOSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE if the pulse is driven by our own plan.

I personally experienced it. =)

So, today…. when my housemate said “ wah…so many things to study and you have time for all this?!”

me: “ haha… yeah. I don’t care.. erm, not that I don’t care, but why not? its just a day off.”

Probably my result will not be that good.. but, I have faith in God. Because, I knw. what I do is not from my own impulse.. its from HIm.

my original plan for today was: stay home, mug, and mug. and mug. not going out at all…

but it turned out.. I reach home at around 7 plus pm. (I went out at 730am) . ya, whole day.

I didn’t regret living my day like that. And ..AND AND!!! I wanna PRAISE GOD!! why? I prayed for a sunny day!! and today… SUNNY DAY after 10am! (owh, I still jogged under the drizzle of the rain, but I enjoyed!! hehe… cuz.. I was doing something I like with someone I care.)

So, THANK GOD FOR THE SUNNY DAY! I was deprived from Vitamin D.. and.. I got my supply today! hahaha!

ok, time to stop.

gotto start a bit of writing notes before I hit the sack. Gotto sleep early, waking up early to study, and hop to FGA at 710am. =P

My days are really miracles.. with Him. =)

This faith is…. overwhelming.

Praise God for a great day!

Sorry for my carelessness today. Thank you for blessing me a safe trip home. =)

Blessed Friday. blessed me.

2011-11-04T15:55:00.001+08:00

okay, its Friday. I feel like writing.

After all the boredom I get from HPM. yeah, I was studying and the particular subject was so dry until I dragged myself through in writing my own notes. gah~!

Well, now, I’m over HPM and left with memorization. Currently updating my notes on Satelite Pharmacy. Love this a lot. tht’s why my progress is faster, plus, it’s so lively compared to HPM. hehe…. owh, I like “wet” stuff. hahaha! nah, its just an expression of myself that “I don’t like dry subjects”

LOL!

Dellynn is growing well.. besides having malnutrition, I have Mal-Vit-D also. I’m so deprived of sunlight. Everytime I go out or hang out, it is at night. mmm… not forgetting all the McD nights, or I should call it Midnights with my beloved Monkey. I’ve been studying with her frequently in McD. The best part is.. I get to talk while I’m sleepy! hahaha!!! so, she did her subject, I did mine. We don’t interfere. =)

Back to me, I wanna put the attention to me, myself.

I realize a gradual change in me. Well, I cant tell what is it, but my centre of attention has changed. Spiritually. yeah, for whatever that has changed in me are spiritually indifference between the old me and the ME now.

sounds confusing? yeah… haha.

I don’t knw. Its like… ok, for instance, I am so attached to Hillsongs, Chris Tomline, etc etc… and I can listen to them NON STOP for a ZILLION TIMES. I just wanna sing and sing and sing, praise and praise and praise.

Pop and nice songs doesn’t really attract me anymore. I dunno since when.

Last week, an Elder spoke, he said “If you are filled with Holy Spirit, all you do is just sing praise, u will start singing… well, I dunno whether it works for others, but it works in me.”

It striked back to me. yeah, the statement above applies to me. I seriously dunno since when and I realized on that day only.

Owh well, I’m overwhelmed each and every single day.

You knw, to live with God’s impulse everyday is just so amazing. This is a personal testimony that no one will understand. Seriously, it feels so awesome. Because, You wont knw what God wants you to do the next minute.

I was so stressed on the week before my first paper. yeah, freaking stressed that I can just break down anytime. then I clicked on this talk from a Sg’s Reverend. Another thing that strikes me after hearing what he says… He asked, “what is Sin?” “Sin is doing things at your own impulse and your own way.”

Well, I realized and awakened immediately. That is why my unending stress is there.

then, angels in my life tells me.. “Kuen, take a break, no point studying like that if you are not in peace, take some time off, read on scriptures, pray.. “

I did, and.. immediately.. I seriously feel different. I felt renewed. and .. I managed to continue my study with a calm heart. You wont trust me if I say that my heart was POUNDING EFFING fast since the moment I woke up! because of stress! and I prayed that morning, it just don’t go away. Owh, and one thing about prayer is… If you pray with your whole heart, He listens. I admit that my prayer on that particular morning is just… “touch and go”.

but after the break prayer, I was filled with joy. So, my day continued… till midnight. Everything went smoothly.

I committed my days, hours, minutes. Living by his impulse. And… days can end so perfectly beautiful.

I had the most wonderful and peaceful sleep yesterday. owh, I prayed for it also. Normally, my sleep is 5 hours MAX, yesterday, it was a miracle, I get 7 hours.

I knw, for non-believers, it will be a bit hard for you to accept what I just wrote. but.. God is faithful, God is good! God is awesome!

HE saved my dear frm a car accident.

He saved me from disaster.

Life with God is awesome..

so, I wanna say that.. my priority in life has changed.. I think I am leaving things to God, where me, on the other side, preparing my field, so that God can send the rain.

Our God is a loving God.

Owh well, back to my life again, I’m having dinner with my family tonight. Such a blessing that they keep the routine on looking for me for dinner on either Fri night or Sat night if I’m here in Cheras. =) parents, they are awesome… The next loving person after Him. Ya, I finally understand God created Parents for us so that we can Love God through loving our parents. Most of the times, they will have some “indifference” in thinking, but they are at a good heart to protect us, to be with us, make sure that we are safe, happy, and well nurtured. Just like how God wants their child to be. right?

How’s my exam? well, the last paper was a brain drain. Thank God I did my study well.and Thank God for my angels, if it weren’t them, I wouldn’t have done it.

I’m blessed.

Today, it’s a Friday. =)

Any plans? well, mine definitely…. erm.. I don’t knw, I’ll know it later. haha..

The most enjoying semester ever. 4th year is fun. stressed and fun.

I ask for prayers from all of u. =)

Ciao, back to study. Its time. =)

guilt from abandoning.

2011-11-02T21:52:00.001+08:00

Looks like I’m missing out a lot in the blogging world. Owh yeah, 4th year has done me so much good and stress. I really have abandoned my blog since…… dunno when.

haha..

anyway, I’m striving my best now. 2mr is my next paper.

Summary of what I’ve been through. Hospital attachment was crazy, yet very enjoyable, that is the time I try all the good food. HAHA.

Dislike it because I need to wake up at 5am everyday, and sleep at 2-3am everyday too.

Afterall, it was the most fun moment in my life.

So, here I am now, finals.

what I’ve done? I’m living each and every single day with God’s impulse, not mine. *trying*

I guess, without prayers, I would’ve broken down long long time ago.

Well, in the midst of exam, I still get to relax, meet up with friends, take 5 for meals.. hang out a while.

This Saturday, I’ll be gg for the Juwita Suwito and Busco mini music rally. Erm, I cant wait actually, because Juwita Suwito is such a honey! and I really love her voice! =)

Time flies. Half a year Gone.

Owh well, I’m going to update and recap about my life THIS YEAR soon. Why? because this year is definitely MY YEAR. A year which I am really really satisfied with. I live contentedly each and every single day.. seriously, NO REGRET!

There are so much more things in life which is more important that what we can see. I comprehend this sentence very well, but it seriosuly took me SHITTY EXPERIENCE to UNDERSTAND this phrase. haha.

Life is awesome.

And.. one thing I realize, my priority in Life has changed.

wanna know more about it? stay tune for my recap.

I’m rolling off now.

continue with my books. =)

take care peeps.

Ps: wanted to reply RAchel The Ngiam Pumpkin on her blog, but I seriously got no time. “Old Folks are human too… yah, u are gonna be one someday. If u are afraid of them, means u’re afraid of urself.” HAHA! nah, probably you need time to accept. Cheers!

Ciao!

Thanks to God that He has been my source of strength, and inspiration. =)

exam

2011-11-02T21:05:00.001+08:00

exam stress, but enjoying it.=)

Randm

2011-10-20T14:18:00.001+08:00

Discussion......

Real steel tonight!;)

very short update

2011-09-29T17:45:00.001+08:00

Life has treated me good. Well, I'm having fun so far. In love with Pharmacy Clerkship. Loved all the talkings, counselling, laughings....

Thank God for everything. =)

Me, I will continue enjoy my student life. It is nearing the end now. Well, no time to waste! haha!!

Baking day

2011-08-29T10:34:00.001+08:00

I guess baking reminds me of Dispensing and Compounding. So much fun.

More to come though!!! Cake is my next product! Hehe...

Well, bck to my notes.. Gah~ what a holiday.... Mmm...... Lol.

Thursday scribes.

2011-08-25T18:21:00.001+08:00

its so scary how a schizophrenic will be. yeah, kinda blessed to be a healthy, whole individual.

Today, it was my Patient Counselling session in BM. Well, it didn’t turn out that bad, well at least I passed the counselling. haha. Its been years since I used BM to speak, and I totally suck to the max.

I was very tired yesterday. Basically I didn’t spend much time prepare for my counseling. cuz.. my body was aching, and it is still aching now.

Woke up with stress this morning. Sigh…I hate this feeling. Well.. now, at least I feel better. I knw, action is the only thing which can fight what I feel. =)

ok, I feel like napping now. because I’m really really tired.

I feel so proud of myself today cuz… I was configuring my house router, and I had no single idea about it untill I worked in Singapore. mmm….. the knowledge helped me a lot. haha.. feel so happy.

At least, victorious. yeah.. Victorious. I am proud.. the moment when the “no network access” turns to “Internet access”. I was freaking thrilled. I did it.

Short update: I got one week of unfree raya break. gotto get my arse down to the table at home to study. Mmm.. life as a student. So much of it. haha… can’t complain, cuz student life is still THE BEST!

Ciao peeps. napping soon! cuz I wont be sleeping early though. Gotto settle my assignment! =P

quick scribe.

2011-08-18T23:36:00.001+08:00

I’m so saturated and lazy till I don’t feel like doing anything. Feels like a rebound syndrome from the busy life. Gosh…..

Busy is the word, its always the word.

How do I feel? I feel… sometimes I’ feel jaded, sometimes I feel great. But most of the time, my fire isnt fade. I am still fighting, still running on my pace.

Next week…. is the end of one chapter, another chapter of MORE BUSY life is coming up after RAYA. WEll, am I ready? haha….

I miss writing out my feelings so much. YEt I don’t have time to do it.

This week, its my last week of PBL. yeah… next week will be a lil free from reports, so I hope I can live my week better. =) at least… breath.

Today isnt a day for me to chill, but I am really really jaded and saturated. Slacked the whole day, only completed half of my target. Mmm.. means my weekend is gonna be ugly. but.. I don’t care.

I’m gonna sleep early today. owh.. did I just say it? yeah, I’m gonna do so. 2mr 8am class… till 3pm. if I didn’t sleep, I’ll be dozing off in class, again. ha!

So far, my past 6 weeks since I started lecture has been a fast paced one. yeah… my head got spinning around, disorientated to time and space. Almost got alzheimer.

I cannot NOT GO BACK this weekend. sigh…..

need to get my things done by next week. What a suffering moment…. gosh.

anyway, when SAturday comes… it’l be fun!!! =P

Dellynn is going to sleep early today. so, ciao lar!

owh, almost forgot that I have to sync my tutorial into my pokkie. hahaha!!

till then!

a little update from me. :)

2011-08-06T02:40:00.001+08:00

How I wish I have time to go back to blogging life.

Well, life has been busy for me.

I don’t wanna remind myself how' is the flow of my day… cuz every week.. the same thing happens. this week is a bit different, I reckon that it will be a bit productive though. hahaha!

Things happened, shit happens.

Well, every week, the only distinctive day is.. Monday and Friday. Every Monday, my week starts.. then, the next thing I knw is.. “owh.. its friday already!”

yeah, time really passed by damn fast with PBL on Tues and Weds.

Last Thursday, I went to Nursing Home though. It’s a totally different feeling compared to the time tht I went when I was in NS. this time, I went as a pharmacist student. LAst time, I went as a community worker in community service module.

Kinda sad to see the old folks bed ridden, cant walk, cant talk… it saddens me to my bones.

Anyhow, I got a patient, who is partially immobile, but conscious. So.. lucky me. =)

that was after a few times of attempting to talk to other patients.. cuz I really really have no more choices at last, then Ms. Lyna approved this patient for me. Thank God for her!

Thinking about reports, I have to go to Library 2mr afternoon to get my reports printed out.. sigh…

Mum asked me whether can I cope with studies. Well, I can, and I am still coping. And do mind me, my study is difficult not because I have hard time switching from working to studying, but its because of the modules itself. This year is totally different that lower years!!! owh gosh….

So, don’t put sympathy on me again on switching from working life to study life! I’ve worked enough and its time to pursue my dream! hahaha!

Current update… Mm.. Well, I have never cursed ppl so much in my life before untill the past 2 months. owh.. long story. prefer not to say it.

The rest.. mm.. I’m doing fine. Despite of sleep deprivation, I still get to enjoy some laughters, some free time just to pamper myself, or to release stress.. so that I can keep moving under gunfire. =)

Time is gonna tell me whether I’m doing fine onot… hahaha!

These few weeks, my days are contented.. very very contented. Not regret of living my life, not regretting on sleep deprivation. Not regret of everything that I’ve done. because.. they are all meaningful to my life. =)

Life is getting tougher, u knw? its like as u grow older, the weigh of the shoulder gets heavier. I guess that’s called “responsibility”

Each and everyone of us is responsible of our own life, our own direction, our own future. You draw it, cuz you hold it.

am I right?

Me, I have greater things to achieve, but I believe that if it God’s will, I can achieve it. Me, on the other hand, will try my best to do it… no matter what. =)

To me, nothing’s wrong in failing. I failed so many times and only through failures, I learnt. =)

In my eyes, the road that I’m gonna take is becoming more challenging, and at this age of my life, I am so keen to fight and work for materials in my life. YES! who doesn’t? at the age of 20s? cuz.. this is just the beginning of everything!!! Life is short, u only have 3 more quarter of life left!

That’s why, instead of.. work, money, work, money, and die… I wanna work and earn an exciting life. I’m gonna try all challenges in me! APEC! Overseas! bla bla bla… These are all good memories that I would wanna keep! hehehe… owh, I am gonna go through al these tests in the future,, most probably. =)

My trip in Australia has changed a bit of me…

yeah, at least it comes to my realization that .. I am a very independent girl who can do anything on my own. but.. I need God, and I need friends, + Family in my life!!! hahahaha!

so, not totally lonely at all though. =)

Well, they are the main thing that keep me moving till now. =)

Its an eye opener to me, Australia is an eye opener to me. I wouldn’t have became what I am now without the trip. =)

And… my job in SG made me grow.

and I never regret of doing all the things that I’ve done in SG, and all the ppl I met! without them, I might not be able to survive there. We all hold a symbiosis relationship though. hehe…

and .. I loved what I was doing in SG. NEver thought I will love it, but in the end, I love the job… =)

This week, my PBL triggers are GERD+anxiety and CHF. Heavy topics… but I knw I can do it!

I’m tired now.. I shall adjourn? haha.. yea I should.

good night peeps! cuz I start to dream with my eyes half open now. =)

no updates…

2011-07-30T11:10:00.001+08:00

I love you sista. =)

long time since I’ve blogged.

I am on my track , running fast.

I’m tired.. really tired.

I promise I’ll update more….

A short update

2011-05-07T10:47:00.001+08:00

How nice I can see everyone everyday?! Huh?
I feel a bit better today.
My uncle brought back thymol gargle for me,and guess what?I gargle 30ml and then I realize 'dilute one part with 3 parts of water'. 'do not swallow the solution'

Shiat...I did not dilute it and I did swallow a bit due to poor control!hahaha! I was like, 'screw it la, already gargle without dilution and swallowed a bit.. Won't die la!' worse still,I drank water after gargle,which made me swallow even more thymol gargle indirectly!haha! Then I went to sleep!

Miraculously,I woke up with my throat feeling quite good! No more inflammation!! Unlike yesterday morning when I woke up,I feel like I'm gonna lose my voice. With my throat bengkak!!! Still,I feel Heaty this morning. I still need to take care of myself so that it won't get worse.
By the way,I drank coconut during supper yesterday!

Today,I'm gonna drink tonnes of water!haha!

I still feel like isolating myself though. I need sleep! Seriously need sleep!
See if I am able to hold on till next Sunday!ha!

Pumpkin!! Fetch me on Monday??!!

My day was sucky yesterday, got a stupid customer whom ruins my day. Anyway,I've learnt a lesson!
Today will be good!!! Yeah!!!!

I wanna sleep whole day if possible....sigh.....

A lot has been going on in my workplace. Anyway,I'm over it in a week's time!hahaha!! Just that I will miss my colleagues here... We practically fought together for sales everyday.

Time flies huh!? Now,it's time for me to proceed to another journey. This 4 months is a great lesson and expensive for me. Knowing Raine, Ivan, John,Candy, Wilson my Lao da, Dan, Wayne,Sunny, Harnes, Sia Chun Wei.. And the kiddos, Benjamin and Daphne! I'm gonna miss all of them!! Not gonna miss my boss.haha!
Thank God for them!

Ok,time to work! Ciao!!!!!

Loves,
DEllynn Ah Kuen.

Hidden away

2011-05-06T10:50:00.001+08:00

For the first day,I feel like plugging my ear phone for the whole day, to cut me off from all the noises. Erm..probably because I'm not feeling that well. So,I'll still try my best in my work!

I believe that my illness will go away very soon!=) being positive here! One more week to liberty. I'm happy that this life is over soon. Means it marks my one month long break. Away from my country... Away from the place I once knew.

I still believe that there's a reason for everything. I have to give up on something I really wanted for something more important. Yeah, it doesn't feel good though. Anyway,life goes on. I'm okay if I don't think and talk about it.=(

Life here is marking an end. Is it really the end? Or the beginning? I see it as a new start. New life ahead. Like I mentioned before,I would not come bck to my life now. I would never have a chance to work here as a sales assistant or selling CCTV anymore. I enjoyed my freaking life here though. I start to miss my buddies here but I know life goes on.

This 4 months trip here made me realize a lot of things. One thing I know, I can do whatever I want if I have the determination. And... His mercy.

One more week left for me. I will definitely enjoy it before I leave this life. The end of a journey marks a beginning of another journey. I think my Life Book will be a contented one!

My throat is not feeling that good. Gosh.....

And my hearing sense is still in a mono world. I still refuse to unplug my ear phone. It feels so good to have a peace of mind. Gah... This is the first time I feel this way!

'please don't keep your heart hidden away ...'

The voice that was sung by an angel to my head. Perhaps, tht's the message.
=)

Time's up for me to work.

Write more if I feel like it!

Ciao.

Easter...i'm at work.=)

2011-04-24T17:38:00.001+08:00

Ms Dellynn Lim Ah Kuen is very exhausted. Still at work, closed a few deals and I am mentally and physically exhausted.

Today is Easter!I'm so happy!though it's not possible for me to attend the prayers and celebration today ,I am still happy bcos it's Easter! Owh,I had a bad one last year...yeap,some family problem. The problem still exists,but all I can do is just keep it to myself.=)

I had a great day yesterday, it was my off day! Went out for lunch with uncle Yeoh and Aunty Jane! They are like my parents here. So we went out for duck meal!wow,it was fantastic! I enjoyed it very much! And I ate a lot! Haha!
Right after lunch, they brought me to Tun Aminah for tea time. Lol! Tea time right after lunch!ha! The kuih-muih was fantastic! Thereafter,I met Uncle Chen!we had a great chat there! According to Uncle Yeoh,Uncle Chen wouldnt have talked to me the way he talked to me yesterday if he doesn't like me! Haha!! I was like:'OKAY....'. Cuz I was just being myself. Hehe.

Went bck home right after that as Uncle Yeoh still needs to coach. I slept with kakak,we napped together la. (sounds so obscene) ha!

Called my mum before I went for dinner. As usual la,she was happy to heat from me! Same as me! My mum is an angel to me. And she is going get a complementary cake to celebrate my bday...sweat...=_='. It's FOC....haha!

Went out for dinner with my uncle! He brought me to a restaurant which serves good food! As I've posted on FB,San Lou mee fen was the best! And the fish soup!! I love my dinner too!

Ah kuen is A person who enjoys food a lot!hee... Tht's why I'm blessed tht my off day is just once a week!ha!

Talked to muh pumpkin before i sleep. As usual la,I was so excited to talk to her! I hope I didn't bore her with my grandmother stories la!hehe....

Going bck on 16may! I can't wait to start study!!!!

I can't wait to smell klang's air Wei!!! Though the air back there is a little unhealthy...=p

I can't wait to see everyone!!!

Ok la,pen off k! I don't Like poking on my poddie... It gives me muscle lethargy....lol!

Ciao! Continue working!

eeee…. happy day.

2011-04-23T10:51:00.001+08:00

haha…. ‘im so happy to see my RAchel Ngiam Pumpkin update her blog. I guess she’ll expect hearing my voice tonight.=)

Being kinda emo due to sickness huh? but still have a clear mind on how many stuffs I owe her… LOL!

I miss her that much, yes.. tht much.

*showing 1cm of gap with my thumb and second finger* =)

I am tired, but happy at the same time. It is a holy week therefore it’s a happy week.

I will pray for my siblings because they will be having finals next week. Mmm…. too bad, the boy of mine is not coming back till july. His exam ends on 3rd May.. and… HE IS NOT CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR! sobs…

My Girl… I hope I get to see her a day before my birthday! I got so many things to do with her yet so little time! yeah, I’mma jack-ass… haha! I miss my beautiful voice!! and… our K-sing session!! (btw, I tot u found my substitution?? haha! see! told ya! I will never get substituted! for I am so deeply carved in your heart and I’m irreplaceable! Muahahahaha)

happy for that for a million times, I am right! HA!

Its not the gifts that matters. Its not the money and value that matters, what matters most is to have someone close to heart to just sit and listening to each other in silence.

Like every women has, Bra is the fittest stuff a girl can have! ooi! muh BRA! hahaha!

eh eh… get the CAMERA! no need to think too much! the rest, leave it to 28th July! hahaha!

I’m now paying my debts and earning back the money I paid!

owh yeah, I got so much to tell my pumpkin! hehe…. I think I will be a distraction to her during her study break. =P

Well, its almost 11am. going out……with AUNTY JANE and UnCLE YEOH for lunch!!! muahahahaha! both of them are like my third parents after my aunt yoong and uncle Tan.

Time to go off and wait for the king and queen to come!

Pumpkin… shopping for facial and eye bag masks is a must when we meet!

Love u babe!

my stupid bro, all the best in exams! love you lots bodoh! =P

ciao!

Sunday,not a sabbath.

2011-04-17T10:43:00.001+08:00

So,another new day huh?

I had a great off day yesterday,glad that I slept till 12pm and had great lunch plus dinner.

Sometimes I just don't understand why people can interpret things differently, they tend to live in their own world and refuse any helping hands reached out to them. This kind if life is saddening huh?ya,this kind of people just don't wanna face the truth and situation. I have no comments if they wanna continue to live in the dark, thinking that no one understand them and no one cares for them. I pass no comments at the moment,just hope that they will find peace within them. If this continues,they'll live in suffering and sadness.
Ignorant is definitely not a bliss to this kind of people.
However,it's their life,it's up to them how they wanna live it. Helping hands has been offered,turned down,and what's worse is...stubbornness!

Anyway,life is to be enjoyed without guilt.

Personally,I'm being happy for who I am. Though I knw currently,they will accept me as who I am yet,I will hold on and be who I am.

It's a Sunday,Sunday is always a sabbath. Haha...but in my case,it's not.

Friends are having exams,all I can do is just to pray for them and wish them all the best! I don't believe in luck because it's hardwork which determines everything. Right?luck is just 1%. Haha!

I pray for a peaceful Sunday and and peaceful weeks ahead!

I can't wait for everything to end...

Lol. Listening to 'waiting for the end' by Linkin Park. So,I'm waiting for the end to come,wish that I have strength to stand.....

How's everyone in klang???doing fine??? I miss all of u so much!!all the aunties,brothers, and sisters!!and my friends!!!

I'll be back very very soon! Will be a short trip back home!! After that,I'll be on marathon again!haha!

My Lord,hold my heart.

Short post though! I miss talking with my pumpkin and pamelo. Both of u!!tk care!

Gotto go! Work... Ciao peeps!

Here withou you

2011-04-12T10:44:00.001+08:00

So here I am,sitting,blogging with my poddie.

I am counting days,well... I tell myself not to count days but...my eyes are glued to the calendar unconsciously.

I dunno what am i doing.sigh..

Anyway,I promise myself to give in my best!!! I can't wait to start my classes!hehe...well.I can't wait to do something I love! For now,I am happy for what I have. So far,besides my personal problems,I am doing fine.

Life as a nobody is so good. I can't imagine my life as a VIP somebody who deals with life and death in the future.

So I say,life is not to be wasted . I am glad that I took a step out of my comfort zone, although I am scared,now I knw tht I can do anything I want,I can definitely achieve everything! Just the matter of time.

I'm listening to 'Here without You' by 3 Doors Down, I love this song a lot. Reminds me of good memories.

Frankly,I miss singing a lot. Singing reminds mr of my ambition.haha! Once in standard 3,I was bored of the same ambitions year by year..teacher,doctors,gardener (yeah,gardener!!haha).. So I decided to do something different tht year. When I was called in front to the teacher's front desk,she asked me what's my ambition, I said 'singer!' her eyes popped out,still rmber I was in Pui Ying school,Mrs Fan was my class teacher, she stared at me and said 'u??singer??' I was so innocent,I nodded and said 'yes!'

Hahaha!!

Those were the days!!, well..I think my form teacher popped her eyes out because I don't look like I can sing.haha! Cuz I was fat and chubby that time,and I don't have any talents in me...haha! Erm,if I get to see Mrs Fan again,I will sing infront of her!!! Though I am not a singer now,but I would like to sing to her...cuz I got a 'not bad' voice!!lol! Probably i will sing a 'thank you' song to her... FYI,I sing badly...ha!

It's true tht it is hard to imagine me being a singer when I was young cuz I was not a spotlight in class. Even now, I prefer not to be a spotlight.

How I wish I can attend the Gala Night on 14th May. Anyhow, I shall think of performing next year,hahaha!

Thanks to my poddie that I can blog anywhere now. I still cannot live without blogging!

Continue listening to 'here without you'.. Cha bor's Favourite-mavourite song! It became mine now.

It gets harder but it won't take away my love and passion.

Klang!I'm coming! soon!!!!!!!!!!!

Pray for me....k??

Sick of it.

2011-04-10T10:47:00.001+08:00

I am tired. Very tired. Physically and mentally...sigh...

My cousin bro confirmed dropped out from uni, cousin Sis tells lies and we all still dun understand her..

I wanna take a break from what I'm doing.haha..yeah,can't wait for my D day.

Went to a talk to get my cousie's registration done. Went for great lunch,great tea time,great dinner!

I'm tired due to lack of sleep.....

For my health's sake, I need to go. For my spiritual health's sake,I have to go off .

Feels so dull though.

Week by week,time flies. I just can't wait for the month to end! 20 more days till end of this month and I'm getting what I want!

Ppl take things for granted.

Here,no matter how good u have tried, it's still not good enough..and I'm starting to feel sick of it. If I hold on any longer,no one will recognize me anymore. Somehow,I am experiencing and feeling the metamorphosis in me. I think I've changed to the worse...

I've been away for too long. Long enough to be disappeared from everyone's memory. I don't want tht to happen.

No one to hang out, talk, and socialize. Thank god for my family here though!

I'm keen to go away as soon as possible,from HELL SG.
I'm not running away,but study life is still the best.

I can't wait to live as a backpacker in Melbourne.hahaha!!!

Basically, I crapping a lot cuz I wanna talk. It's moody to work on Sunday! Which is my God's day and family day!

I am seriously sick of the so called military thingy here. I don't mind working silently.. It is getting more and more tense in me. However, there's a reason why god put me in this situation,I know. HE wants me to learn something invaluable from here,I know.

I miss my smile...haha.

I need to give out my best for as long as I am here! I can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I can!!

I need a fire burning spirit..and I need woods to keep it burning.

And..I need a long term eye bag treatment!!I swear I'm going to nap every single day after all ends!

Pray for me......

jaded!

2011-04-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

Mixed feelings today.

I feel happy and miserable at the same time.

Miserable because I couldn’t make it to FIFI’s wedding.

HAppy cuz… I get to rest today and meet my family up!

I felt very very sorry these few days.

Firstly… to myself.

I start to lose the faith in what I’m doing. Every step I do, its fear. Yes, Action does cure fear.. sigh.. all I’m gonna do is to throw all the mirrors in me down.

Secondly, to my cousies.

My boy in UTAR PJ is doing extremely bad. Gonna drop out soon after his finals.

My gal in JB has this massive attitude problem which she hides it very well.

Yeap, I knw.. not my problem.. but they are my family.

Thirdly, to Pumpkin.

her words meant a lot to me. When she says she’s disappointed, means she is.

YEah, its my fault. =( seriously, purely my fault.

Fourthly,to FIFI..

though she said she can forgive, she wont forget. I am so dead.

Fifthly, to myself again…

I did some “bad” things. I hacked, I steal…. and I shut down.

HAcked into my gal’s email, FB, and I steal the pswd, and I shut it down… permanently. I have no choice but to do that. FB is a killer tool to her… long story, can I not type? if u wanna knw, ask me face to face then! to me, her story is a horror story.

then my job…

Its giving me more stress than ever. BEcause I keep a “time bomb” beside me, and its mentally torturous to be aware of when the “Time Bomb” is gonna burst. MENTALLY TORTUROUS AND I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’M GOING CRAZEE!!!!!!!!

and I mean it…. once again!

plus the upcoming-next-PMS… I reckon that my pillow is gonna be wet by tears for the next 2 weeks.

can you understand my feeling?

I try to keep all these behind my head…. somehow, I need time.

Sometimes, I think that life is just so meaningless… especially when you are tied down by work and you have no time to enjoy AT ALL.

Okay, I don’t wanna pass down any negative energy to you guys. Rmber me as a cheerful, confident, optimistic girl.

Will I forget how to smile?

Gah, I’m so tired. I’m gonna sleep till I’m satisfied tonight! wake up later 2mr morning! I don’t give a damn if I’m late to work!

Tired.. but need to keep up.

2011-04-01T08:13:00.001+08:00

Its so hard to endure each day… thinking of each day would be a crisis and I would “die” anytime or wounded everyday.

I’m getting tired.

More tired.

Each day, my threshold became lower and lower. I can barely do my stuff and I can barely open my eyes till 12am. I hate the fact that my routine is the same.. EVERYDAY!

When I was having classes, I said I have no life.

Now when I’m working, I understand what is NO LIFE.

No life – every morning wake up, bath, eat, travel to work, war at workplace, travel back from work, sleep.

No entertainment at all. This is no life.

Studying.. at least… chapters are different.. I have mutual understanding between me and the notes… friends.. hang out… gossips….

Things are really different.

I start to realize what I really like and what I really don’t like.

I start to realize that nothing is impossible if you give yourself a chance to try.

I realize that life is so much more than I have experienced before.

I realize that.. all people in my life is just a passer by.

I realize that… there is a lot more to pay for the sake of money.

I realize that.. besides working for the sake of money, when there’s no interest and MO, you wont succeed.

I grew. I learnt.

Looking back for the past few months. there one person who I credit all the fames for. Its God. Without Him, nothing is impossible.

then goes my family members…

my heart-attached pumpkin, and AL.. owh, forgotten him, my “don’t-wanna-let-me-go” Pamelo.

Without them, my strength is weaker than I have now.

Of course, self motivation is very important too.

Now, I am prepared for the obstacles that I will face when I start to work towards my AIM. ALthough I am tired and sick of working and travelling, I treasure the experience. Because, I knw.. after this, I will not come back to this stage of my life, working the job I am working now. AFter all, I will at a different level, and the next time I work, It will be as a licensed professional.

Owh, FYI, I did not dropped out from UNI. K!! haha!! a lot of ppl think that.

but.. this 6 months of life will be a good, painful, experience…

I’ve seen things I’ve never seen before. I’ve experience things which are my firsts. I’ve came across different people and learn how to work with different people.

but.. I still knw.. LIFE is more than that. it’s a big word.

Time to go.

yeah, the routine. =)

I wonder what will I feel when the day comes?????

sinked.

2011-03-31T08:11:00.001+08:00

great song from Sara Bareilles.

A little melancholy these few days. As what you can see from my FB. Acted inactive, just that I refuse to post any shout-outs.

I suck these few days. I just wish everything to be OVER soon!

Not good to spread unhappiness and anger early in the morning… so, I guess, listening to Sara Bareilles lets me sink down a while.

PRay for me.

New apps!!!!

2011-03-29T12:33:00.001+08:00

So,I've just got this apps to update my blog...well,I still love blogging with my lappie...cuz it feels more 'real' with a key pad.

I wasn't feeling that good yesterday ..blasted my eardrums with Hillsongs to sleep... Hoping that today will be a good day.

I can't wait for Saturday,cuz it's my offday.well...let's just pray that things are peaceful til i leave...haha!!

Pray for everyone back in Malaysia!!!I miss you guys lots.... And I definitely miss studying....

Gotto go!!! I'll blog soon !!!!

updates on yesterday.

2011-03-23T08:12:00.001+08:00

I was having a bad day, but it all turns good. WHy? it’s a lesson to me….

At that point of moment, I really feel like giving up, and as if the world is going to torn apart.

Well, now.. it’s a brand new day!

I was on a “chinese songs” mood yesterday. I’ve “violated” JJ Lin’s album, today will be Stephanie SUn. 2mr will be Fish Leong. The day after 2mr will be JAnice Vidal. HAHAHHA!

don’t ask me why… cuz its my mood. I feel like going to KTV again!!!!! its been so long since I’ve stepped into one. sigh……thanks to my “lack of time”.

I’ve learnt a lesson yesterday. VEry precious lesson…….. got scolded too… but never mind! I’ll learn! definitely I’ll learn!

I’m in love with his voice~!!! one of my favs in his album!

Smiling eyes, by JJ Lin.

This song reminds me of XiaoButa’s story. hahaha!!! her first love. She can finally smile again after breaking up with her first love. =)

exactly the same story in the lyrics. =)

I can’t get enough of JJ Lin’s voice!!!! hehehehehhe……..

okla, time to go off!!

P.S : don’t pass me wishlist… I’ll disappear by the time you see me. hahaha!! yeah, me myself will blackout by MAY. LOLs!!! eh, study baik baik la.. once in a lifetime, don’t waste time lar.. tsk tsk tsk…. money hard to earn wei…. LOLs!!!!! by the way, so sudden lar… why wanna pass me wish list leh??? LOLs! I can’t get you mountains, I can’t get you sea.. I can only give you….. erm….. me? I am all I have. hahahaha!

my achievement!

2011-03-21T23:45:00.001+08:00

can you believe it???? I set up a CAr DVR Today as Demo!!! I’m so proud of! this is Omnikine, Car Digital Video Recorder. I’ve inserted a 320GB of SATA HDD and operate it. Connect it to a 7” TFT LCD screen, and connect to cameras and start recording. hahahaha!

erm, I have ZERO technical knowledge but I love playing with wires!!!! =P

Took 2hours to set it up I think, because I was using my sweet time to play with it and figuring how to deal with the wires, which one should the red wire be connected to and so as the black one.

Well, I’ve made it!!!!! =P

with the consultation from Uncle Jimmy! hahahah!!

I’ve learnt a lot, yesterday was a disaster as I was bullied by INDIAN customers! kanasai.. I really hate indians! BEcause they bargain and loves to say :”show me, show me” without buying. Damn.

I was being too nice lar… that’s why I need to develop some scolding skills to scold those stupid customers off!

Just today, I met a customer, damn weird! showed him some dome cameras demo and he said “well, the cameras look ugly…. do you have something nicer?”

I asked him back, with a smiley rude tune: “ how do you define BEAUTIFUL dome cameras?!?”

He was shut by me….

so, my manager took over my customer because he couldn’t stand how the customer treat me. Well, all of us “acted” in front of the customer!! and finally he went off.

CAn you imagine that he doesn’t even know why he wants to buy the camera?!?!?!? and all he said was.. “I buy it just for fun!!” WTH?!?!?!

LOLS, I met all kinds of people here, that’s why this is a precious experience for me. I will never regret of making this decision to work here. Though it was tough at first, it all pays. Hardwork, sweat, tears.. pay. =)

I’m tired…. took some time to blog. I was “warned” by Manager to sleep earlier. hahahahahah! I love the family-like working environment though! =P

PEn off.

pray before you sleep yeah! =P

Ciao!

P.S : wah.. wishllist?!?!? so sudden?!? ahahaha!!!

great morning to start with.

2011-03-20T08:04:00.001+08:00

I’m so into blogging mood now!!!

well, I had a great off day yesterday!!!

let me summarize….

woke up in the morning, had breakfast together with Kakak, then granny and my fatty notty niece came, played… helped kakak cooked Gado-gado (my fav indon food), my aunt from KL came, went out with my cousie, we went to get a sip of Chendol without all the kids…came back, had durian, slept a while, dinner, then chatting session.

That’s the summary lar.

I have always loved my off day. Too bad, next Saturday, it will be a ALL-ALONE day because my aunt and family is going down to KL. ME? haha.. I’m still here! LOLS!

That’s why my off day next week is on Friday. Muahahhaha!!!

My bloggie has became so dull, I really wanna hire a technician to beautify my blog. LOLs! nah, I would do that if I have the time! Just that I have serious time constraint. hehe…

nothing particular to say actually, All I can say is.. Today definitely will be a great day!!!

I know it is impossible for me to have at least 28 posts per month, but at least I try to update something about myself.

I’ve read my Pumpkin’s bloggie yesterday.. I guess that she has already been living too long huh??? she wants to have kids, and get married soon d…. and settle down and live a slow, peaceful life with her SHawty… LOLs!!!!

I cannot deny that she is more mature than her age..(owh yeah, she looks old. ) but I hope she would be able to find a new exciting purpose to live for and be prepared for the unpredicted future. hehe… I’m like talking to old lady, and I feel like an old lady itself. HAHAHAHHA!!! nah, whatever her decision is, I will stand by her side always! and if she has weird weird thoughts, I will make sure I try my best to tie her straight without letting her bend astray. who asks her to me my beloved?!? huh?!? In short, she asks for it! (I’m trying to put the blame on her) hahaha!!!

Ok lar, its already 8am. Time to appear downstairs and disappear from my GrilFriend. Eeee… till I update again?

Pumpkin, you are one in a million to me. =P

My stupid Pamelo is in Borneo.. I wonder he’d won the competition? Gosh, I’m working in SG, he’s in BOrneo, Sabah, parents is Indonesia, JOgjakarta… haha…. They are everywhere.

Keyboard off ya!

Ciao!

Finally, I blogged again! haha!

2011-03-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

Looking at my posts per month.. from at least 28 posts per month to 5 to 6 posts per month!

GOSH!

YEah, I don’t have energy to blog. So, save the time to sleep…. haha!

I’ve been doing good. Improving day by day… getting happier because of the accompany that I have. ha!

too bad, all good things come to an end. Yeap.. its just a matter of time. =)

As a Malaysian, I’m proud that Malaysian are hardworking and they have the right attitude to work. Most of them are willing to learn. Well, I categorize myself as one of them.

Hardwork does pays. It applies to both work and studies.

The effort that you put is just worth… it might not be worth at the point of moment, but in long term, it’s definitely worth the time and worth the effort.

I’m happy because I’m away from the branch that I don’t like, but honest speaking, I feel comfortable working with my LAo Da. Mmm…. now, I’m given the other opportunity to learn from another great sales person, Ivan. I’ve learnt a lot from him. I’m a slow learner… and I’m glad that there’s someone here to pin point where is my weakness and how should I improve. This working experience is definitely a precious one for me!!!!!!!

NEver before, a person can come up to me, tell me where is my weak point, and teach me how to correct it. and the best part is, he is willing to concentrate on how to make use of my strong point to create sales and to compromise each other!! Like I say, Sales is not a SOLO thingy, its always a team. =)

I’m starting to love everything here. Adapting to my working environment well. =) So, before all good things come to an end, I will learn to treasure it and maximize my capacity to learn as much as possible.

I’ve learnt today, Learn to see others strong point instead of weak point. No matter how useless a person seems to you, he/she has their own unique side which made him/her special.

Today is a wonderful lesson to me. =)

I’m starting to keep my pace up the job. Its even more rewarding when my customers actually come back and rmbers my name. =) Well, all I can say is… this kind of satisfaction and challenge are something which I cannot get in Pharmacy line. =) Honestly, its totally different thing.

I’ve learnt how to operate CCTV, I’ve learnt how to do CAmera settings, I’ve learnt about many types of cameras, I’ve learnt about working with each other in a harmonious environment…. (exclude the boss thingy)… I’ve learnt how to set up DVR machines..

Its like a total new life here.

I love being who I am here. =) As a Malaysian, as a niece, as a Christian.

Probably my parents wouldn’t understand this, but the feeling of being accepted as who I am in my aunt’s place, my work place is so overwhelming!! To me, its not a barrier at all.

Miao Xiang Si did preached and talked about it. I’m so touched and somehow I wish my folks will understand and be here to listen to what Miao Xiang Si says. =) I knw, fate isn’t here for them to hear Miao Xiang Si preach. =)

Everything that happened has a reason. I always believe that.

Every single day, I’m touched by HIS love. Without HIM, I don’t think I can hold on till today. hahaha… lots of miracles happened to me. and I cannot afford to write it out one by one. So, let me keep it to myself LAH. hahahahaha!!!!

Again, I’m still a daughter, a part of family. Living in my aunt here showed me that there is no discriminations between different religion and beliefs.

I’m thankful for my aunt, for accepting me for who I am. I’m so grateful……

Okay! gotto go! gonna watch one episode of The MEntalist, and start watching my BLack Swan, Rapunzel!!! =) hehehhe….

Update soon!!!!!! 2mr is my off day! YAY!

I miss everyone in Klang. Seriously…… hugs and kisses ! =P

A bit of updates on my off day!!!!

2011-03-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

WOW… WIndows messenger 2011 is so damn cool! even the window’s live writer 2011’s interface is so damn cool!!!!! so much better than the last version!

Well, I’m happy today because I get to see my niece!!! hahahahahahaha! she is very very extremely naughty.

Today is a bit special, I became an assistant to my cousie sis in the kitchen today. Basically, I think I can cook. ha!

Well, My off day is so contented though! I slept, I napped, I slept, I played, I snap.

she is naughty! but damn cute!

hahahah!

So, I spend my day with my grandparents, coussies, and niece!!! My day is simple, yet contented!!!!

Well, Things have changed, its not how it used to be. I don’t wanna blog about something tense, but just wanna blog about my life during my off day.

Woke up early, watched CSI episodes, slept a while, luch with my family, shopping with my family, cooked dinner with cousie, ate, and now… blogging.

haha!! that’s the summary lar…

glad to spend some quality time with them though, I’ve not met them for weeks as I’m working. So, this is a special day for me!!! =)

I’m still getting used to my working life. Erm… not easy to adapt, but I think I’ve done it.. almost 70%.

is it easy? nah, nothing is easy…=)

I’ve made some good friends here, and I’m glad that I have! hahahaha!!!! yet, they are from different age group. However, if I do leave, current place is the place I don’t wanna be back again. I’ll be back for my friends here, but not for other stuffs.

A levels in SG has been released yesterday. Glad that Raine did okay. I pray that she’ll achieve her dream no matter what. =) life is a long journey, it takes forever to walk. What we see now is just present, we should live our present wisely to form a better future. Past, take it as a lesson.

I am still worried about my dad though. His spondylitis seems no improvements as he complained of pain each day. T_T

I’d asked him not to go to work so soon. Hope he listens though.

I realized,a s time goes, I think differently. I dunno what is it… but today, I realized that I’m not the one I used to be, I’m better than the past me. =) I’ve done things that I don’t expect myself to do which I’m supposed to do. Its good stuff! and I’m glad that I’ve learnt it today.

To be more Christlike each day. hahaha!!!!!

I’m glad that my aunts show respect and acceptance in it. =)

2mr is Sunday, well… I got to go back to work 2mr. So, it means that I’m gonna hit the sack soon.

I’ve got my new babe!!! I’m so in love with it. but I’m still searching for extra Apple Earphone!! anyone has it?!?!?!?!?!??!

I’m in love with the Coconut prawns my cousie cooked just now. hahaha!!! Damn delicious!!!

loved the fish! cuz I marinated it!

loved the vege! cuz I chopped the garlic! LOLs!!!!

I’m doing good. Overall, I’m fine!!!

I just cant wait for my new baby!

hahahahahahahaha!!!

wanna expand my electronics family!

I start to miss JEslyn now…. gosh….

see? Jeslyn on the left, look at my stupid bro on the right in WHITE!

do they looked the same?!?!?!?!?

hahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

off I go!

tk care peeps!!!

Ps:no one can replace me in Singing session! no one can sing as good as I am. LOLs!!! Hao Lian! ha!

ciao peeps!

may the peace be with you

2011-02-28T00:11:00.001+08:00

Today, its just one of those days… where time passed by, day passes by.

Sometimes, i think i’ve lost the reason to hang on, but sometimes, i would love to stay as long as possible.

Ironic huh? this is my life.

Although decisions has been made, guiltiness still emerges.

All these days, I’ve learnt how to really hold on and hang on without giving up. Probably i’ve done it in my studies before but working is a different feeling. Responsibilities are heavier. I need to perform in order to stay.

Like i said, the stress and demand are different. Well, i’m more thorough now.

I’m facing a beast everyday. Everyday is a big obstacle and challenge for me, i need to overcome everyday’s challenge. The “best” part is, everyday’s challenge will be different.

The only constant is… my super “XXXX” boss. that’s all. hahaha!!!

I start to see things from a different point of view. Sometimes, it comes to my senses where i’m not a kid anymore, I’m already 23, almost 24. I need to start planning and working my career.

I tell you, it feels scary to have nothing at this age.

especially Money, Properties, and… relationship. Well, i’m not that thirst for relationship, but i’m thirst for my career. The only relationship i’m thirst for is the relationship with God. that’s all.

The fear is scary. 24 with nothing.

With God’s grace, i will walk the path that i wanna walk. I do have a vision of what i want to do and achieve. Still, everything needs to be at the right moment, the right time for it to happen. HE plans, and guides. =)

I’m like a spoiled brat who is isolated away from the world of the ppl i love. The only thing i can do is phone calls, updates. Most of the time, it gives me warmth to hear familiar voices, sometimes, it hits me down because it is such a pathetic way to knw details about a person. I knw, all these are temporary.

The good thing is, i dont feel lonely over here, because of my accompany and my family here. (though its my uncle and aunt, they are both loving and kind to me).

you knw, How damn guilty i feel for not being able to be with my mum when my dad was admitted? my mum can’t drive at night, yet she drove to hospital everyday after work just to be with my dad. That time, i really wish that i can send her instead of her driving.

but Thank God, my parents are understanding of this situation. Thank God my dad has no serious complications.

Every morning, when i sit in the bus, thoughts of these will come to my head.. “the routine starts… how long can i hold on to it? how does people stand travelling 1.5hours to 2 .5 hours to work and spend another 2hours to go back from work?”

“is this what i want? what’s the point for doing all these when i have to sacrifice so much just for the temporary luxury?”

nah, these are just some silly thoughts of mine. Well, I sometimes do feel demotivated. Believe it or not, God will motivate me in HIS wonderful way everyday. He never fails to do so every single day.

I am now working towards my dream which is to work and travel in these months. =) see? If its God’s will, miracles will happen.

Don’t put a question mark when God puts a period. =)

What is life?

Life has a much bigger definition than what’s in your mind now. We are too small and tiny to view the meaning of life. We won’t knw what is life until we die. At least, after we die, we knw that we’ve lived our life. =)

I’m living my life, contentedly, meaningfully. Though its tiring, I’m still holding on.

I’ve learnt to open up myself, see things differently. I’ve made lots of friends with different knowledge and experiences which are worth for me to learn.

What i can say in a nutshell, the life i am living now will be a legend in my LIFE BOOK. =) That’s the story i’ll tell my offsprings. =)

Appreciate everything that you have now. don’t leave regrets in your life.

me? i have no regrets in doing what i’m doing now.

May the peace be with you.

very quick and short time on my girlfriend.

2011-02-24T08:13:00.001+08:00

i have 10 mins before i am off to work.

Well, My oh my…. its been 11weeks. i have 11 more to go. I cant wait for everything to come, May!!! MAY!!! I cant wait for MAY! hahaha!!!!

What probed me to decide? I dunno, its just a thought. All of a sudden, i thought of the dates. Mmm….

So far, my job is good.I dunno, sometimes still fear, and stress, but i’m still overcoming it.

I’m getting tired physically when days passed. yeah, not easy, but yet, I’m going through this period, full of happiness. (trying to)

I have feeling to this song because Tenth North Avenue is just so professional that they actually sang out how i felt when i first being touched by Him. Without supports and approval, I was in fear, and sadness. In a nutshell, this song is sort of like a comfort to me, and a sum of my feelings.

enjoy, Tenth North Avenue-You Are More.

I’ve always loved their songs. Their worship songs are always sang from a different point of view.

Mmm, its been so long since i share songs in my post. haha… well, forgive me for my tired body. I can afford to surf the net but not blog every night when i reach home. =)

This is my life.. I gotto enjoy it before everything ends.

Gotto work hard for next sem, Beijing, Siam Reap! here i come!

I can’t wait for early May, i am getting a new baby!!! I still dunno which baby to adopt, and i dunno what name should i give yet.. pity me. hahahaha!!!!! Anyway, there will be a new family “member” coming soon!!!

curious??? wait till i get it ya! hehe….

ALright, 10mins has passed. Time to go, breakfast, then work!

Dad’s doing fine. It has been an emotional days. Thank GOD that my dad is healing and he is recovering.

Tk care everyone!!!

updates.

2011-02-19T22:24:00.001+08:00

DAys are passing by.. very very fast.

I’ve decided a path for myself, I’m walking it.

Everyday has been the same routine, just that everyday is a new challenge for me. Somehow, i wonder, how can a person be so inconsiderate and don’t treat their family, daughter, son, and wife the way it’s supposed to be?

Life is so unpredictable, why not appreciate their presence?

I am just so upset on how things supposed to be are not in a position where it supposed to be.

I need a doctor to bring him back to life.

I’ve learnt a lot of things, got through a lot of things, which i dont think i would share with anyone again. BAsically, its not good to keep reminding myself of the pain i’ve been through.

right?

now,i’m doing my best, i’m doing my part. I’m growing each day. The only thing i fear is the unwillingness to leave the place when the time comes. Funny eh, how painful it is, yet how unwillingly for me to leave.

owh, I’m getting more tired each day. Seriously, working life is so much different. I think those who are my age who are still studying won’t understand much. However, i still say, “appreciate study life, its the best moment in one’s life”

My dark eyebag is getting worse each day. I don’t knw why, i have more sleeps compared to what i had during exams. yet…. my eye bag just grew darker.

Kuen is never the same. Dellynn is never the same. I mean, i’m mentally more mature. I realize that i’ve learnt and grow, and i’ve proved to myself that i can still survive without my anchor. Well, just place the anchor to another shore, tht’s all!

Somesay i’m far sighted, yes, I am. BEcause I’m sick of doing the same thing all these while. Since i’m still young, i opt to step out of my comfort zone just to train myself up to be a tougher, and better person.

To earn money is never easy, it takes a lot to sacrifice.

But what i’ve learnt so far, “put your whole heart in when you are doing a task, if you’ve started it, finish it beautifully.”

leave no regrets.

of course, one has to be responsible to his/her job.

God has been with me for the past month. So many miracles that i couldnt type it in words. Seriously, so many miracles has happened on me. From the first day till today…. I’ve never been abandoned. When i feel like giving up, HE gave me a direct msg not to give up. HE sent me my manager, who is like my elder brother, to guide me through all these, and to teach me what is it like to take responsibilities.

Well, I’m not a very responsible person, I’m scared of responsibilities. But now, I start to learn and take responsibilities of bigger things. Staffs, stuffs, sales… haha… a lot more.

Like i said, life is never the same.

all these that has happened will be a precious lesson and a precious memory to me.

trust me, I treasure each day more, as each day has a different challenge, a different story.

My prayers everyday is to have a satisfied, fruitful, and peaceful day. I’m doing my very best each day to improve myself. A lot of unexplained things happened, I would describe it as God’s grace, and mercy. I was and am never alone.

Life away from my family makes me realize that i can be independent on my own. Honest speaking, i don’t miss home that much, but i do miss my home’s food. =) probably, i feel like i’m home everyday. Thanks to my aunt and uncle.

Nothing ever changes. myself, my faith, me… I might sound different, i am still me. Just that i’ve grown mentally.

Working life makes me realized that how overprotected my parents were. Yeah, they are very protective of me. However, this time, when i go back, it’ll never be the same again. =) They know that i can be on my own now. =) yeah, they realize it. haha.

Time flies, i dunno why it passes by so fast. It was so dreading slow last month. hahaha!!!!

by the way, i miss burgers. I dunno why. Have cravings for burgers…. especially the one in Penang, Post Burger! the best!

Pen off!

gonna sleep early today. Tired. yeah, my legs and eyes are tired.

Good night peeps!!!!!!!!!!

Bro, u made me jaw drop! you stupid! LOLs!!!

P.S: RAhell Ngiam, you are welcome again!! the prawns!!! i miss your noob expression!!!! hahaha!!

Another off day of mine.

2011-02-17T21:30:00.001+08:00

My neck is stiff and pain.

Went to a meditation session with my family just now, well, i think i totally went to another stage of meditation---> SLEEP. hahaha!

It was a great session, and out of the 3 sessions of meditation, i slept for 2 sessions, and i had deja-vu. I dreamed of what the speaker speak, and when i woke up, he spoke EXACTLY what he speaks in my dream! ITs true!!!!

So, let me update some pieces of me.

I thank God for IVan, my manager. His presence made me grow into another person. I think without him, i wouldnt have go through the difficulties i have.

Wilson, my lao3 da4, has taught me lots of technical stuff! and i’m so damn interested in technical stuff! Well, i tried to learn up as much as possible!!!

Thanks to my freaking boss who made me stronger and has made my wisdom grow. Because, i’ve learnt today that i have to be compassionate to everyone, eventhough control freaks. When they appear, it will give us the chance to test our limits and test how compassionate we are, and gives us the chance to see the difference between both of us.

Raine Ang, this siu mui mui…. haha!! i’ve learnt a lot from her, and she’s just 19. Without her, my day will be so damn boring!!!! GAmbate!

Janice, a young lady who is with me ever since the first day i’m here. We’ll work to a better future! (i mean at work)

John, a person where Ivan claims that my characters are similar to him! HE is a nice guy, someone which i have so much to learn from besides the rest i’ve mentioned above. =)

Benjamin, big boss’s son. Totally different from his father. He has a good character, except for a slightly bad temper. A STAR i would say! he is a smart kiddo!

DAphne, Secondary school kid. Still a kiddo, anyhow, great to knw one more person!

Candy, boss’s wife, the nicest ppl on earth! I respect her patience! respect her woek attitude, respect her role as a wife, as a boss’s helper!

just heard a biggest joke of the year, UCSI Pharmacy faculty cancelled all classes to launch post graduate programme!

damn.. dean still as “SAMPAT” as ever.

my stomach aching now.. thanks to the SANTAN kakak cooked. =_=”

My eye bag is getting worse each day.

PPL! I miss you guys!!!

Lastly, I thank GOD for everything! without HIM, i wouldnt have go through HELL! cuz basically, everyday is a HELL for me.

Time to go off, will update soon!!!!!! probably on my next off day, which will be next Wednesday. =)

Ciao ppl! tk care!

CNY and Miracles. Thank you .

2011-02-03T02:12:00.003+08:00

Its been such a long time since i've touched my blog. Yeah, those who knw me, they knw i'm busy. So, in short, I'm busy earning money.haha!!

Its the first day of CNY! Its my YEAR! Before i start packing my stuff, let me just blog a while.

I was back from SG (Sg=Singapore, not SUa GU, haha!) yesterday, Met my Sorpor! how i missed our outings though! Eventhough it was just both of us, i feel blessed to have her with me, spending the day with her. Erm, she is still as childish as ever. Good news! she is trying to stop and cease her "stomping" action!!! Well, Not sure whether she'll read this, but i am really happy to meet her and the rest of her family yesterday!!!!! SorPor!!! All the best in everything! i'll see u again real soon!!!
Thanks to her as she updated me with all the stuffs and all the happenings around those familiar faces! Another SorPor from Ayer TAwar, hahaha!!! Glad to hear about her though! =P
PS: i knw all about you eventhough i'm not there. HAHAHA!

So the next time i see them will probably be end of May. yeap! God knws!

This Chinese New year, It reminds me of Aunty Jane's words. Well, she is one of the influential person in my life. I feel blessed that i did not disobey or do whatsoever stuff that are against my parents. Erm, some ritual stuff, I have to follow, CNY, no one wants commotions and unhappiness.
Well, its hard to be the only one. yeah, THE ONLY ONE!
Datin asked me whether i have distant relatives who is of my footsteps, i had a deep thought of it, from my mum's side to my dad's side relative, they are NONE!

I'm happy for who i am.

Life in SG has opened my eyes to His glory. Every single sales that i've got, its His glory. U cant imagine how i struggled through. Not easy, its tough.

U wont understand how much i've suffered through and there are times that i wanna give up! but... Lord has never left me and yet he showed me that i shouldnt give up.

A few days ago, i was pissed by my boss,I was crying the whole night till i fell asleep, Yeah, was feeling stressed. i feel like giving up immediately. That night, tears are my accompany. Cried after work til i reach home, and slept with it. Msged AL, i broke down. The next morning, I had a simple prayer compared to other days. I wasnt fed up, just that i was jaded. So, i was on my earphone, not listening to worship songs but i was listening to ordinary pop (which i dont do it everyday cuz morning is HIS time. =) ). There's this guy who stood in front of me, i did not notice him. By the time i noticed him, i saw his printing on his shirt. The printing goes like this...

No matter what is going on,

Never Give up.

Develop the heart,
too much energy in your country is spent developing the mind instead of the heart.

Be compassionate,

not just to your friends,

but to everyone.

Be compassionate,

Work for peace,

in your heart and in the world.

Work for peace,

and i say again,

never give up.

No matter what is happening,

No matter what is going on around you,

Never Give UP.

Believe it or not, i typed all the words in my phone's draft. By the time i finished copying the last word, The guy left to the SBS transit instead of CAuseway Link. Co-incidence? to some, maybe. but to me, its not.

I was amazed, from the moment i saw the printing.
I give thanks immediately.
By the way, my QT has changed from the toilet to my journey to work. I find it more comfortable with it, having QT while i am on my way to work. It somehow gives peace in me.

See, I was and am never alone. If it wasnt Him who carried me through, i wouldnt have lasted till now. That's why, a part of me wants to give up, but my inner voice asks me not to. Thanks to HIM.

I knw that this year is going to be a good one.

Just done with family prayers. I wasnt contributing to anything though. hahaha!!!

This Rabbit year, I wish all of you a prospoerous one.

My pumpkin, dun really knw since when u are a part of me, but i knw that my life has never been the same with you and your family around me.
You are one great sista of mine. I've always got you.
Thanks for being a part of me, and we both understand that we literally grew through a lot of things. =) Love you lots. I miss u every moment....

Thank God that He sent a bunch of great ppl in my life. =)

I'll never give up... on anything. and YOU.

PErhaps, this is the first time i blogged about how tough life is in SG. =) trust me, this is not all... yet.

Anyhow, i'm gonna conquer it.

and... pray for me. =))

Have a blessed RAbbit year!!!!!!

Till then! will update soon!

# For YOU alone deserve all glory.#
Faithful..... you are, and i am.

Edward Maya’s fiesta. hahaha!

2011-01-22T07:50:00.001+08:00

Edward Maya!! His songs are real cool!

and Vika Jigulina, i love Vika Jigulina’s Russian Accent!

Edward Maya has a high tone for a guy!

and i’ve never heard such a nice remix.

this is one of his songs, listen to the rest too!!!

well, just a short update on my bloggie. hehe… gotto run to Sg!

Ciao!! share this vid before i hang off! =)

by the way, Congratulation to my dar SA! I’m so happy that you are getting married!!!!! *hugs*

day off.

2011-01-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

i wish i could share some of the sorrows.

I was struggling, and i am still. A day off from work really give me a day to relax and to really rest. I was falling sick, due to lack of sleep and daily travelling. Now, i hope my health improves.

Just a short update before i hit the sack.

I’m still counting on God in my daily life. I’m happy, becoming more happy. In a way, i learn a lot, in all sense.

Life is not easy,working life is so much harder!! i love studying and attachments more! cuz they are short period and less stress! hahahahaha!!! yeah, to hit sales, please the boss, travel, get tired, stress… wah, lots to handle.

In short, appreciate study life.

i miss everything though.

These times are hard, but i can overcome it. I can adjust myself to adapt, i have to.

misery, owh yeah!

2011-01-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

i am in misery, there ain’t nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah!

my bloggie is so dead. Anyway, I’m still fine. Life is so different, I’m used to it now.

Talking about Stress, tht’s what i felt for the past week. unbearable. Well now, at least i’m coping with it. Thanks to my manager.

This is like another turning point to me, i cannot runaway anymore, I have to learn, grow. This is part of lifelong learning process.

So, by the time, i’ll be a different person, i’ll be a person who is more ready to face the cruel world. In other words, reality.

Right?

I’m learning… through the hard way.It’ll be fine. =)

cuz i got you.

Eventhough i dun have any indirect or direct encouragement, i am blessed too, because deep in me, i knw you never leave me, no matter what. =)

time to sleep! owh well, i miss blogging…. hahaha!

I cant wait to go bacK!

Quick New YEar Update.

2011-01-03T08:01:00.001+08:00

quick update~

Happy New year Guys!!!!! yeah, i was working yesterday, off on last Saturday 1st Jan. Mmm…. stayed home to accompany my friends and family, as in my aunt and family. Same, my family too. =)

So, the countdown in Esplanade Singapore was good, Sentosa island was good. I am happy that my buddies enjoyed! Aeris, Shereen, IT Seang! Come again! hahaha!!!!! I am so sorry for being a bad host, basically i only turn up during at night and on 31st after 6pm. ha!

Well, Singapore has marked a “tired” image in them… i guess. LOLs! cuz everywhere we go, we use MRT, bus, and legs. XD

So, this new year, of course, ppl talk about New YEar Resolution. I’ve written down a list of New YEar Resolution when i was at work yesterday. Mmm… looks like it is achievable! well, i will surely pray for it and make it happen!

I have pictures to upload, just that… when i reach home at night, its wither i’m too tired to do it or i’m too lazy to do it. Just like yesterday, I’ve decided to watch dramas with coussies instead of uploading my blog. hahaha!

Anyway, its the 4th week I’m here. So far so good. Travelling has been a part of me, its a routine. Well, I believe that this experience is gonna be precious to me. At the same time, I miss everyone down in KL. Mum just called me yesterday night, she and dad went to Pangkor for the weekend. haha!! erm, can say that my mum’s wish came true, she has never been to Pangkor. Sos both of them rented a motobike and go round the island. =) She was so excited when she talked about it.

Currently, I’m still trying to brush up my sales person skill. So many to learn, so many to absorb, so many ridiculous things to be stored in my memory, I miss drugs… seriously.

Well, its almost 8am. gotto go down for a quick drink, then head to work. Its a Monday, New Semester starts. Muh Darlings!!! all the best in new sem!!! I’ll be back in just a few months time. You knw, when sem starts, time flies. hahahaha!

I will update as frequent as possible. =) no worries.

Life in JB-Singapore. … Mmm…. totally different.

My footsteps are faster, mind me.

JB ppl run to Singapore for work, they don’t walk.

Singapore ppl, speaks very direct, their mentality is totally different that Msians. I bet, if ever those who are slow and lazy go to Singapore, they will end up--- X_X dead of hunger.

I’m currently looking out for either Ixus or Powershot cams. hahaha! thanks to SOng Brothers lar! gosh…. their gadgets so attractive!

Ciao ppl!

tk care guys!!!!

Love you guys lots…! Do stay in one piece till i get back. =P

=) look, i have to say.

2010-12-28T00:48:00.001+08:00

so, this is life.

I’m adapting myself to the tiredness. I’m actually learning something that might benefit me as a future pharmacist, of course, not in CCTV, but in terms of sales. I would say, its a different approach.

I need to transform from a professional to a layman salesperson. Sounds easy, but its not.

I start to condemn Malaysia’s education system, for being so spoon feeding. I am one of the victims, i hate myself for being that way.

I blame Government, for forming a bunch of Malaysians who doesnt knw how to speak up and fight for their own rights. I hate government for mixing up politics ands religion, and it shows that MAlaysians are not patriotic at all.

I love Malaysia, but our beloved government made everything so messy. Seriously, i am in Singapore now, i see a lot of Malaysians here, working. Singapore is good, in absorbing man power and geniuses. knw what? Malaysians in Singapore are like “indonesian maid” in Malaysia.

Another thing which make Malaysia always an underdeveloped or developing country is the mindset of the leaders. They are not far sighted at all.

Malaysia is such a big country with lots of natural resources as a great source of income. Singapore is just a dot on world map and yhet, they are so developed. Although i don’t like about the idea of having chinese in everywhere i go, but i cannot deny that Singapore is a successful country. I feel ashamed when i’m in Singapore. Everytime i take MRT,i thought of LRT in MAlaysia. Its like a sky high position and down the drain experience. Singapore’s bus service is so efficient that everywhere can be reached by bus. Malaysia? nah… u’ll probably get lost in somewhere you dun even knw if you take bus, that area you wanna go cannot be reached by bus!

Let me share with you something that i’ve realized when i’m in Singapore, saying that you’re a Malaysian in Singapore makes you feel like a foreign labour. You knw, what does Singaporeans thinks about Malaysia? they said Malaysia’s roads are dark,not developed, and security is not good, have to be extremely careful with bags as you’ll be snatched anytime. Another one, Malaysians are known as money sucker, or corruptors, especially in politics. SEE!!! Singaporean thought Malaysians as such!~!!!

malu…

ME? I am not a patriotic girl, I love Malaysia, I dislike the political system and those short sighted views and projects! Its is making Malaysia back to worse, back to the stone age.=(

If this continues, we will never be a developed country! and Malaysia will keep losing geniuses cuz Singapore is absorbing all our citizens!!!!!!!

I’m tired d…. Well, 2mr is another great day!

I’m so fine, and i’m getting used to this kind of lifestyle/.

Not an easy life, but… I’m glad. =) I will persevere, wont give up! Pray for me. =)

6 months down, to klang. I miss Klang’s food…….

Greenbox… Black Magic canai.. lala jian, tong sui………. and my loved ones….

by the way, this year’s Christmas is an unforgettable one! I’m so glad to have my very first Christmas here in Singapore, as Jc’s friend. =)

blog about my Christmas in my next post! nite!

My second blogpost. =)

2010-12-24T06:32:00.001+08:00

so, the reason i wake up early today is…. my dear Aunty Jane is going to fetch me for bfast and send me to JB sentral.. I dunno why my mum so scared of Aunty JAne, hahaha!!!! I’m close to her lar, and i can talk anything to her also.

WEll, My job is so far so good, it would be better if i’ve been confirmed a work permit. =) Anyway, I knw if i am doing my best, I will achieve what i want.

Life working in S’pore is not easy. I still prefer study life though. =) Like how i’ve told SorPor, probably this 6 months is a lesson from God. I dunno what is this precious lesson about but i’m definitely learning something big.

I’m having a great boss. At least care for the workers. I’m more than satisfied. I am now putting righteousness first, I don’t wanna lie, i don’t wanna sell something that i dont have, Honesty is the best policy, especially in business. But sadly, this is not my Big Big boss (means my boss’s boss) opinion. Thats what holding me back.

Well, I’m doing my part. God send me a msg, asked me to be patient, and do the best in whatever i do.

o, today is Christmas eve. My whole family is in Terengganu, celebrating Christmas as a family, left me alone in JB. very outkast huh?! hahahaha!!!

Read Pumpkin’s bloggie, yeah.. i think i have to postpone the headstart meal next year……… though i’m off on 1st jan. Sigh…. I’m sorry darling… i seriously miss your existence!! make sure you make time for me when i’m back! =) Boyfie comes 3rd that time!!! haha… (why 3rd? family first, me second, boyfie thirD)!! hehe…. YOU! tk care yeah! i miss mummy’s turkey and roasted lamb… =( send regards to mummy. say i miss her!

AL, miss u d.. sorry for all the empty promises. i’ve promised you for early and evening jog, and gym. i couldnt make it with you. I still hope that you carry on the plan without me too. I’ll see u in the next 6 months.

Christmas eve, having dinner with AUnty jane’s family! =) I’m meeting Daph’s boyfriend, Jensen tonight! yeah, get to meet him officially after so long. hahahahahaha!!!!!

2mr is the birth of Christ. Guys, any great celebrations? do have fun!!!! Christmas is a day full of joy! =)

I’m actually celebrating in Singapore. I was thinking, since i am here, why not?! i don’t have this chance next year d. =)

Life is contented. But i tell you, life working in Singapore is a life in no life. ha! understand?!

that is why i really admire those who can travel every single day to S’pore to work, and they have been doing it for at least 5 years!

gosh….

can die, travel 4 hours plus everyday, thru and flow.

Its almost 630am, I miss blogging! too bad, I’m always tired at night,and i would just check my mails every other day and sleep. I have no time to blog. Since I’m early today, just get my 20 mins to update my darlings on my condition. Yeah, i did not MIA on FB though. =)

Singapore dollar… it takes a lot to earn their money.

Will i change my perspective in money? I’m earning more than half of a pharmacy’s salary with just a job who can be done by anyone with SPM qualification. (but mind me, not much yeah.. pharmacist salary is like.. shit in Malaysia compared to S’pore) Gosh, see! the S’pore syndrome! hahaha! i mean, i am comparing everything now. XD

ha! nah, I’m blessed for what i have and the amount that i’ve left each month.

Saving hard for the rainy days. My only rainy day is.. travelling. =)

Gtg d! peepsie, take care!

Every where i go, JC never fail to be with me.I mean, he is really a good companion. Thanks for all the advises! Love you JC! See you soon!

What’s Christmas wish?

me? haha…. I wish that i am drawn closer to what i’m supposed to believe. Its a bless to knw that everything happens for a reason. You might not see it now, but it will be revealed as time goes.

Bless Aunty JAne and Uncle Yeoh’s family. They are so nice to me. =)

ta~! till i blog again! =)

by the way, spy gadgets are really scary…….. hehe… BUT! i can identify it when i see one! =P

ciao!

Merry Christmas !!!HO Ho HO!!!!

Summary of everything till now. =)

2010-12-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!

man, i miss real blogging. sorry, last blog post was kinda copy and paste. hahaha!!!

I’m now good, currently travelling between 2 countries in a day. Yeah, starved myself to get more money! I’m working so that i can travel to Melbourne!!! (I hope so). hahahaha!!!'

Currently, I’m working in Sim Lim Square, a place like Low YAt plaza but so much higher class!!!! I’m so excited! and i am spending my days there full of happiness!!! why? cuz i’m surrounded by gadgets! High tech!

me? I’m working in an outlet selling electronics such as spy gadgets and CCtv. Well, I dunno that there are so many perverts until i work there! Long story why i get to work there, well.. I’ll tell u guys when i meet you guys personally! =)

To travel from Jb sentral to Woodlands, it takes around 1 hour! thanks to the CROWD! and mind you, a lot of ppl travelling to Singapore every single day to WORK!

Bad luck in Custom when u met travelers. Yeah, just this morning, lots of tourists from China and Thailand… the Custom in Woodlands in so crowded! i spent almost 30 minutes to get my passport stamp by the officer. damn.

but!!

one thing good about Singapore is.. you don’t need to worry tht you’ll get lost! The public transport is so EFFICIENT! Honest speaking, this is the first time i understand how to tk public transport.. and the ironic part is, i learn it in SIngapore! to be frank, i dunno how to tk bus in Malaysia, even till now…. LOLs!!!

So, i travel everyday thru and flow. My work starts at 11am. So, i gotto be at JB sentral at 9am. then it takes me approximately 1.5 hours to travel to Queen street. haha!! I actually enjoy travelling though! =P

Another thing, dun think that working in Singapore means can earn much… gosh, i need to save like mad to get my target savings!!! The food there are a pain in the ass, i mean the price! I’m a Malaysian, who will always convert prices!! and that sucks. So, end up, i wont be eating anything throughout the day, except some biscuits i brought in the morning. Life’s good working, but not good eating.

Well, tht’s why i chose to stay in JB and travel every single day. I can really save A LOT!

I thank GOD for great colleagues in Singapore! seriously, the story is.. unbelievable! My job is flexible, i can do whatever i want, code whatever price, and i don’t have a boss, but all friendly colleagues and friends! I love the environment working there!!! Never in my life, i can hop and jump when i get dressed up in the morning, and be so ready to go to work! =P haha!!! weird? LOLs!

by the way, I fired the Taiwan tea job, i am glad that i did not took up, the boss called again and ask me go to work today, but… i am happy here in Sim Lim Square. =P screw Taiwan drinks"’ job!

Overall, I’m happy, I have time for myself. I off work at 8pm sharp, reached JB around 9 plus. bath, and have fun with my cousies. =P

I intend to purchase medical books… sad,in JB, i dunno where to get it!!!!

I guess i’ll ask my parents to bring my notes up for me. hehe….

LEt me upload some photos, i had lunch with Cha bor in JAya 33, PJ. Shyuet Li’s kopitiam! they serve superb nasi lemak, roti jala, and gado gado! my fav!

Nasi Lemak.

Gado GAdo. My fav indon food!

Roti Jala.

Superb!! i love that! and now i miss it.. cuz that was the last day i met Cha Bor… and everyone else. Right on that night, i’ve decided to come to JB as I’ve been confirmed to work in the Taiwan Drink shop…

bought this in Cold Storage, Jaya 33. HAve u seen this mini apple before?! its nice! =)

miss me? see me! hahaha!

Cheetos snack, bought is Cold Storage too! very nice and very filling! imported from USA. =)

So, i was on my way to JB, dropped by Yong Peng.

Gong Piang! but its none better than Sitiawan’s Gong Piang!!! I miss Aeris Yee now!!!! hahaha!

She’s the first “thing” i saw when i arrive! hahahaha!!!! I love Jeslyn!

she is damn adorable. She will play with her feet when she has nothing to do. hahaha!!!

FAther & Daughter!!! Jeslyn is playing with her dad’s handphone. ==) She’s so adorable. =)

these shots are taken when her mum said : “Jeslyn,smile!!”

then… Jeslyn smiled and snap! I took these 2 shots. hahahaha!!!

Mother and daughter! but Daughter more pretty. LOLs!!!

Went Jogging with my cousies at Johor IStana Garden. I love this place. very GREEN and it feels like going back to NATURE!

I like this place. I was sitting on the grass after jog, chatting with CAssie. =)

street artist in Rochor Road, Fu Lu Sou. =)

this is good!!! found in City Square, JB! the red colour jelly, it has water chestnut inside!!! =) yums!

the closer shot. =)

Roti Canai gulung and leper and goreng.. FAmous in JB, very nice!! especially when it is hot! hahah!!!!

went to KSL city, a new big complex in JB. saw this in a boutique, and i don;t like it. hahahaha!!!! reminds me of Chucky!

Bought these in BreadTalk. cute?! haha!! its superb!!! =)

Santa bread! =)

i took these this morning, hahaha!!! cute sisters of saying “ I LOVE YOU” in their own way! Gosh, these 2 always fight, and they even fight while asleep. hahaha!!

Zoom out view. hahahahah!!!!!!!

okay, let me end here lar. k?

I gotto print my cert now for my work permit! =) hehehe…

I miss all of you!!!

Pumpkin, no worries! will be in one piece!!! erm, when is ur bday ar? i got amnesia… even if u tell me, i will forget also. HAHAHAHAHAH!

Al, gambate!!! miss you lots! =)

daddy and mummy, i’m not a girl anymore.=) I’m going further… next time!!! =)

Tri no.3, and Grace yen Pue Ho.. now i miss you guys’ existence!!! =)

Good night!!!! Time to rest and read some books! =)

Ciao!

story of pencil and eraser

2010-12-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry....
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.
This is for all parents out there.....

preparing for the day.

2010-12-12T00:24:00.001+08:00

i’m so tired, travelled to Singapore to get used of the bus and mrt route. Gosh!

Anyway, My confidence is building. I’m kinda ready for the challenge of the month. I’m scared, but i’m ready!

My life will be busy.. yeah, really busy. I’m still gonna enjoy my day there! hehehe.

My “side chapter” of my life will be starting soon. Do not be sad of me not being present in where i’m supposed to be, but be happy for me cuz i’ve finally get to work in Singapore and have experience!

Erm.. Singapore’s stuffs are a pain in the ass!! LOLs!! thank God the place i’m working in is loaded with foods! and meals are not a problem, so as transport. Well, I’m kinda excited.

My day will start with travelling and end with travelling. It probably will be the same for the next few months cuz now, I’ve planned not to move, i’ll see what’s the situation first. Well, pray for my health and stamina!

2mr, another visit to THE island!! =) I really really cant wait. I probably (most probably) will not have public holiday off or new year off, or christmas off or chinese new year off! gosh….

anyway, I’ll see how it goes. =)

I’m good, still healthy. JB is not the place that i wanna be, but its the safest place compared to other places. For now, I’m just gonna stuck my ass in JB.

Yes, My big warm hug will reach you when i’m back. =)

for all of you that missed me, or i’ve missed… I thank God everyday for sending you guys into my life. Without you, my life would’ve been different.

Tired. time to sleep.

good night!

new journey awaits

2010-12-10T22:52:00.001+08:00

02-81789530

marine parade taiwan yin liao zhuan mai dian.

photos--- checked

spm cert?passport, IC, grad cert, photo passport 4x-- checked

block 83, marine parade centre. (the place i’l be working)

Many things can happen in a few hours time. yeah, I’ve got a job in Singapore. I’m leaving to JB 2mr morning. very random and i have to ffk all the trips that i’ve planned.

I’m still preparing mentally for everything…. ITs a turning point of my life…

Prayers in need.

a place to stay in Singapore, and those who have contacts, help me lookout ya.
new job, new environment –pray for me, my first experience overseas. The next country will definitely be further.
health, stamina. as for now, travelling is what i’m doing temporarily.
wisdom.

I cant believe that today is my last day sleeping on my own bed. I hugged Sheepig for less than a month, and i’m leaving.

Well, everyone looks supportive. =)

mum asked me to enjoy working life, not save money life. when its time to spend, must spend.

dad changed me some money, gave me a map, scared that i got lost, or scared that when i get lost, i can use the map and find my way back. Well… i think the map is useful. hahaha!

Al, plz dont shed a tear for me, this isnt goodbye. tk care!! i’ll miss you a lot!!! *hugs*

Pumpkin, be good. =) all the best in ur finals!!! meet u when i meet u!! *loves*

Pamelo.. cacat fler…. whr’s my ipod?!?!?!? hahaha!!! *punch*

Sher, Si por, and all the sampat gang, tk care!! Sher! will not forget how we watch movies at the price of one!! Aeris, i’l miss ur narcolepsy! no.3 and No 8! both of u will miss me lots, i knw. hahahahaha!!!!

date cancelled, now at least i can spend more time with my sheepig, Dino and No Name. + my family!!!!!!!!

Aww… i’m gonna have fun!!!!!!!

pray for me!!! =)

Great days. =)

2010-12-10T10:57:00.001+08:00

Its been a really really long time since i’ve blogged. nah, no jet lag. haha! in fact, i think i’ve had the most fun these few days.

Spent my days with my cousies, and i went out with Char Bor yesterday!

Well, i did not expect that things can go well even if its just two of us. Erm, we really had fun. hahahah!!! I will not forget that we’ve actually watched 2 movies at the price of one!! thanks to you! Cha Bor!! your sua-gu-ness really amazed me!!! ha!

I’ve shopped in GM yesterday morning before i met Cha bor, bought her some real cool stuff and she likes it. Erm, yeah, she requested it for long time d, and a promise is a promise, as i’ve promised her that i’ll get her that thing the next time i met her (which was yesterday).

The car MP3 player is cool. Old stuff toy, but its real cool. =)

So, what' i’ve done yesterday?? Went to Jaya 33 for lunch! yums! i still miss the Gado-Gado till now!!! and the Roti Jala! =P

Spent most of the time wasting life jamming on the road, yeah… as usual. Went to Ikano Power centre, Curve, and cathay cineplex, spent our day there! movie-ing has already taken up most of our time.. which i’ve enjoyed a lot except for the temperature in the cinema. hehe… Then, went to have the famous curry puff in Ikea,and the meatballs!!! love it!! and window shopped in Ikea. Took some photos of the Christmas Deco at The Curve.. Well, we definitely get to knw each other MUCH BETTER after the Ikea window shopping experience. Yeah, Cha bor was acting like a mother. hahahaha!!!!

Mind me, I will really get her CNY gift, bday gift, and Christmas Gift in IKEA in the future because Ikea has it all!!! (and she likes the stuff there). Too bad, i can’t marry Cha Bor.. because to me, shopping for Ikea stuff should be done with your spouse! hahahahhaha!!!

Mmm… have to think twice if i were to marry Cha bor, cuz…. she’s an ADHD, and… ADHD/ (Attention Deficient Hyperactivity Disorder). LOLs!!!! Think of a hyperactive kid, Cha Bor has all the traits and characteristics! XD thank God i’m a FEMALE! LOLs!!!

Went back to Cheras again to get the table back, with Cha Bor.. then, sing-a-long and chat in the car. She makes me wanna watch RAPUNZEL so damn much!! anyway, i really wanna watch it so BADLY!!!!!!!!!! cuz its sweet!

reached home around 1am, washed up, and watched Shrek 2 with Pamelo. I was a loser, i slept. I was just physically accompanying him. was too tired. hahaha!!!!!

Talking about today, I just woke up. Just watched an episode of Korean Drama, The Secret Garden. Nice though! funny! hahaha!!!

Later, meeting Doreen up for movie!! its her bday! and i’m gonna accompany her for movie!!! yeah, u bet, The Social Network, AGAIN!!! today is the 3rd time i’m watching it! Damn, i love the movie!!!!! Thumbs up and Toes up for the movie!!!!! I love the conversations in the movie!!!!!! its so smart-ass and cunning! Justin Timberlake’s voice melts me… Uuhhh…. haha!

Later meeting Julene in LC. I really dunno why its so sudden.. but Doreen asked her whether wanna join for movie onot, and Ju replied that she’s working full today and wanna see us in LC. i was like… WHAT?!?!?!? why so sudden!?!?!??! anyway, there’s no way out this time.. and… yeah, gotto meet her too!! (Can’t wait!!) hahahahah!! i wanna eat chocolates in LC!! i hope there’s still leftovers!

If i’m not going anywhere 2mr, I’ll probably be in KLCC for a talk about migration to NZ. Well, i hope i can make it to the talk, mummy, plz dun plan a last minute thingy….. hahahah!!!

Its almost 11am, i wanna nap for a while as i was awaken by the urge to defecate, and now my eyes are dry and the sleeping signal starts ticking now.

I’m gonna enjoy my few days left holiday!!!!!!!

Prayers still in need here. Pray that i’ll be able to get what i want. =)

relieved.

2010-12-06T19:08:00.001+08:00

relief.

thanks for all the prayers from friends and family! without anyone of u, this won’t happen!!!

I am truly blessed. Truly truly blessed.

i’ve spent my past few days meaningfully! with my cousies and family! wow… time flies. This Sunday, haha… another outing with my friends!!! =)

Everything is over for now. I am happy that i’ve managed to pull it through with God’s grace. =0

So, my life as a 3rd year marks an end. =)

Now, its another journey for job seeking and travelling!!! yay!

I drank a lot yesterday. ya, somesay i was drunk but i wasnt!!!!!

i drank at least 3-5 glasses (restaurant glasses) of Brandy (MArtel)! Damn, i was so high! but i wasnt drunk. =) and a few glasses of normal Tiger Beer..

erm, i can really drink. Even the liqour waitress said : “ wah, u very power huh!”

I said: “no power.. no power…” hahahaha!!!!

liqour is my type! yoohoo!!!

i hate PAmelo for cancelling the trip to LAngkawi!! i want him to get liqour back for me!!! gosh!

Congrats to dear Corrine!! loved ur wedding day!!! and i’m happy and proud of you!!!! Loves!!!

well, i gotto go, i’m good, fine!!

Pumpkin, thanks…. for being with me.

love u!!!!

good day bad day.

2010-12-02T15:02:00.001+08:00

ok, clearly shows that i feel un-peace the whole day. Well, i told myself not to worry about everything, somehow.. big part of me still worrying about something… which i don’t knw what i’ve done and it brings me to the situation that i am enduring now..

Screw it… I’ll have words in my mouth when the time comes.

Watched Harry Potter 7 with my Pumpkin. =) well, i was more like a story teller. haha!! watching it makes me wanna read the book again! cuz i’ve forgotten most of the part…. haha! anyway, i bet u wont understand if u did not read the book, cuz its kinda confusing. To me, it was okay. i mean, the movie was okay.. the book is better!!! =)

One thing’s for sure, this part of the movie is the MOST DETAIL series ever. =) yeah, its true. compared to the last movie, Half Blood Prince, this is better.. to me, its more understandable. =)

I’m looking forward to NARNIA! probably i’ll watch it again end of this week. =)

I’m proud of myself cuz i did not buy anything from the freaking J card sale today!!! hahahahaha!!! it takes a lot of self control!!!

hehehehe…..

me and Pumpkin were having breakfast in Nyonya Colors this morning, she asked me something that makes me think deep.. “do you realize that i’ve changed?”

haha!! well, she said she spent lesser.

it reflects back to me… means if she spent lesser, i spent more? lols!!!

the only thing that came to my mind was.. “ both of us have changed…”

pumpkin, u realize???

hahahaha… i do. I am experiencing the growth in us. Yeap.

Everytime, it gets more and more comfortable hanging out with her. =) In another way, we grow. All of us grow… and i’m quite sure that we grow positively… (though we grow fatter) hahahahha!!!

Actually, it is very hard to find someone “connected”. Erm, no one will understand this kind of connection i think. What’s on her mind, its on mine, almost at the same time, and till now, everytime, its at the same time we’re thinking about the same thing. mmm…. bad or good?

lols.

acceptance and love. i would say. <3

ok, time to do some file-ings.

i cannot imagine that i’m doing something that i once hated. something that i always tell myself that i am not interested in. haha…

its true that sometimes, nothing can stop us, only our brain barrier stops us!!! as long as we’re willing to give chance and give way to try, nothing is impossible. I’m not saying that i love accounts, but i reckon that i don’t dislike it like how i used to. Do not set a brain monologue, it blocks everything.

Probably, I’m a fast learner.. which contributes to easy learning. hahaha!! anyway, for the future 6 months, i wanna master something that i don’t think i can master. Big dreams, i wanna fight for it, badly.

I am glad that i see lights now. =) thanks to Pumpkin. Was kinda down, today is not going to be that good, i knw. Mmm….

but worrying only take away today’s peace, it doesnt solve the problem. So, i will prepare myself and face it.

I guess JayCee has made it clear to me through someone else. I’m glad that he finally speaks to me. Eventhough its not directly, i still feel happy that things are finally showing some way to me. Jaycee, my friend. Thanks.

I said i wanna do some invoice File-ings. HEre i go.

thanks for the accompany Pumpkin, without you this morning, my emotion will be doomed the whole day! not PMS, but like i said, today is not a good day to me… =(

off i go. Ciao!!!

Al, all the best!!! be positive! =P

to AL, nightghost.

2010-12-01T08:36:00.001+08:00

sweet right? din realized that we’ve known each other for so damn long. i still rmber, u were just a Form 1 kiddo. hahaha!!!

this NightGhost of mine, Mmm…. complicated…… lols! nah, she’s someone special and the way we know each other is just… special too!

she’s supposed to be close to another friend of mine, but… end up, close to me now. hahaha!! fate is a magical thing, u cant fight it. It wont go when its not time to go. It wont come, when its not the time to come.

right???

This post, i dedicate to my dear NightGhost. Thank you for being so loving and willing to listen to me every single outing that we had. =) Love you!!!! Promise i’ll meet u up after ur WAR!

She’s having examination. Well, i knw she’ll do well, and i truly understand that she’d changed from the first day i knw her till now. She has grown.

She has been more mature than her own age, all the while. =) this one, yeah…

Happy to have a sis like u in my life.

more than happy actually. hahaha!!!!!

and i couldnt believe that u still keep our letters when we were so young that time. hahahahaha!! keep it well, its a nice memory.

in short, she is sentimental, loving, caring, blunt, honest, true, hardworking, smart girl!!!! (there are more, cant really get the right words to describe all..haha!!)

I am very very happy to have u in my life! and… *hugsss*

gambate in exam!!!!!

on 1st dec with love. <3

shopping-spree’s curse.

2010-11-30T04:24:00.001+08:00

so, here i am almost 4am.

i miss Pamelo saying :" so its Perth-bond at this time again?”

haha!! yeap, I’ve been chatting with Calv for the past few nights. Glad that i am his listener…. =) well, 5days gone, and time flies.

I was in JJBT alone yesterday afternoon… and man!! time flies when u’re indulged in shopping!!! Gosh! i enjoyed myself a lot!! seriously a lot! hahaha!!

There were loads of ppl start buying d. me, i damn Fan4 Jian4! saw some cardigan vest that i liked, and… woohoo! got it on the day itself!! (see, i couldn’ve get cheaper price on 1st and 2nd december on J Card sale day)

damn, right? ahahaha!!!!

Bought a topsie to go along with the cardigan vest!

owh, i was looking at another cardigan, which i looked for quite long… and it looks like a big toilet bowl hole on a piece of cloth. Damn, i am too stupid to figure out how to wear it!!! hahaha!!!

Erm, i am still going to shop if i have time after the KLIA session! hahaha!!! fuyoh…. never in my life, i enjoyed shopping that much! haha!!!

More to go! showed mum my outfit, yeah.. be a model to model out my outfit. I showed her everything that i bought from last week till this week. Erm, dun be mislead, its only 3 pairs k… I am choosy for what i buy. And i have serious PMS in shopping. I only shop at the right mood, at the right place, and at the right time!! haha! tht’s why you don’t see me shop most of the time, and i am being labeled as someone who DOESNT LOVE SHOPPING. yeah, i dont really quite love it when it is done in a crowd and a certain place… but, like i said, i do shop. =)

Pumpkin said that i am cursed. well i think i am!!! ha!

ITs like being cursed by the price and the discounts!!! =)

I guess mum was kinda surprised with my taste though! i do look good in those outfit!! (haha! boast a bit) lols!

ITs like, 4 am now. i’ve slept a few hours downstairs, then came up here around 2 plus am.. and i’ve decided to exercise.. ha! of all time, i chose almost 3am to gym with my rider! Stupid right? well, holiday is the time where you get to do crazy and stupid things!

I had my second homecook dinner from my dad! delicious! and i was having hunger pangs since 4pm while i was shopping. Damn fan4 jian4 i tell you, i just cant take my eyes off the clothes and i ignored my urgency to pee and to drink and to eat! hahaha!!!!

if i did not remind myself about the time, i think i will continue trying outfits and shopping till jjbt closes.

and damn, why Blook closed down!?!? business that bad???? don’t really used to see empty blocks between shops… sigh… Blook has nice outfits, this i can agree! =)

I am seriously enjoying every single moment here alone, and can i not move back to my room?? i enjoy staying in Pamelo’s room… sobs… can i ask him to tk my room instead???????

haha! he’ll kill me.. cuz i’ve been torturing Dino ever since i came back!

Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm. – Winston Churchill

so true. =)

my result will be out in a few day’s time and people has been talking about on FB, make ppl freaking panic. haha! whatever will be, will be. =) i’m leaving it to God. I’ve tried my best!!! very best!!! =P

I think i better hit the sack. Today is another tiring and challenging day!I’m meeting up my old buddies tonight! guess it will be a great day for me though!

Dino is calling my name, he needs my hug and he needs me to dig his nose! =) hahaha……

Ciao guys. i’ll post up pictures if i have any tonight! or 2mr morning. =P

probably, i just gotta ignite the light in me…

Buenos noche, adieu!

emo-ing a lil. but.. i’m cool! =)

2010-11-29T11:16:00.001+08:00

When you have tasted the perfection, what you are going to taste in the future will be your second taste of perfection, it will not beat the first.

It is saddening to knw that rejection hurts, but somehow.. it doesnt..

I only understand the feeling of being rejected indirectly, but not.. straight to the face. Anyway, i am saddened, in a way, happy. What kind of feeling is this??

Mmm.. things will be revealed 2mr! yeah, I’m going to get my arse to CT to knw what is the truth. =), i wanna knw both sides of the story.. yet, i will stay neutral. Yeah, like i always did.

See, love is something devastating sometimes. but personally, i enjoyed every moment of love, regardless with who. my 2P, dad and mum.. friends…

yeah…

Somehow, sometimes, i do feel that there’s no one to love or help me when i’m in need. but… everytime when i feel that way, miracles come along and i will not think of any negative thoughts anymore… because God has blessed me with wonderful people in my life.

I’m kinda sad, because lovely ppl just couldnt get along, and.. heartbroken moments are everywhere. Tht’s why i wanna knw both sides of the story. I’m enduring a side, suffered on the other side, by not knowing the other side.

i am somehow amazed by what a person can do. outta love.

well, life will be more wonderful if there’s another existence of such wonderful ppl. hahaha!!!!

Me,in another way, is truly blessed cuz i’m surrounded by these people.

So, come back to me.

My time is odd, i exercise in the middle of the night, take only one or 2 meals a day, live like the only child, lazing around, shopped alone. This kind of lifestyle is cool!! hahaha!!

i’m loving every moment here at home. I’ve never online for so damn long. I’ve never shopped for so long d, its cool to shop alone though! =) I realized that i am more comfortable with alone shopping… not to say not comfortable with others, but the list comes second with mummy and my Pumpkin. i love shopping with these 2 creatures. hahaha!

Today, I’mma drop by jjbt and GM klang for a walk. yeah, for a quick walk. I’m getting myself a west, if possible…

I’ve bought a nice topsie yesterday! thanks to mummy!!! hahaha!! i love it so much!! =P

well, i think i better go settle my household chores, brush up, have quick lunch, then SHOP! =)

i can’t wait for what i’m going to buy later!!! hope i’ll get something out of nothing. hahahaha!!!

Ciao!!!

Klang-Genting_ayer tawar, sitiawan-Klang

2010-11-27T07:25:00.001+08:00

thank you for the X.

damn, i’m so lazy to upload photos and blog about my trip.. thanks to the comfortable bed in my Pamelo’s room. I’ve been conquering his room since i came back. haha!! damn comfortable.

Thanks to my Pumpkin for the accompany for KTV and meals ever since she hop back from Setapak. I cant be more glad to see her. I love her more each day!!

my Pamelo, damn.. he is still having exam. No doubt, these 2 creatures are the ones that fill almost half of my heart. =) woke up at 6am, msged my Pamelo to wish him all the best, and he thought i had nightmare…. cuz i DON’T NEED to wake up that early and i DID! sigh… and so here i am, blogging.

good seafood after finals!! my darlings really enjoyed it!!! haha! I’m glad that they are satisfied!!! =)

Seafood in Klang, Fantastic!!!

they are enjoying the meals!!!

Vivien, Sher, Tri, Gracie and me!!! =) did i missed out anyone else? hahaha!

Bah Kut Teh in Klang! Awesome!! had this is Tian Chuan Restaurant, bayu Perdana. =)

Vivien and Sher. =) <3

had this in J-Co. superb!!!!! hahaha!

superb ikan panggang in Klang Jaya!!! seriously, the best that i’ve tried!!!

they enjoyed the trip alot. haha!

practically, i was busy on the phone. hahaha!!! Tri looks good in her spec huh!

we were on the way to the city of money!! hahahaha!!

taking photos eventhough we’re in the taxi. damn. lols!

the four.

never in my life, I’ve stopped by so many places to take photo while we were on the way to the City of Gold. hahah!

back into the car again, yeah.. she has a major face problem.hahaha!

the Cradle Rock, me and Gracie. =)

seriously, i was surprised that she is very very approachable. Never in my life that i thought i’ll be close to her one day. haha! Grace, if u’re reading this, you are lucky! haha! or i should say, I’m lucky. =)

me looking good in specs?? haha..no no no.. i still enjoy my perfect eyesight! =)

the Trio. This is the first trip that we are not 3 of us only. Thank God for Tri and Gracie! (they both self invited themseves, hahah!)

some funny and stupid moves that we captured on the cradle rock. hahahaha!! i just love Genting’s weather!! =)

Grace, the kangkang is damn funny!!! Tri.. what is she doing? hahaha!!!

the most important is the accompany. =) this one, i agree!!!

act cute la? sorpor! hahaha!!

cekik.. cekik… haha! love my girls!

this one sucks… coffee bean, yucks… i think only the Genting branch sucks..

casino was a good experience!! and the weather!!! =) tired, but satisfied!!!

we had a cool fun up there. =) hahaha!

the amount of laughter and fun we had… were uncountable! haha! thanks to all the sorpors and i’m the only sane one! LOLs!!!!

so, these are the GOOD FOOD in Ayer TAwar!! Gosh!! i miss those food!!! haha! Kudos for Aunty Sally and family!! thanks!

this is fantastic! water to cool body system down, leung sui! its so different from the one in Klang! =)

Audrey, Tri, Gracie.

cendol in Ayer Tawar!!! =)

first time i sit in her car, and she is driving with her eyes close. hahaha!

the beach!!! Teluk Batik!! =)

soar on wings like eagle. haha!

my sorpors!!! =)

damn, i have a bunch of attractive girl friends. hahaha!

this can be the most spooky photo ever… see the super black hangus figure behind?? it’s a human, and so black. hahahaha!!!

i love the background of the sea… yea, i was almost pengsan, tht’s why i did not join them in the water. hahaha!! hot lar!

Ze Hanger. haha!

nice one!! seriously its good!

on the road again!! =)

kam pua mee.. yums!

lu3 la4!

pian3 nv4! and long4 yan1.

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the reading and pin yin are all in Fuk Chew language. hahaha!! i am also learning the language now. =)

my favourite!! li3 bing3.!! =)

so, end of the trip. =)

i will go back to Ayer Tawar again! definitely!

the whole 1 week of journey.. it colours up my sem break!!! eventhough its a local trip, but.. i was so sua gu that i have not tried any of Ayer Tawar’s local food before!!! hahahaha!!!

till then! love all of y’all! =)

back!

2010-11-24T17:36:00.001+08:00

i’m back! yea, hope i wont be missing in action again. I’m gonna use these few days to rest and GO AGAIN! hahaha!!

I’ve been outta town for 1 week. Well, it feels good though. I’m going to be missing again soon, i think.

I’m good, I’m gonna start reading again. yeah, gonna charge myself up.

Life has been wonderful with all of my buddies around. Grace, Tri, Sher, Aeris, and muh new friend, Vivien. Love them loads!

I’m now enjoying my laptop and Linkin’ Park. Well, its such a bless to have bought Linkin’ Park <A Thousand Suns> album!! yay! a few more albums to go! yeap, i’ve always been Linkin Park’s hardcore fan, ever since <Hybrid Theory>. None has amused me more than them, everything and every creation is original.

I wil upload a summary of my trip real soon, as i’m feeling lazy now. I wanna catch up with the news nowadays. I will still blog about everything. hahahaha!!!

I’m still thinking of backpacking. Mmm… but… no idea where yet. but i think if i were to “MIA” again, my parents will screw me… hahahah!!!

so, I’m now enjoying my Linkin’ Park with my Pioneer earphone! Fuyoh! imagine! heaven on earth!

ok, time to sing-a-long.

peeps, tk care! miss u guys whoever that i knw! Love you guys whoever that i love!!!!!

my trip’s post, coming up next!!! this post is to sign attendance first. =) hahaha!

LA Gomera REstaurant, Neo DAmansara

2010-11-18T11:02:00.001+08:00

Well, another day without notes…

listening to Katy Perry’s Fireworks now. Ya, Katy, I dont feel like a plastic bag now… hahaha!!!

So, like what i said in my last blog post, i went to La Gomera, in Damansara Perdana for Spanish Buffet.. hahaha!! it was fantastic!!!!! =P

Let picture speaks.. by the way, i was too hungry and tired. so the photos are just less than 2/3 of the whole thing…. hahahahha!!

This is the one! It’s situated in Neo Damansara. =)

well, 4 of us…. went on!!!!! Eee…. din really knw where’s the place, but.. we just crush there. =P hahaha! was a good experience though!! i mean the food!!

The stew pots!! i love the lamb stews!!! It was!! GREAT!!! GREAT!! GREAT!!!! =)

We were given clips, and.. we can drop our clips in any bowl and food will be served to us!! and the food includes.. stews..\

see the one on the right??? the Potatta!!! that was my fav!! besides the lamb stew. basically, i ate lots of Potatta… hahaha!!!!!!

the beef stew!! Yummy!!!!!

gosh, i love the stew pots!!!

The food… All i can say is, Spanish people, they love tasty food. hahahaha!!

this is fantastic! this platter! i love the balls with cheese in it!!!!! the rest was good!!

there are lots of salad session, but, i couldnt manage to finish all!!! =) LOLs!

see the long bean?? the green colour thingy?? haha!! it was good!! it was made with TUna! a new taste to my tastebuds!!!

the seafood platter!! very big portion!!! we “throw” the clip, the food’s served! hahaha!!

PIGs!!! hahaha!! we ate like we’re going to eat the whole cow!!

Josh!! hahaha!!! he’s enjoying himself though. =)

oyster!

the square face. hahahahahha! Sor POr!!

this is hillarious!!! haha!! cuz the cicau water is… not that good, but the cincau is very very fine! so, one drink, one looked with amazement!! hahahaha!!

left person in blue: kepala senget sudah nak patah!

Right person: same expression with the wonderful teeth! hahaha!!

we finished our dinner around 11 plus.. haha!!! then, nothing to do.. sent the square face back, we hang out there!!!

so, we played carom. hahaha!! finger was so damn pain!! and the SorPor Aeris.. she played for the first time but scored the most… haha! dun play play…. got skill ar!!!

guess what is this session???

hahaha!!

its actually movie session! we were watching DEAR JOHN and look at everyone’s expression!!!! GOSH!

Aeris thinking hard, Square face almost feel asleep (anyway, she slept), Josh.. erm… watch without complaining as he is having abdominal pain. LOLs!

me, i watched it AGAIN! yeah, i watched it during my bday, with my pals.. whom i love a lot!!!!!! and in deed, it was a special celebration. =P

I’m now at home, with all my friends around me, waiting for bfast!

Holiday mood is here.seriously, i wanna break free and feel myself soaring up up on the air like eagle! teehee!!!!

I-city tonight!!!! yay!

Map to La Gomera!!! =)

have fun! and eat in that restaurant!!!! =) worth the money! =P cuz its the cheapest buffet ever! only Rm 35++ per person! hahahaha!

Contented, tired, but happy!!!

2010-11-16T20:03:00.001+08:00

gosh…. i’m so tired!!!!

but its really worth the “before and after” effect!!! hahaha! I’m satisfied. Helped my Cha Bor to shift her room. So, ya. Thanks to the Ah Beng too! without him, i dunno how to get the wardrobe’s ass off the room. hahahahaha!!

So, today, i woke up with my legs and hands and body ache… i dunno why… probably yesterday i was tired lar. then.. today… whole day non stop. Later still one last round before everything ends. =)

Going to LA Gomera for Spanish buffet. I’ve been interested in Mexican and Spanish food ever since James told me that it’s nice. Well, will see how it tastes! !!

So, overall, my day… kinda contented. did not waste my time on PPS instead. haha!!!! Cuz i was running here and there to get stuff shifted. So, 2mr is another new day!!!! dunno where will i be… Mmm…. LOLs! =)

I’m going back to Klang 2mr!!! yay!! my frens are coming along it seems. And we’ll be off from klang from 19th onwards! to release stress!! hehe….

Pumpkin asked me to sleep earlier, i think i can apply it now… =)

haha!! cuz my extremities are exhausted!!!

Pumpkin! GEt well soon ya!!!!! LEts go BLack MAgic Roti Canai!!! but.. when u’ve recovered lar.

time to go off!! will try to blog about the food later if i still have the energy!

Holiday… holiday……… =P

okay! tk care!! peepsie!!!!

hugs and loves!

short update!

2010-11-16T10:17:00.001+08:00

“So here i am, standing all alone”

Loved David Tao’s <Opus 69>. I’ve been listening to Elva Hsiao and DAvid Tao, not forgetting Brendan James.

Today’s gonna be a busy day, believe it or not, i woke up with body ache and i freaking dunno why. hahaha!!! So, this is what happens when someone did not do all the heavy work for LONG and now… its a shock to the body.

Seriously, life after exam, it still feels the same. Probably a bit stress free, but.. aiks, maybe i’m bothered by what i wanna do in the future 6 month’s time. Anyway, I’ve ought to plan and decide. Still praying that i’ll be able to find my way. OWh, gimme the wisdom…. =)

Cleaned my birdnest yesterday!! I lvoe the emptiness in my room! and… I’ve slept with my lights off for the first time in the past one month! i feel blessed actually, sleep quality is better. Anyway, i still woke up and felt fresh at 5am.. couldnt help it.. cuz used to it d. sigh…

Later, i’ve lots of things to do. I’m helping my Cha bor to shift house. Erm, i’m not good in unscrewing and screwing stuff…but, i’ll try my best.

Yesterday, it was one of the happiest day in the past one month. I get to see and meet someone whom miss me so much.. and she is so damn sick now. haha! My Pumpkin! take care you! sleep well! eat well!!! rest well! i’m so glad to have seen you and talked about things that i wouldnt have talk to others! I wish i have more time… hehe.. anyhow, i knw i’ll have! Love ya!!!

So, the Pan Mee yesterday was good!!! I”m eager to try more!!!! haha!! and i kinda miss the Ginger milk now. LOLS! I’m gonna eat again!! hahaha!!!

mmm, any plans for today?I hope i can finish shifting by tonight… then can go for a nice dinner with my pals. =)

I’mma bath now. then, go take my photo, probably get some good bfast (if have).. I hope i won’t be eating breads anymore.

by the way, my stomach cramp again yesterday night… was it IBS? Gosh, my IBS worsened during exam period!!!!!! Diarrhea, and constipation. Bowel movement altered like shyt! muscle cramp from dunno where, bothereing my exam. I was writing script and my stomach was having spasm. Damn….the feeling ain’t good at all…

chatting with my dearie coussie, we’re like sampat and we always discuss about another' coussie’s family problem. hahaha!! no la, just feel a lil disappointed to another coussie of mine whom is in her rebellious stage and keep saying things that hurts the family. i hope my dearie Janookai can do something!

Me? I’m too tired to “campur tangan”. =)

okay, gtg now!!

basically, I’m now living in a stress free condition for 2 weeks till my result’s out.

off i go!

funny us. hahaha!

2010-11-15T06:36:00.001+08:00

DOOM!

yesterday morning, something funny happened! i din knw it until my stupid Pamelo told me as i accused him for 'NOT WAKING ME UP AT 3AM!!!

it went like this.. we were messaging each other and i asked him why he did not call me up~~! innocently and defensively he said :'” eh, i called u k!! i talked to u summore!! if not, who the hell i was talking to?!?!?”

i asked him: “ no!!! you did not call!!!!! i din not talk to you also!!!”

he replied: “ u damn cacat! go check ur call records!!”

true enuf.. he called me at 3 am and i ASNWERED!!! and… I DON’T HAVE A SINGLE MEMORY ON THAT!!!!! T_T

i was like so blur.. i asked him.. “what did i say to u? cuz i really cant rmber a single thing!!”

then he replied… this is the exact msg..

“Me: helo

u:hhhh

me:u asked me to cal u rite?

U:ya, nw wat time edi?

Me:3am.. 3am rite u ask me to cal u?

U:3am edi ar? Kk

me:okla, byebye

u:hhhh”

The U is Dellynn lim, me- refers to Him, cuz he called me.

see? i couldnt really recall the content… at all !!!!!!

and he asked me to go get some ginkgo for myself!!!

then i asked him to wake me up again.. today, at 2am… then he said.. “N tis time, make sure whn u recived my cal, tel me straight away my name, phone num, i c, n report tat u r concious. Lol!! Okik?”

i was like.. =_=” huh? i have to do that ar???

he said : “ya la! Abo?!?”

me: “ ok lo… give it a try then! ZZzzZZzz”

this morning, 2am, he called…

knw what? 11 missed calls and 1 msg! and i picked up when he called the 12th time!!! hahahah!!!

so i picked up, he said : “ ok, say it..!”

Me : “har? what? (cuz i was still non awake.. blur)”

he said: “ say it, like what i told u yesterday…”

me: “ har??? really ar?? ok lo… LimRayYang,017-XXXXXXX,..”

he said: “ my ic number?!??”

me: “har? IC?? erm… 880529-XX-XXXX”

he said: “ ok, now wake up… hahahahah!!! i’m sleepy d… call u so many times only answer…”

me: “ k la, i am AWAKE d!!! “ (reporting myself)

see, the method does work!!!!

“Y arent u answering??? Silent mode? I called a million times edi...”

the above is the exact msg he sent when i did not answer him for 11 times. LOLss!!

so, very funny lar, both of us… i felt sorry for accusing him as he DID called me and i couldnt rmber a single shyt! seriously…. i din knw that i talked also!!! hahahaha!!!

so, today, seeing my Pumpkin! yay! miss her face! but i will make sure my face is good enuf to see her face today!!!! =P *loves*

Aww… packing day… =(

Beautiful… out of disaster.

2010-11-14T06:41:00.001+08:00

A few days since i blogged.

Come, let me share something… yesterday… morning, my condition..

and i cannot even recognize myself!!!!!!!

Damn, this is what happens when someone studied straight from morning until next morning, with only less than 2 hours nap! Thanks to Marketing and I’ve screwed the paper.

Well WEll, nah, no regrets, cuz i’ve really really done my best… Although I’ve finished everything wrote all questions, but.. when i came out from the exam hall, i realized that what i perceived to be right turns out to be wrong. I mean, Common Sense!! and it still doesnt work…

this time, its another disaster to our class i think. ok, leave it.

Me, I’m now having bigger challenge today! Finish 13 chapters in 1 day!Possible!?!? No?? haha! I HAVE TO!! 2mr is the exam!!!!!

I’m now, have to wash up.. cuz my baby urge came, and i need to go.

share something beautiful outta disaster…. it was yesterday.

Beautiful sunset, indicates a good end to my bad ( not bad after all… =p ). Sorry bad colour, the sun set was so ORANGY! beautiful! my whole house was dyed with orange colour! =)

So, God really has a way to comfort you in a bad day huh??? Mother NAture is always the best MOTHER cuz she is ALWAYS beautiful except my own mum who is forever beautiful hahaha!!

I’ve done my best!! never in my life, I’ve not slept and chunk everything into my brain….

although i was a bit panicky in the beginning, but.. answers came out eventually. I was so thankful!!!!

Morning ppl!!! Great day ahead!!!!

B what U wanna B - Darin Zanyar

2010-11-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

DArin Zanyar -Be what you wanna be

had this song in my phone like.. months ago....

i've always loved his voice and this song!!

Darin Zanyar-- Be what you wanna be!

cool melody!!! =)

no more cranky but busy.

2010-11-12T09:32:00.001+08:00

write something before i don’t have the mood and time.

Gosh, i overslept! slept at 2 plus (around 230 i guess), instead of waking up at 4, i woke up at 7am!!! proves that i am so tired and my body wants the 5 hours sleep.. which is too much..

I’m currently preventing myself from another panic attack.

Seriously, trying my very best to chunk in every single thing into my head.

I have no mood for anything other than study!!!

So, here i am, standing, still with my head held high. What you can do to ease my pain? yeah, pray. Just pray for me.

I am claiming the promise now… The promise that is there and its waiting for me to stretch out my hand and body and my intellectual behaviour to claim it!

Lamb is the one who is worthy. Thank you for the X!!

Still fighting, mood a bit better than yesterday. Was so cranky but now, no time to be cranky… as it really affects my mood to study. Well, I”ll just do my best.

Time to go off. Sorry, bothering ur day with my short-bad-mood-post.

great day ahead!!!!

Fireproof…. how i wish i am.

Today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-11T14:24:00.001+08:00

see, i am so exhausted….

slept less than 4 hours everyday.

Today’s paper was good, just that MCQ a bit tough and tricky.. and i just hope that everything will be fine.

now, its time to concentrate on Marketing! My mood isnt here for Marketing.. but i will really stress myself to the max so that i can HOP THROUGH this paper!! GOD!! BLESS MUAH!!!!!

I’m feeling a bit cranky… probably due to lack of sleep. a bit grumpy, cuz.. everyone is enjoying and i’m having exam here! probably contributed by my hunger pangs too!

Soldier of light.. I love this term. Seriously!! I’m gonna be one! hahaha!!!

Just a short update on me..

I did not sleep well, did not eat well, forced my eyeballs to open, forced my brain to accept things that i dun like.. (but i will make sure i like it!).. force my butt to sit straight on the chair from morning till midnight.. or morning. Want to sleep or nap, but i couldnt. OWH! IS THIS LIFE>!?!!>>?>!>!

i just cant wait for it to finish, i mean exam, and CLEAN MY BIRDNEST! not forgetting to mention, i have a host in my place for the next 6 months, at least the host helps me to tk care of my room, and my table! hahahaha!!!

ok la, i have to stop writing, and start studying…

pathetic right? paper just ended less than an hour, and have to study for the next subject! i’m freaking tired!! and this cycle is non stop till the day my exam ends!!!!!!!!!

ok la, forgive me for all the exclamation marks.. I just wanna yell, and release my stress!!!

was having panic attack yesterday, and… gosh, thank God i pulled over. So far, everything still fine.

I need miracles k…seriously.. miracles and GRACE!!! and MERCY!!!!

i end here. dun wanna write further. TA!

*still feeling cranky and grumpy and hungry!!! *

updates

2010-11-10T05:30:00.001+08:00

A quick update..

i slept at 2.30am, or almost 3am, woke up at 5am. Yeah, requested Shereen Ang to wake me up when she does..

Purpose? i wanna study. Still got a lot of undone studies!! gosh!!!

I get to watch one FB vid before i slept. Gosh, it got me laughing non stop!! another SorPor singing dunno what stupid song is that!!! ha!! Go watch! it’s on my FB link! hehe…

What’s passed,aiks.. let it be. As long as we’ve tried our best in it!!!!

I’m having a marathon with time.. seriously, it is the most tiring thing to race with time!!!!!!!

I really can’t bear another hour sitting on my chair actually.. If my butt were to be X-Ray or scanned, i think can see a lot of bruises there. Sigh, its really pain and numb..T_T

Well, no matter how is your butt condition, studies still go on!!! no rest days. hahaha!!!! Perhaps, i’ll study a lil, nap a lil.=)

I’m good here. I was again touched by JaeCee! thank you friend!! You’ve never failed to be with me everytime i need accompany. What can i say but to say THANK YOU!! He’s really a good friend of mine!!!!

Off i go! my eyes should be on the notes, not on the screen now!!!!

tata peeps! write again… erm, 2mr? hehe….

Tk care ppl!!! =)

a lil update on my TODAY. =)

2010-11-09T00:11:00.001+08:00

“Flames to dust, Lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end?”

a song lyrics from Nelly Furtado. yeah, it just caught my mind.

I’m writing to keep me awake, as usual.

Today, it has been… good. Chatted with a few person. It does makes me feel better. I mean, yeah. I’ve not been talking to anyone else since last…week? LOLs!!!!!

owh yeah, let me share another achievement of mine today! very rare…!! don’t laugh… hehe..

i’ve lowered down my fan speed to no.2 the whole day!!! yay!!! all the while, its no.3. i thought, my heat tolerance has been getting lower and lower… so, i challenged myself today. No.2! i knw it sounds funny and absurd, hahaha!!! but.. i wanna prove to myself that i can go back to the No.2 speed! owh, i used to tune to No.2 a few years back. now, No. 3.

my challenge ends when the weather is super hot again. haha!!

Today, i’ve learnt one thing. The person knows clearly that you are a loving child, but.. you yourself won’t knw whether the person cares for you. Understand? haha!!! Its like… one sided kinda thing. Like i say, human are selfish, and its a skill to survive. Nothing is wrong being a selfish brat. I am selfish too.. sometimes… =)

but, i don’t feel heartbroken or what-so-ever feeling, cuz i knw… its a norm. Instead of focusing things that you might not knw you’ll have, why not focus on things that you’ve already have and give thanks to it? right? =)

Owh, I’m blessed with what i have now. =)

Another thing, i can’t seem to study without voice… i’ve tried, but.. it doesnt lasts long. I wonder why. .. any psychiatrist out there can help me decipher my problem? I need sounds to study! if not, i can’t!!! Why?!?!?! is it just a habit? or? my mental problem?!?!?!!!?!?!?

or maybe i’m used to it? or maybe i’m scared of silence??

nah, scared of silence? it doesnt make sense.. in fact, i love it. haha!

Just when i realize that i accidentally activated my FB chat just now, besides chatted with Pumpkin, Missy V nudged me and say that the next Saturday’s paper is an IMPOSSIBLE MISSION. Well, I try not to think that.. =) So, I gave her some comfort..(which i’m good at =P) True enuf, everyone is at the same level, and there’s no use questioning the school why no actions has been taken to this kind of lecturer whom failed more than 97% of the class. Sigh… i can write a whole page of angry words when i talk about it.

but then… its no use.. cuz all i can do it.. study and try my best. what’s passed is PAST! no point looking back, thinking about it.. and feel depressed. In fact, when i saw the result, i was laughing, but deep in me, i felt sad. I laughed cuz.. that was the first ever exam where almost whole class FAILED.. terribly… seriously, not fail with C-, but worse than that. Well… well….

Me, i’m just going to pray hard and study hard for it! That’s why i ask for prayers from all of you everyday.. It makes me feel better. =)

Let me share a few pics i’ve taken a few months ago…

i was at the slow lane, the weather was scorching hot that day.. but the sky was damn beautiful!!! God’s creation!!! its beautiful.. isn’t it?? Sky is the best magician ever.. even better than David Copperfield cuz you can see all sorts of things in the sky. Don’t believe, try it one day!!!

owh, i knw there’s a lot of SS.. but forgive me, i’m just too bored….. haha!! Just to update you guys that i am still fine, i still look good… a little dark eye bag.. which will be worsen in a few day’s time…. Overall, i’m good. =)

Time flies, i just can’t wait for next Monday, 1pm. It marks my liberty… for the next 6 months.

Today, everything has been wonderful to me. Things go smoothly.. i did what i liked.. Yeap, watched YouTube on the Ellen Show. Gosh, i love her! Besides, I’ve slept, sang a little, movie a little… Mmm.. what else? Studied! =)

ITs almost 12am now. I’m going to sleep early and wake up early. I think my body is so tired that 9 hours sleep is not sufficient for me anymore. Probably it is due to accumulation of all these months. Mmm…. the road to be a pharmacist, its seriously not easy. Everyday, I’m dealing with blood, sweat, and tears. haha… Own B.S.T, and others’ B.S.T.

I accept the fact that we need to suffer in order to mould us to what we’re supposed to be. That is the process of life.

Life is short, appreciate it, live it. Love it. Don’t live in BLAME, don’t live in LIES, don’t live in PAIN, don’t live in VAIN.

Be the one you want yourself to be. Be true to yourself.

okies, time to go off! Ciao! till then!!!

P.S: I feel like taking a super LONG BREAK…not 6 months, but more than that. now i realized and i understand why did Rose made the decision to escape to Japan a few years back before she entered Year 4… I think i can feel her now. The pressure is rising… especially with me and everything that is still unsolved in me…. well, can i say that.. "i wanna feel and be like powder? fine, flowable, free.. and no restriction. Wind blows, powder will be splattered around. I wanna go off from my cage.. a while..” It is stupid i knw, but i have a thought to really live like a cavemen, no phones, no laptop, nothing. yeah, best said, i need a retreat.

a bit outta muh mind here, but.. i’m good. =)

haha… anyway, nites peepsie! will write 2mr! =P

eyes closing.. surprisingly!!!! hehe….

My 2 Stupids / my day, my feelings / some encouragement. =)

2010-11-08T00:21:00.001+08:00

So, Diwali just ended in a glimpse of eye….

For those who had spent the holiday well, bravo?!! For those who studied and spent the time well on warming the chair, BRAVO too!!!

I’m now, half asleep. I’ve decided to sleep like a normal person today. At least, with the lights off. ITs been 3 weeks since i slept with my lights off.. and.. its torturing. I am scared that i overslept.. that’s why…

Based on what happened few days ago, i really doubt myself whether can i really survive next year. Anyway, i knw… my path has been paved. Its waiting for me to walk.. that’s all. i’m just going to enjoy and stay positive. Adam LAmbert said on Oprah :" there’s once i took everything so seriously and i was so stressed that i could not even sleep.. then i thought, since i’m already at this stage, why not enjoy every moment, every performance? cuz i’m doing something that i like!!”

yeah, it makes sense.

“Enjoy doing things”, and “doing things merely because we need to” are 2 different things as they yield different outcomes. Like i said before, no one and nothing can have control on other’s life. Even simple thing, you have to decide on your own as your life is YOURS and no one can DECIDE IT FOR YOU! Others JUST HAVE TO RESPECT YOUR CHOICE!!!

right?

I’m now in the midst of exam. I’m not as hardcore as i was… I came to a point to realize that living the day and living the life are important to keep you going. I still do the things that i like..to keep me going. Anyway, i knw, i won’t have the chance to do it next year.. yeah, you will have difficulty to even meet me for yum cha session on weekends cuz i might not be coming back to Klang every week..anymore.

So, for the next coming 6 months, i’m going to live my life, and experience life as i’ve never been before. =)

I’m still waiting for a light, and my inner voice to speak to me though. =P hehe….

It’s late, i’m kinda sleepy…

My progress… i hope i’ll be fully prepared by 2mr. Prayers still in need here!!!!

I knw the Cha Bor won’t read this… never i guess… but just wanna let her knw that no matter what happens, HAVE FAITH! =) yeap, i’m going to miss her the most whenever i’m in cheras.

She’s the other one who has same brain waves as mine. No need mention who’s the first lar har… she’s my SISTA, PumpKin. ok.. full stop. cuz if i wanna talk about Pumpkin, it takes me 10 days 10 nights!! or even more than that~~!! haha!! cuz we have too much to talk about!!! right?!? hahahah! erm, start to miss her a little… yeah, JUST A LITTLE!!! NOT MORE tHAn A LITTLE! hahahahahah!!!!

yeah, back to Cha Bor, we have similarities, yet.. we have differences in us too. HOwever, the bond that we’ve built is really.. different. i don’t knw how to describe. I really wish her all the best and my prayers will never stop! I hope that things will go well eventhough i’m not here as a DIRECT encouragement… cuz all i can give is Indirect encouragement. =) LOLs..

GAmbate Cha Bor!! *hugsss*

Sometimes, I feel blessed because my friends are all.. true. Yeap, my close friends are true to me… Probably because I’m true to them?! hahaha!!! I’m a lucky girl!!! In a lucky world!! Life is fantastic with them!

Does all good things come to an end?!? what’s your say?

Will my trip come true? cuz now.. everything seems so negative.. the weather, the people, the fear….. Mmmm….

well, Going off now!! willl study a little, then.. hit to bed!

To all, great day ahead yeah!!!!

*yawns…*

I miss Tg JAra beach now…..

i definitely miss spending time with them!! at the beach!!! =) that beach has been our “private beach” since we were very very young!!! *winks*

The stupid HIM and the pretty me…. LOLs!!!!! HE looks dumb, ain’t he?!? hahahaha!!! miss old times! =P

ciao!!

and this one!!

this PIG! act cute. hehe… yeah lar, grabbed this photo from FB though. She looks STUPID TOO! ain’t she?!?!

I just love the 2 STUPIDS in my life!!! =P Thank God that they are stupid, it makes me SMART. hahahahaha!!

Ciao guys!!! hahahaha!!!!!

*hugsss and nitess*

, by Jocelyn Tan.

2010-11-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

i realized that i did not blog yesterday. yeah,i was .. occupied. Well, same goes to today, will be occupied as well.

I just got this song from FB, from sweet Jocelyn. This is a wonderful song. Its her competition winning piece and i would like to dedicate this song to… those who are having exam, and those who loves music.

For those who are having exam, although its tough, but do not forget the one who always hold you in the right hand and always hold your tears whenever you shed. Somehow, when we’re out there, we feel like a free kite, but.. there’s always an invisible, loving, strong, kind string which is holding us tightly no matter where we are. Exam is depressing, but… you have the string, be afraid not.

For those who loves music, i think this is an overwhelming production which has its own style. This is a great composition. Although the juries said the lyrics is a bit childish, but.. i just love it! and the meaning behind it is so simple and strong.

Here i present, <Kite>, by Jocelyn Tan.

enjoy.

Lyrics:
终有一天我会飞出这小框
不再留给自己任何遗憾
摘下原本属于我的智慧，理智
配上一双叛逆的翅膀

风筝飞多高都有降落的时候
随风的方向飘流
有你在我背后默默地支扶我
你是那风筝的绳子

风浪混乱的节奏
使我迷糊了双眼
我渐渐失去了
当初伟大的看见

当没有任何人听见
我呼唤的声音
当没有人能了解我这无助的困境
求你伸出你双手让我再次体会
被你爱的感觉是如此的美丽

“被你爱的感觉是如此的美丽”

this is a beautiful sentence. It simply means “ Its so beautiful being loved by You…”

To the writer, Jocelyn, its a praise to the ONE who holds her dearly no matter where is she. =) We’re the Kite, HE’s the string. =)

A lovely song, i hope she will go far with her beautiful voice and wonderful talent. =) Of course, me.. will support any creative music and what’s more she’s my friend… and summore she’s the Ah Beng’s sister?!?! hahaha!!

Peeps, enjoy the song, as i’m going to allocate this blog post to Jocelyn. There’s a whole lot of talents out there, she’s the one you definitely cannot miss. =)

Unique. =)

ME, and big part of me. =)

2010-11-06T03:07:00.001+08:00

i’m tired. but i won’t break down. I’m not trying to be strong, just trying to be optimistic.

nah, i don’t anchor to it, tht’s why.. even if it happens, i mean, failure, it will not stop me from moving on with my life. =)

I’m pretty amazed with today. I’ve spent my days studying half of one subject and plan to finish half of another subject.

My dear partner in fight uploaded a few pictures, i was like… WOW! its sort of like, Before and After version of me. =)

this was taken a couple years back… i think i was still in Form 6.. or form 5.. not sure whether which year already. Gosh, look how i’ve grown up so much now…. haha!

this was taken last year i guess (lost track d).., before i had my braces on… =)

just to introduce, these are my fighting mates. We’ve been fighting since.. very very young. Met each other on the Bouts, Met each other in courses, of course, not forgetting, instructors and MAsters. =) of course, Seniors.

these are the instructors in the club. =)

Awww… i miss that moment. That was our graduation trip, during Form 6, to Pangkor Island. Look at this missy beside me. She is the one who stood my me and walked with me till now… I mean, she literally helped me through my difficulties. =) Trust me, she is not she was.. now. =) Totally different! changed to the good! =)

this is something that i’ve never shown anyone except for those in the pics, and my family.. and those who exist in my life at that very moment. Ya! Just shut up and keep reading… hahahahhaha!! dun say a word. i knw! =)

by the way, those in the pics… we share a special bond… till now. =) I love these girls of mine!!!!!

even until now…. we’ve grown so much, compared to Form 6…. we’re on our way to be a professional in our life. =) This pic was taken on OCT 14 2010!! (knw what’s this date!?!? haha!)

somehow, they are impregnated in my life. =) this was taken a few months back, end of July i think… =)

yeah, i really think that this photo is somehow special…. =) hahaha!! this was taken last July, a few months back.

so, this is me, and those who evolves around me. this is quite recent photo of mine lar… haha!

the most current photo was the one i took in Glambert! haha… 3 of us! =) So, I’m still very excited on our every outing though!!!!

look at how much we’ve changed… (compare the one where 5 of us together in Pangkor and the the recent ones below it… )

ViVa ALO! muahahahahha!!

A quick flashback on my past. =)

YEap, i’m happy…even now and then. =)

Firecrackers everywhere. Happy festive! and me.. happy studying!!! I’m going full blast, to compensate back the time i’ve used for my quiet moment. =)

tata!

*wink*

~~and i still can’t believe that i’ve changed so much……lols!~~

story attempt: The day, i found you….

2010-11-05T02:36:00.001+08:00

this non friction stories goes like this….. (P.S: just a story.. my writing idea for the night, i am boring. yes. but yet, i hvn finish studying…. lols )

… I was hyperventilating, shivering, when i received a msg from XX that XX was crying, and had been emo the whole day and non productive at all..

I changed, open my door gate, quickly lock it, then i ran to XX’s place.. True enuf, XX was crying when the door was opened for me to enter. Without a trace, I grab XX and pull XX into my arms.. hugged as tight as possible to give the message that everything is going to be fine.

that was the longest hug i’ve ever experienced.. and i was so worried about XX and XX literally broke down in front of me.

Stress, is the disaster. yes, no one else can overcome stress at this very important period.

Holding XX as tight as possible still… hands all over, intercrossed each other... I feel like i’m engulfing XX’s entire body.. as XX kept shedding tears on my shoulder.

I talked to XX, letting know that we are going to go through this together.. yeah, I will, and i always mean what i say.

We were at the door.. for almost 5-10minutes.. static, immobile…

I grabbed XX as tight as possible… sobbing continues….. till… it slows down…………

I can feel the fear that XX was having… how terrified XX felt. I was so heartbroken… and sad…

I try to stay strong, though i’m scared of what XX is afraid of.

Spent my evening there with XX till the waves of emotions subsides. I went off.

I am still putting my fingers crossed that everything is going to be fine for both of us.

Somehow, when XX texted me that XX felt a lot more better, i was so relieved. “*hugs*” , this is what XX included in the text.

Storms are raging into our life, yeah.. practically, we need to be as still as a stone to undergo the stress that is raging in. Like any others, we’re just normal people, who wants to excel so badly.. yet, fear is the key word, the barrier…

I realize, first step, is to start working your fear. Start overcoming your fear… by taking the first act.. which is to accept it, and work it out. Somehow, life is not just about this moment.. It will all be a part of flash back memories… but i’m sure, it’ll be bitter, meaningful, and sweet.

XX somehow is still struggling.. but this time, its different, cuz we both knw we had each other.. to support each other.

Life… goes…. on.

Be stronger each day. Melancholy is just a moment, not forever. I will move on. I will stay still, i will be strong. I told XX, “u knw how to get me when u needed comfort, we’ll get through this altogether, i promise.”

XX…. smiled. The last goodbye hug was more than just a message that she is fine, and she’ll stand up on her feet again.

Confidence, fill us.

So, my stupid attempt for this story… kinda good idea huh? to put myself in a situation.. not as exotic as i thought. hahahahaha!!!!

i was really bored and sleepy… but yet, i still need to hold on till i’m constipated of info. hahahahah!

owh yeah, my FB status just now : “ I’m going to transform into Lady GaGaH next Saturday… cuz i’m going to …. POKE POKE POKE POKE HER FACE, POKE POKE POKE HER FACE!!!”

Heil Hitler! Nail the paper!! *full of confidence*”

Anyone wants to join the GaGaH team?!?! LOLs..

The power of love.. is so strong…

agree? I feel love for the whole day….. =)

JaeCee! thanks for the confidence! you are GREAT!!!! Love You!!!!

till then!!!!!

nites peepsie!

if XX were not virtual, i would like to dedicate this song to XX, with a msg “Baby, smile. =)”

enjoy, TAylor Swift latest album <speak now 2010>, i have affection to all songs, but.. this song’s melody is really really good!! nice! it caught my attention today!

enjoy <SPARKS FLY>, by Taylor Swift! by the way, her album is SUPERB!!! very lovely!!! =) MUST LISTEN TO ALL SONGS!!!! cuz i just did!

u can expect better songs compared to her last album, <FEarless>. =) for sure!

constipation

2010-11-04T12:13:00.001+08:00

Look at the title, I’m in the mood to write about “Constipation” today.

I knw i knw, the freaking GastroIntestinal and Pharmacotherapy is over, but everytime when i sit on the toilet bowl, trying to make way for my “pooh”, this word “ constipation” always come to my mind and its definition will come subconsciously into my mind.

Constipation is defined as passing LESS THAN 3 STOOLS PER WEEK (women), LESS THAN 5 STOOLS PER WEEK (Men), Straining at 25% of the time, 2 or less stools per day, and Straining at defecation, 1 or less stool per day with minimal effort.

Screw me, yeah, i still can rmber the definition CLEARLY!!!! cuz its always happen to me. hahahaha!!!

I am constipated, physically and mentally.

Yeah, how to not expect constipation when you have your meals so irregularly?!?! Lunch at 2 plus pm, dinner at 9 plus pm?!? then sometimes supper at 3am, sometimes even no dinner..

so, probably my GIT has not enuf load to produce the urge to defecate.

Speaking about constipation mentally… sigh…

I slept at almost 5am this morning… with a “constipated” condition. Why i say so?

I was trying hard to memorize and write out whatever that i’ve been memorizing… and it turns out.. something like “1 or less stool per day with minimal effort”. yeah, just change the stool to InFO! hahaha!!

Tiring… really tiring…

anyway, I’m still going full blast today! =) yeah, after i’ve settled my car, I’m going to sit and create BUTT GANGRENE again!!! I’ve had enuf of procrastination yesterday!! =)

Owh, I can’t wait for 2mr’s Ellen Degeneres show!! Portia Degeneres is going to be there! to promote her new book <Unbearable lightness"> . I watched her talk show on The Oprah, where she revealed her secrets and everything about her… It was touching… =)

See, i’ve always like Ellen and Portia. =) for who they are. What a lovely couple.

ok, I’m still constipated now, cuz the urge doesnt come… yeah, the defecation urge. Well, I guess, I’m going out to relax a couple of hours, get myself some good food.. (probably), then come back and warm the chair again!!!!!

Till then, happy Diwali peepsie! =)

ciao!

good thing, bad thing. =)

2010-11-03T13:22:00.001+08:00

when good things come to you, is it possible that bad things will come after all the good things happen??

well, i do hope that this is not true. Of course everyone wants good things to happen to them, right??

i’m saying this because all these while, whenever good things that happens to me, bad things will surely come along after it. haha! call me superstitious! I hope i am not!!!

anyhow, this is just a conscious thingy where ppl realize what is happening and co-incidently bad things happened after good things go. So, no big deal aite? we ought to prepare to face any circumstances of life, regardless what happens next, good or bad. We cannot control what’s coming, but we can control and listen to our inner voice in how to act to solve the current problem.

Things are so much different for me now. I think God really bless me with such broken road to knw that things are great ahead.

Whatever it is, i will face it confidently!!!!!

Good to say, so far, my paper was good. At least i have the confidence to answer it. I’m satisfied so far. Like mummy always say after i msg her after every paper:" “ another stone down…”

haha!! mum, I’m more worried about the freaking MArketing subject!!! lols!!!

anyway, I’m going to do my very very best in everything!!!!!

You guys too! Gambate!!! ga yao!!

Later, will be stuffing myself with notes again…. haha!

parents are going down to JB 2mr. Well, I guess its for deepavali celebration. Deepavali!! can u imagine my deepavali here without indian food!! haha! i do hope BABA serves free food on that day…. LOLs!!!!

by the way, when is the real date for Deepavali?!? i have totally lost track on it….

Erm…. right now, Katy Perry is yelling “TGIF” AGAIN!!! hahahah!! i love her songs so much!! I’ve been watching her on Ellen DeGeneres show! she is just awesome! like everyone said, Russel Brand is a lucky guy! hehehehe….

Time to nap a while, i hope i can sleep.. cuz i’ve just taken a cup of high concentrated oats with warm water. So, probably if i sleep now, it will cause gastric reflux.

get prepared! buckle up!

you can do it as long as u have faith!

and… good preparation involves good use of today!!!

ciao peepz!!!

this is a lovely song!! =P

it caught my attention today!!!! :-)

enjoy! <The one that got away>, by KAty Perry.

NapZzzZZzz….

Penang Tau Sar PEah and Chocolates!! =)

2010-11-02T19:42:00.001+08:00

well.. it doesnt mean that i’ve finished my studies when u see this post!!

its because i’m suffocating! butt pain! sat from morning 7am till now!! and i’m going to sit til i’m sleepy!

So, let me share something today… well, i still cannot afford to blog about what’s on my mind, but.. sharing these will also do, for today.

Tau SAh Peah from Him Heang!! thanks to Tri!!! I’m so loving it!!! hahahaha!!! this is the traditional one from Him Heang. Everytime Tri goes back to Penang, she’ll sure get me some Tau Sa Peah. LOLs!!! she knows i love Tau SAr Peah!! –=)

yeah, that’s my bfast! =)

so, lets come to another good one, Josh brought it today..

Chocolates from AMERICA!!! yeah, from the States!!! =)

dun underestimate the chocolates!! all of them tastes good!!! see the Kit Kat packaging? its so different!!!

and mind me, the dark chocolate from HerShey is very nice! Yummy-licious!

So, that’s my snack for my tea break.

nah, something to munch on just now, cuz i was too bored… studying.. cuz its NEVER-ENDING!!!!!!!!!

BAsically, that’s my life for 24/7 during May and November. haha!

So, i gotto go!

that’s all for today… sorry for the so short session. Just updating to let all of you knw that my butt is still intact with me.. although it is in a stage of forming gangrene due to lack of oxygen supply! (thanks to long hours of sitting!) and.. i can’t feel my butt now……… ha!

BAck to IBS, Constipation, Diarrhea.. GERD, PUD.. and STRUCTURES! lols…. my architect lifestyle is never ending.. I’ve been drawing since… last week. =_=”

Ciao peeps! stay tune for 2mr!!! =)

guys, prayers in need here!! =P

ta!

1 down! happy!

2010-11-02T01:35:00.001+08:00

this is a neat version of my desk!!! hahaha!!! thanks to yesterday’s subject!!! I can officially close it and put it in my drawer!!! the thick stack of notes!

can u see the thickness of the notes?!?!? this is the compressed version…. now u understand why i need 1 week to study this subject…….

u knw, to STORE everything in my mind is not easy…… haha!!!

So, i officially announce that i’m not going to sleep today! cuz… i got lots more to catch up.

Blogging just to keep me awake and post what i wanted to. =)

Today, its going to be a new day. Btw, my brain is still expanding its capacity to memorize the next subject 2mr, Wednesday. =)

All can do is, Thanks to JC. He helped me through hard times. =)

I am going back to my notes!!!!

ciao ppl!!!

Pray for me instead!!!!!! =P

I will update again about some of the issues i’m having on my mind now if i have the time 2mr!!! means, if i get to finish my studies earlier, i’ll write! =)

till then, till u read again 2mr!! =) ciao!

Thanks! –Katy Perry--

2010-10-31T14:21:00.001+08:00

see, someone probed me to write.

DumbOnion says a billion thanks to the Pumpkin who only wished DumbOnion good luck UNTIL MID NOVEMBER ONLY! hahaha. Not sure whether the P.S was for DumbOnion, but if it is… yeah, DumbOnion does. =)

eventhough the message above saves her whole half of the month of sending “All the best” text messages to me, it still feels sweet and good! hahahaha!!! by the way, who on earth wishes ppl good luck and all the best for half of the month only?!?!?!?! LOLS!!!!

So, I’m currently giving out my full blast of brain capacity and focus on what’s coming out 2mr. Not spotting questions, but trying to focus on what i can really score.

I woke up with Katy Perry today. Checked my twitter and Didi Benami posted that she’d watched Katy Perry’s Firework video. Well, I’ve posted the link on my fB, its good! and great lyrics!! =) I love the idea of igniting fireworks on our own body…. haha!! nah, everyone can be a firework. Break free! =)

Had my TLC session with muh girls yesterday. WEll, end up..

end call=encore
Toil=toy
Material=bacteria

this is what happens when there’s a communication breakdown and 5 seconds lag in every sentence and every word we speak.

So, the lesson yesterday was..

“We are to be MASTER over work, not a SLAVE to our work.
and.... Work with the right attitude”

I really love this. Many of the times, we have become the slave of our own work, we work because we have to and we forgot that we work because there will sure be a blessing of fruitfulness in the things that we do.

As long as we work hard, we can expect a good outcome from it. Most importantly, work with the right attitude.

Tht’s why, we should really be a Master in everything we do, not a SLAVE in what we do.

For those who are studying or working, life is like a rollercoaster huh? cuz we wont knw what will happen next, and we dunno how steep, how deep is the next curve is going to be..

Eventhough its unpredictable, we ought to grab whatever we’re doing. I mean, grab still.

I was so inspired yesterday!!! tht’s why, I’m going to MASTER everything that i’m doing! and.. not to be a SLAVE to whatever that i’m undergoing.

Work can be so much fun if u’re the MAster of the game. Rmber, u control it. not being controlled by it. =)

Time to ciao.

Like what Pamelo call me.. “an architect”. Cuz i was drawing freaking chemical structures when i was texting with him.

so, this “architect” has to start drawing her chemical structures now!!! Plan to score on these structures… haha… I suck in arts, but.. structure, Mmm…. hope that i can grasp it! =)

2mr 10am it is!!

To all, Master your work! =)

Loves.

owh, special thanks to “Pig Mama” Quah Suk Yen for her sweet msg.

another thanks to AL.. for the lovely msg. I’m glad too.

*loves*

still, i cant resist myself to share…. hahaha!

to save all ur troubles to search for this vid..

and yeah, Katy Perry’s album is awesome! one word--> “FAntastica!”

There’s a song call “Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F)” in her album, can u imagine? while i’m studying here, Katy Perry is yelling: “TGIF! TGIF! TGIF! TGIF!” hahaha!

its like…. i’m studying , and she’s yelling “TGIF”.. and its not even close to Friday !!! hahahaha!!!

TA!

pray for muah! =P

Maroon 5, and UH HUh HER.

2010-10-30T19:55:00.001+08:00

I’m so tired and bored! getting myself prepared for the war is tiring…

I slept at 5am this morning, woke up at 10am.. then slept again at 2 plus, woke up at 4plus pm.

Well, now… waiting for dinner time. While studying and waiting, so i’ve decided to write something to kill mu boredom. I wanna break free for a few hours… Saturday… gah, let me sleep!

haha!!!

So, Today, I’m feeling fresh now.. I guess, i wont be sleeping early today too. I’m taking things at my own pace. =)

Owh yeah, speaking about album introduction, i’ve listened to Maroon 5 <hands all over> album the whole day. =)

Let me tell you, it strikes me… cuz its completely different mood compared to The Script, yesterday! hahahahah!!

Maroon 5 is so.. American! The Script is very Irish! hahahaha!!!

Anyway, Maroon 5’s album, not bad… no songs caught my attention during the first 2 rounds i listened to it. Anyway, besides <Misery>, which everyone knows… there’s a couple a songs that i like!!!!

this particular one caught my attention when i paused my study..

No Curtain CAll – Maroon 5

Click here for the lyrics!

This one.. as usual, love the melody!!! hahaha!!

There’s a couple of nice songs from this album, but.. i don’t think its gonna be their Radio Hits. hehe.. that’s me, i always like songs that are not POP HITS on Radio.

Maroon 5 <Hands all over>, Worth listening!

Another complete different style from what i’ve been hearing yesterday, very lovely…. its all about love. =)

i personally love <The Last Chance> , <Never gonna leave this bed (acoustic) >, <If i ain’t got you (Live)> , <crazy little thing call love (live> , <The air that i breath>. The latter one, i love the lyrics… =)

So, this album is really worth to listen.. but mind me, u need to listen to a couple of times before you can grab the melody and love the songs… like what i did. hahahaha!!! So, the best is.. listen to it while studying (if u can bear with voices and notes), or listen to it while u’re doing your reports!!!

Here i share another hippy song, < Last Chance> (kindly ignore the last part where a woman is singing) haha!

click here for lyrics

enjoy the songs yeah!!!

wah, feel like i’m promoting songs….

hahahaha!!

i can’t wait for Uh Huh Her’s new album! yeap,

here they are…

these are the girls that i’m crazie for! Left: Camila, Right: Leisha

so, their songs are really awesome!! very Indie. I love Indie.. seriously… haha!! cuz Indie pops bring me to another state of mind.. means another level. So far, non of the pop songs can do that to me… =)

here is their new single, <same high> . This is the only full version i found on the tube. =)

this is the song, which i first listen, i’ve loved it. Erm, basically, their previous albums, i love it when i listen to it FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!! Something like Lambert. hahaha!!! and it never gets tired on my ears!!! =P

Fyi, CAmila was the keyboardist for Adam Lambert during his Glamnation tour! i was so happy to see Camila play in Glamnation, she is a talented girl!

<same high> is highly recommended by me, i’m an Indie pop lover…

so, how was the song? cool? it definitely brings me to another dimension… =)

another one, my all time fav from UHH, <Common Reaction>, guess i’ve introduced this before a few years back. This is the song, that opens my eyes to possibility of dimensions that music can create. So different from all the Pops we listened on the radio.

this is the acoustic version they performed live. =)

this version is greatly improvised by CAmila. I love Leisha’s voice too!So different from the album version!!! If u wanna listen to their album version, watch it on youtube. =) I just find that listening to the girl’s real voice is “REAL”.. just enjoy the song and their voice.. There’s another performance version, but i just love the idea of singing with just a guitar.. without her keyboard. =)

“how can you feel when you’re wounded like that dear? don’t mind its a common reaction…”

So, i really love Uh Huh Her.. and too bad, their albums are not sold in Malaysia.. and it took me very long to get their songs. haha!!! Genuine music, written by both of them. =)

It gets me high.. listening to their songs. =)

ok, i guess, time for dinner!!! hehe…

Music really play a big part in my life…. haha!! besides Singing. =)

Messy me with The Script, and.. KLANG-aites! =P

2010-10-29T21:35:00.001+08:00

the reason i write so early is.. I’m bored.

So, i guess i’ll let you see my desk’s condition, after rotting on it for a week for this subject…

Looking at it… depressing right? but….. without such messy desk, i have no mood to study. Yeah, I’m weird, I need such messy desk to study. hahahhaa!!!

Today… I slept like a pig. I dunno what happened, when i woke up this morning, i felt tired.. probably its because of bad position while sleeping. Yeah, i slept with my notes on my hands, my phone beside me, my body position un-position to lie on my bed.. means, I wasnt sleeping with a good position… plus, with my lights on till 530am.

I woke up around 7 plus, closed my eyes consciously till 8am… waiting for my alarm to ring.

tht’s the reason why i feel tired… no good quality of sleep.

Well, I woke up and wash up, studied till 11am.

i can’t take it…. i’m sleepy.

immediately, i slept till 1230. haha!!! true enuf, I’m so fresh for study and i studied till NOW!

See? I pamper myself too much……. =)

i did not shift to my bed at all… hahaha!!!! u knw, when the drive to study comes, u’ll go full blast. =)

I’m contented, can’t wait for my brainstorm session later at night! won’t be sleeping early today…. cuz… I feel like writing non-stop. =) i mean, writing on my draft book non-stop. =)

Owh, let me introduce one good stuff… I dunno whether its considered good, but this is the one that accompanied me throughout the day!!!

The Script’s latest album, < Science and Faith >. Very Irish.. Yeah, as usual, very “The Script-like”. Its their style though.

I admit, non of the song actually caught my attention, but after listening to it more than 2 rounds, I started to get some of the song’s melodies into my head. =)

This album, its more to broken-hearted-theme. Its written from a man’s perspective. =)

Every word is easy to understand, straight forward. If u ask me to name which song is nice, i can’t. To me, all the songs are just equally not bad… =)

Anyhow, The Script is still as cool as they are!! Their lyrics and the song arrangement are just… great!

HAve a listen to < Science and Faith >. I am still not bored eventhough i’ve listened to it since 1pm. So, it’s only 10 tracks in this album… imagine how many times i’ve listened to it already??? Still grabbing on their lyrics without looking at the lyrics. =D hehe….

I think this album suits guys with broken hearts + alcohol lover. =)

track list

you won’t feel a thing
for the first time
nothing
science and faith
if you ever come back
long gone and moved on
dead man walking
This=love
walk away
exit wounds

All songs are equally good! =)

My next album…. haha… who knws what i feel like listening 2mr? I’m all for The Script today. =)

no anime today! hehehehehehe…..

I wanna say something, Klang-aites! I think we all have the same common thing in us, WE ARE SENSITIVE TO EXISTENCE OF GOOD FOOD!!!!

hahaha!! right?????

Just today, My lecturer pop a FB msg to me, asking me the good place for seafood!!! He knows that i’m from Klang because another lecturer of mine told him that i knw about good food in Klang. yeah!! i do knw! lols!!!

Klang is a big town, if u really explore, plenty of good food!! from morning till midnight!

So, what can i say? i’m so proud of being part of Klang’s residence. Klang-aites Hooray!

Now, i miss seafood….. haha!! Probably.. i will crave for bah kut teh soon?!? its been months since i touched PORK! HAHA!!

The Script is really the Script. Yeah, you can expect styles like “Breakeven” in this album. Anyway, “The man who can’t be moved” is still my fav!

Too bad, in their new album… they don’t sing like how they sing the 2 songs above. =(

off i go! brainstorm session,a.k.a writing session begins!

This=Love by The Script.

I love the lyrics of this song.

Melody wise, i think this one is not bad…

For the first time-The Script

I Like this song’s melody.. =)

Basically, every song’s melody is great!

enjoy!!! Great day ahead!!! =P

I’m gonna enjoy my night with The Script, and Writings! =)

just go buy or download their album lar! hahahaha!!! all the 10 songs are not bad!!!!!! I can’t be sharing all here! or u can listen it on YouTube!! and listen to their lyrics! =P

Ciao!!!!!

Till you read 2mr!!!

Muh feelings, and Matt CArdle vids.

2010-10-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

so, seeing me here, means i’m sick of switching position from my desk, to my bed.. my bed to my desk.

Thank God, the only thing that i did not do is SLEEP when i am on my bed!!!

Chatted with both my sampat accompany on FB.haha!! damn sampat, anyhow, it does a great job to keep me awake!

I think i pamper myself too much… i cannot study without sounds!!!!! and.. AL is right that i’m a Malaysian who wastes electricity every single day.

I’m listening to Japanese anime while studying. Without it, i cannot read a single thing!!!

how bad and how sad?!?! Well, i dont mind paying for electricity if it benefits me??! haha!!nah, this is really bad. =(

My studies, fine. So far so good.. =) still on my schedule.hehe.. i thought of Setapak Pan mee, thinking whether i should make another trip there before Monday… hahaha!!! (siao, just for the pan mee… =_=)

I miss rice, yet i don’t like eating it. I miss a proper meal. Probably, staying in this sweet 4-walls make me realize how life is so pathetic without good food around. =D

i’ve just recovered from sick. I dunno why this time, it takes a shorter time. The flu that i had, only last me for a few days. hehe…. i guess, thanks to JC?! right? If it wasnt because of the medications, i wouldnt have recovered so fast. Thank YOU!!!!

<Daphne in the Brilliant blue > is such a great Japanese anime! i cant get tired of watching it!! owh, i did not mention, i re-watched and replay the japanese anime that i’ve watched so that it keeps me studying.. and it keeps my eyes away. hahaha! well, anyway, regardless any anime, i will still listen to it only… =) erm….. but how come i still knw what’s happening when i’m only listening to it?!?!? LOLs!!!!

Watched a vid about BN-UMNO Titiwangsa . A stupid fanatic speaking about strategies to win the seats in Titiwangsa. Politics in Malaysia, I’m so damn disappointed with it. Talking about it just make me more miserable, thinking that “why am i here..”

We are all human. Please do respect us, chinese and indians as well because without us, Malaysia will not exist. Please do not talk-cock infront of everyone, especially media on stupid ideas on winning seats.. it ’ll just be the greatest joke ever. You’ve gained disrespect from the people, even from the Malays. I guess, If i were a Malay, i feel so shameful to have a leader speaking like an uneducated spoiled brat. Bite me! (another phrase for G-T-H) please put ur brain in an upright position, not ur backside. ~~Please talk, but not shit or fart through your mouth. You knw, shits are stinkie… and it smells like you.~~

Guess i’ve gone too rough. Sinned, and.. repent ppl! The problem with these ppl is they dun realize what they’ve done wrong, and what’s more about repent?! right?

showing objections is just like throwing candies to them. Meaningless.

its 10 plus pm. Today.. is contented. 2mr, will be contented as well.

… I’m waiting for Westlife’s new album.=) So as Josh Groban! and going to get myself a genuine copy of Linkin’ Park’s <A Thousand Suns>, Vick Teo’s latest album, and Serene Cheam’s latest album too!!!

see lar, so many entertainment for me. hahahahah!!!! =P

Time to go off! ciao!! gotto revise a bit before i hit to bed! XD

New Zealand ice cream buffet….. hahahaha!!! sounds cool! =)

nites peeps! great day ahead!

this is the only good music i’ve listened to. Owh, I’m following up with X factor, and this guy, MAtt Cardle, has a great talent in improvising songs into his own style. =)

this is the best version of “Baby One More time” ever!!!! =)

check this out, his version of “just the way you are”. Simply splendid. Simple and nice!!! =)

one of the best versions.

Enjoy. =)